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painfully quirky. i identify highly with bubbles from the powerpuff girls

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Why I look like somebody auntie 🧐

Anyway. Jesus is king.

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Magic Cat’s

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It’s him! the nut sack

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my gorgeous girl 💞

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Grateful for this mom bod that grew my child to be a healthy 8 pounds 😌

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Kind of feel like tumblr might have a resurgence now that the late 2000s / early 2010s are making a comeback. Well they haven't made a full comeback but I predict they will in the next 2 years.

Just posting so I could say I was ahead of the ball 💅

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Homemade matcha with oat milk and sweet cream. Better than the coffee shops!

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Oh, how I love being a woman! ♡♡

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My girl my girl my girl my girrrrrl 🥰

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My birth story

On November 25, 2023 at 1:50am my water broke. It was pretty much exactly how it looks in the movies. Just a giant gush of water. Actually it was a little more intense than the movies because the water just kept coming out for a good 5 minutes. Within 20 minutes my contractions came fast and felt very intense. I started to labor on the birth ball and had my husband call my midwife and my doula. My doula came to the house and helped my husband get ready to go the the birthing center. At this point the contractions were frequent but I could still talk through them. That didn't last long. By the time we got to the birth center, my contractions were super intense and about 2 to 3 minutes apart. I thought because they were so close together that I would be giving birth soon. Boy was I wrong. My midwife checked my cervix and I was only 3cm dilated. "That's okay!" I thought. I could progress super quickly, it happens all the time. Wrong. I labored for 15 more hours and by the time my midwife checked me again, I had only progressed 1cm. My midwife told me they had to transfer me to a hospital because it had been too long since my water broke and I could be at risk for infection. My heart broke. The birth I wanted seemed to be slipping away from me. I opted to go to a hospital about an hour away because the care would be better than in the local hospital. Well 20 minutes into our drive back home to switch to a roomier vehicle, my pain got way worse and I knew I wanted to get to an epidural ASAP. So I told my husband and doula that I wanted to go to the local hospital. So we turned around immediately and went there. I got it and the pain is just getting worse and worse. It seems like forever waiting for the anesthesiologist to come in. When he finally comes in and gives me the epidural I get about 10 minutes of relief before they start flipping me over a bunch of times and asking me questions, having me sign things. 3 minutes later they are wheeling me into the operating room because my baby's heart rate dropped. All I can think is "is my baby going to die?" "Am I going to die?" I asked my husband to pray for me and then I started saying the Jesus Prayer over and over again in my head. I kept telling myself that God has me, and he will not let my baby die. And he didn't. My baby was born a beautiful 8 pounds even on November 25th at 8:11pm.

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Some thoughts

I'm 2 weeks away from being someone's mother

I think about Three's Company like WAY too much

I think I've lost my raunchy sense of humor as I've started to enter into motherhood

37 weeks and 5 days pregnant

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Pregnant af, tired, and in pain.

But my husband is so sweet and supportive. Could not ask for a better birth partner. He knows me probably as well as he knows himself and he very often says the exact thing I need to hear. Needed to document this while I had it on my mind.

Actually I'm gonna write this out now and schedule it to post on our anniversary. Why? Idk. I'm weird.

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