ā mitski, lana, aurora, cas, billie, tv girl, tom odell, the nbhd, lil peep, mazzy star
ā nana, skins, bojack horseman, wir kinder vom bahnhof zoo, shameless, blue period, modern family, atypical, thirteen, girl interrupted, mid90s, little miss sunshine <3
ā the opposite of butterfly hunting, normal people, blood of eden, twilight, solitaire, 22 bahnen/windstƤrke 17, love letters to the dead, tvd (original book), harry potter ofc
ā fanfiction and ao3
ā acnh, dti, genshin impact, hogwarts legacy
ā i relate to luna lovegood, cassie ainsworth, lip gallagher, hatchi, allison sekemoto lol
Ok guys I have to tell you what got me back on track.
My boyfriends brother has a new girlfriend and shes like super triggering. I heard her throw up in the bathroom multiple times and i feel super sorry for her, but I cant stop thinking about how shes gotten thinner than me. This summer i think she started restricting very badly, she was at my boyfriends for 2 months and I think she only ate in the evening and even then just super little. So naturally i felt like a disgusting pig besides her and i cant stop thinking about how shes visibly thinner and now that i dont see her until christmas shell eventually get even skinnier and i cant bare the thought of showing up fat.
what they don't tell you about making friends is you gotta be a lil annoying. you gotta push past the fear of "what if they don't want to talk to me" and simply ask someone how their day is going, send a meme. you cannot connect to people if you're both just awkwardly waiting for the other to start.
although I don't know how, the last week has been an ongoing binge streak so I think I should have lost lots of progress by now. I'll really have to lock in next week again!