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[kingkyliezzzle]

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this past year I really tried. I asked for help. I talked to people. but, I just can’t anymore. I have no faith. I don’t think i will ever get better. it is so much pain, so many traumatic experiences. I have been like this since I was so young. too young. I dropped out of high school right before summer, I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t function outside my bedroom. I am so sick and tired of this life

[kingkyliezzzle]

Thank you for showing me that it’s possible to find true happiness again. Thank you for everything I learned while you were hurting me.

I’ve never loved a human like I love you.

Now I’m gone.

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2022 was supposed to be my year

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all I want is to sleep cuz I can’t stop thinking about him why am I so in love with him please stop

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I always said - after my last boyfriend broke me, I’m never gonna let anyone come close too me anymore.

well, I did.

and I was right, I shouldn’t have done it.

The last few months, I really thought that I was wrong. I thought this was it. I finally found the one, the one who makes me feel safe and loved.

The morning I realized he was the reason I got out of bed everyday was the morning I got scared. Because I knew, at that point, I’m gonna end up broken again. That was the morning I didn’t get out of bed. The morning where I fell into this dark hole again. The dark hole where I can’t eat, sleep or laugh. Where I realize- over and over, I don’t belong here. I never did.

[kingkyliezzzle]

It is so sad to not have any friends.

I’m sad.

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when I wake up i’m afraid

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[kingkyliezzzle]

[kingkyliezzzle]

I need too get out this fucking anger and pain I keep carry around. I just wish I could let it all out to someone but I can’t because this anxiety is holding me back at everything.

[kingkyliezzzle]

if I never wake up maybe then I’ll be okay