No Worries

If you know me, no you don’t.

[sailor-mars-stars]

can I kill myself not like permanently just like a day to make a statement on how upset I am

[kingssissad]

It’s too damn hot and my mental health is hanging by a thread because of it. So naturally? Car low on coolant.

[kingssissad]

Got laid off.

[kingssissad]

It’s almost 4am, so first mistake.

I told myself I’d deep clean our apartment while she’s gone. I figured I’d just do it when I have the energy and when I feel up to it.

So why am I so angry? Why am I so sad?

I truly never thought I would be alive this long. And if I *had* to be alive, this is the best possible scenario for me. A wonderful partner who I love, a wedding on the horizon, a stable-ish job that I enjoy well enough…

I should never have lived this long. I was not built for life. I was not built to exist. I was never built to continue, to endure, to persist. Life is a prison and I have been given a long, beautiful, fruitful sentence.

Why can’t I be grateful for life? Why can’t I be grateful for existing? Why can’t I just simply be grateful for life and what it’s given me? The opportunities, the forgiveness, the second, third, fourth, fifth chances? Why can’t I be happy? What’s wrong with me?

[st-a-y]

[dispiritedfae]

Have you ever typed a message but halfway through you think “you know what, they don't even care” and deleted it.

[inkzbat]

Something in me got BROKEN and no MATTER how HARD I try I CAN’T fix it.

[becherdireinen]

to be so understanding and never understood is draining.

[inkzbat]

I’m literally everyone’s side friend, I’m just here when no one else is.

[rainydays]

Lonely nights.

[dispiritedfae]

Hey sorry i didnt text back, ive been having a bad day since i was about 9

[torisdietlemoonade]

I've probably said this before, but I need a lobotomy.

[lostdeepindarkthoughts]

[the-suicide-effect]

Things are getting worse and I can't tell anyone

[becherdireinen]

i wanna mute my overthinking.

[kingssissad]

It’d be crazy to feel like a priority

[becherdireinen]

that empty feeling when i go home and realize there's no one waiting to hear about my day, no one asking how i've been, what happened throughout my day or how tired i am.