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BTS MASTERLIST

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IN THE MOOD (actor!seokjin x wife!reader)

— a 1940′s inspired fic where famous Hollywood actor Seokjin has come back from the war and all he can think about is getting his cute little wife pregnant.

    ›› read here

    *part of the rewind series

HEAVY SUGAR (gangster!yoongi x flapper!reader)

— a 1920′s inspired fic where, try as you might, you just couldn’t ignore the dark and enigmatic gangster whose eyes lingered on you from across the room.

    ›› read here

    *part of the rewind series

HOT ROD (greaser!hoseok x reader)

— a 1950′s inspired fic where greaser hoseok can’t keep his eyes, or hands, off the cute new waitress at his and his boys’ favorite diner.

    ›› read here

    *part of the rewind series

LITTLE ONE (vampire!namjoon x reader)

— It’s a routine outing– Namjoon is careful and leaves no tracks. It was a regular feeding for him. Except for one small irregularity.

    ›› chapters: being rewritten!

SOLILOQUY (angel!jimin x reader)

— Jimin is an angel and you are painfully human, completely oblivious to his existence and how he had somehow fallen deeply and foolishly in love with you.

    ›› read here

    *questions? this post might help!

    **part of the tempting series

NOVOCAINE (punk!jimin x reader)

— Going home was hard – painful even. But falling back in love with Jimin, the boy you left behind? Downright gut-wrenching.

   ›› chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 (final).

TEMPTING (demon!tae x angel!reader) 

— Y/N is an angel who steers clear of the seven deadly sins, especially lust. Unluckily for her, Taehyung just so happens to be the very embodiment of sin. Especially lust. 

    ›› chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 09 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 (final).

    *part of the tempting series

TOO TEMPTING (ON HIATUS)

— sequel to “tempting”

    ›› chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 +

    *part of the tempting series

WATERLOO (artist!tae x student!reader)

— Taehyung is a pessimistic art prodigy who doesn’t believe in love. You are an art student studying in Paris, who sees the world through rose-colored lenses. This is your love story.

    ›› read here

CAMELLIA (prince!tae x herbalist!reader)

— Prince Taehyung comes to find out that the castle has got a new tea girl, and man is she cute.

    ›› chapters: 01 | 02

GROOVY (tae x childhood friend!reader)

— Even in the 70s, it goes without saying that you shouldn’t have feelings for your best friend’s little sister. 

    ›› chapters: 01 | 02 (final).

    *part of the rewind series

JUST FRIENDS (bestfriend!jungkook x reader)

— The transition from best friends to best friends with benefits is never easy, especially when there’s a daddy kink involved.

    ›› chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 (final). 

ARACHNE-BOY (spiderman!jungkook x reader)

— How do you tell your best friend that the reason you can’t hang out with her is because you’re too busy trying to save Long Island?

    ›› read here

BITCHIN’ (fratboy!jungkook x reader)

— The 80s were a time of choices. Which perm was right for you? What color neon would you wear next? None of these choices, however, were more questionable than a certain deal you made with Jeon Jungkook.

   ›› chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 | 04 | 05 | 06 | 07 | 08 | 09 | 10 (final).

   ›› epilogue

   *part of the rewind series

FLESH & BLOOD (zombie!jungkook x reader)

— Maybe two beating hearts aren’t always required when it comes to love.

   ›› chapters: 01 | 02 | 03 (final).

KNOT TODAY (alpha!jungkook x omega!reader)

— When your first heat approaches and you are left partnerless, who better to turn to than your alpha roommate that you’ve spent the better half of your life hiding your feelings for?

   ›› read here

MILKIN’ DAYS (cowboy!jungkook x fem!OC)

—When the charming but mysterious cowboy Jungkook approaches you, you are positively smitten, drawn to him like a horse to a fresh bucket of feed. Little did you know, however, what dark secret he kept hidden behind those barn doors.

  ›› read here

   *collab with multiple authors

MOST UNDESIRABLE (lord!jungkook x lady!OC)

—Engagement is on the forefront of all of Regency London's young ladies' minds. All except for yours, of course– the Queen's niece who a certain notorious author has named the Ton's most undesirable.

 ›› read here || fan art

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The joy of fanfic or the trauma of discord, rose we're always gonna be here for you plus I'm INVESTED in YOU I ain't going anywhere ever you'll find me coming to reread bitchin' when I'm fifty and finding you have some tea to share and I'll be just as invested!!

AND WHEN I CRY!!!!!!!! ur so sweetie :(( BC TRUST IMMA BE FIFTY AND BE LIKE yall aren't going to believeeeeeee what just went down at bingo club ..... LMFAOFOAOF

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ok guys enough time has passed that I am ready to tell my traumatizing stray kids story but today is homework day so I will share it tomorrow but expect a fat text post about it

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STORY TIME: i was discord friends with bangchan for like five months

i am just going to tell u this story as if u were me going thru this and finding things out in real time. OKAY, so in like September of 2025 i joined a perfume discord because I love perfume and didn't have any friends as into it as I was. For the sake of basic respect that I have for her that she did not have for me, I won't dox her. She actually, fun fact, has been doxxed before but we'll get back to that!!! I'll be referring to her by the pseudonym Evil, for a reason that will soon become clear. Evil, ironically, had done a really nice thing for me. I got scammed at target and she actually offered me money to make up for. I refused, of course, but in my head I was like wow what a sweet girl. In this discord, I happened to be looking at the vent channel, and she this same girl going off about her ex-employer and mentioned that it's a Kpop company she worked for. As a retired bts fangirl, naturally i perked the fuck up bc tea ????? i knew the girl had mentioned living in South Korea with her boyfriend (she was actually made a mod bc she operated on a different time zone than most in the chat). It was a small Discord server, and we basically got it out of her that she used to work for jyp

The TDLR she gave me was that she was a dancer with a background in ballet, and she was living in England when her boss asked her if she wanted to come to Paris to help work an event. The event was Lollapalooza. She says that she is made to work with the choreo team for a JYP group (she says she was in charge of like... safety? idfk). Imma be real chat, I am not tuned in on the JYP verse, but I tell her oh I really liked ITZY at one point, and she's like oh the itzy girls are so nice, that working at a Korean company could be really lonely, but the itzy girls would always say hi to her, and lia had even remembered that Evil was celiac or smthn. And that her boyfriend was like childhood friends with another ITZY girl. So obviously at this point I'm like bro what r the odds? Ain't no way..... Time goes on. kpop naturally gets mentioned again because some Discord members liked kpop and Evil kind of pops up in convo again because she rly does NOT rock with the K-pop industry like she really had problems with jyp and quote "would burn the building down" if she could. anyway Evil and I start dming, getting to know each other, sending pics, becoming discord friends u know the vibe. So I started asking about how she came to live in Korea. basically she says its bc of her boyfriend. She says the day she landed in Paris, she ended up sleeping with one of her coworkers (they took each other's virginities), and "because Korean men move fast," she basically ended up moving to Korea and got a workers' visa, and how she was actually stressed bc her visa was ending. She was currently unemployed bc of a back injury (she had no desire to go back to jyp) and that basically if she doesnt marry her boyfriend no leasing apartment will rent an apartment to her or something idfk. one day i am scrolling thru the server after like a week of inactivity, and i see some user named Chris who was talking in the server who is interacting with Evil. Evil's boyfriend is on the server, but basically only ever sends an occasional emoji, and his name is literally "evil's boyfriend," so I'm like ??? Who tf is Chris? basically from what I gathered from the convo between Chris and the like eight other random ppl in the serve who happened to talk to him, he met Evil in Paris and also worked at jyp and the two of them became friends because he spoke English. I keep scrolling. Later, I see him bonding over Australia with another random Discord user in the server who happened to also be Australian. SO TO RECAP: this dude joined the server thru Evil. He was a guy from Australia, working in korea and his name was Chris. Yeah. YEAAHHHHHH. (Story not done)

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OKAY IM BACK im pretty sure I deadass ask in #general-chat like chris r u in the idol industry???? and hes like uh yeah. mind u everyone else in the chat is like oo top notes oo penhaligons. LMFAOOO NO ONE GAVE A FUCK so im like ok bro lemme just ask u a question if ur legit an idol im DYING to pick at ur brain PLEASSEEEE so he lets me grill him a little about like the ugly parts of the industry and im just FASCINATED CUZ WTF. he ends up adding me as a friend and is like "honestly u can message me whenever im busy a lot but if i have time ill get back to u."

chat

this was it. I WAS INNNNNNN !!!!!!!

him and i would go back and forth i am in his fucking brain folds, he is on my arm lounge chair, i have on a lab coat and am taking notes. He surprisingly opened up to me about the trauma of being an idol, his relationship with his family, he was again surprisingly honest and easy to talk to. We messaged for no joke, two hours. we talk about pokemon, we talked about genshin impact, we talk about dating, we talked about his experience as a foreigner in korea, we talked about being adults in our late twenties. I leave the convo like man what a world i hope discord user chris is okay BECAUSE CHAT LMFAOOOO AM I REALLY SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE THIS BANGCHAN PLSSSS but I'll do anything for the plot !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't really have a plan, like I really don't be rocking with stray kids like that, nothing personal thats just not a group I follow. I only know Bangchan from random viral TikTok videos. Anyway christopher loose lips apparently did not know i did not know WHO Evil's boyfriend was, and calls him by the name Hyunjin

YOU GUYS LMFAOAOOOOOAOAOAOOAOAOAOAOAO THERE IS NO WAY

So I'm like mmm i dont think I was supposed to know who Evil's dating. and he was like "oh what I thought everyone in the server knew i thought Evil sent a link to a server of her friends." And I was like bro no we all barely know each other, this server is relatively new i got sent this link off Twitter LMFAO. anyway Chris is like "mate pls do not tell people about them, like on some real shit, Evil was doxxed by her previous friend, she's just now gotten her head back up." and so I'm like yeah, chill im no snitch, and he's like "good. i dont mean to sound like a dick im trusting u not to do the wrong thing, but we can and have gone the lawyer way."

YALL????????

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So from there began my friendship with Chris and Evil. We all got really close to the point that we just made a groupchat for us three, and everything was cool and normal. We'd all send pictures, occasional selfies, food pics, and we watched the 50 shades series together over Discord. Just ur usualy discord friendship stuff.

Evil was fundamentally unhappy with her life (chronically ill, away from home, unemployed), so I spent a lot of time counseling her and keeping her company. I would hang out with my irls, and my friends would send her voice notes and try to include her despite them not having Discord themselves. I told my friends about Chris and Evil and mentioned Chris was an idol, but theyre so far removed from that world that everyone just knew Chris as my friend from Discord. And he was. Chris would message me fairly often, and I knew about his ex-flings, about his skz brothers, his insecurities, EVERYTHING. He would text me at like 6am KST like "bro im so tired kms i dont want to go to work today" and he'd just send updates through out the day like "ok vocal lessons over dance lessons over, lunch time, im at my home studio rn bored did u hear about the new genshin leak what r u doing today" I mean it was the most normal??? friendship. He was my loser friend Chris, who was bitchless and loved hot video game characters. He was roommates with one of the members, and whenever his roomie brought a girl home he'd hit me up and complain, even telling me the complicated lore behind Jeongin(?) and this girl.

I JUST REMEMBERED CHRIS EVEN ONCE SENT ME A PIC OF HIS INGROWN HAIR ONCE LMFOAOOO like that was just one of the homeboys y'all. It was clear from the start that Chris was a very lonely person; he didn't really like going out, and all the skz boys were grown and had their own lives/girlfriends now, and he just kind of felt... left behind. I brought up his friendship with Evil, and he said that the two were not as close as they once were, that this was the most they had spoken in a while. So ofc, I'm like oh???? Chat, this is where the plot thickens.

After persistent digging, I found out that when Evil first came to Paris, she had already been talking to Chris. He said when he was told about the new staff coming to help them for Lolla, he had stalked them all on socials, and because Evil had posted a couple of thirst traps on social media and he was attracted to her, he hit her up and they messaged like every day until Lolla, even sending each other pictures and shit. He said he thought they were on the same page, but when they hung out irl, and he tried to make a move, Evil seemed not into it, so nothing happened. And he found out later that she had slept with Hyunjin the day prior, and from then on out, it was clear Hyunjin was going to pursue Evil no matter what, so Chris just kind of backed off. SUDDENLY THE PIECES WERE FALLING INTO PLACE. Chris was a nice guy dont get me wrong, but when it came to Evil, he was.... a little out of line. In our groupchat, we'd be talking about video game characters, and Chris would pop up like EVIL DO U WANT THIS CHARACTER ILL SEND U MONEY U DESERVE HER !!!!!! Evil would always be like ummm no like if I wanted money, I'd ask my millionaire boyfriend, thanks tho king. And Chris' whole vibe would change.

Chris didn't have to tell me he still liked Evil. He didn't have to lol. And I'd try my best to encourage him to move forward, that he still was CHRISTOPHER CHAN!!!! MILLIONAIRE COOL GUY LEADER OF MEGA SUCCESSFUL GROUP. Yall i would glaze this guy; his self-esteem was so so low. I mean, he'd pick apart his looks, his personality, EVERYTHING. I would encourage him to go on dates, but he'd come back from them feeling worse because they never went well. He just had Evil on this pedestal that she was this displaced, innocent thing that needed to be protected, and when I confronted him about it and how it was potentially harmful to both him and her (benevolent sexism says hi), his only response was "well she deserves to be put on a pedestal!!!" i said bruhh. ok then. he was honestly rly pathetic. He said he was fine to die alone and that all he could do was hope that maybe in the next life he'd get another chance with her. LIKE SYBAUUUU IM SICK OF UUUU LMFAOOO!!!! Admittedly, Chis and I would fight pretty often (more than I do with my other friends), because I'd call him out on his shit constantly, and he just did NOT want to hear it and was happy being a pathetic loser man with zero self-respect. He would entertain women who clearly saw him only as Bang Chan, and it just irritated me!!!!!! Like ur 28, GET UP. I'm a fixer to my core, im ALWAYS the therapist friend, so I simply could not let that go. (also im mean to men but that's besides the point). So at this point, I'm giving therapy to both Chris and Evil and the perfume server is none the wiser. Enough people joined the server that Chris stopped being active in it, and I also just stopped poking my nose in it.

So you may be asking urself. Hey!! You're pretty involved in Evil's life!! You and her once were on discord call for 8 hours!!! You talk every day!!! Where is her boyfriend Hyunjin in all of this??? Well, he's about to enter my dms!!!!

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Hyunjin was..... a mysterious figure. If I'm honest, I didn't have a favorable opinion of him. I made it a point not to message him ever because Evil spoke about a few "friends" who seemed more interested in talking to him over her, and I barely liked the guy. I had several issues with the power dynamic in Evil and his relationship (I'll get more into that in the next installment). Chris introduced him as a very cold figure, but said it was a recent development, aka after Hyunjin realized Chris still had feelings for Evil. The reason they stopped hanging out so much was because of Hyunjin. I hated the idea that Evil's boyfriend was controlling who she could hang out with, especially when she was already financially and geographically dependent on him. But honestly, y'all... the way Chris talked about Evil like she was the only girl he could ever love or lust after (he quite literally told me he couldn't get hard at his hookups) I was like yea actually maybe keep her away from this creep LMFAOOO

I cannot explain to you how hot and cold Chris's relationship and I was. When I tell y'all we REALLY argued, there were several points where I was like ??? why am I even still friends with this guy??? for Evil's sake???

but then he'd do some nice shit like offer me money (WHICH I NEVER EVER TOOK BECAUSE THE GUILT WOULD CONSUME ME ALIVE) and I'd be like aweeee its my friend chris!!! loser chris who is in the same stage of life as me, on the same meds and likes the same games I do !!! but then he'd open his mouth and say some stupid shit like "am I the only one who doesn't understand the zendaya hype??" and I'd get irritated all over again like SHUT UP !!!!!!! I remember asking him once if he had any industry crushes and he came back from an award show and said he looked, but really didn't have one, and my eyes rolled so far back in my head like shut the fuck up i don't believe you. but he claimed he only liked thick blond white women, which ig made sense because thats what Evil was.

All throughout these months, I am constantly checking in with myself like... do I believe all this??? This is objectively ridiculous but there's no way to demand proof without sounding like a dick. especially when he'd send me little videos and pictures that felt so... real

So I just moved like all this was real. It had been months and every day the story stayed the same. Evil and I got closer and closer. I remember the Stray Kids concert was happening, and I was like "should I go?" because Chris was my friend!!! i wanna support!! even if the music wasn't necessarily my thing. I ran it by Evil and she was like “girl just ask Chris if he has any friends and family tickets left, that man does not need more money.” AND U KNOW WHAT I SHOULDVE!!! I DIDNT WANT TO BE A LOSER LEECH SO I DIDNT ugh curse my kind considerate soul !!!!!!!!! next update is where shit gets fucking real and WILL have trigger warnings so please read them!!!

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TW: unhealthy power dynamics, sexual coercion, pregnancy loss, racism, just ickiness all around

The reason I disliked Hyunjin was because Evil often complained about their sex life. She said that they had sex every single day and he didn't understand that sometimes she didn't want to because it hurt. She was even bleeding after sex several times. I told Evil straight up like, hey thats not okay. It doesn't matter if you enjoyed it, it doesn't matter if u love him, it doesn't matter if ur living on his dollar, you need to go see a doctor, and you need to literally HEAL. NO MORE SEX!!!!! Whenever I pushed back on her about this, she would always insist that she feels bad because Hyunjin is the sweetest man alive, he's just Korean and new to this whole relationship thing. Whatever. I tried my best to guide her through that and thankfully they seemed to reach a place where that was no longer a concern and there were much more reasonable expectations for sex now. And as many kind gestures Hyunjin did (constantly getting her new cartier jewelry, new expensive perfumes) as a woman, I could never forgive him.

Then the Moru Doll incident occurred.

Hyunjin and Evil went on a date where they walked around Seoul and found a little shop where you could make Moru Dolls. Evil sent me a photo of the two dolls they made (each made the other one in moru doll form). It was so stinkin' cute that the first thing I did was Instagram search moru dolls so I could learn more. Because Evil and I followed each other on instagram, a shop she followed popped up. I clicked the profile and low and behold, the shop had posted a picture of her and Hyunjin's moru dolls. The location of the shop was the town Evil told me she lived in in ENGLAND before she moved to South Korea. What the fuck??????? Because I'm a grown ass bitch, I sent her a voice note like hey clearly this shop is in [redacted british town name], do you live in Korea or not? I was so confused, when I tell you guys she operated solely on KST. I had a clock in my phone and everything so i would know when she was sleeping and when she was awake. She sent me pictures all the time of her walking thru Seoul. So why did this British shop post her dolls???

Evil responded like "oh my dolls!!! oh wait i see why you're confused, let me explain" and explained that the shop company had done a pop up in Korea and that they had done some in Japan too. She knew the British shop owner because she used to work in the same plaza, and had sent her the moru dolls like "hiii im at ur korean pop up :)" and that the owner had asked Evil permission to post it onto her instagram, which was based in England.

Right. Right. Okay sure. Fine. A couple of thoughts were now crossing my mind. If this isn't real... this is FUCKED UP. SOOOO FUCKED UP???? She was clearly someone who knew a lot about this world, the industry, and stray kids. Why the fuck would she assign these shitty ass character traits to Hyunjin and Chris if she was just a crazy fan? Nothing made sense, but Evil told me she was going to take a few days to herself, that her and I were good, and she understood why I had asked about moru dolls but that the idea of another friend not believing her sent her anxiety skyrocketing, and she needed to unplug for a bit. Remember I said she had been doxxed before? Her previous friends took to Instagram to call her a liar and posted her face and name there. (I would later find the exact post) "I'll be back," she assured me, "sigh. maybe one day my friends will just believe me at my word :("

....I didn't appreciate the guilt trip, but whatever i backed off, told Chris that if I'm not talking to Evil, I wasn't going to be talking to him. He pissed me off a lot, and I only knew him because of Evil lol. He said he understood and that this whole situation was complicated because if ur not in this world, it all seems unbelievable. Think about it, I wouldn't go and question the validity of my other friend's relationships. He said he understood and that he was sure Evil would come back. And she did. She apologized that everything was so complicated and that she really appreciated my friendship and that I heard her out. Oh well. What can I do?

Everyone returned to normal. I was busy with school, work and life and the holidays came and went. I learned more about Evil and Chris, what they were like as kids, what their hopes were for the future. Evil was struggling with her back (an old dance injury), and she was even bed-bound for a few days. Chris went over and cooked her food, sharing a pic of the food with me, excited that he could be there for her while Hyunjin was out of the country doing some solo projects shit. Hyunjin came back, Chris went back to moping in my DMs and Hyunjin and Evil seemed good. Hyunjin had even told Chris he was planning on proposing to Evil that year, before he had to enlist in the military. Of course, this sent Chris into a spiral, but frankly I didn't care. Like girl get over it. Either be Evil's friend or remove yourself idk what to tell u. Speaking of Evil's friend, Evil had a lot of friends she kept me in the loop about. Jake from enhypen was apparently her ride or die, Han and she were karaoke buddies. Felix was offline theses days, but her and him chatted often. Yeji from ITZY also seemed to really like her. Several other random kpop characters under jyp that I was unfamiliar with also made occasional appearances. Things were getting... pretty layered and more and more unbelievable. For example, Chris confessed to me that Jake once confessed to him he liked Evil but had no plans to do anything about it because of Hyunjin. Chris also said Jungwon of Enhypen also seemed a bit shy around Evil and he suspected he also had a crush on her.

Reddit, am I the asshole for finding it pretty incredible that hyunjin, chris, jake, AND jungwon ALLLL found Evil attractive? He insisted that most Korean men don't find foreigners attractive, it's just that Evil was pretty, could cook, dance, was funny, smart (she actually went to Oxford but dropped out when she realized she didn't know what she wanted to study), and played the violin and drums. In fact, she had such a keen ear that he sometimes invited her over to his studio to help out when he was stuck on producing. He made a comment once about European women being well-versed in the arts, and that's why he liked them.

To be honest, there were many comments that Chris made that gave me pause. He was Evil's number one defender. When we talked about how he was treated differently despite being Korean because he was a foreigner, the convo naturally drifted to Evil, who was a white foreigner in Korea. Unprovoked he goes, "Yeah, and imagine Evil. Like I get it, she's white... but writing off Evil's experience with prejudice in Korea just because she's white... seems like a slippery slope." ??? It left a strange taste in my mouth, especially because he and I had spoken about racism and the effects it had on us, as two members of different minority groups. He also mentioned that he had joined a curly hair Facebook support group, but he was booted out because he was asian and the group said "asians cant have curly hair."

Listen yall... idk if this really happened, and maybe online Bang Chan has spoken about it.... but idk the way discord user Chris told the story lowkey gave me anti-black vibes I can't explain. Especially because Evil had also expressed issues with the curly hair police because she had light waves. As a curly hair haver, I do understand why the distinction between curly and wavy hair matters as much as I think some people police too hard. But at the end of the day, hair holds a lot of history, pride, and trauma for black and poc - me included !!!!!!

anyway. u prob guessed it from the TWs. Evil fell pregnant one day. And she was NOT ready. She had previously mentioned to me that the idea of pregnancy was basically body horror, and she was lowkey terrified because of the back pain she was in. Hyunjin seemed excited, which made her excited, but the doctors quite literally told her carrying to term would be a bad idea as her back would not survive labor. I felt for her so bad, because my old best friend had terminated a pregnancy because of similar reasons, but it still destroyed her to give up on something that was hers and her boyfriend's. So I was very very careful when we discussed her pregnancy. I was alarmed. She seemed unwilling to terminate even when Hyunjin gave the green light. She said he seemed excited to be a dad and that was holding her back. I frankly wanted to shake her. Like bro the doctor said giving birth would likely paralyze you. You're needlessly making yourself a martyr (which was a recurring theme in her life). Evil often expressed going out of her way for people who never returned the favor. And when I would try to empower her to conserve her energy, she would just brush the suggestion off, claiming it was in her nature to do nice things for others, regardless of reciprocation. Talking to Chris about the situation also stressed me the fuck out. He said Hyunjin was going to marry Evil, leave the group and retire within the next two years. Chris is spewing some stupid shit about how he'd step up to the plate when Hyunjin inevitably enrolls in the military, leaving Evil with their child, and that Korean spouses often cheated on their husbands when they enrolled. That it wasn't their fault for being lonely. At this point i am emotionally fried. Everyone was going through something, and I could not shake the disgusting feeling that I had gotten further deep in with these people than I could emotionally handle. Sure enough, Evil's health was in such shambles that she miscarried, and I counselled her through the loss of the pregnancy. She made and shared an art piece about the ordeal that felt so raw, so vulnerable that I felt like a piece of shit for ever questioning if this was real. How could someone fake a miscarriage? How could someone replicate the complex emotions that went with it? What kind of sick human would fake ANY of this??? Every day I woke up anxious beyond belief that I had become wrapped up in a truly deluded person's roleplay. But my friend Evil was actively hurting, so for my mental health's sake, I told myself this was real. But the logical part of me couldn't stop looking for signs that it wasn't.

And then. Fucking Felix entered the chat.

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By the time Felix entered the chat, I was pretty much good off Evil and Chris. Frankly, I was over the pity party Chris constantly threw himself over Evil not picking him. And I was over Evil same damn song that she was lonely and miserable and felt ugly and that she hadn't eaten all day and that she was in pain. I didn't have the proof that either was lying about any part of this, but I was actively distancing myself from them, barely responding in chat. And maybe that's why they decided to add Felix to the groupchat.

The groupchat now consisted of Chris, Hyunjin, Evil, Felix, and a guy from the perfume server Evil had befriended and that also seemed to know about Chris and Hyunjin. I took issue with this. One, I was already on my way out, the last thing I wanted was another FUCKING STRAY KIDS MEMBER. Secondly, the kid was young, like 18. Idk, it pissed me off. I didn't know WHAT kind of mess this was, but bringing in someone that young into it all really, really pissed me off.

I had heard of Felix in passing. There was a story about Paris that Evil told me once or twice. Basically, the consensus was that we LOVED Felix. He played genshin too and fun fact !!! Evil had actually !!!!!! kissed !!!!! Felix !!!! While drunk once !!! yes yall heard that right. but its okay hyunjin didn't mind. Why?

BECAUSE FELIX IS GAY

The handling of Felix's sexuality was always very perplexing to me. Because neither Chris nor Evil seemed to care much that I knew? Chat am I crazy for thinking an idol's sexuality is no one's business??? Much less a stranger from a perfume server?? Did they not care bc because they knew I wasn't a fan???? It felt unsafe but Felix was honestly not a character in day-to-day in the way other idols like Jake and Hyunjin were. Until he was!!

At this point chat I'm just done. This all just felt like a desperate attempt to get me to give a fuck again. Chris would send me pics like this with his foot in the corner:

The most frustrating part is that this wasn't Evil's place. We had given each other facetime apartment tours. This photo really came from someone else, but whether it came from Christopher Chan I really didn't care anymore???

Not to mention the groupchats (literally named Evil Nation) were basically just an Evil suck fest.

The user blocked out was the 18-year-old, doing the emotional labor that I often did for Evil, who had body and self-esteem issues. I remember one time, Evil and I discussed the situation where her friends doxxed her and accused her of lying about all this.

"How can I be all these people?" she said. "Also... even if it was me. Isn't it fucked up for me, a white woman, to pretend to be a korean man? And have him text in broken english?"

She was referring to Hyunjin. This was him in the perfume server. And yes! Yes, that would be very fucked up! All of this was fucked up, and a mind fuck!

I couldn't help but run back conservations had between Chris and I, and the idea that a white woman could have been behind convos where we talked about our personal experiences with racism made me fucking angry. Especially the idea that it was the same white woman who actively spoke out against the way some kpop fans fetishized asian men, the one who spoke out against kpop companies for the mistreatment of their idols.

Chris said things like he didnt get the Zendaya hype ?? Korean men r super controlling ???? THAT HE LIKED BLOND THICK WHITE WOMEN ???????? THAT WAS YOU TYPIN ?????????????? HO U ARE WEIRDDDD !!!!!! I NEEDED AN OUT!!!! I NEEDED A CLEAR SIGN THAT ALL MY SUSPICIONS WERE RIGHT AND I WASNT JUST ABOUT TO ABANDON A FRIEND WHO JUST HAD A MISCARRIAGE

And then. Finally. My prayers were heard in the form of a horse statue.

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every time there's an updatae to this story. i just. i can never guess where it's going to go next. i'm almost more invested in these updates than i am with other fanfic authors i follow. bc what do you MEAN felix comes in next????? where did he come from??? where is this story going???????

i was just thinking this brings me back to my writing days where i'd post something and ppl who ask questions and we'd all be engaging in real time ugh so fun. AT LEAST I'M HAVING FUN WHILE RELIVING MY TRAUMA THANK YALL FOR REAL its bc of u guys i even have a platform and that ppl even CARE about this MESS !!! Thank you for validating my experience I WAS RLY GOING THRU IT IN THIS ERA YALL

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Girl, it is that I follow you for years and years but if this randomly popped up on my tl id be in your ask box anonymously calling this all bullshit. Because how does evil suddenly know everyone in the industry and everyone having a crush on her?

This honestly could have been a great fan fiction.

HAHAHA I CANT BELIEVE THIS IS WHAT BRINGS U BACK THAYS HILARIOUS. And yet, when I asked for BTS tea. Nothing. She’d tell me random shit about all these random groups, random idol girlfriend drama, and yet nothing I even fully cared about. Ridiculous.

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Bro… what the fuck is going on in your Discord😭😭😭 u can’t even with everything I read, I hope to god they’re just delulus and some of my favorite idols aren’t actually terrible people😭🙏🙏

If I’m being super honest I physically cannot look or listen to anything stray kids these days. Like objectively speaking, I can NEVER untie them from this experience for obvious reasons. I spent HOURS watching their content with Chris and Evil because I just wanted to connect with them and their world. I am very blessed to have so many healthy friends these days but when this happened, I was objectively going thru a very hard time. My best friend since I was 12 (I'm 27 now) had gone to jail and she did nine months OUT OF STATE house arrest so I spent nine months talking to her EVERY DAY SO SHE WOILDNT OFF HERSELF because that was our entire friendship. I was in the process of cutting her off because after ALL THAT she knowingly broke her probation because GOD KNOWS WHY so I literally joined a perfume server to meet ppl with the one interest I only shared with my best friend. Perfumes. LIKE SHE WAS IN THE SERVER TOO. She just wasn't active because she was too busy leaving state lines illegally — soooo yeah!!! Dis fucked me up!!! God forbid i made a perfume friend !!! lmfao lichrally no hate to anyone who likes that group, its just what it is for me unfortunately. But maybe not forever, who knows ! But I'm genuinely so so good these days. Sorry for the trauma dump wtf but I really am so good these days. I am no one’s therapist friend anymore and my soul is free and I have a strong friend group irl who genuinely genuinely want what's best for me. My online friends are much less. they're so solid and YEARS long. Shout out baby, daisy and nova!!! 💕💕 and I am closer to my cousins genuinely we all talk every day. I am so fucking blessed!!!!

And don't worry, I'll clarify who is who in the next updates

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if that's the real Chan then lol he's such a dick

Just u wait til I show yall of one of the last fights him and I had, discord user Chris can get fucked respectfully

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Lmaooo you can tell his ass grew up in Australia based on his type in women. Very on the nose 😂

Bruh I remember I mentioned if he hooked up w ppl back home and he was like no bc Australian women were racist to him and that he liked European women who are well versed in the arts. Aka Evil, who was ethnically swedish/French.

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im sorry but the way this reads exactly like a really (!!) bad ff with evil being y/n :(( jfc bro

I remember one time I mentioned y/n fics in passing and she said she rly hated when ppl joked she was y/n bc it wasn't a fan fic, it was her real life 🧍

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On top of the craziness of this whole evil thing, this person is perpetuating unfounded negative stereotypes of Korea and Korean people bc why is the reason for every terrible thing that her bf supposedly does is because he’s Korean?????

Not to mention a lot of things she’s saying are literally untrue or things I have never heard in my life as a Korean person myself😭😭 Especially the military part, they can barely go out or make a phone call, let alone cheat, like where is this coming from??? This just left a really bad taste in my mouth, especially if she’s had conversations about racism and discrimination why is this suddenly ok when it’s about them someone being Korean?

YUPPPPPPPPP u hit the nail on the head. I promise u promise u one of the next updates will address the Korea of it all, there's so much to this specific conversation but theres still one more giant development down the timeline that were missing. It only get more disturbing from here….

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Ewwww he doesn’t understand the zendaya hype and his type is blonde yt women. Lameeee and also predictable

I ACTUALLY FOUND THE SCREENSHOT I remember I sent it to my friends and said “Chris talks like a girl with internalize misogyny”

Like???? He also made comments about Sabrina carpenter and her looking “uncanny valley” he was always saying some stupid shit omg he irritated me soooo bad

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Wait what's happening? Who's Chris? And who's evil? I'm so lost 😭

Hahaha if u scroll down you'll see the full text post. It's the one with starts with the meme. Chris is stray kids’ bangchan and Evil is a girl I met in a perfume server

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Bruh I started following u a million years ago bc of the little one fic so like imagine my shock and awe opening tumblr for the first time in years and your Chris discord post is the first thing I see 😭😭😭😭

IM CRYINGNGNGNGNNGNG bro interacting with these ppl was so scary i'd be in a groupchat with them like "....no one in here knows i wrote bts smut"

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ok guys enough time has passed that I am ready to tell my traumatizing stray kids story but today is homework day so I will share it tomorrow but expect a fat text post about it

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STORY TIME: i was discord friends with bangchan for like five months

i am just going to tell u this story as if u were me going thru this and finding things out in real time. OKAY, so in like September of 2025 i joined a perfume discord because I love perfume and didn't have any friends as into it as I was. For the sake of basic respect that I have for her that she did not have for me, I won't dox her. She actually, fun fact, has been doxxed before but we'll get back to that!!! I'll be referring to her by the pseudonym Evil, for a reason that will soon become clear. Evil, ironically, had done a really nice thing for me. I got scammed at target and she actually offered me money to make up for. I refused, of course, but in my head I was like wow what a sweet girl. In this discord, I happened to be looking at the vent channel, and she this same girl going off about her ex-employer and mentioned that it's a Kpop company she worked for. As a retired bts fangirl, naturally i perked the fuck up bc tea ????? i knew the girl had mentioned living in South Korea with her boyfriend (she was actually made a mod bc she operated on a different time zone than most in the chat). It was a small Discord server, and we basically got it out of her that she used to work for jyp

The TDLR she gave me was that she was a dancer with a background in ballet, and she was living in England when her boss asked her if she wanted to come to Paris to help work an event. The event was Lollapalooza. She says that she is made to work with the choreo team for a JYP group (she says she was in charge of like... safety? idfk). Imma be real chat, I am not tuned in on the JYP verse, but I tell her oh I really liked ITZY at one point, and she's like oh the itzy girls are so nice, that working at a Korean company could be really lonely, but the itzy girls would always say hi to her, and lia had even remembered that Evil was celiac or smthn. And that her boyfriend was like childhood friends with another ITZY girl. So obviously at this point I'm like bro what r the odds? Ain't no way..... Time goes on. kpop naturally gets mentioned again because some Discord members liked kpop and Evil kind of pops up in convo again because she rly does NOT rock with the K-pop industry like she really had problems with jyp and quote "would burn the building down" if she could. anyway Evil and I start dming, getting to know each other, sending pics, becoming discord friends u know the vibe. So I started asking about how she came to live in Korea. basically she says its bc of her boyfriend. She says the day she landed in Paris, she ended up sleeping with one of her coworkers (they took each other's virginities), and "because Korean men move fast," she basically ended up moving to Korea and got a workers' visa, and how she was actually stressed bc her visa was ending. She was currently unemployed bc of a back injury (she had no desire to go back to jyp) and that basically if she doesnt marry her boyfriend no leasing apartment will rent an apartment to her or something idfk. one day i am scrolling thru the server after like a week of inactivity, and i see some user named Chris who was talking in the server who is interacting with Evil. Evil's boyfriend is on the server, but basically only ever sends an occasional emoji, and his name is literally "evil's boyfriend," so I'm like ??? Who tf is Chris? basically from what I gathered from the convo between Chris and the like eight other random ppl in the serve who happened to talk to him, he met Evil in Paris and also worked at jyp and the two of them became friends because he spoke English. I keep scrolling. Later, I see him bonding over Australia with another random Discord user in the server who happened to also be Australian. SO TO RECAP: this dude joined the server thru Evil. He was a guy from Australia, working in korea and his name was Chris. Yeah. YEAAHHHHHH. (Story not done)

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OKAY IM BACK im pretty sure I deadass ask in #general-chat like chris r u in the idol industry???? and hes like uh yeah. mind u everyone else in the chat is like oo top notes oo penhaligons. LMFAOOO NO ONE GAVE A FUCK so im like ok bro lemme just ask u a question if ur legit an idol im DYING to pick at ur brain PLEASSEEEE so he lets me grill him a little about like the ugly parts of the industry and im just FASCINATED CUZ WTF. he ends up adding me as a friend and is like "honestly u can message me whenever im busy a lot but if i have time ill get back to u."

chat

this was it. I WAS INNNNNNN !!!!!!!

him and i would go back and forth i am in his fucking brain folds, he is on my arm lounge chair, i have on a lab coat and am taking notes. He surprisingly opened up to me about the trauma of being an idol, his relationship with his family, he was again surprisingly honest and easy to talk to. We messaged for no joke, two hours. we talk about pokemon, we talked about genshin impact, we talk about dating, we talked about his experience as a foreigner in korea, we talked about being adults in our late twenties. I leave the convo like man what a world i hope discord user chris is okay BECAUSE CHAT LMFAOOOO AM I REALLY SUPPOSED TO BELIEVE THIS BANGCHAN PLSSSS but I'll do anything for the plot !!!!!!!!!!!!!! I didn't really have a plan, like I really don't be rocking with stray kids like that, nothing personal thats just not a group I follow. I only know Bangchan from random viral TikTok videos. Anyway christopher loose lips apparently did not know i did not know WHO Evil's boyfriend was, and calls him by the name Hyunjin

YOU GUYS LMFAOAOOOOOAOAOAOOAOAOAOAOAO THERE IS NO WAY

So I'm like mmm i dont think I was supposed to know who Evil's dating. and he was like "oh what I thought everyone in the server knew i thought Evil sent a link to a server of her friends." And I was like bro no we all barely know each other, this server is relatively new i got sent this link off Twitter LMFAO. anyway Chris is like "mate pls do not tell people about them, like on some real shit, Evil was doxxed by her previous friend, she's just now gotten her head back up." and so I'm like yeah, chill im no snitch, and he's like "good. i dont mean to sound like a dick im trusting u not to do the wrong thing, but we can and have gone the lawyer way."

YALL????????

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So from there began my friendship with Chris and Evil. We all got really close to the point that we just made a groupchat for us three, and everything was cool and normal. We'd all send pictures, occasional selfies, food pics, and we watched the 50 shades series together over Discord. Just ur usualy discord friendship stuff.

Evil was fundamentally unhappy with her life (chronically ill, away from home, unemployed), so I spent a lot of time counseling her and keeping her company. I would hang out with my irls, and my friends would send her voice notes and try to include her despite them not having Discord themselves. I told my friends about Chris and Evil and mentioned Chris was an idol, but theyre so far removed from that world that everyone just knew Chris as my friend from Discord. And he was. Chris would message me fairly often, and I knew about his ex-flings, about his skz brothers, his insecurities, EVERYTHING. He would text me at like 6am KST like "bro im so tired kms i dont want to go to work today" and he'd just send updates through out the day like "ok vocal lessons over dance lessons over, lunch time, im at my home studio rn bored did u hear about the new genshin leak what r u doing today" I mean it was the most normal??? friendship. He was my loser friend Chris, who was bitchless and loved hot video game characters. He was roommates with one of the members, and whenever his roomie brought a girl home he'd hit me up and complain, even telling me the complicated lore behind Jeongin(?) and this girl.

I JUST REMEMBERED CHRIS EVEN ONCE SENT ME A PIC OF HIS INGROWN HAIR ONCE LMFOAOOO like that was just one of the homeboys y'all. It was clear from the start that Chris was a very lonely person; he didn't really like going out, and all the skz boys were grown and had their own lives/girlfriends now, and he just kind of felt... left behind. I brought up his friendship with Evil, and he said that the two were not as close as they once were, that this was the most they had spoken in a while. So ofc, I'm like oh???? Chat, this is where the plot thickens.

After persistent digging, I found out that when Evil first came to Paris, she had already been talking to Chris. He said when he was told about the new staff coming to help them for Lolla, he had stalked them all on socials, and because Evil had posted a couple of thirst traps on social media and he was attracted to her, he hit her up and they messaged like every day until Lolla, even sending each other pictures and shit. He said he thought they were on the same page, but when they hung out irl, and he tried to make a move, Evil seemed not into it, so nothing happened. And he found out later that she had slept with Hyunjin the day prior, and from then on out, it was clear Hyunjin was going to pursue Evil no matter what, so Chris just kind of backed off. SUDDENLY THE PIECES WERE FALLING INTO PLACE. Chris was a nice guy dont get me wrong, but when it came to Evil, he was.... a little out of line. In our groupchat, we'd be talking about video game characters, and Chris would pop up like EVIL DO U WANT THIS CHARACTER ILL SEND U MONEY U DESERVE HER !!!!!! Evil would always be like ummm no like if I wanted money, I'd ask my millionaire boyfriend, thanks tho king. And Chris' whole vibe would change.

Chris didn't have to tell me he still liked Evil. He didn't have to lol. And I'd try my best to encourage him to move forward, that he still was CHRISTOPHER CHAN!!!! MILLIONAIRE COOL GUY LEADER OF MEGA SUCCESSFUL GROUP. Yall i would glaze this guy; his self-esteem was so so low. I mean, he'd pick apart his looks, his personality, EVERYTHING. I would encourage him to go on dates, but he'd come back from them feeling worse because they never went well. He just had Evil on this pedestal that she was this displaced, innocent thing that needed to be protected, and when I confronted him about it and how it was potentially harmful to both him and her (benevolent sexism says hi), his only response was "well she deserves to be put on a pedestal!!!" i said bruhh. ok then. he was honestly rly pathetic. He said he was fine to die alone and that all he could do was hope that maybe in the next life he'd get another chance with her. LIKE SYBAUUUU IM SICK OF UUUU LMFAOOO!!!! Admittedly, Chis and I would fight pretty often (more than I do with my other friends), because I'd call him out on his shit constantly, and he just did NOT want to hear it and was happy being a pathetic loser man with zero self-respect. He would entertain women who clearly saw him only as Bang Chan, and it just irritated me!!!!!! Like ur 28, GET UP. I'm a fixer to my core, im ALWAYS the therapist friend, so I simply could not let that go. (also im mean to men but that's besides the point). So at this point, I'm giving therapy to both Chris and Evil and the perfume server is none the wiser. Enough people joined the server that Chris stopped being active in it, and I also just stopped poking my nose in it.

So you may be asking urself. Hey!! You're pretty involved in Evil's life!! You and her once were on discord call for 8 hours!!! You talk every day!!! Where is her boyfriend Hyunjin in all of this??? Well, he's about to enter my dms!!!!

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Hyunjin was..... a mysterious figure. If I'm honest, I didn't have a favorable opinion of him. I made it a point not to message him ever because Evil spoke about a few "friends" who seemed more interested in talking to him over her, and I barely liked the guy. I had several issues with the power dynamic in Evil and his relationship (I'll get more into that in the next installment). Chris introduced him as a very cold figure, but said it was a recent development, aka after Hyunjin realized Chris still had feelings for Evil. The reason they stopped hanging out so much was because of Hyunjin. I hated the idea that Evil's boyfriend was controlling who she could hang out with, especially when she was already financially and geographically dependent on him. But honestly, y'all... the way Chris talked about Evil like she was the only girl he could ever love or lust after (he quite literally told me he couldn't get hard at his hookups) I was like yea actually maybe keep her away from this creep LMFAOOO

I cannot explain to you how hot and cold Chris's relationship and I was. When I tell y'all we REALLY argued, there were several points where I was like ??? why am I even still friends with this guy??? for Evil's sake???

but then he'd do some nice shit like offer me money (WHICH I NEVER EVER TOOK BECAUSE THE GUILT WOULD CONSUME ME ALIVE) and I'd be like aweeee its my friend chris!!! loser chris who is in the same stage of life as me, on the same meds and likes the same games I do !!! but then he'd open his mouth and say some stupid shit like "am I the only one who doesn't understand the zendaya hype??" and I'd get irritated all over again like SHUT UP !!!!!!! I remember asking him once if he had any industry crushes and he came back from an award show and said he looked, but really didn't have one, and my eyes rolled so far back in my head like shut the fuck up i don't believe you. but he claimed he only liked thick blond white women, which ig made sense because thats what Evil was.

All throughout these months, I am constantly checking in with myself like... do I believe all this??? This is objectively ridiculous but there's no way to demand proof without sounding like a dick. especially when he'd send me little videos and pictures that felt so... real

So I just moved like all this was real. It had been months and every day the story stayed the same. Evil and I got closer and closer. I remember the Stray Kids concert was happening, and I was like "should I go?" because Chris was my friend!!! i wanna support!! even if the music wasn't necessarily my thing. I ran it by Evil and she was like “girl just ask Chris if he has any friends and family tickets left, that man does not need more money.” AND U KNOW WHAT I SHOULDVE!!! I DIDNT WANT TO BE A LOSER LEECH SO I DIDNT ugh curse my kind considerate soul !!!!!!!!! next update is where shit gets fucking real and WILL have trigger warnings so please read them!!!

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TW: unhealthy power dynamics, sexual coercion, pregnancy loss, racism, just ickiness all around

The reason I disliked Hyunjin was because Evil often complained about their sex life. She said that they had sex every single day and he didn't understand that sometimes she didn't want to because it hurt. She was even bleeding after sex several times. I told Evil straight up like, hey thats not okay. It doesn't matter if you enjoyed it, it doesn't matter if u love him, it doesn't matter if ur living on his dollar, you need to go see a doctor, and you need to literally HEAL. NO MORE SEX!!!!! Whenever I pushed back on her about this, she would always insist that she feels bad because Hyunjin is the sweetest man alive, he's just Korean and new to this whole relationship thing. Whatever. I tried my best to guide her through that and thankfully they seemed to reach a place where that was no longer a concern and there were much more reasonable expectations for sex now. And as many kind gestures Hyunjin did (constantly getting her new cartier jewelry, new expensive perfumes) as a woman, I could never forgive him.

Then the Moru Doll incident occurred.

Hyunjin and Evil went on a date where they walked around Seoul and found a little shop where you could make Moru Dolls. Evil sent me a photo of the two dolls they made (each made the other one in moru doll form). It was so stinkin' cute that the first thing I did was Instagram search moru dolls so I could learn more. Because Evil and I followed each other on instagram, a shop she followed popped up. I clicked the profile and low and behold, the shop had posted a picture of her and Hyunjin's moru dolls. The location of the shop was the town Evil told me she lived in in ENGLAND before she moved to South Korea. What the fuck??????? Because I'm a grown ass bitch, I sent her a voice note like hey clearly this shop is in [redacted british town name], do you live in Korea or not? I was so confused, when I tell you guys she operated solely on KST. I had a clock in my phone and everything so i would know when she was sleeping and when she was awake. She sent me pictures all the time of her walking thru Seoul. So why did this British shop post her dolls???

Evil responded like "oh my dolls!!! oh wait i see why you're confused, let me explain" and explained that the shop company had done a pop up in Korea and that they had done some in Japan too. She knew the British shop owner because she used to work in the same plaza, and had sent her the moru dolls like "hiii im at ur korean pop up :)" and that the owner had asked Evil permission to post it onto her instagram, which was based in England.

Right. Right. Okay sure. Fine. A couple of thoughts were now crossing my mind. If this isn't real... this is FUCKED UP. SOOOO FUCKED UP???? She was clearly someone who knew a lot about this world, the industry, and stray kids. Why the fuck would she assign these shitty ass character traits to Hyunjin and Chris if she was just a crazy fan? Nothing made sense, but Evil told me she was going to take a few days to herself, that her and I were good, and she understood why I had asked about moru dolls but that the idea of another friend not believing her sent her anxiety skyrocketing, and she needed to unplug for a bit. Remember I said she had been doxxed before? Her previous friends took to Instagram to call her a liar and posted her face and name there. (I would later find the exact post) "I'll be back," she assured me, "sigh. maybe one day my friends will just believe me at my word :("

....I didn't appreciate the guilt trip, but whatever i backed off, told Chris that if I'm not talking to Evil, I wasn't going to be talking to him. He pissed me off a lot, and I only knew him because of Evil lol. He said he understood and that this whole situation was complicated because if ur not in this world, it all seems unbelievable. Think about it, I wouldn't go and question the validity of my other friend's relationships. He said he understood and that he was sure Evil would come back. And she did. She apologized that everything was so complicated and that she really appreciated my friendship and that I heard her out. Oh well. What can I do?

Everyone returned to normal. I was busy with school, work and life and the holidays came and went. I learned more about Evil and Chris, what they were like as kids, what their hopes were for the future. Evil was struggling with her back (an old dance injury), and she was even bed-bound for a few days. Chris went over and cooked her food, sharing a pic of the food with me, excited that he could be there for her while Hyunjin was out of the country doing some solo projects shit. Hyunjin came back, Chris went back to moping in my DMs and Hyunjin and Evil seemed good. Hyunjin had even told Chris he was planning on proposing to Evil that year, before he had to enlist in the military. Of course, this sent Chris into a spiral, but frankly I didn't care. Like girl get over it. Either be Evil's friend or remove yourself idk what to tell u. Speaking of Evil's friend, Evil had a lot of friends she kept me in the loop about. Jake from enhypen was apparently her ride or die, Han and she were karaoke buddies. Felix was offline theses days, but her and him chatted often. Yeji from ITZY also seemed to really like her. Several other random kpop characters under jyp that I was unfamiliar with also made occasional appearances. Things were getting... pretty layered and more and more unbelievable. For example, Chris confessed to me that Jake once confessed to him he liked Evil but had no plans to do anything about it because of Hyunjin. Chris also said Jungwon of Enhypen also seemed a bit shy around Evil and he suspected he also had a crush on her.

Reddit, am I the asshole for finding it pretty incredible that hyunjin, chris, jake, AND jungwon ALLLL found Evil attractive? He insisted that most Korean men don't find foreigners attractive, it's just that Evil was pretty, could cook, dance, was funny, smart (she actually went to Oxford but dropped out when she realized she didn't know what she wanted to study), and played the violin and drums. In fact, she had such a keen ear that he sometimes invited her over to his studio to help out when he was stuck on producing. He made a comment once about European women being well-versed in the arts, and that's why he liked them.

To be honest, there were many comments that Chris made that gave me pause. He was Evil's number one defender. When we talked about how he was treated differently despite being Korean because he was a foreigner, the convo naturally drifted to Evil, who was a white foreigner in Korea. Unprovoked he goes, "Yeah, and imagine Evil. Like I get it, she's white... but writing off Evil's experience with prejudice in Korea just because she's white... seems like a slippery slope." ??? It left a strange taste in my mouth, especially because he and I had spoken about racism and the effects it had on us, as two members of different minority groups. He also mentioned that he had joined a curly hair Facebook support group, but he was booted out because he was asian and the group said "asians cant have curly hair."

Listen yall... idk if this really happened, and maybe online Bang Chan has spoken about it.... but idk the way discord user Chris told the story lowkey gave me anti-black vibes I can't explain. Especially because Evil had also expressed issues with the curly hair police because she had light waves. As a curly hair haver, I do understand why the distinction between curly and wavy hair matters as much as I think some people police too hard. But at the end of the day, hair holds a lot of history, pride, and trauma for black and poc - me included !!!!!!

anyway. u prob guessed it from the TWs. Evil fell pregnant one day. And she was NOT ready. She had previously mentioned to me that the idea of pregnancy was basically body horror, and she was lowkey terrified because of the back pain she was in. Hyunjin seemed excited, which made her excited, but the doctors quite literally told her carrying to term would be a bad idea as her back would not survive labor. I felt for her so bad, because my old best friend had terminated a pregnancy because of similar reasons, but it still destroyed her to give up on something that was hers and her boyfriend's. So I was very very careful when we discussed her pregnancy. I was alarmed. She seemed unwilling to terminate even when Hyunjin gave the green light. She said he seemed excited to be a dad and that was holding her back. I frankly wanted to shake her. Like bro the doctor said giving birth would likely paralyze you. You're needlessly making yourself a martyr (which was a recurring theme in her life). Evil often expressed going out of her way for people who never returned the favor. And when I would try to empower her to conserve her energy, she would just brush the suggestion off, claiming it was in her nature to do nice things for others, regardless of reciprocation. Talking to Chris about the situation also stressed me the fuck out. He said Hyunjin was going to marry Evil, leave the group and retire within the next two years. Chris is spewing some stupid shit about how he'd step up to the plate when Hyunjin inevitably enrolls in the military, leaving Evil with their child, and that Korean spouses often cheated on their husbands when they enrolled. That it wasn't their fault for being lonely. At this point i am emotionally fried. Everyone was going through something, and I could not shake the disgusting feeling that I had gotten further deep in with these people than I could emotionally handle. Sure enough, Evil's health was in such shambles that she miscarried, and I counselled her through the loss of the pregnancy. She made and shared an art piece about the ordeal that felt so raw, so vulnerable that I felt like a piece of shit for ever questioning if this was real. How could someone fake a miscarriage? How could someone replicate the complex emotions that went with it? What kind of sick human would fake ANY of this??? Every day I woke up anxious beyond belief that I had become wrapped up in a truly deluded person's roleplay. But my friend Evil was actively hurting, so for my mental health's sake, I told myself this was real. But the logical part of me couldn't stop looking for signs that it wasn't.

And then. Fucking Felix entered the chat.

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Girl I feel like you gotta post screenshots with actual time stamps bc this feels crazy 😭😭 lmaooo I think this girl was running a long con on you

I DID THO!! And IVE GOT SOME MORE SCREENSHOTS COMING UP I've been scrambling thru groupchats with my friends to see what I shared by keep in mind this happened in 2024/2025!! Mainly I operated like this was all real and I didn't want to be sued for sharing incriminating stuff like her name and pictures. These freaks frequently brought up that they had the best lawyer team money could buy so I was def a lil scared fksksksk. unfortunately tho when I dipped and blocked everyone involved they all deleted all their messages so it looks like I'm talking to myself in those chats 🫩🫩 but I do have some more screenies imma share STAY TUNED

[kinktae]

ok yall wanted more screenshots so i found some. none are really that incriminating but i guess it shows how close him and I got so enjoy that

[kinktae]

Girl I feel like you gotta post screenshots with actual time stamps bc this feels crazy 😭😭 lmaooo I think this girl was running a long con on you

I DID THO!! And IVE GOT SOME MORE SCREENSHOTS COMING UP I've been scrambling thru groupchats with my friends to see what I shared by keep in mind this happened in 2024/2025!! Mainly I operated like this was all real and I didn't want to be sued for sharing incriminating stuff like her name and pictures. These freaks frequently brought up that they had the best lawyer team money could buy so I was def a lil scared fksksksk. unfortunately tho when I dipped and blocked everyone involved they all deleted all their messages so it looks like I'm talking to myself in those chats 🫩🫩 but I do have some more screenies imma share STAY TUNED

[kinktae]

"All throughout these months, I am constantly checking in with myself like... do I believe all this???"

girl no fr😭 this sounds like an acid trip. I'd have been like is this really real a hundred times

AS FUCKKK AND I WOULD SHOW THESE CONVOS TO MY FRIENDS AND THEY WOULD ALSO WEIGH IN BECAUSE WHAT?? We two seperate profiles who I’ve literally seen text at the same time. In fact, while I was in discord call with Evil, chris literally messaged her something mundane like “can u leave hyunjin’s backpack in the hallway we gotta grab it and go.” She was screen sharing and just casually responded to it and I saw a very normal looking discord thread between her and Chris. LIKE HELLO???? WHAT WERE THE ODDS EVIL WAS RUNNING TWO DIFFERENT ACCOUNTS? REMEMBERING TWO DIFFERENT CONVO THREADS WITH ME AND CHRIS AND HERSELF?? FOR MONTHS!!! AND NOT TO MENTION THE HYUNJIN USER!!!