my pain, your thrill

20. dead dove. mdni.

[kinning-sammy]

did 2 very stressful things and im ready to be put down

[askboxmemes]

I wanna know what people assume about me because of my tumblr.

Put an assumption in my ask. I’ll confirm or dispute it. I’m not gonna be mean or anything, I’m just very interested.

[kinning-sammy]

gotta take my son to get groomed

[holyfreaks]

sure dean could be bi but I think him trying to figure that out is the least of his fucking worries

[kinning-sammy]

almost jumped out of a window today folks but we stay grounded

[kinning-sammy]

me n gf are gonna attempt to meet a cat tonight that we are possibly fostering until either we can find her a home or we decide to keep her.

[inter-state80]

i like to imagine that dean tried several times to fix sam’s trigger discipline but for some reason sam never misfires and he’s a faster shot than dean anyway so dean just gave up and decided to trust that sam wouldn’t accidentally blow a hole in his shin

[kinning-sammy]

cant listen to new music anymore bc ive been tricked by ai music too many times

[kinning-sammy]

masosadist rapist samruby my beloved save me.

[kinning-sammy]

beating sam with a meat tenderizer

[kinning-sammy]

sam who knows several different ways to harm himself, never using the same method twice in a row, because he just wants to see what it feels like. how many times he has to do it for him to grow a tolerance. how far he has to go for it to hurt. how deep it has to be to bleed steadily. how massive the damage needs to be to leave a scar or even become deadly. sometimes, he does it because he's curious. sometimes, he does it because there's nothing else that will keep his brain busy. sometimes, he just watches it all happen apathetically as he goes through the motions.

after meeting lucifer and confirming all of his worst fears, its no longer about predictability.

its about escape.

[kinning-sammy]

sometimes i gotta sit for a few minutes and imagine myself break dancing because i know i could never attempt it

[headtraumasam]

Too Little, Too Late (4575 words) by headtraumasam

Chapters: 1/1

Fandom: Supernatural (TV 2005)

Rating: General Audiences

Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply

Relationships: John Winchester & Sam Winchester

Characters: Sam Winchester, John Winchester

Additional Tags: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Hurt Sam Winchester, Sam Winchester Whump, Worried John Winchester, Drunk John Winchester, almost no comfort in this one but more to come later, little bit of violence but not too graphic, Season 1, set before dead man's blood, sam winchester has a traumatic brain injury

Series: Part 1 of Sam and John

Summary:

“I SAID ENOUGH!”

That was the last straw. Pure, drunk rage took over John. That kid crossed a line and all he wanted was for him to shut up. He wanted to smash the bottle against the wall, right next to that stubborn head, just to scare the kid into silence, and to also let out his bad temper.

He swung the bottle.

tumblr user headtraumasam finally posted a fic about sam head trauma. everybody cheer. the fic was inspired by this tag by @callistosam and I am really grateful to him for beta-reading it!!!!!

[kinning-sammy]

"we need to have a Talk" killing myself as u speak

[kinning-sammy]

have to shave my dog bald now because he got maggots in his hair and its taking everything i am to not puke and wail like a fucking baby right now

[kinning-sammy]

i miss my stupid fucking brother but we cant talk because he's fucking mean

[kinning-sammy]

its been hours and i havent written a single thing