Kny 179 is still kicking my ass so may i request some hcs over how sanemi, after the whole war he survived and is at his worst, is unstable by the events. Yet, he finally meet that one person that will keep him ground on earth until he becomes an old geezer. Aka sanemi x supportive!comforting!understanding!needed!s/o (wow, that’s a lot XD)
SPOILER ALERT!! (chapters 179 & 180)
sanemi shinazugawa is not one to act like a victim
he doesn’t feel sorry for himself if anything he’s mad at the world and the demons for taking his only family away from him
will most likely lock himself in his room and not talk to anyone for days
the pillars who survived the war come to his door and tell him that this isn’t a good comping mechanism
all he wants is to isolate himself
cries himself to sleep every night
eventually, a month or two later, he left his house. it came to his realisation that he needed to get out and distract himself from the fact that he failed to protect his little brother
he was told to go to the butterfly estate for a weekly check-up; since no one had heard from him in a while, people were getting concerned for his own health
that's when he catches sight of you, waiting for him at the estate
he didn’t care much about you at first, to be honest. he was still in a depressed state and he had no interest in talking to anyone, especially a stranger
however, as you explained that you used to work for tamayo, his head jolted up and he was suddenly alert
he had heard what happened to the kind woman who fought alongside the hunters and somewhere deep inside, he felt sympathy because he knows how it feels to lose someone
you carefully checked his body for wounds and asked politely about his diet and things like that
you could see the hurt in his eyes, you could see that the loss of his brother and his friends killed him inside out
“sanemi, if there’s anything you ever want to talk about, get off your chest even, i’ll always be here.”
don’t expect him to spill out all his emotions at once
will probably take a long time for him to gain your trust
but every time you check on him, remind him about being there for him, he will realise that maybe this is what he needs
you have to do these things subtly though, he doesn’t like being treated like a baby and will still need his boundaries
and if you do that, he will start to realise that maybe a stranger is what he needs
maybe someone who will give him a chance and won’t be quick to judge him will make him feel better
he will slowly gain your trust and you will notice a change in his attitude
sanemi will become more willing to cook meals with you or work on healing his body
pls tell him how good his body looks
he won’t show it but he’ll feel so motivated and loved appreciated
boost his confidence!!!! he needs to feel good about himself again!!!
there will be a moment where it all clicks, where he sees that you’re the only person who has accepted him for him, besides his brother
and maybe that’s why he likes you so much, you’re just as supportive, understanding and kind as he was
and before you know it, he won’t hold back. he’ll tell you everything on your mind
will definitely feel vulnerable and stupid at first but he’s starting to feel heard
and your constant smile and reassurance brings him the purest of happiness
before you know it, he’ll ask you out
why would he waste time when you can be together?
you’ve made him feel alive again, he finally sees he has a purpose
your kindness rubs off on him
if you’re ever the one to feel like you’re not enough or worthy, he will remind you that tamayo wouldn’t want you to think that of yourself
please tell him that genya would want the very best for him
there’ll be lots of tears and heartfelt moments
hug him tight and tell him you love him and he’ll do the same
leave kisses on his scars, he’ll m e l t
lots of domestic stuff will take place like cooking, planting flowers, shopping for food, dancing stupidly around the house
it might be a shock but the little things like that mean A LOT to him
you have both healed each other and sanemi doesn’t care about what people think of him anymore
you’ve taught him that he isn’t a bad person
he’s taught you that your life does not get better by chance, it gets better by change
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