Just a PSA that I wrote this little fic over the summer and it means a lot to me sooo if youāre looking for something sappy, maybe give her a read. Iāll be forever grateful š
Summary: Youāll lose Harry on August 17th, 2029.
Theyāll say it was a freak accident. That nobody could have seen it coming. Nobody could have stopped it.
But you can.
And you will.
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āIām not sure. I swear, it was right here on the dresser.ā
āIāll have Anthony check again. We might be able to find a copy somewhere in the office. Or maybe we can find the file through email.ā
āYeah, that sounds good. Let me know. I was really looking forward to it.ā
āWill do. Donāt move, Iāll be right back.ā
Harry nods to his manager, who disappears down the corridor of the arena, before he leans against the wall and hangs his head.
Your heart hammers inside your chest as that familiar ringing returns to your ears.Ā
There he is.
Heās so close. So fucking close, you can almost smell his vanilla cologne. Can almost feel his soft curls run through your fingers or feel his lips on your neck.
Hear his voice in your ear.
Your body aches to be near him. Every muscle, every nerve-ending, every joint vibrates with the need to be close. To walk over to him, throw your arms around his neck, and bury your face in his chest.
To hold onto him one last time.
But you canāt. You made a deal.
You do thisā¦and you move on.
Harry sighs to himself and looks back up at the ceiling, hands digging into his pockets.
You know what this means. Heās stressed. Aggravated over something he canāt control, and annoyed with himself for being unable to fix it.
In the future, when he'll get frustrated, youāll press a kiss to his palm, whisper three, āI love youās,ā and count with him to ten.
Heāll remember to breathe, to relax, and to handle the problem one step at a time.
You wish you could do that now.
But this Harry doesnāt know you. He hasnāt met you yet.
He doesnāt love you yet.
And he never will.
You take a deep breath and glance down at the envelope in your pocket that youād snuck from his dressing room. The same envelope Jeff is currently on a mission to find.
But he wonāt find it. Thereās no other copy in existence and there wonāt be again.
You promised.
If he never goes on that trip to Italy, then he never meets Alexander. And if he never meets Alexander, then he never agrees to the tour around Europe. And if he never agrees to the tour around Europe, then heāll never be in that car on August 17th at 5:03 P.M.Ā
Heāll never be flipped over seven times before the vehicle crashes into the wall.
Heāll never attempt to crawl to you and drag you to safety.
Heāll never realize heās bleeding out faster than either of you can stop it, and heāll never collapse onto the streets of Barcelona.
Youāll never lose him.
You made a deal that day. Some deity in the universe found you begging anyone that would listen to give you one more chance.
And they decided to give it to you.
Theyād let you come back and keep him from finding that envelope. The very envelope that would set everything in motion.
Theyād allow you to stop him.
Theyād allow you to save his life.
Even if it means he'll never meet you.
Because you and he will bump into each other at a cafe in Paris on March 5th, 2025. Heāll already be waiting there to conduct a meeting with Alexander. The same meeting where theyāll choose the dates for the tour.Ā
The day theyāll choose to send him to Barcelona.
Heāll notice your dress first and heāll stop you to tell you that itās his favorite color. And youāll blush wildly once you realize who he is and thank him profusely for taking the time to speak with you.
Heāll offer to buy you a croissant and youāll laugh at his attempt at a French accent. Then youāll part ways for about half an hour as he and Alexander talk while you return to your chai in the corner of the restaurant.
But heāll stop by your small table before he leaves. Heāll tell you his name and ask for yours.
Youāll give it to him.
And from that moment on, neither of your lives will ever be the same.
Youād thought long and hard about the decision before agreeing to this second chance. Wondering if there was any other way you could warn him and keep him out of that car without having to lose him completely.
Destiny said no.
As long as your soul is intertwined with his, he will always meet the same fate.Ā
The only way to save himā¦is to let him go.
You hear Harry curse to himself as he runs a hand through his hair, tugging on it until he winces.Ā
The last fragile shard of your heart shatters when you see him drop into a crouch, head cradled in his palms.
āThe fuck is wrong with me?ā you hear him mumble, the hauntingly familiar question echoing between the empty arena walls until it finds you.
Heās asked himself that at least a hundred times throughout your relationship.
Your answer is always the same:
āNothing,ā youāll whisper before taking him into your arms. āNothing, H. Youāre perfectly imperfect and I love you.ā
Heāll melt in your embrace before allowing himself to sink into your body. āI love you.ā
Youād give anything to offer him that comfort now.
Not that heād know what to do with it.
Suddenly, his head lifts, eyes drifting around the white corridors in thought before they find you.
Your breath catches as you scramble to hide around the corner, pulse racing as you hear him stand, his shoes squeaking along the linoleum floors.
āHello?ā
Your eyes squeeze shut, back pressing into the wall. āSorry,ā you call, silently commanding him not to come over. āJustā¦looking for the bathroom. My bad.ā
But you hear him approach. Hear his feet lead him to you in a way that almost feelsā¦destined.
Youāre frozen to your spot, acutely aware of the way you should be heading for the exit. You did what you came to do. Heās safeā¦and you need him to stay that way.
But you couldnāt resist one final look. One final glimpse of the man that had asked you to marry him only moments before getting into that damned car.
His head peeks out from behind the wall to look for you, brows raising when he sees the way youāre cowering away from him.Ā
āAre you all right?ā he asks, and his voice holds the same compassion heās demonstrated with you a hundred times before. Despite the fact that he doesnāt know you nowā¦he still cares.
One of the many reasons you fell in love with him. His kindness for everybody.
āYes, sorry,ā you repeat, eyes falling to his shoes. You canāt look at him. āI justā¦couldnāt find the bathroom.ā
āI get it.ā He laughs. And the sound makes your stomach rip down the middle. āSāplace is huge. You wanna go down this hallway, make a right, follow that hallwayā¦and then it should be on your left.ā
You nod without lifting your head. āThanks. Sorry again for bothering you.ā
āNo, donāt be,ā he insists. āI was justā¦taking a minute.ā
āYeah,ā you reply, and your voice is small. Weighed down by the burden of your grief. āSometimes we need a minute. Or two.ā
āOr twenty,ā he adds, chuckling again. āI swear, sometimes I think I have a handle on this shit, and sometimesā¦it feels like it's completely out of my hands. Like somebody else is pulling the strings and Iām justā¦along for the ride.ā
Your throat constricts as the imminent tears rush to your eyes. āYeah.ā
He pauses and you can feel his eyes on the top of your head. Heās studying you. Your body language, your demeanor, your voice. Looking for something. Looking for whatās wrong.
He did this all the time when you were first dating.
Eventually, he learned to read you like a book.
āSeriously, are you all right?ā he asks again, softer this time. Hoping to coax a real answer out of you.
No. No, youāre not all right. How are you supposed to tell him goodbye? How are you supposed to look at the man that asked you to marry him and see that he has no idea who you are?
And that he never will?
How are you supposed to walk through those double doors when you know that the moment you doā¦youāll forget. Youāll forget him, youāll forget your relationship, and youāll forget the fact that you lost him.
And maybe thatās okay because at least then, youāll forget that you watched him die. Forget that you watched the life leave his eyes as his hand went limp in yours.
Heād made you promise youād be okay.
And it was the last thing he ever did.
You donāt know if heād approve of this. You donāt think he would.
But youād rather have his life than his love.
You take a deep breath and force your shoulders back. āYes, sorry. Just taking a minute myself.ā
He hums. āYeah. I get that. Life isā¦hard.ā
āVery,ā you whisper before you trail your eyes to his.
He smiles.
And it almost guts you.
āTryā¦counting to ten,ā you say as you take a step back, putting a lifetime of distance between you. āWhenever Iām upset, I just take a deep breath, hold it, and count to ten. And when Iām doneā¦everything doesnāt feel soā¦loud.ā
He seems intrigued by this premise, the corner of his mouth quirking up into a smirk as he nods once. āYeah. Iāll try that.ā
You nod yourself and turn on your heel. You donāt want to leave him but you canāt stay.
Destiny is calling you back.
You make it about three steps before a hand snatches onto your wrist and spins you around.
You know this touch. Know what it means, and you canāt force yourself to see him as he steps closer.
āWait,ā he murmurs, and thereās an urgency woven between each syllable that springs the tears to your waterline.
You go still.
"I know you..." he whispers, eyes trailing over the side of your face, "...don't I?"
Even now, the echo of his love calls out for you.
You swallow every truth you wish you could tell him, and slip yourself from his touch for the last time.
Nah because if this isnāt Harry spending a couple of days at home in Manchester after finishing his tour then I donāt know what is ā¦. You were his first port of call when he landed in London at 3am on a wintry Friday morning, knocking on your door loudly because he could wait to see you , the two of you spending days together barely leaving your bedroom before normality hits and you have to go back to work. So when he decides to visit his mum all he can talk about is you and how much he missed you while he was away and how he sheepishly tells Anne that heās found the one and of course she already knew this but sheās thrilled to hear him say it because she loves you like your her own and as your sitting at your desk answering yet another passive aggressive email from Helen in payroll you canāt help but smile to your self when you get a text with your two favourite people. Hā¤ļø: I think mum misses you more than I do x
this is best friend harry getting dressed in the morning after the two of you hooked up and youāre freaking out thinking this is the end of your friendship but he is calm as hell bc heās been in love with you forever and he knows this will finally turn things over
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yourinstagram all smiles lately š„¹
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yourbff my girl got her dream job ily
jefezoff šš»šš»
harryfan1 iām here bc harry followed her hello
ā³ harryfan2 same
ā³ harryfan3 and jeff also commented who is sheee
ā³ harryfan4 she was in the lnt music video and sheās a photographer !
ā³ harryfan2 oooh thatās right
anthonypham ā¤ļø
ā³ harryfan2 new tour photographer?
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harrystyles Love On Tour. New York City II. August, 2022.
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harryfan1 BABYYY
harris_reed Itās giving camp candy cane and Iām obsessed
yourinstagram I canāt wait to see the show š¤
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ā³ harryfan1 hello miss who are you
ā³ yourinstagram oh just a silly little photographer
ā³ harryfan2 NEW TOUR PHOTOGRAPHER I CALLED IT
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rollingstone Presenting our first-ever global cover star: The world's most wanted man, @Harry_Styles.
The pop icon opens up about his huge year, his two new films, activism, sexuality, therapy, and more.
Photographer @.yourinstagram
Writer @.brittanyspanos
Styling @.harry_lambert
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harryfan1 OMFGGGG
harry_lambert Angel ā¤ļø
yourinstagram i still canāt believe i got this honor š„¹ thank you thank you @.harrystyles @.jefezoff @.rollingstone
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harryfan2 MY BABYYYYY
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yourinstagram i had the honor of a lifetime photographing @.harrystyles for @.rollingstoneās first-ever global cover (also my first magazine cover ever š„ŗ) and i also have the honor to join his one of a kind love on tour residencies
last year i was struggling to pay rent and now this is my life, never give up on your dreams, kids š„²
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yourbff SO PROUD OF YOU
harryfan1 aww this is so cute ! i loved the RS shoot so i canāt wait to see the pics she takes on tour
pillowpersonpp ā¤ļø
sabrinacarpenter the best out there š¤
harrystyles Welcome to the road x
ā³ harryfan1 imagine harry being your boss
ā³ yourinstagram š„²š
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harryupdates āIf you see a tiny lady sneaking around the pit, donāt try to kick her out and make sure to smile at her, sheās in charge of capturing all of your faces tonight and the following nights, give it up fro YN!ā - Harry introducing his new photographer tonight !
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harryfan1 aww thatās cute
harryfan2 i can confirm that sheās tiny
harryfan3 i love her already
harryfan4 my baby
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yourinstagram the tiny lady who sneaks into pit š thank you for the warm welcome š¤
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harryfan1 youāre our bestie already
harry_lambert Sheās small but donāt underestimate her
ā³ yourinstagram i love you
pillowpersonpp The tiny lady and the mother drummer are already best friends ā¤ļø
ā³ yourinstagram THEY ARE š„ŗ
harryfan2 she took pics of me and my girlfriend last night sheās the sweetest
ā³ yourinstagram dm me so i can email you those pics !
ā³ harryfan1 AWEEE
harrystyles ā¤ļø x
ā³ harryfan1 HARRYYYYY
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harrystyles Love On Tour. New York City III. August, 2022.
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harryfan1 MY BABYY
jefezoff šš»šš»
harryfan2 amazing picture wow
yourinstagram my doing š„ŗš„ŗ
ā³ harryfan3 THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR BLESSING US
YNāS INSTAGRAM STORIES
TEXTS BETWEEN HARRY AND YN / YN AND SARAH
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harryupdates Harry and his photographer YN out in New York today !
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harryfan1 BABYYY
harryfan2 besties š
harryfan3 iām not going to say what iām thinking
ā³ harryfan4 iām thinking it too
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yourinstagram guess whoās behind the camera now
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pillowpersonpp ššš
harryfan1 harrryyyyyy
paulithepsm yooo i wanted to thirdwheel
ā³ harryfan2 omggg??
harryfan3 imagine harry taking pictures of you
harrystyles Great photography skills x
ā³ yourinstagram soon you wonāt need me anymore
ā³ harrystyles Thatās debatable.
ā³ harryfan2 not them having a conversation on insta comments also ACTIVE HARRY ???
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harrystyles Love On Tour. New York City VII. September, 2022
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harryfan1 HE DID IT AGAIN
annetwist ā¤ļøā¤ļø
yourinstagram i feel so honored to capture this moment š¤
ā³ harryfan2 aweee a softie
harryfan3 i love you
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YNāS INSTAGRAM STORIES
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harrystyles Love On Tour. New York City VIII. September, 2022.
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harryfan1 MY BOY
harris_reed Nobody puts baby in a box ā¤ļø
yourinstagram love me some soft goods š„°
ā³ harrystyles The softest and the goodest x
ā³ harryfan1 HEEEELP WHAT IS THIS
ā³ harryfan2 GOODEST I CANT š
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yourinstagram does it look like iāve been living at msg for the past month?
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harryfan1 wow she really is gorgeous
harryfan2 would you cancel me if i saw i would be happy if she dated harry?
ā³ harryfan3 no bc same
harrystyles Madison Square Garden is YNās House x
ā³ yourinstagram indeed
ā³ harryfan1 i love them
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YNāS INSTAGRAM STORIES
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yourinstagram tonight concludes 15 nights of photographing this kind, beautiful and witty soul. 15 nights of laughter, music and lots and lots of love. i donāt know what i did right to find someone as h in my life, but i thank my lucky stars every night i did
hereās to new beginnings š
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harryfan1 CUTE š„ŗ
annetwist I canāt wait to meet you, dear ā¤ļø
ā³ harryfan2 aNNE????
harryfan2 this feels too personal
harryfan3 theyāre dating iām calling it
harrystyles ā¤ļøx
ā³ harryfan4 STOP IT WITH THE HEARTS COME ON
ā³ harryfan5 if theyāre together heās never confirming it anyways
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harrystyles You stub your toe, I break your camera x
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harryfan1 HELLOOOOOOO
jefezoff ā¤ļøā¤ļø
harryfan2 DID HE JUST SOFT HARD LAUNCH THEIR RELATIONSHIP???
harryfan3 I TOLD YOU THEY WERE DATING and also this is the cutest pic ever š„ŗ
yourinstagram canāt get you off my mind š¤
ā³ harryfan5 lol this doesnāt mean theyāre dating
ā³ harryfan2 come on be serious, why would he post a picture of her and all this comments if they werenāt together
This is my favourite thing to do, sometimes itās my second favourite, i wonāt tell you what the first favourite is, you can guess, but a lot of the time this is my absolute favourite thing to do
