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Dear The Man in Blue 13/9/2017

This is where I stop writing about you, my darling. I have officially gotten over you leaving my life forever. It makes me sad now when I’m writing about it, because I feel like I have created this world where no one can know my true feelings towards you, a world of creating scenes with you that will never happen...a world where you loved me...

Even though, this journey of many years took me on a lot of emotional roller coasters, it is time to end it. I had one last interaction with you a few weeks ago. It is very painful to know that a person who I’ve loved, respected and looked up to doesn’t even respect me at all.

It was extremely hard to deal with that fact, but now I’m fine... I finally love myself. You are not a secret reason for all of my actions and thoughts. You did create a base of my personality, but I’m me now. I’m not “what’s left of his shadow”, I don’t go to places just to see you, I’m me. It feels amazing. Now I can finally dedicate myself to me and my loved ones...not you.

Dear The Man In Blue,

you have been a part of my life for a really long time. Not so much physically as it was more mentally. I am letting you go. I am free. Everything I’ve felt for so many years is now over. You don’t matter anymore. I matter. You were my first love. We had a great time together. It was good while it lasted. It should have been over for me when our little fun was over. But, it finally happened. Now, I finally feel the same for you as you do for me: 0 respect. Thank you for all the great times, for all the memories, for all the nights when my pillow was soaked, for every smile, every kiss, every touch, every look... It is time for me to say goodbye to you and my feelings towards you. I hope I never see you again.

//the man in blue/goodbye my love//

13/8/17

Ne znam šta mi više fali. Više ne smijem ni spominjati da mi fale tvoji poljupci, dodiri i ljubav. To više ne smije da mi fali. Bilo bi me stid kad bih rekla da mi to fali jer je prošlo toliko dugo. Trenutno mi nedostaje vidjeti te. Nedostaje mi način na koji sjediš, stojiš, hodaš; način na koji gledaš negdje u daljinu dok hodaš sa tako izgubljenim, ali u isto vrijeme sigurnom pogledom. Da li ti uopšte više postojiš? Gdje postojiš? Na kojem svijetu? Zašto to nije moj svijet? Sve si mi dalje i dalje. Kao da sam ti potpuno nebitna…Naravno da jesam.

//the man in blue//

buhbulgum

and they’ll ask me, “after all this time?” and I’ll nod, and say yes, because it’s still you, it’s always been you.

(via buhbulgum)

u-n-known-poet

I wanted it to be you. God damn, I really did.

An eleven word story. (via u-n-known-poet)

apikaliaa

I deleted your number from my phone; yet I cannot erase the memories of us, and the nights we spent alone.

a.a. (via apikaliaa)

sunnflowerso

Dear you, You showed me the loveliest parts of you, the most vulnerable ones. Ones you’ve probably only shown the truest people in your life. I’m glad I was once one of those people. I learned from you what it means to give your all to someone. What it means to plant your seeds inside someone, to watch them bloom. I learned what true pain it could be when you watch the winter roll over and the flowers inside of you begin to wilt. Most of all, I learned what it meant to be in love. I learned the kind of person I am when I become truly engrossed in someone, and what the word regret means. I do not regret falling in love with you, I do not regret the memories we will forever share, but I regret letting you go. I still love you, I always will. Sincerely, The girl you once loved.

A Letter To The Boy I Once Loved (via sunnflowerso)

tatina-mala-princeza

Niko me u životu nije slomio kao on.

I.M. (via tatina-mala-princeza)

smells-like-teensluts

“ in the beginning, i loved your copper hair i loved the way you flexed your arms and the way you used to stare and then i fell, i fell for the constellation of freckles on your face and the little crease by your eyes when you’d smile i looked into the pools of green in front of me which held the storms of time, the storms you let me see. you touched me, felt me, as if i was oxygen and you couldn’t breathe. and then the clouds disappeared and the sun came out because the storm had consumed me, wrecked me i was just a piece of debris caught up in your affairs and i realised why hurricanes were named after people ” - // hurricane a.j.e (via @smells-like-teensluts)

fadedheartbreq-blog

You left your mark on me, and I can’t forget you. Its like no matter what I fucking do, your name is tattooed on my heart and trust me I tried to get rid of it. Tried to cover it with a different name, tried to drink it away, tried to stop feeling you through my veins but nothing ever works. Everything goes back to you. Its always you. Its you all the damn time. Its you when I’m with him. Its you when I’m alone. Its you no matter what I do or who I’m doing it with and I give up. I give up on trying to erase you. I give up on trying to replace you with something else, anything else because it only brings me back to the place I was when you decided I was no longer enough for you. And I don’t understand why its so hard to forget a person who forgot you first. I don’t understand how I can still feel the exact same way we met when I don’t even really know you anymore. You only exist in my memories and the pictures I still have of you. You are just a ghost of everything that ever was yet I still feel everything so damn clearly, as if we were back 6 months ago in your car when you first told me you loved me. Everything is so damn clear except your so far away I don’t know how I can still see you so well.

You’re in my veins (via fadedheartbreq)

justscribbledwords

i’ll pretend not to know how you are doing when my friends ask me about you i’ll pretend not to miss you when that’s the only thing i feel i’ll pretend that i don’t want to see you when everywhere i go yours is the only face i look for i’ll pretend i don’t think of you when i am all alone when you are the only thing on my mind i’ll pretend that the butterflies i feel in my stomach when you text me aren’t butterflies but leeches trying to suck my blood i’ll pretend i never wrote a word about you when you are the only person i have ever written about i’ll pretend i don’t feel anything for you when you are the only person that has ever made me feel i’ll pretend that you don’t mean anything to me when you are the centre of my universe, have been for longer than you should be i’ll pretend that i don’t even like you when i am in love with you

i’ll pretend that i have moved on from you like i never ever held onto you // JustScribbledWords (via justscribbledwords)