for the record
re: Liminal
I've been reading everything and thinking everything over and I think the only thing that I can really emphasize is that I didn't know a Lot of what's coming out now when I read the apps. My focus in reading them was that there were assertive and accurate trigger warnings- but I had no idea about the blog- or even Sasha's history in the rpc. I see a lot of manipulation on Sasha's part that in turn colored staff dynamics and I think an attempt could have been made to turn us on each other for show. Because of that I don't really want to name names in what I say. But I was asleep for a member's first ticket- that was handled without me. I was also hospitalized twice in October and so I've been minimally involved in the rpc the last couple of months. Something about Sasha made me uncomfortable but I tried to look for facts over feelings. And that's what I think my involvement lacks- facts. Like, I didn't know a quarter of this when I said that I guessed things were okay to go through. I didn't see where it was going. I realize this could read as a cop-out and I'm not trying for it to be. I could have asked more questions- I could have said more- I could have done more. I didn't. I also don't like people's names being dragged besides Sasha because she admitted to being manipulative and has a reputation for abuse- so I just want to keep the other names in their places. I won't own or disown anything another admin or member did- just me. People are obviously entitled to feel however they want- and if i knew then what i know now I'd have done it differently. I'm genuinely sorry that it broke the trust people had for me and will understand if it's a process to get it back.