Kitkat

"You learn to write by writing." A girl who has a lot of unfulfilled dreams and wishes. She wanted to escape this dark, cruel world but who also wanted to hold that rope of life until the next life (eternity). Overthinker, a frustrated writer, clinomaniac, sapiosexual, internet junkie, a facebook tambayers, someone who fangirl a lot. (Pero with decency naman), 20 per cent optimistic, 80 per cent pessimistic, book collector, merch collector. Lalaya ka sa sa tanikala ng iyong nakaraan. Lahat ng laban, nagsisimula at nagtatapos sa iyong isipan.

[kitkatreyesposts]

We started out as friends. I didn't expect that it will turn into something romantic. I didn't expect that I will fall in love with you. You're smart, charming, cute, gentleman, understanding... I fall in love with your kindness, shyness and a lot more. I just wanna spend more time with you, my love. I always assure you that the past is in the past. I already throw it away. You don't have to be so insecure with the guys I've been with. You're here with me now. You're the one that I love. I love you. 💖😘

12-19-21

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[lostinthefairyland]

あきらめないで (Akiramenaide)

“Don’t give up”

[multifandom173]

Can we appreciate how amazing of a significant other Amy is? Sheldon is truly a lucky guy.

[rylandsgrace]

#I have never felt more represented

[just-shower-thoughts]

Life starts as a whole bunch of firsts, but slowly without us noticing becomes a whole bunch of lasts.

[kitkatreyesposts]

““You have to understand, when I like someone, everything becomes way too intense way too fast. You know the stars in his eyes, galaxies in his mind, Tinkling laughter like chimes on a windy day, Chocolate chip cookie smiles, All of it. All of it becomes way too real. I can’t help but wonder this marvel that is sitting in front of me because of the successive generations of transfer of genes to create this human being.does he even know how perfectly imperfect he is? Every freckle, every blemish, every imperfection, is so Goddamn perfect. Does he even know? and I realize he doesn’t. Does he have have the slightest inkling now magnificently unique he is? Humans truly are. It’s time they realize it””

— thewriterthatnobodynoticed (via wnq-writers)

[kitkatreyesposts]

“My pain is nothing compared to my hometown’s scars”

— Yuzuru Hanyu (via ruker)

[cantilovertranslations]

Team Japan at JOC Olympic event. x x x

Q: Describe what you cherish the most in one kanji.

Yuzuru: 翔 (to soar)

Shoma: 攻 (to attack)

Satoko: 躍 (to succeed/to leap)

Wakaba: 決 (to decide/determination)

“I wrote it with the meaning of ‘determining my technique’ (pinpointing my skills) and to ‘determine the stomach’ (to be prepared for anything).“

Mai: 舞 (dance)

Marin: 凜 (bravery/aura)

“I’ve never thought about this, but I wrote it with the feeling of ‘living with an aura’.”

Sota: 感 (to feel)

[toadsrbutch]

nothing is ever going to be better than this gif. I see this gif and I just about cry every time.

[dotty-literati]

HD remake

[kitkatreyesposts]

Cutie pie yern

[kitkatreyesposts]

My mind's blank right now.

Instead of sulking, I am thinking of starting a blog post. I can talk about almost anything. Maybe kind of generic thing to do but...just want to take my mind off some things.

I was feeling ashamed of how I am treating my boyfriend. He's doing the best he can in our relationship. He's pretty amazing. But sometimes, his words struck a chord in me. Last night, I was trying to get some kind of assurance. But I didn't get it. Instead he asked me to analyze it myself. I just told him that maybe I love him more than he loves me. But, he does. He loves me. I am not sure how much. Or maybe I'm just a greedy bitch asking for more.

I'm self sabotaging again. I should not discredit my boyfriend. It's just... It feels sad that we're miles away from each other. Everyone keeps on telling me that Caloocan is not that far. Yet we just see each other once a month. But I stay with him for two days max. It's hard actually. I'm quite needy myself. I badly want and craves physical touch and intimacy most of the time. I am open about it with him.

I kinda feel numb. I just don't know what to do. But what I know is that.. I love him with all my heart, soul, strength. There's no other love that can surpass the kind of love I have for him. That's why, I cry most of the time. I always miss him. I always wanna be with him. I am depending my life in him. And I don't want to imagine a life without him. Really.

I am that sappy. Dramatic. Emotional. Crazy. But, I mean well. I just don't wanna lose this person coz if I did, it'll be a spiral breakdown for me. Ah, I miss typing, sharing my innermost feelings. It's been a while. I always share my feelings with him. It's just sometimes, I don't know if it gets invalidated. But I don't think he's like that with me. He's the most considerate, understanding person I know. He wants to share with my sadness. But, my traumas are not his responsibility. He doesn't deserve to be treated that way. Honestly.

I just feel sad because... He's not updating me. Maybe he feels sad too. Maybe I'm too much. I hope he still wants me.

April 29, 2022, 5:40 pm

[kitkatreyesposts]

Am I being sensitive lately?

I'm now torn opening up to my boyfriend. I understand, he's busy, he told me. He asked for my patience and understanding. But, why it feels like I'm loved less? Though it was not the case? Something changed. I don't know what could that be or I'm just overthinking about it?

I want to support him always... I really do. I just don't want to come to a point that he'll blame me because he wasn't able to do what he needs to do, because he keeps on focusing in me. But, how about me? But, I really wanna support him in everything he do... But I'm kinda hurting because.. it meant we have to sacrifice our time. I am willing to wait on him. Because he always assures me that he's doing it for our future. That I am his priority but.. how about what I'm feeling?

I don't know if it makes sense but, I just feel hurting just a bit. But, I love him so much. I always want him to feel that I support him. He takes care of me. His attention is in me whenever we're together. He never uses his phone. He always smiles at me. Eventhough he's tired, he always makes sure that I am okay. He is selfless. My mother always reminds me to be patient.

I just hope and pray we can be together someday. I hope.. that he will reach his dreams. I must be patient enough. I must stop overthinking that he love me less just because we have a little time with each other... Because he said himself, it's not the case.

I told him Sunday is our time together. I'm not reminding him, I just wanna see if he can remember what I said. I'm crying because.. maybe I miss him and I don't know if he misses me the same way I misses him. Maybe, I can just try to be busy...

I haven't eaten my breakfast and lunch... I'm just pretty much sad right now.

March 6, 2022, 4:00pm

[platypus-quacks-too]

shamy + in their bed

[rgbcn]

always reblog

[kitkatreyesposts]

Me and my boyfriend soon. 💖💖💖 I love you.

[timotaychalamet]

what a mood

[just-shower-thoughts]

Fish don’t have sex. They just masturbate next to each other.

[books-n-quotes]

Torment yourself as little as possible, then you’ll torment me less.

Franz Kafka, Letters to Milena (via books-n-quotes)

[books-n-quotes]

I thought about how love was always the thing that did that - smashed into you, left you raw. The deeper you loved, the deeper it hurt.

Wally Lamb, She’s Come Undone (via books-n-quotes)

[kitkatreyesposts]

puyat XD @ borough https://www.instagram.com/p/BtNNrAAj8Tg/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=erc8ekgsqwlw