Alexithymia

A DDLG/Pet BDSM Blog. 18+ only

[bpdjayjay]

me to everyone i know: 2018 is a chance to change and finally take charge of your life and be happy!

me, on january 1st: what’s the most self destructive thing i could do right now

[shareaquote]

Every person I’ve ever loved has some how become toxic to me. A living, breathing reminder of why I was always better off alone. I love too hard, too quickly and then sometimes I don’t love enough. I guess I’m just bad at love.

Kristie Betts (via shareaquote)

[shareaquote]

I know only one thing: If you wanted to stay, you would have.

thedemonkings  // Things you learn along the way. (via shareaquote)

[youngstarsburn]

Lips that need no introduction, but now waiting for your call. If picture’s worth a thousand words, then your touch is worth them all.

Anberlin (via youngstarsburn)

[anberlinlyrics]

STRANGER WAYS

locking eyes a waining glance

mistook chance of adding meaning to the words forever

broken silence defiance, misspoke turn

will i see you again if ever

cmon and leave me here on a vagabond throne

wondering the night alone

right now you’re over there in a social club state

pondering the why, why are we alone

a little bit closer to finding the real you

little bit closer to finding the truth

stranger things have happened

stronger men have answered

a little bit closer to loving you

depth defying i’m lying

if I didn’t tell you, you keep me up awake at night

is it alright if I call you lover even though we don’t know

each other, and probly never will

would you stay with me

here in my dreams if I promised you this heaven

would you take a chance

on a make believe dance

close my eyes and were together

stranger things have happened

stronger men have answered

a little bit closer defining the real you

little bit closer defining the truth

a little bit closer to holding you

a little bit closer to knowing you

a little bit closer to touching you

One of the guys in the band didn’t like this song, he wanted me to rewrite the lyrics and melodies, I just couldn’t do it. The song was so subconsciously ideal, I felt it matched the mood of the music that was given to me.

I imagined someone who simply watched someone from afar, never confident enough to approach the person and simply have a conversation. Instead of dreaming with the person, they simply resign to dream of the person. 

The title will only be known to those at AP.NET

‘right now you’re over there in a social club state’ was supposed to be Right now you’re over there in a Pinewood Social Club state (because its one of my favorite places in Nashville) but when I tried to sing it it was way to wordy. 

 The video for this song was done by Daniel Davidson, and is perhaps my favorite video we have ever done. The meaning behind the video is so perfect as a last video. Good job Nathan. 

[shareaquote]

Some people are alone not because they do hate people or are they anti-social. Some just don’t want to burden anyone with their presence. For how in the world would you believe that someone would like and enjoy your company if you yourself is disgusted by your very own existence.

gablaraayala (via wordsnquotes)

[shareaquote]

I still remember how it felt to be loved by you. Completely intoxicating and consuming, you left me wanting more. I still remember how it felt to lose you. Like my happiness would forever be a distant memory.

Kristie Betts (via wordsnquotes)

[fyp-psychology]

PSYCHOLOGY FACT #732

Loneliness is both physically and mentally damaging.

Read More Psychology Facts Here

[kitten---little]

Owe

[lulabellexo]

:O what's going on?

[kitten---little]

Well, Tumblr, you’ve done it again.

[wordsnquotes]

Please believe that things are good with me, and even when they’re not, they will be soon enough.

Stephen Chbosky, The Perks of Being a Wallflower (via wordsnquotes)

Still one of the best books ever written.

[thelovejournals]

Love, being in love, isn’t a constant thing. It doesn’t always flow at the same strength. It’s not always like a river in flood. It’s more like the sea. It has tides, it ebbs and flows. The thing is, when love is real, whether it’s ebbing or flowing, it’s always there, it never goes away. And that’s the only proof you can have that it is real, and not just a crush or an infatuation or a passing fancy.

Aidan Chambers, This is All: The Pillow Book of Cordelia Kenn 

(via wordsnquotes)

[thelovejournals]

Mais c’est cela l’amour, tout donner, tout sacrifier sans espoir de retour.

Albert Camus, Les Justestranslation:

“But that’s love, to give away everything, to sacrifice everything, without the slightest desire to get anything in return.”

(via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

Why didn’t I learn to treat everything like it was the last time? My greatest regret was how much I believed in the future.

Jonathan Safran Foer, Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close (via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

When you love someone, you say their name different. Like it’s safe inside your mouth.

Jodi Picoult, Handle With Care (via wordsnquotes)

[thelovejournals]

There are two people you ’ll meet in your life. One will run a finger down the index of who you are and jump straight to the parts of you that peak their interest. The other will take his or her time reading through everyone of your chapters and maybe fold corner of you that inspired them most. you will meet these two people; it is a given. It is the third that you’ll never see coming. That one person who not only finishes your sentences, but keeps the book.

Unknown (via thelovejournals)

[thequotejournals]

I dream of a love that is more than two people craving to possess one another.

Irvin D. Yalom, (American existentialist psychologist), When Nietzsche Wept (via wordsnquotes)

[wordsnquotes]

I had no feeling for the things so many others needed.

Charles Bukowski (via wordsnquotes)