Who even am I

recently out enby (bi gender?), bisexual, they/them. 23, leftist, mentally ill. try to keep my blog chill for the most part 👾

[subsequentibis]

utterly infuriating that tumblr’s porn ban just hit sex workers and queer creators and i still regularly get five pornbot followers a week whose posts are Just stolen pictures of naked women and somehow they never get flagged

[kittensandmangoes]

TW depressing bpd rant, just venting

Knowing I'll prob never find love bc of my mental illness' (bpd in particular) and the fact that on top of pathologically fucking up relationships I have nothing to bring to the table (I'm so low energy, my mental health issues, meds and fibromyalgia make it difficult to physically and emotionally contribute and I'm an SSI applicant so I have no money) just seals it doesn't it? And last night I got mad at a close friend of mine for basically no reason and used every fiber of decent-human-being I have to try to turn it around and be better but I know it upset him. I know it hurt him. And now I'm having like the worst bpd episode bc I've had like 4 nightmares in the last year about destroying my friendship with him and I'm convinced he hates me and never wants to see me again. I dont want to be alone but I can't stop lighting every relationship I have on fucking fire. BPD is such a lonely and viscous disorder. I struggle with bipolar depression, anxiety, bulimia, trauma but bpd is the thing I hate the most. I hate it bc it turns me into the villain. And unlike ppl like my dad who are just narcissists and dont care if they hurt ppl, I feel horrible about it. I do have empathy, a lot of empathy and thinking about the ways I've hurt ppl makes me feel like I'm being cut with a fiery blade. I just try so hard to change and be normal and communicate properly and not take everything so personally and not be triggered so easily or so angry and inflammatory but I just cant stop it. I can't.

This is why the suicide rate for bpd is 1 in fucking 10. And I'm not rly suicidal bc I'm too scared of death, I just really wish I was never born.

[thebluestockingfirefly]

Our Lady of the Bin.

[heavyweightheart]

and to be clear, there’s nothing wrong or lesser about eating on a schedule if you have unreliable hunger cues! that’s GREAT. and we love the prefrontal cortex for letting us work a meal plan to ensure our body’s needs are being met in the absence of hunger cues. eating when we don’t feel hungry bc we know we need to is a fantastic wonderful life-supporting skill.

but when you do feel hungry, don’t let a plan keep you from eating! hunger is an always-reliable but one-way marker. if you feel it, eat! if you don’t, you may still need to eat. the theme here is: eat. :)

[kittensandmangoes]

Hunger isn't always reliable. People can also feel hunger when they shouldn't due to hormonal imblanaces, past restrictive food behaviors, emotions, medications and other factors. I've struggled with bulimia and have PCOS and as a result I've struggled with feeling overly hungry (not just urges to eat more, but actually stomach rumbles when I've eaten plenty) as well as the opposite (absence of hunger cues). It's ok to eat on a schedule if your hunger cues are unreliable in any direction! (But of course if you truly are hungry, you should eat).

[lesbianboboberens]

recreational space travel is objectively immoral

[lesbianboboberens]

i am like. absolutely livid.

CO2 emissions for one ~4 person tourist space trip are 50-100 times higher than the emissions from one long-haul air flight. One SpaceX flight generates the annual carbon footprint of 278 people. Space travel is the equivalent of vomiting greenhouse gases directly into the atmosphere and it is like spitting in the rest of the world’s face.

People literally are getting sick from West Coast wildfire smoke in NYC, Philadelphia, and Toronto right now. Extreme weather has caused flooding in Germany that has killed more than 150 people. The heat wave in the Northwest in June killed hundreds. The entire American West is going through a drought with the some of the most extreme conditions they have seen in 20 years. We are living through a climate crisis that is going to get worse and worse and worse and it is not only evil and cruel to refuse to do anything about it (with your BILLIONS of dollars!) but absolutely morally rotten to continue contributing to climate change that will kill millions.

Private space travel is irredeemable and evil.

[kittensandmangoes]

Millions? More like fucking billions

[toastbutteregg]

wow im older than google…..

[renamonkalou]

Hiidenportti National Park 📷 Anna-Elina Lahti

[dankmemeuniversity]

[guerrillatech]

[annoyingalchemist]

Ok so can someone explain to me how cryptocurrency pollutes? Like what crazy calculations are they running that they need enough brainpower to significantly effect things? Like I’m assuming what’s causing the pollution is increased electricity consumption but… how does sending lil pretend money tokens back and forth or whatever cause so much pollution?

Also, what the fuck is “mining”? How d'you mine… like bitcoin is not a naturally occurring resource, and I assume that you can’t just make it, cause that would make it instantly worthless… help?

[commiemartyrshighschool]

So you get “coins” as a reward for performing the cryptographic calculations necessary to update the public ledger which is the blockchain. This is, by design, an increasingly complex and resource intensive process to slow down the collection of (intentionally finite) coins.

So every transaction with bitcoins requires the ledger to be updated with the current ownership of every already existing bitcoin, which also requires encrypting and decrypting a bunch of information and sharing it across the public ledger. So every transaction made with bitcoins increases the energy requirements of updating the ledger making it harder and harder to complete the latest version and get the coin which is a reward for doing that work.

There’s a lot I don’t fully understand myself but the long and short of it is that the actual value of any crypto currency is pretty much just what people agree on, except instead of a fiat currency where a government says it’s worth something and a mint that makes physical currency, there’s a bunch of nerds who agree that solving certain math problems is worth rewarding.

[brokenmachine3553]

Feeling like adding on for a bit of context, I know it’s kind of hard to understand how mining for really any kind of crypto is hard to imagine, but seeing what a bitcoin mining facility looks like for the first time really helped me realize just how energy intensive it is.

See all these warehouses? They’re quite literally filled to the brim with specialized computers that do nothing but mine, each one filled with thousands of these computers, just row after row of this:

So all the power consumption winds up adding up like crazy.

[white-throated-packrat]

Yep, that’s why cryptocurrency and NFTs are considered major contributors to pollution – because the energy needs of all those computers doing the calculation are equivalent to a medium sized country. Currently, crypto consumes more energy than Argentina.

[ralfmaximus]

Guess what’s inside a lot of mining rigs? Gowan, guess.

Graphics cards! 

Lots and lots of these puppies side by side, spinning their little fans as fast as they can go because as it turns out: GPUs are perfect for doing the calculations required for mining cryptocurrency.

Which means amateur miners buy a lot of these things.

So many, in fact, that there is now (May 2021) a world-wide shortage of NVIDIA and AMD graphics cards and building a new gaming rig is damn near impossible because of the shortage. 

OR you can pay a ridiculously inflated price by GPU scalpers on eBay.

Seriously. Places that sell GPUs impose quantity limits because if they don’t… some crypto asshole will buy out their entire stock in one go.

But the “good” news is that the professional miners (like the Bitmain site up there, in the photos) use dedicated ASIC mining rigs which don’t use consumer GPUs. But (bad news) they DO use the same sort of chips that NVIDIA & AMD rely on to make their products, which just starves the supply pipeline at a different point.

Bottom line: not only does cryptocurrency mining consume terawatts of electricity, it also consumes megatons of computer hardware. Which is expensive to produce (in resource terms, like rare metals, petroleum, water, electricity, paper) and will, someday, require even MORE resources to recycle. Or else it ends up in a landfill.

Note that current dedicated mining rigs are so highly specialized they are useless for anything other than mining. They cannot be easily repurposed to  (say) sequence DNA or fold proteins for miracle cures.

What a waste.

[smute]

was anyone gonna tell me that some nerds peepee poopoo “currency” is the reason why graphics cards are sold out everywhere or was i supposed to find that out from comments under a screenshot from twitter user whoreganic cop puncher explaining how bitcoin is just an artificially complicated math problem

[hotvampireadjacent]

Also I’ve read be very wary about buying used graphic cards cause there’s a chance it’s one that’s mostly heavily used from one of these bastards. These thing are very heavily used so a used one sold by one of these guys would be on its last leg of life from being on 24/7

Make sure there’s a return policy just be very careful if you’re buying used.

[commiemartyrshighschool]

To be more fair than Crypto miners deserve, they’re only one of the factors driving the current chip shortage.

The other issues are both related to the pandemic. The first one is that manufacturing of a many things, especially cars, slowed down quite a bit until recently when the factories reopened. But so many reopened at the same time and went full blast that the demand far outstripped the supply, a supply already reduced by the shutdown of those factories.

The other bottleneck is literal mining. Computer chips rely on silicon and various metals, especially gold and copper to conduct electricity to do their work. In normal times this means that crypto’s environmental impact is even higher than just the energy requirements. But in the meantime the mines and refineries that provide the raw materials were also shut down in many cases due to the pandemic, squeezing the supply further.

Mining shutdowns have also caused a huge shortage of ammunition in the US (brass bullet casings need copper). Which means for anybody wanting to buy consumer electronics of a reasonable complexity you’re competing against both ends of the libertarian spectrum, the crypto techies and the gun nuts.

[blackwoolncrown]

Really glad someone brought this home to actual mining, and I want to show you what the mines look like:

These are silica mines, necessary for making ALL things requiring silicon, among other things.

These are rare-earth mineral mines.

Both are required for the manufacture of computer technologies. Both requre excavating huge amounts of earth, decimating all life in that area and more often than not, ruining land that is supposed to be stewarded by indigenous people.

They’re very, very bad for the environment.

This is where the ‘online’ world comes from. It’s not another place. Every transaction, every pixel comes from the ground.

So yeah, crypto mining is definitely deceptive. That ‘value’ isn’t coming from nowhere. It’s ripped from the earth.

[penpolyon]

So Iain up Earth’s rarest reasorces to make nerd horoscopes, got it.

[upsettingandunfortunateclasshate]

This educated the fuck out of me. Thank you

[kingsfoill]

[virtuallyinsane]

[peak-widow]

The Panthers used to ride around and follow the police.

So the cops would pull over some sorry black person, and get ready to rough him up, but then there were the Panthers right behind them. Watching, armed to the teeth, and citing legal statutes. It’s inspirational.

[ssstop-it-sunflowa]

Bring it back.

[pumpkinmcqueen]

Bring this back.

[cosmic-noir]

For real.

[thefandomdropout]

That’s why the FBI broke them up, isn’t it ?

[goddesscru]

That among other community initiatives. They had weapons training, self defense, their free breakfast program and ran a newspaper. They raised money to pay for bail and legal funding for people. And they used to notify the community of their rights and encourage people to know the laws and protest the one which were unjust. That type of shit irked the local police and damned sure struck a nerve with the FBI. They were taking back the streets and providing the protection the police were never interested in bringing to their neighborhoods from the very start. So it’s always fuck the FBI for me.

[wondrousworld]

[virtuallyinsane-autumn]

[cottaqecore]

cottagecore magazine

[anxietyproblem]

[crimby]

[crimby]

you know what’s weird? a few of the notes i get on this drawing are people being negative and saying they would never want to look like this

but the OVERWHELMING MAJORITY of people reblogging this are overwhelmingly positive. they are excited to see a beautiful visual representation of their own body type, romanticized and loved as all body types should be. so fuck everyone putting negative notes on this. 

these bellies are beautiful.

[dolokhoov]

These look like me!!!!!

[lionessjess]

this is me! and i’m like ?? this is okay!! very pretty!

[401jawn-deactivated20170116]

omggggggg, thank you for this honestly aw

[fatart]

keeping the commentary bc important