Sora's Den of Thought

*sigh* Inactivity sucks to be honest. ( YouTube: Sora The Reaper ) ( Twitter: @SoraTheReaper )

[kittyreapersora-blog]

Writing Prompt: Having to do something you don’t want to do.

You know that moment when you’re enjoying time with family, then someone has to ruin everything for you.

It’s starts with impersonation, then lies, then everything dissolves.

The person who’s affected is left angry to the point their shaking. wondering why they’ve been stabbed in the back by someone they thought they could trust. All because the sociopath cared more about themselves, then what’s around them. It’s not very hard to understand the sociopath’s motives. Every time you talk to that person, it’s basically the same thing over, and over, and over, and over, and over. (Kind of like that broken record player.)

“I need help trying to make my boyfriend disappear.”

I’m too busy dealing with fabricating a story to get a job so I can tell people, “These guys won’t stop bothering me, I need help from YOU to get rid of them.”

I need an idea how to commit illegal acts so that I can pretend to help you, when instead what I could’ have you doing could get you in SEVERE legal trouble, because manipulating people who care, is easier than getting someone off the street to help you. (Because my little wad of emergency money can only be stretched so far.)

I remember two phrases from my childhood that I should’ve thought about when talking (dealing) with the sociopath. “Never judge a book by it’s cover.” and “Don’t talk to strangers.” (Even if they’re family.)

Because trying to be nice to a sociopath, and trying to help, doesn’t get you very far.

[Edit: The sociopath is very cunning, and likes to cause rifts between people when that person doesn’t get their way. Even if it’s family that wants to be friends with the sociopath’s children and enjoy “visitation” without the constant complaining. Because the person knows, it’s only a matter of time before the sociopath spins another web of lies to attempt to destroy another relationship. Even if it’s causing one family member so much stress, they’re forced to cut contact with the people they care about so that they don’t get mixed up in the “fight”. (No matter how much it pains them to do so.)

Because you can NEVER win with a sociopath.

[kittyreapersora-blog]

Writing Prompt: Trying to be nice to a sociopath

When one is nice to a sociopath, so that they can talk to family in an attempt to cultivate a relationship with other family members that they haven’t talked to in a while, it isn’t easy. No matter what you do, the sociopath is around. Lurking in the shadows, trying to turn you against other family members, giving you false information to turn you against other people, just so that the sociopath seems like they’re ALWAYS in the right. (Even if they aren’t.) It’s not easy when you’re listening to horrendous lies about people you love, all the while the two people you care about (you know, the reason you put up with it all anyway), are only “allowed” to have bits and pieces of what’s going on. Instead of having all the pieces of the puzzle. It sounds really bad, but then again, what are you to do?

But trying to be nice to a sociopath wasn’t the best idea, no matter how hard you tried. 

[kittyreapersora-blog]

Writing Prompt: Normal isn’t the word.

When you’re dealing with someone who wants to keep things away from other people, kind of like a black briefcase filled with sensitive documents, so that others don’t know. You then turn people that person loves against them. because you tricked them into thinking something that wasn’t true. (It wasn’t their fault, it’s hard to tell person from person in text.)

I guess when a sociopath only cares about themselves, and can’t understand that everyone is different, there’s no winning no matter how hard you try.

[kittyreapersora-blog]

Writing Prompt: When all you want to do is have a normal visit with family, and one person keeps talking about the same thing.

There’s a time when you’re getting to know family members after a long absence to bring things up. I guess a few days into “visitation”, then every single subsequent visit after that is the right thing to do. No matter how the other person changes the subject, the other person HAS TO talk about the SAME THING. “Oh I’m having issues with my boyfriend, do you have any ideas how I can get rid of him?” “These guys keep trying to mooch money off of me, I need help trying to deal with them.”

There’s a time to bring things up, but when you’re dealing with a sociopath, it isn’t very easy.

[kittyreapersora-blog]

Writing Prompt: Family Issues Repeat Themselves

It’s one those moments when one family member doesn’t get what they want, so they cause a rift between two innocent people. All one person wanted to do was help, try to be nice because they knew something was wrong, but instead got backstabbed by someone they thought they could trust. This person has had it done in the past, was warned, but wanted to spend time with family and didn’t heed the warnings. Knowing it was only a matter of time before it happened again. Now the innocent person is wondering what went wrong to cause the problem, because you can never win with a sociopath that’s good with manipulation.

[kittyreapersora-blog]

My thoughts

Nightmares. Seeing yourself in the past and recreating a scenario that keeps you up (even if it isn’t real).

The towers are falling, I’m stuck in class. I can hear the sirens blaring around me, no one’s paying attention. Something about a muffin.

I wake up and find that the muffin isn’t real.

Damn you muffin. You got away. (>.<)

[kittyreapersora-blog]

You know what really grinds my gears? Hypocrisy

When someone says something, then flip flops and says the exact opposite.

My boyfriend is like, “I don’t mind you being lazy. I’m not going to make you do something you don’t want to do.”

Next day:

“How are we supposed to keep the room clean if you don’t do anything?”

Last time I checked, Lazy doesn’t mean work. :I 

I just thought I’d say something.