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[kamiqaze]

There are two hearts on the floor, one is mine, both are yours.

[kiyapapaya]

And Yet

You’re no Romeo

And I’m no Juliet,

We’re madly in love

And yet

We throw sharp blades of sarcasm

And poisoning words to hurt each other,

But we can’t be apart

We must stay toxic together

You’re no Romeo

And I’m no Juliet

We’re crazy in love

And yet

There’s no longer a tinkle in our eyes

Only resentment,

But we can’t walk away

As working it out is only but a figment

You’re no Romeo

And I’m no Juliet

If we’re really in love

Then why aren’t we happy yet?

TakiyaChantel

[crmsnmth]

The Last Time

You didn't slam the door that would've been easier something loud enough to hate

Instead, you left quietly like a habit you finally broke like my name had already lost its weight in your mouth

I watched you go the way people watch sunsets knowing damn well they can't stop it but wishing, just once the sky would stay

Your footsteps didn't echo they erased each one taking something with it the way you laughed that way you said "stay" the version of me that still believed you would

I wanted to call out but what was left to say? We'd already spent every word on smaller goodbyes practice runs we pretended weren't endings

So I stood there hands empty heart loud memorizing the shape of your leaving like it was something I'd need to survive

And maybe that's the cruelest part not that you walked away but how final it felt

Like a door closing in a house that no longer exists like a last cigarette you didn't know was the last until you were already out of smoke

and somehow that's how I knew this wasn't a fight wasn't a pause wasn't something we'd fix when the night got softer

This was the end wearing your face walking away from me like it had somewhere better to be

[kiyapapaya]

Scream

I want to scream until my eyes dry

I want to scream until my ears bleed

I want to scream until my mouth dries

I want to scream until my voice dies

I want to scream until my lungs burn

I want to scream until my heart heals

I want to scream until my body shakes

I want to SCREAM

I want to SHOUT

I want to LET IT ALL OUT

TakiyaChantel

[kiyapapaya]

On the Inside

This glass is full

Please don’t pour nothing else into it

I get it you had a bad day

And the world did you wrong

But did you stop to think about me

And the day I had

I can’t handle an emotional trauma dump

When I haven’t even began to process my own

On the outside I’m nodding, I’m smiling

But on the inside I’m crying, I’m screaming

This glass is full

Please don’t pour nothing else into it

You need this

You want that

But did you stop to think about me

What I need, What I want

I can’t handle your latest financial crisis

When I haven’t paid attention to my own

On the outside I’m giving, I’m smiling

But on the inside I’m shaking, I’m screaming

This glass is full

Please don’t pour nothing else into it

You made last minute plans

And you made me join you

But did you stop to think about me

And what I wanted to do

I can’t handle your guilt trips and manipulations

When I already had plans of my own

On the outside I’m laughing, I’m smiling

On the inside I’m running, I’m screaming

THIS GLASS IS FULL

PLEASE STOP POURING YOUR CRAP INTO IT

TakiyaChantel

[paper-wounds]

via

[classycookiexo]

Please reblog, this could really help someone

[the-unicorn-girl]

It says please reblog. So let's keep it going.

[kiyapapaya]

Loves Me (Not)

He loves me - pluck

He loves me not - pluck

He loves me more when the cravings start

He loves me - pluck

He loves me not - pluck

He loves me less when I speak from the heart

He loves me - pluck

He loves me not - pluck

He loves me more when it’s “cuddle season”

He loves me - pluck

He loves me not - pluck

He loves me less when I complain “for no good reason”

He loves me - pluck

He loves me not - pluck

He loves me more when I make him look good

He loves me - pluck

He loves me not - pluck

He loves me less when I put my needs first,

as I should

He loves me

He loves me not

He loves me

He loves me not

He loves me

He loves me

(Not)

— TakiyaChantel

[kiyapapaya]

Maybe…

maybe i could’ve loved you better

maybe i could’ve loved you more

but how could i love you right

when even the thought of loving myself made my heart sore

— TakiyaChantel

[kiyapapaya]

drowning

i’m drowning-

i’m panicking, i’m crying, i’m screaming

“help me somebody please help me”

i’m drowning-

I try to reach for the people around me but they don’t seem to see me

they’re dancing, and partying and having a good ole head tossed back laugh

do no one see the girl that’s drowning

i’m here i’m RIGHT HERE

if only one person would look and SEE ME

i’m drowning-

but how would they see me drowning?

they can’t see my cries because i hide them well

they can’t see the panic on my face because of the big smile plastered there

they can’t hear my screams because it comes out as giggles

and most importantly

we’re standing on dry land

but i swear

i’m drowning

— TakiyaChantel

[lazyqueenx]

75 Day Challenge🫶🏽

1. Minimum 8 hours sleep - early nights, early mornings.

2. 10,000 steps per day - one long walk or several short walks throughout the day.

3. Calorie Deficit - calculate your maintenance calories and adjust accordingly.

4. Read Everyday - aim to unwind at night with a minimum of one chapter per day.

5. Meal Planning - 3 meals a day, batch cooking and breakfast planning will make things easier.

6. Minimum 2L of water every day - monitor your intake and ensure you’re hydrated.

7. Manageable Skincare - your routine does not need to be 10 steps long, find products that work for you and be consistent every morning and evening.

8. Clean One Room - Pick one room every day to tidy and clean, spend 30 minutes every day to maintain your space.

9. One Hour for You - spend one hour every day doing a hobby or activity you love. Listening to music, baking, yoga, etc.

10. Remove Your Biggest Habit - find one bad habit you have and aim to avoid this for the entire 75 days…stop smoking, don’t eat chocolate, avoid drinking alcohol, reduce screen time, etc.

Keep a notebook, or a calendar and take progress photos if your goal is physical 🫶🏽

[scorpionlafemme]

[scorpionlafemme]

Yes absolutely 💫

[itsmyvision]

Promising myself to become the woman of my dreams.

[kiyapapaya]

self care and self love starts TODAY!

[wetheurban]

I’m not ghosting you, I’m overwhelmed. I’m not mad at you, I’m exhausted. I'm not avoiding you, I'm struggling. I'm not pushing you away, I'm recharging.

[thezenangel]

january workout plan

january 1: 9 minute cardio warmup + 20 minute pilates booty + 12 minute stretch

january 2: 20 minute pilates + 20 minute yoga

january 3: 10 minute warm up + 15 minute back + 12 minute stretch

january 4: 10 minute cardio warmup + 20 minute abs & booty pilates + 12 minute stretch

january 5: 30 minute glutes + 15 minute leg stretch

january 6: 10 minute mobility warmup + 10 minute booty + 12 minute stretch

january 7: 10 minute cardio warmup + 20 minute pilates + 12 minute stretch

january 8 - january 11: hospital stay for me (do what you want here, just stay active!)

january 12: 20 minute metabolism boost + 15 minute pilates

january 13: 10 minute cardio + 15 minute legs & booty pilates

january 14: 15 minute cardio + 15 minute pilates abs

january 15: 15 minute cardio pilates + 20 minute yoga

january 16: 15 minute pilates arms + 10 minute upper body stretch

january 17: 15 minute booty & core pilates + 20 minute yoga

january 18: 10 minute cardio + 15 minute pilates + 10 minute yoga

january 19: 25 minute yoga

january 20: 40 minute pilates

january 21: 10 minute cardio warmup + 30 minute booty & legs pilates

january 22: 10 minute cardio + 30 minute upper body & abs pilates

january 23: 39 minute pilates

january 24: 48 minute pilates

january 25: 10 minute cardio + 30 minute lower body pilates

january 26: 55 minute pilates

january 27: 15 minute cardio + 30 minute pilates

january 28: 42 minute abs & arms pilates

january 29: 42 minute pilates

january 30: 45 minute vin to yin yoga

january 31: 20 minute mobility & stretch