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Hi hello I'm back with another thing I did!

Feels like I waited forever to feel this great in my body. Wish I felt as comfortable outside in the world as I do in my home with my wife. 6/2023

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Bad Poetry "what if"

What if I am not fast enough, can't ever pass enough this dumb-ass game of gender stuff.

What if I get caught, and left distraught, forced to be a breeder again, I hope not.

What if I'll just always be Missed, just another girl on the list, only to be kicked and never kissed.

All if these are what ifs, swarming in the mists, of my mind as I reminisce. Should I just quit? Stuck with this what if? Wondering am I even worth it?

So tired of being scared. Screaming out to no one there. Wondering why would anyone care?

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Hi hello I'm back with another thing I did!

kjmisunderstood

Used to be my ish

itznarcotic

05.13.2023

Yesterday May 12,2023 I made 30 years old. Happy birthday to me. I prayed at 12:00am hoping you would hear my prayers. I miss you dearly. I wish you could see how much ive matured. I keep thinking of 2015 and how in that time I didn’t even wanna be alive. But now I’m 30. And im grateful for making it here. I’m glad that God didn’t allow me to take my own life. Because I was so blind then I couldn’t see what I was going to have now. A beautiful wife and a life that I didn’t know existed. I learned to surround myself with caring and good people. I’m creating my own happiness. I’m finally starting to feel better in my skin. I wish you could see me now! I think about you daily Nana.

I’m giving myself tulips. A tulip is a special flower. Its our flower.

Love always, kriss

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"It isn’t always comfortable. Sometimes it hurts, it even breaks your heart. But that’s okay. The journey changes you; it should change you. It leaves marks on your memory, on your consciousness, on your heart, and on your body. You take something with you. Hopefully, you leave something good behind."

—Anthony Bourdain, No Reservations

kjmisunderstood

I want to find this side of myself.

theconstellarium

Does anybody here like pretty, customized old-school game consoles??

I did this last year & I'm still kinda proud of it.

cannibalchicken

03.17.23

Sometimes I get scared cause I toll this girl about all my demons

But most of the time I’m not.

Listen to music on my skateboard

Used to relax me a lot.

I miss those days

positiveseed

If you met your younger self what would you say to him/her?

herestohopingrr

Stop putting so much emphasis on needing validation from other people. Tell your old best friend she was being an asshole before you had to lie your way out of the friendship. It’s okay to stick up for yourself

o3.1o.2o23

Today marks the second year anniversary of you leaving us. It’s a emotional day for all of us. I think it’s not that hard because I talk to you daily. I know that you’re here through my prayers. Heaven or earth can’t tear us apart. I believe in things. I feel your love. I know that you are very happy now. Your mom and dad siblings and son. I know that you were needing them from earth. At first I knew it was bad but I wanted to know “why you” so bad. But as time went along it made sense. I miss you I really really miss you. My mom text me to check on me. Really I need to check on her. Since you been gone a lot is changed. I think you’d be pretty proud of somethings while not so much others. But I have the feeling you helped open these doors to the good ones. AP and I are usually on point on for delivery of your flowers. I haven’t missed a beat. Even the smallest holidays that don’t mean a thing. We visit you. I visit you. I cut your grass. I talk I cry I pray. Sometimes I’d rather sit at your graveside then be anywhere else. I love you Nana.

Talk soon

Kriss