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✨Kolya✨ 21 ♢ MINORS DNI BLOCK please don’t report

[kkolya]

Meowdy! My name is Nikolai, and this is an nsfw (side)blog! That means that I cannot follow back I’m so sorry </3

Trigger warnings for this blog: blood k!nk, violence, knife k!nk, gun k!nk, sh, eating disorder related things occasionally (not so often anymore everyone thank Ф), obsession, possessive posts, violent fantasies, cnc, somnophilia, and other such harder k!nks, consensual toxic k!nks, con-nonc0n

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I am a system alter who fronts decently often! I know both English and Russian (though my Russian is really rusty and I’m working on getting back to being decently fluent in it; my grammar in Russian sucks). I am also a fictive but you probably won’t see much of that on here unless it’s reblogging nsfw ship art of me and my dearest lover.

This blog is a nsfw blog. Some kinks can be explained through my tendency to have violent thoughts especially about my fp (Will be referred to as my Friend or as Ф or just simply as my fp).

I use it/its pronouns for my friend. I may post concerning things but I promise everything is either fantasy or Risk Aware Non-consent and consensual abuse.

Our partner (the system my friend is in) loves my system very much and is very healthy for us. I just need more darker and violent things in my life to feel normal and to get the release I don’t often get in life. I love them very much, and I would never wish for any actual long lasting harm to come to them. I am not looking for anything from anyone as I just want my friend in said system. We are decently safe about these things and even if we aren’t it is all done with consent and knowledge. In fact I often wish it was less safe and held back less in what it does to me.

I am a switch with sadomasochistic tendencies.

I have BPD and low functioning empathy along with autism. Please be warned about that. And obviously as I have DID I have CPTSD so please be patient with me.

[obsessionavecdescouteaux]

Something about slicing your throat open over the churches alter has a certain romanticized allure to it.

[fedyaah]

If I remember correctly, this was the very first time I marked @kkolya ?

[combatcanine]

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[sisterlybloodoath]

It would be really romantic to sit in the bathtub together after having killed someone with each other, and to clean each other off the blood. Very carefully. Rinsing it. Kissing each other. Being close. The bathwater turning redder and redder. Grounding each other after the thrill, the quiet after the storm. All that excitement still running high, heartbeat running fast. Slowly after the climax, coming back down, together. Like a romantic, tender ritual.

[kkolya]

My pretty boy~

(Model: @fedyaah )

[kyvizx-deactivated20260412]

my stalker breaking my door down and forcefully grabbing my hair, slamming my face down into the hardwood floor until my face is all smashed, and im bloody and crying. him telling me how pretty i look and kissing me just to taste my blood, because he wants to taste every part of me.

[fischhirnn]

Love is complicated. You tell them "I love you," and they say, "This is private property, leave my house immediately before I call the police".

[fischhirnn]

You find the idea of ​​me being your victim too harsh? Well, I understand. Then you can consider me your tamagotchi if you want.

[kkolya]

Sometimes I remember that people would find me disgusting if they just knew of this side of me. But then those who know me other places and irl think I’m very sweet and kind. It’s just a little funny to me.

[kkolya]

I’m learning shibari!!

Picture of my partner ( @fedyaah )

[71519244]

[war-forged-storms]

Put a joint in my mouth while I’m cockwarming you and hold my nose shut so all I can do is breath in as long of a drag as you want. When I can’t take it anymore and start coughing, you can feel me tightening on your dick with each hack. I’ll look at you with pleading watery eyes as my body tries to catch its breath and process pleasure all while I’m getting stoned <3

[domdraven]

Allowing you a safe word that you can use whenever you want. But as soon as you utter it, i ignore you, force a pillow over your face & hear your mumbling cries as you tell me to stop. Watching utmost fear in your eyes unfold, each thrust getting harder as your cries get louder.

[kkolya]

You think they’re hot I can cum from their hands on me alone.

[musikerhaende]

pain is a sensation and sensations are to be enjoyed.

[majortetra]

Forcing my fingers down a pathetic dog’s throat. Watching as it begins to panic realising it can’t breathe, desperately trying to pull away while my other hand is in its hair, holding it in place. Seeing the useless fear appearing in its eyes as it realises I won’t let it go. Watching the pathetic thing vomit around my fingers, clawing desperately at my wrist. Sobbing in a disgusting mess on the floor when I finally shove it away to clean off my gloves.