Written in April 2020 It was the saddest day for me, I broke up with the guy I love. We didnt try to fix things out, he was quite he might be tired of fixing and I was too, he said "im sorry" but it felt like he was talking to the wind it came out cold, he told me I was getting paranoid I cried. He just let me end the relationship, it was painful, it's crushing me, I remember his voice when I was talking to him begging to call it quits, I knew it would be hard for me to do it and I couldn't, he was so pissed at first then he became calm, quite I was dying to know what's on his mind I asked him to say something then finally he said "you do it but I'm not gonna do it" those words came out like he's ready, it broke my heart. I made my decision to stop being hurt I was not thinking straight and being inconsiderate, it was one sided but he didn't argue anymore we were so quite It was deafening so I hung up and I died. I was longing for afection. I missed the times when he was still excited to text me, when he responded back so quickly, the constant messaging, the I love yous, his voice, his smile, his laugh. I still remember the times when we were together, the days when he mouthed I love you many times, the cuddle nights, the laugh we shared before his flight, his sweet words, the way he kissed me, the way he cared about me, the day he left and the emptiness I felt.. he was everything to me... I wish I had the chance to say sorry and thank you, sorry for I became so needy, sorry if have loved you so much that it's already suffocating you... And from the bottom of my heart, thank you thank you for loving me. I'll be okay :) #nonfiction #goodreads #ownstory #wounded #hopelessromantic #poetryofinstagram #poetry #lifeexperience #theothersideofme https://www.instagram.com/p/CD5he3hBmYI/?igshid=11qlepjcz3dll
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