currently crying thinking about azulin and gordi and their doomed siblinghood it actually makes me fucking sick LOL. like oh my god. while yes they are definitely separate people with their own differences, they define eachother, azulin using gordi to make himself look better, and gordi's resilient unconditional love being obvious every single time he goes to support azulin. the difference that matters most is the fact that gordi knew himself more than azulin knew himself. it's why gordi wasn't as susceptible to religious dogma whilst azulin was. it's why azulin did so much insane shit while gordi didn't. azulin was a more vulnerable man morally-speaking than gordi was. gordi's beliefs (treat others kindly if you wish to be treated the same) never changed, not once. azulin simply did what would have him be known as good. the thing that kills me most though is how i really, truly believe that azulin did love gordi. it's why he revealed his face to gordi so quickly when they reunited on the mountain top. he likely thought gordi was dead just as much as gordi likely thought azulin was dead. i don't deny whatsoever that i think azulin fucking loved gordi, that's his brother, his twin, the person he grew up alongside. of course he fucking loved him. but azulin is also a terrible person. an abusive, wishy-washy man who doesn't know how to treat anyone right because he doesn't know who he himself is.
