L'enfance volée

|| last suicide attempt : 27.07.2020|| Und könnte ich die Zeit zurück drehen, würd ich's wieder tun

[kmpfernatur]

You stabbed my heart a thousand times and I am still healing

[kmpfernatur]

Jeder Tag, an dem ich mein eigenes Spiegelbild liebe, ist mehr als Gold wert.

[kmpfernatur]

It is indeed too late to apologize.

[undo-my-scars]

Everything a sad teen can relate to is here

[undo-my-scars]

(Please, don’t remove credit)

[undo-my-scars]

xx

[kmpfernatur]

Jeden Tag Sonne im Gesicht und nie wieder Todesangst.

Nie wieder Angst, den Raum nicht lebend zu verlassen, wenn du mit mir in ihm bist.

[kmpfernatur]

A conversation many aren't ready for:

As a childhood trauma survivor I dream of never hearing the words "but you survived" again. Cause I'd rather have not.

Having survived is not equal to living.

There is no peace after hell. There is the tsunami of healing what survival has made out of you.

Yes I have survived but I have to deal with the consequences for the rest of my life.

That doesn't mean I am not grateful for having survived, on the contrary. Just that some days I'd rather have not than having to deal with a disorder with a 10% suicide rate.

And that's more than ok.

[kmpfernatur]

04/09

So glad I left 6 years ago. Chose my life over your abuse called love.

[keepasteadyhustle]

This chapter calls for me to be selfish & disciplined as fuck. Loving myself way more.

[inky-sun]

[6i]

you can break and heal at the same time. they forget to tell you that.

[kmpfernatur]

And when I feel the warmth, I don't know how to handle it. I get the urge to run.

[perfectquote]

“You have dug your soul out of the dark, you have fought to be here; do not go back to what buried you.”

— Bianca Sparacino, The Strength In Our Scars

[dumblr]

suddenly i don't want anyone to know me as deeply anymore, which is weird because i have always yearned for someone to understand my soul.

[fahadaccount]

i had a lot to say but i was silent

[disconnected-heart]

Hauptsache du verlierst das Lächeln nicht, das ich über alles geliebt habe.

[ruhaniya]

oh to be loved without having fear of being replaced or to be chosen without being compared

[nonefrancesca]

To be held without doubt,

to be wanted without hesitation…