hi yâall! i guess most people were expecting this, per my absence.
unfortunately, because of studies and other irl responsibilities, iâll have to officially hang my hat from writing for the time being. iâve lost motivation to write, and iâm not sure if i enjoy writing reader fics the way i used to. i appreciate all the love and support youâve all given me, but i think its time for me to officially depart.
there may be a time when i choose to come back â sometimes, this happens â or a time when someone would like to return to read my work, which is why iâll leave this blog up. i donât think iâll be able to write as well as iâd like to as of now, so i will be considering this me leaving writing, or at least labeling this as an indefinite hiatus/leave.
again, thank you thank you so much for your support!
Hi!! Hate to be annoying but will âlearn to loveâ be resumed anytime soon? Iâm loving it so far (I just read all four parts) and the cliffhanger is killing me! If youâre busy or you need to take a break from writing thatâs totally ok; you should take care of yourself. Thanks :)
its coming soon! i finally got sallang out so learn to loveâs new chapter is churning along just fine. im sorry for leaving you guys on a cliffhanger for so long,,, mustâve been aggravating
recommended song: come on get higher by matt nathanson
word count: 2K
warnings/authorâs note: this first chapter is slightly suggestive. nothing that iâd consider smut-worthy, but a warning never hurts! iâm also starting this as a mini-series, with short chapters and an overall short story. glad to be back!
summary: handsome, intelligent, fashionably late: taehyung seems to be a total package, and youâre all for it. that is, until his rain-checks and delayed appearances become so frequent that you feel left in the dark. what could he possibly be hiding?
sallang - a word describing the manner of the wind blowing lightly.
lowercase intended
this is a major waste of my time is what you thought as you rhythmically tapped your fingers against the clothed wooden table of a local restaurant, your knee bouncing impatiently against the floor, your free hand holding your head, glancing around in pure boredom. with how much time youâd spent staring at the wall beside you, youâd probably noted every color its paint compiled. it was your first date with a man from tinder who you realized was way out of your league â and you began to fear that he realized it way before you did.
snaking your phone from your back pocket, leg still bouncing, a deep sigh escaping your lips, you opened his profile once again. âkim taehyung, twenty-five, huh?â you filed through his tab once again, mumbling as you read. âlikes reading, going to the beach⌠do you like being late, too?â you hissed, âbecause, from the looks of it, its like you get off onââ
âexcuse me?â Â
your thoughts of innermost annoyance suddenly subsided at the sound of a deep, masculine voice from above you. your head darted upwards to find none other than kim taehyung standing in black slacks with a complementary white shirt to match, his chest rising and falling, almost like heâd run to your date. âare you (y/n)? iâm taehyung⌠from tinder?â his eyebrow pricked up as he finished his sentence, an embarrassed smile cracking across his face. you stared at him for a moment, taking in the man standing before you. (y/n)? upset at kim taehyung? never. seeing him in person, youâd almost completely forgotten you were irritated. Â
âyeah, thatâs me. have a seat,â you smiled awkwardly, chuckling softly. you watched as taehyung hooked his casual blazer, previously wrung lazily around his arm, onto his chair. he sat down quietly, moving his seat closer to the table, adjusting his glasses and jet black hair. a moment of silence fell between the two of you, taehyung picking up his menu to appear preoccupied in the dinner menu. you smiled to yourself, catching glimpses of his eyes blinking rapidly as he excitedly scanned the text, a habit thatâd already made itself known. you began to notice how heâd glance up at you every so often, chewing his lip, flustered, almost as though he wanted to say something but couldnât find the words to do it.
âiâm sorry for being so late,â he admit, sighing. âi had something to take care of earlier, and it took a lot longer than iâd hoped,â he set his menu down, toying with its edge with his finger. âi...â he paused, âi apologize. i know it mustâve been inconvenient for you.â you took this moment to eye taehyung's hands, slender and dainty, his fingers long and adequate. Â
you laughed at his slightly frantic tone. âitâs fine, donât worry about it. youâre here now, right? letâs focus on that. you wanna tell me a little more about yourself, ot should i go first?â you assured, smiling comfortingly. âyour bio only tells me so much.â
âuh, okay!â he nodded, resting his hands on the table. âwell, iâm taehyung, i recently received my bachelorâs and iâm aiming for a phd in english, i donât care for coffee all that much, i love pretty much all animals you can find, and⌠iâm 5â11".â he introduced himself with detail as he adjusted the cuffs of his shirt, pulling them up to only reach past his elbows. âhow about you?â
âoh, my turn?â you questioned, earning a giggle from the man facing you. âi guess itâs only fair. iâm (y/n), iâm pursuing law as of now, we can lay low on coffee if youâd like â i donât really mind. i like going on simple dates, i love music recommendations, i love musicians, and iâm significantly shorter without these heels on.â you finished, content that either taehyung had a really bad sense of humor or that your finishing line made a better impression than youâd thought it ever could.Â
âdoes this fulfill your requirement of a simple date?â taehyung inquired playfully, lightly patting the table.
âit does,â you replied, tone flirtatious. you noticed taehyung eyebrow raise and jaw tighten at your response as he cracked a smirk, entertained at the shift in energy. that look jumbled your insides, but there was no time for that. you expelled those thoughts from your mind as you cleared your throat, silently scolding yourself. your moment was interrupted by a waitress, the same one whoâd pitifully watched you poke at the complimentary sourdough bread slices with an empty seat in front of you. offering to kindly take your menus and your orders, the two of you obliged. as she scurried away from your table, a notepad with messy handwriting scribbled across it dangling from her waist apron, you turned back to taehyung, whose eyes were glued to you, one of his hands caught in his hair as he ran a hand through it. âhey,â he muttered, his voice deep, his eyebrow habitually twitching upwards once more. was he trying to make you unravel in the middle of your date?
âoh my god,â you laughed, trying to shake off how flustered you were. âyou canât just do that and expect me to be okay!â you joked.
âdo what?â he chuckled in return. âthe deep voice? i canât control that; it just happens sometimes,â he smiled at his lap, looking back up at you soon after. âyou said you were interested in musicians?â
âi mean, itâs not a necessity, but yeah, i find musicians especially interesting.â you explained, reaching for your glass of cold water, ice half melted. Â
âi donât want to brag, but when i was in high school, i was in a band.â he grinned as your jaw dropped. your mind raced with thoughts of how flawless he was, from how well he dressed to how every secret of his made him ten times more attractive. âit was just seven of us, seven of my friends. some would rap, some would sing. i was a singer, and i was really invested in the group. after we all graduated, the group kind of fell out, but weâre all still friends. cool, huh? i would play a little bit of everything, from piano to guitar. more piano, though.â he added, tilting his glass of water towards you, his attractive grin infectious. Â
âthatâs crazy,â you gasped, leaning forward in your chair. âever thought of getting the band back together? youâve got the looks!â
âthe looks?â he repeated, laughing excitedly. âyouâre giving me too much credit here, (y/n),â
âi donât think youâre giving yourself enough,â you replied, raising your eyebrows, challenging his humble temperament. Â
the two of you dined contentedly, taehyung's charismatic personality and contagious smile catching you every time. the conversation, surprisingly, were never boring, they flowed into one another the way good friends converse after not seeing each other for a long time. his mannerisms and aura struck you as welcoming and comforting, as if he was a bright, warm light you wanted to step into. he was safety embodied, he was a simple, gentle man, with kindness and love pouring out of his soul. to your multiple objections, taehyung covered the bill, still feeling guilty over arriving late. a part of you inexplicably pitied him; you felt as though you shouldâve at least pitched in half. it may have just been your morals being challenged, but you almost felt obligated to pay him back. Â
dusting off his trousers, taehyung arose from his chair, your date coming to a close. a wave of childish frustration fell over you: you didnât want it to end, not yet! to your surprise, he glided to your side of the table, chivalrously offering his hand to help you up. you smiled and took his hand graciously, his endless good-natured acts perplexing you. who was this guy? other than being late, was there really a flaw?
as you arose from your seat, you decided the answer to the latter question was no. this was absolutely the best date youâd ever been on: he wasnât obnoxious, he wasnât boisterous, he didnât ask you for anything afterwards⌠youâd been with your fair share of unforgettably horrible men. taehyung was different, though: it wasnât that he was just more decent than the men youâd previously gone out with, it was his aura, his persona, it was something above physicality that made you fall for him more than you thought you should. Â
âthank you for the lunch,â you smiled graciously as he accompanied you out of the restaurant, opening the door for you as well. âthis was really enjoyable! i hope we can do this again soon.â
âme too! thank you for being so nice to me despite me being late.â he returned your kind grin before grasping for his buzzing phone in his pocket, pulling it out to check an apparent text. âi, uhâŚâ he swallowed, now visibly anxious. âwould you like me to walk you to your car?â his tone completely different from his physical state. Â
âiâm just over there!â you motioned to your car, stammering, confused by his sudden shift in energy. âif you have something important to get to, you go ahead!â he relaxed slightly, thanking you kindly and pulling you into a warm embrace. it felt shocking, but not in a bad way â his very intimidatingly handsome appearance contrasted with how gentle he had been with you. should you have liked him this much on the first date alone?
âiâll see you soon! i can text you my number on tinder later. thank you again!â he jogged backwards, still making eye contact before he finished his statement, where he then turned completely and began dashing towards his car. you found him charming and funny and it made you smile. Â
spinning on your heel to walk towards your car, you spun the chain of your car keys on your finger, the thought of taehyung still with you. heâd been perfect: good-hearted, humble, witty⌠you could go on. you sat quietly in the front seat of your car, thumbing the leather of your steering wheel. part of this felt very suspicious â how could someone be this perfect? how could someone be this enjoyable, this wonderful, this considerate? you didnât want to feel this way about him as he felt wholly genuine, but you couldnât ignore the feeling of possibly being lied to. was he messing with you? he absolutely could be. what would you know?
you'd thought yourself into a corner. suddenly, you felt very bad, sitting alone in your car in a silent parking lot. you closed your eyes tightly and sighed loudly, trying to expel as much upset as you could from your body. youâd just had an amazing date! you shouldnât be feeling this bad afterwards. taking a moment to collect yourself once more, you started your car, dusting yourself off before driving yourself home, the scent of taehyungâs faint cologne lingering in your mind.
learn to loveâs update is chugging along slowly! thank u all for waiting for me and sending kind messages as well. i scroll through here often, even if it doesnât seem like it
i wish i had like regular anons that come and tell me abt their day and have little emojis that they sign off with so i know itâs them thatâs so fucking cute
I understand the whole small nose thing cause i have ridiculously small ears i can't even hear out of one, earbuds fall out, glasses don't stay on my face, I can't tuck my hair.
small ears are so cute đĽşđĽş sneezing for me is the equivalent of throwing my glasses off my face haha
i donât know if i mentioned this when i first talked about it but no one really notices how small my nose is until i point it out. THEN everyone temporarily gawks at it
