TIMID / TALENTED.

independent kobeni higashiyama from chainsaw man. adopted by mak / kai. est 10/27/22. not spoiler free.

[kobaenii-a]

mak / kai. she/they. 18+. est. independent KOBENI HIGASHIYAMA from chainsaw man. selective & activity will vary. feel free to send any questions, ims are open, and discord is available to mutuals!

RULES / ABOUT

[soulrph]

grumpy/sunshine trope prompts!

naturally these are shippy and soft and i'm honestly so honored that someone asked and trusted me to do these, so i hope y'all enjoy them just as much as i enjoyed writing them!

from the grump

" i know i can be an asshole, but... you always see the good in me. "

" only YOU could convince me to do something like this! "

" don't make this weird, but... i saw this in the store. figured you'd like it. "

" nobody's ever made me feel the way you do. "

" you're so full of light... and i'm terrified that i'll be the one who quenches it. "

" why do you stick around with a misery-guts like me? "

" you're the lighthouse in the fog, guiding me to shore... "

" i'm trying so hard, but... i can't stop myself from falling in love with you. "

" i love you... oh, damn it, don't look at me, i'm all red... "

" i don't really smile much. not unless you're around, it seems. "

" no. no way, no way in hell am i doing that. no! no... aw, fine... "

" how are you so happy all the time? "

" oh jeez... nobody's ever made me laugh like that in a long, long time. "

" i don't think i wanna know a world without your smiles. "

" i never feel like this grumpy asshole when you're around. i feel like... me. the real me... "

" hey, now... i'm not going anywhere. i'm gonna stay right here. right with you. "

" whoa... hey, now, who made you cry? where'd they go? "

" don't make a big deal out of this. you like hugs, right? so... here's a hug. "

" um... if you don't mind, i think i'd like a hug now. if that's okay... "

" the world just... feels right. when you're with me. "

from the sunshine

" i love it when you smile! i wish you'd do it all the time... "

" you have a really good smile, you know that? "

" see? i knew there was a soft heart under all that grumbling! "

" admit it. you had FUN today! "

" i want to know you. the REAL you. so let's go somewhere that makes you feel happy. "

" you can't get rid of me that easily. i'm gonna be here every day to remind you how wonderful you are! "

" you know me. you... you see me. i'm never totally myself unless i'm with you. "

" everyone else always sees this ridiculously happy, over excited, naive little baby who needs protecting. but... never you. you've always seen the real me. i guess that's what i love the most about you. "

" why is it so damn difficult for you to believe you're worthy of love? "

" you make me smile. and laugh. i feel happy when i'm with you! is that so hard to believe? "

" don't be so stubborn! take my coat/scarf! "

" come on! dance with me! "

" who'd have thought you'd be such a softie! "

" your smiles are like shooting stars. really rare, and really beautiful. "

" don't go. please? just... we can share the bed. i just don't want to be alone right now, if you don't mind... "

" we all have our flaws. you stayed with me in spite of mine. now i'm doing the same... "

" we're two sides of the same coin. right? "

" well, they do say opposites attract... "

" of course i remembered! i remember everything about you! "

[kobaenii-a]

thinking about how much pure athleticism kobeni has but its all concealed underneath her tiny fretful little meow meow frame but also imagining people’s first reaction so seeing her go full beast mode only to revert right back to Fear.png moments later. amazing.

[rpmemes-galore]

random sad dialogue … sentence starters

“You aren’t blameless in this.”

“You don’t have to keep it all in.”

“Not everyone is out to hurt you.”

“You’re too good for someone like me.”

“You’re hiding secrets from me… why?”

“You’ve got the saddest soul I’ve ever seen.”

“The shadows are safer than the harsh glare.”

“I’ll keep you safe… the way they should have.”

“I didn’t need you here. I didn’t want you here.”

“No, I don’t think you love me… but you used to.”

“They’ll never apologize. You have to know that.”

“Don’t you think you’ve been alone long enough?”

“Why can’t you be honest with yourself for once?”

“If you really didn’t care, then why did you come?”

“You have too many scars for someone so young.”

“There’s nothing you have to hide from me. Share.”

“I’ve already lived too much for someone so young.”

“Don’t look at me with those sad eyes. I can’t bear it.”

“You never even had the chance to be a kid, did you?”

“I don’t want your apologies. they don’t mean anything.”

“Forgiveness is earned. And you have a long way to go.”

“You’re allowed to step into the light. You’re allowed to live.”

“Don’t talk to me about loyalty… not after what you’ve done.”

“I keep trying to atone… but, it just never seems to be enough.”

“You think solitude keeps you safe. It doesn’t. It keeps you lonely.”

“I’ll leave if you want me to. Will you just hear me out first? Please?”

“After all you’ve been through, how do you still find it in your heart to care?”

“You’re still breathing, but if I didn’t know any better, I’d think you were a ghost.”

“I don’t want you to know. I don’t want you to see the awful, tainted parts of me.”

“What happened was horrible, and cruel, and unfair. You’re allowed to be angry.”

“There’s nothing wrong with lashing out sometimes. It’s better than holding it all in.”

“This world’s a dismal place. It chews up all happiness it finds and spits it out bitter.”

“I love you, And you don’t need to say it back, or even reciprocate. I just needed you to know.”

“I’ve always done everything by myself, survived by myself. I don’t see why that would change.”

“You don’t get to disappear, then come back like nothing happened. Life moved on without you.”

“They say you’re not supposed to hold grudges, but I don’t believe that. It keeps you from making the same mistake twice.”

“Everyday, I ask myself why someone like you would choose to stay with someone like me. And everyday, I come up empty.”

[kobaenii-a]

do not perceive

[kobaenii-a]

i could so easily make a kobeni aot verse now that i think about it

[kobaenii-a]

@decimatlas making me cry in their tags like hello bYE IM TEARS

[kobaenii-a]

                                             I’m Kobeni Higashiyama. I’m 20…                                 My devil is…. a secret. My hobby is eating tasty things.

independent kobeni higashiyama from chainsaw man. adopted by mak / kai.

[kobaenii-a]

hello inbox call uwu

[lesser-flamingo]

a niche character trope i like is the person who is nice, a good person and acts well adjusted, then they do something where it’s like. oh you’re secretly a little bit insane actually

[rpmemes-galore]

Hozier — Wasteland, Baby!  Album   {Sentence Starters}

“You do it naturally.”

“I will be there, love.”

“You are unbreaking.”

“Be still my foolish heart.”

“Oh, your love is sunlight.”

“Be as you’ve always been.”

“Oh, but you’re good to me.”

“Imagine being loved by me…”

“But who could call you wrong?”

“I wouldn’t know where to start.”

“I’m in love… I’m in love with you.”

“But, your secret is safe with me.”

“Where I’ll wake up, I don’t know.”

“It’s not the waking, it’s the rising.”

“And when you move, I’m moved.”

“How long you would wait for me?”

“I’m almost me again, she’s almost you.”

“Let’s get lost and let the good times roll.”

“I could never define all that you are to me.”

“There’s no plan. There’s no race to be run.”

“I think about you, though, everywhere I go.”

“All of that goodness is going with you, now.”

“That’s how I know now that you understand.”

“That’s the kinda love I’ve been dreaming of.”

“The harder the rain, honey, the sweeter the sun.”

“I’d be appalled if I saw you ever try to be a saint.”

“Honey, the look of it was as sweet as the sound.”

“Power has been cried by those stronger than me.”

“Who could ask you be unbroken or be brave again?“

“I want you to know that I’ve had no love like your love.”

“'Cause power is my love when my love reaches to me.”

“Whatever here, that’s left of me, is yours just as it was.”

“Honey, I’m put in awe of something so flawed and free.”

“I wouldn’t fall for someone I thought couldn’t misbehave.”

“I’ve done everything and I’ve been everywhere, you know.”

“And who could ask you to be sound or to feel saved again?”

“We could have less to worry about, honey, I won’t lie to you.”

“I won’t deny I’ve got in my mind, now, all the things we could do.”

“Let there be damage ensued, and tabloid news, and that kind of love.”

“I couldn’t utter my love when it counted… ah, but I’m singing like a bird ‘bout it, now.”

“All the fear and fire of the end of the world happens each time a boy falls in love with a girl.”

[kobaenii-a]

“i absolutely adore kobeni what an absolute fuckup” - karina from drawfee

[kobaenii-a]

i just realized i don’t think i’ve given my proper two cents about the csm anime yet.... and it’s been a while since s1 ended oop. okay well overall? i do think it was pretty fucking good but the main main gripe i had is i think it was just too fast. like obviously one advantage manga has is it really allows you to sit in the moment and csm excels at that with the paneling especially of just a character’s expression changing ever so slightly and with the anime it just. okay himeno’s dead lets move on super duper fast. it just ! it doesn’t let you really process before the next big action sequence comes. but i do think the animation, voice acting and cinematography was stellar!!

[kobaenii-a]

thinking about how fricking fast and quiet kobeni can be though... like obviously one example is when she got behind akane without her noticing but i think whats more impressive is how close she got to reze who legit hadn’t noticed her behind her until violence called out to her-

[kobaenii-a]

i wholeheartedly believe kobeni can’t die and i’d like to see any of you fuckers take her down

[kobaenii-a]

am i really a kobeni blog if i dont see the most violent most monstrous muses and immediately wanna toss her at them and go “good luck killing her she somehow cant die!”

[kobaenii-a]

april fools day is kobeni’s second least favorite holiday. the first is halloween.