[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Pregnancy update:

I’m 8 weeks along and we have told a few that are close to us! I love celebrating quietly with my loved ones first, it makes this time really special. We probably won’t make the news public for another while… we still have my parents to tell the news to and are waiting until the end of September to do so.

I’m still just insanely thankful that we are on this side of the ivf journey! Not that it’s been a cake walk, but I’m so so thankful.

Some of the experiences have been just nauseous a bunch, disturbing burps, some pms-like cramping, and worse of all is the insane fatigue that I have. I am tired alllll the time. I wake up, work, take a nap, eat a meal I have no appetite for, and then I go back to sleep 😅

That being said- I want baby cookie to get all of needed things from me! So I’ll sacrifice my energy any day ♥️

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Y’all!!! I’m PREGNANT!!!!

SO relieved, happy, excited, and a bit nervous!

I’m technically only 4 weeks along, even though my ivf process started 2 months ago.

Anyway- SO EXCITED! We aren’t telling IRL people yet, but will soon!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Had a procedure, now on to recovery!

I had an asshole of a nurse, but otherwise everything went smoothly 🙂

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Had the second procedure! I find out the results tomorrow!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

IVF and… indifference?

My husband and I started the IVF process about a year ago, and that is after three years of figuring out the fact that getting pregnant wouldn’t happen naturally. We’ve been together for nearly 20 years now and I sincerely just love being us.

When I was younger I used to say tongue-and-cheek “i don’t want to have a kid, I don’t want to mess our perfect marriage up” and laugh at it. There’s a part of me that still thinks that, but after 11 years our marriage is still amazing and I don’t think adding another human will “mess” it up any.

But to the reason why I’m making this post. The process has been a long one. I got tested, he got tested, surgeries, recovery time, retesting, IVF prognosis. Then in January (11 months ago) we went to the fertility clinic and it was all so farm-like. They are legit a baby-making MACHINE over there. I got a lack of details and the whole egg retrieval was just traumatizing to me. This whole long process resulted in one embryo. And so afterwards I took a break. I’m still on a break.

I legit don’t know if I could do another egg retrieval process. Especially because after all of this, I’m still content with just not becoming a mom. Being “mom” has never been an identity that I have sought after. I didn’t hyper focus on the IVF process and making sure we resulted in a baby.

There was a part of me that mourned when we received the results of just having one embryo. I know implant isn’t a 100% success rate. I feel like I’ve already lost the baby.

But, I’m ok with that? Like if we did everything we could to have a kid and it didn’t work out, ok cool? We move on with our happy selves.

It’s strange doing a process that is so intense and alllll the communities around IVF are hyper fixated on becoming a mom. I’m incredibly indifferent with if it’s successful or if it’s not.

To be clear, I would be ecstatic to have a child!! I would love to see my husband be a dad, I would love to have a family of 3! But also if that dream dies with an embryo passing, then it dies.

In a few weeks I’m going to start the 2 months worth of shots, tests, and preparation for the embryo implant. I’m seriously not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and hopefully it’ll be good for us!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Well, with me actively interviewing with another company, we decided to wait another month. This makes me both sad and relieved. Hopefully maternity leave is a thing for me in my future.

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

I got the new job!!! Huzzah!!! This does mean that we are continuing the holding pattern here. But but but I’m so excited, the new job has 100% maternity leave!!! That was the first thing I told my HR when I put in my notice. I waited 4 years for a maternity leave policy!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

This is the month that I am going to start my “elephant” pregnancy!

For the first month, I will be taking the meds and doing a “dry run”- then when they would have implanted the embryo, they’ll take a biopsy and adjust the second round as needed.

Then a month of meds that’s the “real deal”. We only have one embryo, so who knows if this will result in pregnancy. It’s difficult knowing that the % of success isn’t 100%, so I’m trying to temper the expectation. We could know the gender right now, but I know if I did I would have named the embryo and started planning the nursery.

Anyway- if you see this out there in the webs, send positive energy my way ☺️

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Follicles look good! I’m on track for the ERA biopsy this Saturday. Throughout this whole process I’ve become really apprehensive of pain- so I’m not looking forward to that.

I just sent this to my friend, but this whole process is a bit surreal for me. Especially since I’m good either way if we are success or not with having a kid?

On one hand, I’m trying to make myself excited with looking at nursery photos and cute instagrams, but when I start looking up information I get terrified. I’m not physically at my healthiest, I don’t have my food or alcohol checked right now.

My inner child wants to rebel and stop the process, but that’s so selfish of me? Idk- I’m just in a weird space because work isn’t amazing right now and I’m afraid the extra stress will effect the outcomes.

Until next time, tumblr void

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

The results came back, and it actually will make a difference! Extending the process by one day.

For the first time, when I got there for my baseline scan, I had a large cyst. They say it’s totally normal and should go away naturally. It does mean that I have to be on birth control for 10 days to prevent ovulation. We will see next Friday if the cyst is gone 🤞🏻

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Tomorrow we find out if everything is ok and if so, a date for embryo implant!

I also started therapy yesterday, and my therapist has indicated that I am most likely going through depression. I’m struggling with this process, with myself, and with the world.

I don’t think pregnancy will “solve” the depression, I’m hoping that it will help motivate me to take care of myself more. I’m going to try to connect with my pcp and obgyn this week to see if I should continue or not… idk - it’s been a journey and I don’t want to elongate it further. It’s just complicated.

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

IVF and… indifference?

My husband and I started the IVF process about a year ago, and that is after three years of figuring out the fact that getting pregnant wouldn’t happen naturally. We’ve been together for nearly 20 years now and I sincerely just love being us.

When I was younger I used to say tongue-and-cheek “i don’t want to have a kid, I don’t want to mess our perfect marriage up” and laugh at it. There’s a part of me that still thinks that, but after 11 years our marriage is still amazing and I don’t think adding another human will “mess” it up any.

But to the reason why I’m making this post. The process has been a long one. I got tested, he got tested, surgeries, recovery time, retesting, IVF prognosis. Then in January (11 months ago) we went to the fertility clinic and it was all so farm-like. They are legit a baby-making MACHINE over there. I got a lack of details and the whole egg retrieval was just traumatizing to me. This whole long process resulted in one embryo. And so afterwards I took a break. I’m still on a break.

I legit don’t know if I could do another egg retrieval process. Especially because after all of this, I’m still content with just not becoming a mom. Being “mom” has never been an identity that I have sought after. I didn’t hyper focus on the IVF process and making sure we resulted in a baby.

There was a part of me that mourned when we received the results of just having one embryo. I know implant isn’t a 100% success rate. I feel like I’ve already lost the baby.

But, I’m ok with that? Like if we did everything we could to have a kid and it didn’t work out, ok cool? We move on with our happy selves.

It’s strange doing a process that is so intense and alllll the communities around IVF are hyper fixated on becoming a mom. I’m incredibly indifferent with if it’s successful or if it’s not.

To be clear, I would be ecstatic to have a child!! I would love to see my husband be a dad, I would love to have a family of 3! But also if that dream dies with an embryo passing, then it dies.

In a few weeks I’m going to start the 2 months worth of shots, tests, and preparation for the embryo implant. I’m seriously not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and hopefully it’ll be good for us!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Well, with me actively interviewing with another company, we decided to wait another month. This makes me both sad and relieved. Hopefully maternity leave is a thing for me in my future.

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

I got the new job!!! Huzzah!!! This does mean that we are continuing the holding pattern here. But but but I’m so excited, the new job has 100% maternity leave!!! That was the first thing I told my HR when I put in my notice. I waited 4 years for a maternity leave policy!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

This is the month that I am going to start my “elephant” pregnancy!

For the first month, I will be taking the meds and doing a “dry run”- then when they would have implanted the embryo, they’ll take a biopsy and adjust the second round as needed.

Then a month of meds that’s the “real deal”. We only have one embryo, so who knows if this will result in pregnancy. It’s difficult knowing that the % of success isn’t 100%, so I’m trying to temper the expectation. We could know the gender right now, but I know if I did I would have named the embryo and started planning the nursery.

Anyway- if you see this out there in the webs, send positive energy my way ☺️

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Follicles look good! I’m on track for the ERA biopsy this Saturday. Throughout this whole process I’ve become really apprehensive of pain- so I’m not looking forward to that.

I just sent this to my friend, but this whole process is a bit surreal for me. Especially since I’m good either way if we are success or not with having a kid?

On one hand, I’m trying to make myself excited with looking at nursery photos and cute instagrams, but when I start looking up information I get terrified. I’m not physically at my healthiest, I don’t have my food or alcohol checked right now.

My inner child wants to rebel and stop the process, but that’s so selfish of me? Idk- I’m just in a weird space because work isn’t amazing right now and I’m afraid the extra stress will effect the outcomes.

Until next time, tumblr void

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

The results came back, and it actually will make a difference! Extending the process by one day.

For the first time, when I got there for my baseline scan, I had a large cyst. They say it’s totally normal and should go away naturally. It does mean that I have to be on birth control for 10 days to prevent ovulation. We will see next Friday if the cyst is gone 🤞🏻

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

IVF and… indifference?

My husband and I started the IVF process about a year ago, and that is after three years of figuring out the fact that getting pregnant wouldn’t happen naturally. We’ve been together for nearly 20 years now and I sincerely just love being us.

When I was younger I used to say tongue-and-cheek “i don’t want to have a kid, I don’t want to mess our perfect marriage up” and laugh at it. There’s a part of me that still thinks that, but after 11 years our marriage is still amazing and I don’t think adding another human will “mess” it up any.

But to the reason why I’m making this post. The process has been a long one. I got tested, he got tested, surgeries, recovery time, retesting, IVF prognosis. Then in January (11 months ago) we went to the fertility clinic and it was all so farm-like. They are legit a baby-making MACHINE over there. I got a lack of details and the whole egg retrieval was just traumatizing to me. This whole long process resulted in one embryo. And so afterwards I took a break. I’m still on a break.

I legit don’t know if I could do another egg retrieval process. Especially because after all of this, I’m still content with just not becoming a mom. Being “mom” has never been an identity that I have sought after. I didn’t hyper focus on the IVF process and making sure we resulted in a baby.

There was a part of me that mourned when we received the results of just having one embryo. I know implant isn’t a 100% success rate. I feel like I’ve already lost the baby.

But, I’m ok with that? Like if we did everything we could to have a kid and it didn’t work out, ok cool? We move on with our happy selves.

It’s strange doing a process that is so intense and alllll the communities around IVF are hyper fixated on becoming a mom. I’m incredibly indifferent with if it’s successful or if it’s not.

To be clear, I would be ecstatic to have a child!! I would love to see my husband be a dad, I would love to have a family of 3! But also if that dream dies with an embryo passing, then it dies.

In a few weeks I’m going to start the 2 months worth of shots, tests, and preparation for the embryo implant. I’m seriously not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and hopefully it’ll be good for us!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Well, with me actively interviewing with another company, we decided to wait another month. This makes me both sad and relieved. Hopefully maternity leave is a thing for me in my future.

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

I got the new job!!! Huzzah!!! This does mean that we are continuing the holding pattern here. But but but I’m so excited, the new job has 100% maternity leave!!! That was the first thing I told my HR when I put in my notice. I waited 4 years for a maternity leave policy!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

This is the month that I am going to start my “elephant” pregnancy!

For the first month, I will be taking the meds and doing a “dry run”- then when they would have implanted the embryo, they’ll take a biopsy and adjust the second round as needed.

Then a month of meds that’s the “real deal”. We only have one embryo, so who knows if this will result in pregnancy. It’s difficult knowing that the % of success isn’t 100%, so I’m trying to temper the expectation. We could know the gender right now, but I know if I did I would have named the embryo and started planning the nursery.

Anyway- if you see this out there in the webs, send positive energy my way ☺️

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Follicles look good! I’m on track for the ERA biopsy this Saturday. Throughout this whole process I’ve become really apprehensive of pain- so I’m not looking forward to that.

I just sent this to my friend, but this whole process is a bit surreal for me. Especially since I’m good either way if we are success or not with having a kid?

On one hand, I’m trying to make myself excited with looking at nursery photos and cute instagrams, but when I start looking up information I get terrified. I’m not physically at my healthiest, I don’t have my food or alcohol checked right now.

My inner child wants to rebel and stop the process, but that’s so selfish of me? Idk- I’m just in a weird space because work isn’t amazing right now and I’m afraid the extra stress will effect the outcomes.

Until next time, tumblr void

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

IVF and… indifference?

My husband and I started the IVF process about a year ago, and that is after three years of figuring out the fact that getting pregnant wouldn’t happen naturally. We’ve been together for nearly 20 years now and I sincerely just love being us.

When I was younger I used to say tongue-and-cheek “i don’t want to have a kid, I don’t want to mess our perfect marriage up” and laugh at it. There’s a part of me that still thinks that, but after 11 years our marriage is still amazing and I don’t think adding another human will “mess” it up any.

But to the reason why I’m making this post. The process has been a long one. I got tested, he got tested, surgeries, recovery time, retesting, IVF prognosis. Then in January (11 months ago) we went to the fertility clinic and it was all so farm-like. They are legit a baby-making MACHINE over there. I got a lack of details and the whole egg retrieval was just traumatizing to me. This whole long process resulted in one embryo. And so afterwards I took a break. I’m still on a break.

I legit don’t know if I could do another egg retrieval process. Especially because after all of this, I’m still content with just not becoming a mom. Being “mom” has never been an identity that I have sought after. I didn’t hyper focus on the IVF process and making sure we resulted in a baby.

There was a part of me that mourned when we received the results of just having one embryo. I know implant isn’t a 100% success rate. I feel like I’ve already lost the baby.

But, I’m ok with that? Like if we did everything we could to have a kid and it didn’t work out, ok cool? We move on with our happy selves.

It’s strange doing a process that is so intense and alllll the communities around IVF are hyper fixated on becoming a mom. I’m incredibly indifferent with if it’s successful or if it’s not.

To be clear, I would be ecstatic to have a child!! I would love to see my husband be a dad, I would love to have a family of 3! But also if that dream dies with an embryo passing, then it dies.

In a few weeks I’m going to start the 2 months worth of shots, tests, and preparation for the embryo implant. I’m seriously not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and hopefully it’ll be good for us!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Well, with me actively interviewing with another company, we decided to wait another month. This makes me both sad and relieved. Hopefully maternity leave is a thing for me in my future.

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

I got the new job!!! Huzzah!!! This does mean that we are continuing the holding pattern here. But but but I’m so excited, the new job has 100% maternity leave!!! That was the first thing I told my HR when I put in my notice. I waited 4 years for a maternity leave policy!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

This is the month that I am going to start my “elephant” pregnancy!

For the first month, I will be taking the meds and doing a “dry run”- then when they would have implanted the embryo, they’ll take a biopsy and adjust the second round as needed.

Then a month of meds that’s the “real deal”. We only have one embryo, so who knows if this will result in pregnancy. It’s difficult knowing that the % of success isn’t 100%, so I’m trying to temper the expectation. We could know the gender right now, but I know if I did I would have named the embryo and started planning the nursery.

Anyway- if you see this out there in the webs, send positive energy my way ☺️

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Wordle 215 4/6

⬛⬛⬛🟨⬛

⬛⬛⬛🟨🟩

⬛🟨🟨⬛🟩

🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Wordle 214 4/6

⬛🟨⬛⬛🟨

🟨⬛🟩🟨⬛

🟩⬛🟩🟩🟩

🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Wordle 213 4/6

⬛⬛⬛🟨⬛

⬛🟩⬛⬛⬛

🟩🟩🟩⬛⬛

🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Wordle 212 3/6

(Aka I got so lucky)

🟩⬛⬛🟩🟩

🟩🟩⬛🟩🟩

🟩🟩🟩🟩🟩

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Corgi cola!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

IVF and… indifference?

My husband and I started the IVF process about a year ago, and that is after three years of figuring out the fact that getting pregnant wouldn’t happen naturally. We’ve been together for nearly 20 years now and I sincerely just love being us.

When I was younger I used to say tongue-and-cheek “i don’t want to have a kid, I don’t want to mess our perfect marriage up” and laugh at it. There’s a part of me that still thinks that, but after 11 years our marriage is still amazing and I don’t think adding another human will “mess” it up any.

But to the reason why I’m making this post. The process has been a long one. I got tested, he got tested, surgeries, recovery time, retesting, IVF prognosis. Then in January (11 months ago) we went to the fertility clinic and it was all so farm-like. They are legit a baby-making MACHINE over there. I got a lack of details and the whole egg retrieval was just traumatizing to me. This whole long process resulted in one embryo. And so afterwards I took a break. I’m still on a break.

I legit don’t know if I could do another egg retrieval process. Especially because after all of this, I’m still content with just not becoming a mom. Being “mom” has never been an identity that I have sought after. I didn’t hyper focus on the IVF process and making sure we resulted in a baby.

There was a part of me that mourned when we received the results of just having one embryo. I know implant isn’t a 100% success rate. I feel like I’ve already lost the baby.

But, I’m ok with that? Like if we did everything we could to have a kid and it didn’t work out, ok cool? We move on with our happy selves.

It’s strange doing a process that is so intense and alllll the communities around IVF are hyper fixated on becoming a mom. I’m incredibly indifferent with if it’s successful or if it’s not.

To be clear, I would be ecstatic to have a child!! I would love to see my husband be a dad, I would love to have a family of 3! But also if that dream dies with an embryo passing, then it dies.

In a few weeks I’m going to start the 2 months worth of shots, tests, and preparation for the embryo implant. I’m seriously not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and hopefully it’ll be good for us!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Well, with me actively interviewing with another company, we decided to wait another month. This makes me both sad and relieved. Hopefully maternity leave is a thing for me in my future.

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

I got the new job!!! Huzzah!!! This does mean that we are continuing the holding pattern here. But but but I’m so excited, the new job has 100% maternity leave!!! That was the first thing I told my HR when I put in my notice. I waited 4 years for a maternity leave policy!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Tussle!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

IVF and… indifference?

My husband and I started the IVF process about a year ago, and that is after three years of figuring out the fact that getting pregnant wouldn’t happen naturally. We’ve been together for nearly 20 years now and I sincerely just love being us.

When I was younger I used to say tongue-and-cheek “i don’t want to have a kid, I don’t want to mess our perfect marriage up” and laugh at it. There’s a part of me that still thinks that, but after 11 years our marriage is still amazing and I don’t think adding another human will “mess” it up any.

But to the reason why I’m making this post. The process has been a long one. I got tested, he got tested, surgeries, recovery time, retesting, IVF prognosis. Then in January (11 months ago) we went to the fertility clinic and it was all so farm-like. They are legit a baby-making MACHINE over there. I got a lack of details and the whole egg retrieval was just traumatizing to me. This whole long process resulted in one embryo. And so afterwards I took a break. I’m still on a break.

I legit don’t know if I could do another egg retrieval process. Especially because after all of this, I’m still content with just not becoming a mom. Being “mom” has never been an identity that I have sought after. I didn’t hyper focus on the IVF process and making sure we resulted in a baby.

There was a part of me that mourned when we received the results of just having one embryo. I know implant isn’t a 100% success rate. I feel like I’ve already lost the baby.

But, I’m ok with that? Like if we did everything we could to have a kid and it didn’t work out, ok cool? We move on with our happy selves.

It’s strange doing a process that is so intense and alllll the communities around IVF are hyper fixated on becoming a mom. I’m incredibly indifferent with if it’s successful or if it’s not.

To be clear, I would be ecstatic to have a child!! I would love to see my husband be a dad, I would love to have a family of 3! But also if that dream dies with an embryo passing, then it dies.

In a few weeks I’m going to start the 2 months worth of shots, tests, and preparation for the embryo implant. I’m seriously not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and hopefully it’ll be good for us!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

Well, with me actively interviewing with another company, we decided to wait another month. This makes me both sad and relieved. Hopefully maternity leave is a thing for me in my future.

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

IVF and… indifference?

My husband and I started the IVF process about a year ago, and that is after three years of figuring out the fact that getting pregnant wouldn’t happen naturally. We’ve been together for nearly 20 years now and I sincerely just love being us.

When I was younger I used to say tongue-and-cheek “i don’t want to have a kid, I don’t want to mess our perfect marriage up” and laugh at it. There’s a part of me that still thinks that, but after 11 years our marriage is still amazing and I don’t think adding another human will “mess” it up any.

But to the reason why I’m making this post. The process has been a long one. I got tested, he got tested, surgeries, recovery time, retesting, IVF prognosis. Then in January (11 months ago) we went to the fertility clinic and it was all so farm-like. They are legit a baby-making MACHINE over there. I got a lack of details and the whole egg retrieval was just traumatizing to me. This whole long process resulted in one embryo. And so afterwards I took a break. I’m still on a break.

I legit don’t know if I could do another egg retrieval process. Especially because after all of this, I’m still content with just not becoming a mom. Being “mom” has never been an identity that I have sought after. I didn’t hyper focus on the IVF process and making sure we resulted in a baby.

There was a part of me that mourned when we received the results of just having one embryo. I know implant isn’t a 100% success rate. I feel like I’ve already lost the baby.

But, I’m ok with that? Like if we did everything we could to have a kid and it didn’t work out, ok cool? We move on with our happy selves.

It’s strange doing a process that is so intense and alllll the communities around IVF are hyper fixated on becoming a mom. I’m incredibly indifferent with if it’s successful or if it’s not.

To be clear, I would be ecstatic to have a child!! I would love to see my husband be a dad, I would love to have a family of 3! But also if that dream dies with an embryo passing, then it dies.

In a few weeks I’m going to start the 2 months worth of shots, tests, and preparation for the embryo implant. I’m seriously not looking forward to it, but it is what it is and hopefully it’ll be good for us!

[korgi-love-and-stuff]

New pfp time! My Renaissance Festival outfit!