Hello to my 22years old self
This photo was taken year 2012, during our college field trip after my birthday. Hey self! know what you still haven’t change after 5 years. You are still that reserved, pessimistic, introvert, shy, overthinker, low self-esteem girl! You haven’t change. Ahmm.. nah! you have change a LITTLE.. you become more independent, loner, braver, and wise? I think so? hihi you overcome those adult thingy, (adult responsibilities) ALONE! So YAY for that! 😂 Happy for that! *tap my back* “i’m proud of you self” ☺️
Last quarter of 2016 when you learned how to cook! by yourself! #selfthoughtlahat! oh no!, by the help of Youtube too haha thanks for the socmed sites and Google. lol! I survived 2016 because of that.. and I also learned to do household errands alone! I bet you never thought you can do it ALONE! Nah YOU CAN lady! You’re just so scared and coy. hihi and yah paranoid. haha! But I wont deny it was hard from the start. I can still remember myself struggling buying veggies, fish, meat, etc. in the market without even having any idea how to distinguish whether its good/fresh or not haha! common sense nalang! 😂 and look at you now I still struggle lels! hahaaha!! And by the end of 2016 you decided to review and take the board for the second time though you’re still in doubt and scared. You low self-esteem lady! You really don’t trust your self! I pity you for that.
And April this year (2017) yeah you FAILED the board AGAIN. You’re upset, frustrated, depressed, sad, devastated OVER OVER AGAAAAAAIIIIIINNNN?!?!! C'mon! It’s not yet the end of the world! *am i speaking to myself? nope. this is just my conscience trying to lift my spirit up*
You started 2017 not bad at all, you made new friends whom you met from Review Center and Fridge Multimedia. so cheer up! And I can say you cook well now. Much better than last year hihi 😁 You learned how to budget your money.. you’re wiser now than before when it comes to money. And hey I know you currently like someone, someone who is impossible to like you! hihi *mahilig ka talaga sa mas bata sayo nuh? pero mas matured mag-isip* hihi
You met him year 2014 I guess when you decided to take a break and go far away from stress from home. (you know what i mean and what i am talking about) 😊
It was a cold, boring, monotonous night? day? afternoon? *i forgot* for you.. you were sitting in a sofa, busy watching a movie that I can’t even remember the title.. and he was very tired from work, he was wearing all black, (black long sleeves, black pants, black shoes), he seems sleepy and really very tired that time. Then suddenly he sits beside you, he decided to sit in the sofa where you were seated coz’ he can’t find any chair. You were shookt and felt awkward for a moment.😰😱😓 You were like “who on earth is this guy? who gave him permission to sit here? beside MEEEE?!?” *note sarcasm* “he have no choice dude! he was so tired!” And thats it you started noticing him ‘til you become curious about him, you even stalk his FB after that. lols! *crazzzyyy!!*
Why put this story here? I guess coz’ I still like him and I miss him. So after 3 years you went back to that city were you met him, to review and take your board exam, in different house but still the sofa was still there. haha He’s still the same.. he’s still funny, shy and aloft. Can’t blame him you are a bit scary, you look masungit, mataray and snobbish. tsk! So mahihiya at matatakot talaga siyang lapitan at kausapin ka. But I know he still remember you after 3 years. *ayieee kinilig ka naman?! ulol!*
So there you go that was what happened for the last 3 years! ahm.. I mean its not complete but those were some of the highlights I guess of my life for the past 3 years after I quit my work back in Cavite. (lang kwenta! di ba? haha)
I just want to say to my 22y/o self you still haven’t change. Isip bata ka pa rin.. medyo nagmatured ka na ng kaunti.. konti lang! hihi malungkutin ka pa rin madalang pa rin kitang makitang naka-ngiti at masaya. sigh.
Please promise me that this 2018 smile often you’re prettier when you smile I swear! (ayeehh! ngingiti na yan!) ☺️😊😀😁😂😓 haha! and be strong.. be very very STRONG.. keep going self! keep going! never ever give up! always choose to do good to others.. and PRAY ALWAYS. I know you are struggling 'til now I know you are still hopeless of what is happening to your life.. I know you are still worried about your future.. please wag ka na masyado mag-isip, kalma ka lang sa sarili mo! ipaubaya mo na yan kay God.. just do what you need/should do and just let God guide you.
Always remember to LOVE YOURSELF #selflove, live life to the fullest, LOVE LIFE, be more passionate to arts, do more of what makes you happy, improve not for others BUT for you self!, if you have to impress anyone that is no other than yourself but don’t be so hard, loosen up! enjoy your life! I love you self. I love you!! *hugs* 🤗😘
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