Korra Del Rio

An evolving artist in a turbulant world. Diaries of a Transgender Porn Star

[korradelrio]

Dear Stranger,

So in an attempt to finally build credit I got this car. A 2020 Dodge Challenger SXT. My favorite color is orange and I’ve loved American sport and muscle cars since I was little and my parents had this 1972 Corvette string ray in burnt orange. I loved that car so much.

This one is a base model. It’s better on gas than the v8’s obviously and doesn’t put me into deep debt like a challenger scatpack wide body red eye would. Though I’d be happy to have one. Lol

Hopefully this car and it’s manageable payments drive me to a good enough credit score to maybe buy a house in a year or two. If I’m responsible and work hard I might even get to have the house and the red eye one day.

It’s kind of funny I want to buy the Arri Alexa LF camera and a couple of their lenses for it. One of the Arri lenses alone cost as much as this car does. So instead of three lenses I’ll have to settle for two plus the camera. The camera costs something like 70-90k alone.

I’m grateful to have managed to get both my FFS (45k) and this car (30k) in the same year. However, they’re just things or steps towards my goals. Some being more frivolous then others. I suppose that’s what it means to manifest an individual’s character into their unique story.

The apartment I have is too big. I don’t really like it and it’s expensive for the area. I’d like to downsize but my little brother and his partner want to move in in April to get away from Milwaukee. I’d like to save them from the lack of opportunity back home but it just means I’m going to have to keep on doing the heavy lifting in a place I’m not really into.

Maybe there will be a two bedroom opening up at one of the apartment buildings on the strip. I just want to live in the heart of a bustling metropolitan area again with tons of people, shops and walk ability. I’m almost willing to move back home to milwaukee just to have that sort of community again.

My surgery had a hopefully minor complication. I won’t expand on it but it’s frustrating. I go to San Fran next week to get a diagnosis from the doctor. Hopefully he doesn’t need to open my face back up again. Recovery was painful. Though I didn’t complain too much or let it show... it really hurt.

Either way, gotta get back to work. Been avoiding it for a little too long again. Sorry bout that.

Love,

The K-monster

[korradelrio]

I don’t know what I want beyond being a better person. How can that be such a struggle?

[korradelrio]

The first book I ever read was an autobiography of Eisenhower. 0.o strange that I never got around to reading books on Patton or MacArthur.

[korradelrio]

The refined individual simply holds more capability to effect desired outcomes from those around them. Protect yourself from the refined individual because their refinement does not mean purification/absolvement from their own personal desires or ambitions.

[korradelrio]

In my fictional universe I’ve been working on I thought it’d be hilarious to have a race of intelligent octopi that evolved from earth given a long enough timeline. Their cultures conflicted with human culture and they’d lack any real control over the human colossus a system of transdimensional controls and structuring used to manifest reality in ways that benefit its creators, humanity.

In the story the octopi 🐙 would appear and the main protagonist would greet them with communist jargon. The octopi would become enraged accusing the main protagonist of attempting physical assault by willingly spewing at them their intellectual poison. Lolz

[korradelrio]

I’m weird the thing that drives me the most is the idea of making a fortune, building an estate for the family, having a home my parents can grow old in and pass on surrounded by family, and securing for my nephews and any other children my sisters might have the best quality life possible.

I would prefer they struggle to learn how to manage money with money then to grow up like me and the rest of my siblings struggling to get by without any.

If I could leave them and their future families something to guarantee financial security then that’s the best thing I can think of doing with my life if Im never having children of my own.

[korradelrio]

Idk, I just like imagining this super massive story. Anything I’m forced to do in normal life to maintain a decent lifestyle is just what I gotta do to allow myself the time to spend all my brain power filling out this extensive universe I want to create. It’s been a very immature lifestyle in that instance but one I’m unendingly grateful for. :)

[korradelrio]

One day I want to manage and produce the Grooby Awards aka the TEA awards. As the major sponsor and producer. I want to be successful enough to propel the next generation forward.

[korradelrio]

I’ll say a prayer for you because I know you won’t listen.

[korradelrio]

Do you actually check all the questions? I think I fell in love with you watching your videos and cosplay...

I don’t come on much anymore. The answer would be no but sometimes someone reminds me I should be checking haha 🤣

[korradelrio]

Finally living on my own. First time in my entire life. It’s kinda crazy to think I’ve never lived alone to this point since I’m super anti social or rather introverted. Somehow I’ve always managed to keep another human being hostage lolz 😂 to this point as my roommate.

Now that it’s just me I think it’s been good actually. I’ve been working every day instead of lying on the couch in utter depression. I’ve been slowly coming out of my shell being here alone which is kinda crazy if you think about it. Not being able to come out of your shell even at home.

I’ve bent over backwards for my friends and now that they’re off living their lives in a better position it’s time I focus on myself too right? Even if I can’t see it while wasting away on the couch waiting for fate to find me again Ive got to try and find that spark again right?

I think I want to go back to college. I did game design for a number of years before changing my major to physics and computer science. I really wanted to do nano technology ten years ago when it was still a rising industry. Now a days things involving quantum mechanics and biomolecular engineering hold my interest. Wouldn’t it be amazing to design a warrior robot who enters our blood stream and mercs the HIV virus? There is something uniquely satisfying to someone who’s lost loved ones to HIV at the idea of creating a weapon that consciously seeking out and brutally destroying the virus.

I’ve got to cam for the next month and a half to afford my facial feminization surgery in May. After I recover I’ll look to make porn and cam but I think it’s time to return to college and start working towards a degree doing something that means something to me. While porn is fun and I’m so grateful for the lifestyle it’s afforded me and I do want to win awards and be AVN trans performer of the year once, say I was on top once, if my life is just that... it’d feel like a complete waste.

The world seems like it’s on fire and in need of people who see a better way. Maybe, just maybe, I could find a meaningful way to help.

[korradelrio]

I’ve just been so heartbroken the last two years. I didn’t understand what it meant to be like that till I found myself impossibly submerged into it. Coming out of it... I just want to make up for the last few years of stagnation.

[korradelrio]

It is my thought that the Midwest should look to fortify itself from the rest of the nation. That competitive advantage and the invisible hand have turned it into the rust belt and it’s once proud communities into destitute wastelands. It is not to our advantage to play within this system under a continued sense of shared national identity when that national identity should so lopsidedly favor the coasts.

That we as a people should find creative ways to combat these obsurdities at every level, to establish for ourselves a renewed sense of identity, autonomy, and power within our alliance of North American states. It is not rebellion against family to protect oneself from a sibling’s addiction, or a parents economic greed, incompetence, or simple disinterest.

We cannot rely on those who do not care to save us from natural law they utilize to economically cripple us. It is not a strong alliance one that leaves the other destitute.

Most of all we cannot trust in the barons of the coasts or their allied political dynasties that dominate modern society to do anything more than maintain the crippled and shackled reality that is the Midwest/rust belt.

We should rebuke and/or bypass the political elite of this region, who sell us out with their ineffective governance and lack of imagination for the as of yet unrealized dominance the Midwest should enjoy if more autonomous; if more self sufficient; more culturally/economically allied in direct opposition against our sister states competitive advantage that has naturally crippled us in an overly predictable manor.

[korradelrio]

I come from the ghetto. The people who love me are in the ghetto. The things they have, the home I grew up in, you’d laugh at us. Because it’d look like nothing to you. But it’s home to everyone that matters to me.

[korradelrio]

Notes for Story

So once in a while I like to post ideas for the story I’m always working on. Ever so slowly fleshing the universe out within it. So the beings known as originators have the ability to mold reality around them and so as they mold reality around them some get bored and do it to greater extents than others.

I was imagining the main protagonist having to venture into a rival Originators realm and coming across a farm or garden from which they knew their prior meal was gathered from. At which point they come to find that the originator rival has given the plants sentience and these plants attempt to resist the protagonist at every avenue since they correlate originators as harvesters of their species. Consumers of the sentient races.

Lol, :)

[korradelrio]

A Month of investing and help from the best fans in the world and I’ve suddenly got the tools I need to make those daydreams into reality. 🙏🏻

[korradelrio]

‪Its in the interest for the financial and long term survivability of an owner or collection of profiteers to make concessions to the employed or face untimely demise born from the attrition they lay upon greater society. A person is civilized so long as those profiting leave enough scraps so they do not starve‬.

When that line has been crossed it is the duty of society to decivilize and cause the untimely demise of those who break the unspoken accord of the ruled and their master. That is, capitalism can only exist in a civilized and ordered society. Once capitalism has compromised soceity to the point it can no longer be civil it is required that the people reject it in order to preserve it.

Lol, that’s an anrachist as I’ll ever get.