tulip

overworked and underloved

[kotakcempaka]

first aku kena stfu, second aku kena bersyukur

[aidashakur]

[kotakcempaka]

i always knew what i didnt want.

[godkissedme]

i think i deserve financial compensation for everything. all of it. i’m not even gonna specify

[dafancyuhinspiration]

[kotakcempaka]

bestnya dating dalam mimpi

[kotakcempaka]

if i have a nickel for everytime lelaki chinese selamatkan aku, id have two which is not much but its weird it happened twice.

[kotakcempaka]

my biggest drive is pekerja tattoo di pasar seni and also this one petronas guy yang cakap “you are so hopeful and macam cahaya, my friend once was like you and dia dah tak hopeful. at some point, you will lose that light” dia tak tahu banyak kali aku persist, berapa banyak benda orang umur aku tak hadap but aku hadap, i am God’s strongest soldier and it is beyond imagination yang aku still ada today

[kotakcempaka]

oh how ive missed you, tuxedo

[stuckinapril]

[werenotreallystrangers]

a lot of your suffering comes from treating your nature like a problem to manage instead of a design to understand

[kotakcempaka]

ok lah! siapa yang free enough dan ada capacity to teman aku menangis dan uncomfortable sit with the silence? price of the community is the inconvenience, tapi semua orang can say “kalau kau perlukan apa apa, aku ada” instead of being considerate and think what should i need! well world doesnt revolve around me, a thoughtful gesture would help actually. #sendhelp #imcrying

[kotakcempaka]

studying as mechanism is writing your notes at 1am, crying, shaking while holding the pen, tissues, crazy songs play at the background, numerous stop to breathe; to calm yourself down, occasional silence and focusing on writing your notes. play the song a little louder, cry, hoping you can vent it out and not just cry on your own, wishing to book a hotel and cry louder, head pain, drink a cold comforting water from your tumbler try to sleep and finally lay down; your back needs the rest. your body needs the rest. your mind needs the rest.

[eatingfood]

I have so much faith that everything will work out for me, everything that is meant to find me will find me and what is meant to teach me will teach me.

[kotakcempaka]

“at least kena sekarang” fuck. aku tak nak sakit macam ni.

[kotakcempaka]

sorry akmal, aku susahkan sejak asasi.

[kotakcempaka]

ya Allah ya Allah ya Allah

this is so funny. habis operation aku dah #fullyrecoveredtrauma