young inhuman

|| sw: 166 cw: 138 gw: 120 ugw: 100 tws: self-harm, ed ||

[kovici]

you can spend the rest of your life trying to act like the perfect person for everyone, but it’ll never fix the fact that people see you and immediately think you’re huge. everyone judges by physical appearances.

that hungry feeling is the price for soon being liked, being noticeable, likeable, if you work for it. until then, you’ll won’t get rid of that lonely feeling.

[kovici]

stop acting like honeymoon phases are anything beyond your attitude. you simply got lazy and stopped watching yourself.

[kovici]

why should people have to ignore your body for people to like you? it’ll always be “fat, but funny” until you get a grip. your friends and family put too much effort into ignoring your body to appreciate anything else. you need to get thin because it’s easier for all the people you care about, because they’ve been waiting and not saying anything. get thin because you being fat ruins it for everyone. every time you eat is another act of selfishness.

[kovici]

it’s not meant to feel nice. it’s meant to look nice. did you think it would be easy?

[kovici]

snacks are scams, capitalizing on emotional cravings. you gain absolutely nothing from eating them - except weight. they were created to condition your brain into finding pleasure in eating.

how much better do you think it would be if you ate fruits or vegetables instead, something low cal? you’d be full and have nutrients for minimal calories.

nothing about a snack food is worth the calories. no chips, chocolate, candy, etc do anything good for you. you should eat them sparingly, if at all. they’re just gonna sabotage your plans.

it’s really just best to completely avoid them. if you’re serious about this, that is.

[kovici]

once you deny yourself that craving once, then twice, you’ll find yourself at the end of a week having denied it 50 times.

discipline builds up. don’t give up, don’t give yourself that “one time.” I promise it doesn’t exist and it will snowball.

always remember that food is not a reward, restriction is.

when you want to take a second helping, when you want to eat lunch with everyone else, when you’re alone and want to reach for snacks, when you’re out and want to eat unhealthy fast food - remember this. you’ll never get far unless you start now; start resisting your old habits and making new ones.

work hard for what you want.

take care.

[kovici]

running on 10 cals of red bull.

not working. I hate math class rn. wann sleep

[kovici]

how is everyone this fine morning?! I got like 10 calories so far in gum. less than my goal of 600 calories, yesterday. life is good. sending my good energy over.