For the Treasure Ep.3 Album Crawl, I revisited the moment where Ateez won their first music show with Wave. I can't get through this video without shedding a tear.
While a win is a big achievement for any kpop group, it was especially significant for Ateez. Despite their low digital numbers from domestic streams (always their weakest metric), the physical sales + voting power of their international fandom earned them that prize. Ateez is often referred to as the "small company miracle" for winning against groups from larger companies who have the support of the gp. This win, coupled with their sold-out world tour, showed the industry that Ateez was not to be underestimated.
Look at the shock, joy, and exhausted relief on their faces. They can barely get through their encore stage without breaking down in tears.
I wish I could've been there to experience their first win with Wave, but I was fortunate enough to help them reach another milestone this year with their first-ever wins on Inkigayo and Music Core for Adrenaline. Since those shows give more weight to domestic streams and digital sales, their winning implies a growing popularity and recognition within their home country. Amazing to think that a group in their eighth year continues to surpass their own success and achieve great things.
in which: you desperately want to be jongho's little cum slut
pair: jongho/afab!reader
word count: 2.1k
content: sex, public sex, pool sex, rough sex, unprotected sex, completely consensual
rating: R — nsfw | mdni
summer boys series: wooyoung | san | jongho
You were sitting in the shallow end of the pool as you watched him swim around. It was hot as fuck outside, and Jongho suggested that the two of you go swimming, but it was so hot that you simply did not feel like swimming. The shallow end of the pool was in a nice, shady area, so you opted to stay there while you watched Jongho have the time of his life.
Since you were in the water, you could only watch him. You didn't dare bring a book in or near the water, and your phone was sitting safe and sound in the locker room, so you literally had nothing to do. Well, you did have your imagination to keep you entertained, which was running wild the longer you watched Jongho swim around.
He swam over to you and fully submerged himself in the water before resurfacing and brushing his hair out of his face. You watched his biceps flex as he slicked back his hair, and you saw his chest move somewhat heavily as he let out a deep exhale. Your insides flipped and tumbled when you saw how fucking sexy he looked, and you yourself felt winded just beholding his devilish good looks.
"Honey, aren't you hot just sitting here?" Jongho asked as he leaned against the edge of the pool, his arm resting on the ledge. "The water is so nice and cool— you should at least try swimming."
"I'm okay..." you barely managed to say. "Just watching you is enough."
"I know you're in the shade, but I feel like it's just hotter sitting here," Jongho continued to try and convince you to swim.
"It is really hot..." you murmured.
You spaced out, your eyes lingering on his refined muscles and his broad shoulders. Jongho seemed to still be talking to you, but all you could really focus on was the way the water lapped around his naked torso. How you wouldn't give to be pressed right against him, his arms wrapping securely around you, his waist pressing against yours. You desperately needed him against you, but there was no way you were going to be able to tell him that with a straight face.
"Honey?"
"Uh-huh..."
"What's going on with you?"
"Uh-huh..."
Jongho had it at that point. He stood right in front of you and snapped his fingers in front of your face, finally bringing you back to reality. Seeing him that close to you made your entire body jolt, and your fingers and toes tingled the closer he got to you. You were so ready to just fall over when he brought the back of his hand to your face.
"Oh God, your face is flushed, but you don't seem to have a fever... Maybe we should head back inside. I think the sun may be getting to you."
"It's not the sun getting to me, though," you whispered when Jongho grabbed your arm and turned around to drag you out of the pool.
He froze and he faced you once more. He walked forward quickly, making you scurry backwards until your back was pressing against the wall. Jongho pinned you in place, his chest extremely close to yours.
"What's going on, honey?" Jongho asked in a low voice.
You nearly shivered— Jongho sounded so hot whenever he dropped the octave of his voice. You were practically drowning in horny hormones at that point. Shifting uncomfortably, you whispered, "I... Uh..."
You felt your face get hotter as you thought about the things you wanted to ask him shamelessly.
I want you to fuck me senseless. I want you to use me and abuse me until I can't stand anymore. I want you to remind me who I belong to and make sure I never forget.
However, those crude words would never leave your mouth— at least not sober. Thankfully, Jongho seemed to finally catch onto what was going through your mind, a smirk, crossing his face. He closed the distance between you and actually pressed his chest against yours. He leaned into you, his lips near your ear.
"If you want that, you can just ask, honey."
"You know I can't shamelessly ask like that... I'm too shy..."
"Sure, that's why you were staring at me like a piece of meat or something. Don't think I didn't notice the way you were looking at me while I was swimming."
Jongho's hands moved down to your waist. He held you with a firm grasp as he nuzzled his face into the nook of your neck, his lips occasionally pressing against your flushed skin. You held onto his shoulders and let out soft sighs as you felt his kisses trail along the curve of your neck down to your shoulder.
"If you knew, then why didn't you say anything?" you whined slightly.
"I wanted to see you squirm, honey. It's not fun if I don't get to tease you."
Jongho's hands went from your waist to your ass, his fingers pressing into your skin and making your bottoms ride up a little as he pulled upwards. You let out pleasureful sigh after pleasureful sigh the more he peppered kisses all over your upper body and the more he felt you up. Your grip on his shoulders got weaker when you felt his waist press against yours, electricity running through your body when you felt his hard on prod through his swim shorts.
"Now, honey, do you want to tell me what you want me to do to you, or would you like me to order you around like the cum slut you are?" Jongho whispered gruffly into your ear once his lips made their way back up.
"The latter please."
Jongho pulled away from you, and you saw his eyes darken. His jaw momentarily tensed before he pressed his lips feverishly against yours, sweeping you away into a world of bliss. Your fingers ran through his hair as you moved your hands from his shoulders to the back of his neck. The two of you kept making impatient sighs and grunts in between each sloppy kiss, the water around you beginning to move a little more as you both got antsier. It was when Jongho's fingers pushed the waistband of your bottoms down did you break off the infinite chain kisses and look at him with helpless, half-lidded eyes.
"Get out of the pool now," Jongho ordered.
You did as he said as quickly as possible, the man following closely behind. You didn't know where to go, so you stopped and looked around, only for Jongho to grab your arm and lead you to the lounge chairs near the edge of the pool. He sat down first before pulling you towards him, making you straddle him. You held onto his shoulders and lowered your ass onto his knees as he held your neck and pulled you back in to shove his tongue down your throat.
Jongho's fingers pressed into your neck, making you slightly light-headed as he continued to kiss you so rashly that you had absolutely no time to breathe. You felt like you were going to pass out, but you knew that there was no way Jongho was going to take it so far.
At some point, Jongho did have to let go of your neck so that he could remove your bikini. He untied your top first, his fingers brushing the nape of your neck as he released the strings. Your top flopped forward as Jongho ran his finger down your spine, making you arch your back slightly. He made quick work of the remaining strings, the top completely falling with a slosh. He then ran his hands along the curve of your waist before pushing down the waistband of your bottoms once more. He was only able to move the wet fabric over your ass and tuck it under since you were still kneeling on either side of him.
"Take them off."
You nodded and stood up. Both your top and bottoms fell to the ground, Jongho quickly slipping his own swim shorts off in the process. Before you could go back to straddling the man, he leaned forward and grabbed both of your arms. Your back continued to face him as he pulled you backwards, your ass landing on his thick thighs as you sat down, your legs still firmly on the ground.
That's when you realized Jongho read your fucking mind earlier.
"Sit on my cock, honey," he told you as you felt his cock twitch and press against your back.
Jongho still had both of your arms behind your back, so while you moved up, Jongho held his thick cock in place. You felt the tip rub against your wet folds, and once he was right at your entrance, you sat down slowly. You felt your walls spread wide as you lowered yourself on him, a deep sigh escaping your lungs as you felt him fill you up.
With shaky legs, you managed to start moving on his cock. At first, you were worried about Jongho fucking you on the poolside out in the open where anyone could see; luckily for the two of you, there wasn't a single soul around, nor was there a camera in sight— plus, with the added protection of the umbrella above you, you had no reason to worry. That being said, you still tried to keep your erotic noises to a minimum while Jongho, on the other hand, didn't give a tiny rat's ass about how loud he was.
You seemed to be moving too slowly for him— you could only move so fast because every time you sat down on his lap, you wanted to remain seated because your legs could barely support you at that point. So, Jongho thrust his hips upwards suddenly, making you cry out.
"F-Fuck, Jongho!" you choked out as he continuously rammed his hips upwards into yours without mercy, your voice wavering when you felt him reach over your thigh and between your legs to brush his fingers against your sore clit. "Y-You're going so fast!"
"Don't you dare tell me to slow down," Jongho chuckled. "I thought you wanted this."
"I do! Fuck me harder, Jongho!"
Jongho released your arms from his grasp and pushed you up, making you whimper as his cock left your body. He quickly moved you so that you were kneeling on the lounge chair before shoving his cock quickly inside you once more. His waist slammed into yours hard, making you go from your hands to your elbows immediately.
Your sanity completely left you as Jongho quite literally fucked your brains out. You were moaning and crying loudly with every thrust while occasionally yelping whenever you felt the palm of his hand make intense contact with your ass.
"You like that, don't you?" Jongho teased you as he slapped your ass again.
You nodded and hummed in approval before you pressed your lips together and dropped your head down. However, Jongho didn't like that. He grabbed the back of your head and pulled, making you move your head up. He forced you to keep your head up as he continued to rut into you powerfully, the slaps of his waist against yours starting to get drowned out by the sound of blood rushing to your ears.
"J-Jongho!" you sobbed as you felt his cock brush against your G-spot so many times that you felt your orgasm building. "I'm c-close!"
Jongho immediately pulled out, two of his fingers going in their place. He fingered you quickly and roughly, the curve of his fingers inside you too much to handle. You cried out loudly as his fingers fucked you just right, making you cum hard. Your legs trembled, and your ass shook in the air as you squirt all over Jongho's hand, legs, and the lounge chair beneath you.
Without giving you a chance to properly recover, Jongho slid his cock back inside you, and he continued hammering away into your sensitive cunt. You could hear his own groans getting higher in pitch, and you could feel his pace begin to slow down but his power remained the same.
"You want me to fill you up, don't you?" Jongho grunted out. "You're just my little cum slut, aren't you?"
"Yes, I am, Jongho," you whined. "Cum inside me, please."
Jongho didn't need to be told twice. Grabbing your waist, he thrust into you several more times quickly before groaning loudly. You felt his cock twitch and throb inside you as his cum spurt out quickly, filling you with his white seed. When Jongho pulled his cock out, he spread your ass wide to watch his cum leak out and trail down your leg, making his shiver and slowly get hard again.
"Fuck, honey," Jongho chuckled. "Wear your suit, and let's get out of here. I'm not done fucking you just yet."
pairing﹢jeong yunho x fem!reader
genre﹢smut. ex-bf!yunho, age gap (reader is 24, yunho is 36), themes of obsessive tendencies and stalking, jealousy, emotional manipulation, slight yandere (if you squint), corruption kink, toxic relationship, dubcon undertones but it turns consensual, cunnilingus, choking, mean dom!yunho, implied size kink/difference [the big dick yunho agenda is real], hate + unprotected sex, missionary + mating press, praising + degradation, overstimulation, orgasm control, tummy bulge, creampie, pet names (doll, babydoll, dollface, angel, pretty girl, etc), minimal aftercare.
synopsis﹢he was the only older guy you had ever dated, and you swore you would never do this to yourself again. two years of love, obsession, and control are gone, or at least, that’s what you thought. some people don’t let go or move on — he never did. so why does he walk back into your life like nothing ever happened... this time, as your professor?
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these are the best eleven months of your life after ending the relationship with your now ex-boyfriend. next month you're even thinking of celebrating, because it will mark a whole year. your best friends will definitely treat it like a huge occasion, just like on that fateful day when you handed them the news on a silver platter… they had never been so happy, throwing a small party just for the three of you.
YUNHO was the only older guy you had ever dated, and you swore you would never do this to yourself again. to sum it all up, the relationship turned toxic rather quickly. you almost lost all of your friends, even your two best friends, karina and yeji, who tried their very best to shove some sense into you, but you never listened, delusional enough to believe that you could change him. oh, how naive you were, that’s why you were so easy to manipulate…
apologies came in the form of very expensive gifts, things you had always wanted, or in gentle kisses and touches that slowly wandered and eventually led to the bedroom, where you ended up naked beneath his covers. you thought it was normal, since every relationship had arguments, but that’s not what this was about. it was about toxicity, extreme jealousy, possessiveness, maybe even obsession. the man was a literal freak.
karina practically did a full analysis of him, confirming what she had said the very first time you told her about the problems that occurred between you and him: "he's a psychopath." she had been direct, telling you it wasn’t okay and that you needed to break up with him. yeji agreed with her, always wanting the best for you, adding that "older men always want to date someone younger and it's not just because of looks… please be careful."
you suffered once and learned your lesson. enjoying your vacation, cocktail in hand, while the sea breeze drifts past you, the sun hot against your skin as you lounge on the deckchair, slowly tanning. of course, sometimes you still think about the past; you can’t really stop that after spending two whole years with him. yet even though everything had been bad and suffocating, there had been a good side to him too: tall, handsome, funny and somehow rich. what more could you want?
the other thing you wanted was for your parents and close friends not to find out that you had been dating someone not two or three years older, or even a year younger, but a whole twelve years older. yes, you were twenty-one when you met him, a couple of months before your birthday, through mutual friends. one gathering led to another, and before you knew it, you were dating him, convinced you had finally found the one you were going to marry, the only man who truly knew how to be a man. alas, it turned out he was just another shark in the ocean, ready to strike at its defenseless prey.
it doesn’t matter anymore, since you’re single, genuinely happy, enjoying your summer, shining brighter than the sun itself, and everyone sees you like some kind of eternal sunshine. you finally returned to yourself, only smarter this time, no longer falling for tricks or manipulative tactics. life is good when you don’t have a man bitching in your ear about the outfit you’re about to wear or asking why you were talking to some guy for too long. the waiter, if you must specify, who was simply announcing the lunch menu.
“ah, can’t believe we have to be back at university that soon…” you said, sipping from your drink while idly chewing on the straw. karina was on your left, glued to her phone, while yeji sat on your right, carefully lining up small seashells along her thighs.
“and we’re graduating this year too… but someone decided to study at a different university, breaking our teenage dreams,” karina said as she turned off her phone, glancing at you with a playful look while you rolled your eyes.
“not my fault the one you’re in didn’t have what i wanted.” you took another sip, and yeji giggled softly. “none of us dropped out though, which is an achievement on its own.”
yes, you didn’t study at the same place as them, but that didn’t stop you from hanging out, if anything, there was even more gossip to share. and so the conversations continued, all the way until you started getting ready for dinner, and then for a few more days after that, until eventually you had to go back to seoul and wish each other “good luck for the new last year.”
you really did need some luck, because you had just found out that your favorite professor had retired. you were going to miss the woman; you had been her favorite student, but all good things eventually come to an end. everyone was already sitting in the lecture room. you had heard that the new professor was someone young, but there hadn’t been time to check who exactly he was since they were still fixing schedules and systems. the only thing you knew was that tuesday at nine in the morning was your first lecture with the new professor in question.
“i think he probably used to play basketball or football, i saw him earlier and he’s really tall,” one of the boys said, and the others quickly agreed, while you remained focused on your phone, scrolling through reel after reel, meme after meme. then you overheard the girls whispering nearby, their voices a little more excited. “did you see his hands? and him in general… he’s so fine…”
the problem with having a young professor is exactly that — he was young, and from what everyone was saying, quite attractive too. the other problem appeared the moment everyone finally sat down when the door opened. a tall figure stepped into the room, his style was effortless in a way that made it impossible not to glance twice. a soft gray cardigan hung loosely over his shoulders, the thin knit falling open enough to reveal the clean white t-shirt beneath.
the muted colors helped him blend in, making him look more like a student than a teacher. slim black pants traced the long lines of his frame, the strap of a black crossbody bag thrown diagonally across his chest, and he wore simple sneakers. his black hair fell in soft layers that framed his face, the strands straight and smooth, cut just long enough to brush the tops of his eyebrows and skim the sides of his cheekbones.
you were sitting a little further back, your phone still in your hands. the room buzzed with chatter as people continued talking among themselves until the professor cleared his throat, the sound cutting clean through the noise as he prepared to introduce himself.
“hello everyone, i’m jeong yunho and i’ll be your new photography professor this year.”
your eyes widened instantly, your head snapping up so fast it almost hurt. oh no… houston, we have a problem. you blinked several times, half expecting your vision to clear and reveal someone else entirely. maybe it was just someone with the exact same name, appearance, and voice. unfortunately for you, it wasn’t. why is your ex-boyfriend the new professor? out of all the people in the capital, it had to be him who got the position.
you sat there frozen in complete shock, your mouth slightly open until your deskmate and close university friend, jeongin, gently pressed a finger under your chin to close it as he leaned to whisper, “i guess everyone, including you, just found their new crush, huh?”
what, why, and how? was this some kind of twisted karma? because if it was, you definitely weren’t the one who deserved it. your heart started beating faster, anxiety and something close to fear crawling up. could you run away? maybe copy someone else’s notes, no… you couldn’t. suddenly you wished you were studying metaphysics with karina, because that sounded far more pleasant than this.
“i’d love to get to know all of you,” he continued, smiling as he set his bag on the desk before leaning back against it, arms loosely crossed, while his gaze moved around the room. “so i’ll share a few things about myself. and don’t worry, i won’t make you do anything today. i’ll just introduce the course and explain what i expect from you.”
surprisingly hands immediately began rising with questions. meanwhile, you were still struggling to believe what you were seeing and hearing. he hadn’t changed at all, you had to admit it. he had only gotten more attractive. always taking care of himself and being unfairly pretty, making you remember how two years ago you thought about what your future children would look like... now you want to throw up. forcing yourself to keep your composure, glancing at jeongin and making a slightly grimaced face. yeah, a crush for sure, except you wanted to crush him into pieces.
“how old are you, professor?” someone from the middle rows asked, earning a few curious murmurs from the class, making yunho chuckle, “straight to the personal questions already? alright then. i’m thirty-six.”
everyone was surprised by the answer, and all kinds of reactions rippled through.
“don’t look so shocked,” he added with a small grin. “i promise i’m not that ancient.”
“are you a full-time professor?” another student asked.
“not exactly,” yunho replied, pushing his sleeves up slightly as he spoke, revealing his forearms, “i’m a professional photographer first. i mainly work in editorial and commercial photography such as fashion shoots, campaigns, exhibitions, that sort of thing. teaching is something i enjoy doing on the side, especially with students who are serious about the craft.”
“does that mean you’re going to give us easy grades?” someone joked, making him raise an eyebrow, the corner of his mouth lifting. “absolutely not.”
the class laughed again, a little nervous this time.
“i can be friendly,” he added, shrugging lightly, “but don’t mistake that for me being tolerant. photography is about discipline and perspective. if you’re here just to press a button and hope for the best, you’re going to struggle.”
another hand went up. “so… we won’t pass easily?”
“correct,” nodding his head once. “i expect effort, creativity, and consistency. if you work hard, you’ll do amazing. if you don’t…” he paused briefly before smiling again, “you won’t pass this course by simply showing up and smiling at me. well, at least you’ll get some nice pictures out of the experience.”
more chuckles followed, but the message had landed. the atmosphere quickly became relaxed and comfortable as he answered questions with small jokes. the students were already warming up to him, clearly charmed by how easygoing he was. as you listened to him speak, watched the way he carried himself so seriously and correctly in front of everyone, you couldn’t help but wonder where exactly all that cheerful composure had been when he was with you?
“attendance is mandatory.” and then his gaze settled directly on yours, a faint smirk pulling at his lips as he stared straight into your soul, the one he had almost taken from you a year ago. “of course, if you have to be absent, it’s not a problem, as long as it doesn’t happen often. i know some of you will be at the mall with friends. also i don’t grade by email; everything you do will be shown and discussed in class.”
the entire time he spoke, his eyes kept drifting back to you. when he paced slowly across the front of the room, even when he turned to answer someone else’s question, somehow his attention always circled back. for some reason, you held his gaze instead of looking away, and the longer you stared at him, the more that fear slowly faded until all that remained was pure hatred.
jeongin leaned slightly closer to you, lowering his voice into a teasing whisper. “well there goes our plan of skipping class to eat kfc… or getting more sleep,” he murmured, nudging your arm lightly.
thank god your best friends studied at different universities, otherwise they would have dragged you straight to the administration office and forced you to drop out for real. and honestly… you were starting to think about it yourself. the worst part was that you couldn’t switch the class for anything else. great, truly amazing. you were trapped for an entire semester.
“that’s everything for today,” yunho said after a while, clapping his hands together once as he was done answering questions and talking about cameras, “i won’t keep you any longer. enjoy the rest of your morning.”
chairs scraped across the floor as everyone began packing their things, the room filling with chatter again. you grabbed your purse quickly, already standing up before most people had even processed that the lecture was over. as you walked out with jeongin, you noticed a small crowd forming around the professor’s desk. a couple of boys and girls had already gathered there, asking questions, laughing at something he said, clearly eager to stay a little longer.
you didn’t even glance his way. no goodbye, or a polite “have a nice day”, because he didn’t deserve to have one. you just kept walking toward the door, hoping that you would manage to graduate before the sudden temptation to drop out started looking a little too appealing.
“your analysis lacks depth,” yunho says, placing your paper on his desk, making you scoff, since this is the third time now that he’s returned it for edits. lacks depth, he says… well, you did as well, asshole. if you had to edit one more thing, it honestly wouldn’t be that bad to buy a gun, and no, it definitely wouldn’t be pointed at your head.
every single tuesday he calls on you far too often in class. your assignments always come back covered in detailed comments, red ink everywhere like a declared war on your academics. you swear he’s grading you harder than everyone else, which honestly seems unfair to the people who are actually doing nothing. apparently, you’re the only one being treated like a social experiment.
“and what exactly do i need to change again, professor?” you ask, grinning through your teeth, burying every thought that would probably send you straight to jail under a perfectly fake smile. you’re this close from going insane, feeling that familiar anger rise again, the irritation that always appears when you’re forced to deal with someone you can’t stand.
for the last four weeks, your life has been hell, to say the least. during lectures he’ll ask a question, several hands go up while yours remain fiddling with a ballpoint pen, and yet he always picks you. and the first time you didn’t know the answer, what followed was a casual, “it would be nice to learn things before the test, hm?” which felt like complete humiliation, because beneath that joking tone there had been something that definitely wasn’t a joke.
once you and jeongin arrived ten minutes late, which honestly wasn’t even your fault. what were you supposed to do when your friend insisted on waiting for his coffee while there was already a long line that early in the morning? of course, a comment followed: “please be on time next time.” but when someone else walked in thirty minutes late during the same lecture, there were absolutely no remarks.
that’s exactly why you always come prepared with answers and make sure you’re always on time. you know his tricks far too well. no matter how charming his smile is, how sweetly he talks, how funny and relaxed he seems… it’s just one of his many masks. karina really was right about him being some kind of psychopath.
everyone else, unfortunately, loves the new professor. they talk about his fun classes, how nice he is, and how cool it is that he’s such a professional teaching them new techniques. some of your peers even linger after lectures just to chat with him. meanwhile, you sit there thinking that your older ex should seriously consider enrolling in acting instead of photography, because the performance he’s putting on deserves ample shiny awards proudly displayed on a goddamn mantlepiece.
the whole thing has turned into some twisted cat-and-mouse game. he teases, pushes, and provokes. you glare, don't bite back, and refuse to give him the reaction he clearly wants. despite all of that, he always finds his sneaky ways to make your life a little more miserable.
here and there, he calls you to his desk after class for absolutely no reason. “you should consider approaching a different lens for your next project,” like this couldn’t have easily been written in a single email. or he’ll start explaining camera settings you already know perfectly well, dragging the conversation out while the rest of the class disappears into the hallway.
and god forbid you see him outside the classroom. the moment you notice him walking down the hallway, you immediately pull a perfect one-eighty and walk in the opposite direction because you hate this man so fucking much, you refuse to breathe the same air as him.
what’s more upsetting is that you can’t even tell anyone. because if karina and yeji ever found out that your toxic ex-boyfriend was now your professor, they wouldn’t hesitate for a second before throwing a chair at him.
what you don’t know, however, is that he requested this university job partly because of you. actually, not partly at all, he knew exactly what he was doing. even when you were still together, he knew where you studied and what major you were in, just like you knew about his photography work. of course, teaching also gave him the chance to try something different in his career. and what better opportunity than this? his unbelievably beautiful ex-girlfriend just so happened to be one of his students, completely unplanned.
and it doesn’t stop there, oh no, everything is just starting.
jeongin begins to notice a pattern, which honestly isn’t hard to miss when during class yunho asks another question. probably ten hands rise into the air, but he still chooses you. your friend leans closer to your ear and whispers, “you must be his favorite~”
you stare at the board like you want to burn it down, alongside mister pretty devil himself, who of course, happens to wear clothes that fit his figure perfectly, fuck him honestly. “if i was his favorite, do you think i’d be studying camera obscura in this much detail?”
not to mention the way he addresses you with that smooth voice, softly calling you, “miss (name).” the moment you hear it, it’s game over. you have to respond with “yes, professor,” or “yes, sir,” like some twisted academic roleplay you never signed up for. it makes you want to vomit, bleach both your eyes and your trachea. you hate his guts so much. he has always liked being in control, and now he has it again, at least within the walls of this campus. outside of it, however, he has absolutely none.
when it comes to homework and assignments, everyone else receives short feedback, brief but explanatory enough to understand their mistakes, things like: “good composition” or, “nice lighting” and even, “if you try a black and white effect, it might work better.”
your feedback, on the other hand, is practically a full essay. it could probably qualify as a documentary script because he covers everything, even the tiniest details. he has a ridiculously keen eye for things, which apparently also makes him a professional at being a complete jerk who picks on you for absolutely no reason.
“your framing… well, it’s technically correct,” he muses, tapping the printed photo with his finger exactly where he seems most dissatisfied, “but technically correct isn’t the same as emotionally effective.”
you want to throw your camera at him and shove the lens straight down his throat, as the class sits there admiring him. “wow, professor jeong gives such thoughtful feedback.”
it also happens that he’s constantly spammed with emails from students asking if their work is passable or what more they can do to improve their visuals, so eventually he announces loudly, “if anyone needs extra help, my office hours are wednesday and thursday afternoon.”
later that same day, only you receive an email: “your project concept has potential. come to discuss it.”
you go, of course, because you care about the grade. knocking on the door to his office, and he lets you in, acting like the two of you are complete strangers. the entire conversation stays professional, purely academic, every word measured, but the tension makes your heartbeat faster. after ten painfully long minutes, you finally stand to leave, and just as your hand reaches the door, he says, that same smile on his face, “don’t sabotage your own work out of stubbornness.”
almost slamming the door behind you, but you need to have self-control and not let him know that you are slowly losing your cool.
it goes without saying that the girls in the course absolutely adore him. some of them simp for him, always giggling and gossiping. “the way he looked at me today… he said he is single, so do you think i have a chance?” or “he’s literally the most handsome professor here, why isn’t my boyfriend like him?”
you almost choke hearing that, because you know the other version of him. the one who used to kiss apologies into your neck after fights. the one whose hands knew every point of your body andwho knew you better than you knew yourself. fingers that always seemed to know exactly where to press, where to… why are you even thinking about that?
during one of his lectures, yunho suddenly says something that makes your stomach twist.
“photography is about obsession. you need to want the subject more than anything else. you have to focus on it completely if you want to capture the perfect shot.”
you freeze, eyes widening slightly at his words, because you know exactly how obsessive he can be. yunho glances at you, that smug little smile appears again, and he continues the lecture as if nothing happened.
it’s almost nightfall when the young professor arrived home. he dropped onto the couch, leaving his bag on the floor beside it, his head falling back against the cushions as he stretched his legs over the small wooden table and stretched his arms up above his head.
he exhaled once, then again, tapping his thigh with his fingers in the quiet that filled the apartment. the silence didn’t last long before a small laugh slipped past his lips. he closed his eyes, and of course, you appeared in his mind again. you were constantly there, living somewhere between his thoughts and his heart, occupying space you had no right to anymore.
weren’t you just adorable? each and every time you walked into class, you were dressed better than everyone else, always prepared and looking at him with that sneer that no one else seemed to notice. not even your deskmate, the one he sometimes caught himself glaring at out of pure irritation and jealousy, though he knew jeongin wasn’t any real threat.
you were his muse, his fallen angel, the pliable doll he had once controlled so carefully until two other puppets, your dear best friends, stepped in and cut the marionette strings, ruining the entire show. you had been so kind-hearted and obedient, so sweet and perfectly made for him… but everything had ended so quickly.
yunho knew exactly how to push your buttons; it was too easy for him. he watched every little reaction, the glares you tried to hide behind forced politeness. he fed on it more than he probably should have. still obsessed with you and completely unable to let go, hiding it well enough behind the role of a professor.
you were his one weakness, the sensitive gap between two ribs guarding the heart he had, the one thing that made the control he prided himself on slip through his fingers. he had never stopped loving you, at least not in his own twisted way. goddamnit, you looked like an absolute doll today. the dress, the way your hair fell over your shoulders, the gloss on your lips. were you going on a date with someone? with who? when? where? normally he would have known already. the thought made his jaw tighten slightly, tongue pushing the inside of his cheek. if it wasn’t for the university schedule taking up so much of his time lately, he would have kept better track of things. he hoped you weren’t going on a date with anyone.
reaching for his phone, unlocking it as he opened one of the many accounts he used. your instagram appeared on the screen, and even though your profile was private, that had never really stopped him. the pretty much convincing fake account had been accepted months ago and you had never questioned it. he doesn’t just have one fake account, there are several, each with a different purpose: one follows you, the second follows your friends, the third follows men who comment on your photos.
his thumb scrolled slowly through the posts, stopping at one in particular.
you standing by the ocean with goldensunlight catching your skin, wearing that stupidly beautiful dress that he bought. the same vacation he had surprised you with, and the irony was that he had been the one holding the camera when those pictures were taken, and then his scrolling stopped when he saw you had a story posted.
you sitting across from someone in a restaurant, a glass in your hand, smiling. the caption tagged someone… jaemin? the quiet apartment suddenly didn’t feel so quiet anymore. yunho stared at the screen a little longer than necessary, his fingers tightening slightly around the phone. he decided to do his research, and within minutes, he knew jaemin’s major, his other social media, his schedule and which classes he attends.
“so you were going on dates now, huh?” his hand ran slowly across his face before he leaned back against the couch again, letting out a low breath that almost sounded like a mocking laugh. he shouldn’t care, and what’s left of his sanity knew that, but something in his chest twisted like a scalding hot knife. the truth was simple, and it irritated him more than anything else.
his home still has traces of you. your favorite mug still in the kitchen, a sweater you forgot draped over a chair, the perfume bottle you left behind on the bathroom counter. he hasn’t moved them at all, so when passing them he’ll sometimes pause, observing your belongings like they’re priceless artifacts he forever wants to keep.
a drawer in his desk contains a perfectly organized stack of polaroids. shots he took of you while you were dating, containing multiple domestic situations of you laughing on the beach, asleep on his shoulder and drooling, you looking annoyed while he teased you endlessly, you wearing his hoodie… there’s a lot, some even nudes taken during private moments when you trusted him. nothing is displayed openly, but preserved with a date written on the back, sometimes a short note, things like mine or xoxo.
as a photographer, he justifies it to himself as art. in his mind those photos were the purest versions of you, deleting them would feel like destroying masterpieces. the man doesn’t see anything wrong with it. they were taken with consent back then, and the memories belong to him, so he never questions keeping them.
though, admittedly, yunho still adds to the collection with printed screenshots from your instagram stories. blurry shots of you crossing campus, a candid photo of you mid-laughter taken from far away during a university event. he keeps a hidden folder on his computer, where inside are hundreds of photos and videos, not just from when you dated, but also recent ones.
sometimes he records his lectures for teaching review, as the university demands, and in private, he’ll rewind parts where you speak. listening again, and again, and again, so he can get off with his dick in hand, trying to chase his high from being turned on by watching you argue with him in class. she still looks at me the same way… anger is better than indifference. your hatred is still attention, and attention for men like him is oxygen.
he studies those images and compares them to how you look in class now. noticing the differences in the way you dress, how you glare at him and refuse to look at him too long… she pretends she doesn’t belong to me anymore.
also your old professor who retired? yunho knew her; she was a well-known photographer in seoul, a colleague of his whose exhibitions he had attended more than once over the years. during a gallery event, the two of them talked for a while, as she casually mentioned that she would be retiring soon and that the university needed someone to take her place. then she also mentioned that one of her best students would be graduating soon. the way she spoke about that student caught yunho’s attention immediately. the woman even pulled out her phone, scrolling through photos from one of the class exhibitions before zooming in on a familiar face — yours.
the elder woman happily explained how talented you were, the potential you had and how you were easily one of her favorites.
that was when he applied to the university, under her recommendation.
yunho finally stood from the couch and walked toward his bedroom. he opened the drawer of his bedside table, reaching inside until his fingers brushed against a familiar photograph: a polaroid from two years ago.
you were laughing in it, leaning slightly toward a cake with him beside you on your 22nd birthday. the faint lipstick mark you had playfully pressed onto the corner of the photo was still there, and he ran his thumb slowly over it. he just stared at it, placing the polaroid carefully on the nightstand beside his phone and the nightlamp. when he finally lay down under the covers, the photograph remained within reach, the faint outline of your smile visible in the dim light.
he closed his eyes, hoping, as he drifted toward sleep, that maybe tonight you would appear in his dreams.
fridays are always a godsend, especially after sitting through a lecture with the devil the day before. anything feels better after that, especially when you’re out for lunch with jaemin. sunlight spilling through the windows, soft chatter around you, and for the first time in a while you feel at ease. he insisted on paying, of course, saying something about how you “deserve to be spoiled properly,” and honestly… you didn’t argue.
he knows what you like. not in a suffocating way that feels like he’s memorized you without permission. but in a very gentle and attentive way.
“are you free tomorrow?” he asks, stealing a bite of your cake like it’s his.
“i wish,” you sigh. “i have to attend a birthday party with my parents.”
“mm,” he hums, pretending to think, though the smile on his lips gives him away. “guess i’ll have to reschedule my very important plan of kidnapping you for the evening.”
you chuckle softly, taking another bite of the sweet treat. “you’re not funny.”
“i’m hilarious,” he corrects you, lifting his index finger. “you’re just in denial.”
rolling your eyes, but you can’t hide the smile that appears on your face. the thing you really liked about jaemin was how sweet-talking and funny he was, knowing what to say at any given moment. he has this mischievous side, but he was also very loving and attractive.
“i was going to ask you to come over,” he adds more quietly, almost shy beneath the teasing. “but… another time.”
that makes you pause, because he doesn’t push or corner you. more so, never demands you to be with him and cancel any plans you have already made with someone else. it’s like an option, not an expectation. there’s no hidden trap set ahead of time for you to fall into.
“maybe next weekend?” you echo, that playful tone came as you asked him, looking at him for a moment, and then down at the already finished cake. and that’s enough for him. his bright and boyish grin returns instantly, like he didn’t just make your heart skip.
“see? progress. next thing you know, you’ll admit you like me.”
“don’t get ahead of yourself,” you warn, pointing your fork at him.
“too late, i already did.”
“jaemin–”
“what?” he leans in slightly, eyes sparkling with that same mischievousness. “you gonna hit me?”
you narrow your eyes. “if you keep talking, maybe.”
he gasps dramatically, pretending to be scared for his life, “not the man-hater queen threatening violence again.”
“i am not a man-hater!”
“you are when it comes to me.”
“you’re annoying.”
“and who is paying the bill?”
that shuts you up completely. instead of teasing you more, he just smiles, playfully winking at you, letting you have that moment.
after lunch, he insists on walking you to the mall so you can meet up with karina and yeji. it’s not far, twenty minutes at most, but he acts like it’s a whole event, a met gala of sorts, and you should be escorted like the princess you are. you walk side by side, hands brushing at first, then naturally finding each other, fingers lacing together. the weather is warm for the autumn season. leaves crunch when people pass by, cars hum in the distance, and for a while, you forget about yunho and about everything.
jaemin talks about random things like how he and jeno tried to summon ghosts as kids, jokes about what he saw online, and somehow, you’re laughing again without having to worry or trying to come up with excuses or reasons of how you can be so happy when something else gives you joy? he looks at you with adoration in his eyes and that’s what makes you feel safe.
when you reach the mall, he slows down, not letting go of your hand immediately. he lingers for a second, like he wants to say something else, then just smiles.
“have fun, man-hater queen.”
“thank you, cake thief.”
he laughs, finally letting go but not before leaving a quick, soft kiss on your cheek. “text me when you get home,” he says, and you nod, a little stunned by this bold yet sweet gesture. he walks off with a smile, and your best friends are already waiting for you inside at the usual meeting spot.
the moment karina spots you, she’s already sprinting, grabbing yeji by the wrist and dragging her along like she’s on a mission. it’s been weeks since you last saw each other, university has been kicking all of your asses, and you didn’t realize how much you needed this until now.
“(name), babe, how are you? you don’t know how much we missed you,” karina squeals, letting go of yeji just to throw her arms around you in a near-death hug. you laugh, breath knocked out of you for a second before hugging her back.
“i missed you, too,” you manage, and then yeji is right there, pulling you into her own hug, softer but just as tight. “and you don’t know what i have to tell you.”
“jaemin?” they ask in unison, already cocking their brows up.
“how did you know?”
yeji nodded her head towards the glass storefront behind you. “we can literally see you from outside.”
“he walked you here, didn’t he?” karina snorts and you don’t even deny it. that’s enough to send both of them into giggles as they hook their arms through yours, dragging you further into the mall.
the next hour follows it’s rhythm. gossip, teasing, overlapping conversations, with you telling them about jaemin and the date earlier, how attentive he is without being overbearing. sometimes you catch yourself thinking you don’t deserve someone like that. someone so patient and sweet, but karina shuts that down immediately, while yeji nods along, reminding you that the bare minimum just feels extraordinary after what you’ve been through.
what you don’t tell them… is everything else. you don’t mention yunho, not a single word leaves your mouth. it sits somewhere in the back of your mind, tucked away like it doesn’t even exist. they deserve to know, you know they do, but you don’t even know where to start, or how they’d react. and… you’re not ready for that, to lose them, so you stay quiet. maybe sometimes silence is the solution.
you move from store to store, bags slowly piling up in your hands. makeup is a priority, you’re running low, and soon enough, you’re standing in front of rows of lipsticks, testing shades against your skin. just for a second in your peripheral vision, you catch a tall figure, standing a few meters away. you turn your head, and nothing. you blink, frowning slightly. that’s… weird. you could’ve sworn someone was there.
“(name), come here, we found the new face masks,” yeji pops up out of nowhere, grabbing your arm and pulling you along before you can think about it too much. “they’re not even that expensive like everyone says.”
letting yourself be dragged away as the rest of the day passes in a blur of chatter and shopping bags. trying on clothes and spending money like you were the granddaughter of a very wealthy ceo. maybe in a past life you were rich, because right now, money seems to disappear the second it touches your hands.
by the time you finally sit down for coffee, you take a slow sip of your ice-cold drink, letting the sweetness settle on your tongue as you listen to karina and yeji talk. your social battery was starting to fade, and you were also running out of things to gossip about, content on just listening instead of talking.
for a moment, everything is fine as it should be, until you get that feeling again, like someone’s watching. you glance up, eyes scanning the space around you, but everything looks normal. people talking, walking, laughing, nothing out of place…. you shift slightly in your seat, fingers tightening around your cup. probably your brain is messing up with you after the tiring day you had.
the day started on like that — him following, and you being completely unaware.
he saw you earlier and was there during the whole date. he doesn’t hate jaemin even if jealousy spikes, but he quickly calms himself down. the younger man is just a temporary placeholder, a distraction you picked up because you didn’t know what else to do with the space yunho left behind. his tongue presses briefly against the inside of his cheek, a habit surfacing whenever irritation starts to settle in. he already knows what to order; he’s been here before… with you. at this restaurant, same table across the room, known for its delicate pasta and overly sweet desserts you always claimed you wouldn’t finish.
it’s wrong, not because you’re laughing and enjoying yourself, but because it’s not with him.
he watches the way jaemin leans in when he talks, how quickly he smiles, casually reaching for your plate, how comfortable he acts like he’s already earned a place he doesn’t deserve. jaemin doesn’t notice the smaller things like the shift in your posture, the way your fingers tighten around your fork when you’re thinking too much, the way your eyes drift when your mind starts wandering. he sees what’s in front of him, nothing more.
yunho sees everything.
he doesn’t need to chase you. he never will. you come back on your own. anger, frustration, curiosity, it doesn’t matter what drives you, it always leads back to him. because no one else will ever know how to handle you the way he does. he doesn’t want a version of you that’s easy. he wants the one who pushes and bites back to keep the spark alive.
you think you hate him, he can see it in your eyes. hatred means you still care; you react because you are affected. indifference would be a problem. but you’re not indifferent, just confused, pretending not to see what’s already there. he missed you. not just your voice, your presence, or your body. he missed this, the way you draw him in without even trying, like a moth to a flame.
he could have walked up to you right now. say your name to strike up a conversation as your professor. what a coincidence, right? you and he in the same place, at the same time, ordering the same food. your expression would drastically change; he knows exactly what it would look like. he’s imagined it enough times, but he doesn’t move.
he doesn’t rush things anymore, learning that the hard way. you need to feel like you have space and the freedom to choose. so he waits, and that’s fine, yunho understands. after all, you’re already his… you just haven’t admitted it to yourself yet.
it was getting late, and when you finally said goodbye to your friends, he’s already on the move. you don’t seem to notice how he chooses the same subway train, standing where the reflection in the window does the work for him, watching you through the blur of the passing lights and shadows.
you’re on your phone for a while, and by the movement of your fingers, you are scrolling through instagram or tiktok. then you are staring ahead, you always get like this when your energy runs out. he knows the exact moment your thoughts start drifting and when exhaustion takes over.
someone dares to look at you for too long. yunho burns holes with bloodshot eyes as the stranger looks away. the train slows at your stop, and you step out. he follows by matching your speed, always out of sight. footsteps always a few seconds behind, stops when you stop. he’s walked this path more times than you’d ever guess. yunho’s gaze moves over everything on the street: the corners, people walking and the cars passing by, the distance between you and anything that could get too close.
you reach your building and pause for a second, opening your purse for your keys. he’s already stopped, waiting for you to step inside. the door closes behind you, as he stays where he is. his eyes lift, scanning the building, counting without thinking how long it would take to reach your floor… it should be one minute and twenty-three seconds.
he waits a little longer, enough to see the second light flicker in your bedroom. it’s the same every night with him walking you back home. what if you hadn’t come back alone? what if some creep had followed you? that wouldn’t have ended well, not for them.
his shoulders finally relax as he turns away. to anyone else, that would be the end of it. just a random man on the street… even if his home is in the opposite direction, thirty-five minutes away. hands sliding into his pockets, the quiet jingle of metal breaks the silence with each step. a small cluster of keys, shifting against each other, and one tucked among them does not belong to him. his thumb brushes over it absentmindedly; it has always been there.
yunho still has a key to your place. sometimes he visits when you’re not there, and he always knows when that is. why does he do it? even the divine beings don’t seem interested in answering that, and they don’t want to interfere either. what is he doing in your apartment? nothing, he goes there when he wants to rest. he doesn’t move things around or leave signs. he just sits on your couch and enjoys the atmosphere you created.
your bedroom door stays open, so he doesn’t need to enter to know if anything has changed. he’s like a ghost, maybe a poltergeist, one that doesn't haunt by moving objects but stealing them instead.
he opens drawers sometimes. the most familiar one is always the same — the drawer with your underwear. never takes anything new or expensive, always the ones at the bottom. old pairs, the pieces you don’t think about anymore, and you wouldn’t even notice are missing.
it’s proximity, a way for him to be close to you, or for you to be close to him.
in the living room, there’s a plush toy you never threw away. he gave it to you when you celebrated your six-month anniversary. it still sits in its place, untouched and harmless-looking. except it isn’t. inside it, carefully hidden where no one would think to look, is a small camera. he watches from time to time, when he needs to. nothing invasive, just enough for him to see you when you’re home.
someone has to make sure you get home safe, even if you don’t know it, and if it has to be him, then so be it.
your father had a lot of friends, and it just so happened that your family was invited to mr. kim’s 50th birthday, an anniversary celebrated in a rather grand and luxurious way. honestly, it felt more like a wedding than a birthday… but either way, it was still an occasion for drinking. people of notoriety greeted each other left and right, laughter and chatter filling the air, until the man of the hour finally made his entrance, the one who had every right to celebrate until the very last drop and bite were gone.
“if this isn’t my one and only goddaughter?” it should probably be mentioned that this kind and ridiculously rich man was your godfather. no blood relation, but he had always been like an uncle to you. the affluent one who spoiled you endlessly as a child, giving you everything you wanted, because clearly your parents failed to treat you like the princess you deserved to be.
“happy birthday, uncle minseok!” you said, stepping forward to hug him, genuinely happy to see him. the gifts were still left by the entrance, but you always had your own little privileges. “this is for you, i hope you like it… even if you are getting old.”
inside the small wrapped bag was a simple package of marshmallows, as your mother immediately noticed, lightly tapping your shoulder. “(name), this is inappropriate.”
“calm down,” minseok laughed warmly, taking the bag from your hands without a second thought. “she knows exactly what to give someone.” he glanced at you with a grin, because this candy has become very significant during the years, something small but from the heart. “thank you, my dear. you’ll get the second piece of cake.”
the evening continued with drinks being passed around, conversations flowing about business, and whatever gossip caught your ear. at some point, your godfather rested a hand on your shoulder, “come, there’s someone i want you to meet,” he said casually, guiding you through the crowd. “a very dear friend of mine, and an excellent photographer. you might learn a thing or two.”
you didn’t think much of it at first, nodding as you followed along, heels clicking softly against the polished floor, your drink still in hand. this would be just another introduction for you to smile at a stranger. this would hopefully be someone you could form a connection with to help you in the future when you do decide to pursue a career, but just like that, everything in your body turned upside down. your entire world tilted and your pulse quickened, because of course it had to be him.
dressed like absolute sin in a suit that made it painfully obvious he knew exactly what he was doing. professional and put together… but unlike on campus, where he toned it down by being casual and relatable to young people your age, here amongst people closer to his age and high calibre, he wasn’t holding back. the clothes fit him perfectly, outlining his frame in a way that makes you force yourself not to react — masking your expression into something neutral that doesn't scream what the hell are you doing here.
“yunho,” minseok called out, catching his attention. “ah, perfect timing, indeed. i want you to meet someone.”
yunho turned, and for a split second, his eyes met yours. there it was, that familiar recognition, gone just as quickly as it appeared. his own expression of shock smoothed out instantly, slipping into that same composed mask you had grown to despise.
“this is my goddaughter, (name),” minseok continued proudly, squeezing your shoulders by the exposed skin your dress created. “she’s studying photography as well.”
you swallowed and played along, like you were meeting him for the very first time. as if you didn’t know the way his hands felt, or how his voice sounded when it wasn’t calm and controlled, the way he used to look at you when no one else was around… as if you hadn’t let him take your virginity.
“it’s a pleasure to meet you,” you said, offering your hand with a polite smile that stung like acid to hold. his gaze lingered for just a moment too long before he took it. warm and bigger than yours, soft too, just like it always has been, perfectly made to fit.
“the pleasure is all mine, miss (name),” yunho replied, smiling at you, and god, you hate how natural he makes it sound, like you’re nothing more than a stranger he’s just been introduced to. but of course, he doesn’t stop there. the pad of his thumb brushes lightly against your knuckles before he lets go.
it wasn’t awkward, more like… unsettling in a way that made your skin itch. it wasn’t just that you saw him every week at the university, no, now he was here too, at an event where you were supposed to have fun, not stand there thinking of at least five different ways to get away with his murder. your godfather, completely unaware of the tension, patted your shoulder before turning to yunho. “i’ll leave her in your care, and (name), you might want to take some photos now that it’s still not too crowded. have fun, kiddos.”
and just like that, minseok walked away, leaving you alone with the man you hated the most.
your blood started boiling like molten lava almost instantly. the fake smile dropped the second his back disappeared into the crowd, your nails digging into your palms as you inhaled slowly through your nose and you stared at yunho with pure and undisguised hatred.
"you know it's not very polite to stare." he was fixing something on the camera, or looking at photos, you didn't know, but you knew one thing, and that was that you hated him. “so, how is your project going? did you fix what i told you to?”
you stiffen for a split second, your smile tightening as you look at him, because of course he would say that here, of all places, since he just couldn’t resist torturing outside campus.
“i wasn’t aware this was a consultation,” you reply sweetly, but your tone carries that hostile warning of a bark that tells him you are about to bite like an angry dog.
“old habits,” he hummed softly, deleting a few blurred pictures.
“yeah?” you shot back, one eyebrow rising, “then maybe you should work on dropping a few of them.”
“that explains a lot.” the way he calmly answers makes you want to punch him.
“explains what exactly? you enjoying your little performance? you’re very convincing, i’ll give you that.”
“i don’t know what you mean,” he says lightly, though the way he looks at you says the exact opposite. liar. something about the way you’re talking back instead of ignoring him, clearly tells him one thing — you haven’t moved on completely.
“you still get worked up so easily,” murmuring almost to himself, but loud enough for you to hear.
“you still talk too much,” you snapped, and he took a step closer, enough to close some of the distance, his presence more noticeable and intimidating, and you sometimes forget how tall he actually is.
a small smile tugged at his lips because, truth be told, he was enjoying this far too much. his eyes were scanning your face, studying every reaction of the grimace you tried so hard to hide. you scoffed, crossing your arms, tapping your freshly done nails against your skin, irritation written all over, and for a moment neither of you spoke. the noise of the party faded into the background as the tension stretched like silk almost pulled to the point of tearing between you.
then yunho exhaled softly, removing the camera strap from his head, he closed the lens cap and put it back in the small bag, leaving it on the desk he evidently used for work here.
“what about we take a walk?” yunho suddenly suggests, tone light, sounding harmless and innocent. “talk a few things out. it seems like you have a lot to say.”
you should have said no. you should’ve walked straight back to your parents while ignoring him like you’ve been fighting tooth and nail to do, but somehow… you didn’t. maybe it was the tone of his voice, coaxing you with the way he said it like a suggestion, not a command, even though it somehow felt like one. or maybe it was just him, knowing exactly what to say, with just the right intonation for invitation.
“fine,” you muttered, big mistake.
he guided you through the venue, away from the main crowd and toward a quieter part of the hotel where the noise began to dull and the lights softened because fewer people meant fewer distractions. now it’s just you and him, the way he’s been craving and aching for.
then he stopped.
reaching into his pocket, he pulled out a pack of cigarettes. you frowned slightly as he pulled out a cigarette, placing it between his lips before lighting it and exhaling slowly, white smoke curling between the two of you before dissipating into the air.
“you’re smoking again?”
“you’re staring again.”
“i’m judging,” you correct. “i thought you quit.”
“i did,” he agrees, “for you.”
then he takes another drag, eyes never leaving yours, but you know you were the main reason, if not the only one, for him to quit. you hated the smell and the taste that transferred once you shared a kiss. or two. or dozen… neither of you ever bothered to count.
“stress does things, work, life… you find ways to relieve the tension,” he continues after a moment, carefully choosing every word to get a reaction out of you. he shares just enough, mentioning that the workload and the pressure made him go back to this bad habit, skimming over the real reason without ever actually saying it — the break up. of course, he wouldn’t admit that to you. he never gives you the full truth, only carefully selected pieces.
and as he speaks, you find yourself checking him out. you feel steel heavy shame that you are, but you can’t help it. he looks… good. no, that’s an understatement. dressed like he stepped out of some magazine, a black coat draped over his broad shoulders, a clean white button-up tucked neatly under a fitted black vest, finished off with a loosely worn black satin tie. as much as you want to deny it, to lie to yourself, roll your eyes… you can’t. when it comes to jeong yunho, all bets are off, because he’s so fucking hot.
yunho stubs out the cigarette, pressing it into the ashtray beside him. you’re both sitting on the edge of a small staircase, tucked away from most of the guests, the noise of the party distant like background static.
then, without much thought, he shrugs off his coat and throws it over his shoulder. the movement is simple, but it draws your attention to his rolled sleeves, exposing his slim but defined forearms, his veins faintly visible under the skin. his cords of muscle hold subtle tension that make it really goddamn difficult not to look. it gives him this quiet intensity, composed on the surface but never fully restrained underneath. a wildfire raging beneath a perfectly composed surface.
you really try to look away, only to realize something else, that you didn’t bring a jacket. you’re wearing a short black dress, feminine shoulders bare, the evening air cooler than you expected. it hadn’t mattered before since you won’t stay outside the venue all night, and yet before you can even think about it properly, warmth settles around you.
snapping out of your thoughts, your gaze shifts downward to see his coat now draped around your shoulders. when you look up, yunho is already adjusting his sleeves again, completely unfazed, like the gesture means nothing at all.
“so,” he says casually, sitting down beside you on the staircase, spreading his legs slightly as he leans back on one hand, the other idly flipping his metal lighter open and closed, “graduating soon, right? any plans career-wise?”
it catches you off guard. you almost scoff, because wasn’t he the one who suggested this, the one who said you had a lot to say. the truth is, you don’t, at least not to him. now he’s the one guiding the conversation somewhere… normal. like so normal that you’re not sitting next to your ex, who is actively messing with your head.
“i’m planning to try abroad.”
“where?”
“i’m not going to tell you,” you glance at him, narrowing your eyes slightly. “don’t want you suddenly becoming my coworker.”
that earns a chuckle from him. “you really think i’d follow you that far?”
you don’t answer, because you’re not entirely sure he wouldn’t. he makes it very clear that he is not talking about your career. the silence settles again, but it doesn’t feel empty. it feels intentional, as if he’s waiting for the exact right moment to put the puzzle piece into place.
you shift slightly on the step, exhaling through your nose, trying to ignore how aware you are of him sitting so close beside you. the party noise is distant now, blurred into nothing. now it’s just the two of you, tucked away in a space that suddenly feels too small… then he speaks again.
“are you seeing someone right now?”
your eyes flick to him immediately, but you don’t give him the satisfaction of a proper answer. “none of your business.”
no reaction at first, just the soft click of his lighter opening again. the small flame appears, disappears, and flickers back to life as he plays with it absentmindedly. it’s almost hypnotic, the rhythm of it: small flame, bigger flame, gone again. he’s buying time, or making you sit in discomfort a little longer than necessary. you stare at it longer than you should, trying to steady yourself. it’s stupid, but it gives your eyes somewhere else to go and your mind something else to focus on.
he exhales quietly, then the lighter closes with a soft snap, and he looks at you.
“jaemin, right?” he says like he’s commenting on the weather. “he seems like a nice guy, but doesn’t seem like your type.”
everything in you stops, freezes like you’ve just touched a block of ice. your entire body goes still for half a second too long andyour expression betrays you before you can even think to control it. it’s shock at first, then disbelief, because you never told him a name, or anything of the sort. never even showed signs of you being involved with someone else.
your mind starts racing immediately — how does he know that? how long has he known? what else does he know?
only a few people know you’ve been seeing jaemin, and yes, you do post stories with him just like you do with the other people you trust, people who wouldn’t… your fingers tighten unconsciously around the fabric of his coat still resting on your shoulders.
“how do you know that?” your voice comes out lower than you intended. yunho tilts his head slightly, observing a reaction he already predicted, since just confirmed something he was quietly testing. a faint smirk pulls at his lips, he shrugs, leaning back on one hand as his gaze stays fixed on you.
“you’re the campus's new hotshot couple,” lies, obvious lies. you know it, he knows it, but the confidence in his voice makes it sound real. rumors, gossip, students talking, maybe someone exaggerating something they saw, but nothing that should have him perfectly informed with a name.
you don’t even realize your grip has tightened until the fabric of his coat shifts slightly under your fingers.
“relax, i’m not interfering.” but his tone says otherwise, “you can date whoever you want.”
you can't because you are mine.
yunho doesn’t move away while talking; he closes the distance slowly instead, testing exactly how far you’ll let him go before you stop him. knee brushing yours, nudging you teasingly, he doesn’t break eye contact, and doesn’t give you space to believe or question anything. because the way he says it doesn’t sound like permission, it sounds like ownership he’s pretending not to enforce.
“you lost the right to care about who i see a long time ago.”
oh?
amused by how you’re trying so hard to stand your ground, trembling just beneath the surface. it’s beautiful like that, so unfiltered and honest. aren’t you the prettiest little angel when you’re angry? when you’re fighting him, resisting him, convincing yourself you’ve moved on. it’s almost impressive, and adorable. your will is always too big for your own good, too loud to stay buried, always insisting things should go your way, even when reality bends differently once he is in the picture.
he’s memorizing it all over again with the way your breath changes when he gets too close, the way you refuse to look away even when it would be easier. your eyes are the most dangerous part of you, he decides. they’re full of everything at once — malice, frustration, sadness you pretend isn’t there, excitement you refuse to acknowledge. a fire that burns brighter than the weak flicker of the lighter between his fingers earlier. a fire that could bring him to his knees if he let it.
but he won’t, he knows how to protect himself.
he knows you better than anyone else ever has. better than those two annoying best friends of yours, than jeongin, better than jaemin, even your parents. better than the version of yourself you try to present to the world.
yunho doesn’t need to chase because he knows your anger will bring you to him. he doesn’t need to beg, either. not when pulling the right strings of your nervous system is far more satisfying, watching you unravel and logic slipping away piece by piece until all that’s left is emotion, exactly how he wants you. he doesn’t need you rational, he needs you emotional. to destabilize you until you’re reacting instead of analyzing, feeling instead of understanding, until you’re his again in everything but name.
your thoughts slow, your focus breaks, you start reacting instead of thinking… just like he planned.
it’s sudden when it happens, you grab his collar, and before he can even fully process it, you pull him in and kiss him. not what people would call romantic, it’s out of pure spite and the need to shut him up. it’s messy, all teeth and frustration and months of things left unsaid. it’s the words i hate you pressed into his mouth like a punishment.
yunho doesn’t take control immediately. he lets you bite his lip and put all that frustration finally into something tangible, lets you pretend this is just about physically shutting him up. yunho lets you have your moment of control, an illusion of victory, because he can feel you’re not over him… should the fact that he isn’t over you either be good or bad news?
only then does he finally respond, when your breath catches in that familiar way, something in him snaps as he kisses you back. the taste is noticeably bitter, ashy, and slightly stale. a trace of smoke still clings to him, dry against your tongue with that faint chemical edge, following the chemical romance between you that has no clear answer or reaction to this day, only that it is intense.
his lips part slightly against yours, the movement slow, testing. he deepens the kiss, blurring the line between hesitation and intent, one hand sliding up to your neck, fingers resting there, guiding rather than forcing. he pulls you closer, and the way your breath stutters in the gorgeous column of your throat, the way your body reacts to his body without thinking, tells him everything he needs to know.
then, just as suddenly, he stops. not pulling away completely, neither of you really wants to break it, but he’s the one who finally pulls back first. you’re left staring at each other, chests inviting air in and out in hurried paces to catch your breaths.
“you look at me like you hate me…” and doesn’t seem like you want to stop, though. “but you always looked at me like that.”
there’s something in his expression, satisfaction, like your reaction alone is enough. your breathing is uneven, lips slightly parted, and you hate how aware you are of him again: how close he is and how familiar it feels. your lipstick is slightly smudged, some of it transferred onto him, and the sight alone makes something twist in your stomach.
because you want more, but you don’t want to want him.
this is wrong on so many levels, kissing your ex out of nowhere, yet your body remembers him far too well, as it responds far too much. it’s frustrating, confusing, and addicting in a way you wish it wasn’t. what are you even supposed to do now?
“this isn’t a good place…” he says after a moment, glancing briefly toward the direction of the party before looking back at you. “…unless you want an audience.”
and suddenly it feels like the decision is yours, except it isn’t. because the way he looks at you says he already knows what you’ll choose.
by the time you are fully recovered his hand is already around yours, fingers lacing, as his grip doesn’t loosen, not once, he already knows you won’t pull away. he starts walking and you’re just following along without questioning it.
away from the crowd, into the quieter parts of the hotel, the lobby is nearly empty, the noise fading behind you as he moves straight for the elevators. he presses the button, and as if perfectly timed, the doors slide open to an empty cabin.
you step inside, and the moment the doors close behind you, the space feels smaller and tighter. mirrors line the walls, reflecting everything from every angle. no matter where you look, it’s him first and only then, you.
yunho and mirrors are a dangerous combination, because he doesn’t just want to feel you, he wants to watch you feel him and memorise the way you submit to his touch each and every time he manages to catch you. standing behind you, his taller frame hovering close, his chest warm against your back even if he doesn’t fully press himself in. still, if you lean back even slightly, he knows he has you.
his lips brush your shoulder, not quite a kiss, more like a promise of one. he makes you aware of everything — your breathing, the expression on your pretty face, how close you really are to him. one hand slides low, brushing your thigh right where the hem of your dress ends, while the other rises to your face. his soft fingers tilt your chin upward. he doesn’t need to do much to make you go insane; his voice does most of the work, not his body.
“all that attitude, and look at you now,” murmuring right next to your ear. the hand resting on your thigh doesn’t move further, and somehow you react more to what almost happens than to what actually does. as if hypnotized, trying to hold onto some sense of control, but it’s slipping fast, because your eyes betray you again. “is that really how someone looks when they want me gone?”
he doesn’t think of himself as a freak about it. he just likes watching, prefers you vulnerable like this. his eyes never leave your reflection, taking in the way your lips part, your lashes flutter, the way you try to close your eyes against how overwhelming it feels.
“don’t close your eyes, doll.” his voice is low, slightly rougher, his fingers tightening just a little on your jaw. you forgot how much you loved being called that, and how much it didn't help your attempts at resistance. “i want you to see what i’m doing to you.”
the hand on your leg slips beneath your dress until it finds the soft fabric of your panties, and you’re already so wet. his fingers press against you through the material, enough to make your breath hitch while moving in a slow and controlled rhythm as you squirm in result. your back arches finally pressing into him, and he exhales softly against your ear, completely obsessed with the sight of you falling apart in front of him.
“y-yun–” his name halfway leaves your lips in a soft whine, breaking into something breathier when he moves just right. he loves the way you say his name like it belongs in your mouth, and believe it or not, it’s already tattooed on your skin with invisible ink.
“keep looking.” his thumb brushes over your bottom lip, guiding your attention back to the mirror. your thighs tremble, and your hands clutch at his forearm. the way your body reacts instantly, the way he has literal heart eyes when you make that sound again, his dick pulsating at the sight as he leans down slightly, lips grazing the shell of your ear. “see how pretty you look like this?”
you move without thinking, pressing back against him, your legs drawing closer together as if it might help, when his name slips from your lips again, your eyes glossy, barely staying open like he told you to, he smiles faintly against your skin.
“good girl.” but being good doesn’t mean you get everything. if anything, it means the opposite, because he’s making you want it first. you feel it before you can think about it. he could push you further, make you admit things, but he knows you won’t, not yet.
a soft ding breaks through the moment. his gaze flicks up toward the numbers, 10th floor.
the doors are about to open, the risk of someone being there and catching you… and just like that, he stops. he withdraws, leaving you aching, breath uneven, your body still caught in the aftermath of something unfinished. the doors slide open, and thankfully, no one’s there. the hallway is empty; most guests are still downstairs celebrating, others are already asleep. not that he would care much… or maybe he would. yunho has never liked sharing or the idea of anyone else seeing what he considers his.
he reaches toward you again, and for a second you think… but no. his hand slips into the coat you’re still wearing, pulling out the key card from the inner pocket.
“come on, angel… we don’t have all night.” all night. you don’t even know what time it is. your purse is still downstairs, abandoned at the table with your parents, your phone out of reach, “need help walking?”
he asks, and that more than anything, pulls you back to reality. because when you glance at the mirror again, you finally see yourself properly. flushed and out of breath. your dress is slightly ridden up, your lips parted, your entire body still buzzing with heat that hasn’t gone anywhere. fuck. you’re left standing there, completely worked up, and he’s the only one who can do anything about it.
you know this is wrong, but your body isn’t listening. the empty hallway was your chance to leave, yet your feet never moved. you should have walked away, right then and there… so why didn’t you? zoning out and staring into the void of nothingness, thinking how no one can even compare and you hate that it’s still him who makes you lose your sanity. with yunho, it was never just attraction and maybe that’s the problem. you hate him. you hate this. you hate that you don’t hate it enough.
telling yourself you still have a choice, only that you don’t. because somehow, without realizing it, you’re already following him to his room. the door closes behind you with a quiet click that feels louder than it should, and suddenly you don’t move.
you don’t sit. you just stand there, near the edge of the bed, fingers fidgeting with the ends of the sleeves, pulling the fabric over your hands as if it might calm you somehow. your breathing still hasn’t settled, your body is still carrying everything from moments ago.
he moves further into the room as if you being here is expected and inevitable. his hand reaches up to his collar, his eyes don’t leave you, though, not once. fingers hooking under the knot of his tie, loosening it slowly, sliding it from around his neck, the fabric slipping through his fingers before he lets it hang loosely in his hand. he stands there too, looking at your posture, and the way you haven’t dared to sit or do anything at all.
his lips twitch slightly when your fingers pause for half a second, then continue. you don’t dare to talk, you don’t trust your voice right now. he takes a step closer, then another, slowly closing the space between you until it feels suffocating again, and you’re aware of him in the same way you were in the elevator.
“take a seat,” he says softly, “you don’t have to stand there like that,” and you obey.
you sit right at the edge of the bed, back straight, still clutching the sleeves, as yunho watches you for a moment longer. then, without breaking eye contact, he lowers himself not onto the bed, but down, kneeling in front of you.
it shouldn’t feel the way it does, as if he were praying to his goddess for a blessing of a lifetime. it should be unsettling, he chose this position for a reason; he wants to be right here, close enough to see every reaction you try to hide. his hands rest lightly against your legs at first, thumbs caressing the flesh as you tense, but don’t pull away.
“do you know…” fingers sliding slightly higher, tracing and craving, then there’s a pause. “how hard it was not to think about you?” not crossing any line too fast, he continued, eyes fixed on your face, “to see you every week, and pretend we are just strangers?”
his razor sharp gaze softens for what you can barely count a millisecond, before it shifts back to its sinister depths, something that looks a little too close to obsession.
“should i? or are you going to pretend you don’t want this?”
beneath the dress, fingers slipping under the fabric as he hooks into your waistband and starts to pull it down. you are leaning in just slightly, giving him the access he’s already taken. that’s all the permission he needs. the delicate lace follows, sliding down until it pools at your feet, as you gently kick them fully aside with the help of your heels.
"last chance to leave, angel... say or do something if you want me to stop.”
holding himself back, and it’s taking more effort than he wants to admit. his gaze drags over you, taking in every detail like he’s been starved of it.
you look the same. no, you like you never left him at all.
his jaw tightens faintly because god, he missed you. no matter how much time passed or how many distractions he surrounded himself with, nothing and no one helped. they didn’t look right or feel right, they simply weren’t you.
you changed, of course you did. your hair, your style, the perfume, even the way you carry yourself now, like you’ve grown into something that bites back.
but he sees through it: you are just a little sheep wearing the wolf’s head.
and he is the wolf wearing a sheep’s clothing.
something restless stirring beneath his skin, the way it creeps in, settles deep, refuses to leave. he’s been stuck on a feeling, just can't stop, once ain't enough.
his thumb presses just a little firmer, grounding himself, because he might actually lose that thin thread of control he’s still pretending to have.
“i hate you.” you say but your legs part for him. his head tilts at that, tongue pressing into his cheek, amused, your defiance only entertains him more. don’t mind him then, as he eases you back, gaze heavy on you, his hands slide firmly to your thighs, guiding you then lifting your legs to settle over his shoulders.
he looks at you like he’s about to show you what heaven feels like when its most precious and divine being finally falls from grace.
yunho loves teasing you with his words almost as much as he loves tasting you. his tongue dives in, relentless at first, exploring every twitching nerve that seems to remember him all to well, then deeper, faster and harder. he pushes in and out like he’s trying to swallow you whole, sliding in and out with perfect rhythm.
“babydoll, you’re so sweet,” he groans, licking and sucking, eyes rolling back when he finally tastes you. you're addicting. he laps up your juices, swirling his tongue on your clit. “did you save all this for me?”
his hands grip your thighs, holding you open, pressing you closer as he devours you like a meal he can’t get enough of. every moan, quiet or loud, drives him further to the sinful gates of temptation. he buries his face in you, lips and tongue hungry, mouth wet, making sure every inch of you is tasted.
“look at you, trembling for me…” he whispers, nibbling at your inner thigh between laps of your cunt. he’s relentless with the words, praising every tiny quiver, “that’s it, you’re such a good girl, letting me do this.”
god, your pussy’s perfect. can’t believe this is all his to play with after a whole year of craving you. the way he grins while teasing you, making you feel like you’re both the most desirable and most obedient thing in the world.
“you like it when i talk to you like this, hm? gonna make you scream my name before i even touch you properly,” he teases, tongue pushing deeper, fingers brushing where you couldn't even reach. every compliment and filthy line makes your body shake more, your pussy grip tighter around nothing, dripping just from his mouth and words.
he mixes praise and filth, so you’re caught between feeling worshiped and utterly used. the combination makes you desperate and completely under his control. by the time he lifts his head, cheeks wet, lips shiny with your slick, because he knows exactly what he’s done to you — and he isn’t done yet.
“mmh… yunho–” your back arches, hips rising to meet him despite yourself. you’re dripping, trembling, completely lost to the sloppy sounds of his tongue. he groans, deep in his throat, enjoying the taste of you. he doesn’t rush when he devours and dominates your senses. “fuck, you are so… hahh–”
your legs are clamping around his head as your hands tug his hair, gosh it’s still so soft to the touch. your chest heaving, voice hoarse from moaning, and yunho finally lifts his head, grinning at the mess he made glistening on his lips. wiping his mouth slowly, chuckling, because he’s left you begging without even doing too much.
“mmhm,” diving back in as his fingers brushing against your clit while his tongue plunges deeper. he just keeps going — tongue flicking, fingers circling, whispering filthy praises with every movement. “that’s it, that’s my good girl… come on, let it all out for me.”
your walls clench and your pussy gushes over his tongue, spurting uncontrollably as your legs tremble and your back arches off the surface. yunho groans, licking up every drop, smiling like the maniac he is, “god, you’re insane… look at you squirting for me.”
he doesn’t stop, still moving, coaxing out every last drop, praising you with every breath he takes. his thoughts are full of you, and soon enough, you will be full of him. “mine, you are only mine… keep coming for me, angel.”
you’ve never felt so ruined and so completely at his mercy.
“i should leave you like this,” he adds, quieter, more to himself than to you. the idea actually tempts him, letting you feel exactly how easy it is for him to get you like this. “send you back downstairs all pretty, like nothing happened…” a soft exhale followed, “...but you wouldn’t make it far.”
pulling back, but his fingers keep toying with your clit, and you’re already so sensitive from that alone. he talks dirty in that manic and possessive way of his, murmuring about how he’ll keep you in the dress and the heels, since you can’t spend the night with him… no matter how much he wants you to.
he eases your legs off his shoulders, standing up with a slow stretch, but before he can even undress, he steps back in between your shaky legs, looking down at you with that same secretive, almost warm smile. maybe it’s love, maybe it’s lust, if not both. his index finger and thumb catch your chin, tilting your face up so you have no choice but to look at him, especially when you were trying so hard not to. how cute.
“drop the act, dollface,” he growled, his fingers slide down, big palm spreading around your throat, squeezing to cut off that long-awaited breath you wanted to take, watching you closely, eyes fixed on your lips as they start to quiver with every subtle tightening of his grip. “or do i need to remind you who you belong to?”
one moment he’s choking you, the next, he’s already stripped from the waist down, preparing you to take him.
lying on your back on the bed, with him hovering above you, one long finger slides inside you, immediately feeling how tight and slick you are as he starts to move. he watches closely, eyes fixed on the way your face twists with undeniable pleasure, all while his own cock pulses hot against your leg. a second finger slips in beside the first, and you feel the stretch right away. your walls clenching around him, creaming over his knuckles as small, broken sounds leave your throat, half cough, half whine, still trying to catch the breath he stole from you.
“there it is… i was waiting for that.” and by that, he means you being ready to take him. his thumb drags over the tip of his throbbing cock, stroking himself a few slow times, and your gaze drops — was he always this big? you’re not even sure how you’re supposed to take it… how you managed before. he’s thick, lining up at your soaked entrance, pushing your walls to their limit before he’s even halfway in, your cunt already molding around his size.
missionary is always a gamble with him, because you never know which version you’re going to get: the gentle one, the mean one, the jealous one… there are options, but you’re never the one choosing. this time, he is a meanie. a creature of extreme sadism.
all you can do beneath him is squirm and cry, clinging helplessly to every inch of him he gives you, heavy as he presses in, hitting places your own fingers could never reach. he grunts softly, hips pulling back again because you’re still not full of him, not yet. he has to carve the shape of himself into your insides, and claim you properly, like he always will.
maybe you’re already close, just from the way he moves. shallow at first, his pelvis dragging sinfully against you, making your writhing body jolt upwards on the bed. he switches between soft and controlled thrusts to slow and grinding circles, anything to ease you and help your body relax, make you greedy enough to take him deeper.
“is that all you do, cry?” yunho hisses under his breath, lips brushing wet against your ear as your nails dig into his shoulders. his cock presses right against your most sensitive spot, pulling a loud moan from you, and you think it’s too deep already, when he is not even that deep. “babydoll, be a good girl for me and take every inch, yeah? no, don’t cry now… you can handle it, because you’re mine… my pretty girl.”
your eyes sting, tears slipping free, smudging your makeup a bit. it’s been so long since you had any sexual intercourse, a whole year. you didn’t even do anything more than a few careless kisses and make out sessions with jaemin, nothing that even comes close to tonight’s carnal ravaging.
you need yunho. not just inside you, you need him under your skin, running through your dna. you hate his guts, you do, but god, he fucks you so well you can feel him in your guts.
the tears fall, catching the light like silver, as if tiny diamonds slip down your cheeks as he stretches you open again.
his fingers lace with yours, pinning your hands against the mattress as he hisses filthy praises into your ear. your sensitive cunt takes every devastating thrust, each one pulling out those wet and sloppy sounds, the kind that make you want to scream again and again until your vocal cords tear apart and you lose your voice for days as a reminder of what yunho is doing to do you. what he will always do to you. the way his cock drives fully into you sends that overwhelming urge through your quivering body, threatening to make you come undone, you’re not even sure if you want to. it’s a sensation so intense, such painfully good pressure building with nowhere to go.
you’re so cockdrunk it’s insane. you always thought you were in control, always told yourself he wasn’t a good person, but the dick was too good to let go. he fits too perfectly, like he was made just for you.
“scream for me, doll,” he groans, that husky tone rolling off his tongue and straight through you, pulling a helpless whimper from your lips. his brown eyes flick over your face, taking in every desperate expression like he’s committing it to memory, because watching you fall apart is his favorite part. his pre-cum leaves a messy ring at the base of his cock, trailing down the inside of your thighs, and maybe if he weren’t so consumed by you, he’d comment on just how desperate you look.
“yu-yunho–!” his name tears from your throat as it echoes through the room. his hips snap into yours without mercy, hard enough to leave bruises. your back lifts off the bed, arching into the overwhelming rush flooding your body. you praise and beg for him, pushing him further into ecstasy as he presses you back down every time you move too much.
“you think anyone else could handle you like this?” yunho coos, his pace picking up, thrusts growing faster and faster, until your thighs start to numb. “think anyone could love you the way i do?”
“yunho, please… ahh–” you hear yourself, like you’re outside your own body and have lost control of even your own voice. all you can feel is your nails digging into his back, your body tightening around him as you suddenly break, soaking him, your release spilling over his cock. and still his eyes stay on you, he adores your face more than anything else. it’s almost as if your reactions to the pleasure only he can give you appeal more to him than the sex itself.
“you say you hate me, but i bet you were just mad at me, yeah?”
but you’re too stubborn to admit that, refusing to give him even that much satisfaction. you close your eyes, trying to reclaim some dominance over him, but he only chuckles, bringing his hips to a stop at the fading edge of his own release.
that’s what makes your eyes snap open, staring up at him. “why’d you–?”
“i asked you a question, angel,” he sneers. one hand drifts down to your clit, rubbing slow, agonizing circles that pull a helpless whine from your throat, your head tosses back.
“p-please, yu– i can’t, i–” but your legs stay wrapped tight around his waist, pulling him closer, deeper, your heels pressing cold against the heat of his body.
his other hand moves, this time settling around your throat. at first, it’s loose, enough pressure to make you notice. then it tightens as he watches everything: from the way your lips part, to how your chest struggles to rise. completely focused on how dependent you become on him for air. forcing eye contact, watching you go from stubborn to needy, leaning in close to whisper instead of raising his voice.
“tell me if it’s too much… go on.” with every small twitch or squirm, it only makes his grip tighten more, restricting your breathing while muttering praise after praise. what a fucking sadistic psychopath. “so pretty like this…can barely breathe and still taking me so well.”
pushing your limits on purpose, to remind you exactly who’s in control. he feels the way you start to struggle, your body begins to give, and only then does his grip loosen.
air rushes back into your lungs all at once, burning on the way in. your chest stutters, breaths coming out broken and uneven instead of steady. your vision blurs, tears slipping freely now, and you don’t even realize you’re shaking until he notices it first. his hand doesn’t leave your throat. it stays there, fingers still curved around it, no longer squeezing, just resting.
“there you go, babydoll,” his voice drops, softer now, but no less heavy. “breathe.”
but he’s watching you too closely for it to feel like kindness. his thumb drags slowly over the spot he pressed into, feeling the rapid flutter of your pulse beneath his touch. your lips part, pulling in air that still doesn’t feel like enough, as another broken sound slips out of you.
it does something to him. you like this, glassy-eyed and trembling, wants him to hold onto this exact version of you for as long as he can. then, without warning, he leans in. his lips press against yours. it’s not an apology, far from it. a kiss that lingers just long enough to steal the breath you just fought to get back, a quiet reminder of how easily he can take it and when he pulls away, there’s the faintest hint of a smile, because he’d do it again.
“shh, don’t cry… you know i take care of what’s mine.” still too dizzy to think about anything but breathing and kissing, your legs are thrown over his broad shoulders, his hands pushing them closer to your head to get the angle just right. he watches himself slide between your folds, then looks down at you like he’s never seen anything more beautiful.
you glance down to where your bodies meet, even if every instinct tells you to pull away, but there’s nowhere to go. every movement hits heavier, deeper; your body can’t tell the difference between pleasure and pressure anymore. he drags himself all the way out at a torturously slow pace, only to push back in just as cruelly.
"s-shit… don’t move,” he groans, thrusting into you, when he finally decides to snap his hips, his pelvis pressed against yours. his fingers find your sensitive clit again, rubbing it fast to get you to cum again, throwing his head back as he thrusts one last time, before shooting his load into your aching cunt. spurts of warm cum fill your insides while you wither beneath him, all hot and sweaty, not even processing the mess both of you made under the clean bedsheets.
his cock was pulsing so hard you could feel it bulging through your tummy, filling you to the brim as you milk him dry. his palm presses flat against your lower stomach, and he actually smirks when he feels and sees the faint movement beneath, occasionally shifting his hand lower or higher just to make you lose focus mid-thought.
“you fell that, doll?”
do you feel how deep my love runs for you?
yunho looks at you like he’s completely gone, someone who operates on obsession, trying to imprint himself into every part of you, leave something behind that no one else could ever do. he’s smug about it too, of course he is. he just won in life, like out of everything in the world, he got you. fuck, wishing he had his camera right now, just to capture this exact moment. you look unreal beneath him, divine even dressed in black, an angel dragged down just for him.
his voice softens, murmuring sweet nothings under his breath as he leans in, pressing slow kisses to your cheeks, your temple, the bridge of your nose. gentler now, calming you down after everything he just put you through. a quick peck lands on your lips, lingering just a little longer than it needs to.
finally, yunho pulls out, watching closely as a small trace of him drips from you. his fingers follow immediately, sinking to keep it all in. then he pulls you up, arms wrapping around you, holding you tight against his chest, lips pressing into your hair, breathing you in like he doesn’t get enough of you, even now.
the aftercare is minimal, because it has to be. he lets you rest for a few minutes, helps you steady yourself, maybe guides you to the bathroom, helps you fix your clothes and makeup, and put your panties back on, while he dresses himself again as if nothing happened. and only now, that you’re about to leave, does he decide to act sweet.
“you good, need anything else?”
“i’ll manage, thank you very much, asshole.”
you smile through your teeth, already turning, only to wobble slightly in your heels. gee, wonder why, like you just didn't have some mindblowing sex. making your way out, you’re glowing, there’s no other word for it. a little wrecked, sure, a little unsteady, but shining brighter than the stars in the sky.
he doesn’t close the door right away, waits until you step into the elevator, as the doors slide shut and you’re out of sight. only then does he finally close it, the click echoing a little too loud in the empty room. he leans back for a second, alone with himself, because yeah, he’s an asshole, he knows that.
but you’ll always come back to him, and he’ll always come back to you.
having big gaps between classes was something you enjoyed, but sometimes hated. just like you hate everything about him. from the smug smirk that pulls at the corner of his mouth to how his fingers are inside your mouth, making you gag and be disgusted by the way he does such things like he owns you — he doesn’t.
he’s your ex, the one you’ve tried so hard to forget: the sound of his voice, the way he felt under your skin. now his lips are back on your neck, sucking, kissing, leaving marks you’ll have to cover the second you walk out of his office once he’s done fucking you on his desk. you feel his thumb press against your throat, taking his time, teasing you in ways you swore you would never let him do that again, claiming you like he never left.
trying to tell him, no but your body keeps telling him yes.
you should be disappointed in yourself, letting him pull you off track like this, letting him take control when you know better. yet, with every touch and mark sends heat racing through you, clouding your mind until you can barely remember why you hate him so much. is it because he wasn’t who you thought he was… or because you still feel something for him? hating him is easier than admitting you never stopped wanting him.
you don’t want to care; you want to despise him for what he did and for who he is. but that’s slipping away when your legs wrap around his waist, pulling him closer, eyes roll back when he slides inside of you, filling you completely, making you forget everything else. you want to resist, hold onto the anger, but you can’t. not when he’s deep inside, hitting all the spots that make you arch and gasp, his name falls from your lips even when you swore you’d never let it happen again.
“y-yunho... faster!” you choke out, hands clawing at his back, desperate and needy, but of course, he doesn’t give in that easily. yunho only slows down, teasing you, lips curling into that infuriating grin against your skin.
“angel, i told you to be quiet, didn’t i?” he murmurs, voice low and slightly mocking, “so impatient, as always. good things come when you obey… and wait.”
you are tired of waiting and being toyed with, and if he’s going to take his sweet time, then you’ll make sure he regrets it. your nails dig into his shoulders, even through his shirt, hard enough to strain the fabric and leave marks far more lasting than the lipstick stain on that secret polaroid sitting on his nightstand.
"stop being such a dick and fuck me already!" you hate him, you repeat it to yourself over and over, until his breath is hot against your neck and his hands are gripping your hips as if he’ll never let go.
and just like that, he snaps, relentless now, giving you exactly what you begged for.
his pace quickens, the plastic creaks underneath, each thrust pushing you closer to that edge, all you can think about is him, all you can feel is him. the hate melts away, replaced by a pleasure so overwhelming it almost hurts. you are so full, burning hot by how he uses your body as a canvas to paint you all white with no drops going to waste. purity and innocence, those words don’t exist for you anymore, as they are replaced with sin and punishment.
“that’s it, pretty. feels good, yeah?” he knows exactly how the two of you collide, like you’re at war with each other. it’s rough, as it drags your pride and self-respect straight through the dirt. the relationship is so damn dysfunctional, but yunho knows you better than anyone else. you don’t even realize how much he thrives on this, how easily you let him take control. he loves you like this: soft and bratty, vulnerable and entirely his.
you hope, no, you pray, that the good thing he promised finally comes, because you can’t take much more of this. when it hits, it crashes through you at the same time as him, your cries muffled against his shoulder, your chest rising and falling as all that tension finally spills out. he will take care of you, he will always look out for you because you are his most adored and precious doll, his favorite thing to hold and ruin.
a few minutes later, after he’s helped clean you up with a towel from one of the cabinets he keeps just for these getaways. you zip your pants back up, still feeling the lingering warmth between your thighs. you just hope your panties are enough to keep things from showing through. shit… you should’ve worn the black jeans.
“i only came here to give you mine and jeongin’s project, not to get creampied.”
“baby, you know you don’t have to do anything,” he says, spinning lazily in his chair. one hand clicks the mouse as he scrolls through whatever just came into his email. “you’re my favorite student, you pass without lifting a finger. your friend, on the other hand… needs to learn how to use photoshop.”
“yeah, but…”
“but what?” he glances up at you from the computer, that same knowing look settling back in. “you missed me?”
ah, your eyes betray you again. you missed him, no matter how much your ego tries to argue otherwise. after what happened at the hotel two months ago… yeah, that was all it took for both of you to realize you can’t stay away from each other. and maybe you’ll regret it one day, but not now. you’ve already decided to keep it hidden from karina and yeji. as for jaemin… yeah, he’s nice. he’s always been, but that’s all he is now, nice. you made sure you stayed friends, nothing more, and nothing less.
so you leave yunho’s office, of course not before kissing him goodbye, not that it matters much when he’ll be at your place later anyway. “don’t forget we’re watching spiderman~” like you could forget, you know the entire plot by heart at this point.
you’re wearing a sweater that’s way too big for you, one you casually told your friends you found at a thrift store. sure, if that store was called yunho’s apartment. thankfully, no one suspects a thing, not even your two best friends, because if they did… it would be over, and you’re not ready to lose them, but the heart wants what it wants.
later, you meet jeongin at the campus café, sitting across from him like you didn’t just leave your professor’s office in a completely different state than you entered it.
“innie, thank you for ordering for me too.” you smile, taking a sip of your drink, looking… brighter than usual, too happy for someone with a four-hour gap between classes.
“yeah, no problem,” he says, watching you for a second longer than usual. “also, are you… okay? i don’t know, you just seem different lately after things ended with jaemin.”
you blink, caught off guard. “huh, am i?” a small shrug follows. “i don’t know… i guess i just decided to focus on myself for a while, not on men.”
“well… whatever it is, it suits you,” he mutters, still a little unsure. “oh– by the way, what did professor jeong say about the project?”
“he said we’ve got max points secured,” you shrug lightly. “and that you’ve improved your photoshop skills.”
“really?” jeongin perks up, grinning. “well, don’t mind me if i skip next week then.”
the first part is true, the second isn’t. you can lie to everyone else, but not to yunho. it’s harmless. not everyone needs to know everything about you, not even the people closest to you. so here you are back with your toxic ex, because being stuck on a feeling means being stuck on him. if anyone found out, they’d probably kill him first… and then you.
he knows exactly what you risk every time you come back to him. this was never a temporary game, something that could end just because you decided it should. to him, it’s an inevitable cycle. he doesn’t see himself as someone you return to; in his mind, you never truly left in the first place.
he would give you everything without hesitation. tear the world apart for you, piece by piece, if that’s what it takes to keep you where he wants. but he would ruin you just as easily, because to him, being broken by his hands is still better than letting anyone else touch what he was already his.
yunho is a monster creeping in your heart. a wolf in sheep’s clothing, the kind of character no one expects to be the villain. he isn’t some bad habit; he is an addiction with no cure, letting him consume you, until there’s barely a line left between where you end and he begins. you chose to stay, considering no one plays the role better than you do. this version of yourself that looks put together, untouchable, and guarded… while slowly giving everything away to the one person who knows exactly how to take it.
you didn’t fall for a good man — you fell for the one who learned how to look like one. you keep calling it love, even when it’s nowhere close, because you can’t tell the difference anymore. and if this is what love is supposed to feel like… you don’t want to be saved from it.
thank you phoebe ( @tinyfixon ) for doing a beta read and being an amazing editor! i love you so much and i hope mingi is going to propose to you soon <3
synopsis: You and Jongho can’t stand each other, but the universe didn’t seem to catch the signals. Everywhere you went, he was there. Friends teased you both, saying you liked each other so much that you were manifesting each other everywhere. Ugh, as if you would ever like him, right?
w.c: 9.1k~
genre: enemies? to lovers?, forced proximity (kinda), smut, college au
warnings: swearing, misunderstandings, alcohol consumption, throwing up, no use of y/n, semi-public sex, unprotected pinv (jinjja don't do it friends), creampie, thick-cock jongho (yum), a little bit of dirty talking, nicknames (sunshine), praising, plsplspls let me know if i missed anything!
a/n: this is my humble contribution to the amazing live alive collab! thank u thank u thank u sm @sungbeam for hosting this amazing event! i met such amazing people through this and i will be forever grateful for having joined<3 this fic is literally my child and the longest fic i've written in my whole life so i hope u love it as much as i do. <3
SMUT BELOW THE CUT MINORS DNI.
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The morning was already doomed from the start.
You were woken up by the voice of your roommate, waking you up before the loud slamming of the door when she left.
Sleep drained from your body instantly as your blurry gaze landed on your phone's screen, the clock reading “8:53 AM”. “Shit!” You jumped up from the mattress, limbs tangling in the sheets in the process, before you managed to actually get up from bed.
Within minutes, you were sprinting down the hallways, clothes haphazardly thrown onto your body in the middle of your rush. A string of curses made their way out of your mouth as you neared the study hall, the screen of your phone screaming at you, saying that it was already 9:02 with big ass numbers. You hoped that Mr. Yoon was slightly late as always, and he wouldn’t close the door in your nose. Your steps slowed once you neared the classroom, not wanting to further embarrass yourself by showing up completely breathless and disheveled.
“Ah, Ms. L/N.” Mr. Yoon clicked his lips with his hand on the door handle of the classroom. “You’re lucky today; had you been five seconds later, you’d be staring through the window.” He moved out of the way to let you in. The crimson in your face was obvious, and it instantly drained when you saw the only seat available in the whole classroom.
Since when did everyone show up to this class?
“Morning, sunshine. So graceful of you to grant us your presence.” You sucked in a deep breath as you sat down on the chair, counting to ten mentally while trying to align every chakra in your body to not punch him square in the face in the middle of the classroom.
“Ugh, shut up, Jongho. I’m in no mood to deal with you,” he snickered at your words, watching you glare at him, finding you cute even while snapping at him.
“Come on, what happened to you? Rough night? Were you up all night thinking about me?” The mere thought sent shivers down your spine, a grimace on your features as you took out your study material.
“Please, as if I would ever.” You snorted slightly, shifting your entire focus to the class that was already starting, so that you could earnestly ignore him.
The class went by smoothly, Mr. Yoon talking about the different types of property law while you took notes, focused on his words. A small crease between your eyebrows appeared while you read some cases the professor had mentioned, which Jongho found devastatingly adorable. Still, he was never going to admit it out loud.
“This project is quite important for your grade,” Mr. Yoon continued explaining once the time for the class’s end was nearing, moving over to his desk, picking up his glasses, and setting them low on his nose before picking up a piece of paper with some letters scribbled on it. “It’ll run all semester, and you will do it in pairs.” He emphasized, looking over the rim of his glasses at his students.
He began reading names off it, a groan dying at the back of your throat when you realized he had chosen the pairs, bummed that you probably wouldn’t be paired up with one of your friends. Your ears perked up when you heard your name, body still as you waited for the next name to be read off the paper.
“...Choi Jongho,” he finished reading, making your blood run hot, and your eyes roll as Mr. Yoon calmly took off his glasses and set them on his desk with the piece of paper. “You will all work together, during the duration of this assignment, and before any of you ask, no, you may not switch partners at any point. You’re adults, and you should learn to work with people you don’t like.” You bit back a groan as you threw your head back, already feeling irritated at the thought of being stuck with Jongho, even more, for the rest of the semester.
“You’re all dismissed, have a good day.” Mr. Yoon swept his hair back and began gathering his things, most of the students scrambling out the moment the words left him. You continued gathering your things, shoving them down into your bag.
“See you soon, sunshine.” Jongho slung his backpack on one of his shoulders, shooting you a small smile that only made you roll your eyes.
“Hopefully not, Jongho.” You stood up, walking past him as you hung your bag on your shoulder. Leaving him there, with a small smile on his face as you walked away.
Ugh, you’re so endearing sometimes.
The following week had been pure suffering, as you would describe it. You and Jongho, stuck in the library for hours on end, slowly making progress on your project. It was a personal hell of yours; you were sure you would end up with wrinkles by the end of the semester, given how much scowling and grimacing you were doing at him.
“No, Jongho. That’s not the way we’re supposed to do it.” You argued, pointing to the document containing the project's instructions.
“Yes, but this way it’ll look better, and the professor will be satisfied either way,” he argued back, sliding his own laptop where the shared document was. You sucked in a deep breath, a hand coming to scratch the back of your head, asking every god to give you patience, because if they gave you strength, you might strangle him.
“That makes no sense, Jongho. Just do it the way the instructions say.” Your hand slid down to rub your temple. The clicking of his tongue reached your ears, and you sighed. “Do it.”
“Fine, no need to get feisty, sunshine.” he lifted his hands in mock defeat, running one of them through his soft black hair.
This was going to be a long semester.
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“I just can’t believe he paired us together, Woo.” Your eyes rolled, leaning your head on Wooyoung’s shoulder while you walked around campus.
“Relax, it’ll be over before you notice,” he ran a hand through your hair. “Besides, what could be so daunting about working with him anyway?” he quirked a brow, curious as usual.
“He’s just an asshole.” Your own brows creased, nose scrunching at the same time. “And he should leave me the fuck alone.”
“I never really understood what happened between the two of you.” Wooyoung shrugged, “You went on like one date, and then you came back hating him…Wait, he didn’t do anything to you, right?” His steps stilled immediately, his brows furrowed in concern as his hands wrapped around your shoulders to still you.
“No, and it wasn’t a date. And I never liked him; in fact, I hate him.” Wooyoung frowned, as if his face was saying, Seriously? “What?” his hands lifted off your shoulders, holding them up and shrugging.
“Nothing, I just don’t really remember you hating him.” The blood rushed to your cheeks, one of your hands coming to shove him, as a way to shut him up. “In fact, I remember you running around your room, not knowing what to wear.”
“Well, I do.” Your voice was firm, rolling your eyes as you continued walking towards the library.
Ms. Lim, the librarian, had hired you as her assistant, or at least one of them. She kept mentioning the past couple of days that a new person was coming to help you out, and they were just sorting out their schedules.
“What the hell are you doing here?” Your brows creased at the sight of Jongho, two hours early from your scheduled meeting at the library.
“I can come to the library, you know? This is a public study space.” He arched a brow, barely sparing you a glance as he walked past you.
“You? Studying? Please. You'd need neurons for that,” you scoffed, matching his step as he neared the empty front desk.
“Where's Ms. Lim?” he ignored your words as he leaned on the wood, his thick-rimmed glasses sliding slightly down his nose.
“Not here, clearly.” You rolled your eyes at him, walking around the desk and setting your hands on the wood. “What do you want, Jongho?” You cocked your head to the side, clearly unamused by his presence in your otherwise peaceful and quiet library.
“She asked me to come here, I’m helping her out as one of her assistants,” he pointed his words with a small smile, cocking his own head to the side.
“You're kidding.”
“Nope.”
“Well, you're fired, thank you very much.” You shrugged, turning to the computer, clicking the mouse around, and tapping at some letters on the keyboard, pretending to do something.
“Uh-huh. Where is she?” he pressed, leaning forward over the desk just a little bit more, trying to peer into the screen of the monitor.
“Out.”
“Let me guess, you’re one of her assistants too, huh?” He ran a hand through his hair before using his pointer and middle finger to slide his glasses up his nose, a small smile curling his lips, apparently, finding your despair amusing.
“I’m her only assistant, you’re fired. Remember?” Your smile was nothing but fake, but it only made Jongho’s heart skip a beat. It had been so long since he saw your crescent-shaped eyes looking at him while your plump lips curled in that sweet smile you had.
Jongho just nodded, “Sure.” He walked around the desk, throwing his backpack beside yours on the floor, and rested his hands on the thick wood.
You were for sure going to strangle him soon.
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“Okay, you have to tell me.” Wooyoung looked at you through the mirror, fixing his own clothes.
The cool air was seeping through the windows as you both got ready for a frat party you usually didn't go to, but Wooyoung had convinced you that you needed to let off some steam.
“Tell you what, Woo?” you looked at him through your own mirror, arching a brow as you rummaged through your makeup.
“Why you hate him, Sushi.” he turned to look at you, the damn nickname he had given you in high school after a much-too-passionate discussion about that very same type of dish, making you crinkle your nose.
“Don't call me that.” Your eyes rolled as you stretched your back, turning to look back at him, too. “And I already told you, I just do.”
“What happened on that date?” He pressed, hands falling to his sides as he walked to sit down on your bed, the mattress dipping below him.
“Wait…Did you go on a date with Jongho?” San asked, stopping his mindless scrolling on his phone as he inched closer to his boyfriend, resting his blonde head on Wooyoung’s lap.
“It wasn't a date. See what you're doing?” You hissed at Wooyoung. “You need to drop it already.” Your eyes rolled for the umpteenth time as you turned back to the mirror and finished your makeup.
“I just want to know what made you hate him so much all of a sudden, Sushi. That's not something that happens just because.” He pressed once more, being met with your glare through the mirror. His hands lifted in surrender as he pulled out his phone, deciding not to push your buttons more. “You're going to the pre-game?”
Your brow arched through the mirror. “What pre-game?” Wooyoung whined as he dropped his head back.
“The pre-game I told you Sannie, and I are hostinggg.” He dragged out the syllable as he looked at you. “We're getting drinks and playing the bottle game.”
“The bottle game? What are we, in seventh grade?” You scoffed as you sprayed setting spray on your face. Your eyes opened again to see Wooyoung deadpanning.
“I don't even know why I try with you anymore,” he sighed, deflating and checking his phone. “C’mon, babe. Hwa hyung, Sullyoon, and her girl are on their way to the apartment.” He nudged San's head with his hip, prompting him to get up. “See you later, Sushi. Don't be a wimp and go to the fucking party, or I will come back here and drag you out.” He blew a kiss into the air as he and San walked out of your room.
A sigh left your lips as the front door slammed shut. You turned around, eyes falling flat on the bear plushie you kept in your bedroom for a reason you didn't know yet. You walked towards it and wrapped your hands around it.
“You should know that your father is an idiot.” You talked to the lifeless animal, a crease in between your brows.
Because Wooyoung was right, you didn't hate Jongho without reason, and you did go on a date with him.
But those were simpler times.
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“Sushi, relax.” Wooyoung mindlessly scrolled on his phone, giggling as you took clothes out of your closet like in a classic coming-of-age movie.
“How can I relax? He's coming in an hour, and I still don't know what to wear, Woo,” you whined as you continued rummaging through the scattered clothes.
“He’s Jongho, he'll still think you're cute with whatever you wear.” his half-assed reassurance only made you roll your eyes while pulling out a shirt and some pants. You held them up, a silent question aimed at him, and his face lit up, nodding immediately at your suggestion.
Once the outfit situation was sorted, you continued getting ready, quickly pushing Wooyoung out the door before Jongho was supposed to arrive.
“Call me after! And use protection!” He cackled as you pushed him out the door, blood rushing to your cheeks as you slammed the door on his nose, running back to your room and checking your phone to see if Jongho had texted.
jjong♡ : i just saw wooyo lol
jjong♡ : u can come out whenever ur ready sunshine
jjong♡ : ill wait for u
Your heartbeat drummed in your ears, and heat pooled in your cheeks as you checked yourself out in the mirror one last time before coming out of your house. Smiling as you saw him standing outside your apartment, his thick-rimmed glasses perched on his nose as he ran a hand through his grown-out red locks.
“Hey.” You cringed immediately at your choice of words, nose crinkling as you locked your door shut behind you, a soft blush in your cheeks as you walked over to where he was leaning on the hood of his car.
The beautiful black of the Bronco catching the light and making it bounce on him, making him look absolutely dreamy.
“Hi, sunshine.” Your cheeks burned at the nickname. “You look beautiful today, too.” He smiled, walking over and standing beside the passenger door, opening the door for you whenever you were ready.
“Thanks, Jjong.” A shy smile ran your features as you got in his car, hands instantly coming to smooth the fabric of your jeans once the door closed, exhaling a breath you hadn't noticed you were holding while Jongho walked around the car, a hand running again through his half-red locks almost instinctively.
“So, the plan for today is coffee and then visit the fair downtown, ‘s that still okay with you, sunshine?” He asked while turning on the ignition of the car, his voice sweet as honey, making you shiver with nerves and excitement.
“Yes, that sounds really nice, actually.” And with that, the car came to life with a soft but steady hum of the engine, all of the lights turning on for a couple of seconds before the unnecessary ones turned off.
Jongho began driving, making quick and simple conversation with you, telling you about how Yeosang kept turning off all of the lights in their apartment before turning them back on again, and then turning them all off again. And you both fell into such a nice rhythm of conversation that you didn't notice his hand slightly snaking down until he covered your own that was limp and relaxed beside your thigh, palm to knuckles as he rubbed absent traces along your fingers.
You both ultimately decided to skip the coffee shop and go straight to the fair, as the sunset was nearing. Once you arrived and the soft hum of the engine stopped, you took off your seatbelt and turned half of your body to open the door, stopping yourself when you heard the door slam beside you and saw Jongho almost jogging as he rounded the car, quickly opening the door for you.
“Thanks,” the heat in your cheeks was obvious, but if anyone said anything, you'd attribute it to the cool November air.
“You're welcome, sunshine.” He bowed his head jokingly, the nickname that had started as a tease almost becoming more popular than your name in Jongho's vocabulary.
The rest of the afternoon was a fever dream. Jongho was nothing but a gentleman, remembering little details you had previously shared with him, like the kind of drinks you liked, the kind of games you enjoyed, and whether you liked plushies or not. Which is how you ended up with a small bear in between your arms, smiling as you kissed Jongho's cheek shyly, thanking him for winning it for you.
“How’re you gonna name him?” He offered his arm for you to loop yours around, a soft smile on his lips when you did just that.
“Hmm…” Your index finger flew to your chin while you pondered. Pink tinging your cheeks as you thought of the perfect name. “Jjongbear.” A full-on belly laugh escaped you when you saw his bewildered expression.
“I'll allow it only because you're adorable.”
For you, this was just the beginning of a beautiful relationship you and Jongho would have.
You didn't expect it to end so fast.
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The loud music boomed in your chest, slightly wincing at the sea of people dancing in the frat house. You made your way to the kitchen immediately, needing alcohol to run through your system as soon as humanly possible. You and Jongho had been working together for almost two weeks now, not only on your shared project but also as assistants in the library, and you weren’t sure whether you were going to finish the semester or be jailed for manslaughter.
“Ugh, you should’ve been there, Sushi. Mingi came out like he had been pulled out of that closet by the dick.” Wooyoung cackled as he arrived, wrapping his arms around your hips and resting his chin on your shoulder. “I give them an hour, tops, and then they’ll fuck.” He unwrapped himself from you and rounded the table, grabbing an empty Red Solo cup so that he could pour his poison of choice for the night.
You giggled at his choice of words, chugging the drink you were nursing in your hands. “They probably will, and you’ll probably leave me for Sannie too.” Your top lip pursed in mock disgust. Wooyoung almost choked on his drink, fighting off a loud cackle.
“Probably,” he smiled smugly, raising his cup into the air before taking a sip, the burn of the alcohol sending shivers down his spine before groaning out like an old man, making you giggle.
“What are you staring at, bro?” San’s voice made Jongho jump out of his skin, startled and embarrassed to be caught red-handed.
“I-I’m not staring.” He answered with pink cheeks as he swirled the cold beer bottle in between his fingers, tracing absent-minded lines in the condensation of the dark glass.
“You –a hundred percent– are,” San stated matter-of-factly, looking in the direction Jongho had been, a small smile curling his lips once he noticed he was staring at you and Wooyoung. “Ah, I see. The one-sided love.”
Jongho’s cheeks burned at his words. “Shut up.” He took a swig of his beer, hoping that the cool malt drink would calm the heat in his cheeks. “She looks good tonight.” He shrugged. Suddenly, the rest of the ingredients and the calories displayed in the half-wet tag on the glass were the most interesting thing in the world. “And it didn't used to be one-sided.”
“You look amazing tonight.” Wooyoung's words made you blush, hiding your face behind your cup while you took a sip of the liquid. “That skirt makes your ass look great.”
“Wooyoung! Don't you have a boyfriend?” You laughed, looking over your shoulder, feeling eyes on you.
“I do, but I’m also your best friend, so I'm entitled to tell you those kinds of things.” He shrugged, extending his hand for you to take. “Come, let's dance. Maybe you'll end up abandoning Sannie and me tonight for someone else.” He poked your cheek, pulling you out of the kitchen once your hand wrapped around his.
You continued looking around, feeling a pair of eyes looking at you from afar. Once your gaze fell on a particular set of chocolate-brown eyes, your top lip pursed in dislike. “Ugh, why is he staring?” You nudged Wooyoung, voice loud over the music filling the room.
“Because you look hot,” he looked in the direction you were discreetly pointing towards, a smirk curling his lips once he saw his boyfriend approaching your so-called nemesis for life. “And so does he.”
Your brows furrowed, trying to catch a clearer glimpse of how Jongho looked, something that didn't go unnoticed for Wooyoung. “H-he looks like an idiot.” Your gaze cowered almost immediately, walking through the crowd and settling on a small space that housed both of you.
“A hot idiot.”
“Fuck off.”
And with that, the night went on. Jongho felt his heart thrumming in his chest, heat burning beneath his skin, thoughts racing, cursing whatever it was he'd done to upset you so much, wishing he had never done it so you could be his.
He wished it were him dancing with you, his hands wrapped around your waist as you enjoyed yourself, admiring how the lights bounced off your skin and the way your clothes hugged every curve of your body. He was jealous of the people who could be by your side right now, dancing with you, making you laugh, giving you drinks.
He hated them.
He hated them all. But what he hated the most was that you weren’t his
It got to a point where he couldn’t help himself. He didn’t care if you hated him more after.
He noticed them before you did, two sets of eyes ogling from the other side of the party, —he believed their names were Jay and Jake, as his faces seemed familiar from the frat he tried to join last semester, before it all went to shit with you— He saw them, their eyes raking over your body as you continued dancing without a care in the world, a soft sheen of sweat covering your skin making it shine under the lights.
Jongho’s jaw was tense, he knew there was technically nothing he could do to stop them. He wasn’t your boyfriend, shit, you didn’t even like the man. But still, he couldn’t stop himself when he saw the way you turned to talk to them; eyes glassy, lips parted slightly, and a soft smile that made him clench his fists until his knuckles turned white.
“Are you Jongho’s coworker?” The two tall men beside you asked, crowding your vision and your space.
“Tsk. I’m nothing of Jongho’s.” You were quick to answer, your brain feeling fuzzy at the edges from the alcohol. “We do work together, but I’d rather get shot in the hand than be anything more.” Your words earned you some roguish smiles from the two guys, one of them leaning —a little too close— for you to hear him over the speaker.
“So that means you’re alone tonight?” His breath fell on your neck, leaving goosebumps in his wake. Your gaze shifted, looking for Wooyoung, who was about three feet away, lifting his glass as if he were saluting.
“Mayb—”
“Hey, man. Didn’t think I’d see you both here.” Jongho’s voice made your stomach churn, the smirk on your lips falling into a displeased frown as you turned around to face him. He dapped up the two guys, —whose names you had yet to learn— completely ignoring your scowl and the guys’ awkwardness as they slowly walked away a couple of seconds later.
“So not only do you never leave me fucking alone on campus, but you also have to bother me at a party?” You chugged whatever was left in your cup, not even feeling the burn in your throat anymore.
“You didn’t see the way they were looking at you, sunshine. I’m just trying to look out for you.” His voice was low, only for you to hear. “Come, I’ll take you home. You’re hammered already.” He extended his hand, prompting you to take it.
“You’re wrong.” He wasn’t. “And I’m not going anywhere with you.” You tsked before you hiccupped and slurred your words, turning your back on him. “And stop fucking calling me that, I’m not your sunshine anymore.” You turned back quickly, your head spinning given how fast you moved, and then you left, walking away to find Wooyoung.
He didn’t chase after you because you were right.
But that didn’t mean he was going to stop looking after you, making sure you were safe from a distance. He saw you find Wooyoung, wrapping your arms lazily around his shoulders, surprising him. He saw the smile on Wooyoung's lips that mirrored yours, and his jaw clenched. He felt jealous, not of Wooyoung, of course, but of the fact that he could make you smile like that, without a care in the world, like he used to do.
He saw you, dancing, drinking even more, and it was a miracle the beer bottle he continued nursing in his hands hadn’t burst, given how hard he was gripping it. “Just go over there, man.” He jolted at Hongjoong’s words, looking at him with furrowed brows. “How long are you gonna wait ‘till you do something? Or are you just gonna let her hate you without apparent reason for the rest of your life?” Jongho was stunned into silence. Hongjoong was always a very straightforward person when tipsy. “I’m tired of seeing you mop around for her because you’re not man enough yet to talk to her.”
“It's not really that easy when she doesn't even want to hear about me.” Jongho hisses out, jaw set as he kept looking in your direction, eyes narrowing when he saw Wooyoung stepping away and leaving you to dance with a random dude.
“Well, if you never man up, you'll lose her, bro.” Hongjoong tapped his shoulder with slightly more strength than needed, making him take a couple of steps forward to keep his balance. Jongho breathed out a long sigh, taking in the words of his hyung.
Meanwhile, you were having the time of your life.
If you weren’t hammered before, you definitely were now. Alcohol ran through your veins, your brain felt fuzzy, and your body felt lighter than it should ever be. You felt a pair of hands on your hips, a crotch brushing on your ass as your body moved to the rhythm of the music. You felt multiple eyes on you, but you didn't care, not when you felt so at ease and relaxed for the first time in a while.
You heard some words being whispered against your sweat-slick skin, although you weren’t really sure of the owner of the voice or even what they were saying; your focus was on the music and on the lightness of your body. You felt a hand wrap around your wrist, pulling you away and all the way out of the party, the cool midnight breeze hitting you immediately.
“Hey!” A sharp voice echoed behind you, making the person who was pulling you out stop for just a moment. “The fuck are you going?” Wait, you knew that voice. Even in your fuzzy state, you would recognize that voice anywhere.
Jongho.
“I’m just taking her home, man.” A strange voice beside you replied, tone uneasy as if they had been caught red-handed. You turned to face the stranger with furrowed brows, trying to make out who this person was.
“Tell me her name.” Jongho’s tone was sharp like a blade, his fists clenched at his sides as he watched the man beside you scoff, almost bothered by his intervention.
“Why do you care? You her boyfriend or something?” The stranger tightened his hold on your wrist slightly, making you wince in pain. Even in your drunken and fuzzy state, you realized that you did not know the man holding your wrist right now, forcing your hand out of his grasp quickly, making him stumble a little, definitely not expecting you to do that.
“He is.” Your words slurred, and Jongho’s breath got knocked out of him. The crease of his brows eased, and his lips parted in surprise, all words dying in his throat at your drunken words. “Get the fuck away f’me, I don’ even know you.” You stumbled your steps towards Jongho, who was quick to escape his trance and meet you in the middle, catching you right before you tripped on your own feet.
“Whatever, bro.” The stranger scoffed and walked away, leaving you there, with Jongho’s hands around you, avoiding your imminent fall.
“Let me take you home, sunshine.” Jongho’s voice was almost pleading. He hoped you would remember calling him your boyfriend in the morning. His heart was doing somersaults in his chest, even though he was well aware it was a lie, and you would probably never see him that way again.
“Leave me alone, Jongho.” You pushed him away, scowl on your face. “I jus’ said that shit so he’d leave me alone.” You admitted, your slurred words hitting him square in the chest. “ ‘m not gonna be stupid enough to fall for you again. And I’m not your fuckin’ sunshine!” You hissed out, swatting at his chest. “You will never be my boyfriend, Choi Jongho, I hate you!” You spat out in anger, heavy tears rimming in your eyes as you continued swatting his chest.
“I’m not leaving you alone in the street, let me at least find Woo-”
“I don’t need your fuckin’ help, bro! I need you to fuckin’ leave me alone!” You stumbled backwards, making space in between your bodies. Perhaps your words were being too harsh, but then again, you were drunk, and you didn’t exactly have that voice in your head that made you think before you speak.
Because if you weren’t drunk, you would’ve seen the effect your words were having. Random people eavesdropping and whispering about what you were saying, Jongho’s ears red from humiliation, and a small flicker of hurt in his eyes. And the worst part? Jongho thought you probably wouldn’t even remember.
“Hey, there you–” Wooyoung came out of the frat house, hair messy — as if someone’s hands had been tangled in his red locks— and out of breath, wincing instantly when he saw the scene. He quickly shortened the distance between you and rested his hand on Jongho’s shoulder. “Don’t worry, man. We’ll take her home.” His voice was low enough for the dark-haired man to hear, and as if he was summoned, San appeared behind his boyfriend, giving Jongho a reassuring nod.
Jongho sighed out, long and deep, before nodding and turning his back on the friend trio, walking towards his car, leaving you safe with Wooyoung and San, which was all he cared about, really, that you were safe.
Shortly after he left, and Wooyoung and San managed to get you inside an Uber, you arrived at your apartment with hot, thick tears running down your face. Babbles and sobs were the only things coming out of your mouth as your friends tried to change your clothes and get you to bed.
“C’mon, Sushi.” Wooyoung cooed while rubbing your back with one hand, the other one holding your hair up as you emptied the contents of your stomach in the toilet. “We got you, it’s okay.” He reassured, offering you a glass of water after you were done.
You were going to wake up like shit.
And not only because of the headache you were for sure going to have, but because you will remember.
You had never been the “black-out” type of drunk, no matter how much you drank. Which meant you would remember, from the moment you affirmed that Jongho was your boyfriend to a complete stranger, to the moment you berated him in the middle of the street, up until this moment, of you, lying in bed awake, far more sober than when you arrived, thinking about how he looked at you.
How his eyes shone when he heard you slur out those two words and stumble towards him, and how he looked at you like you had fucking kicked his puppy once you two were alone.
You had your issues with the man, but why did seeing his face like that hurt your chest so much?
No, no, he’s Choi Jongho, the man you swore you would hate until the last of your days.
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The library had finally quieted down after a particularly awkward shift. Ms. Lim was out sick and had tasked you and Jongho with managing the library for the couple of days she’d be out.
As if dealing with Jongho on a daily basis wasn’t enough, Ms. Lim had decided to fall sick, leaving you with the man you had publicly berated outside of a frat party while drunk, had a complicated history with, and couldn’t seem to fucking escape.
“Ready to close up?” Jongho’s tone was slightly nervous; this was the first time in the whole day he was trying to make conversation, his hand coming up to scratch the back of his neck.
You barely spared a glance at him as you pointed to the “returned books” cart behind you, —overflowing as always— while you continued typing away at the computer. “We also have to work on Mr. Yoon's project.” Your tone was barely there, words sharp as you barely paid any attention to him.
“Yeah, right.” His gaze avoided you like the plague. There was a strange feeling stirring in your chest. Were you sick?
“Get rid of the stragglers so that we can work on that and I can get out of here.” You ordered, and he nodded, kindly approaching the couple of students that remained in the library with their heads buried in books.
You paid no mind to him, only side-eyeing him every couple of seconds. Just to make sure he was actually getting rid of the people so that you could get out of here, of course. But a particular interaction made you turn your head to see better.
Most students were gathering their things and leaving the library just as Jongho had politely asked them to, but he had approached a table occupied solely by a girl with a soft crease between her brows that eased when Jongho tapped his finger on her shoulder lightly. You couldn't hear what they were saying to each other; you could only see Jongho’s soft smile and her cheeks blush, and you scowled. A small giggle of hers reached your ears. What was so fucking funny?
“If you're done flirting, the library's closed.” Before you could stop yourself, your feet had led the way all the way to a couple of steps beside Jongho, making him turn to you wide-eyed as the girl's cheeks burned crimson and she began gathering her things quickly. “You and I still have shit to do, c’mon.” You pointed your head to the side, motioning towards the front desk.
“Have a g-good night, you two.” The girl shyly nodded before slinging her bag on her shoulder and leaving the library with quick steps.
Once the heavy oak slammed shut, you turned around, walking towards the light switches, turning the overhead lighting off and leaving just the dim lighting of the hallways between the bookshelves. Jongho was quick to follow you, with his brows furrowed in confusion.
“What the fuck was that?” He followed you all the way back to the front desk, watching you pick up your laptop and some papers, your shoulder brushing his as you walked past him towards the law bookshelf, where you both normally sat on the floor to make progress on your project.
“What the fuck was what?” The strange feeling kept stirring in your chest; perhaps you were coming down with something. You carefully left your things on the floor, not meeting his gaze as you browsed for one of the books you wanted to use for your project.
“Don't play stupid. I wasn't flirting with her, I don't even know her.” His hands flailed around, trying to catch your attention as you kept looking around the bookshelf for the book. “I don't even know why I am explaining myself to you, ‘s not like you're my girlfriend or something.”
“Please. As if I would ever be stupid enough to be, don't make me laugh.” You finally turned to face him, closer than you'd expected to be. You took in his expression, a flicker of hurt passed through his eyes, but it was quick to turn into frustration.
“What the hell is your problem?” He took a step closer, voice low as his eyes searched for yours.
“You are! You have been my problem, all semester long, and you will be until it’s over!” You took a step closer to him, your eyes shooting daggers into his.
“You react as if you’re not a pain in my ass yourself!” He snapped, taking one step closer. Your breaths mixing at the closeness. You scowled, your eyes bouncing back and forth between his eyes, taking in his beautiful chocolate orbs, the crease in between his eyebrows.
You knew it now, you were jealous.
Seething with jealousy, that is. By the way he just made a simple conversation with that girl, making her laugh and blush, just like you used to at his words. Was it just that easy for him?
“How am I a pain in your ass? You're the one who won't leave me the fuck alone!” Your voices were much louder than they needed to be, thank god you cleared the library before. You couldn't live with the embarrassment and the afterthought of having yelled at him in public twice.
“You're the one who's acting like a child all of a sudden!” His nose scrunched, now–black hair falling over his forehead after his hands ran through his locks in frustration. Your eyes were locked on his, his chocolate orbs dark with fury and something else you couldn't describe yet. Jongho was exasperating, but up close, he was breathtaking.
His tan skin glowed in the golden lighting of the library, his plump, pink lips slightly parted. Your eyes traveled back up to his, realizing his own gaze had traveled down to your lips. The knot between his eyebrows had softened, his eyes staring into yours with an expression you didn’t have time to name, because when you noticed, his lips were on yours.
His lips tasted of honey, and a pent-up frustration you felt deep in your bones. Your hands had fisted his shirt near the midriff, scrunching up the fabric, while his own hands had tangled in your hair, softly tugging at the unruly strands that wrapped around his fingers.
Your heartbeat was drumming in your ears. You hated Choi Jongho, right?
Why didn’t you stop? Why didn’t you want him to?
The familiarity of his lips against yours didn’t ease the tension in your shoulders, muscles on fire at how strained they were. Your lips parted, and he took it as an invitation to slip his tongue in your mouth, a soft moan reaching his ears, making him shudder.
Seconds after, the kiss broke, a small trail of saliva connecting your lips while you both looked at each other with parted lips, wide eyes, and shallow breathing. “Whatthef—” is all you could get out before his hands slipped from your hair and cradled your jaw, interrupting every thought you had.
“Tell me you don’t want this.” His eyes searched for yours, “Tell me you don’t want me, tell me you hate me, and I’ll leave and leave you alone once and for all.” His tone was almost pleading. You could feel the slight tremble in his hands, the almost imperceptible hesitation in his voice.
I do, I hate you. Were the words you wanted to say. Instead, they got caught in your throat as your lips crashed into his once more, hands balling up the fabric of his shirt as you pulled him flush to you. “I want you.” You whispered on his lips, and while the rational part of you was screaming at you in your head, the part of you that thought with your heart was dancing in glee.
A soft sigh of pleasure left his lips, doubt slipping away from his mind as you kissed. His hands began roaming your body, softly squeezing the flesh at your waist, as if trying to ground himself, an effort that proved futile as a small moan rolled off your lips right into his, making his pants feel tighter than they already were.
His lips began trailing down your jaw, stopping just above your pulse point, and leaving small open-mouthed kisses in the skin as your hands wrapped around his midnight locks, softly tugging at the roots.
Jongho’s hands sat low on your hips, his hold dizzying as he continued leaving small kisses all across your neck and collarbones as much as your shirt allowed him to. “J-Jjong…” your soft mewl reached his ears and travelled all the way down to his cock, twitching in his pants at the sound of the nickname.
A soft hum rumbled deep in his chest as he leaned back, quickly removing your shirt in a swift motion, his eyes travelled through your torso, admiring the way your skin basked in the soft amber hue of the library lighting. You cowered, hands slowly coming up to cover yourself, “No, no. Don’t do that, c’mon.” Jongho wrapped his hands on your wrists, letting your shirt fall to the carpeted floor beneath you. “You’re beautiful, sunshine.” His velvety voice sent a shiver down your spine, letting your hands fall to your sides as you felt the heat creep up your neck.
Your hands reached to tug on his own shirt, the black fabric wrinkled after your frantic hold on it. He helped you take it off, his own cheeks burning once the fabric fell somewhere on the floor. Your eyes widened, taking in his figure, his golden-bronzed skin glowing in the library’s low lighting. He wasn’t precisely toned, but his body was admirable, making your gaze linger for much longer than it should have.
The kisses became more frantic, desperate. While a shy hand palmed him over the fabric of his pants, a not–so–shy one sneaked behind your back to unclasp your bra, his cool hands covering the skin of your breasts once the fabric fell to the rug, sending shivers down your spine as he kneaded the sensitive skin and rolled your nipples with his index and middle finger, small moans rolling off your lips. You couldn’t believe you were doing this to Choi fucking Jongho, the man you swore to never see with eyes that held something other than hatred, and in the fucking library. You just hoped that there weren’t cameras.
Most of the clothes were quickly discarded, and now you had your legs wrapped around Jongho’s waist, his hands splayed on your thighs as his lips swallowed yours in a dizzying kiss, your hips rolling every so often, your core, only now covered by your panties, meeting the tip of his cock, still covered by the fabric of his boxers.
Soft mewls and whines rolled off your lips as the friction became overbearing, feeling the all-too-familiar coil in your belly tighten, “Jjong, p-please.” You almost didn’t recognize your voice as you begged, Jongho looking at you with a fucking smirk curling his lips as he took a step forward, your back meeting the cold wood of the bookshelf. One of his hands snaked down between your bodies to be able to pull his boxers down, just enough to free his cock, the tip hitting your clothed core in a way that had you feeling like a livewire. You looked down and—
What. The. Fuck.
What an absolute fucking of a monster cock did he have. Not only was it above average, but it was thick. So fucking thick that you were almost certain he was going to split you in two, but your mind was far too gone to care.
Jongho’s lips curled in a full-on grin, “You’re staring.”
“You’re fucking huge.”
“I’ll take care of you, don’t worry.” He let out a small giggle while pulling your panties to the side, rubbing his fat cock across your folds, making you whine. Asshole.
He gathered enough slick onto his shaft to push inside slowly, a cry leaving your lips as you felt the stretch, his cock quite literally splitting you into two. “You’re a good girl. You can take it, right, sunshine?” The nickname you had come to despise in your daily life made you clench around him, forcing him inside just a little bit more, pulling a groan out of him.
“Sh-ut the fuck up.” A broken cry came out as he continued pushing inside, your head falling back and leaning into the old wooden shelf. He popped a brow at you, rolling his hips a little bit more, making you moan loudly.
“Such a good girl and such a filthy mouth.” He tutted as his hips continued rolling, sliding in and out slowly. He wasn’t even all the way in yet, and you already felt like you were about to explode.
He bottomed out, and a loud groan rumbled deep in his chest, a cry reverberating through your vocal cords as you felt the tip of his cock kiss your cervix in a way that had you seeing stars behind your closed eyelids.
“J-Jongho…fuck. Move,” you moaned, eyebrows knitted in pleasure as you tried rolling your hips into him. Head too far gone to think about what you were doing.
“Look at you, taking my cock so good after telling everyone you hate me.” He fucking cooed, and you clenched around his cock. He began pulling out as much as he could while still holding you up in his arms, and he slammed back into you.g
Your moans quickly filled the quiet, empty library. The obscene sounds reverberated in the wide space as Jongho continued slamming into you, wet, slopping sounds reaching your ears as you held on to the bookshelf for dear fucking life.
Jongho felt the muscles in his thighs on fire, and the position was becoming unbearable. Much to your dismay, he pulled out, and you whined, your breathing shallow as he steadied you on the floor, your knees buckled, your stance stumbling as your feet touched the rug beneath them. “What—”
“Lie down.” He instructed, and you popped a brow, obeying reluctantly. So picky, is what you thought, but all complaints died on your throat as he slammed into you the moment your back was touching the rug. His cock kissed the tip of your cervix, the delicious stretch making you dizzy in no time. Your belly tensed, feeling him deep in your womb as his balls slapped against the skin of your ass.
“Jong-ho, ngh— fuck…” You babbled, tears rimming your eyes as his hips snapped inside you mercilessly. He leaned down, the angle pushing his cock impossibly deeper as he took one of your tits in his mouth, suckling your hardened bud, nipping occasionally at the soft skin that surrounded it. You heard his low groans of pleasure, moaning as he rammed into you.
One of his hands snaked down between your bodies, circling your clit in rhythm with his thrusts, “Cum for me, sunshine. Cum ‘round my cock.” He popped off the sensitive skin of your chest with a wet pop!. His tone was laced with lust, your walls constricted around him, making him drop his head on your shoulder. Your fingers wrapped around his hair, black, unruly strands pointing in all directions, while some of them stuck to his forehead, a soft sheen of sweat covering you both, loud moans, groans, and babbles filled the space, both of you clearly enjoying the moment.
Your limbs were wrapped around Jongho’s as your lips crashed onto his, and your orgasm hit you like a tidal wave, legs tightening around his thighs, fingers pulling at his roots, and the cry of his name dying on his lips. His rhythm grew sloppy, frantic as he looked for his own release, the hand that was circling your clit coming up to rest beside your head, holding him up. Your lips swallowed his punched-out groan as he filled you up, thick, warm ropes of cum painting your insides without a care in the world.
Post-nut clarity hit you like a bitch. After Jongho slipped out of you and rolled to your side, breathing shallow as he stared at the ceiling, your heartbeat started thrumming in your ears. The haziness dissipated quickly as if a cold water bucket had been poured over you the second your orgasm subsided.
You had sex with Choi Jongho.
You sat up quickly, blood rushing to your head and making you feel slightly dizzy. Your hands splayed on the floor behind you, holding you upright as you caught your breath. You looked over your shoulder, seeing Jongho with his eyes closed as he brought a hand to his chest, trying to calm his own breathing. Your eyes danced over his body, admiring the way his honey-skin, lightly covered in sweat, shone in the dim lighting. You willed yourself to look away before your gaze dared to trail any lower.
You had sex with Choi Jongho. On the school's library.
You began gathering your clothes, quickly getting your panties that had been hastily discarded while you changed positions and pulling them up your legs, grimacing at the sticky feeling between them, quickly pulling your shirt over your head, and standing up, catching Jongho's attention, who opened his eyes to see you half-clothed as you rushed through the hallway looking for the rest of your things.
“What is it?” He asked while popping a brow, confused.
“What? You expected me to lie down and cuddle with you after fucking in the library?” You cocked a brow of your own, finding your pants and sliding them up your legs, prompting Jongho to begin dressing himself as well.
“You can't be serious.” He scoffed as he watched you begin to gather the papers that had fallen forgotten on the floor as he slid up and buttoned his pants. “Are you just going to fucking leave? That's what you do best, right?” He bit out, picking his shirt up from the rug and putting it on.
Your head turned so fast you swore you gave yourself whiplash. “What's that supposed to mean?” Your brows knotted, offended as you continued half-assedly gathering the papers, only this time your focus was fully on Jongho.
“You just leave and act as if nothing happened, then go around telling everybody you hate me.” He huffed as he spoke matter-of-factly, crouching down to pick up his thick-rimmed glasses that had been thrown onto the floor at one point.
The sound that came out of you sounded more like a laugh than a scoff, and your head shook from side to side as if what he had said was the most ridiculous thing ever. “You act as if it wasn't your fucking fault that whatever we had broke.”
“What does that even mean!” He knelt beside you, tone rising as his frustration bottled up again, close to exploding.
“You think I don't know what you said to Soobin and Yeojun at that fuckass party over at TXT last semester?” Your voice rose too, bouncing off the walls of the empty hallways filled with books.
“Wha–”
“I heard you. Telling them you were only trying to get me to your bed and that I was already halfway there.” You bit out, turning your attention back to the papers on the floor, biting the inside of your cheek to avoid the tears pooling in your eyes.
Now it was Jongho’s turn to feel as if a cold bucket of water had been dumped on him. Heat rose all the way to his ears, crimson covering his cheeks as his head cowered, teeth clamping over the inside of his cheek at your words. You weren't exactly right, but you also weren't wrong.
“It didn't happen like that.” If the silence of both of you hadn't filled the space, his words would have probably gone unheard, given how low his voice came out. “But I was an idiot, I was so invested in getting into that fucking frat that I let those two idiots talk shit about you, and I didn't do anything to stop it because I thought no one was hearing.” Your eyes met his, and his gaze softened at the sight of your teary eyes and quivering lower lip.
“I'm so so fucking sorry.” He said your name as his head fell forward, the sound of your own name out of his mouth surprising you. “Even if no one was around to hear, I should have said something.” He wasn't excusing himself; you could actually see how fucking sorry he was, and your heart ached. “If I could take it back and never have you hate me, I would do it in a heartbeat.” His words, followed by your name, made a stray tear run down your cheek, a small sniffle making him lift his head, his own eyes teary as he met your gaze.
“I don't know if I can forgive you.” Your voice came out shaky, broken as another tear fell down your cheek. “Yet.” Jongho's brows furrowed in confusion. “I never really stopped liking you. I was just too hurt to want to do anything with you.” You explained with a soft blush in your cheeks.
“I'll fix it.” He declared, pushing his glasses up into his hair and wiping his eyes with the back of his hand. “We just fucked on the library's floor for fuck’s sake, I'm not just letting you go.”
Maybe. Maybe you didn't hate Choi Jongho as much as you thought.
As if you would have ever thought things would ever go like this.
Jeong Yunho is the human equivalent of a system crash. A 6’2” wreck of stuttered sentences, fogged-up glasses, and nerves he can’t outgrow. He has spent his first year of college trying to be invisible. He’s a tactical genius on screen, but on campus, he can barely survive a three-word greeting without his voice cracking. He tries to start a Gaming Club in a basement that smells like dust and dump.
When a pack of “Mean Girls” turns his recruitment drive into a public execution, you step in. You lie. You improvise. You claim you’re his pro-tier controller—his star recruit.
Now you learn the hard way: Rule #1 of saving a cute nerd from bullies is this—don’t claim you’re an expert in a game you’ve never played.
➢ gamer!yunho x fem!reader | ➢ collage au, romance, strangers to lovers, slice of life | ➢ mdni, anxiety, imposter syndrome, substance use | ➢ ~30k | ➢ this is my humble contribution to LIVE ALIVE! collab, dear @sungbeam thank you for letting me be a part of this! ♡ | ➢ part two of three | ➢ part one
Fridays were a cruel joke played by the university registrar. Your timetable was stacked from noon to evening with the kind of back-to-back misery that left you with no time to eat, barely enough time to breathe, and zero patience for the fluorescent-lit purgatory of the building. You were currently dragging your heels toward your last lecture with Professor Lee. She was a woman who seemed to view your existence as a personal insult; a woman who would pick up on you if you breathed too loud or blinked at the wrong tempo. You were five minutes late, your brain was a slurry of 4:00 AM callouts and caffeine-induced regret, and the thermos of coffee Wooyoung had prepared sat forgotten on your kitchen counter like a tiny, lukewarm betrayal.
Then, your phone buzzed.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: ATTENTION. WE ARE A REAL ENTITY NOW. I HAVE THE STAMPED FORMS.
You stopped dead in the middle of the corridor. A group of freshmen swerved around you, but you didn’t notice.
You: registered like… legally?
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: LEGALLY.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: As in, with the University Council. Golden_Retriever_Yunho: As in, there is now an OFFICIAL Strategic Digital Coordination Club.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: I have a stamp!
Your brain struggled to process the concept of Yunho navigating campus bureaucracy without spontaneously combusting from the stress.
StarHwa_04: Yunnie, please stop typing in all caps. You’re announcing a club, not a declaration of war.
You: how did you even pull that off?
StarHwa_04: I did the talking. Yunho held the forms and tried to look ‘sturdy.’ Mingi threatened his friend who works around the library into joining as the 5th member.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: BUT IT WORKED!
You: proud of you, captain! 🖤
There was a beat of silence long enough that you could practically see the crimson flush creeping up Yunho’s neck in real-time.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: Don’t—
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: Don’t call me that when I’m in public. I mean. You can. But like. Respectfully. Professionally.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: ANYWAY.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: THEY GAVE US A ROOM.
You: ok. where?
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: IN THE BASEMENT.
You: the basement like… storage?
FixOn_Mingi: basement room is CRAZY. we’re literally a side quest.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: Basement like “tactically isolated.”
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: Basement like “zero windows.”
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: Basement like “the faculty looked at us and said: Yes. Put the gamers where the sunlight cannot reach them.”
FixOn_Mingi: please let me call it a level zero.
Your mouth twitched. You glanced at the door to Lee’s classroom. You could hear her shrill voice already beginning the roll call. The thought of sitting in there for ninety minutes was physically painful.
You: they put us in gamer jail.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: IT’S NOT A LEVEL ZERO!
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: IT’S NOT JAIL!
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: I’m heading there now to check the Ethernet ports. Is... is anyone around? I don’t want to be the only one there if the lights flicker.
FixOn_Mingi: Can’t make it. I started my shift earlier today.
FixOn_Mingi: Celebratory beer on me later? Come around 8:30. I should be done by then.
StarHwa_04: I’m tutoring that cute guy in 15, but I can make it to The Abbys later.
You looked at the classroom door one last time. Screw it. If Lee wanted to fail you for breathing, you might as well give her a reason. You spun on your heel and headed for the stairs.
You: i’m skipping. send the room number.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: You’re skipping? For the club?
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: That’s… highly irresponsible.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: (B-12. I’m actually terrified of this hallway.)
The basement of the Science Building was a labyrinth of exposed pipes and flickering industrial lights that hummed at a frequency designed to induce a migraine. You followed the yellowing signs until you reached a heavy, reinforced steel door with a small, wired-glass window.
B-12.
You pushed the door open. It creaked with the weight of a century’s worth of neglect, making the man inside flinch. The room was small—a concrete cube that felt like a bunker. Yunho had already claimed the space. He’d shoved the dusty old desks into a perimeter, leaving a wide open space in the middle. He was standing at the far wall, a piece of painter’s tape between his teeth, holding up a massive, hand-drawn map that he’d clearly brought with him. He looked up as the heavy metal door groaned shut behind you, the sound echoing off the concrete like a final judgment. In the dim, fluorescent flicker of the basement, his glasses caught a sharp, clinical glint.
For a second, neither of you moved. Yunho’s stare snagged on you like a hook. You watched it happen in real-time—the tactical assessment being overwritten by total sensory overload. His pupils widened behind his lenses, his mouth opening just a fraction, before his entire face flushed a shade of crimson so deep it looked like it hurt.
“H—hi,” he managed. The word came out far too thin for a man of his stature. The painter’s tape stuck to his thumb, tugging at the skin but he didn’t even notice. He was too busy trying not to blue-screen. You should have gone cold. You should have kept your shoulders squared and let the Viper rasp settle in your throat. Instead, you felt your stomach do a slow, humiliating flip.
Oh no.
You hadn’t seen him up close in days. You’d heard the Captain in Discord—all frantic, careful bursts of leadership and coordination—but this was different. In person, he was all long limbs and nervous energy, a shy soul stretched into a body far too large for its own comfort. His hoodie sleeves were pushed back to his forearms, hands smudged with ink, and that faint crease of concentration between his brows. “I—uh.” Yunho swallowed, his eyes flicking to your boots, then back to your face like it was a physical trial to hold your gaze. “Y—you came.” It sounded like he didn’t fully trust the universe to be kind enough to make it a reality.
“I said I would,” you replied, voice came out normal. No bored rasp. No monster’s purr. Just you. The realization hit you with a rush of heat. You were dropping the act without even meaning to. You were tired, you were real, and the thought of performing for him—of being that sharp, distant thing—suddenly felt like a weight you didn’t want to carry.
Yunho blinked fast, as if he’d been bracing for a blade and got a hand instead. “O—okay,” he stammered, his grip on the tape tightening until his knuckles went pale. “G—great. Great. Um. This is—this is B-12.” He gestured vaguely at the room, as if the concrete cube needed a formal introduction. “It’s… it’s kind of a dungeon. But, uh—” His eyes darted to the overhead lights. “They don’t flicker,” he blurted, far too loud for the small space. Then, as if realizing he’d sounded too eager, his shoulders hiked up toward his ears. “I— I checked,” he added quickly, his voice pitching up. “For the future meetings. N-not because I… I mean, I don’t mind flickering. It’s fine. I’m sturdy.” You stared at him. He stared back for half a heartbeat before his gaze crashed to the floor like it had taken massive fall damage.
Something warm and awful softened behind your ribs.
He’s trying so hard.
And the worst part was… it was working. Not the club—the club was a basement and a stamp held together by desperation. It was him. Standing tall on purpose. Standing tall for the club. Maybe even for you.
“Your glasses,” you said before you could stop yourself.
Yunho froze. His fingers twitched, wanting to reach up and check if they were still there. “M-my—” He cleared his throat. “They’re… they’re okay.”
They weren’t. You could see it now—the frame was slightly warped at the hinge, not enough to scream broken, but enough to whisper it whenever the light hit the plastic. One lens looked newer than the other, replaced in a hurry. He followed your stare and flushed even deeper. “I fixed them,” he said, too fast. “W-well. Seonghwa went with me to get the lens replaced. I just— He did the… the talking. I was… moral support.”
“Moral support,” you echoed.
Yunho nodded like that was a perfectly legitimate job title. “I was very sturdy,” he added, his voice small. Your mouth twitched. The urge to smile was a physical ache. Don’t. If you smiled, Viper was dead. If you smiled, you’d show him exactly how easy it was for him to get under your skin. But then Yunho glanced up again, and his eyes caught yours for a full heartbeat. There was something in them that wasn’t gamer-panic. It was gratitude. And a cautious, terrified kind of hope.
“Can I help?” you asked.
His whole body flinched. Then he nodded so hard it was almost violent. “Y-yes. Yes. I mean—if you want. You don’t have to. You’re—” he swallowed, his voice cracking, “—you’re… you’re very high value.”
You blinked. “What?”
Yunho went crimson. “I—” he squeaked. “Not like— not like that. I mean like—like in team comp! Meta-wise!” His hands flew up, gesturing at nothing. “I just mean you’re… important. A-and I don’t want you to— to touch dusty desks if you don’t—” He stopped, stared at the tape like it might tell him how to be a human being again. You watched him, and the feeling in your chest deepened into something reckless. Something too soft.
You stepped closer—close enough to smell faint detergent on his hoodie and see the tiny freckles near the bridge of his nose. He inhaled sharply, like you’d invaded a boundary he didn’t know he’d set.
“I can handle dust,” you said. “I’m not made of glass.”
Yunho’s eyes flicked to your boots again. The corner of his mouth tugged, barely there. “Y-yeah,” he whispered. “You… you look like you could fight a vacuum cleaner.” It was so specific. So stupid. And it made your heart do something it had no business doing.
“Okay,” you said, reaching for the edge of the map he was trying to tape up. “Tell me what goes where, Captain.”
The word landed. Yunho made a noise that was half-choke, half-whimper. “D-don’t,” he breathed, looking at the floor as if it held a new, limited skin for his favourite gun. “N-not like that. Not when you’re—here. In person.” You held the map steady anyway, and in the fluorescent hum of Level Zero, you realized you would do a lot of things just to keep him blushing like that.
The basement was too quiet. The only sound was the sticky schlick of the painter’s tape as you helped him secure the map to the concrete wall. Yunho was standing so close that every time he reached up, his arm brushed against your shoulder. Each contact sent a jolt through you that had nothing to do with the static electricity of the room.
“So,” Yunho started, his voice still small, still careful. He smoothed down a corner of the paper with a trembling thumb. “I was thinking… I realized I don’t actually know that much about you. Outside of the, uh, the absolute carnage you cause when protecting the Spike.”
Your heart did a panicked stutter-step. “What’s there to know? I play. I win.”
“No, I mean…” He finally looked at you. Not a glance, but a real look—full of that earnest, terrifying curiosity that made him so dangerous. “When did you even start? To get that good, you must have been playing since the beta, right? Or did you come from another tactical shooter? Your crosshair placement… It's like it’s muscle memory.”
You felt the cold sweat prickle at your hairline. Muscle memory. Yeah, Wooyoung’s muscle memory. “I’ve been around,” you said, trying to find that edge, but it felt flimsy in the face of his sincerity. “A long time. I don’t really keep track of the years.”
Yunho nodded slowly, his eyes still fixed on yours. “It shows. You play like... like you’re not even thinking. Like the gun is just an extension of your hand.” He stopped, his face going a shade darker. “Anyway. I—I actually got you something. Um… For the club. To—to welcome you properly.” He turned away, reaching into a worn-out, grey backpack with a few, colourful pins, that sat on one of the dusty desks. He fumbled with the zipper, his nervousness making his movements jerky. When he turned back, he was holding a small box.
LOGITECH G Pro X Superlight 2.
You’d seen that box before. Not this exact one—this one was new, uncreased like it hadn’t been carried around in someone’s backpack for three days while they worked up the nerve. Wooyoung had dragged you out for coffee once, months ago, on a day he’d been too fried to queue. He’d pretended it was casual. Just caffeine. Just air. Just not being in your room for a second.
On the way back, he’d “accidentally” detoured. You’d followed into the electronic store because you always did, because Wooyoung was easier to deal with when he was moving, talking, and filling the silence with noise. He’d picked up the Superlight 2 like it was holy. Turned the box over. Read the specs like scripture. His fingers had hovered near the price tag, then jerked back like it might bite, then he’d put it down carefully, like setting something alive back into a cage. You remembered the way his mouth had tightened after, the way he’d kept walking faster through the aisles like he could outrun wanting. You had even thought—just for a second—about buying it for him for his birthday. You’d even opened the tab later that evening. You’d stared at the total until your eyes went dry. You’d done the math twice like the numbers might feel pity and change.
Two weeks of groceries.
You’d closed the page.
“Yunho,” you breathed, his name slipping out before you could catch it.
“I noticed that your tracking was a little... jittery,” he said, his voice gaining a tiny spark of confidence as he talked tech. This was his safe space. “I thought maybe your sensor was spinning out. This one has the HERO 25K sensor. It’s... it’s the best. I wanted you to have the best.” He held it out, his hand trembling so much the box rattled.
You took it, your fingers brushing his softly, on purpose. He inhaled sharply, but he didn’t pull away, instead he smiled. “You shouldn’t have,” you whispered, and for once, you weren’t acting. “This is too much.”
“It’s not,” he said firmly, his eyes dropping to the box in your hands. “If you’re not performing at a hundred percent, the whole team... I... I fail.” He cleared his throat, stepping even closer. The smell of his lavender detergent, and a woodsy cologne wrapped around you. “Do you—do you want to try it? One of the computers was already set up on that station over there. I already downloaded the game.” He led you to the desk. The monitor hummed, the university logo moving on the screen. He pulled out the chair for you—a gentlemanly gesture that felt absurd in a concrete basement. “Back home I put mine at 800 DPI with a 0.35 in-game sens,” he said, leaning over you as you sat down. His chest was inches from your shoulder. “But that’s like the standard for entry-fraggers.”
You stared at the screen. You didn’t even know what DPI stood for. You knew Wooyoung moved his mouse a lot, but the numbers were a foreign language. “I... I actually play on a higher sens,” you lied, your voice tight.
Yunho paused. You could see the gears turning in his head—the tactical brain battling the Smitten Boy. No pro plays entry-fragger on high sens, his brain was likely screaming. It ruins accuracy. He looked at you and saw your bottom lip tremble slightly, noticing how you were gripping the mouse like it might bite you. “Right,” he whispered, his voice softening. “High sensitivity. For the... flick-shots. It makes sense. It’s... unconventional. Just like you.” He reached down, his large, warm hand covering yours on the mouse. His skin was slightly rough, his touch hesitant but lingering. “Here,” his breath was warm against your ear, and you couldn’t help the shiver creeping up your neck. “Let’s just... calibrate the polling rate. We’ll find your sweet spot.” He moved your hand across the pad but you weren’t focusing on the cursor. You were looking at the way his veins stood out on the back of his hand, the way his thumb tucked perfectly against your knuckles. “Is that better?”
“Yes,” you lied, your heart hammering against your ribs. “Perfect.” In that moment the lie felt like a wall between you. But as Yunho smiled—a real one that reached his eyes—you realized you’d rather live in the lie than lose the way he was looking at you right now. You pulled your hand back, the skin where he’d touched you feeling unnaturally, annoyingly warm. The “perfect” hung in the air, a flat-out lie with a bitter taste. You needed to move. If you stayed in this chair, under his gaze, the Radiant Rank would eventually see through the act. “Anyway,” you said, pushing the chair back with a sharp scrape against the concrete. “Settings are fine. Great, even. But if this is a club and not just a shrine to high-latency headsets, we should probably get to work! Where’s the rest of that tape?”
Yunho blinked, the sudden shift in energy clearly jarring his processor. He looked at the empty space where your hand had been, then up at you, his expression softening from intense focus to something more... vulnerable. “Right. The tape. Sorry.” He handed you the roll, but he didn’t step back into his own personal bubble. He stayed in yours. “I didn’t mean to corner you. I just—We’ve spent so much time on Discord that actually having you here... it’s like seeing a legend step out of the screen.”
You felt a pang of nausea. Legend. “I’m just a person, Yunho,” you said, and your voice was a little more on the Viper side than you intended—sharp, defensive. “Don’t put me on a pedestal. It’s a long way down when I fall.”
Yunho went quiet. The fluorescent light hummed above you, filling the silence. He looked at the roll of tape in your hand, then finally, he looked at your face—not like a fan, and not like a captain. “That’s the thing, though,” he whispered. “Everyone talks about your aim. Even Mingi won’t shut up about your headshot percentage. But since you walked in here... that’s not what I’ve been noticing.”
You froze, your fingers catching on the sticky edge of the tape. “Oh?”
“You’re really patient,” he stated and it wasn’t a “gamer” compliment anymore. It was an observation of you. “I’ve been stuttering and tripping over my own feet for twenty minutes. Most people—most ‘high value’ players—would have walked out or made a joke at my expense. But you just... you stood here. You helped with the map. And back then, in the quad, you looked at my broken glasses like they were something worth fixing, not something to laugh at.” He reached up, nervously adjusting the warped hinge of his frames. “I think... I think you’re a lot kinder than the person you pretend to be online. And I like that version of you better.” It was the ultimate irony: he was falling for your kindness—the one part of you that wasn’t a lie—while believing that kindness was just a hidden layer of the gamer he admired.
“Yunho,” you started but your voice cracked, exposing how truly nervous you were.
“I’ll go get the chairs from the hallway,” he blurted out, his blush returning in full force as if he’d just realized how much he’d said. “You stay here! Don’t... don’t lift anything heavy. You’re the MVP. I’m the—the manual labor.” He practically scrambled toward the door, nearly tripping over a stack of empty boxes on his way out.
You stood alone in the middle of B-12, holding a tape and a heart that was starting to feel far too heavy for the secret you were carrying. The heavy door groaned open again, snapping you back to reality and Yunho reappeared, balancing two mismatched rolling chairs and a stack of foam padding. He looked like a human Jenga tower, his chin hooked over the top of the padding to keep it from sliding.
“I... I got the ‘ergonomic’ ones,” he panted, setting them down. “Well, they were ergonomic in 2012. Now they just kind of... lean to the left. I’ll give you the one that doesn’t squeak.”
“I’ll take the squeaky one,” you said, reaching out to help him steady a desk that started shaking under the foam padding. It the looked like it was held together only by hope and wood glue. “It’ll keep me awake during the long rounds.” He laughed breathlessly, his shoulders dropping from his ears for the first time. Together, you slid the desk into the corner, the metal legs scraping against the floor
Once the desk was stable, Yunho started cable-managing the old monitor with the kind of reverence usually reserved for holy relics. Without looking up, he asked, “So... why Viper?”
You paused, your hand resting on the back of the chair. “What do you mean?”
“The agent,” he clarified, finally glancing at you through his warped glasses. “Most people with your mechanical skill play Geko or Reyna. They want the glory, and flashy kills. But you... you play the controller. You play the one who hides behind smoke and acid. You play the one who controls the environment so no one can see what’s actually happening.”
He looped a zip-tie around a cluster of wires, his fingers precise, skilful. “It’s a lonely way to play. Effective, but lonely. I always wondered if you picked her because you like being the one in control, or if you just like having a wall between you and everyone else.”
The question felt heavy. He wasn’t just talking about a video game; he was accidentally dissecting your entire life. You weren’t Viper because of the “meta”—you were Viper because Wooyoung was the one with his hand on the mouse, and the “Toxic Screen” was the only thing keeping Yunho from seeing that you were a fraud. “She’s misunderstood,” you said, the words feeling dangerously close to a confession. “Everyone thinks she’s the villain because she uses poison. But she’s just trying to survive in a game where everyone else has superpowers and she only has her chemistry. She has to create her own cover because if the smoke clears... she’s vulnerable.”
Yunho stopped working. He stood up slowly, his height looming over the desk, but his expression was soft, almost pained. “If the smoke clears,” he repeated quietly, stepping toward you, the distance between you shrinking. “You know, in the lore, Viper says she’s a monster. But when I watch you play... I don’t see a monster. I see someone who’s protecting her team.” He reached out, his hand hovering near the sleeve of your shirt, not quite touching but close enough that you felt the heat. “You don’t need the walls in here, you know? In B-12. You don’t have to be the ‘monster’ for us.”
You looked up at him—at the messy blonde hair, and the unwavering devotion in his eyes. He was offering you a safe place, unaware that the walls you had built were the only thing keeping him from hating you. “I’m used to the smoke, Captain,” you whispered, trying your best to give him a smile, but it came out as a grimace. “I don’t know if I know how to play without it.”
“Then we’ll just stay in the smoke together.” With that his fingers flinched, pulling back and clenching hard into the dark fabric of his sleeve. He looked like he was fighting a war with himself, his knuckles white against the ink-smudged skin of his hands. “And for the record?” He let out a shaky, self-deprecating laugh that didn’t quite reach his eyes. His gaze dropped, landing on your lips for a heartbeat—long enough for your breath to catch—before snapping back to your eyes with a startle, “Viper is... she’s iconic. But at the end of the day, she’s just a bunch of pixels on a screen.” He paused, his voice cracking on the next word, turning small and raw. “I think the girl standing in front of me is… I think you are... devastating. In person. Without the mask.” You wanted to flinch, to look away, to tell him that the girl he was looking at was the biggest pixelated lie of all. But his eyes were so earnest, so terrifyingly steady behind his warped glasses, that you were pinned to the spot. “You’re... you're really pretty, Y/N,” he whispered, the compliment sounding less like flattery and more like a confession he hadn’t meant to let slip. “And I’m—I’m really glad you joined us.”
The air in B-12 was so thick you could have cut it with a knife. Yunho was standing in front of you, radiating heat, his gaze fixed on you with a sincerity that felt like he had touched you. The silence stretched. Five seconds. Ten. You were looking up at him, your heart hammering against your ribs, waiting for the movie-moment. But Yunho wasn’t a movie character. He was a guy who’d just spent his entire monthly supply of courage. He watched you blink. He watched your mouth part slightly. And suddenly, the reality of what he’d just said—and how close he was standing—hit him. His blinked repeatedly, posture collapsing into a frantic, jerky mess. He practically leaped backward, his heels catching on the legs of a dusty desk. “I—uh—I mean!” he squawked, his voice hitting a frequency only dogs and Mingi could hear. “The light! The Ethernet! I have to—there’s a cable! A very important cable in the… Another basement!” He began to backtrack toward the door, his long limbs flailing like a startled giraffe. He was moving so fast he almost tripped over his own backpack.
“Captain? Are you okay?” you managed, completely stunned by the sudden whiplash.
“Great meeting!” he shouted, grabbing the door handle like it was a lifeline. He didn’t look at you. His face was a shade of pink that suggested he might actually be dying of embarrassment. “Very productive! Map is… map is stable! You’re stable. I’m—I’m leaving!” He yanked the door open, the rusted hinges let out a mournful scream that filled the silence. He paused for one half-second in the doorway, his silhouette trembling against the dim hallway light. “See you in The… The Abyss!”
SLAM.
The door shut with a finality that made the dust dance in the air. You stood there alone in the hum of Level Zero and the surrounding silence was deafening. You stared at the heavy metal door, then back at the map you’d helped him hang. “See you in The Abyss?” you whispered to the empty room, your eyebrows rising in pure confusion.
A second later, your phone buzzed in your pocket.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: I’m so sorry. Please forget that I exist for the next 3-5 business days.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: Also you are still pretty. Okay. Bye.
Golden_Retriever_Yunho: Also, The Abyss is the bar where Mingi works.
The air outside was crisp, biting at Yunho’s flushed cheeks, Seonghwa walked beside him, hands tucked into his coat pockets, looking composed compared to the frantic skyscraper of nerves next to him. “You’re walking too fast,” Seonghwa noted, his voice smooth and entirely too unbothered. “Unless you’re planning on sprinting all the way to The Abyss, slow down.”
“I’m—I’m optimizing my travel time, hyung!” Yunho squeaked, though he did slow his pace. He adjusted his glasses—the ones he’d told you were “fine” even though the hinge was screaming for mercy.
“She called you Captain in person, didn’t she?”
Yunho stopped dead in his tracks. He turned to Seonghwa, his eyes wide and haunted behind his lenses. “I think I’m dying. I think my heart has reached its maximum capacity and it’s about to force-quit.” he groaned, his voice muffled and desperate. “Hyung, I’m in trouble.”
“We’ve established that. You’re a disaster.”
“No.” Yunho dropped his hands, looking at Seonghwa with eyes that were terrifyingly wide. Now, he was just a boy standing under a flickering streetlamp, wearing his heart on his sleeve. “I like her. I really like her. It’s not just the team, and it’s not just because she’s the best Viper I’ve ever seen. It’s… it’s the way she looks at me like she sees right through the stutter. Like she knows I’m a mess and she… she stays anyway.”
Seonghwa’s expression softened, the teasing light fading from his eyes. He leaned against the wall just beside where Yunho abruptly stopped in his tracks. “I know. It was pretty obvious.”
“I’m scared,” Yunho whispered, his gaze dropping to his scuffed sneakers. “Because now she’s coming to The Abyss. She’s going to meet Mingi. In his... his element.”
Seonghwa tilted his head. “And?”
“And Mingi is... Mingi!” Yunho’s voice hit a frantic pitch. “He’s tall—well, I’m tall, but he’s cool tall. He has that deep voice that doesn’t crack every five seconds. He shakes cocktails and looks all... brooding and tactical behind the bar. What if they click, hyung? What if she realises that in real life he can hold a conversation without blue-screening?” He looked at his hands—those massive hands that had been trembling under your touch—and let out a miserable groan. “I’m just a guy who chokes on plain bagels. Mingi is... he’s a Radiant-rank socialiser. She’s going to see the difference. She’s going to realise I’m the bug and he’s the feature.”
Seonghwa stayed quiet for a moment, watching his friend spiral. He reached out, patting Yunho’s shoulder with a grounding, heavy hand. “Yunnie. She’s seen you at your worst. She’s seen you glitch. And she still showed up to the basement to help you hang a map.”
“But Mingi—”
“Mingi is going to drop a glass the second he sees her because he’s terrified of her,” Seonghwa interrupted dryly. “Trust me.”
Yunho didn’t look convinced. He pulled his hoodie up, the fabric obscuring half his face as they approached the neon glow of the bar. “If she laughs at one of his jokes,” Yunho muttered into his chest, “I’m retiring from the server. I’m moving to a farm. I’m becoming a monk.”
“Just go inside, you idiot,” Seonghwa laughed, pushing him toward the door.
“Okay,” Yunho breathed, a final, shaky exhale. “Let’s go. But if I start crying because she will only talk to Mingi, you have to tell everyone I had an allergic reaction.”
The Abyss wasn’t a bar so much as a hiding spot that had been granted a liquor license. It sat in the shadow at the end of the road like someone had tried to tuck it behind the buildings on purpose—low ceiling, stained brick, and a sign that flickered just enough to make everything look like it was happening inside a glitch. The air inside hit you first. Beer. Old wood. Cleaner that didn’t quite win. And underneath it all, the familiar bite of smoke clinging to leather.
You were already late when you pushed through the door and let your eyes adjust. It wasn’t full yet, but the sound of music and chatter already bordering on too loud. People hunched over sticky tables, someone laughed too hard in the corner. And then you saw them. Seonghwa sat in a booth near the back where the light was softer, like the place had naturally arranged itself to flatter him. He was dressed like he’d never heard of the word casual, even though the shirt hanging off his shoulder tried to lie about it. His hands were wrapped around a glass of beer, and his posture was too elegant for the torn vinyl seat. By the same table were two boys. One had to be Mingi—impossible to miss, dyed dark blue hair, had his work shirt half-hidden under a denim jacket, he looked like he was in the middle of complaining about something with his entire soul. Even from here, you could see the way he talked with his hands, dramatic and wide, like he was conducting an orchestra of problems. The other one had to be the new recruit. He was quieter in the way some people are quiet on purpose. Not shy. Not nervous. Just… watchful. Blonde hair, sharp eyes, hoodie pulled up even though it was warm inside. He sat angled toward the aisle like he wanted a clean exit route, but his gaze kept flicking back to Seonghwa and Mingi anyway, as if he was trying to decide whether this group was worth the trouble.
And then you noticed who wasn’t there. No tall frame hunched in the corner. No frantic scanning of the room for threats that didn’t exist.
Yunho.
Your chest did that annoying little thing it had been doing lately—tightening, then pretending it was just the air.
As if the universe heard the thought, Seonghwa looked up, his eyes finding you instantly. For a second, his expression did that careful, polite blankness then it softened. Not much, just enough. He lifted a hand, it wasn’t a big wave, but small, almost shy, like he didn’t want to draw attention to you. Like he didn’t want to startle you. Like he’d already figured out you were the kind of person who ran on sharp edges and pride, a person who didn’t like being handled too gently. You paused in the midway, boots planted, letting the dim light outline you like a warning. And then you smiled. Seonghwa’s shoulders dropped by an inch, relief cutting through his pretty composure.
Mingi noticed the shift immediately. He followed Seonghwa’s gaze, saw you, and his face lit up like a man who’d just spotted incoming chaos. “Oh,” he gasped loudly, already grinning. “It’s her. It’s the—” Seonghwa kicked Mingi’s shin under the table and the taller one hissed through his teeth. “Ow. Okay. Sorry. I was going to say the hero.”
You started toward them, your boots disappearing under the bass and the sound of voices in other booths. The third guy didn’t react. He didn’t smile, and he didn’t look impressed. He just watched you with a steady, measuring stare. The air in The Abyss was thick with spilled liquor, and the faint bite of someone’s vape. Even as you walked, your eyes swept the room again, searching without permission. Still no Yunho. Just the empty space where he should have been.
Seonghwa followed your gaze. His fingers tightened around his beer glass for a fraction of a second, like he already knew what you were going to ask and was bracing for the impact. “Hey,” he said when you reached the booth. His voice stayed smooth, but there was caution underneath it, careful as a hand hovering over a bruise.
Mingi leaned back and spread his arms like he owned the place, even though exhaustion was clear on his face. “Welcome to The Abyss,” he announced. “Where dreams come to die, and sometimes I get paid. This is Yeosang. Sit down. Before I start charging you a cover fee.”
Yeosang’s eyes flicked to Mingi—irritation threaded with something that might have been fondness—then returned to you. “So you’re the Viper,” Yeosang said finally. It wasn’t admiration. It wasn't a mockery. It was a simple statement of fact.
Your smile sharpened. “Depends who’s asking.”
Mingi made a sound that was half laugh, half choke. “Oh, great. She’s scary in real life too. Love that. That’s definitely going to lower my blood pressure.” The booth accepted you like it had been waiting only for that. The vinyl creaked as you slid in next to Mingi—the only free spot— sticking faintly to the backs of your thighs. It was warm from bodies and the room’s restless heat. Mingi didn’t flinch at the proximity. Instead, he draped an arm over the back of the seat, radiating warmth that smelled like cigarettes and work-shift sweat.
“Drink?” Seonghwa asked, already signalling the bartender with a subtle tilt of his chin that looked far too polite for a bar.
“Beer. Whatever’s coldest,” you said, your eyes doing one last, involuntary sweep of the shadows. In seconds a server slid in with practiced speed and dropped a coaster in front of you like a marker on a map.
Mingi tapped it with two fingers. “This is your spawn point,” he said. “Don’t wander off or you’ll get attacked by freshmen.”
Seonghwa didn’t even look up from the wet rings that his beer bottle left on the table when he spoke. “She could handle freshmen. They’re just loud.”
“Freshmen are unpredictable,” Mingi argued, gesturing with a straw he just took out of his beer, like it was a tactical pointer. “They have nothing to lose and no social filter. They’ll look you in the eye and ask what your major is before they even know your name. They decide if you’re worth their time based on the answer. It’s feral behaviour.”
Yeosang’s eyes flicked to your face, tracking the micro-movements of your expression with the clinical detachment. “What is your major?”
Mingi made a strangled sound, dropping the fry. “See? Ambushed in our own booth. It’s a bloodbath.”
You stared at Yeosang for a beat, letting the pause stretch until he almost—almost—blinked. Then you leaned back, letting your shoulders settle against the cracked vinyl of the booth. “Undeclared.”
Yeosang didn’t simile, instead he took a slow, deliberate sip of his beer, his eyes never leaving yours. “Undeclared. Funny,” he said flatly. “The Viper everyone in this club talks about is famous for her setups. She plays like she has a degree in architecture and a minor in chemistry. It’s all calculated. Pixel-perfect lineups.” He leaned in slightly, the neon light from a Budweiser sign overhead making his blonde hair look like sour cherry. “I haven’t seen you play yet. But you? You don’t look like a calculator. After all, it’s all about math, right? Calculating the perfect lineup.”
The table went quiet. Even Mingi stopped mid-gesture, a glass halfway to his mouth.
Yeosang couldn’t check your stats, at least not yet, but he was judging your vibe, and he’d realized the girl in the booth didn’t quite match the analytical monster he’d heard of.
Your heart did a panicked thud against your ribs. You didn’t know the math. You didn’t even know what exactly he was talking about. You just knew that when Wooyoung played, the screen turned green and the enemies died. “I don’t do math,” your voice came out a bit sharper than intended. You leaned forward, meeting Yeosang’s measuring stare with a coldness you didn’t quite feel. “I play on instinct. If you spend too much time calculating, you’re already dead. Chemistry is for people who need a lab. I just need a mouse.”
Yeosang’s eyes thinned, he didn’t look convinced, but he didn’t push. “Instinct,” he repeated softly. “Dangerous way to play at a Radiant level. One slip and the whole composition falls apart.”
“Then I guess I won’t slip,” you countered.
“Okay! Tension!” Mingi shouted, clapping his hands together to break the ice. “Traumatising,” he added before lifting a hand to flag one of his colleagues. “Two more Stella’s! And keep them coming until the room stops spinning, Keeho-ya!” The bartender with short hair didn’t question it, he just rolled his eyes dramatically as he reached for the glasses.
The beers appeared in no time as if the Kehoo guy had decided you were a problem that could only be solved with listening to Mingi’s needs and enough alcohol. The glasses slid onto the wood, sweating and cold, catching the red of the Budweiser sign.
The first sip of your Stella Artois hit bitter and clean, tasting of wheat and the metallic edge of a night that was already beginning to fray. You set the glass down, keeping your voice level. “Where’s Yunho?” It was far from the casual, it was the question that had been clawing at your throat ever since you stepped into The Abyss. But you kept your face neutral anyway.
Seonghwa’s fingers paused around his glass. Mingi answered immediately, far too fast to be natural. “Alive.”
“That wasn’t the question, Mingi.”
“Yeah, but it’s the only guarantee we can offer,” he said, flashing a grin that tried for ‘charming’ but landed squarely on ‘exhausted babysitter.’ Yeosang’s gaze shifted, dark and knowing. “Our Captain is… doing Captain stuff. Administrative duties. Existential dread. The usual.” You didn’t buy the act.
Seonghwa finally spoke, his voice careful, like he was stepping around broken glass. “He left earlier. Said he had to check something.”
“Check what at ten on a Friday?” you pressed.
Seonghwa’s eyes dropped to his drink. “He didn’t say.”
Mingi leaned in, lowering his voice until it was a conspiratorial rasp. “If you want my honest opinion? He panicked. Absolute system failure.”
You stared at him. “Because of me?”
Mingi shrugged with exaggerated nonchalance, though his eyes remained sharp. “He panics professionally. It’s a core skill, like his aim or his ability to colour code a spreadsheet. Yunho’s brain is like a very expensive computer that starts smoking if you open more than three tabs. You? You’re like a high-res 4K tab he wasn’t prepared to open.”
Seonghwa shot him a warning look. “Song Mingi. Enough.”
“What? I’m being descriptive!” Mingi turned back to you, defensive. “He saw you in that basement today and his internal fans started whirring. He needed to go stand in a cold room and reboot.”
Seonghwa’s gaze moved past you, scanning the crowded bar, then settled back on your face. “He doesn’t drink much,” he added simply. “This place… it’s a lot for him.”
“I can tell,” the words sounded sharper than you intended.
Mingi’s eyebrows lifted, interest sparking in his eyes like a flare. “Oh. You know know.”
Seonghwa sighed—softly but with a clear resign. This was the part of the evening he’d been bracing for. “He’s okay,” he said, and you could tell he meant it as a balm. “He just gets overwhelmed. It’s loud in here. The sensory input is… high.”
Your fingers tightened around the cold glass. “It’s not that loud.” Seonghwa didn’t argue further. He didn’t have to. His silence said everything: It is for him, when you’re the one sitting by the same table.
Mingi interrupted the heavy quiet by clinking his knuckle against your beer. “Anyway. Enough about our missing, trembling Captain. You’re here. Which is terrifying. And exciting. Mostly terrifying.”
“You talk too much,” Yeosang said flatly.
Mingi pointed a finger at him. “And you talk like you’re delivering a terminal diagnosis.”
“I am,” Yeosang replied, unblinking.
Mingi turned back to you, undeterred by the salt. “So. How does it feel?” he asked, his voice dropping an octave. “To walk into a room and have three grown men immediately rearrange their entire nervous systems just to accommodate your presence?”
You blinked, taken aback. “Is that what’s happening?”
Mingi leaned back, stretching an arm along the top of the booth. He looked comfortable, but his eyes carried that permanent hint of ‘loser panic’ that only the truly observant could see. “I’m just saying. Yunho saw you once and started making major life decisions. I saw you once and immediately considered becoming a slightly better person. It’s a lot of pressure.”
“You?” you asked, an eyebrow lifting as you took another sip of your beer. “A better person?”
He tapped his chest. “Me. It lasted for about four minutes. A personal record.”
Yeosang muttered, “Don’t encourage the clown.”
“I’m not encouraging him,” you said. “I’m observing.”
Mingi’s smile went sharp but in a way that felt like he was playing a character. “See? That’s your problem. You watch people like you’re trying to figure out where to insert the knife.”
Yeosang took a slow sip of his beer. “She’s just paying attention.”
Mingi’s eyes flicked to him. “Why are you defending her?”
“I’m not,” Yeosang said simply. “I’m correcting your flawed premise.”
Mingi looked back at you, undeterred. “Still. It’s fascinating. Yunho’s the kind of guy who apologies to inanimate objects when he bumps into them. I’ve seen him tell a chair he was sorry.”
“He does not—” Seonghwa started, then paused. “Actually, he does.”
“He definitely does,” Mingi looked at you, his gaze warmer now, threaded with a playful sincerity. “And you? You look like you’d fight the chair. You’d win, too.” You didn’t smile, but the tension in your shoulders loosened just a fraction. Mingi caught it instantly, his eyes lighting up like he’d landed a perfect headshot. “There it is. A crack in the armour.”
Seonghwa rubbed his temple. “Leave her alone.”
“I’m building rapport, hyung! It’s called networking.” Mingi leaned in again, whispering, “Unless it’s working. Then it’s flirting.” Yeosang made a quiet sound—half exhale, half disbelief—and looked away.
You held Mingi’s gaze, steady and unimpressed. “You’re different in person. From what I expected.”
Mingi blinked. “Different from what? The Discord version of me?”
“Yes. But also, different from Yunho,” you said, and the name landed on the table like a heavy coin. “He’s all… exposed nerves. And you’re—”
“Also exposed nerves,” Mingi supplied, his grin widening. “I just have better packaging. I’m confident because I gave up a long time ago. Yunho still thinks if he tries hard enough and is polite to enough chairs, the universe will reward him.”
“And you don’t?”
“I think the universe is a scam,” Mingi clinked his glass against yours. “So I scam it back.” You should’ve rolled your eyes. You should’ve told him he was full of it. Instead, you found yourself watching the way he carried himself—the loose shoulders, the humour used as a shield. The “loser vibe” was right under the surface, but he didn’t hide it. He wore it like a brand name. Mingi raised his glass. “To beer. To missing Captains who are currently screaming into pillows. And to the fact that you showed up to this dump anyway.”
Seonghwa lifted his glass a second later, his eyes soft. “To you being here.”
Yeosang hesitated, then tapped his glass against the others. Minimal. Precise. You drank with them, the bitterness of the hops settling in your chest. And when the next round arrived—unasked for, inevitable—you realized the night wasn’t going to let you leave with your mask intact.
After your third beer, the alcohol was starting to feel heavy. You’d skipped dinner to make the meeting, and the Stella was hitting your bloodstream harshly. The bar felt a little too warm, the bass of the music thumping a bit too hard in your temples. “I need air,” you muttered, sliding out of the booth. The vinyl let out a sticky shlick sound as your legs detached.
“I’m coming too,” Mingi said, jumping up with surprising agility. “My lungs are craving a toxic cloud of their own.”
The night air was a shock—cold and damp, smelling of wet pavement. You leaned against the stained brick wall of the alleyway, the world tilting just a fraction to the left. Mingi pulled out a pack of Camel Blue’s, flicking a silver lighter, the orange flame dancing in the wind before catching. He inhaled deeply, the tip of the cigarette glowing like a dying star. The orange glow illuminated the sharp lines of his face and the permanent “panic” hiding behind his grin.
“You look like you’re waiting for a boss fight,” Mingi said, offering the pack to you. You took it, because you would never say no to a free cigarette, even if you didn’t feel like smoking.
“Yeosang’s very intense,” you muttered, leaning your head back against the cold, rough brick.
“Yeosang is a human patch-note,” Mingi chuckled, blowing a plume of smoke toward a flickering streetlamp. “He doesn’t see people; he sees data points and hitbox errors. Don’t take it personally. He’s just… efficient.”
He went quiet after that, watching a stray cat dart behind a dumpster.
“Yunho thinks he’s the lucky one,” Mingi continued suddenly, his voice dropping an octave. “He thinks he’s the one who won the lottery because you showed up. He thinks you’re the ‘feature’ that’s going to save the club.”
You felt a sharp, cold pang of guilt. “I told him not to put me on a pedestal.” You took a drag of the cigarette, the smoke burning your throat. You looked at Mingi—this guy who scammed the universe back. You realized then that you weren’t just lying to a guy you liked. You were infiltrating a brotherhood that was built on a level of sincerity you hadn’t expected.
“You look a little… glitchy.” Mingi pointed out, leaning against the wall next to you, looking more like the tired student he was.
“Just the alcohol,” you lied, taking a shallow drag. “Empty stomach.”
“Yeah, Yunho does that too,” Mingi chuckled, blowing smoke away from you. “Forgets to eat when he’s in the zone. I once found him trying to meal-prep at 3 AM, staring at a bag of rice like it was a complex tactical problem.” He looked at you then, his gaze softer than it had been inside. “He really likes you, you know. And not just because you’re a god-tier Viper. He’s... he’s scared of you, but in the way people are scared of things they actually care about.”
The world spun again. You closed your eyes, the rough brick scratching your shoulder. The guilt was worse than the nausea. “He shouldn’t,” you whispered. “He shouldn’t like me.”
“Too late,” Mingi said, tapping his ash onto the pavement. “He’s already built a shrine to you in his head. Just... try not to knock it over too hard, okay? He’s made of glass, tempered one but still glass.”
You opened your eyes to Mingi watching you closely, his expression uncharacteristically serious, a one you wouldn’t expect from him. In the dim light of the alley, you realized that Mingi wasn’t just the clown—he was the one who watched the watchman. He knew Yunho was falling, and he was quietly asking you to catch him. “He can take a lot of pressure, but once he cracks… he shatters. That’s why we’re here. Me and Seonghwa. We’re the padding. We make sure the world doesn’t hit him too hard.”
“I’m not who he thinks I am,” you said, the truth bubbling up, fuelled by the alcohol and the exhaustion. You took a deep drag of the cigarette, smoke filling every bit of your lungs. You felt your body tense, instead of the usual, relaxing sensation that nicotine provided.
Mingi just shrugged, a small, sad smile touching his lips. “None of us are. I’m not a ‘radiant socialiser’ as Yunho likes to call me. I’m a guy who works two jobs and fails his midterms because I’m too busy worrying about my friends and a gaming club that probably won’t exist in six months. We’re all faking something, Y/N. Some of us just have better skins than others.” He nudged your shoulder with his in a friendly, grounding gesture. “Just don’t drop him, okay? I’m too tired to glue him back together.”
The heavy door of the bar swung open, letting in a blast of cold night air that sliced through the warm, hop-scented haze of The Abyss. Yunho stood there, framed by the neon “Open” sign, looking like he’d just finished a marathon. His hair was wind-blown, his glasses were slightly fogged from the transition in temperature, and he was clutching a filled paper bag from a 24-hour convenience store like a shield. He looked “sturdy.”
At least until he saw the table.
You were leaning into Mingi’s side, your head tilted back as you laughed at some ridiculous, unfiltered story he’d just finished telling. Mingi’s arm was still draped lazily across the back of the booth, his eyes bright and chaotic, clearly thriving on the attention. To your left, Yeosang was staring intensely at a coaster, his eyes glazed and his posture suspiciously slumped—he’d hit his limit two drinks ago. But at least the drinks made him loose his sharp edge. And Seonghwa? Seonghwa was a vibrant, alarming shade of pink that started at his collar and climbed all the way to the tips of his ears, though he was still trying to maintain the “caregiver” energy.
Yunho’s entire soul seemed to leave his body for a moment. He stopped mid-stride, “I—uh—”
The sound of his voice—thin and cracked—was enough to make you sit up straighter. You pulled away from Mingi’s side, the sudden loss of heat making the alcohol-induced fog in your head swirl. “Yunho?” you said, your voice softer than you intended, a smile already forming on your face.
Mingi didn’t move his arm. If anything, he leaned further back, a lazy grin spreading across his face. “Look who it is! You’re back!”
Yunho didn’t answer. His eyes were locked on you—on the way your shoulder was pressed against Mingi’s chest, and the way you looked so much more relaxed than you had in the basement. The paper bag in his hand crinkled loudly as his grip tightened. “I brought… I brought snacks and electrolytes,” Yunho blurted out, holding the bag up. “For tomorrow. Because… because hydration is a tactical advantage.”
“Yunnie, sit down,” Seonghwa muttered, though his words were a little slurred. He reached out and grabbed the hem of Yunho’s sleeve, trying to pull him down. “You’re making the air anxious.”
“You’re a tactical advantage,” Mingi cackled, reaching out to snag a bottle from the bag. “We’re currently debating if Y/N could take on a bear in a fistfight.”
“I’d win,” you murmured, your voice a little slower, a little warmer from the beer and vodka shots you downed 5 minutes ago. You looked at Yunho, a lazy smile not leaving your lips, not even for a second. “Hey, Captain. You look like you’ve seen a ghost.”
“I’m fine,” Yunho squeaked, though his knuckles were white where he gripped the paper bag. “I just... I didn’t think you’d be having so much fun. With Mingi.” The way he said the name wasn’t angry. It was sad. It was the sound of a guy who had spent his last percentage of social battery on coming back to The Abyss, only to find the “movie moment” he’d imagined was already starring someone else. He finally slid into the tiny space on the opposite side of the table, as far away from the Mingi-proximity as possible. He looked like he wanted to crawl under the wood. He looked at Seonghwa, who just gave him a blurry, empathetic nod.
Yeosang, who had been staring at a coaster like it held the secrets of the universe, suddenly blinked. He shifted his gaze from the wood to the frantic skyscraper beside him. “Statistically, a grizzly has a 100% win rate against a gamer,” Yeosang chirped in, his voice lost the flat and clinical tone, but still each time he opened his mouth made you nervous. “Even one with your... instincts.” He looked at you, then at Yunho. “And Yunho, you’re trembling. It’s making the table rattle.”
“I’m glad you’re here, Captain” you leaned across the table, completely ignoring Yeosang’s remark, your chin resting on your hand. The movement caused you to pull away from Mingi, and Yunho’s entire body seemed to deflate with a massive, silent sigh of relief. You reached out to tap the back of Yunho’s hand. He flinched at first, then slowly, tentatively, turned his hand over and let your fingers rest in his palm. His skin was cool from the outside air. “I missed you,” you whispered.
Yunho’s pupils blown wide behind his fogged lenses. He didn’t move, didn’t even blink. He stayed frozen in that half-lean, his fingers curled loosely around yours in a way that felt like he was holding something expensive, fragile. The bar around you was a symphony of chaos—Mingi was currently shouting over the bass, trying to explain god knows what to Seonghwa, who looked like he was contemplating the heat death of the universe. To your left, Yeosang was lining up peanut shells in a perfect, clinical formation.
But between you and Yunho, there was a pocket of air that felt ten degrees warmer than the rest of the room.
“Y-you did?” Yunho’s voice was barely a breath, he didn’t look at the drinks nor at his friends. He just looked at where your skin met his, as if he was waiting for a system error to pop up and tell him this wasn’t real. “I—I thought you’d be... I thought I was being a nuisance. Leaving the basement like that.”
“You’re a lot of things, Yunho,” you said, your thumb tracing the line of his knuckles. “A nuisance isn’t one of them.”
Yunho’s thumb twitched, finally gaining the courage to stroke back against the side of your hand. His touch was hesitant, feather-light, but it sent a jolt through you that cut right through the vodka-haze.
He suddenly remembered the bag on his lap. “I, uh... I didn’t just get electrolytes for the team.” He reached into the bag. He’d brought mango jellies for Seonghwa, and double tuna kimbap for Mingi, but he put them aside and pulled out a small, separate plastic wrapper. It was a strawberry milk carton and a pack of honey-butter chips. “Sugar helps with the... It can slightly slow the absorption of alcohol. And the milk is... it’s soothing. For the throat. After all the smoking.” He glanced at the cigarette pack on the table and then back at you. “I wanted to make sure your stats didn’t drop.”
“My stats are fine, Captain,” you smiled, the lazy, alcohol-softened curve of your lips making his heart rate visibly spike in the vein of his neck. “But I’ll gladly take the milk,” the alcohol made the words come out more vulnerable than you intended. He pushed the items toward you with the tips of his trembling fingers, careful not to let his hand linger too close to yours. “You’re hands are shaking,” you pointed out, shifting your weight to lean across the table until you were deep in Yunho’s personal space. “Is the ‘social energy’ drain really that bad? Or is it just me?”
“Hey! Lover boy!”
Mingi’s voice cut through the air, he slammed a fresh, dripping beer down in front of Yunho, nearly splashing the paper bag of convenience store peace offerings. “Stop staring at her like she’s the last ult point on the map. Drink! We’re celebrating the birth of Level Zero!”
Yunho flinched, his hand jerking away from yours for a second as he sat bolt upright, his spine snapping into a rigid line. He looked like a student who’d just been caught sleeping in a lecture hall. “I—I’m celebrating!” Yunho stammered, grabbing the beer with too much force. His ears turned a shade of fiery crimson that put Seonghwa’s alcohol-flushed face to shame. “I am very celebratory! Huzzah!”
Mingi stared at him for a dead, unblinking second. “Huzzah? Did you just say huzzah? Yun, we’re a gaming club, not a Renaissance fair.”
Yeosang blinked slowly, his head finally lifting an inch from the table. “He’s broken. Get a new one,” he droned. “His social processor is clearly thermal-throttling.”
You ignored them. Your focus was entirely on the way Yunho was currently trying to disappear into his seat. You reached out and slowly, deliberately, hooked your finger under the silver chain around his neck. You tugged, just an inch but enough to force him to lean closer, until his glasses were nearly touching your cheek. “You know,” you breathed, your lips almost grazing the sensitive skin of his ear. The scent of your perfume and the humid heat of the bar seemed to trap the two of you in a private bubble. “If you keep holding my hand like this in public, people are going to start thinking the Captain wants more than just a ‘strategic partnership.’” In response, Yunho made a tiny, muffled sound—a sort of broken whimper that he tried to cough away. “I liked it better when we were alone in the basement,” you whispered, letting the implication sink in like a poison. “You were much… sturdier then.”
The reaction was instantaneous. Yunho didn’t just jump; he launched. His knees slammed into the underside of the table with a heavy thud that sent the beer glasses rattling. You slid your hand from his palm up to his forearm, feeling the frantic, jumping beat of his pulse beneath the sleeve of his hoodie. You leaned even closer, your shoulder brushing his chest, until the scent of your perfume mixed with lingering smoke was the only thing he could breathe. “You’re glitching again,” you purred, the low, bored rasp of your voice carrying perfectly across the table.
Mingi stopped mid-sentence. Yeosang’s peanut-stacking hand froze in mid-air. Even Seonghwa’s glazed eyes sharpened, focusing on the two of you like a high-speed camera.
“I—I am not glitching!” Yunho squeaked, though his voice was two octaves higher than usual. “I am merely... processing the current... social environment!”
“Is that what it is?” You tilted your head, your lips hovering a hair’s breadth from his jawline. You reached up and slowly, deliberately adjusted his glasses, your fingers lingering on his temple. “Because it looks like your ping is spiking. I think we need a frequent connection check to make sure our Captain stays synced with his MVP.” Yunho’s breath hitched so hard it sounded like a sob. He looked at you, his pupils so blown they practically swallowed the honey-gold of his eyes. He was a second away from blue-screening. “Don’t look so scared,” you said, loud enough for Mingi to choke on his beer. You let your hand slide down to cup his flushed cheek, your thumb grazing the corner of his mouth. “You’re doing well, baby.”
The word hit the table like a grenade.
Yunho didn’t jump this time. He didn’t launch. He simply... stopped. His jaw dropped. His eyes went wide and vacant. A soft, high-pitched whirring sound actually seemed to come from his throat as his brain tried to categorise a reality where Viper had just called him ‘baby’ in front of his best friends.
“Did she just—” Mingi’s voice was a strangled wheeze. He slammed his hands onto the table, shaking the glasses. “Did she just call him baby? In public? In front of witnesses? I’m recording this. I’m putting this on the club’s permanent record.”
“Call an ambulance,” Yeosang deadpanned, reaching over to poke Yunho’s frozen shoulder. Yunho didn’t even flinch; he just slowly began to tilt to the side. “He’s reached critical mass. His internal fans have stopped spinning. He is literally overheating.”
Seonghwa leaned back, a look of profound, weary amusement on his pink-tinged face. “I told you she was dangerous, Yunnie. I didn’t think she’d actually kill you.”
Yunho finally made a sound. It was a faint, pathetic squeak—the sound of a balloon losing air. He looked at you, his face a shade of crimson, and then, with the grace of said baloon, he lowered his forehead onto the sticky wood of the table with a muffled thud.
You sat back, picking up your glass and taking a slow, satisfied sip. You looked over at the rest of the boys, an eyebrow arched in a challenge. “What?” you asked innocently. “A Captain needs to be kept in peak condition. It’s just... tactical maintenance.”
Mingi pointed a shaking finger at the pile of defeated blonde hair that was Yunho. “Tactical maintenance? You just deleted his entire operating system! Look at him! You’ve turned our Radiant leader into a sentient heap of anxiety!”
“He’ll reboot,” you said, though you reached out and gently ruffled the hair at the nape of Yunho’s neck. He shivered under your touch, a long, full-body tremor. “Eventually.”
Yunho remained facedown on the table for couple of minutes, a motionless monument to social catastrophe. Then, with a slow, mechanical creak, he began to rise. He didn’t look at you directly. Instead, he reached out a shaking hand and gripped his beer glass like it was a life jacket. He took a massive, desperate gulp—nearly half the glass—swallowing so hard his Adam’s apple bobbed frantically. “System… restored,” he wheezed, wiping foam from his lip with the back of a trembling hand. He sat up, his posture so straight it looked painful, though his ears were still glowing a vivid pink. He cleared his throat, trying to find that steady voice, but it came out a little too airy. “I’ve processed the data. The… the ‘baby’ variable was unexpected. But I have adjusted my defensive line.” He took another, smaller sip, finally brave enough to look at you over the rim of the glass. His eyes were still wide but there was a flicker of something new there—a tiny spark of competitive heat. “You’re dangerous,” he whispered, the beer giving him just enough liquid courage to lean back toward you. “You use psychological warfare. You’re trying to… to tilt me before the match even starts.”
“Is it working?” you asked, resting your chin on your palm, watching the way he tried to look confident while his hand still rattled against the glass.
“It’s a critical hit,” Yunho admitted, a small, shy smile finally breaking through the embarrassment. He looked down at the hand you’d been holding, then back at you. “But I’m a high-level strategist. I’ll… I’ll adapt. Just don’t do it again when I’m holding hot coffee. I’d like to keep my skin.”
“Look at him,” Mingi groaned, leaning his head on your shoulder. “He’s trying to act cool. Yunho, you literally just died. We saw the light leave your eyes.”
“I was rebooting!” Yunho snapped, though he looked more like a flustered golden retriever than a hardened leader. He turned back to you, his gaze softening. “Anyway. I accept Level Zero as our official name. We are a team now. And I… I have strawberry milk to protect.” He moved the small carton closer to you, his fingers lingering near yours for a fraction of a second. The bold flirt had cracked him, but as he sat there, sipping his beer and watching you with that unwavering devotion, it was clear he wasn’t running away anymore.
The air in the booth had become filled with laughter, spilled beer, and the high-octane energy of Level Zero members. But the alcohol and the warmth were finally catching up to you, making the neon signs blur at the edges. “I’m heading out for one more,” you said, sliding out of the booth. You tapped the pack of cigarettes in your pocket. “Min?”
Mingi looked up from his third attempt to explain a concept of “soulmates” to a very confused Seonghwa. He looked at you, then his gaze flickered to Yunho—who was currently peeling the straw for your strawberry milk with the focus of a bomb technician.
“Nah,” he said, a slow, knowing smirk spreading across his face. He leaned back, spreading his arms over the vinyl. “I think I’m gonna stay here and make sure Yeosang doesn’t actually join the peanut army. Go ahead, Viper. Don’t get lost in the smoke.”
The heavy industrial door of The Abyss groaned as you pushed it open, the transition from the humid bar to the biting night air feeling like a cold bucket of water over your head. The alley was quiet, exactly what you needed right now. You leaned against the cold brick, fumbling with your lighter. Your hands were somehow steady, but your head felt heavy. You managed to spark the flame, the orange glow momentarily blinding you. You took a long, slow drag, letting the smoke fill your lungs as you stared at the damp pavement.
Slam.
Yunho emerged into the alley, the warm, yellow light from the bar spilling around his silhouette, making him look even taller than usual. He wasn’t wearing his hoodie anymore—just a thin T-shirt that clung to his broad shoulders. He looked around wildly for a second before his eyes landed on you. He didn’t say anything at first, just walked over, shoes crunching on a stray bit of gravel, and came to a halt a few feet away.
“You smoke too much,” Yunho murmured, his gaze dropping to your lips for a heartbeat before snapping back to your eyes, more grounded than he’d been all night. He tucked his hands into his pockets, a shy smile lighting up his face as he stepped even closer, his shoulder bumping yours as you blew the smoke away from him.
“That’s how addiction works, Captain,” you answered, a bit of humour in your voice as you took a deep drag, the tip of the cigarette glowing a fierce, defiant orange against the gloom. The silence of the alleyway felt different than the silence of B-12. In the basement, it had been about the lie. Here, under the warm, yellow light of a streetlamp, it felt like the first real crack in the mask.
Even if the smoke scent was too heavy in his lungs, Yunho didn’t move away; if anything, he leaned into your space, his proximity radiating a heat that made the alcohol in your veins hum. You caught the way his eyes tracked the movement of your hand, the way he seemed to be memorizing the curve of your fingers against the filter. The silence was no longer awkward, it was heavy.
It was becoming too much. Too real.
You looked up at him, your vision starting to slightly swim. Yunho didn’t look like the nervous boy who chokes on plain bagels anymore, but maybe it was just the beer in his system making him more relaxed. The smoke swirled between you, grey and thick, before the wind caught it and pulled it into the night. You felt the nicotine rush collide with the lingering vodka, a sudden, dizzying wave that made the brick wall behind you feel like it was leaning away. You didn’t go far—you couldn’t. You swayed, your boots scraping against the damp pavement as gravity betrayed you.
“Whoa—hey” Yunho’s reaction was instinctive, his reflexes firing before his brain could even process the panic. He moved into your space, his large hands catching your shoulders to steady you. He was warm, solid. He didn’t pull away once you were stable; instead, he kept his hands there, his thumbs brushing against the leather of your jacket, bracing you against the world’s sudden tilt. “You’re really drunk,” he noted, his voice softening into something protective. “I shouldn’t have let you drink that last shot,” he muttered, more to himself than you, his voice full of guilt. “I saw the bottle. I calculated the units, and I still let you…” He stopped, letting out a shaky breath that ruffled your hair.
“I’m efficiently hydrated,” you looked up at him, a lazy smile pulling at your lips. The frigale air between you was becoming heavy with the unsaid things from the basement and the “baby” you'd dropped like a bomb inside the bar. It was intimidating—the way he was looking at you with that crushing, quiet worship.
You needed to break it.
“So…” you began, your voice nothing more than a mare, smoke-damaged rasp. You turned your head slightly, looking at him through the corner of your eye as you tapped the ash onto the wet pavement. “Back in the basement…” You tilted your head back against the brick, looking at him through your lashes. “You called me pretty.”
Yunho’s entire body went rigid. The hands on your shoulders didn’t drop, but his fingers twitched. He looked down at his boots, then at the flickering “Open” sign, then finally back to you. The shy smile from a moment ago was gone, replaced by a sincerity that was far more dangerous. “I did,” he admitted, the sound barely audible over the hum of the bar’s generator. He was so close that the tips of his shoes were touching yours. “I was... that was a tactical observation. Based on... visual data.” He was so tall that he had to incline his head sharply to maintain eye contact.
“Visual data,” you repeated, your smile sharpening as you took one last drag and flicked the ember into the wet gutter. Now, with the cigarette thrown away, you closed the final inch of space until your jacket was brushing the front of his T-shirt. “You were very certain about that data in the basement. You seemed so... sturdy when you said it.”
Yunho didn’t back away. Even with his heart likely hitting 150 BPM, he stayed still, his gaze dropping to your mouth and staying there, trapped by his own honesty. “I’m still certain,” he whispered, his voice dropping into a deeper register that made the ground under your boots feel unstable again. “The data is... it’s consistent. You’re the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen on a server. Or off one.” He looked like he wanted to bolt, but he also looked like he would stay in that freezing alley for a thousand years just to keep holding your shoulders. “And the resolution is getting higher. You’re not just pretty. You’re…” He paused, his eyes searching yours as if for permission to say what he wanted to. “You’re terrifying. And I can’t seem to look away.”
You let out a small, huffed laugh, “Terrifying? That’s a 100% win rate for Viper.”
“I’m not talking about the game now,” Yunho said softly, his hand moving, finally leaving your shoulder to ghost along the line of your jaw. His skin was cool, but the intent behind the touch was fire. He tucked a stray lock of hair behind your ear, his thumb grazing your temple with the lightness of a butterfly wing. “I’m talking about you.”
You leaned in, slow and deliberate, watching his pupils blow out until they nearly swallowed the brown of his eyes. You tilted your head, your lips inches from his, close enough to feel the frantic heat radiating off his skin. Yunho’s eyes fluttered shut, he was so visibly nervous he was actually shaking, his breath coming in short, shallow hitches. But you knew he was waiting for it as much as you were. He was braced for the impact of a kiss. You could feel the slight tremble in his jaw, the way he was shaking from the effort of staying still. He was a man standing on the edge of a cliff, waiting for you to push him.
You paused mid-lean, your nose almost brushing his, and felt the sharp, hitching catch in his throat. You didn’t pull away, but you didn’t close the gap either. Instead, you let out a soft, hummed laugh that ghosted over his lips, making his eyes snap open in dazed confusion. “You know, Captain,” you whispered, your voice a silken thread that made the lump in his throat even tighter. You let your hand slide to his chest, your fingers splaying over the middle of his ribcage. “A good strategist never reveals their best play during the first match.”
Yunho’s eyes looked dazed and half-blind with adrenaline. He looked like a man who had been braced for a collision only to find himself suspended in mid-air. “W-what?”
The vibration of soft spoken words was hitting the space between your mouths. “I think we’re still at Level Zero,” you murmured, your lips almost grazing his. “And I’d hate to ruin the progression curve by skipping to the final boss on night one.”
The confusion on his face was almost painful to watch. He was trying to process the logic, his brain struggling to switch back from ‘romance’ to ‘tactics.’ “You’re… you’re pausing the game?”
“I’m saving the progress,” you corrected, a lazy, mischievous glint in your eyes as you finally pulled back just an inch. “They say the third time’s a charm, right? Basement… bar… maybe next time, Captain.”
The silence that followed was heavy enough to choke on. Yunho stood there, his hand still frozen against your jaw, his lips parted as if he were trying to catch the phantom heat of the kiss you’d just denied him. He looked absolutely devastated—but in a way that was fuelled by a terrifying amount of adoration. He wasn’t just “glitching” anymore; he was a total system failure. His chest heaved, a single, sharp breath escaping him that sounded suspiciously like a whimper. “That’s…” he started, his voice cracking and jumping an entire octave. He cleared his throat, trying to regain some semblance of the Captain. “That is… highly irregular tactical behaviour.”
“Is it?” You pulled back another inch, making the cool air hit the space on Yunho’s chest where your heat had been. “I thought I was just keeping the stakes high. You wouldn’t want a game that’s too easy to win, would you?”
Yunho’s hand finally dropped from your face, but his fingers curled into a fist as if he were trying to hold onto the sensation of your skin. He let out a long, shaky exhale, the white mist of his breath mingling with yours. “I don’t think I could handle it being any harder,” he stepped closer, invading your space again, his height looming over you. “You’re… you’re playing on a level I haven’t even unlocked yet.”
The world decided to tilt then.
The alcohol hit your bloodstream at the exact same moment a gust of wind whistled down the alley. Your knees, which had been locked in a bold, flirtatious stance, suddenly turned to water. You swayed, the brick wall behind you feeling like it was receding into the dark. “The ground,” you mumbled, burying your face in the soft cotton of his T-shirt. You felt dizzy, the smell of him—lavender detergent mixed with some sweet, slightly woodsy smell—acting as the only thing keeping you grounded. “The ground is lagging, Yun.”
He shifted his grip, one arm sliding around your shoulders to pull you closer, while the other was firm on your waist. A tiny sound escaped him—half laugh, half choke. “You shouldn’t have smoked that cigarette.”
“Tell me what you want,” you murmured against the skin of his collarbone, completely ignoring his correct remark. Your stubbornness, and the need to feel his warmth around you, made you press so close that the cold night couldn’t fit between your bodies anymore. “Do you want me to go back inside? Do you want me to go home?”
His fingers tightened at your waist, the smallest squeeze telling you he needed the closeness as much as you did. “I want you to be okay.”
“That’s not an answer.”
Yunho looked down at you like you were a problem he’d been trying to solve for months and had finally, terrifyingly, reached the last step of the equation. “I want—” He shut his eyes like he could brute force the courage into existence. “I want to stay in this lobby,” he whispered, his voice cracking with the weight of honesty he couldn’t believe he had. “I want the timer to stop. I want to keep you here before I sober up, and you walk away turning back into someone I glitch in front of.” He let out a shaky breath, his forehead dropping to rest against yours, his glasses touching softly against your temple. The Captain was gone. The Radiant rank was gone. There was just a boy in a thin T-shirt shivering in a dark alley because he was too far gone to care about the cold. “You’re so loud, Y/N,” he breathed, his eyes still squeezed shut as if the sight of you would be the final blow to his system. “Even when you’re quiet, you’re the only thing I can hear. It’s like you’re a frequency I’m tuned to, and everything else is just static. So no. I don’t want you to go back inside. And I don’t want you to go home.” He looked down at your lips—the ones that had teased him, mocked him, and called him baby—and his grip on your waist tightened until it was almost possessive. “I want you to tell me this isn’t a strategy, tell me you’re not just tilting me because you can. Tell me that when you look at me, you’re not seeing a mission or a teammate.”
You leaned back just enough to see the way his throat moved when he swallowed, the way his lips were still slightly open. You wanted to snap back with something sharp, something that would keep the armour intact. But the “lag” was too heavy, and his heat was too real. You inhaled, then exhaled slowly, the cold air burning your lungs more than the cigarette did. “Captain,” you whispered, leaning in again—this time not to provoke, but because the world felt steadier when you could hear his breathing. “If you kiss me right now, I might actually start believing you.”
Yunho went still. Every muscle in him locked like he was about to take a hit. “You… you still want that?” The question sounded like he couldn’t afford to misunderstand.
You looked him dead in the eye, your voice dropping into a low, dangerous velvet that felt like it was vibrating against every pore on his skin. You took a step forward, forcing him against the cold brick, letting him feel the softness of your body against the rigid tension of his. “I’m done making the calls, Yun. My head is spinning, and I’m sick of being the one in control.” You let your gaze drop to his mouth, then back to his blown-out pupils. “I need someone to handle me. To put their hands on me and tell me exactly where to go and what to do.”
The effect was catastrophic. He didn’t just blush; he looked like he was about to spontaneously combust. “H-h-handle?” he stammered, his voice cracking so badly it was almost a squeak.
“Yeah,” you nodded, your lips brushing the heat of his neck, “So are you going to be the Captain and take what’s yours, or not?”
For a guy who had spent more time on a headset than talking to girls, the blunt weight of your request was a total critical hit. “Y-Y/N,” he wheezed, looking like he was witnessing a miracle and a catastrophe at the same time. “You... you shouldn’t... that’s a very... high-level implication.”
“Is it?” you whispered, stepping on your toes to press a light kiss right under his ear.
“Yes!” he squeaked, his eyes wide and panicked, his glasses fogging up from the heat radiating off his face. “I—I don’t have the... the experience points for that kind of dialogue! I’m... I’m just the strategist. I don’t... I’ve never... handled... anyone.”
“Then learn,” you whispered, enjoying the way his pulse was visible in his neck. He was terrified. He was overwhelmed. And it made you feel nothing but joy. “None of this is a strategy,” you finally murmured the words he needed to hear the most. “I’m not that good of an actress. I just want you.”
The air in the alleyway seemed to hold its breath.
“So do something,” you challenged, your thumb tracing the jumping pulse in his throat. “Show me the Captain, Yunho. I’m waiting for the command.”
“N-no,” he said. It was meant to be firm, but it came out trembling with nerves. His eyes darted over your face like he was running a full tactical scan and hating the results. You were so close, he could have leaned in, he could have finished the “three times a charm” countdown right there. Instead, he let out a long, shaky exhale that ruffled your hair, and he gently but firmly, tucked your head back under his chin. “You’re drunk,” his voice was rougher than before but it wasn’t an accusation. It was more a boundary he was forcing himself to hold. “And I’m not going to take advantage of that.”
You let out a breath that came out more like a laugh. “I’m just lightly buzzed,” you corrected, because you were still you, still stubborn, still allergic to vulnerability. “And I give you my full consent,” you tried to stand taller just to prove the point but the sidewalk immediately tilted in response, like it was personally offended.
Yunho’s grip tightened, instinctively, steadying you like you weighed nothing. “I won’t—” He shut his eyes, like saying it out loud would hurt. “I’m not kissing you like this.”
Heat flared in your chest, sharp and humiliating. “Because you think I’ll regret it?”
“No,” he said instantly. Too fast. Too honest. “Because I’ll regret not stopping if you do.”
That landed somewhere deep, under the mask, under the alcohol haze. You stared at him for a beat, then tipped your head back against the night air, exhaling hard. “God. You’re infuriating.”
“I know,” Yunho whispered, like it was a fact he’d already logged and accepted. The humiliation you’d felt a second ago didn’t vanish, but it transformed into something else—a grounding realization. Yunho wasn’t rejecting you; he was protecting the version of you that he worshipped, even if that version currently had silver smoke on her breath and a head full of vodka.
“You’re really going to be the hero, aren’t you?” you murmured, your voice small, the usual rasp replaced by something raw. Your fingers tangling in the messy, wind-blown strands of his hair. “Even when I’m being the villain. You just… stay the hero.”
Yunho’s jaw flexed. He didn’t look away. “I’m not a hero, Y/N. I’m just a guy who’s very, very bad at losing things that matter.” He took a shaky breath, his forehead dropping back down to rest against yours. His glasses were cool against your skin, but his eyes, peering through the lenses, were burning. “I can be infuriating all night. I can be the most annoying strategist you’ve ever met. I’ll calculate your water intake, I’ll tell you to sleep, and I’ll walk you to your door without touching you once if that’s what it takes to make sure you wake up tomorrow and don’t wish I was someone else.”
“Okay,” you surrendered. You let your hands slide down from his hair to rest on his chest, feeling the frantic, galloping rhythm of his heart. You took a step backward to reclaim at least a bit of control, but your ankle immediately betrayed you. You stumbled—more dramatic than you meant, less graceful than you wanted—and Yunho caught you so fast it was like he’d been braced for impact the entire time. “I can’t walk,” you admitted, your voice looping into a slight, giggly slur as you leaned your forehead against his chest again.
He didn’t move, keeping his hands locked on your waist, his thumbs tracing the line of your hips through your clothes. He was like a human cage, but for the first time, the cage felt like the only place you were safe. “Okay,” he said, voice going calm in a way that was never actually calm. “We’re in a medical situation.”
“It’s not a medical situation,” you scoffed, trying to push yourself off him like pride alone could stabilise your ankles. Your legs immediately wobbled, and your attempt at independence turned into a slow-motion betrayal. “It’s just the air… It’s too loud, which makes everything worse. Spinning.”
Yunho tightened his hold without even thinking, one arm bracing your waist, the other steady at your elbow. His hands were warm through your jacket. Sturdy. Annoyingly so. “Viper,” he said, and your stomach dipped at the way he used the agent name instead of yours. “You can’t walk.”
“I can walk,” you insisted. “I just need to—” You took one step to prove it and the sidewalk tilted like it was laughing. You lurched, boots skidding, and Yunho caught you again, quick and practiced. He didn’t even flinch. He just absorbed you like you belonged there.
“You are not doing a hero sprint right now,” he muttered, more to himself than to you. His breath puffed out in a small cloud in the cold. “Okay. New plan.”
You narrowed your eyes up at him. “What plan?” He looked down at you, and for a second he looked so young it made something in your chest ache. Like he was trying to be the Captain, trying to be responsible, trying to keep you safe, and the weight of it was too big for his shoulders but he carried it anyway.
“I’m taking you home,” he said.
Home. The word hit softer than it should have. You tried to laugh it off. It came out as a tiny, undignified huff against his shirt. “I can… tactically retreat on my own.”
Yunho’s mouth twitched like he wanted to smile but didn’t trust himself. “You just got nerfed by beers and vodka. There’s no retreat. There’s only… extraction.”
“Extraction,” you repeated, like you were testing the word for weakness. He nodded, very seriously. You stared at him for a beat, then lifted a finger to poke his chest, right over the hammering heart. “You’re… so dramatic.”
“I’m not dramatic,” he said automatically.
“You said ‘medical situation.’”
“That was a factual observation.” You snorted and it turned into a giggle against your will. Yunho’s gaze flicked to your mouth again—quick, involuntary—then away like it physically hurt to look for too long. He swallowed, throat bobbing. “Can you… can you tell me your address?”
“My address?”
“Yes.”
You blinked slowly. “Captain, I live in… I live in a building with the… the stairs.”
Yunho stared. You stared back, pleased with yourself.
He exhaled through his nose like someone had just handed him a bomb and a pair of tweezers. “Okay. Great. Perfect.”
“I can show you,” you offered, like you were being helpful. He hesitated, eyes tracking the line of your body, the wobble lingering in your posture, the way your head kept wanting to tip forward like sleep was waiting just behind your eyes.
Then, very carefully, as if he was asking permission from every law of the universe, Yunho shifted his stance. “What are you—” you started. He ducked, turned, and in one not-so-smooth motion he scooped you up. It wasn’t bridal, not exactly. It was more… practical. One arm under your knees, the other behind your back, close and secure like a carry-out of a very expensive, very stubborn package. This time your brain stopped working. Your hands flailed for a second before instinct found fabric—his shirt, his shoulder, the back of his neck. “Yunho!” you hissed, half scandalised, half outraged, wholly aware of how easy it was for him. “Put me down!”
“No,” he said, immediate and firm.
You blinked at him. “No?”
He adjusted his grip like you weighed nothing, jaw set like he’d committed to a mission and was not taking feedback. “You’re going to fall.”
“I would not fall.”
“You did fall,” he corrected.
“I stumbled.”
He looked at you, expression flat in a way that was almost comical. “You nearly ate the sidewalk.”
“I was checking it,” you said, because your dignity was a dying animal and you refused to finish it off.
His lips twitched again. “Thank you for your service.”
You huffed, then—feeling the exhaustion and the vodka pull at your eyelids—you leaned closer. If he wouldn’t kiss you because you were drunk—fine. You’d take what he was willing to give. You shifted in his arms, settling your weight against his broad chest, and let your head fall against his shoulder with a deliberately heavy, exaggerated sigh.
Yunho jumped so hard he almost dropped you. “Are you—is the—is the unit secure?”
“I’m making your job harder,” you mumbled. “Strategic burden.”
“You’re not a burden,” he whispered, his voice finally softening. He tucked you closer, his large hands carefully avoiding any “unnecessary” contact, though the way your body pressed against his was clearly making him short-circuit.
“Where are you taking me?”
“Home,” Yunho said.
“My home?”
A long, shy pause. He swallowed so hard you heard it. “Mine. If you want. I... I have a couch. I’ll sleep there. You can have the bed. It’s... it’s been washed. Recently. I mean—it’s clean! I’m not—I’m not a weirdo!”
You lifted your head, squinting at his panicked face. The “handle me” comment was clearly still playing on a loop in his head. “You don’t have to do that.”
“I want to,” he said quietly, finally looking at you with that crushing, quiet worship. “I want you somewhere I can... I can keep an eye on your health bar.”
That sentence should’ve made you bristle. It didn’t. It made your throat go tight. You swallowed. “If you drop me, I’m suing the Radiant Rank.”
Yunho’s mouth twitched—barely there, but real. “Noted. Recalibrating grip for maximum stability.”
The first thing you felt was the soft cotton—smelling faintly of lavender. You opened one eye, and the world immediately punished you for it with a sharp spike of light. You weren’t in your apartment. Yours was messy, smelled like burnt toast, coffee, and didn’t have a $5,000 ergonomic setup glowing in the corner.
Yunho’s room was terrifyingly organised. His shelves were lined with pristine figurines, his hoodies were folded with military precision, and his secondary monitor was currently displaying a System Sleep screen that cast a soft blue glow over the bed. Then, a heavy, warm weight shifted beside you. You froze, your heart doing a frantic sprint. Slowly, painfully, you turned your head. Yunho was passed out on top of the covers, still wearing his jeans and shirt from yesterday, though the hood was twisted awkwardly around his neck. He wasn’t even under the blankets—he’d clearly laid you down, tucked you in, and then collapsed right next to you like a loyal guard dog who’d reached his limit. His glasses were crooked on his face, one arm hooked over his ear, the other poking dangerously close to his eye. His mouth was slightly open, and he was snoring—not a loud, obnoxious snore, but a soft, huffing sound that was so puppy-coded it made your chest ache.
Suddenly, Yunho’s nose twitched. He let out a long, shaky sigh and his eyes fluttered open. He blinked, the world clearly a blur without his lenses properly adjusted. “O-oh!” he croaked, his voice deep from sleep. He shoved his glasses up his nose, realised they were crooked, and ended up knocking them onto the carpet. “O-okay. Morning. Objective… objective reached.” He looked at you, and the memory of the almost kiss must have hit him because his face went from sleepy to high-aware in two seconds. “I—I didn’t… I mean, I stayed because you wouldn’t let go of my shirt!” he blurted out, gesturing frantically to your hand, which was indeed still clutching the hem of his shirt. “I tried to leave! But you said—you said I was your ‘support’ and I had to stay!” He scrambled back, nearly falling off the edge of the mattress. “Did you… do you need water? Ibuprofen? A tactical retreat?”
You didn’t let go of his shirt immediately. Instead, you tugged it, pulling him a fraction closer as you let out a dry, sleepy chuckle. “Support?” you echoed, voice rough with sleep and last night’s drinks.
Yunho froze halfway through his frantic retreat. The morning light made him look unfairly soft. “I carried you,” he said, like he was reporting a mission debrief. “You kept insisting you were fine. Then you tried to salute a mailbox.”
“That mailbox was suspicious,” you mumbled.
Yunho’s mouth twitched. It was the smallest fracture, but you saw it anyway. “Do you feel sick?”
You shifted under the blanket and immediately regretted every decision you’d made since the invention of vodka. The room tilted, then steadied. Your stomach did a slow, offended roll. “I feel… punished,” you admitted.
Yunho nodded, very serious. “Okay.” He slid off the bed, moving carefully like he didn’t want to startle you. “I’ll get water,” he said. “And… food. Something with salt. Electrolytes. I have—” Yunho made a strangled noise that might have been a laugh. He turned toward the door, then stopped like he’d hit an invisible wall. His hand hovered on the knob. “And,” he added, voice quieter, “I’m sorry if… if last night was uncomfortable. I should’ve—”
“Captain,” you interrupted, and your own voice surprised you with how gentle it came out. “You didn’t do anything wrong.”
“I didn’t kiss you,” he said.
“Yeah,” you murmured. “I noticed.”
His throat bobbed. “I wanted to.” The confession landed heavy, even through the hangover haze.
Your chest did that stupid, traitorous thing where it tightened and warmed at the same time. “I wanted you to,” you said, eyes on his shirt, because looking at his face felt too dangerous in the daylight. “But I… get why you didn’t.”
Silence stretched. The room hummed with the low, expensive quiet of his PC in sleep mode. When you glanced up, Yunho was staring at you like you’d handed him a code he’d been trying to crack for months.
“You’re not mad?”
“Should I be?”
Yunho’s brows pinched. “You were… very persuasive.”
You huffed a laugh that hurt your skull. “You were very… stubborn.”
“I was responsible,” he corrected automatically.
“You were infuriating,” you corrected back.
His mouth twitched again. This time it stayed. A real smile, small and exhausted, like it cost him something. “I’ll take infuriating,” he said. “As long as you’re safe.”
“Get the water,” you ordered, defaulting to the only armour you had left. “Before I start thinking you like bossing me around.”
Yunho’s smile disappeared so fast it was almost comedic. “I don’t—” You arched a brow. He exhaled, defeated. “Okay. Water.” He cracked the door open, then paused again, glancing over his shoulder. “And,” he said, voice careful, “when you’re sober… if you still want—” He gestured helplessly between your faces. “The… the thing,” he finished, mortified.
“You mean the kiss?”
Yunho shut his eyes like you’d shot him. “Yes.”
Your lips curved, slow and sore and real. “Bring the water first, Captain,” you said. “Then we’ll negotiate.”
Yunho’s eyes opened. “Okay,” he whispered, like it was the only word he trusted himself with.
You laid back as he disappeared into the hallway, staring at the ceiling of his perfectly organised room. Your head throbbed. Your stomach rolled. Your pride was in critical condition. Yunho’s place was quiet in that expensive way—soft carpet, no neighbour noises, no random clutter screaming for attention. Somewhere down the hall, a cupboard opened. A mug clinked. Then a voice you recognised—too loud, too familiar, too awake.
Mingi.
Your soul tried to crawl out of your body and file a resignation letter. You sat up, swinging your legs over the side of the bed. The room tilted. You put a hand on the mattress, breathing through the wave of nausea until it backed off. You needed a shower. Desperately. You smelled like beer, smoke, and poor decisions. Yesterday’s make-up making your dry skin itch. You stood up, grabbed your jacket off the chair like it could shield you from humiliation, and cracked the bedroom door open.
The hallway light was a little too bright and smelled like coffee. You stepped out, and there he was. Mingi was sprawled on the sofa, long legs kicked up, one arm flung over the backrest. He had a blanket half-draped over his lap and an expression that said he’d been awake for exactly one minute and already chosen violence. His head turned at the sound of your footsteps. His eyes widened. Then his grin broke across his face like a flare.
“Oh my God,” he breathed, loud enough to wake the dead. You froze mid-step. Mingi sat up a little, delighted. “Why are you here?” he shot, like it was the funniest question in the world. You opened your mouth to defend yourself and immediately realised you did not have the energy to lie with your whole chest. So you closed it again. Mingi’s gaze flicked past you, to the bedroom door behind you, then back to your face. “You slept in his room,” he said, scandalised and thrilled.
“I slept,” you corrected flatly.
“Sure,” he said, not believing you for even one second.
From the corner of the kitchenette, Seonghwa appeared with two mugs and the careful, gentle posture of someone trying not to trigger a hangover-related crime. He was in grey pyjamas — a little too big on him, sleeves pushed up, hair damp like he’d just washed his face. He looked soft and domestic and entirely too awake for this hour. He took one step into the living space, saw you and his eyes nearly popped out of his head. He stopped so fast the coffee sloshed toward the rim. “You—” Seonghwa’s voice was strangled in his throat. His gaze flicked from your face to your jacket to the bedroom door, like he was putting together a crime scene in real time. “I… uh…” Seonghwa’s voice was a high-pitched squeak. “Good… morning? I didn’t realise we had a guest suite.” he blinked hard, trying to reboot his brain. Then his cheeks went pink.
Mingi made a sound like a dying seagull. “Hyung. Hyung, look at her. She’s holding her jacket like she’s about to flee the country. Did the Captain finally land a headshot? Or were you guys just… discussing lineups all night?”
“Mingi!” Seonghwa hissed.
You pinched the bridge of your nose. The motion made your head throb in protest. “I need a shower,” you said, mostly to yourself.
Mingi’s brows lifted. “A shower?”
Seonghwa’s eyes went round again. “The bathroom is—” he started, then stopped, like the word bathroom had suddenly become illegal.
You narrowed your eyes. “Why are you both acting like I just said I’m going to detonate a grenade in the sink?”
Mingi leaned forward on the couch, grin sharp. “Because it’s our bathroom,” he said slowly, like he was explaining a complicated concept to a child. “And you’re… a girl.”
Seonghwa looked like he might pass out into the coffee mugs. “It’s fine,” he said quickly. “It’s completely fine. Use whatever. There’s… there’s towels. Extra towels. Clean towels. I buy towels like it’s a coping mechanism.”
“That tracks,” you muttered. Mingi threw his head back and laughed. You started toward the hallway, moving carefully, one hand on the wall. As you passed Seonghwa, he shifted to give you space, still staring like he couldn’t believe you were a real person and not a hallucination caused by a hangover.
“Y/N,” he said, voice low and concerned, and you paused. You glanced back. Seonghwa’s expression softened, the shock fading into something warmer. “Are you okay?”
You should have said yes. You should have been sarcastic. You should have thrown on the mask and kept walking. Instead, the hangover stripped you down to the truth. “I’m… functioning,” you said because it was all you had. “But my head is in terrible shape.”
Seonghwa’s eyes flicked to Mingi, like he was silently begging him not to make a joke. Mingi, for once, actually shut his mouth. Seonghwa nodded, slow. “Okay,” he said gently. “Shower first. Then we’ll feed you. Damage control.”
“Damage control,” you repeated, then turned toward the bathroom before your pride could do anything stupid.
Behind you, Mingi called out, way too loud, “Try not to fall, okay? Captain will cry.”
You made it to the bathroom door like it was a high-stakes hostage extraction—one agonising, calculated step at a time, your hand skimming the wall for balance while your brain protested the very concept of movement. The door was ajar, a sliver of sanctuary waiting for you. You reached for the handle, leaning your weight forward to shove it open.
WHACK.
The door didn’t just open; it exploded outward at the exact same moment you leaned in. The heavy wood caught you square in the forehead with a sound like a wet towel hitting a tile floor. For one blessed second, the world went silent. Your skull rang like a cathedral bell on Sunday morning. You saw stars—actual, flickering 4K pixels—dancing in your peripheral vision.
“Oh my—Y/N!” Yunho’s voice hit you a beat after the impact, sounding like a man witnessing a natural disaster. Yunho’s hands went into a state of total emergency. He dropped Ibuprofen, shirt, and a clean towel to the floor. “I ended her,” he whispered, horror-struck. “I’ve committed a war crime. Are you okay? Do you see double? How many fingers am I holding up? Do I need to perform a field tracheotomy?!”
“You…” you rasped, your voice sounding like it was coming from a different zip code. “You… door’d me.”
“I know! I’m so sorry!” He hovered over you, his hands fluttering near your face, terrified to touch you but desperate to catch you. “I don’t have my glasses on! I just washed my face and looked for the painkillers in the cabinet!”
Mingi’s voice erupted from the living room, muffled by a sofa cushion but dripping with pure, unadulterated delight. “CRITICAL HIT! Captain’s got 100% accuracy on friendly fire! Is she dead? Can I have her mouse?!”
“SHUT UP, MINGI!” Yunho shrieked, his voice hitting a register that suggested he was nearing a total meltdown. “Please don’t die. I’ll give you my PC. I’ll give you my soul. Just blink if your brain is still in one piece.”
You slowly raised a hand and pressed your palm to the bridge of your nose. The bruise was already blooming like a poisonous flower.
Seonghwa appeared, looking like a weary Victorian ghost in his silk pajamas, holding a spatula for reasons no one understood. He took one look at the scene and let out a sigh that lasted ten years. “Why,” he asked the ceiling, “is this my life?”
“Hyung, I attacked her!” Yunho wailed, clutching his hair. “I used the environment against her! I’m a monster!”
“I got door-stunned,” you corrected, trying to maintain your dignity while the hallway tilted forty-five degrees to the left.
“I’ll get ice, Mingi, stop googling ‘how to inherit a teammate’s skins.’ Yunho, stop shaking before you shake the building off its foundation.”
Yunho’s hands finally landed—light as feathers—on your shoulders, steadying you. His face was so close you could see the sheer terror in his eyes. “I’ll… I’ll carry you,” he whispered, his voice wrecked with relief that you were still breathing. “To the shower. To the hospital. To the moon. Just say the word.”
“You’re going to get me a cold cloth,” you said flatly, the Viper voice returning out of pure spite.
“Yes, ma’am,” he breathed, snapping into a salute that nearly took out your eye.
Mingi snorted from the couch, loud enough to echo. “Careful, Captain! If you salute any harder, you’ll give her a concussion on the other side. Perfect symmetry!”
“WHY DID YOU SLEEP ON THE COUCH, GO TO YOUR ROOM, MINGI!”
You looked up at Yunho—tall, gorgeous, and currently one minor inconvenience away from a heart attack. You stepped past him into the bathroom, your hand on your throbbing forehead. “Captain?”
“Yes?! Anything!”
“Next time,” you muttered, closing the door—very, very slowly—until only a crack remained. “Try a stealth entry. Your ‘push’ is too strong.”
Yunho’s muffled voice came through the wood, “Copy that.”
The bathroom door creaked open, and you stepped out into the hallway, smelling of Yunho’s soap and feeling significantly more human. You were wearing one of his massive shirts—it swallowed you whole, the hem reaching mid-thigh and the sleeves hanging past your fingertips. Your hair was damp, sticking to the back of your neck, and your forehead was sporting a magnificent, throbbing red knot where the door had made its grand entrance.
You walked into the living room, and the silence was instant. Mingi was mid-sentence but his jaw actually clicked shut. He looked at you, then slowly turned his head to look at Yunho. Seonghwa froze, his eyes darting from your bare face to your legs to the fact that you were wearing Yunho’s clothes, and then he looked down at his coffee like it might provide an escape route. Yunho... Yunho just stopped breathing. He was sitting on the edge of the armchair, and the second he saw you, his brain underwent a total meltdown. He stared at his own shirt on your frame, his eyes tracing the way it hung off your shoulders, and his face turned a colour that shouldn’t be possible for a living human.
“She lives!” Mingi finally yelled, breaking the tension like a sledgehammer. He pointed a finger at the bruise on your head. “Nice horn, Viper! You look like a very grumpy unicorn.”
“It’s an accessory,” you muttered, leaning against the doorframe. You felt smaller without the makeup, more exposed.
Yunho finally found his voice, though it was about three octaves higher than usual. “Is it... is it comfortable? The shirt? I—I have others! I have a soft one! A fleece one! I can give you my entire wardrobe! Just—just don’t look at me like that!”
“Like what?” you asked, tilting your head.
“Like... like that!” He gestured wildly at your face. “My defence stats are at zero!”
Seonghwa cleared his throat, desperately trying to save the situation. “I have ice. For the... ‘accessory.’”
“I’ll take the ice,” you said, sliding into the kitchen chair.
Yunho scrambled to help you, but he was so distracted by the sight of you in his clothes that he accidentally tripped over the leg of the table, stumbling right into your space. He caught himself, his hands landing on the back of your chair, effectively boxing you in. He was so close you could see the flecks of gold in his eyes and the way his eyelashes fluttered behind his glasses. He looked down at the bruise, then at your damp hair, and his expression softened into something so pure it made your Viper heart shrivel with guilt. “Does it hurt?” he whispered, his voice deep and honey-sweet, ignoring Mingi’s muffled snickering from the sofa.
“Only when I think about the guy who did it,” you teased, but your voice lacked its usual bite. Yunho leaned in, his thumb hovering just a millimetre away from the swelling on your forehead.
Seonghwa didn’t just clear his throat; he made a sound like a polite engine failing. “Mingi, we need to do some grocery shopping. Get your ass up, we’re going,” he said, his voice reminding you the one of a parent that left zero room for negotiation.
“Why me?” Mingi whined, his voice muffled by the sofa cushion. He didn’t even open his eyes. “I don’t eat groceries. I eat takeout and the tears of my enemies. Send Yeosang.”
“Yeosang doesn’t live here, and you are currently occupying the space where my patience used to live,” Seonghwa replied, walking over and literally hooking his fingers into the collar of Mingi’s hoodie. “Up. Now. We’re out of milk. And eggs. And… detergent.”
“We have three bottles of detergent!” Mingi yelped as he was hoisted upward like a disgruntled house cat. “Hyung, I’m in the middle of a recovery! I’m a wounded soldier!”
“You’re a distraction,” Seonghwa muttered, dragging him toward the door. He shot a look over his shoulder—a quick, sharp glance at Yunho that said: Don’t screw this up, and a softer, respectful nod toward you. “We’ll be back in an hour. Or two. Depending on how long it takes Mingi to stop crying in the cereal aisle.”
“I want the ones with the marshmallows!” Mingi’s voice faded as the front door was hauled open. “Wait—did she just wink at me? Hwa, did Viper just wink at—OW!”
SLAM.
The apartment went silent. Not a normal silent, but that heavy, ringing quiet. Yunho was still standing there, his hands still hovering near the back of your chair, his chest heaving slightly. The shirt you were wearing seemed to glow in the morning light, a constant reminder that he’d carried you, he’d tucked you in, and he was currently the only thing standing between you and the rest of the world. He looked at the closed door, then slowly, tentatively, his gaze slid back to you. Without Mingi’s commentary, the air between you felt thick enough to choke on. “He’s… he’s right,” Yunho whispered, his voice cracking like a middle-schooler’s. “We are out of… Um, milk.”
“You have a carton standing on the island, and another one by the sink,” you said softly.
Yunho squeezed his eyes shut for a second, a pained expression crossing his face. “I know. Hyung is… he’s not a very good liar when he’s stressed.” He reached for the bag of ice Seonghwa had left on the counter, wrapped it in a clean tea towel, and stepped back into your space. He didn’t ask this time. He just leaned down, his face inches from yours, and gently pressed the cold pack against the angry red knot on your forehead. The cold was sharp, but the heat of his proximity was worse. “Sorry,” he murmured, his thumb brushing the side of your temple to keep the ice steady. “I’m still… sorry about the door. And The Abyss. And… everything.” He looked at your bare face, his eyes lingering on the bridge of your nose before dropping to your lips, still murmuring apologies.
You reached up, your fingers snagging the drawstrings of a fresh hoodie he put on while you were showering, yanking him downward. He let out a startled gasp, his balance tilting as he was forced to brace his other hand on the table behind you to keep from face-planting into your lap. “You’re talking too much, Captain.”
Yunho’s eyes went wide behind his lenses, his breath hitching. “I—I am? I’m just providing… status updates…”
With your free hand, you reached up. Your fingers brushed his temple—slow, cool, and deliberate. You felt him shiver, a tremor that started in his shoulders and ended in the hand holding the ice pack. Very gently, you hooked your index finger around the bridge of his glasses and lifted them off his face.
The world for Yunho suddenly went soft-focus. The sharp edges of the kitchen, the glare of the morning sun—it all blurred into a haze of colour, leaving only you as the sharpest thing in his universe (because you were the only thing close enough for him to actually see.)
“There,” you breathed, setting the glasses on the table behind you. Without his glasses, Yunho looked… defenceless. His eyes were huge, dark, and rimmed with thick lashes, looking softer and more terrified than you’d ever seen them.
“I—I can’t…” Yunho’s voice was a wrecked and breathless. He was looking at your lips, then your eyes, then back to your lips. “You’re… you’re too close. I’m going to disconnect.”
“Then disconnect,” you said, your hand moving from his hoodie to the back of his neck, your thumb tracing the sensitive skin there. The ice pack was forgotten, slipping from his grip and hitting the floor. You didn’t care. Neither did Yunho.
Yunho’s world was currently reduced to the smell of his shampoo on your damp hair and the feeling of your hand on his neck. “I’m not sturdy,” he confessed, his voice a whisper against your skin. “I’m really, really not. When it’s you… I can’t help but shake. I’m made of glass.”
“Good,” you murmured, closing the gap until your lips were a heartbeat away from his. “I always did like breaking things.”
“You know what they say, Captain,” you continued, your voice dropping into that dangerous, low register that usually sent him running for the nearest exit. Your fingers trailed up from his neck to cup his jaw, your thumb brushing over his cheekbone. “Three times a charm.”
Yunho’s breath hitched. He knew exactly what you meant. The basement, where you’d almost touched. The bar, where you’d whispered in his ear. And now… this. “I—I…” He started to lean in. It was slow and agonisingly cautious, but just as his lips were inches from yours—just as you could feel the frantic, shaky heat of his breath—he froze. He stayed there, suspended in the air, his eyes squeezed shut, his entire body locked up. He was filled with pure, unadulterated panic. His brain had finally hit a fatal error and you decided not to wait for him to reboot. You tilted your head and pressed a light, feather-soft peck to the corner of his mouth. It was barely anything—just a ghost of a touch—but the effect was tectonic. Yunho started to shake. Literally. You could feel the vibration through his jaw, through his hands on the table, through the air between you. He was a man holding onto the last shred of his “Good Boy” programming, and it was currently catching fire. He let out a shaky, frustrated exhale against your skin. His eyes snapped open, the shy Yunho didn’t just leave the room; he was deleted from the server. “Fuck it,” he muttered finally—profanity that sounded so wrong and so right coming from his mouth. He didn’t lean this time; he crashed. Yunho’s hand flew from the table to the back of your head, his fingers tangling in your damp hair as he pulled you into a kiss that was anything but sturdy.
It was desperate. It was messy. It was the sound of a man who had been polite for far too long finally deciding to take the objective. He tasted like the coffee Seonghwa prepared and the mint of his toothpaste, and he was kissing you like he was trying to memorise the sensation before the world started rendering again.
The kiss was everything you didn’t want to admit you wanted. It was warm, it was desperate, and it was the first time Yunho felt truly solid, like he’d finally found his footing. His hand was firm against the back of your head, his fingers anchor-points in your damp hair.
But as the initial rush of heat began to settle into something deeper, something more permanent, the cold reality of the room started to leak back in. He pulled back just a fraction, your lips were still buzzing, your breath hitching in your throat. Yunho didn’t let go immediately; he leaned his forehead against yours, his eyes still closed, a small, dazed smile playing on his mouth. He looked… happy. He looked like he’d just won the championship. His hands were still trembling, fingers slowly retreating from your hair like they were afraid of the reality of what had just happened.
“I—uh.” Yunho’s eyes immediately dropped to the floor, his ears turning a shade of purple-red. He started to move, but it was jerky—like a character model with a broken animation cycle. He reached for the glasses you’d set on the table, his fingers fumbling and knocking them over twice before he managed to hook them behind his ears. “O-okay,” he stammered, his hands immediately flying to the drawstrings of his hoodie. He started pulling them, tightening the hood until his face was practically cinched shut like a drawstring bag. “That was… that was a high-level encounter. Very… very efficient. Good… good execution.” He wasn’t looking at you. He was looking at a loose thread on his sleeve, picking at it with a frantic, rhythmic motion. Then he noticed the ice pack on the floor. “Ice!” he shouted, way too loud for the two feet of space between you. He lunged for the tea towel, nearly tripping over his own feet again. “The—the swelling! Thermal regulation is… is critical for… for recovery!” He scrambled back into your space, his hands shaking so hard the ice pack rattled against your skin. He fidgeted, shifting his weight from foot to foot.
“Yunho,” you murmured, hands sliding to the edge of the chair. You pushed yourself up slowly, carefully, as if your motor functions were still buffering. The oversized shirt grazed your thighs as you stood, and you felt Yunho’s eyes track the movement with a heavy, focused intensity.
He held the ice pack like a relic, hovering it a hair’s breadth from your forehead. His hood was still half-cinched around his face, the drawstrings white-knuckled in his fist. Reaching up, you pinched one of the strings, tugging gently until the tension gave way. His face emerged—flushed, earnest, and so painfully adorable you felt a twinge of guilt.
“Hey,” you said, your voice dropping an octave.
His gaze flickered to the bruise before snapping back to your eyes. “It’s swelling.”
“You’re very observant.”
“I’m trying to be useful,” he whispered, his Adam’s apple bobbing. His grip tightened on the towel, then loosened, his instincts clearly at war. “You—” he started, but the words seemed to snag in his throat.
You offered a small, genuine smile. “Come here.”
He blinked, looking momentarily lost. “I’m already… here.”
“Closer,” you corrected.
Yunho hesitated for a heartbeat before stepping in, finally abandoning his negotiations with gravity. He didn’t touch you yet, but he stood close enough that his warmth bled through your shirt—close enough to reveal the fine tremor in his body.
You reached for the ice pack, guiding it to your forehead to steady his shaking. When your fingers brushed his, Yunho inhaled sharply, as if you’d pressed a blade to his pulse.
A strangled, breathy laugh escaped him. “I—okay.”
You looked up at him, and the need to perform completely vanished. You were hungover, bruised, and barefoot in his kitchen, yet a terrifying sense of happiness settled over you.
“I’m—I’m undergoing a scheduled reboot!” he blurted out, his voice cracking slightly. “It’s a large patch! Lots of data!”
“The data says you’re a dork,” you countered, pulling him closer by the hoodie strings. “And it says you stopped kissing me much too soon.”
Yunho froze, his brain clearly processing your words. You could almost see the combat report running through his head. Then, he let go of the ice pack—leaving you to hold it—and his hands found the soft cotton of your shirt at your waist. “The data is... uh... historically accurate,” he murmured, his voice finally dropping back into a lower, steadier register. “I should probably optimize my performance then.”
“Is that right?”
“Yeah,” he whispered, his eyes darting to your lips and staying there. He tilted his head and closed the distance, it wasn’t the careful, hovering touch from before; this was firm and certain, the kind of kiss that made your toes curl against the cold floor. It was soft, lingering, and sweet. His touch turned sure and steady after realising you weren’t pulling away. He made a small, needy sound in the back of his throat as he tilted his head to deepen the contact. His large hands settled at the small of your back, pulling you closer, his thumbs tracing the line of your spine through the thin cotton of his shirt. He was still trembling, still twitchy and nervous, but the way he kissed you was anything but shy.
“Objective… definitely reached,” he breathed. His thumb grazed your cheek, moving with a gentleness that felt like he was handling something breakable. He took a shaky breath. “Can we… Can we make this a daily quest?”
“A daily quest? I don’t know, Captain. My schedule is pretty packed. What exactly are the requirements for this quest?”
Yunho took a shallow, shaky breath. His gaze drifted to the side, eyes tracking the way the sunlight hit the kitchen tiles as he mentally mapped out his ‘requirements.’ “Um… Well,” he started, his voice dropping into a low, melodic mumble. He didn’t look at you; instead, his long fingers began to fidget with the hem of the shirt you were wearing—his shirt—his knuckles brushing the fabric near your hip in a way that felt entirely too intimate for a “professional” debrief. “Requirement one,” he whispered, finally meeting your eyes for a fleeting, shy second. “I want… I want a synchronized login every morning. Even if you’re grumpy and haven’t had coffee yet. I just want to know you’re awake.” He shifted his weight, his broad shoulders hunching slightly as if he were trying to make himself smaller, more approachable. “Requirement two: a minimum of thirty minutes of… of actual proximity. Not through a headset. I mean sitting on the sofa together. Or me walking you to your classes. Just… being the person who gets to carry your bag.”
He stopped, his throat bobbing as he struggled with the next one. His thumb traced a slow, nervous line over the back of your hand. “And requirement three,” he said, his voice cracking just a little. “Frequent… connection checks. Like the one we did just now. Making sure I’m the only one who gets to see you like this—dump hair, in my clothes, looking… looking devastating.” He looked back at you, his honey-brown eyes soft and pleading behind his glasses. “And maybe… if the connection feels unstable… I get to kiss you until it fixes itself. Does Viper approve those patch notes?”
You let out a soft laugh, the sound vibrating between you. “Interesting. Those are very high-maintenance tasks, Captain.” You reached up, sliding your hands over his broad shoulders to link them behind his neck, drawing him back into your space until he had to lean down, his forehead resting against yours. “But you know, looking at the mechanics of this quest… it sounds an awful lot like you’re asking me to be your girlfriend.”
The word girlfriend hit him with the force of a high speed train.
Yunho blinked, his entire posture stiffening for a split second before he completely melted. A shy smile broke across his face—the kind of pure, radiant expression that made your heart do a frantic sprint. “Is the… is the intent that obvious?” he leaned down until his nose brushed against yours, his glasses clicking softly against your forehead.
“Terribly,” you whispered back, your fingers playing with the messy hair at the nape of his neck. “But I think I’m ready to accept the invite.”
He let out a long, shaky exhale, the tension finally leaving his massive frame as he buried his face in the crook of your neck, hugging you so tight your toes barely touched the kitchen floor. “Good,” he murmured into your skin, his voice muffled and warm. “Because the matchmaking for this was a nightmare, and I really don’t want to play with anyone else.”
Viper and Captain were currently defeated—not by a rival team, but by a flat-pack bookshelf.
Yunho was sitting on the floor, surrounded by wooden dowels and hex keys, his tongue poking out the corner of his mouth as he squinted at a manual. He looked adorable—his hair messy, the sleeves of his oversized flannel pushed up to his elbows.
B-12 didn’t smell like damp concrete and old cables anymore. Now, it smelled like IKEA furniture, jasmine-scented candles that Seonghwa had “donated,” and the faint, lingering tomato sauce from the takeout pizza containers stacked by the door. It looked different now with soft LED strips glowing purple and blue behind the monitors, and a plush rug covering the cold concrete. Framed Level Zero posters—mostly hand-drawn by Mingi lined the walls.
“Yun,” you murmured, leaning over his shoulder. “I think screw J-12 goes into hole B, not A.”
Yunho was hunched over the manual like it was a high-level tactical blueprint, his glasses sliding down the bridge of his nose. “No,” he whispered, his voice similar to the one of a soldier trying to defuse a bomb. “The diagram clearly shows a 45-degree angle for the dowel. If we miss the alignment, the structural integrity of the entire One Piece collection is compromised.”
You didn’t answer with logic. Instead, you slid down onto the floor behind him, wrapping your arms around his broad shoulders and pressing a lingering, warm kiss to the sensitive skin just below his ear. “Captain,” you murmured, leaning your head forward to rest your chin on top of his shoulder. “Stop reading the manual for five seconds.”
Yunho blinked, finally looking away from the Step 14 in the instruction, that familiar, soft flush creeping up his neck. “You’re very... distracting today.”
You laughed in response, pulling his hand away from the screwdriver. He didn’t resist, just let you crawl into his lap. You wrapped your arms around his neck and pressed a lingering, soft kiss to the corner of his mouth. Yunho’s breath hitched—a soft sound that told you that even after over a week of this, you still had the power to make his heart lag. He wrapped his massive arms around your waist, pulling you flush against him. “Y-Y/N,” he squeaked, his neck turning a vivid shade of pink that clashed horribly with his shirt. “I am... I am currently in the middle of a high-stakes assembly phase. Precision is required.”
“You’re doing great,” you hummed, ignoring his protest. You trailed a row of soft, kissy, distractions along his jawline, feeling the way his pulse began to drum against your lips. “But your heart rate is getting high. You need a break.”
“I don’t... I don’t need a break,” he lied breathlessly, though he was leaning back into you involuntarily. He let out a shaky exhale, his eyes fluttering shut behind his glasses. “We need to finish preparing the headquarters. For Level Zero. For the... for the mission.”
“The mission can wait ten minutes,” you whispered, reaching around to lace your fingers through his.
He bit his lip, his eyes darting to yours, then down to your mouth. He was still the boy who hadn’t figured out how to handle the physical side of things without blushing until his ears burned, but he was getting braver. He leaned in, his nose brushing yours, his breath hitching. “I still think screw J-12 goes in hole A,” he whispered against your lips, his voice dropping into that low, resonant frequency.
“Is that so?” you breathed, your lips ghosting over his as you felt the frantic, heavy thud of his heart against your chest. “Then I guess you’ll have to prove it to me later. But right now...” You didn’t give him the chance to argue. You tilted your head and closed the gap, pressing your mouth to his in a kiss that was slow, deep, and tasted like the strawberry milk he’d been sipping on earlier. Yunho made a soft, needy sound in the back of his throat, his grip on your waist tightened, his large hands splaying across the small of your back as he pulled you even closer, as if trying to eliminate every last millimeter of space between his shirt and your skin. He was still shaking—that “shaking skyscraper” energy never truly left him—but there was a newfound hunger in the way he followed the lead of your lips.
When you finally pulled back, just far enough to see his face, he looked absolutely ruined. His glasses were stained with a print of your make-up foundation, his lips were red and wet, and his eyes were dazed and swirling with that crushing, quiet worship. He let his forehead drop against yours, his hot breath mingling with yours in the quiet of the basement. “Y/N, you’re... you’re literally overclocking me. I can’t process the instructions if you keep... doing that.”
“Then don’t,” you murmured, sliding your hands up to cup his face, your thumbs grazing his burning cheekbones. “Let the instructions wait. Let Mingi and Yeosang deal with the shelves when they get here. Just be here with me.”
Yunho let out a shaky, breathless laugh, his eyes fluttering shut as he leaned into your touch. For a guy who lived his life by the meta, by the stats, and by the strict rules of the Radiant rank, being “off-script” with you was clearly the most terrifying and exhilarating thing he’d ever experienced. “They’re going to make fun of me,” he whispered, his hands sliding up from your waist to rest tentatively at the nape of your neck, his fingers tangling in your hair with a reverence that made your chest ache. “Mingi’s going to see the half-finished bookshelf and the... and the way my face looks... and he’s going to know. He’s going to say I have ‘zero rizz’ and that I’ve been compromised.”
“You have been compromised, Captain,” you teased, nipping gently at his lower lip.
He shifted his weight, settling you more firmly onto his lap, his large frame providing a solid, warm anchor in the middle of the chaotic mess of wooden boards and screws. “Fine,” he murmured, his voice dropping back into that devastatingly low register. “Mission parameters have been updated. The bookshelf is officially de-prioritized. Current objective...” He leaned in, his lips brushing against yours one more time. “...is just this.”
The manual was forgotten. The unfinished bookshelf was a distant memory. In the purple and blue neon glow of B-12, the air was heavy, warm, and charged with an intensity that was entirely unauthorized by the Radiant rank. You smiled, slow and lazy, as you let your weight settle completely into his lap. Your hands left the safety of his shoulders and slid downward, finding the hem of his grey flannel. You slipped your fingers underneath the cold fabric, meeting the searing, trembling skin of his lower back. Yunho didn’t just gasp; he made a soft, broken sound—half-whimper, half-plea—and arching his back involuntarily. His grip on your waist tightened until it was almost painful, his knuckles white against the denim of your jeans.
The air in B-12 was thick enough to choke on. The neon purple glow from the LED strips caught the silver of the chain around Yunho’s neck as you pulled him down. Yunho’s glasses were gone now, put aside on the plush rug. Without them, he looked exposed. His hands, usually so careful to maintain “tactical distance,” had finally lost their battle with restraint. One was buried in your hair, his fingers curling into the strands at the base of your skull, while the other had slid beneath the hem of your shirt. His large palm was splayed flat against the small of your back, his skin scorching against yours, his thumb tracing a frantic, possessive rhythm. He was a 6’2” mess of heavy breathing and racing heartbeats. He kissed like he was trying to memorize your soul, a soft, desperate whimper vibrating in his chest every time you pulled him closer.
You were just about to let your hands slide higher up his neck when—
SLAM.
The heavy industrial door didn’t just open; it hit the wall like a frag grenade.
“YO! VIPER! I GOT THE NEW MONSTER FLAVOUR AND THE—"
Mingi froze. The plastic bag of drinks, sweets and spicy chips swung once, then twice, before slipping from his fingers and hitting the floor. For three seconds, the only sound in B-12 was the hum of the servers and the frantic, shallow breathing of the two people currently tangled on the floor.
Then, the silence shattered.
“AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHH!” Mingi’s voice hit a register that was physically impossible for a human male. He slammed his hands over his eyes, but his fingers were spread wide, his jaw practically unhinged. “MY EYES! MY IMMORTAL RANK EYES! YUNHO! ARE YOU—IS SHE—ARE YOU UNDER HER SHIRT?! IN THE HEADQUARTERS?!”
Yunho pushed you off him in pure panic, scrambling backward so fast he nearly knocked over the half-finished IKEA shelf, his face turning a shade of purple that looked like a medical emergency. “M-MINGI! THE UNIT ALIGNMENT! IT WAS... IT WAS A SENSORY CHECK!” Yunho squeaked, his voice cracking three times in a single sentence. He tried to stand, but his legs were still liquid, and he ended up half-collapsing against the wooden boards.
“A SENSORY CHECK?!” Mingi shrieked, pointing a trembling finger at Yunho’s flushed face. "YOU WERE TASTE-TESTING HER LIPS! THE CAPTAIN IS COMPROMISED! VIPER HAS INVADED THE SITE!”
“Song Mingi, for the love of—why are you screaming?” Seonghwa stepped into the room, looking polished as ever, followed by Yeosang, who was currently occupied with a handheld console. They both stopped. Seonghwa’s gaze traveled from the discarded glasses on the rug, to your ruffled hair, to Yunho—who was currently trying to hide his entire body behind a single wooden plank. Seonghwa let out a long, weary sigh, the kind that came from a man who had seen his family collapse into chaos too many times. He rubbed the bridge of his nose. “I told you the IKEA assembly would be stressful. But I didn’t realize it would be... sensual.” Seonghwa’s elegant brow furrowed, and he sighed, the sound carried the weight of a thousand tired parents.
Yeosang didn’t even look up from his game, though his lipslift up into a lethal, dry smirk. “I told you he had high ping. I didn’t realize his ‘frequent connection checks’ involved physical contact. Do you need a manual for that, Yunho? Or did you figure out where the screw goes on your own?”
Yunho groaned, burying his face in his hands as he slid down the wall. “I’m retiring,” he muffled into his palms. “Tell the freshmen... I was a good leader.”
“A good leader?” Mingi howled, finally recovering enough to look without his hands covering his eyes. “You're the GOAT! You’re the Rizz-Master! Level Zero Captain... is in love! In B-12! On the floor! With VIPER! This is on the permanent record! I’m going to marry you off!”
“Shut up, Mingi!” Yunho squeaked.
“Mingi, you’re giving me a headache,” you chimed in, standing up, and smoothing out your shirt with a level of composure that was frankly terrifying given that your hair was still a bird’s nest and your lips were swollen. “Seriously,” you added, crossing your arms. “If you scream one more time, I’m locking the B-12 doors and you will be permanently forbidden from entering."
“You can’t do that! This is Level Zero headquarters!" He looked at Yunho, “Captain! Tell her! Tell her you’re the boss! Tell her she can’t—”
“She can do whatever she wants,” Yunho’s muffled voice came from behind his hands. One of his fingers peaked out, pointing weakly at you. “She’s the MVP. I’ve... I’ve surrendered the site.”
“He’s compromised," Yeosang deadpanned, finally closing his console. He walked over and poked Yunho’s shoulder with his toe. “Hey. Are you still in there? Or did she actually delete your personality?”
“I’m processing,” Yunho groaned, finally dropping his hands. His face was still a violent shade of red, and his hair was sticking up at odd angles. He looked at you, and for a split second, that “crushing worship” flickered in his eyes before he remembered he had an audience. He scrambled to find his glasses, his hands shaking as he shoved them back onto his face.
“That’s enough,” you cut in, stepping toward Yunho, deliberately straightening his glasses and patting his chest—right over his racing heart. You looked back at the trio with a sharp, lethal smirk. “The Captain is officially off the market,” you stated, your voice low and final. “So unless you guys want to help with Step 15 of this bookshelf, I suggest you go back to the convenience store and get some snacks that aren’t currently leaking all over the rug.”
Mingi looked at the leaking drinks, then at you, then at the absolutely dazed, smitten expression on Yunho’s face. “Fine,” he huffed, picking up the bags. “But I’m picking the wedding colors. And I’m telling the freshmen that the Viper didn’t just join the team—she stole the trophy.”
“Mingi, stop being a child,” Seonghwa said, his voice cutting through the noise with that effortless authority. He looked at Yunho, who was still trying to fix his hair and look dignified. “And Yunnie... breathe. Your heart is going to beat out of your ribs.”
A gentle, knowing smile touched Seonghwa’s lips as he looked at you, he stepped forward and pulled you into a warm, steady hug. “I suppose we don’t need to worry you’re gonna leave us with for a better team anymore," he murmured near your ear, his voice full of a genuine warmth. He stepped back just an inch, keeping his hands on your shoulders. “Welcome to the family, Y/N.”
You blinked, a rare moment of genuine speechlessness hitting you. You’d spent so long being a “Legend” or a “Goddess” that being called family felt like a status effect you didn’t know how to cleanse. “I—” you started, but Seonghwa just patted your shoulder and walked toward the leaking bags Mingi had dropped.
“If you’re family, that means you have to help Mingi clean the rug,” Seonghwa added over his shoulder, the parental tone returning. “And Yunnie? Put the manual down. You’ve clearly found a better way to spend your time.”
Yunho, who had been watching the interaction with a look of pure, melting relief, let out a soft huff. He looked at you, his eyes shining behind his glasses—the embarrassment was still there, but it was being overtaken by a fierce, quiet pride. “See?” Yunho whispered, stepping up behind you and resting his chin on your head, his arms wrapping around your waist in front of everyone. “I told you. They’re a mess, but they’re our mess now.”
Mingi groaned from the corner where he was scrubbing the floor. “Yeah, yeah, welcome to the family. Now come help me get this strawberry milk out of the carpet, MVP! The Captain is too busy being a simp to help!”
“He’s not a simp,” you defended, leaning back into Yunho’s chest. “He’s just... tactically affectionate.”
“Tactically affectionate!” Yeosang cackled from the chair. “I’m putting that on the Level Zero website.”
“Smaller on the carrots, Y/N,” Seonghwa coached gently, nudging your hand. “We want them to soften, not provide a crunch.”
Across the room, Yunho was buried in the sofa cushions, his long legs tangled in a knitted throw. The blue glow of the TV reflected in his glasses as he tried his best to focus on his game on the PS5. Every few seconds, he’d lean his head back and glance toward the kitchen, his gaze lingering on you with a soft, dazed smile before the game pulled him back in.
“Captain, focus!” Yeosang’s voice crackled. “You just walked into a wall.”
“I’m just... checking the kitchen’s progress.” Yunho defended, his ears turning pink.
“He’s checking the chef,” Seonghwa corrected dryly, stirring a pot of stew.
You paused the chopping, leaning around the corner of the breakfast nook to catch Yunho’s eye. He was already looking, his lower lip caught between his teeth as he navigated a particularly tricky platforming sequence. You winked and blew him a theatrical kiss. Yunho’s hands twitched on the controller—a fatal error in-game—but his face lit up. He physically reached out one hand into the air, catching the kiss and pulling it to his chest and pressing it against his heart with a look of pure, unadulterated adoration.
“Ewww!” Yeosang groaned, sprawled in the armchair nearby with the second controller gripped loosely in his lap. He didn’t even look up from the screen, but his nose wrinkled in disgust. “Captain, you’re lagging in real life. It’s embarrassing to watch.”
“Let him be, Yeosang,” Seonghwa chided, though he was wearing a knowing smirk as he tasted the stew. “At least someone in this house is getting some romantic practice. Though,” he added, his expression softening into something uncharacteristically shy, “I suppose I might be joining him soon. I have that... meeting next week.”
You stopped chopping, your eyes widening. “The tutoring guy? The one with the architecture major?”
Seonghwa’s ears turned a faint shade of pink, and he focused very intently on stirring the carrots. “His name is Hongjoong. And yes. He asked if we could go for coffee after our last session. He said he wanted to thank me for helping him actually pass his exams, but... he was blushing quite a bit when he said it.”
“That’s huge!” Yunho cheered from the couch, this time not looking away from the screen.
“It’s just coffee,” Seonghwa said, pointing a wooden spoon at Yunho, though the smile never left his face. He was usually the one taking care of everyone else—patching up Yunho’s frayed nerves or making sure Mingi actually ate a vegetable—so seeing him flustered was like finding a secret Easter egg in a game you thought you’d 100% completed.
“Architecture major? And he was blushing? Hwa, that’s a critical hit,” you said, setting the knife down and leaning your hip against the counter.
Seonghwa’s hand paused its rhythmic stirring. He looked down into the pot as if the vegetables could give him advice. “He’s very... sincere,” he murmured. “He brings me mango jellies every time we meet for a session, and he always remembers exactly how much sugar I take with my coffee. Last time, he stayed for twenty minutes after the tutoring ended just to talk about the ‘aesthetic symmetry’ of our team’s logo. He said it was ‘elegant, yet sharp.’”
“He likes the logo?” Yunho chimed in from the couch, his head popping up over the cushions like a curious golden retriever. “That’s a green flag, hyung. That’s a 10/10 teammate-in-law.”
Seonghwa’s hand slowed in the pot, his gaze drifting to the steam rising from the stew. “Well... I’m not sure if he’s even interested, like, romantically,” he admitted, his voice dropping an octave. “I tried to hug him goodbye last time, but he went so rigid I thought I did something stupid. He didn’t even touch me.” Seonghwa let out a soft sigh, his lips pulling into a small, rare pout that made your heart ache just a little.
“Well, maybe he’s just shy?” you offered, leaning closer to him and giving his arm a supportive squeeze. “I mean, look at Yunho. If I’d tried to hug him in the first week, he probably would have phased through a wall.”
“Hey!” Yunho protested from the couch, though he didn’t deny it.
“Maybe he’s just old-fashioned,” Yeosang deadpanned, not even looking up from his game as he rapidly tapped the triggers. “Maybe he’s waiting until marriage for physical contact. A true gentleman of the architectural arts.”
“Yeosang, please,” Seonghwa groaned, though the pout twitched into a reluctant smile.
“I‘m serious,” Yeosang continued, his lips lifting into that lethal, dry smirk. “Some people don’t have the Captain’s high-speed connection. They operate on dial-up. You have to give the data time to process before you go in for the romantic interactions.”
“It wasn’t a romantic interaction, it was a hug!” Seonghwa defended, his ears turning red.
The cozy, bickering peace of the kitchen was shattered a second later. The front door groaned on its hinges, slamming back against the wall with a violence that made the soup spoons rattle. A wave of cold, sharp air and the heavy scent of cigarettes flooded the room.
Mingi didn’t walk in; he surged. “DROP THE SPOONS!” Mingi bellowed, he didn’t even stop to take off his boots, skidding across the floor until he reached the kitchen island. “I have it!” he shouted, voice echoing off the kitchen tiles. He smelled like he’d been standing in the Smoking Area of The Abyss for six hours, but he didn’t seem to care.
“Mingi, you’re tracking mud onto the rug,” Seonghwa sighed, though he moved closer to look.
“Forget the rug!” Mingi breathed, tapping the phone screen, pulling up a registration portal. “The Amatour‘s Summer Open! It’s official. But it’s not just a trophy grab this year. Look at the fine print.”
Yunho scrambled off the couch, the knitted throw falling to his ankles as he hurried over, peering over your shoulder. You felt his hand rest on the small of your back as you read the text aloud. “The top four finishing teams will be awarded a direct seed into the Challengers League. Fully sponsored. A dedicated gaming house in Seoul.”
The silence that followed was absolute. This was the door to the big stage.
“We can turn the basement into a career,” Mingi whispered, his voice uncharacteristically low. He looked at Yunho, his eyes burning with a mix of terror and excitement. “Captain? Is it time to actually level up?”
The room went silent for a heartbeat before Yunho let out a bark of a laugh. “The Summer Open? Mingi, have you seen us play together?” He pointed a thumb at Seonghwa. “I love him, he’s my hyung, my best friend, but we aren’t getting past the first round of qualifiers with Seonghwa as our sentinel. We’d be eliminated before the loading screen finishes.”
“Hey!” Seonghwa protested, “I’ve improved!”
“Hyung, having you on a team it’s a death sentence in a tournament,” Yeosang added.
Yunho looked at Mingi’s phone again, then at Seonghwa, then finally at you. You could feel the slight tremor in the hand resting on your back—but his gaze was focused. “But I guess, we aren’t just a basement team anymore,” Yunho said, pulling you a little closer, his thumb grazing your side. “We are registered with the University Council, we have the best teamwork in the rank, the most aggressive flex, and we have Viper.” He looked at the group, a slow, victorious smile spreading across his face.
“The Summer Open starts in six weeks,” Yeosang declared. “If we’re going to do this, we do it right. We start the pro-grind tomorrow. Are we in?”
“I’ve already started drafting the training schedule,” Mingi said, his lips quivering into a sharp smirk.
It hit you all at once.
If Level Zero entered an official tournament, you couldn’t just Ratatouille your way through. In a casual scrimmage, you could hide. You could blame “lag,” you could let Wooyoung carry the game from the safety of your apartment while you talked into the mic. But a regional pre-elimination? There would be officials. There would be hand-cams. There would be the terrifying reality of a mouse and keyboard in front of you—and no Wooyoung to bridge the gap.
The air in the room seemed to thin out. You felt the blood drain from your face, leaving you cold in the middle of the heated kitchen. You looked at Yeosang, who was laughing, and Mingi, who was already talking about team jerseys. They had no idea. They thought they had a Radiant-tier Viper in their ranks. They didn’t know they had a girl who could barely navigate the menu without a panic attack.
“Y/N?” It was Yunho’s voice. “You’re… you’re really quiet,” he murmured, his voice low enough that the others didn’t hear over Mingi’s latest joke. He pulled you closer to his chest, his finger spreading on the small of your back. “Are you okay? You got very pale.”
You looked down at his hand—the hand that shook when it touched you. If you told him the truth, the “Daily Quest’’wouldn’t just be over; it would be a total server wipe. You’d be the girl who lied. The girl who used her best friend to trick Yunho into falling in love with a mask. “I’m fine,” you rasped, voice coming out thin and brittle. “Just… thinking.”
“We don’t have to do it,” Yunho said suddenly, he looked around the room, then back at you. “If you don’t want to—if it’s too much—we can just stay as a club. I don’t care about becoming pro, Y/N. I just care about you.”
He was ready to throw away his dream—the Summer Open, the chance to prove Level Zero was real and worth of a professional title.
“No,” you whispered, your heart breaking in real-time. “We should… we should do it. Let’s sign up.”
As the boys cheered and Mingi started typing, you felt a cold, hard knot form in your chest. You had only a couple of days to figure out how to do the impossible. You had to tell Wooyoung. And God help you, you were going to have to tell him that the Viper lie was about to be exposed.
Yunho laughed, ducking his head to hide his blush, but he didn’t pull his hand away from you. He leaned in, whispering into your ear, “I guess I really am going to have to handle a professional team now, aren’t I?”
“Wait, wait!” Mingi’s eyes suddenly lit up, that mischievous, “I-have-an-idea” glint taking over his face. He leaned forward, slamming his palms onto the desk. “Viper! Isn’t your roommate also a gamer? That guy—Wooyoung, right? I think I talked to him in The Abyss once or twice.”
Your heart didn’t just drop; it performed a total system shutdown.
“He looks like the type who’d be a total demon on a mouse.” Mingi continued, his voice rising with excitement. “Maybe he’d join us? We could kick Seonghwa out and actually have some real chances! If he’s even half as good as you, we’d be unstoppable.” The room went quiet for a second. The overhead light felt too bright, too hot. You could feel all the eyes in the room shift to you—heavy, curious, and hopeful.
Seonghwa let out a dramatic, betrayed sigh. “Oh, I see how it is. The Team is already looking for my replacement. Fine. I’ll just go back to being the Vice President and eating my feelings in the corner.”
“No, Hyung, it’s not like that!” Yunho said, immediately flustered, his shy side pulling him back. “I just… I mean, if Y/N’s roommate is a high rank, it would be a shame not to ask, right? It would make her feel more comfortable having a friend on the team.” He turned to you, his eyes wide and full of that pure, devastating trust. “What do you think, Y/N? Do you think Wooyoung would want to sub in? It would take the pressure off of us to carry Mingi and Seonghwa every round.”
You looked at Yunho—his messy hair, the way he was looking at you like you were the smartest person in the room. You felt like a total fraud. If Wooyoung joined the team, the secret wouldn’t just be out; it would be broadcast in 4K. “I… uh…” Your voice was a dry, you had to swallow the lump forming in your throat to continue. “Wooyoung is… he’s busy. He has a lot of… laundry. And his, uh, PC is in a very bad shape. He wouldn’t be able to play with us.”
Mingi laughed, reaching over to ruffle your hair—a move that made Yunho’s jaw tighten just a fraction. “Come on, Y/N! Just ask him! We’ll give him a jersey! We’ll even let him use Seonghwa’s chair!”
“Hey!” Seonghwa shouted again.
“Seriously, I’ll ask him,” you lied, the words tasting like copper in your mouth. “But don’t get your hopes up. He’s... he’s got a very specific gaming schedule. Very antisocial.”
“Specific gaming schedule?” Yeosang’s eyes flicked over to you, sharp and analytical as always. He tilted his head, his dry smirk returning. “What, does he only play during lunar eclipses? Or is he one of those grinders who only logs on when the sun goes down?”
“Something like that,” you mumbled, retreating toward the sink under the guise of needing water. Your hands were shaking so badly you had to grip the glass with both palms.
Yunho followed you. He didn’t say anything at first, just moved into your space, his large frame blocking the others from view. He reached out, his hand hesitating before he gently tucked a stray lock of hair behind your ear. His touch was so tender it felt like a physical burn against your skin. “You’re really tense,” he whispered, his brow furrowed with that earnest, protective worry. “Is it because of the tournament? Or is it... is it because of Wooyoung? If you don’t want him on the team, Y/N, we won’t ask. I don’t want to crowd your home life with Level Zero business if it makes you uncomfortable.”
It’s not my home life I’m worried about, Yunho. It’s my entire existence, you thought, looking up at him.
“It’s fine, Yunnie,”you forced out, trying to summon even a flicker of Viper’s confidence. “I’ll talk to him tonight. I’ll see what he says.”
“That’s my MVP,” Mingi cheered, oblivious to the internal collapse happening five feet away. He was already back on his phone, probably looking up custom jersey designs. “We’re gonna be the most feared team in the Summer Open! Viper, Captain, and maybe the Secret Weapon Roommate! We’re basically the Avengers of the basement!”
“I’m still not giving up my chair,” Seonghwa grumbled, though he was already plating the stew, his temporary ‘betrayal’ forgotten in favor of feeding his team.
Dinner was a blur. You ate mechanically, nodding in the right places as Mingi and Yunho debated tactical rotations and map bans. Every time Yunho squeezed your hand under the table, a fresh wave of guilt crashed over you. He was building a future for the two of you—a pro career, a life where you were the stars of the server—and you were still stuck on the tutorial level.
The moment the door to Yunho’s apartment closed behind you that night, the cold night air hit you like a physical slap. You didn’t even wait to get to the subway. You pulled out your phone, your thumb hovering over Wooyoung’s contact.
The phone picked up on the second ring.
“What‘s up bitch,” Wooyoung’s voice crackled through the speaker, sounding suspiciously like he was currently mid-match. “How’s the Captain? Did he finally figure out how to kiss without a manual, or do I need to send him an instructional PDF?”
“Young,” you rasped, leaning your head against a cold brick wall in the alleyway. “We have a massive, server-ending problem.”
The clicking of his mechanical keyboard stopped instantly. The silence on the other end was heavy. “What happened?” his voice was suddenly sharp, all the teasing gone. “Did he find out? Did you slip up?”
“No,” you whispered, a tear finally escaping and trekking down your cheek. “Worse. Mingi wants you to join the team. And Yunho... Yunho just signed us up for the Summer Open. The Pro-Am qualifier. Offline, Wooyoung. With cameras. With officials.”
There was a long, hollow silence. Then, a low whistle. “Holy fuck... okay. So we’ve moved from ‘mild deception’ to ‘federal fraud,’” Wooyoung muttered. “Y/N, if you go to that tournament, you’re dead. The second you touch a mouse in front of a ref, your Viper becomes a common garden snake.”
“I know,” you choked out, searching through your bag for the pack of cigarettes you bought earlier. “But I couldn’t say no. He was going to give up his dream for me. He was going to stay in the basement forever just because he thought I was nervous. I couldn’t let him do that.”
“So what’s the plan?” Wooyoung asked. “Because unless I can teach you ten years of muscle memory in six weeks, or I figure out how to wear a wig and a voice-changer, we are—to use a technical term—screwed.”
“I don’t know,” you said, looking up at the flickering streetlamp. “But I think the “Legend” is about to have a very public heart attack.”
The door to your apartment hadn’t even fully clicked shut before you collapsed.
You didn’t make it to the sofa. You sank against the wood of the door, your knees hitting the floor with a dull thud that echoed in the quiet hallway. The adrenaline that had kept you upright in Yunho’s kitchen—the fake smiles, the forced nods, the mask—finally evaporated, leaving nothing but a hollow, freezing terror behind. Your chest felt like it was being crushed.
“Y/N? Is that you?” Wooyoung’s voice drifted from the living room, followed by the familiar scoot of his gaming chair. He appeared in the hallway a second later, still wearing his headset around his neck. He stopped dead when he saw you. “Whoa, whoa—hey!” He was across the hall in three strides, dropping to his knees in front of you.
“He likes me, maybe even loves me,” you choked out, the words coming out as a broken sob. You gripped the front of Wooyoung’s hoodie, your knuckles white. “He looks at me like I’m... like I’m everything. And I’m nothing.”
Wooyoung’s expression softened, his hands coming up to steady your shaking shoulders. “Hey, look at me. You aren’t nothing. You’re just a girl who got caught in a very long, very stupid prank that went off the rails.”
“It’s not a prank anymore!” you shrieked, the sound muffled by your own knees as you curled into a ball. “It’s the Summer Open! He signed us up! Mingi wants to buy jerseys! Jerseys! They want to put my name on the back of a shirt like I’m actually someone worth watching!” You started to hyperventilate, the air coming in short, panicked gasps. The image of bright lights, the officials standing behind your chair, the crowd watching the big screen—flashed in your mind like a horror movie. You could see the moment the game started. You could see your hand shaking on a mouse that felt like a foreign object. You could see Yunho’s face when he realized his “lethal Viper” couldn’t even move. “I have to tell him,” you gasped, clutching your throat. “I have to tell him tonight. I’ll send a text. I’ll delete my account. I’ll move. I’ll—I’ll join a convent.”
“You aren’t joining a convent,” Wooyoung said firmly, grabbing your wrists to stop you from clawing at your own skin. “And you aren’t texting him. You’re in a full-blown mental breakdown. You don’t make tactical decisions during a system crash.”
“He called me the MVP,” you sobbed, hot tears streaming down your face and dripping onto the floor. “He said he’d throw away his dream for me. How can I look at him? How can I let him kiss me knowing every part of our relationship is built on a lie?” You looked up at Wooyoung, your eyes bloodshot and desperate. “Mingi asked about you. He knows your name. He wants you to sub in. He thinks we’d be ‘unstoppable.’” You let out a hysterical, wet laugh. “We would be unstoppable because you’d be playing for two people! You’d have to grow four arms, Wooyoung!”
Wooyoung went quiet. He pulled you into a tight, grounding hug, letting you sob into his chest. He didn’t offer a joke this time. He knew the stakes. He knew that for someone like Yunho—someone whose entire world was built on loyalty, data, and Level Zero family—this kind of betrayal wasn’t just a white lie. It was a total wipe of his trust. “We’re in the endgame now, Y/N,” Wooyoung whispered into your hair. “You either tell him and lose him, or you play the tournament and get exposed in front of the whole world.”
“I can’t lose him,” you whispered into his shirt, your voice small and broken. “I can’t. But I can’t be the player he expects me to be either.”
Wooyoung remained on his knees, his hands hovering tentatively near your shoulders. “Y/N, just listen—”
“No.” The word was flat, dead, and final. With a sudden, jerky surge of energy, you pushed off the floor. You shoved Wooyoung’s hands away with more force than intended, your palms hitting his chest as you scrambled to your feet. Your skin was crawling with a sudden, suffocating need to be away from the pity, away from the eyes of your best friend, and away from the girl who didn’t exist. “Don’t,” you rasped, stumbling back a step. “I can’t handle a pep talk from the guy whose hands I’ve been stealing for weeks!”
“I’m not trying to—”
You didn’t stay to hear the end of the sentence. You turned and bolted for the kitchen, your boots clicking hollowly on the floor. You needed something to numb the static in your brain, something to wash away the taste of the lie you’d been feeding Yunho all evening. You reached the kitchen and ripped the refrigerator door open. The white light spilled out, blindingly bright against your tear-stained face. You ignored the water, ignored the leftover takeout, and grabbed a cold bottle of beer from the back of the shelf. You didn’t bother with an opener. You grabbed the edge of the granite counter, hooking the cap against the stone and slamming your palm down. The cap hissed and flew off, skittering across the tile, but you didn’t look at where it landed. You took a long, burning swallow, the carbonation stinging your throat as you leaned your weight against the counter. You stared at the dark window, watching your own reflection—red-eyed, hair a mess, looking nothing like the “Legend” your boyfriend thought you were.
Wooyoung appeared in the doorway, his silhouette framed by the hallway light. He didn’t come closer. He just watched you, his usual snark completely erased, leaving him looking just as exhausted as you felt. “That’s not going to fix anything, Y/N,” he said softly.
“I’m not trying to fix it,” you whispered, the cold glass slick against your palm. “I’m trying to forget that I’m the villain in my own fucking love story.”
“We’ll figure it out. I’ll just… I don’t know, wear a wig? Or we’ll say you have a wrist injury and I’m your legal guardian. Relax! He’s whipped! The guy looks at you like you invented the internet. Or maybe we just tell him the truth. He’ll probably think it’s a ‘cute tactical ruse’ or whatever.”
“It’s not a ruse!” You turned to face him, the cold glass bottle trembling in your hand.
“Oh, come on,” Wooyoung teased, standing up and walking toward you with his hands stuffed in his pockets. “You’re making a mountain out of a molehill! So you lied about being good at a video game. People lie about having hobbies on first dates all the time! Just go to him, bat your eyelashes, and say, ‘Oops, I’m actually a noob.’ He’ll probably just offer to coach you.”
The bottle slipped. It hit the floor with a violent, crystalline clink, shattering into pieces. The sound seemed to trigger a total system failure deep inside you. Your breath hitched, a broken, wheezing sound, and then the sob tore out of your throat, raw and ugly.
“Jesus Christ—Y/N!” Wooyoung’s eyes went wide. He scrambled forward, his teasing facade instantly replaced by genuine panic. “I was joking! It’s okay, we can fix this—”
“We can’t fix it!” you shrieked, the tears overflowing, hot and stinging against your cheeks. You slumped against the counter, your hands over your face as the weight of the last few weeks finally crushed your spine. “He only likes me because of a lie! He doesn’t like me. He likes the girl who can carry his team. He likes the girl who is ‘iconic’ and ‘calculated’! He likes someone who doesn’t exist!”
“That’s not true,” Wooyoung whispered, reaching out to steady you, but you pushed his hands away.
“It is true!” you wailed. “I love him, Wooyoung. I’m so far gone I can’t even see the damn shore anymore. And every time he looks at me with that… that stupid, honest adoration, I feel like I’m poisoning him. I’m a virus in his system!” You looked up at your best friend, your vision blurred by tears, your chest aching so hard you could barely draw air. “I can’t tell him,” you whispered, the words sounding like a death sentence. “If he finds out his girlfriend is just a liar… he’ll never trust anyone again. It’ll crush him. He’s so pure, and I’m… I’m just the girl who let him believe in a fake.”
Wooyoung stayed silent. The snark was gone, replaced by a hollow, heavy realization. He didn’t have a witty comeback. He didn’t have a tactical solution. For the first time, he realized this wasn’t about a game; it was about the destruction of a soul. “You’re not a fake, Y/N,” the words felt thin and useless in the quiet apartment.
“I am! I am a fucking liar,” you sobbed, sliding down the cabinets until you were a heap on the floor, your face buried in your knees. “In reality, I’m nothing! He can’t love me!” The words came out as a strangled scream. You weren’t just crying; you were shaking, your hands clutching at your own hair as you rocked back and forth on the kitchen tiles. Wooyoung reached out to grab your wrists, but you wrenched yourself away.
“Y/N, stop, you’re not making sense—”
“I am making perfect sense!” You looked at him, your eyes bloodshot and wild, a hysterical, broken laugh bubbling up in your chest. “Who makes the call-outs? Who hits the headshots? Who is the ‘legend’ he’s so proud of? It’s you, Young! It’s your timing! Your game sense! Your talent!” You pointed a shaking finger at his gaming setup. “He loves Viper! And Viper is you! You play her!” Your voice cracked, dropping to a horrified, wet whisper. “Oh my god… he loves you. He’s in love with a version of me that is actually just… you. Every time he praises ‘my’ performance, he’s praising you. Every time he’s in awe of ‘my’ logic, he’s in awe of your brain.”
“That’s not how it works, Y/N, he knows you—”
“He knows a script!” you clutched your stomach as if you were physically ill. “He knows the girl who speaks when you tell her to. He knows the girl who wears the mask you built. If I sit down at that computer during the tournament, he’s going to see a stranger. He’s going to realize the girl he kissed is just… a fraud.” The kitchen felt like it was tilting. “I’ve stolen his first love,” you whispered, staring at the shattered glass. “I’ve taken this pure, beautiful thing he feels and I’ve tied it to a lie. If he finds out his girlfriend can’t even choose a proper skill to use… it’ll destroy him."
Wooyoung dropped to his knees in front of you. The usual spark in his eyes was replaced by a scary, focused intensity. He watched you for a long moment, letting out a slow, long-suffering sigh. “Okay,” he said, his voice flat with forced calm. “I’m teaching you how to play.”
You made a miserable sound into your knees.
“No, listen,” Wooyoung continued, nudging your shoulder with his elbow. “I’m going to be honest with you—it’s going to be hell. You’re going to fail your exams. Your attendance is going to tank. You’re going to survive on caffeine and regret, and you’ll forget what sunlight looks like.” He paused, looking at the door, then back at you. “But we’re going to fix this. I’m going to make sure your Viper is so real we will never have to fake it again.”
The kitchen light was clinical and the bottle was still shattered, but for the first time, the world didn’t feel like it was collapsing. You looked up from your knees, staring at Wooyoung like he’d suggested you learn to fly a plane in a week. “You’re… you’re going to teach me? I can’t even jump and move at the same time without looking at the keyboard.”
“I know,” Wooyoung stood up, offering you a hand—not a gentle pull, but a firm yank. “I’ve seen your ‘skills.’ You’re a disaster. You’re a bottom-tier scrub who shouldn’t be allowed near a mouse. But,” he jabbed a finger toward the gaming chair, “you’re my disaster. And I’m not letting you lose the only guy who actually made you feel something just because you can’t aim.”
He dragged you toward the desk, the dual monitors flickering to life and casting a harsh blue glow over your tear-stained face. “Here’s the deal,” Wooyoung slammed a headset onto the desk. “From this second until the tournament, you aren’t a student. You aren’t a girl with a boyfriend. You are a script I am rewriting. We play until your fingers lock up. We drill lineups until you see them in your sleep. If your phone buzzes? Ignore it. If Yunho calls? Tell him you’re studying.”
He leaned down, his face inches from yours. “You said he loves Viper? Fine. By the tournament, you’re going to be Viper. Not my hands. Yours.”
You looked at the mouse. The guilt was still there, a heavy stone in your gut, but a new spark was starting to flicker—spite. Spite for the lie. Spite for the version of you that was nothing.
“Okay,” you whispered, sitting down and gripping the mouse until your knuckles turned white. “Patch me in.”