Thinking. Dreaming. Living.

through another pair of eyes.

[woodendreams]

(by pics721)

[woodendreams]

(by Brad Wetli Photography)

[kristisarkela]

Realization

I'm realizing that my tumbler holds my darker side... The side that I don't express openly, except through writing. It's kind of freeing. Well anyway, my future's on my mind again. Sometimes I wonder why I can't just live in the day and time I'm in? But then again I often think about my future and subjects of the like at night when I'm completely alone, trying to go to sleep. And quite frankly, if I didn't think about the future as I was going to sleep I would be bored and lonely. Another thought, why do people always say to live only in the moment? If you live only in the moment you will not notice the things that you want to change about your future. I feel like you would just be going through the motions. Then again there is a happy medium in everything. Don't only think about the future but don't only think about right now. Balance is key in almost every aspect. Well any who, goodnight to whoever is reading this (or good morning or afternoon) if anyone is reading.

[kristisarkela]

I'll be seeing you in all the old familiar places.

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How do I tell you I love you when your so distant?

[kristisarkela]

I just want to spend the holidays with you. Is that too much to ask?

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So obsessed with this song, it's retarded how much i like it...

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I'll give you everything you need. But I don't think I need you.

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Sometimes I feel so alone in life it weighs on me. It's so heavy, I don't want to move.

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This Sunday afternoon has consisted of the longest, most peaceful 4 hour nap of my life. No more crabby Kristi.

[kristisarkela]

I don't love you, but I always will.

[woodendreams]

(by Ryan Painter)

[kristisarkela]

I love this place... And the west coast.

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Faithfulness

Have you ever felt like you wont be able to fill up your gas tank this week? Or like you weren't going to make rent? Or like you will never find love? Or like you were in need of anything? 

I feel your pain. This past sunday I was on my way home from church and I was feeling the weight of thinking I was in need. How am I going to pay for college? How will I be able to work this many hours and attend classes and study? When will somebody sweep me off my feet? Then the Lord started revealing to me that I have never, not one day gone without food. I never have known what its like to be starving. God knows that one of my desires is to not be hungry every day. God has provided everyday for me.. Then God revealed to me that He knows its my desire to pay for college without debt, he knows that I get overwhelmed when I have too much to do ant feel like I don't have enough time to do it. He knows that I want a Man of Faith to sweep me off my feet. Just like he knows that I never want to starve. The Lord has blessed me in so many ways major and minor throughout my life. He has been so faithful to me even when I am so unfaithful. The Lord holds a pretty clear track record in the faithfulness department... He said he would send a savior and He sent Jesus! Wow. It hits me that God will be faithful until the end. It doesn't matter if the journey is a little rocky and uncomfortable, that just gives me more reason to rely on Him. I don't need to worry... The Lord never gives His child more than they can handle. He knows us and He knows what we need. 

[kristisarkela]

Need.

I cant wait to need you. 

[kristisarkela]

For you I'd wait til kingdom come...

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My Jesus, you satisfy!

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If I just lay here, would you lie with me and just forget the world?