kryl

(20 | he/him) this is my thought trash can

[kryl0v]

just cvt w a razor for the first time, oml this is so much easier than w a box opener can't wait to do more when I get home :)

I rlly wanna post photos but i dont want my account to get deleted :<

[kryl0v]

i want someone to care about me enough to force me to get help just so i can push it away and see if they keep making me to prove if they still care

[kryl0v]

drafting the texts im gonna send out when i send myself to the hospital next week fml

plan/intent/means trinity nearly completed

[kryl0v]

having sensory issues makes me feel so pathetic and childish like sorry im crashing out bc youre whistling its just the most grating sound ive ever heard and if you dont stop ill hit myself ._. full grown man btw

[kryl0v]

love how i can go from noticing warning signs of me thinking what if i kms at minor inconviences to planning my death in less than 24 hours

[kryl0v]

it doesnt matter if theyre intrusive my thoughts make me a vile human being by default

[inklings-of-late]

I think the kitty wants something…

[kryl0v]

sorry i was busy being upset over a conversation i created in my head

[kryl0v]

10 days until im home and can hurt myself how i need to thank fuck

anyone else get antsy if they havn't cvt in a while?

[kryl0v]

i love my therapist and know it's the "right thing" to keep seeing him but at my core i have no will to keep myself alive safe or healthy and that's something he can't change

[kryl0v]

if there's one thing i'm good at it's finding a secluded corner away from everyone to sit in

[izzynstuffz]

dermatillomania is so stupid cuz what you mean i just stood in my bathroom for 20 minutes attempting to pop every pimple on my body.

[kryl0v]

me fighting the urge to not pick off the scabs put on my arm so i could pick them off later

[kryl0v]

it amazes me how much cis ppl will explain away before thinking youre trans, this guy has seen my top surgery scars for months and was shocked when i started talking ab being trans ._.

[kryl0v]

the air is so fucking contaminated people need to stop coughing omfg

[kryl0v]

they dont love me they dont love me they dont love me why does it feel like my hearts being ripped out when im not included in the smallest things

[pastelcottoncandyunicorn]

i feels like there’s something missing in me that the rest of the world has and it’s not fair