#sh mention

[thistlerock]

It feels taboo and like ppl are gonna throw rocks at me is it ok to talk about the history with self harm that I think Gorgug 100% has and is also related to why it's so hard for him to take off the hoodie (other then it being a comfort item for an autistic kid constantly going through inconceivable levels of stress) especially around people he's close to and/or wants to be intimate with . Because I think there are some things to talk about here .

[madscientistfrommars]

listen all im saying about sweeney todd is that people who dont sh wouldnt get that excited about razors

[cringeventblog]

Genuinely what is stopping me from cutting myself right now. It’s not like anybody ever wants to see me naked, no one would ever know.

[makingflippy-floppy]

flash back to when my friend showed me her sh scars and i didn't know what to do so i asked if i could lick them.

[kween4aday]

round of applause for the girl who didn’t realize shes four months clean as of 8 days ago

me, if you couldn’t tell

[sadistfoid]

me when i lock in

[ramblingpeanut]

tw sh

So, I work/live in a community where, let's be honest, everyone is mentally ill. So, it's becoming a common event for people I work with or hang with or anything really to take a moment to show off their SH scars. Wild, right?

Now what's MORE wild is the feelings I end up with during these events.

Because I've done all that too, and, while I hate comparing people's struggles, my scars are significantly worse. But no one can see them. My wrists are clean, nothing I can show. And I remember the first time i got caught doing it, and they only cared about the wound from an eraser on my wrist, NOT the ones I actually did for real sh reasons.

It's as if sh doesn't matter if it's not in a "dangerous" place. Like if you're not trying to kill yourself, then the red water doesn't matter. And the worst is when people hear me say I can relate with them, but can't see any of the scars, so they scoff, or call me a lier, or just ignore it. I've officially just started lying about it, that I've never cut or anything.

I feel like I'm nothing but a web of lies, but I'm begging to tell the truth, so it just results with me being annoying and odd. And the worst part is that I even care about this at all. Why do I want people to know I'm like them? That I've also dragged myself through the mud? Why does it hurt so bad to know they won't believe me? How do I show them my thighs are 40% or more scar tissue, and why does a part of me feel like it's a competition? I feel like a failure, a freak, and a monster all at once.

[kryl0v]

having sensory issues makes me feel so pathetic and childish like sorry im crashing out bc youre whistling its just the most grating sound ive ever heard and if you dont stop ill hit myself ._. full grown man btw