Karina

× 𝐏𝐚𝐮𝐥𝐬𝐨𝐧/𝐁𝐥𝐚𝐧𝐜𝐛𝐞𝐭𝐭/𝐒𝐭𝐲𝐥𝐞𝐬 = 🏠💗 × 𝐇𝐨𝐫𝐫𝐨𝐫 𝐌𝐨𝐯𝐢𝐞𝐬/𝐒𝐡𝐨𝐰𝐬 🖤 > × 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐏-𝐓 × 23

[kstardust]

Not a great day but at least my hand decided to draw decently tonight and that helped me not feel so damn blue as today early.

I'm still trying to figure out how I made this like wtf? why don't I do this when I really want to draw??

I mean, it's obviously not perfect but it looks good (until now, for me it does)

[kstardust]

Happy Birthday to my walking sunshine!! 💗🎂 One of my favourite human being on the whole world. My comfort person and safe place. I wish you the best day ever, because you deserve everything that it's good in this crazy world. I love you with my whole existence and I'm so grateful that I'm living at the same time as you. Feliz Cumpleaños, Saritah💗🎉🎈

[kstardust]

That feeling that you don't know how to name it, that's the worse of all.

[kstardust]

I can't understand myself, in a minute I'm feeling like "Oh yeah! I want to do (or try) something artistic today" but at the second after it's like "But for what? What's the point? I'm not good at anything" "What if I mess it up?" "No, that's not gonna get good" and it gets worse when someone say any comment even if it wasn't something personal, but anyway my stupid sensitive ass takes it bad and makes it personal, oh but what I do? Insolate myself 'cause that's how I manage everything. Treating myself as a shitty useless thing just because I can't say if I'm sad, angry, frustrated or everything at all. Then, at the end of all I'm sitting in bad posture, looking at the wallpaper I made with my favs artists to try feel better, writing this and wishing I was different and worthy.

Also I need to get a diagnosis and stop thinking I have ADHD, Anxiety, Depression, Mommy Issues or I'm just an INFP-T weirdo.

Exhausted of all my dumb existence.