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I was looking through old posts (what's new) and I decided that I need to post with pictures more. Specially since I have so many that I take all the time and I don't do much with them.

So, what better way to put a photo out into the world disscreetly than on tumblr. The way I see it, if someone is reading this, then they have to be fascinated by me enough to find my blog lol.

But anyway, yeah. I have so many photos and honestly, I feel vain everytime I post anything on instagram or facebook. I know I shouldn't but those apps really bring out the narcissim in people and I don't want to come off as someone who brags. Not saying that other people are doing it because of that reason! I just overthink. It's hard to see what's real and what's just for a post. I know it sounds so stupid for me to get upset by it but it's an internal argument for me everytime I decided to post something which is so stupid.

Being on my phone less is definitely a resolution of mine for 2021.

We met up with Steph and her sweet pup Kuri this past weekend! (12/12) Rupert was so stimulated with everything going on at Liberty Station. Poor pup. It's hard to stay calm and collected when he's pulling my arm off. He played so well with them though! Specially with Abby, the regular Aussie :)

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Aaahhhh. I read my last post and holy shit I made it. She's in nursing school. Haha. & a lot of what I wrote in my last post still resonates with my beliefs about changes in life and eventually getting used to the new norm through repetition.

This year has been wild. A lot of times, I want to put it into words. But in my head I usually convince myself that it isn't worth it. There's been a lot of that lately and i'm sure i'm not the only person that feels that way. Sometimes apathy is all you can feel about a situation and I think that's okay too. I'm learning that there is no mold for how anyone should feel about anything because everyone is so different. Cliche. But we are our own algorithms. There is no point in convincing people how you think they should feel. It's wasted energy.

I'm not talking about anything particular really. This is just another transformed version of my style of thinking.

I've been trying to stay off social media less. I hate that it's so consuming. I try to remember times when I would lay in bed and fall asleep without having to look through my phone. I'm usually really good at not giving into the addiction of mindless scrolling but I'm a fuckin victim!!! & it sucks. I'm really working on it. It makes me feel shitty and unproductive. Thankfully I have my sweet lover boi Rupert who is my 90lb saving grace in dog form. I'm a dog mom holy shit. I knew I would be eventually. But I really slid myself into that role and went full throttle lol! What's great about him is he'll nudge me if I'm staring at my phone for too long. Honestly I think any reasonable living being would do the same if they saw someone staring at a rectangular piece of nothing. I'm so grateful for it.

I follow so many dog pages it's a little insane. Rupert has been pushing me outside of my comfort zone which is great for my mental health. He also loves to come with me on hikes!! I suck at going downhill so we have yet to go on hikes alone that have huge inclines. But so far he's gone on maybe 10 or so in the last 3 months hehehe.

Anyway that's really all the updates. Nursing school is a lot but doable. I've only had a slight anxiety attack once and it was during my first skills assessment ever via zoom. I can usually hold my emotions down well so that was new for me. It was good though, I needed that. I haven't felt that way in a long time! Hopefully by next month i'll be in the hospital and we will see where I excel haha. I think once I get a few years under my belt in nursing, i'd move onto teaching. I think i'd be a good lab teacher! But we shall see.

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Currently listening to H.E.R via NPR. Literal goddess. Today was the last day of part 1 of my Anatomy and Physiology classes and I fuckin aced it. I'm shook. In my undergrad, I probably got an A in my science classes 2-3 times, IF that. And the thing is, I know i'm not stupid. I honestly just having a wandering mind. And I wanted to fill that ~free spirited~ vibe, even if it was subconciously. Even if it was at the cost of my grades. Anyway. I've taken a shit ton of science classes and kinda cared but not to the point where my nose was in the books 24/7. It really is mind boggling when I think about my past habits. I'd go to lecture, understand the big picture, then study the day/2 days before the exams and cram. I dunno if it's because my headspace was filled with what I thought was more important or because I wasn't as motivated to be one of those "A" students because I was so go-with-the-flow. REGARDLESS. Why the fuck was I like that?! Haha. Me getting A's on almost all my exams for A&P honestly gave me an epiphany. I really can be an A student. Hahaha. I don't know what it was about that "title" that made me feel like it was unobtainable for me. Not because I wasn't capable, but because studying wasn't worth that much of my time. I honestly studied almost every day in the past two months. And nothing drastic either. Maybe a few hours in the morning with my coffee. I don't know if it's age or drive, but perspective definitely plays a role. Literally every other aspect of my life, whether it be working out, working on a project, making a cake, whatever - I put so much of myself into it. But for some reason, I could never do that with studying. All it took was for me to understand that I actually enjoy learning. Not just for the grade. But because it genuinely fascinates me. And I think it always fascinated me. But I just needed the discipline. Having an end goal definitely helps too. Yea, my head's in a daze right now from information overload. Finally get the next few days to not worry about it and it made me fueled to learn the next subject and try even harder to get an A. Also, I've been enjoying my workouts so much more lately!! In the past I was so focused on calories and how often I worked out and how I wanted to lose more weight. But now i'm finally realizing how much I love being stronger and being able to do a variety of different things when it comes to fitness, not just because I want to look a certain way but because I genuiely love being healthy. I always loved running. But lately my sprints have been amazzzing and I love feeling my heart rate at it's maximum at the end of a 9.0mph run. I've also been heavily incorporating split muscle days, which I was slightly against in the past (because I was so into body weight hiit type shit [nothing against it, still love it]). Don't think i'll ever get into heavy lifting. Nothing against that either, but it just doesn't seem very me. I'm such an endurance person. Low/med weight and high reps, cardio for at least 30 min. I just love to get my heart rate up, that's it really.

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And to think 11 years later it happened

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I've been wanting to type out some stuff for a while now. Every time I drive home from work I tell myself I should really journal, either on tumblr or in my notebook. But then I get home and I'm either too tired or occupied by other things. There's been so many things on my mind. Nothing dramatic. But more-so just observations and epiphanies that I have through certain experiences. Maybe if I keep typing about superficial life updates I'll regain my train of thought. So I'm currently in the process of applying to nursing school. What (!!!!) Yea. It's prety wild. Every day I wonder if it's something I want to do. I got a new job at the hospital and it's a lot of patient care. I see the nurses and they all have similar personalities. They enjoy the outdoors and their time off. Nurses work 12 hour days typically three days in the week. AKA they burn out and recover. AKA the way I live almost all the time. (Trying to be better though [~balance~]). Regardless, I think it would be the ideal schedule for me and what I want to do on my days off which is go camping/backpacking/hiking more!! I've always wanted to backpack. I dunno when the idea stemmed but it's always appealed to me. I recently watched this woman on youtube who backpacked three of the major trails in America. Holy shit what a fucking inspiration. I still think about it all the time. She quit her job as an engineer and spent 6 months out backpacking. Every day encountering new terrain. How fucking exciting. I dunno sometimes the day to days of life are so blah. At first I thought, you know, you need the good to have the bad. Yin & yang. Stress then relax. But living a simple life of just exploring and walking and setting up camp. I dunno. I love camping so much already. I can only imagine what a backpacking trip will be. Ever since I went to San Jacinto in 2015, I said I'd go back and backpack. It's so funny because every time I have these moods of changing my lifsetyle, the change in theory seems scary. For example, when I quit Starbucks to do Flora. After a few months it was fine. Same with quitting Flora and starting at the hospital. I adapt then I want to move onto the next big thing. I guess it goes for a lot of things I've accomplished in my life. Little things. Running more than 6 miles. Rock climbing. Doing a head stand. Travelling alone in a foreign country. It always sounds terrifying when you plan in out. (Just like how nursing school is for me currently). But then it happens. And you're in it. Then you're used to it. And you just repeat. But I always strive for more. In the last few years I told myself that it's okay to relax and be constant for a little. But after changing some major things in my life, I realized that I really don't want to relax. I never thought I'd wanna go back to school. But the thought of learning is exciting to me now. With Nutrition, I never had a definite end goal besides a degree. Learning was more-so an obstacle rather then interesting. I mean, I always thought knowing things was interesting. But for some reason, something about the whole school-exam-professor dynamic made me super unmotivated. I'm changing that mindset though. I like knowing things and being able to level with someone else on that knowledge. It's probably an ego thing. But why wouldn't it be? Who likes knowing nothing? Besides my debt, life is pretty good. I'm excited for my weekends outdoors and being able to camp with my boyfriend. That's literally all I think about in my weeks! Another new obsession probably. But I dunnoooooo. It just makes me so happy. Hopefully the next time I update on here, I'll be talking about some new backpacking trips and how nursing school is.

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being a movie snob is the worst thing possible like im sorry you need neon lights and 3 minute silent staring contest scenes to get your balls to drop. watch legally blonde for some real art

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I’ve seen people claim that the burning of the notre dame is a hit to French colonialism and white supremacist Christian culture and I’ve also seen someone claim that it symbolizes the fall of degenerate leftist neurope culture so as it turns out you can just use it to further whatever agenda you believe. who cares. it’s true cause you said so