practice makes perfect — park jongseong (teaser !!)
synopsis: when your crush on jake sim turns into full-blown panic about your complete lack of experience, your best friend suggests the one person on campus who can help: jay park — the dangerously attractive, notoriously skilled senior with a reputation for being an incredible teacher.
what starts as innocent lessons in flirting, kissing, and confidence quickly spirals into something much hotter… and much more complicated. because the more jay teaches you how to drive jake crazy, the more you realize you only want him touching you.
pairing: jay x fem!reader (x jake)
wc: est. 31k (this is a long one i’m sorry)
cw/warnings: smut!!! light fluff and angst. more tags tba!!
a/n: as promised, here’s a little sneak peak of what's coming on the 30th 😝
the next afternoon, 4:00 p.m. arrives far too quickly.
the café near the east library is tucked away in a quieter corner of the campus, mostly populated by grad students typing furiously on laptops and the heavy smell of roasted coffee beans. you change your outfit three times before leaving the apartment, finally settling on something casual but not too casual, your hands sweating the entire walk over.
when you push the glass door open, the little bell chiming above you feels like a death threat. you look around the dimly lit space, and there he is.
jay is sitting at a small corner table near the back window, looking entirely too calm and entirely too hot for a thursday afternoon. he’s wearing a simple black sweater, the sleeves pushed up to reveal his forearms, and his dark hair is perfectly styled, just like always. he has a half-empty iced americano in front of him, his thumb casually scrolling through his phone. there’s a quiet, effortless aura of arrogance around him, but as he catches movement and looks up, his sharp features soften into a playful, lazy smirk.
“you’re exactly on time,” he says, his voice a low, smooth rumble that instantly makes your stomach do a flip. he slides the empty chair opposite him out with his foot. “sit. you look like you’re about to faint.”
you sink into the chair, gripping your tote bag tightly against your chest like a shield. “hi. thank you for coming.”
“relax, newbie. i don’t bite,” he teases, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms. he studies your burning, red face for a second before a soft chuckle escapes him. “you know, you could have just told me the whole story in the text. saved yourself some typing.”
you blink, confused. “what do you mean?”
jay leans forward, resting his elbows on the table, his dark eyes locking onto yours with a dangerous amount of amusement. “yunjin told sunghoon. sunghoon told me. so, i already know the full context.” his smirk widens, making him look devastatingly handsome. “so you want to learn how to fuck properly for jake sim? bold.”
your entire face explodes in a fierce, blinding heat. you literally feel the blood rushing to your cheeks, and for a terrifying, very long second, you consider hiding under the table or running away as fast as you can. you bury your face in your hands, your voice muffled and laced with pure mortification. “oh my god. i am going to kill yunjin. i am actually going to murder her.”
jay lets out a genuine, low laugh at your reaction, the sound rich and surprisingly warm. “don’t kill her yet. she’s just looking out for you. and honestly? it’s refreshing. most girls try a lot harder to play it cool around me.”
you slowly drop your hands, your cheeks still burning a bright pink. “i don't even know what i'm doing here. this is insane.”
“it’s only insane if you make it insane,” jay says calmly, his playful edge softening just a fraction into something a bit more business-like. he pushes a clean napkin and a pen toward you, though he keeps his eyes on your face. “let’s treat this like an introduction. an assessment. before we can fix anything, i need to know what we’re working with. list all the things you think you’re bad at. everything you're worried about. so i know what to focus on.”
you stare at the blank napkin, swallowing hard. the vulnerability of it feels immense, but you’re already here, and you’re already completely humiliated. you take a deep breath and start listing them off, your voice dropping to a quiet whisper so the barista won’t hear.
“flirting,” you start, counting on your fingers instead of writing it down. “i freeze up. and… kissing. i’ve only ever done clumsy high school kissing, nothing serious. touching… like, knowing where to put my hands without being awkward. sex, obviously, since i’ve never done it. and… just confidence in general. i overthink everything until i ruin the mood.”
jay listens quietly, his sharp eyes tracking the movement of your fingers. he doesn't laugh, and he doesn't tease you this time. he just nods slowly, absorbing the information.
“okay. that’s a solid list,” he says. then, his gaze drops to how tightly you’re still clutching your bag, your knuckles white, your shoulders tense and pulled high. his eyes lift back to yours, perceptive and sharp. “you’re terrified i’m going to try to jump you, aren’t you?”
your breath hitches. you open your mouth to deny it, but the words catch in your throat. you are skeptical about getting physical with him. the idea of practicing on jay park feels like playing with fire, and you’re fully aware you might get burned.
jay sighs softly, leaning back again, his posture completely relaxed to contrast your tension. “look at me.”
you look up, meeting his intense stare.
“yunjin told you i have a reputation, and she’s right. i’m not going to sit here and pretend i’m a saint,” jay says, his tone completely direct, peer-to-peer, without a shred of judgment. “but i don’t do anything without absolute consent. i can see you’re stressed out of your mind right now. so, let’s take the pressure off. we are not getting physical. the ‘lessons’ will be entirely theoretical. just talking, advice, breaking down how guys think, and giving you the blueprint. unless you explicitly ask to change that later down the line, we keep our hands to ourselves. deal?”
the relief that washes over you is so sudden and heavy that your shoulders visibly drop. “deal. thank you. seriously.”
“don’t thank me yet, newbie. you’re still going to have to work on that confidence,” jay says, that familiar, teasing smirk creeping back onto his face. he stands up, grabbing his iced coffee and sliding his phone into his pocket. “we’re done for today. meet me at my dorm tomorrow afternoon. third floor of the west quad, room 314. we’ll start the actual work then.”
he gives you one last, lingering look — a mix of amusement and something else you can’t quite read — before turning and walking out of the café, leaving you alone at the table with a racing heart and the sudden realization that you’re actually going through with this.
Summary: What began as curiosity turns into something far darker when you catch the attention of someone who will do anything for you.
Warnings: dark themes, obsession, possessiveness, manipulation, unhealthy relationships, emotional dependency, and possible violence.
The café always smelled like burnt espresso and vanilla syrup.
You used to think the scent would cling to you forever. Even after long showers, even after classes, even after crawling into bed at two in the morning with unfinished assignments and aching feet. It settled into your skin like exhaustion itself.
The shop sat on the corner of a busy street just off campus. Small. Warm. Usually crowded enough to keep the lights on but not crowded enough to pay you properly.
Still, it was yours.
Well. Not yours.
But familiar.
The old espresso machine hissed constantly. The owner argued with suppliers in the back every Tuesday morning. The regulars ordered the same things every day with frightening consistency. You knew who tipped and who didn’t. Who smiled politely and who treated you like another appliance behind the counter.
And lately, there was him.
You notice him the second he walks in.
Not because he’s attractive.
Though he is.
Painfully so.
No, what catches your attention is how wrong he looks in the café.
The place is full of students with wrinkled hoodies and tired eyes. People tapping away on old laptops. Friends splitting pastries because everything around campus costs too much.
Then there’s him.
Dark coat.
Pressed slacks.
Silver watch glinting beneath the low café lights.
He looks like he belongs in the kind of place where water costs twenty dollars and reservations require last names people recognize.
Not here.
Your coworker notices too.
“Jesus,” Maya mutters beside you. “Either he’s rich or he kills people for fun.”
You snort quietly.
The man’s gaze lifts.
Straight toward you.
Your smile disappears immediately.
There’s something unsettling about eye contact that direct. Like he already knows you somehow.
“Good afternoon,” you say automatically once he reaches the register. “What can I get started for you?”
Up close, he’s even worse.
Pretty in a cold sort of way.
Sharp features. Calm eyes. The kind of face that belongs in old paintings depicting men who poison their wives.
His eyes flick briefly to your name tag.
Then back to your face.
“A black coffee.”
His voice is smooth. Controlled.
Expensive sounding, somehow.
You type the order in.
“That’ll be four seventy five.”
He hands you a card without looking away from you once.
It should make you uncomfortable.
Instead, heat creeps up your neck.
You hate that.
“Name for the order?”
“Titus.”
Of course it is.
You almost laugh.
Instead, you nod politely and move toward the espresso machine.
You can feel his eyes on you the entire time.
It gets under your skin.
Not in a frightening way.
Not yet.
Just enough to make your movements clumsy.
You nearly knock over the cup while pouring his coffee.
“Careful.”
The voice comes from directly beside you.
You jolt.
“When did you get over here?”
“You looked like you were about to burn yourself.”
He says it calmly. Like it’s reasonable for him to suddenly appear behind the counter line.
You stare at him.
Most customers respected boundaries. There was an unspoken rule about space in places like this.
Titus Danforth looked like he’d never followed rules a day in his life.
You hand him the coffee carefully.
“Well,” you say lightly, “thank you for your heroic intervention.”
For the first time since walking in, something changes in his expression.
Amusement.
Small.
Brief.
But real.
“You’re welcome.”
Then his gaze drops.
Your hand.
You follow his line of sight.
A burn mark stretches faintly across your wrist. Old enough to have healed badly.
“Occupational hazard,” you joke before he can ask.
His eyes linger there a second too long.
“What happened?”
“The espresso machine attacked me.”
“You should sue.”
You laugh before you can stop yourself.
It surprises both of you.
Because his expression shifts again.
Not amused this time.
Intent.
Like he’s memorizing the sound.
You clear your throat awkwardly.
“Well. Enjoy your coffee.”
He doesn’t move.
“You’re studying nearby?”
Your eyes narrow slightly.
“How do you know I’m a student?”
“You’re exhausted.”
The answer comes immediately.
Matter of fact.
“You have ink on your fingers. You keep checking the clock every few minutes which means you’re worried about being late for something. Probably class.”
Your mouth parts slightly.
Titus tilts his head.
“Was I wrong?”
“No,” you admit slowly. “Just mildly terrified.”
That almost smile appears again.
“You work too much.”
“You sound like my mother.”
“She’s probably correct.”
You roll your eyes.
“And you know this after knowing me for approximately three minutes?”
“Yes.”
Something about the confidence in his voice sends warmth curling strangely through your stomach.
Which is ridiculous.
You know absolutely nothing about this man.
Except that he’s observant to a concerning degree.
Maya suddenly appears beside you.
“Can you grab more cups from storage?”
You nod quickly, grateful for the interruption.
“Yeah. One second.”
When you look back, Titus is still standing there.
Watching you.
Not casually.
Not flirtatiously.
Watching.
Like you’re something fascinating he accidentally stumbled across.
Something he wants to take apart slowly just to see how it works.
The thought sends a chill down your spine.
And somehow doesn’t make you want to leave.
“Have a nice day, Titus.”
“You too.”
But he says it strangely.
Softly.
Like he already plans on seeing you again.
And he does.
The next day, he returns.
Then the day after that.
Then the one after that too.
🦋
By the second week, your coworkers start making fun of you.
“Your boyfriend’s here.”
Maya says it the moment the café door opens.
You don’t even look up from the espresso machine.
“He’s not my boyfriend.”
“Mmhm.”
“He’s literally just a customer.”
“A customer who comes here every single day at exactly four thirty and stares at you like a Victorian husband hiding his sick wife in the attic.”
You choke on your own laugh.
“Oh my God.”
“What?” Maya grins. “Tell me I’m wrong.”
You don’t.
Because she isn’t.
Not entirely.
Titus Danforth had become a constant presence in your life so gradually you barely noticed it happening.
At first, it was coffee.
Then conversations.
Then him lingering near closing time while you wiped tables and counted tips.
Somehow, without asking, he learned your schedule.
Your major.
Your favorite pastry from the bakery two streets down.
The fact you hated cinnamon in coffee but liked it in desserts.
You never remembered telling him half these things.
And yet he knew.
“You look tired.”
You glance up as Titus approaches the counter.
“You say that every time you see me.”
“Because every time I see you, you look tired.”
He’s dressed differently today.
Dark sweater.
Sleeves rolled slightly past his wrists.
Your stomach does something deeply embarrassing at the sight.
You busy yourself cleaning the counter.
“Maybe I’m just naturally exhausted.”
“That’s concerning.”
“College builds character.”
“College exploits sleep deprivation.”
“That too.”
His eyes soften slightly.
“You should quit this job.”
You blink.
“Excuse me?”
“The café.”
You laugh lightly.
“Right. And survive on what exactly?”
“I could help.”
The words come easily from him.
Too easily.
Your smile falters.
Titus notices immediately.
Something unreadable flickers behind his eyes.
“You dislike the idea.”
“No,” you say carefully. “I just barely know you.”
“And yet you trust me enough to laugh around me.”
“That is not the same thing.”
“No,” he agrees quietly. “It isn’t.”
The air between you shifts strangely.
Too heavy all of a sudden.
You clear your throat.
“Well. Your usual?”
“Yes.”
You make his coffee while trying not to think about how easily he offered financial help.
Most people would call that generous.
Something about it unsettled you instead.
Not because it sounded manipulative.
Because it sounded sincere.
Titus waits near the counter while you finish the drink.
“You have a break soon?”
You glance at the clock.
“In ten minutes.”
“Come outside with me.”
Your eyebrows lift.
“That sounded vaguely threatening.”
His mouth twitches.
“I’ll work on my phrasing.”
You should say no.
You know you should.
Everything about Titus feels slightly dangerous in ways you can’t explain properly.
Not outwardly dangerous.
He’s never been cruel to you.
Never raised his voice.
Never touched you without permission.
But there’s an intensity to him that feels consuming.
Like once he decides something belongs to him, he never lets go.
The frightening part is how much you like being looked at that way.
“You’re staring again,” he says softly.
Heat crawls into your face.
“You noticed?”
“I notice everything about you.”
Your heartbeat stumbles.
There it is again.
That feeling.
Like every conversation with him is balancing carefully on the edge of something bigger.
Something neither of you are naming yet.
Maya suddenly appears behind you again.
“You are absolutely sleeping with him.”
“Oh my God,” you hiss.
Titus looks entirely unbothered.
Actually, he looks pleased.
Which only makes it worse.
“I hate both of you.”
“No you don’t,” Maya says immediately.
Unfortunately, she’s right.
Ten minutes later, you find yourself outside beside Titus anyway.
The evening air is cool against your skin.
The city glows around you in blurry gold lights and passing cars.
Titus stands beside you holding two cups.
“You already bought coffee.”
“This one is for you.”
You stare.
“You left and came back?”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
His gaze settles on you.
Steady.
Simple.
“Because you looked like you needed something warm.”
Your chest aches unexpectedly.
Nobody really took care of you.
Not here.
Not in the city.
Your parents tried from miles away, calling constantly to remind you to eat properly and sleep more, but concern over the phone wasn’t the same as someone noticing things in real time.
Titus notices everything.
“You do this often?” you ask quietly.
“What?”
“Act weirdly thoughtful.”
A soft laugh escapes him.
You freeze slightly.
You’ve never heard him laugh before.
Not really.
It changes his entire face.
“You think I’m thoughtful?”
“I think you’re strange.”
“Ah.”
“But,” you admit slowly, “not in a bad way.”
His eyes darken slightly at that.
Like the words meant more to him than they should have.
A comfortable silence settles between you afterward.
Cars pass.
People move around you.
The café behind you buzzes with noise.
And somehow, standing beside Titus feels separate from all of it.
Like the world narrows strangely whenever he’s near.
“You should have dinner with me.”
The question catches you off guard.
You blink up at him.
“That sounded less like a question and more like a royal decree.”
“Would you prefer I beg?”
You grin despite yourself.
“That depends. Would it be entertaining?”
“For you, maybe.”
There’s something dangerous about how easily he says things like that.
Like he genuinely would.
Your friends would tell you to run.
Normal men did not become this attached this quickly.
Normal men did not look at you like they’d discovered religion.
But you were tired.
Lonely.
Overworked.
And Titus made you feel seen in a way nobody else ever had.
That kind of attention becomes addictive frighteningly fast.
“Okay,” you hear yourself say softly.
His expression stills completely.
Like he wasn’t expecting you to agree.
“Okay?” he repeats.
“Dinner.”
For the first time since meeting him, Titus looks genuinely caught off guard.
Then slowly, very slowly, he smiles.
And suddenly you understand how people ruin their lives for love.
🦋
Your mother doesn’t like Titus.
She tries to hide it.
Really, she does.
But mothers notice things daughters don’t.
And from the moment Titus steps out of the car in your hometown, your mother’s smile becomes strained around the edges.
Your father is worse.
He shakes Titus’s hand once and immediately looks like he regrets it.
“This is my dad,” you say nervously.
Titus smiles politely.
“Sir.”
Your father’s eyes narrow almost imperceptibly.
You notice.
Titus notices more.
The entire drive there had felt surreal.
Titus looked absurdly out of place in your hometown.
The roads were smaller here.
Quieter.
Your family’s house sat near the edge of town with a little garden your mother insisted on maintaining herself despite constantly complaining about it.
Nothing about this place matched Titus Danforth.
He belonged to polished marble floors and private events and expensive wine you still didn’t know how to pronounce properly.
Not here.
And yet he followed you inside like he belonged wherever you were.
Dinner starts pleasantly enough.
Your mother asks polite questions.
Your father barely speaks.
Titus remains calm through all of it.
Charming, even.
Painfully charming.
He compliments the food.
Offers to help clean.
Listens attentively whenever you speak.
Your younger cousin practically adores him within twenty minutes.
Objectively, he’s perfect.
Which somehow makes your parents trust him even less.
You don’t understand it.
“You work in finance?” your father asks eventually.
Something unreadable flickers across Titus’s face.
“In a manner of speaking.”
It’s such a strange answer your father goes quiet afterward.
Under the table, Titus’s hand settles gently against your knee.
Warm.
Possessive.
Your breath catches slightly.
Nobody notices except your mother.
Her expression tightens immediately.
You feel suddenly embarrassed.
Like you’ve done something wrong.
After dinner, you help your mother wash dishes while Titus steps outside with your father.
You smile faintly to yourself.
Maybe this is good.
Maybe they’re finally talking properly.
“You like him.”
Your mother says it quietly while rinsing plates.
You blink.
“Obviously.”
“No,” she says softly. “I mean really like him.”
Heat rises to your face.
You stare down at the sink.
“I do.”
Silence.
Then quietly:
“He scares me.”
Your head lifts immediately.
“What?”
Your mother dries her hands slowly.
“There’s something wrong with that man.”
The words hit you harder than they should.
“What are you talking about?”
“I don’t know.” Frustration creeps into her voice. “That’s the problem.”
You shake your head immediately.
“Mom, he’s been nothing but good to me.”
“That doesn’t mean he’s good.”
“He loves me.”
The moment the words leave your mouth, your mother’s face changes.
Not anger.
Sadness.
Which somehow hurts worse.
“Oh sweetheart,” she whispers.
Defensiveness flares hot in your chest.
“You don’t know him.”
“And you do?”
“Yes.”
Your mother looks unconvinced.
“You’ve only known him a few months.”
“That doesn’t matter.”
“It does when a man starts orbiting your entire life that quickly.”
You slam the sponge down harder than intended.
“He cares about me.”
“Obsession and care are not always the same thing.”
The kitchen goes silent.
You hate the way the words linger.
Because some small ugly part of you understands what she means.
Titus could be intense.
Overwhelmingly so sometimes.
There were moments his attention felt less romantic and more consuming.
But he never hurt you.
Never.
“You’re overreacting.”
Your mother sighs softly.
“Maybe.”
But she doesn’t sound convinced.
And then quietly:
“Your father thinks so too.”
Something cold settles in your stomach.
“You talked about this already?”
“We worry about you.”
“He makes me happy.”
“That man looks at you like he’d kill for you.”
You laugh nervously.
“That’s dramatic.”
“No,” your mother says softly. “It isn’t.”
The back door creaks open.
You jump slightly.
Titus steps inside.
Your mother immediately goes quiet.
Your stomach drops.
How much did he hear?
His expression is perfectly calm.
Perfectly normal.
Which somehow makes you more nervous.
Your mother excuses herself quietly moments later, leaving you alone with him in the kitchen.
Titus walks toward you slowly.
“You alright?”
His voice is gentle.
You nod too quickly.
“Yeah. Why?”
“You seem upset.”
You force a smile.
“Just family stuff.”
His gaze studies your face carefully.
Too carefully.
“You can tell me if someone said something that hurt you.”
There’s no anger in his voice.
No suspicion.
But suddenly, instinct screams at you not to tell him.
You don’t know why.
You just know.
So you smile again.
Smaller this time.
“It’s nothing.”
Silence.
Then Titus lifts a hand slowly, brushing his thumb gently beneath your eye.
Only then do you realize your eyes had become watery.
His expression changes immediately.
Cold.
Not toward you.
Toward whoever caused it.
Your heartbeat quickens.
“Titus,” you say softly, “it’s really okay.”
His eyes meet yours again.
And instantly the coldness disappears.
Like it was never there at all.
“Of course it is.”
He kisses your forehead gently.
Tenderly.
But while his arms settle around you, his gaze drifts past your shoulder.
Toward the hallway where your mother disappeared.
And for the first time since meeting him, fear crawls quietly down your spine.
🦋
The girls trip was Titus’s idea.
You almost said no at first.
Not because you didn’t want to go.
Because life had become too expensive to justify things like vacations.
But Titus only looked at you with that calm, unwavering expression of his and said:
“You’ve been exhausted for months.”
“I’m fine.”
“You cried over an assignment three nights ago.”
You stared at him.
“How do you even know that?”
“I know everything about you.”
The words should not make your heart race the way they do.
“You don’t have to pay for a whole trip,” you argue weakly.
“I want to.”
“Titus.”
“You deserve nice things.”
It’s impossible to fight with him when he speaks like that.
Softly.
Like giving you the world is the most natural thing imaginable.
So eventually, you agreed.
Now you sit in a beachside villa three cities away with your friends screaming somewhere near the water while you scroll through pictures on your phone.
Your mother sent you a photo of the garden that morning.
Your father stood awkwardly in the background holding vegetables like he’d been forced into the picture against his will.
You smile faintly.
Then your phone buzzes.
Titus.
You answer immediately.
“Hi.”
His voice softens instantly hearing yours.
“Hello, darling.”
Warmth blooms in your chest.
You move toward the balcony quietly while your friends continue laughing inside.
“How’s the trip?”
“Good,” you say. “Chaotic. Bea almost drowned trying to flirt with a surfer.”
A quiet chuckle hums through the line.
“I miss you.”
The confession comes easily from him.
Immediate.
Unashamed.
Your cheeks warm.
“It’s been two days.”
“And?”
You laugh softly.
“You’re clingy.”
“Yes.”
The honesty catches you off guard enough to laugh again.
God.
You love him.
The realization still startles you sometimes.
You love him so much it physically aches.
“How’s home?” you ask.
“Quiet.”
Something about his tone feels strange.
Not wrong.
Just distant.
You frown slightly.
“Titus?”
“I’m listening.”
“Are you working?”
“No.”
“You sound distracted.”
A pause.
Then softer:
“I’m thinking about you.”
Your stomach flutters embarrassingly fast.
“You’re impossible.”
“And you adore me.”
Unfortunately true.
You lean against the balcony railing.
The ocean stretches endlessly before you.
For a moment, everything feels peaceful.
Safe.
“I wish you were here.”
Silence.
Then:
“Soon.”
Something cold slips briefly through your chest.
Not because of the word itself.
Because of the way he says it.
Certain.
Like a promise.
Before you can think too hard about it, shouting erupts inside the villa.
“COME TAKE PICTURES WITH US!”
You laugh immediately.
“I have to go.”
“Alright.”
But Titus doesn’t hang up.
You smile.
“Titus.”
“Yes?”
“You have to let go eventually.”
“No,” he says softly.
The answer sends heat rushing through your chest.
And something else too.
Something uneasy.
You brush it aside.
“I’ll call you later.”
“I’ll answer.”
“You better.”
“I always will for you.”
You grin helplessly before ending the call.
Thousands of miles away, Titus lowers his phone slowly.
Your childhood home is silent around him.
Blood stains the cuffs of his sleeves.
He looks down at them with mild annoyance.
One of your family members had fought harder than expected.
Not enough to matter.
But enough to make a mess.
The living room of your childhood home looks almost unrecognizable now.
Furniture overturned.
Drawers ripped open.
Broken glass scattered across the floor.
A convincing robbery scene.
Titus walks calmly through the destruction.
Your mother lies near the hallway.
Your father near the kitchen.
The sight should feel monstrous.
Instead, Titus only feels irritated.
Because your mother made you cry.
Because your father looked at you like Titus was something rotten.
Because they dared to plant fear inside your head.
Inside yours.
His jaw tightens slightly.
They should have been grateful someone loved you properly.
The sound of movement draws his attention.
Your younger cousin.
Still breathing.
The boy stares at Titus with wide horrified eyes.
Titus crouches calmly before him.
“You should have stayed upstairs.”
The boy trembles violently.
“Please.”
Titus tilts his head slightly.
For a brief second, he almost feels pity.
Almost.
Then he remembers the look on your face in that kitchen.
The tears in your eyes.
The fear.
Someone caused you distress.
That alone sealed their fate.
“I do love her,” Titus says quietly.
The boy sobs harder.
“And I protect what belongs to me.”
Hours later, you’re laughing on the beach when your phone rings again.
Unknown number.
You answer absently.
“Hello?”
The voice on the other end sounds shaky.
Panicked.
Your smile fades immediately.
Confusion.
Then horror.
Then nothing.
The world disappears beneath your feet so quickly you almost collapse.
Your friend catches your arm.
“What happened?”
You can’t breathe.
The phone slips from your hand.
Someone is speaking.
Crying.
Screaming maybe.
You don’t know.
All you know is one sentence repeating violently inside your head.
Your family is dead.
Your family is dead.
Your family is dead.
You don’t even remember booking the flight home.
You don’t remember the airport.
The drive.
The funeral arrangements.
Everything blurs into unbearable noise.
But through all of it, Titus remains beside you.
Holding your hand.
Holding you upright.
Holding you together.
And every night afterward, you crawl into his arms shaking while grief tears you apart from the inside.
Titus only pulls you closer.
His hand smoothing gently through your hair.
His lips against your forehead.
His voice soft in the darkness.
“I’m here.”
Always.
Always.
Always.
🦋
The wedding is beautiful.
Painfully beautiful.
White roses line the cathedral aisle in delicate arrangements so expensive you’re scared to think about their cost. Candlelight flickers softly against polished marble floors while string music echoes through the enormous hall.
Everything feels unreal.
Like something out of a dream.
You stand at the altar facing Titus Danforth while guests watch in reverent silence.
He looks devastating.
Dark suit tailored perfectly against broad shoulders. Calm eyes fixed entirely on you with an intensity that still steals the air from your lungs even after all these years.
Your fiancé.
Soon to be your husband.
The man who held you together when your entire world collapsed.
The man who stayed.
Always stayed.
“You look frightened,” Titus murmurs quietly once the officiant pauses briefly.
You let out a nervous laugh.
“I’m getting married in front of hundreds of rich strangers. Obviously I’m frightened.”
His expression softens immediately.
“You look beautiful.”
Heat rises to your face despite everything.
Even now, Titus can still do that to you.
Reduce you into something embarrassingly soft with only a few quiet words.
The ceremony continues around you in a blur.
Vows.
Rings.
Applause.
Then Titus lifts your veil gently.
His thumb brushes softly against your cheek before he kisses you.
Slow.
Possessive.
Certain.
The guests erupt into applause again.
And for one dangerous moment, you allow yourself to believe this is happiness.
Real happiness.
The reception is even grander.
Crystal chandeliers.
Endless champagne.
People in expensive black clothing speaking in carefully measured voices.
Everyone treats Titus differently here.
Not just respectfully.
Reverently.
You notice it immediately.
Older members of the Danforth family touch his shoulder when passing him. Men twice his age lower their voices around him. Conversations stop the moment he enters certain rooms.
It unsettles you more than you admit aloud.
“You’re overthinking again.”
Titus appears beside you effortlessly, placing a fresh glass into your hand.
“I’m observing.”
“You’re hiding in corners.”
“I don’t know anybody here.”
“You know me.”
The answer comes so simply it twists something painfully in your chest.
Titus notices immediately.
He always notices.
His hand settles against your lower back gently.
Grounding.
Possessive.
Home.
“You alright?”
You nod.
“Just overwhelmed.”
“That’s understandable.”
🦋
You realize something is wrong with the Danforth family three days after your wedding.
Not wrong in the ordinary rich family sense.
Not cold parents and hidden affairs and money laundering wrong.
Something deeper.
Rotten.
Ancient.
The Danforth estate itself feels different after the ceremony.
Before, it had only seemed intimidating.
Now it feels alive.
Too quiet during the day.
Too awake at night.
Portraits lining the walls like silent witnesses.
Family members speaking in half sentences around you before abruptly stopping whenever you enter the room.
At first, you tell yourself you’re paranoid.
Grief changes people.
Trauma changes people.
Maybe losing your family rewired something inside your brain permanently.
Maybe that’s why every shadow in this house suddenly feels threatening.
“Titus.”
He looks up from his book immediately.
Always immediately.
“Yes, darling?”
You hesitate in the doorway of your shared bedroom.
The room still doesn’t feel fully yours yet.
Nothing here does.
“Your sister was staring at me.”
Titus’s expression barely changes.
“She stares at everyone.”
“No,” you say quietly. “Not like that.”
Something unreadable flickers behind his eyes.
Then he closes the book slowly.
“Come here.”
You obey without thinking.
That realization unsettles you more than it should.
Titus pulls you gently between his legs once you reach him, hands settling automatically against your waist.
Comforting.
Possessive.
“You’re overwhelmed,” he murmurs.
Maybe you are.
The past few years feel like a blur now.
Finishing college.
Planning a wedding.
Learning how to exist without your family.
Sometimes the grief still ambushes you unexpectedly.
A smell.
A song.
A memory.
And suddenly you’re crying in Titus’s arms all over again while he whispers soft reassurances against your hair.
He became your entire life so gradually you barely noticed it happening.
After the murders, there had been no one else.
No parents to call.
No hometown to return to.
Just Titus.
Only Titus.
The thought should comfort you.
Instead, lately, it suffocates you.
“You trust me, don’t you?”
The question breaks through your thoughts.
You blink down at him.
“Of course I do.”
Titus studies your face carefully.
Like he’s searching for cracks.
“You sound uncertain.”
“I’m tired.”
“You’ve been tired for weeks.”
You almost laugh.
“That sounds familiar.”
His thumb brushes slowly against your hip.
“There are things about my family you need to understand.”
Your stomach tightens immediately.
“There it is,” you whisper.
His brows pull together slightly.
“There what is?”
“That thing everyone keeps doing.”
“What thing?”
“Acting like I’m being introduced into some kind of cult.”
Silence.
Titus doesn’t laugh.
Doesn’t deny it immediately either.
Coldness creeps slowly down your spine.
“Titus.”
His gaze softens instantly hearing the fear in your voice.
“You’re safe.”
“That is not an answer.”
He exhales quietly.
Then stands.
Your heart pounds harder as he walks toward the bedroom door.
Locks it.
The sound echoes too loudly.
“Titus.”
“You’re frightened.”
“Yes,” you admit.
The honesty hangs heavily between you.
For a moment, he simply watches you.
And suddenly you remember the first time you met him.
The intensity of his stare.
The strange feeling of being chosen.
Claimed.
You had mistaken obsession for devotion because nobody had ever loved you that completely before.
“You know my family is powerful.”
You nod slowly.
“But not entirely how.”
Something terrible curls instinctively in your stomach.
Titus approaches you again carefully.
Like you’re something delicate.
Something he genuinely does not want to damage.
Which somehow makes this worse.
“You’re frightening me.”
That finally makes something crack across his face.
Pain.
Real pain.
“I never wanted you afraid of me.”
The sincerity in his voice nearly destroys you.
Because you know he means it.
Whatever Titus is, whatever darkness exists beneath his skin, his love for you is horrifyingly real.
And maybe that’s the worst part.
“Then tell me the truth.”
“You know my family is… unconventional.”
You laugh weakly.
“That is an incredibly polite way to describe whatever the hell goes on downstairs during those dinners.”
His gaze flicks toward you.
“You’ve noticed.”
“Your uncle literally kissed a ring tonight.”
“That’s tradition.”
“You cannot say things like that calmly.”
A faint trace of amusement touches his expression before fading again.
“Titus,” you say more softly now, “what are you trying to tell me?”
He turns toward you fully then.
The warmth in his eyes almost distracts you from the tension underneath it.
“My family follows beliefs that most people would misunderstand.”
Coldness slips quietly into your stomach.
“Religious beliefs?”
“In a sense.”
You stare at him flatly.
“I’m going to need you to stop answering questions like a haunted Victorian man.”
That earns a quiet laugh.
Brief.
Then gone again.
“My family believes in devotion,” he says carefully. “Legacy. Sacrifice. Power.”
The last word lingers strangely.
“And?”
“And after marrying me, you became part of that.”
The room suddenly feels colder.
You pull the blanket tighter around yourself unconsciously.
Your heartbeat stumbles.
“Oh my God.”
Titus closes his eyes briefly.
“Titus.”
“It sounds worse than it is.”
“You are in a cult.”
“No.”
“You hesitated.”
“Because cult is an emotionally loaded word.”
You stare at your husband in disbelief.
“That is the sentence of a guilty man.”
His hand reaches for yours carefully.
You let him take it.
Even now.
Even while your pulse pounds unevenly beneath your skin.
“My family’s beliefs are old,” he says quietly. “Older than most institutions people blindly trust every day.”
“What kind of beliefs?”
His thumb brushes slowly across your knuckles.
“We believe devotion is sacred.”
Your chest tightens slightly at the way he says it.
Summary: What began as curiosity turns into something far darker when you catch the attention of someone who will do anything for you.
Warnings: dark themes, obsession, possessiveness, manipulation, unhealthy relationships, emotional dependency, and possible violence.
The café always smelled like burnt espresso and vanilla syrup.
You used to think the scent would cling to you forever. Even after long showers, even after classes, even after crawling into bed at two in the morning with unfinished assignments and aching feet. It settled into your skin like exhaustion itself.
The shop sat on the corner of a busy street just off campus. Small. Warm. Usually crowded enough to keep the lights on but not crowded enough to pay you properly.
Still, it was yours.
Well. Not yours.
But familiar.
The old espresso machine hissed constantly. The owner argued with suppliers in the back every Tuesday morning. The regulars ordered the same things every day with frightening consistency. You knew who tipped and who didn’t. Who smiled politely and who treated you like another appliance behind the counter.
And lately, there was him.
You notice him the second he walks in.
Not because he’s attractive.
Though he is.
Painfully so.
No, what catches your attention is how wrong he looks in the café.
The place is full of students with wrinkled hoodies and tired eyes. People tapping away on old laptops. Friends splitting pastries because everything around campus costs too much.
Then there’s him.
Dark coat.
Pressed slacks.
Silver watch glinting beneath the low café lights.
He looks like he belongs in the kind of place where water costs twenty dollars and reservations require last names people recognize.
Not here.
Your coworker notices too.
“Jesus,” Maya mutters beside you. “Either he’s rich or he kills people for fun.”
You snort quietly.
The man’s gaze lifts.
Straight toward you.
Your smile disappears immediately.
There’s something unsettling about eye contact that direct. Like he already knows you somehow.
“Good afternoon,” you say automatically once he reaches the register. “What can I get started for you?”
Up close, he’s even worse.
Pretty in a cold sort of way.
Sharp features. Calm eyes. The kind of face that belongs in old paintings depicting men who poison their wives.
His eyes flick briefly to your name tag.
Then back to your face.
“A black coffee.”
His voice is smooth. Controlled.
Expensive sounding, somehow.
You type the order in.
“That’ll be four seventy five.”
He hands you a card without looking away from you once.
It should make you uncomfortable.
Instead, heat creeps up your neck.
You hate that.
“Name for the order?”
“Titus.”
Of course it is.
You almost laugh.
Instead, you nod politely and move toward the espresso machine.
You can feel his eyes on you the entire time.
It gets under your skin.
Not in a frightening way.
Not yet.
Just enough to make your movements clumsy.
You nearly knock over the cup while pouring his coffee.
“Careful.”
The voice comes from directly beside you.
You jolt.
“When did you get over here?”
“You looked like you were about to burn yourself.”
He says it calmly. Like it’s reasonable for him to suddenly appear behind the counter line.
You stare at him.
Most customers respected boundaries. There was an unspoken rule about space in places like this.
Titus Danforth looked like he’d never followed rules a day in his life.
You hand him the coffee carefully.
“Well,” you say lightly, “thank you for your heroic intervention.”
For the first time since walking in, something changes in his expression.
Amusement.
Small.
Brief.
But real.
“You’re welcome.”
Then his gaze drops.
Your hand.
You follow his line of sight.
A burn mark stretches faintly across your wrist. Old enough to have healed badly.
“Occupational hazard,” you joke before he can ask.
His eyes linger there a second too long.
“What happened?”
“The espresso machine attacked me.”
“You should sue.”
You laugh before you can stop yourself.
It surprises both of you.
Because his expression shifts again.
Not amused this time.
Intent.
Like he’s memorizing the sound.
You clear your throat awkwardly.
“Well. Enjoy your coffee.”
He doesn’t move.
“You’re studying nearby?”
Your eyes narrow slightly.
“How do you know I’m a student?”
“You’re exhausted.”
The answer comes immediately.
Matter of fact.
“You have ink on your fingers. You keep checking the clock every few minutes which means you’re worried about being late for something. Probably class.”
Your mouth parts slightly.
Titus tilts his head.
“Was I wrong?”
“No,” you admit slowly. “Just mildly terrified.”
That almost smile appears again.
“You work too much.”
“You sound like my mother.”
“She’s probably correct.”
You roll your eyes.
“And you know this after knowing me for approximately three minutes?”
“Yes.”
Something about the confidence in his voice sends warmth curling strangely through your stomach.
Which is ridiculous.
You know absolutely nothing about this man.
Except that he’s observant to a concerning degree.
Maya suddenly appears beside you.
“Can you grab more cups from storage?”
You nod quickly, grateful for the interruption.
“Yeah. One second.”
When you look back, Titus is still standing there.
Watching you.
Not casually.
Not flirtatiously.
Watching.
Like you’re something fascinating he accidentally stumbled across.
Something he wants to take apart slowly just to see how it works.
The thought sends a chill down your spine.
And somehow doesn’t make you want to leave.
“Have a nice day, Titus.”
“You too.”
But he says it strangely.
Softly.
Like he already plans on seeing you again.
And he does.
The next day, he returns.
Then the day after that.
Then the one after that too.
🦋
By the second week, your coworkers start making fun of you.
“Your boyfriend’s here.”
Maya says it the moment the café door opens.
You don’t even look up from the espresso machine.
“He’s not my boyfriend.”
“Mmhm.”
“He’s literally just a customer.”
“A customer who comes here every single day at exactly four thirty and stares at you like a Victorian husband hiding his sick wife in the attic.”
You choke on your own laugh.
“Oh my God.”
“What?” Maya grins. “Tell me I’m wrong.”
You don’t.
Because she isn’t.
Not entirely.
Titus Danforth had become a constant presence in your life so gradually you barely noticed it happening.
At first, it was coffee.
Then conversations.
Then him lingering near closing time while you wiped tables and counted tips.
Somehow, without asking, he learned your schedule.
Your major.
Your favorite pastry from the bakery two streets down.
The fact you hated cinnamon in coffee but liked it in desserts.
You never remembered telling him half these things.
And yet he knew.
“You look tired.”
You glance up as Titus approaches the counter.
“You say that every time you see me.”
“Because every time I see you, you look tired.”
He’s dressed differently today.
Dark sweater.
Sleeves rolled slightly past his wrists.
Your stomach does something deeply embarrassing at the sight.
You busy yourself cleaning the counter.
“Maybe I’m just naturally exhausted.”
“That’s concerning.”
“College builds character.”
“College exploits sleep deprivation.”
“That too.”
His eyes soften slightly.
“You should quit this job.”
You blink.
“Excuse me?”
“The café.”
You laugh lightly.
“Right. And survive on what exactly?”
“I could help.”
The words come easily from him.
Too easily.
Your smile falters.
Titus notices immediately.
Something unreadable flickers behind his eyes.
“You dislike the idea.”
“No,” you say carefully. “I just barely know you.”
“And yet you trust me enough to laugh around me.”
“That is not the same thing.”
“No,” he agrees quietly. “It isn’t.”
The air between you shifts strangely.
Too heavy all of a sudden.
You clear your throat.
“Well. Your usual?”
“Yes.”
You make his coffee while trying not to think about how easily he offered financial help.
Most people would call that generous.
Something about it unsettled you instead.
Not because it sounded manipulative.
Because it sounded sincere.
Titus waits near the counter while you finish the drink.
“You have a break soon?”
You glance at the clock.
“In ten minutes.”
“Come outside with me.”
Your eyebrows lift.
“That sounded vaguely threatening.”
His mouth twitches.
“I’ll work on my phrasing.”
You should say no.
You know you should.
Everything about Titus feels slightly dangerous in ways you can’t explain properly.
Not outwardly dangerous.
He’s never been cruel to you.
Never raised his voice.
Never touched you without permission.
But there’s an intensity to him that feels consuming.
Like once he decides something belongs to him, he never lets go.
The frightening part is how much you like being looked at that way.
“You’re staring again,” he says softly.
Heat crawls into your face.
“You noticed?”
“I notice everything about you.”
Your heartbeat stumbles.
There it is again.
That feeling.
Like every conversation with him is balancing carefully on the edge of something bigger.
Something neither of you are naming yet.
Maya suddenly appears behind you again.
“You are absolutely sleeping with him.”
“Oh my God,” you hiss.
Titus looks entirely unbothered.
Actually, he looks pleased.
Which only makes it worse.
“I hate both of you.”
“No you don’t,” Maya says immediately.
Unfortunately, she’s right.
Ten minutes later, you find yourself outside beside Titus anyway.
The evening air is cool against your skin.
The city glows around you in blurry gold lights and passing cars.
Titus stands beside you holding two cups.
“You already bought coffee.”
“This one is for you.”
You stare.
“You left and came back?”
“Yes.”
“Why?”
His gaze settles on you.
Steady.
Simple.
“Because you looked like you needed something warm.”
Your chest aches unexpectedly.
Nobody really took care of you.
Not here.
Not in the city.
Your parents tried from miles away, calling constantly to remind you to eat properly and sleep more, but concern over the phone wasn’t the same as someone noticing things in real time.
Titus notices everything.
“You do this often?” you ask quietly.
“What?”
“Act weirdly thoughtful.”
A soft laugh escapes him.
You freeze slightly.
You’ve never heard him laugh before.
Not really.
It changes his entire face.
“You think I’m thoughtful?”
“I think you’re strange.”
“Ah.”
“But,” you admit slowly, “not in a bad way.”
His eyes darken slightly at that.
Like the words meant more to him than they should have.
A comfortable silence settles between you afterward.
Cars pass.
People move around you.
The café behind you buzzes with noise.
And somehow, standing beside Titus feels separate from all of it.
Like the world narrows strangely whenever he’s near.
“You should have dinner with me.”
The question catches you off guard.
You blink up at him.
“That sounded less like a question and more like a royal decree.”
“Would you prefer I beg?”
You grin despite yourself.
“That depends. Would it be entertaining?”
“For you, maybe.”
There’s something dangerous about how easily he says things like that.
Like he genuinely would.
Your friends would tell you to run.
Normal men did not become this attached this quickly.
Normal men did not look at you like they’d discovered religion.
But you were tired.
Lonely.
Overworked.
And Titus made you feel seen in a way nobody else ever had.
That kind of attention becomes addictive frighteningly fast.
“Okay,” you hear yourself say softly.
His expression stills completely.
Like he wasn’t expecting you to agree.
“Okay?” he repeats.
“Dinner.”
For the first time since meeting him, Titus looks genuinely caught off guard.
Then slowly, very slowly, he smiles.
And suddenly you understand how people ruin their lives for love.
🦋
Your mother doesn’t like Titus.
She tries to hide it.
Really, she does.
But mothers notice things daughters don’t.
And from the moment Titus steps out of the car in your hometown, your mother’s smile becomes strained around the edges.
Your father is worse.
He shakes Titus’s hand once and immediately looks like he regrets it.
“This is my dad,” you say nervously.
Titus smiles politely.
“Sir.”
Your father’s eyes narrow almost imperceptibly.
You notice.
Titus notices more.
The entire drive there had felt surreal.
Titus looked absurdly out of place in your hometown.
The roads were smaller here.
Quieter.
Your family’s house sat near the edge of town with a little garden your mother insisted on maintaining herself despite constantly complaining about it.
Nothing about this place matched Titus Danforth.
He belonged to polished marble floors and private events and expensive wine you still didn’t know how to pronounce properly.
Not here.
And yet he followed you inside like he belonged wherever you were.
Dinner starts pleasantly enough.
Your mother asks polite questions.
Your father barely speaks.
Titus remains calm through all of it.
Charming, even.
Painfully charming.
He compliments the food.
Offers to help clean.
Listens attentively whenever you speak.
Your younger cousin practically adores him within twenty minutes.
Objectively, he’s perfect.
Which somehow makes your parents trust him even less.
You don’t understand it.
“You work in finance?” your father asks eventually.
Something unreadable flickers across Titus’s face.
“In a manner of speaking.”
It’s such a strange answer your father goes quiet afterward.
Under the table, Titus’s hand settles gently against your knee.
Warm.
Possessive.
Your breath catches slightly.
Nobody notices except your mother.
Her expression tightens immediately.
You feel suddenly embarrassed.
Like you’ve done something wrong.
After dinner, you help your mother wash dishes while Titus steps outside with your father.
You smile faintly to yourself.
Maybe this is good.
Maybe they’re finally talking properly.
“You like him.”
Your mother says it quietly while rinsing plates.
You blink.
“Obviously.”
“No,” she says softly. “I mean really like him.”
Heat rises to your face.
You stare down at the sink.
“I do.”
Silence.
Then quietly:
“He scares me.”
Your head lifts immediately.
“What?”
Your mother dries her hands slowly.
“There’s something wrong with that man.”
The words hit you harder than they should.
“What are you talking about?”
“I don’t know.” Frustration creeps into her voice. “That’s the problem.”
You shake your head immediately.
“Mom, he’s been nothing but good to me.”
“That doesn’t mean he’s good.”
“He loves me.”
The moment the words leave your mouth, your mother’s face changes.
Not anger.
Sadness.
Which somehow hurts worse.
“Oh sweetheart,” she whispers.
Defensiveness flares hot in your chest.
“You don’t know him.”
“And you do?”
“Yes.”
Your mother looks unconvinced.
“You’ve only known him a few months.”
“That doesn’t matter.”
“It does when a man starts orbiting your entire life that quickly.”
You slam the sponge down harder than intended.
“He cares about me.”
“Obsession and care are not always the same thing.”
The kitchen goes silent.
You hate the way the words linger.
Because some small ugly part of you understands what she means.
Titus could be intense.
Overwhelmingly so sometimes.
There were moments his attention felt less romantic and more consuming.
But he never hurt you.
Never.
“You’re overreacting.”
Your mother sighs softly.
“Maybe.”
But she doesn’t sound convinced.
And then quietly:
“Your father thinks so too.”
Something cold settles in your stomach.
“You talked about this already?”
“We worry about you.”
“He makes me happy.”
“That man looks at you like he’d kill for you.”
You laugh nervously.
“That’s dramatic.”
“No,” your mother says softly. “It isn’t.”
The back door creaks open.
You jump slightly.
Titus steps inside.
Your mother immediately goes quiet.
Your stomach drops.
How much did he hear?
His expression is perfectly calm.
Perfectly normal.
Which somehow makes you more nervous.
Your mother excuses herself quietly moments later, leaving you alone with him in the kitchen.
Titus walks toward you slowly.
“You alright?”
His voice is gentle.
You nod too quickly.
“Yeah. Why?”
“You seem upset.”
You force a smile.
“Just family stuff.”
His gaze studies your face carefully.
Too carefully.
“You can tell me if someone said something that hurt you.”
There’s no anger in his voice.
No suspicion.
But suddenly, instinct screams at you not to tell him.
You don’t know why.
You just know.
So you smile again.
Smaller this time.
“It’s nothing.”
Silence.
Then Titus lifts a hand slowly, brushing his thumb gently beneath your eye.
Only then do you realize your eyes had become watery.
His expression changes immediately.
Cold.
Not toward you.
Toward whoever caused it.
Your heartbeat quickens.
“Titus,” you say softly, “it’s really okay.”
His eyes meet yours again.
And instantly the coldness disappears.
Like it was never there at all.
“Of course it is.”
He kisses your forehead gently.
Tenderly.
But while his arms settle around you, his gaze drifts past your shoulder.
Toward the hallway where your mother disappeared.
And for the first time since meeting him, fear crawls quietly down your spine.
🦋
The girls trip was Titus’s idea.
You almost said no at first.
Not because you didn’t want to go.
Because life had become too expensive to justify things like vacations.
But Titus only looked at you with that calm, unwavering expression of his and said:
“You’ve been exhausted for months.”
“I’m fine.”
“You cried over an assignment three nights ago.”
You stared at him.
“How do you even know that?”
“I know everything about you.”
The words should not make your heart race the way they do.
“You don’t have to pay for a whole trip,” you argue weakly.
“I want to.”
“Titus.”
“You deserve nice things.”
It’s impossible to fight with him when he speaks like that.
Softly.
Like giving you the world is the most natural thing imaginable.
So eventually, you agreed.
Now you sit in a beachside villa three cities away with your friends screaming somewhere near the water while you scroll through pictures on your phone.
Your mother sent you a photo of the garden that morning.
Your father stood awkwardly in the background holding vegetables like he’d been forced into the picture against his will.
You smile faintly.
Then your phone buzzes.
Titus.
You answer immediately.
“Hi.”
His voice softens instantly hearing yours.
“Hello, darling.”
Warmth blooms in your chest.
You move toward the balcony quietly while your friends continue laughing inside.
“How’s the trip?”
“Good,” you say. “Chaotic. Bea almost drowned trying to flirt with a surfer.”
A quiet chuckle hums through the line.
“I miss you.”
The confession comes easily from him.
Immediate.
Unashamed.
Your cheeks warm.
“It’s been two days.”
“And?”
You laugh softly.
“You’re clingy.”
“Yes.”
The honesty catches you off guard enough to laugh again.
God.
You love him.
The realization still startles you sometimes.
You love him so much it physically aches.
“How’s home?” you ask.
“Quiet.”
Something about his tone feels strange.
Not wrong.
Just distant.
You frown slightly.
“Titus?”
“I’m listening.”
“Are you working?”
“No.”
“You sound distracted.”
A pause.
Then softer:
“I’m thinking about you.”
Your stomach flutters embarrassingly fast.
“You’re impossible.”
“And you adore me.”
Unfortunately true.
You lean against the balcony railing.
The ocean stretches endlessly before you.
For a moment, everything feels peaceful.
Safe.
“I wish you were here.”
Silence.
Then:
“Soon.”
Something cold slips briefly through your chest.
Not because of the word itself.
Because of the way he says it.
Certain.
Like a promise.
Before you can think too hard about it, shouting erupts inside the villa.
“COME TAKE PICTURES WITH US!”
You laugh immediately.
“I have to go.”
“Alright.”
But Titus doesn’t hang up.
You smile.
“Titus.”
“Yes?”
“You have to let go eventually.”
“No,” he says softly.
The answer sends heat rushing through your chest.
And something else too.
Something uneasy.
You brush it aside.
“I’ll call you later.”
“I’ll answer.”
“You better.”
“I always will for you.”
You grin helplessly before ending the call.
Thousands of miles away, Titus lowers his phone slowly.
Your childhood home is silent around him.
Blood stains the cuffs of his sleeves.
He looks down at them with mild annoyance.
One of your family members had fought harder than expected.
Not enough to matter.
But enough to make a mess.
The living room of your childhood home looks almost unrecognizable now.
Furniture overturned.
Drawers ripped open.
Broken glass scattered across the floor.
A convincing robbery scene.
Titus walks calmly through the destruction.
Your mother lies near the hallway.
Your father near the kitchen.
The sight should feel monstrous.
Instead, Titus only feels irritated.
Because your mother made you cry.
Because your father looked at you like Titus was something rotten.
Because they dared to plant fear inside your head.
Inside yours.
His jaw tightens slightly.
They should have been grateful someone loved you properly.
The sound of movement draws his attention.
Your younger cousin.
Still breathing.
The boy stares at Titus with wide horrified eyes.
Titus crouches calmly before him.
“You should have stayed upstairs.”
The boy trembles violently.
“Please.”
Titus tilts his head slightly.
For a brief second, he almost feels pity.
Almost.
Then he remembers the look on your face in that kitchen.
The tears in your eyes.
The fear.
Someone caused you distress.
That alone sealed their fate.
“I do love her,” Titus says quietly.
The boy sobs harder.
“And I protect what belongs to me.”
Hours later, you’re laughing on the beach when your phone rings again.
Unknown number.
You answer absently.
“Hello?”
The voice on the other end sounds shaky.
Panicked.
Your smile fades immediately.
Confusion.
Then horror.
Then nothing.
The world disappears beneath your feet so quickly you almost collapse.
Your friend catches your arm.
“What happened?”
You can’t breathe.
The phone slips from your hand.
Someone is speaking.
Crying.
Screaming maybe.
You don’t know.
All you know is one sentence repeating violently inside your head.
Your family is dead.
Your family is dead.
Your family is dead.
You don’t even remember booking the flight home.
You don’t remember the airport.
The drive.
The funeral arrangements.
Everything blurs into unbearable noise.
But through all of it, Titus remains beside you.
Holding your hand.
Holding you upright.
Holding you together.
And every night afterward, you crawl into his arms shaking while grief tears you apart from the inside.
Titus only pulls you closer.
His hand smoothing gently through your hair.
His lips against your forehead.
His voice soft in the darkness.
“I’m here.”
Always.
Always.
Always.
🦋
The wedding is beautiful.
Painfully beautiful.
White roses line the cathedral aisle in delicate arrangements so expensive you’re scared to think about their cost. Candlelight flickers softly against polished marble floors while string music echoes through the enormous hall.
Everything feels unreal.
Like something out of a dream.
You stand at the altar facing Titus Danforth while guests watch in reverent silence.
He looks devastating.
Dark suit tailored perfectly against broad shoulders. Calm eyes fixed entirely on you with an intensity that still steals the air from your lungs even after all these years.
Your fiancé.
Soon to be your husband.
The man who held you together when your entire world collapsed.
The man who stayed.
Always stayed.
“You look frightened,” Titus murmurs quietly once the officiant pauses briefly.
You let out a nervous laugh.
“I’m getting married in front of hundreds of rich strangers. Obviously I’m frightened.”
His expression softens immediately.
“You look beautiful.”
Heat rises to your face despite everything.
Even now, Titus can still do that to you.
Reduce you into something embarrassingly soft with only a few quiet words.
The ceremony continues around you in a blur.
Vows.
Rings.
Applause.
Then Titus lifts your veil gently.
His thumb brushes softly against your cheek before he kisses you.
Slow.
Possessive.
Certain.
The guests erupt into applause again.
And for one dangerous moment, you allow yourself to believe this is happiness.
Real happiness.
The reception is even grander.
Crystal chandeliers.
Endless champagne.
People in expensive black clothing speaking in carefully measured voices.
Everyone treats Titus differently here.
Not just respectfully.
Reverently.
You notice it immediately.
Older members of the Danforth family touch his shoulder when passing him. Men twice his age lower their voices around him. Conversations stop the moment he enters certain rooms.
It unsettles you more than you admit aloud.
“You’re overthinking again.”
Titus appears beside you effortlessly, placing a fresh glass into your hand.
“I’m observing.”
“You’re hiding in corners.”
“I don’t know anybody here.”
“You know me.”
The answer comes so simply it twists something painfully in your chest.
Titus notices immediately.
He always notices.
His hand settles against your lower back gently.
Grounding.
Possessive.
Home.
“You alright?”
You nod.
“Just overwhelmed.”
“That’s understandable.”
🦋
You realize something is wrong with the Danforth family three days after your wedding.
Not wrong in the ordinary rich family sense.
Not cold parents and hidden affairs and money laundering wrong.
Something deeper.
Rotten.
Ancient.
The Danforth estate itself feels different after the ceremony.
Before, it had only seemed intimidating.
Now it feels alive.
Too quiet during the day.
Too awake at night.
Portraits lining the walls like silent witnesses.
Family members speaking in half sentences around you before abruptly stopping whenever you enter the room.
At first, you tell yourself you’re paranoid.
Grief changes people.
Trauma changes people.
Maybe losing your family rewired something inside your brain permanently.
Maybe that’s why every shadow in this house suddenly feels threatening.
“Titus.”
He looks up from his book immediately.
Always immediately.
“Yes, darling?”
You hesitate in the doorway of your shared bedroom.
The room still doesn’t feel fully yours yet.
Nothing here does.
“Your sister was staring at me.”
Titus’s expression barely changes.
“She stares at everyone.”
“No,” you say quietly. “Not like that.”
Something unreadable flickers behind his eyes.
Then he closes the book slowly.
“Come here.”
You obey without thinking.
That realization unsettles you more than it should.
Titus pulls you gently between his legs once you reach him, hands settling automatically against your waist.
Comforting.
Possessive.
“You’re overwhelmed,” he murmurs.
Maybe you are.
The past few years feel like a blur now.
Finishing college.
Planning a wedding.
Learning how to exist without your family.
Sometimes the grief still ambushes you unexpectedly.
A smell.
A song.
A memory.
And suddenly you’re crying in Titus’s arms all over again while he whispers soft reassurances against your hair.
He became your entire life so gradually you barely noticed it happening.
After the murders, there had been no one else.
No parents to call.
No hometown to return to.
Just Titus.
Only Titus.
The thought should comfort you.
Instead, lately, it suffocates you.
“You trust me, don’t you?”
The question breaks through your thoughts.
You blink down at him.
“Of course I do.”
Titus studies your face carefully.
Like he’s searching for cracks.
“You sound uncertain.”
“I’m tired.”
“You’ve been tired for weeks.”
You almost laugh.
“That sounds familiar.”
His thumb brushes slowly against your hip.
“There are things about my family you need to understand.”
Your stomach tightens immediately.
“There it is,” you whisper.
His brows pull together slightly.
“There what is?”
“That thing everyone keeps doing.”
“What thing?”
“Acting like I’m being introduced into some kind of cult.”
Silence.
Titus doesn’t laugh.
Doesn’t deny it immediately either.
Coldness creeps slowly down your spine.
“Titus.”
His gaze softens instantly hearing the fear in your voice.
“You’re safe.”
“That is not an answer.”
He exhales quietly.
Then stands.
Your heart pounds harder as he walks toward the bedroom door.
Locks it.
The sound echoes too loudly.
“Titus.”
“You’re frightened.”
“Yes,” you admit.
The honesty hangs heavily between you.
For a moment, he simply watches you.
And suddenly you remember the first time you met him.
The intensity of his stare.
The strange feeling of being chosen.
Claimed.
You had mistaken obsession for devotion because nobody had ever loved you that completely before.
“You know my family is powerful.”
You nod slowly.
“But not entirely how.”
Something terrible curls instinctively in your stomach.
Titus approaches you again carefully.
Like you’re something delicate.
Something he genuinely does not want to damage.
Which somehow makes this worse.
“You’re frightening me.”
That finally makes something crack across his face.
Pain.
Real pain.
“I never wanted you afraid of me.”
The sincerity in his voice nearly destroys you.
Because you know he means it.
Whatever Titus is, whatever darkness exists beneath his skin, his love for you is horrifyingly real.
And maybe that’s the worst part.
“Then tell me the truth.”
“You know my family is… unconventional.”
You laugh weakly.
“That is an incredibly polite way to describe whatever the hell goes on downstairs during those dinners.”
His gaze flicks toward you.
“You’ve noticed.”
“Your uncle literally kissed a ring tonight.”
“That’s tradition.”
“You cannot say things like that calmly.”
A faint trace of amusement touches his expression before fading again.
“Titus,” you say more softly now, “what are you trying to tell me?”
He turns toward you fully then.
The warmth in his eyes almost distracts you from the tension underneath it.
“My family follows beliefs that most people would misunderstand.”
Coldness slips quietly into your stomach.
“Religious beliefs?”
“In a sense.”
You stare at him flatly.
“I’m going to need you to stop answering questions like a haunted Victorian man.”
That earns a quiet laugh.
Brief.
Then gone again.
“My family believes in devotion,” he says carefully. “Legacy. Sacrifice. Power.”
The last word lingers strangely.
“And?”
“And after marrying me, you became part of that.”
The room suddenly feels colder.
You pull the blanket tighter around yourself unconsciously.
Your heartbeat stumbles.
“Oh my God.”
Titus closes his eyes briefly.
“Titus.”
“It sounds worse than it is.”
“You are in a cult.”
“No.”
“You hesitated.”
“Because cult is an emotionally loaded word.”
You stare at your husband in disbelief.
“That is the sentence of a guilty man.”
His hand reaches for yours carefully.
You let him take it.
Even now.
Even while your pulse pounds unevenly beneath your skin.
“My family’s beliefs are old,” he says quietly. “Older than most institutions people blindly trust every day.”
“What kind of beliefs?”
His thumb brushes slowly across your knuckles.
“We believe devotion is sacred.”
Your chest tightens slightly at the way he says it.
“Tell me again. Tell me you want another man’s hands on you after what we did.”
Three months ago, you and your best friend called it a mistake and buried it under silence. Tonight, one stranger gets too close and Mingi finally says the part you’ve both been choking on. Now the only question is whether you can survive the version of Mingi that’s done waiting.
Genre: smut with plot, angst-ish(?)
Trigger Warnings: (spoilers ahead) alcohol use, arguments, anger, manipulation, guilt-tripping, explicit language, jealousy and possessiveness, physical violence, sexual explicit content (mdni) , rough/nasty sex, hard/mean dom! mingi, degradation, humiliation, name-calling (slut), breath play, hand on throat (not fully choking), biting, marking, hair pulling, semi-public sex/risk of being caught (car, taxi, elevator), unsafe sex, manhandling, big dick mingi, p in v, oral sex (m! receiving), throat fucking, a lot of cum (everywhere), cream pie, cum eating, multiple orgasms, dacryphilia, face slapping, spanking, breasts play, breeding kink-ish, masturbation, squirting
WC: 19.6k
Mon’s Note: for my darling @minkieater!! thank you for trusting me with this request and for pushing me to write mingi in a way i don’t usually do. i must say it was a challenge but nonetheless i enjoyed it a lot! hopefully it turned out the way you imagined, sweetheart 🫶🏻 have fun with it!!
The bass rattled through your molars, a rhythmic thud that drowned out the pulse in your own neck. The air in the middle of the floor was a soup of expensive cologne, salt-slicked skin, and the heavy scent of smoke. Behind you, the guy you’d been grinding against for the last three songs shifted his weight, his palms damp where they gripped the curve of your waist. He was a good dancer but the friction was starting to feel less like a release and more like a chore. You peeled his hands away with a practiced, apologetic tilt of your head, the neon blue light catching the sweat on your collarbone. He said something, but the words were swallowed by a remix of a track you didn’t recognise. You just pointed toward the booths, offering a non-committal wave before weaving through the thicket of bodies.
Mingi was exactly where you’d left him, though the rest of the group had long since scattered into the chaos. He was leaning against the high mahogany table. The new blonde of his hair was tucked haphazardly behind his ears, the strands glowing every time the strobe swept past. He wasn’t looking at the crowd. He wasn’t looking at his phone.
He was looking at you.
His chocolate eyes were dark, the pupils blown wide enough to swallow the iris, tracking your progress across the floor with a heavy, unblinking focus. He didn’t look like he was having fun. He looked like he was vibrating at a frequency that might shatter the glass in his hand.
“You look like you’re at a funeral,” you hiked your voice to reach him, sliding into the narrow gap between his body and the table. The heat radiating off him was different from the dance floor—dryer, more concentrated. Mingi didn’t move back to give you space. He stayed still, his height forcing you to crane your neck, his shadow swallowing you whole.
“Do I?” His voice was a low rumble that you felt in your chest more than you heard in your ears. He didn’t smile. He just watched the way your chest rose and fell with your heavy breathing.
“Yeah. Serious. Grumpy.” You reached out, your fingers brushing against the cold, condensation-slicked glass of the beer bottle he was white-knuckling. “You’re bringing the vibe down, Min. You need to get laid or get drunk. Preferably both.” You didn’t wait for an invitation. You wrapped your hand over his—your skin stinging at the contact of his frozen knuckles—and tilted the beer bottle toward your mouth. You took a long, stinging swallow, the bitter amber liquid cutting through the coat of sugar on your tongue from the cocktails earlier. When you pulled away, a stray drop of foam lingered on your lower lip. You didn’t miss the way Mingi’s gaze dropped to it, his jaw muscle jumping as he ground his teeth together.
“That’s mine,” he muttered.
“Everything of yours is mine,” you countered, leaning your hip into his thigh to steady yourself as a group of drunks stumbled past. “Since when do we care about germs? We’ve shared everything.”
Mingi let out a sharp, jagged breath through his nose. He took the bottle back, but he didn’t drink. He just held it, his thumb stroking the neck of the glass in a rhythmic motion. “The guy,” Mingi said, his voice dropping an octave, rasping against the music. “He had his hands all over you.”
“That’s usually how dancing works,” you teased, reaching up to flick a stray blonde hair away from his forehead. Your fingers lingered for a second too long against his skin—he was burning up, a stark contrast to the ice-cold beer. “He was fine. Boring, but fine.”
Mingi leaned down, his face inches from yours. The smell of him suddenly outweighed the scent of the club. His eyes searched yours, intense and frantic. “You’re sweat-soaked,” he noted, his free hand came up, not to touch you, but to hover just an inch from your waist, the heat of his palm seeping through your clothes. “You should sit down. Get some air.”
“I don’t want air,” you said, feeling a strange, tight coil of tension pull in your gut. You reached out, grabbing the material of his shirt to pull him a fraction closer. “I want you to stop acting like a bodyguard and start acting like my best friend. Drink. Dance. Find a girl. I’ll even vet her for you.”
Mingi’s hand finally closed the distance, his fingers splaying wide over the small of your back, pulling you flush against him. The movement was sudden, knocking the breath right out of your lungs. “I don’t want a girl,” he rasped, his breath hot against your ear as he lowered his head.
You leaned back just enough to catch the dark, honeyed shift of his eyes, the sticky heat of the club rushing into the inch of space between your chests. You let out a huff of a laugh, your hand still at his shoulder for balance while the floor tilted slightly under your shoes. “You better change your mind then,” you teased, your voice bright and irreverent over the thumping music. You didn’t lower your volume; the crudeness felt natural between you, a byproduct of years of shared secrets and unfiltered bullshit. “Your dick needs a good sucking, Min. You’re wound so tight I can practically hear your gears grinding from here. Go find a victim.” You flashed him a grin—the one that usually got him to stop brooding—and reached for the beer again, taking another long, unhurried swallow. The cold liquid slid down your throat, a sharp contrast to the humid air pressing against your skin.
Mingi didn’t laugh. He didn’t even crack a self-deprecating smirk. Instead, his fingers, still splayed across the small of your back, twitched. The fabric of your dress bunched under his palm as his grip tightened, drawing you a fraction closer until your thighs brushed his. He was tracking the way your throat moved as you swallowed, his jaw locked in a hard, protruding line. “Is that what you think?”
“I know it is,” you patted his chest, the muscle beneath his shirt felt like carved stone. “I’ve seen you when you’re stressed. You’re a menace. Go. I’ll be fine. I might even go find that guy again—he had a nice rhythm.”
Mingi’s jaw tightened so hard you heard the faint click of his teeth over the sub-bass. For a heartbeat, he didn’t move. He just stared at you, then, without a word, he tilted his head back. You watched the column of his throat work as he downed the rest of the beer in several heavy, aggressive gulps. The glass rattled against his teeth. When he pulled the bottle away, a single trail of amber liquid escaped the corner of his mouth, glistening in the strobe light before he wiped it away with the back of a shaking hand.
“Okay,” he said. The word was clipped, stripped of any warmth. It wasn’t the voice of the best friend; it was the voice of a man who had reached a very specific, very dangerous limit. He set the empty bottle on the table with a sharp clack and turned away. He didn’t look back. Not once. He didn’t check to see if you were following, didn’t offer a “see you later,” didn’t even spare you a final glance. He simply melted into the shifting sea of limbs on the dance floor, his blonde head bobbing through the neon haze like a signal fire being swallowed by the dark.
You blinked, the sudden absence of his heat leaving a strange, chilly vacuum against your front. “Well,” you muttered to yourself, the word lost to a sudden surge in the music’s volume. “Ask and you shall receive, I guess.” You shifted your weight, the floor sticky beneath your boots. You’d gotten what you wanted—Mingi was finally out there, hopefully looking for someone to help him sweat out that foul mood—but the air felt thinner without him hovering over you. You shook the feeling off, rolling your shoulders to loosen the tension that had settled there.
Time to find Mr. Rhythm.
You scanned the crowd, squinting against the blinding flashes of violet and white. The club was a kaleidoscope of blurred faces and grinding hips. You spotted the VIP section, where a group was spraying champagne, the fine mist catching the light like diamonds. You looked toward the bar, then back toward the floor where you’d been earlier. There. About twenty feet away, near the speakers, you caught the back of a familiar head—the guy from before. He was already back at it, his hands on the hips of a girl in a red dress, moving with that same fluid, easy confidence.
You felt a sharp, unexpected prick of annoyance in your chest. That was fast.
You turned your head, searching for Mingi instead. You found him almost instantly. He wasn’t hard to miss. He was standing near the edge of the floor, and he wasn’t alone. A girl with long, dark hair had already gravitated toward him, her hand resting brazenly on his bicep as she shouted something into his ear. Mingi was leaning down, his ear inches from her lips, his expression unreadable. From this distance, he looked like a different person.
You stood there for a moment, glued to the edge of the mahogany table, your fingers tracing the ring of condensation Mingi had left behind.
You couldn’t take your eyes off him. His hair was catching every flicker of the neon lights. The girl with the dark hair was closer now, her fingers hooked into the belt loop of his jeans, pulling herself into the narrow orbit of his space. Mingi didn’t push her away. He didn’t lean in, either. He just stood there, tall and terrifyingly still, his head tilted back as he looked down at her with an expression that was cold, and entirely unrecognisable. It felt like watching a stranger wear your best friend’s skin. The knot in your stomach tightened, a dull ache that had nothing to do with the alcohol you had.
“You look like you’re waiting for a crash.” The voice was slick, cutting through the electronic roar of the track. You turned your head, blinking against a sudden burst of violet light. A man was standing beside you, leaning one elbow on the table. He was older than the guy you’d been dancing with, wearing a crisp black button-down and a heavy silver signet ring on his pinky. He held two glasses—crystal tumblers filled with an amber liquid and a single, oversized cube of ice.
“I’m just watching the show,” you said, your voice raspy from the smoke and the shouting.
“That tall, blonde guy?” The stranger followed your gaze, a small, knowing smirk tugging at the corner of his mouth. He didn’t wait for an answer before sliding one of the tumblers across the wood toward you. “He looks like he’s trying to set the room on fire. You look like you’re wondering if you should call the fire department.”
You looked at the drink. “I don’t take drinks from people I don’t know,” you said, though your hand moved toward the glass of its own accord. Your throat felt like it had been rubbed with sandpaper.
“I’m Seongmin,” he said, his voice a smooth baritone that didn’t need to strain against the music. He took a sip of his own drink, his eyes never leaving yours. “Now you know me. Drink it. It’s better than that bottom-shelf lager the blonde guy was chugging.”
You reached out, your fingers brushing his as you took the glass. The condensation was biting, a shock of cold against your palm. You took a sip—it was a peaty, expensive Scotch that burned all the way down, lighting a small fire in your belly.
“Better?” he asked, stepping a fraction closer. He smelled of peppermint gum and expensive leather.
“Stronger,” you countered.
Seongmin leaned in, “Strong is what you look like you need,” he reached out, his movements fluid and deliberate, and tucked a damp lock of hair behind your ear. His fingertips were warm—dry and steady—lingering against the sensitive skin of your temple. “Relax.”
“I am relaxed,” you lied.
“Your shoulders are up to your ears.” He let his hand slide down, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw before his palm settled heavily on the nape of your neck. It was a grounding weight, firm enough to make you still. “There. Better.”
Across the room, the violet strobe cut through the dark, illuminating Mingi. He wasn’t paying attention to the girl grinding on him anymore. He was looking straight at you. Even from twenty feet away, the intensity of his stare felt like a physical shove.
Seongmin noticed. He didn’t turn around to look, but his eyes narrowed as they tracked yours. A slow, predatory smile pulled at his mouth. “He’s very protective, isn’t he? Your... friend.”
“He’s just moody,” you snapped, turning your back on the dance floor to face Seongmin fully. The movement brought you deep into his space, the scent of leather and peppermint thickening. “He needs to mind his own business.”
“I agree.” Seongmin’s hand shifted from your neck to your waist, pulling you an inch closer. “You’re much too vibrant to be watched over like a child.” He took the glass from your hand, setting it behind him without breaking eye contact. Then, he took your wrist. He didn’t ask. He simply guided your hand up until your palm was flat against his chest, right over the slow, rhythmic thud of his heart. The silk of his black shirt was cool, but the body beneath it was searing. “Dance with me.” It wasn’t a question, your legs were already moving as he backed away, leading you by the wrist toward a darker corner of the floor, away from the main crush but directly into Mingi’s line of sight.
The music shifted—the aggressive EDM fading into a R&B track with a bass line that felt like velvet. Seongmin didn’t waste time with distance. He stepped into you, his thighs slotting between yours, his hands sliding down to rest low on your hips. He moved with a slow, grinding confidence that made the previous guy look like an amateur. He surged forward, forcing you to take a half-step back until your spine hit the padded velvet of a pillar. He followed, pinning you there with the weight of his body. His hands didn’t stay still; they wandered, one sliding up to bunch the fabric at your waist, the other reaching up to cup your face, his thumb pressing firmly into your lower lip.
“You have a very loud mouth,” he said, his voice a dark, amused rumble. “I wonder if it tastes as sharp as it sounds.”
You felt the heat of him everywhere. You reached up, your fingers tangling in the collar of his black shirt, intending to pull him closer. He tilted his head, his lips grazing the corner of yours—a dry, searing contact that sent a jolt of static electricity straight to your toes. You felt the heavy silver of his ring press into the soft skin behind your ear, a cold touch as he began to claim the space you’d so carelessly offered. His tongue flicked out, a ghost of a touch against the seam of your lips, tasting the salt and the lingering amber of the drink he’d given you.
Seongmin’s thumb didn’t just rest on your lip; it hooked into the corner of your mouth, dragging the sensitive skin downward to expose the damp gleam of your teeth. The bass of the R&B track vibrated through the velvet-padded pillar behind you, rattling your ribcage and syncing with the heavy, insistent thud of his heart against your palm.
He shifted his weight, his thigh high and hard between yours, pressing upward with a slow, agonizing deliberation. The friction of his suit trousers against your thinner fabric was a dry heat that made your breath hitch, hitching again when he swallowed, his Adam’s apple bobbing against your knuckles.
“Not so loud now,” he murmured. He leaned in, his forehead dropping to rest against yours. He didn't close the distance to your lips. Instead, he tilted his head, his nose grazing yours, trailing down to the sensitive dip of your cupid’s bow. He inhaled sharply, a ragged sound that vibrated in his chest.
“Your friend is burning a hole in the back of your head,” Seongmin whispered, his breath ghosting over your damp lips, tasting of the same amber liquor. “Do you care? Or are you too busy feeling me?”
His hand at your waist tightened, fingers digging into the soft flesh above your hip bone, pulling you flush against the rigid line of his belt. He began to move—a slow, rhythmic grind that was less about the music and more about the friction. Each roll of his hips was a calculated invasion, forcing you to arch your back against the pillar, your fingers twitching where they were trapped between your chests.
You tried to pull him closer by the collar, the silk bunching in your fist, but he resisted, holding his head just an inch back. He wanted you reaching. He wanted you strained. His tongue flicked out again, tracing the very edge of your upper lip, a teasing, wet velvet that left you shivering.
“Answer me,” he commanded, the ‘s’ lingering into a hiss. He punctuated the demand with a sudden, sharper surge of his hips.
The air in the corner was thick, stripped of oxygen and replaced by the scent of him and the heat of the crowd a few feet away. You could hear the muffled clink of glasses and the roar of the party, but here, pinned under his shadow, the only thing that mattered was the way his thumb was now sliding inside your mouth, pressing down on your tongue, claiming the silence you’d finally fallen into.
He watched your eyes blow wide, his own dark and heavy-lidded, tracking the way your throat worked as you swallowed around him.
Then, a shadow fell over both of you.
“Get your fucking hands off her,” Mingi looked feral, his blonde hair damp and sticking to his temples, his chest heaving as if he’d just run a marathon. “She’s done.”
Seongmin didn’t let go. He didn’t even flinch. He just tilted his head, his thumb still depressing your bottom lip, exposing the pink dampness of the inside. “She looks like she’s just starting, actually. Maybe you should take the hint, kid. You’re the only one here who’s uncomfortable.”
Mingi stepped forward, his hand lashing out to grip Seongmin’s wrist. He didn’t just pull it away; he twisted, a low growl vibrating in his throat that was purely animal. “I said,” Mingi rasped, his face inches from Seongmin’s, his knuckles white where he held the older man’s wrist, “she’s done”. He didn’t look at you—he couldn’t. If he looked at you, he’d see the flush on your neck and the way your mouth was still parted from Seongmin’s touch, and he knew he’d lose the last thread of his sanity.
“I’m not finished,” you managed to get out, your voice sounding thin and breathy even to your own ears. The adrenaline was pulsing in your blood, caught between the slick, practiced heat of Seongmin and the raw, bleeding energy radiating off Mingi.
Mingi’s other hand found your waist, his fingers digging into your hip with a bruising force that made you gasp. He yanked you toward him, stumbling you out from between Seongmin and the pillar, tucking you firmly under the line of his shoulder. He was shaking—hard enough that you could feel the tremors through his clothes.
“Mingi, stop,” you hissed, grabbing his forearm. “You’re making a scene.”
“We’re leaving,” Mingi stated. “Now.”
Seongmin stepped forward again, ignoring Mingi’s posturing. He reached out, his fingers skimming down the line of your arm, just inches away from where Mingi was holding you. “If you want to finish,” he said, his eyes locking onto yours, ignoring the blonde man entirely, “I’ll be at the bar. Don’t let the noise hold you back.” He winked and turned on his heel, disappearing into the neon haze with a grace that made the rest of the club look clumsy.
The silence between you and Mingi was a living thing, more deafening than the music screaming from the rafters. He didn’t let go of you. He started walking, his pace aggressive, dragging you through the thicket of bodies. He didn’t care if he bumped into people; his shoulders were set in a hard, uncompromising line.
Mingi’s hand didn’t just stay on your wrist; he hiked it up, forcing your arm between your chests as he crowded you back against the mahogany bar. The wood bit into the small of your back. Around you, the club blurred into a frantic smear of neon, but Mingi was the only thing in high-definition—the sweat beading on his upper lip, the raw, dilated heat of his pupils.
“What the hell is wrong with you?” he snapped, his voice jagged and loud enough to pierce the music. “Folding for some suit who looks like he’s scouting for a second wife? Are you actually that dense?”
You didn’t shrink away. You stepped into the suffocating radius of his space, poking a finger hard into his chest, right over his thundering heart. “I was just having fun until you decided to play the caveman!”
Mingi let out a harsh, mocking bark of a laugh that had no humour in it. He leaned down, his face so close you could see the frantic, rhythmic pulse in his temple. “Oh, I’m the caveman? You’re the one standing here wagging your tail for any guy with a silver ring and a line of bullshit.” He sneered, his eyes raking over you with a disdain that stung worse than any insult. “You’ve got a lot of nerve, you know that? You told me to go get laid, telling me I’m ‘wound too tight’—but look at you.” He reached out, his hand moving too fast to track, his fingers hooking into the hair at the nape of your neck and tugging, just enough to force your chin up. His touch was electric and furious. “Look at you,” he repeated, his voice dropping to a low, dangerous vibration that bypassed your ears and settled deep in your gut. “You’re practically begging for it. You’re flushed, you’re panting, and you’ve got his damn thumb-prints all over your face. Is that what you wanted? To see how long it would take for me to lose it?”
“I don’t have to explain myself to you,” you hissed, your breath hitching as his thumb swiped across your lower lip—hard, as if he were trying to scrub Seongmin’s touch right off your skin. “You don’t get to act like this.”
“I get to act however the fuck I want when I’m watching you throw yourself at a predator,” he growled. He stepped even closer, his thigh forcing its way between yours, pinning you firmly against the table. The friction of his denim against your skin was a shock. “You think he wanted to talk? You think he wanted to hear your ‘witty banter’? He wanted to see how easy it would be to get you into a car. And you were making it real damn easy for him.”
“He was a better dancer than you’ve been all night,” you taunted, the words slipping out before you could filter them, fuelled by the sting of his grip.
Mingi’s expression shifted—the anger didn’t fade, but it sharpened into something dark and concentrated. He didn’t yell this time. He leaned in until his lips were brushing the shell of your ear, his chest heaving against yours. “A better dancer? Is that what this is? You want to be handled? You want someone to stop being ‘nice’ and just take what they want?”
His hand slid from your neck down to your waist, his fingers digging into the soft skin there, pulling you so flush against him. He wasn’t acting like a bodyguard anymore. He was acting like a man who had finally stopped pretending he didn’t want to break you.
“Tell me,” he rasped, his teeth grazing your earlobe. “Do you want me to be like him? Do you want me to stop being your ‘best friend’ and start being the guy who puts his hands wherever he wants? Because I can be that guy, Y/N.” The neon light overhead flickered, casting a sickly violet strobing across Mingi’s face, turning his features into a series of jagged, angry shadows. He looked like he was vibrating, the sheer force of his irritation radiating off his skin in waves of dry heat.
“You don’t get to talk to me like that! You don’t own me!” you snarled, the words tasting like the peat and fire of cocktails and Scotch. Your pulse was a frantic hammer against your ribs. “You’ve been acting like this all night—like you have some kind of divine right to be pissed off just because I’m breathing the same air as other men.”
“I have every right!” Mingi barked, the sound cutting through the synth-heavy beat of the music. He didn’t flinch as a group of clubbers squeezed past, his world narrowed down to the few inches of charged air between your faces. His blonde hair was a ruined mess, damp strands clinging to his forehead, and his eyes were wild—blown wide and dark, searching yours for a shred of the loyalty he thought he possessed.
“Based on what?” you challenged, stepping into him until your chest heaved against the solid, unyielding plane of his. “Based on a decade of friendship? Friends don’t act like this! Friends don’t suffocate each other! They don’t play the jealous watchdog every time someone looks my way!”
Mingi’s laugh was a jagged, ugly sound that started deep in his throat and ended in a sneer. He let go of you, but any hope of space vanished as he slammed both palms onto the mahogany table behind you. The wood groaned under the impact. He leaned in, his large frame creating a cage of heat and muscle, effectively pinning you against the bar.
“Friends?” the word dripped with a bitter, metallic irony that made your stomach flip. “Is that what we’re sticking with? Is that what we were three months ago?” He lowered his head, his nose brushing against yours, his breath hot and smelling of the beer he’d used to try and drown his temper. His eyes dropped to your mouth, tracking the frantic movement of your breathing with a terrifying, singular focus. “Was I just a ‘friend’ when you spent three hours screaming my name in my apartment because you couldn’t get enough of me? When you had your nails buried in my back, begging me not to stop?”
The air left your lungs in a silent rush. The memory hit you—the smell of rain on his skin that night, the way the floorboards had groaned under the weight of the two of you, the desperate, fumbling heat of a “mistake” you’d both agreed to bury under a mountain of “it was just the drinks” and “we’re fine.”
“Oh, you’re going to bring that up now?” you breathed, your hands coming up to his chest to push him back, but your fingers only curled into the damp fabric of his shirt. “We agreed, Mingi! We sat on your living room floor and promised it was a mistake! We shook on it! You don’t get to keep that in your back pocket like a fucking weapon just because you’re having a bad night! So shut the fuck up!”
“I won’t,” he growled, his hand moving from the table to catch your jaw, his thumb pressing firmly into the hinge of your bone. It wasn’t a gentle touch. “You don’t get to go back to ‘friends’ because it’s convenient! You think I can just watch that suit touch you and not want to rip his hands off?” His grip on your jaw tightened just a fraction, his eyes dark with a desperate, starving hunger.
“We said that didn’t count! We agreed. It was a one-time thing. It was a slip-up!”
“You call the way you clutched at my back a ‘slip-up’? The way you begged me not to stop? That’s a hell of a lot of effort for a ‘slip-up,’ baby.”
“Don’t call me that!” You hissed, your vision blurring with a mix of heat and pure, unadulterated rage. “You’re just pissed because you can’t control me. You’re acting like I’m some prize you won three months ago and now you’re mad someone else is looking at the trophy.”
Mingi’s hand slammed against the table next to your hip, the wood groaning under the impact. The sound was a gunshot in the dark. “I don’t want a fucking trophy! It’s not the first time I call you ‘baby’, and you damn well know it wasn’t just a ‘slip-up’ for me.” Mingi roared, his composure finally snapping. “It’s been three months of me watching you pretend it never happened! Three months of me watching you smile at other guys while I can still feel the way your skin felt under my hands.” He was shaking now, his hands white-knuckled against the mahogany. The subtext was gone; the ugly, beautiful truth was laid bare between you, more neon and loud than anything in the club.
“You want me to go get laid?” he barked, his voice a jagged, ugly thing. “Fine. Give me a name, Y/N. Who should I go fuck tonight to make you feel better about being a coward? Should I find some random bitch at the bar who doesn’t mind being seen in public with me? Someone who isn’t busy playing ‘best friend’ while she’s still got the ghost of my hand on her thigh?”
He leaned down, his face inches from yours, his eyes bloodshot and burning with a terrifying, charcoal-dark intensity.
“Because that’s what this is, right? A game?” He let out a harsh, mocking bark of a laugh. “You have the fucking audacity to tell me to go find another girl. Like I can just turn it off. Like I haven’t spent every goddamn night remembering exactly how you taste.”
“Mingi, stop—”
“Stop what? Telling the truth?” He slammed his hand against the table next to your hip, the wood groaning. “You’re pathetic. You’re so scared of what we are that you’d rather see me balls-deep in some stranger than admit you belong to me. Is that it? Does it make you feel ‘safe’ to think of me with someone else?”
He grabbed the edge of the bar, pinning you in, his breath hot and smelling of bitter resentment.
“Maybe I’ll do it. Maybe I’ll go back down there, find the loudest girl in the club, and fuck the memory of you right out of my head. I’ll tell her to scream your name so I don’t forget who I’m trying to replace. Would you like that? Should I give you a play-by-play tomorrow morning while we’re having our ‘friendly’ coffee? Should I tell you if she’s tighter than you were?”
The words were a physical assault, a cruel, calculated attempt to draw blood. He was weaponising the intimacy you’d shared, dragging it through the dirt just to see you flinch.
“You’re a fucking liar,” he hissed, his voice dropping to a low, venomous crawl. “You’re a liar and a coward, and you’re so desperate to keep this ‘friendship’ alive that you’re willing to watch me bleed out right in front of you.”
The slap wasn’t a choice; it was an explosion.
Your palm connected with his cheek with a violent, stinging crack that seemed to suck the air out of the room. The force of it snapped his head to the side, his blonde hair falling over his eyes as he went deathly still.
Silence stretched between you, a taut, vibrating wire.
Slowly, Mingi turned his face back to you. The imprint of your fingers was blooming a dark, angry red against his pale skin. He didn’t look hurt. He looked unhinged. A dark, terrifying smirk pulled at one corner of his mouth—the look of a man who had finally stopped trying to be the “good friend.”
“I was wondering when you’d stop pretending to be ‘fine’.”
The air in the club was suddenly too thick to breathe, a humid soup of Mingi’s possessiveness and the ghost of a memory you’d both tried to bury under layers of “best friends” bullshit.
“Now, tell me again. Tell me to go find someone else. Look me in the eye and tell me you want another man’s hands on you after what we did.”
You shoved at his chest—hard—and this time he let you, his hands sliding off the mahogany with a jagged scrape. You didn’t say a word. You turned and bolted for the exit, the heavy bass chasing you like a heartbeat until the steel doors hissed shut behind you.
The parking lot was lit by the buzzing, sickly orange glow of lamps. The air was bitingly cold, snapping at the sweat on your skin, but it wasn’t enough to cool the furnace in your blood. You were halfway to the taxi zone when the heavy thud of the club doors swinging open again echoed off the asphalt.
“Don’t you fucking walk away from me!” Mingi’s voice cracked the silence of the night.
You spun around, your heels clicking sharply against the oil-stained ground. “Or what, Mingi? What the fuck are you going to do? Pin me against another table? Remind me again how I sounded three months ago?” Your voice rose, trembling with a mix of fury and the terrifying realisation that the walls you’d built were crumbling. “You don’t get to use that! That was—that was a mistake! We said it was a mistake!”
Mingi didn’t stop. He ate up the distance between you with rushed strides. He reached you in seconds, his hand lashing out to catch your upper arm, spinning you around so hard you stumbled into the side of a parked SUV. The metal was freezing against your shoulder blades.
“A mistake?” He threw the word back at you like a slur. He slammed his hand against the car next to your head, the thump of palm on metal loud enough to make you flinch. “Is that what you call it when I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you? Is it a ‘mistake’ that I can’t look at another woman without wishing she had your eyes?”
“Stop,” you breathed, but your hands weren’t pushing him away anymore.
“No,” he rasped, his face dropping until his nose was buried in the crook of your neck, his breath a searing brand against your skin. “You want me to act like I don’t give a shit who touches you? I can’t do it. I’m fucking done pretending.” He pulled back just enough to look at you, his eyes were no longer chocolate; they were charcoal, burning with a hunger that made Seongmin’s interest look like a polite suggestion. “Tell me it was a mistake again,” he challenged, “Tell me you didn’t feel the way my hands were on you. Tell me you want that suit back here instead of me.” His grip on your waist tightened, his fingers digging into the soft flesh of your hips. He didn’t wait for your answer. He leaned in, his mouth hovering a fraction of an inch from yours, the tension so thick it felt like it would shatter the glass in the windows around you. “Say it,” he whispered against your lips. “Lie to me.”
“You have no right to be this angry! You agreed to the silence! You looked me in the eye over coffee the next morning and said, ‘Let’s just be us again’ It’s you who lied!”
“I didn’t lie! I tried! I tried to be ‘us’ again. I tried to watch movies with you and not think about the way we kissed. I tried to listen to you talk about work and not remember the way you moaned when I was inside you!” He let out a harsh, guttural breath, his eyes wild and shimmering with a frustrated heat. “But then you walk into a club looking like that. You spend the whole night grinding against some strangers, looking back at me like you’re daring me to say something. And then you have the fucking nerve to tell me I need to get laid? Like I haven’t been starving for three months because I’m stuck in ‘best friend’ purgatory?”
“I didn’t ask you to wait!” your voice trembled with a mix of fury and a terrifying, rising ache in your chest. “If you wanted me, you should have said something! You should have stopped me from leaving that morning! But you just fucking sat there and let me walk out!”
“Because I was terrified! I was terrified that if I reached for you, I’d lose the only person who actually knows me. I thought I could handle being your friend. I thought I could watch you date and smile and be happy. But tonight? Seeing his hands on you?” He leaned down, his forehead thumping against yours with a dull, desperate thud. His breath was hot, smelling of malt and obsession. “It felt like someone was ripping my ribs out of my chest,” he whispered, the anger turning into something far more dangerous—honesty. “I’m done, baby. I’m done pretending. I’m a fucking wreck. Are you happy now? Is this the ‘fun’ you wanted me to have?”
You felt the heat of him radiating through your clothes, the violent rhythm of his heart drumming against your own ribs. Your hands, which had been balled into fists against his chest, slowly unfurled, your fingers clutching at the damp fabric of his shirt.
The silence of the parking lot was heavy, broken only by the distant, rhythmic hum of the club and the ragged hitch of Mingi’s breath against your mouth. The cold air nipped at your damp skin, but where your bodies pressed together, the heat was suffocating.
“I’m not happy,” you whispered, your voice cracking as the last of your defensive anger dissolved into a jagged, aching vulnerability. “I'm exhausted, Mingi. I’ve been waiting for you to say something. Anything.”
Mingi’s hands, which had been bruising your hips, suddenly shifted. One slid up the curve of your spine, his palm flat and searing, while the other tangled deep into the hair at the base of your skull, tilting your head back until you were forced to meet the raw, unmasked hunger in his eyes. He didn’t look like your best friend anymore.
“You want me to say it?” he rasped, his lips brushing yours with every word, a torture of near-contact. “I want you. I’ve wanted you since the second I woke up that morning and saw you curled by my side. I wanted to pull you closer and never let the sun come up.” He leaned in, his nose sliding against yours, his grip tightening until you were fused to the cold metal of the SUV. “I don’t want to be your ‘friend’ tonight, I don’t want to be the guy who vets your dates or buys you a beer while you dance with someone else. I want to be the reason you can’t walk tomorrow. I want to be the only name you can remember.”
He paused, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw, his touch heavy and possessive. “Tell me to stop. Right now. Tell me you want the ‘best friend’ back, and I’ll walk away. I’ll go find that girl. I’ll do exactly what you told me to do.”
You looked at him—at the damp platinum hair, the red mark of your palm still burning on his cheek, the intensity of his stare—and felt the last of your resolve shatter. You couldn’t tell him to stop.
Instead, you arched your back, pulling his hips flush against yours, your fingers digging into the muscles of his shoulders. “Don’t go.”
Mingi didn’t give you a chance to change your mind. He crashed his mouth against yours, the contact violent and desperate, a collision of three months of starved silence. It wasn’t a gentle kiss; it was a reclamation. His tongue demanding entry as he groaned deep in his throat—a sound of pure relief.
His hands were everywhere—clutching your waist, hiking up the hem of your dress, his skin a brand against yours. He backed you harder into the car, the suspension creaking under the weight of his aggression. He kissed you like he was trying to breathe you in, like he was trying to erase the ghost of every other hand that had touched you. It was messy, teeth clashing, the salt of your sweat mixing as he tilted your head back at a sharp angle to get deeper, hungrier. You didn’t fight him. You were kissing him back with the same pent-up rage. Your hands flew to his hair, your fingers tangling in those blonde, sweat-damp strands, pulling him closer until there wasn’t a molecule of air left between your bodies.
“Min—” you whimpered into his mouth, the name broken and small.
His large hand slid down from your face, his fingers pug your dress higher, knuckles grazing the sensitive skin of your tight. He broke the kiss to bury his face in the crook of your neck, his breath scalding your skin. He bit—not a nip, but a sharp, possessive mark, making you arch your back and cry out into the empty parking lot. His hands were everywhere now, frantic and heavy, mapping the curves he’d spent days trying to forget.
“Mine,” he muttered against your skin, his voice a dark, fractured thing. “You’re mine.”
The metal of the SUV groaned as Mingi surged forward, his body crushing you into the side of the car. He didn’t just hold your leg; he hiked it higher, his forearm hooking under the crook of your knee to pull you flush against the hard, frantic line of his hips. The friction of his denim against your bare inner thigh was a jolt of pure electricity, a rough, grounding contrast to the slick, desperate heat of his mouth. Mingi’s grip on your thighs tightened until his knuckles went white, his fingers sinking into your skin with a bruising, territorial force that made you let out a sharp, jagged gasp. He didn’t care about the bruises he was leaving; he wanted you to feel every ounce of hunger he’d been choking back.
“Say it,” he growled, his voice vibrating against the sensitive cord of your neck. He didn’t wait for you to speak, his teeth grazing the skin he’d just bitten, soothing and then stinging again. “Tell me you’re mine before I lose my fucking mind.” His free hand, the one not holding your leg, didn’t stay still. It slid upward, the tips of his fingers dragging over the silk of your dress, bunching the fabric until he found the damp, heated skin of your waist. He didn’t stop there. He pushed the material higher, his palm sliding over your ribs with a possessive, heavy pressure that made your breath hitch in a series of broken stammers. He moved his hand from your waist, his fingers fumbling with the button of his own jeans with a frantic, clumsy desperation. He broke away from your neck, his face flushed, his eyes dark and blown out with a hunger that was terrifyingly beautiful.
“Say it,” he growled again, his voice dropping into a guttural, terrifying register as he ground his hips into yours. You felt the hard, insistent length of his cock through his clothes. The friction was a white-hot spark against your core, the heavy, rigid length of him pressing through the thin silk of your dress with an uncompromising demand. “I want to hear you admit what a fucking liar you’ve been. Tell me you’re mine before I fuck the memory of that other prick out of your head right here on the street.”
Your head thrashed back against the cold glass of the car window, a low, desperate whine vibrating in your throat. “Min… Please… It’s you. I promise it’s you.”
“That’s not what I asked,” he hissed, his mouth crashing onto the sensitive junction of your neck and shoulder. He pulled back just enough to look you in the eye, his pupils so dilated they swallowed the gold of his irises. “I don’t want ‘it’s you.’ I want you to say the words. Tell me you’re my slut. Tell me you’ve been sitting across from me for months dreaming about me pinning you down like this.”
He didn’t wait for your answer. He let go of one of your legs, his hand diving between your bodies to finish what he’d started with his jeans. You heard the harsh, metallic zip of his fly—a sound that felt like a death knell for your dignity. He didn’t think about a condom; he didn’t even slow down. He grabbed his own length, his other hand bluntly and impatiently pulling the lace of your panties to the side.
Mingi guided himself to the soaking, frantic heat of your entrance. The feel of him—thick, hot, and uncompromisingly hard—pressing against your opening made your vision spark. He wasn’t entering you yet, but he was right there, the blunt head of him sliding through the slickness you’d made for him, teasing the very edge of the abyss.
“Look at you,” he taunted, his breath hitching as he felt how ready you were. “Leaking like a fucking sink for me while you were telling yourself we were ‘just friends’ ten minutes ago. You’re so desperate for me you don’t even care who sees.” He hiked your leg higher, his forearm pressing into the glass behind your head to steady himself. He leaned in until his nose was brushing yours. “I’m going to stretch you out so wide you won’t be able to walk back into that club,” he promised, his hips twitching in a slow, shallow thrust that tested your limits. “I’m going to fill you with so much of me that you’ll smell like me for a week. Now, tell me who you belong to before I take it.”
“Min, someone... someone might—”
“Let them fucking look,” he rasped, his voice a jagged edge. He didn’t care about the yellow wash of the street lamps or the muffled, rhythmic thump of the club doors.
“Min… stop,” you gasped, your fingers trembling as you shoved against the hard wall of his chest, trying to find a single inch of air. “Not here. Take me… take me home. Please.”
He didn’t let go. If anything, he pressed closer. “Take you home?” he leaned in until his lips were grazing yours, his teeth bared in a jagged sneer. “What, you worried that suit might walk out and see you getting exactly what you’ve been begging for? You want to be a lady now?”
"No, I just— Not here,” you gasped, “Mingi, please... not on the street. Take me home. Just—get me home.” You were breathless, your voice a ragged thread of sound that broke against his lips. You didn’t pull away; instead, you buried your face in the crook of his neck, inhaling the salt, the expensive cologne, and the raw, terrifying heat of him. You bit down on the corded tendon of his shoulder, a sharp, desperate nip that was less about pain and more a wordless, frantic plea.
Mingi let out a sound that was half-groan, half-growl, his forehead thumping against the car window with a dull thud as he fought the urge to just sink into you right there. He stayed pinned against you for a heartbeat, his chest heaving in sync with yours.
The silence of the alleyway seemed to roar in his ears.
Slowly, the haze in his eyes cleared just enough for him to see the way you were shaking in his arms—not just from the cold, but from the sheer, overwhelming weight of him. With a sharp, frustrated exhale, he snapped. He pulled back abruptly, his hands leaving your skin so suddenly you nearly stumbled. “Home,” he nodded slowly, the word sounding like a vow.
He didn’t drop you gently. He slid you down the side of the car, his hands never leaving your waist, his thumbs digging into your hip bones to keep you steady as your heels hit the pavement. His eyes were dark, almost black in the orange glow of the streetlamp, tracking the way your chest rose and fell. He reached out, his fingers trembling as he jerked your dress back down, smoothing the fabric over your thighs with a possessive, territorial rough-handedness.
“Don’t move,” he stepped back just far enough to fumble with his zipper, his movements jagged and impatient. He didn’t look toward the club; he looked toward the street, his arm shooting up the second he spotted the yellow glow of a taxi rounding the corner two blocks away.
He didn’t wait for it to reach you. He started walking toward the edge of the curb, his hand locked around your wrist, pulling you behind him with a singular, focused gravity. He was a different person—harder, faster, his shoulders set in a line that warned the world to stay the hell away. The taxi screeched to a halt, the driver barely having time to put it in park before Mingi yanked the back door open. He practically folded you into the seat, his body following yours so closely that you were pinned against the far door before he’d even slammed the car shut.
“Where to?” the driver asked, glancing in the rearview mirror.
Mingi gave his address, his voice dropping an octave, his hand already finding your thigh under the cover of the shadows. He didn’t care about the driver. He didn’t care about the neon lights of the city blurring past the window. He leaned over you, his hand sliding up your leg to bunch the fabric of your dress back toward your hips, his eyes fixed on yours with a terrifying, beautiful promise.
The interior of the taxi was a cramped, vinyl-scented capsule, the orange glow of the street lamps strobing across Mingi’s face in rhythmic, violent flashes. The driver hummed some mindless radio tune, oblivious to the fact that the air in the backseat was thick enough to choke on.
Mingi didn’t waste a second. He shifted, pinning you against the far door, his thigh slotting between yours to keep them spread. He looked out the window, his jaw set in a hard, protruding line of feigned indifference for the driver’s benefit, but his hand was doing something entirely different. His fingers hooked into the hem of your dress, the fabric sliding up your skin with a dry, rasping sound. He didn’t stop until his knuckles bumped against the damp lace of your underwear. You let out a soft, broken hitch of a breath, your head falling back against the window as the cool glass met your burning skin.
“Mingi,” you breathed, a warning and a plea rolled into one.
“Shh,” he rasped, finally turning his head to look at you. “You wanted to go home. We’re going. But I’m not stopping.”
He slid his hand beneath the lace, his palm cupping you with a sudden, bruising heat. You buckled against him, your fingers digging into the denim of his thighs. The taxi hit a pothole, jouncing the cabin, and Mingi used the momentum to drive his palm harder against you. He didn’t just slide his fingers in; he paused at the threshold, the tips of his fingers merely fluttering against the soaked silk of your underwear. He began to stroke you—just a feather-light touch at first, a torturous promise—before his fingers dipped lower, finding the slick, aching heat you’d been hiding all night. Your head hit the headrest, a choked-back moan dying in your throat. You could feel the vibration of the car’s engine beneath you, but it was nothing compared to the violent thrumming of Mingi’s heart against your shoulder.
“Look at this,” he whispered, his voice thick with a terrifying sort of triumph. He shifted his hand, bringing his damp fingers up between your faces so you could see the shimmer of yourself on his skin in the passing glow of a streetlamp. “All that talk about being ‘friends’ and ‘slip-ups,’ and you’re leaking for me in the back of a fucking taxi.” He leaned in, his nose brushing yours, his scent—sharp, masculine, and intoxicating—filling your head. He slid one finger in, just past the first knuckle, hooking it upward. You let out a strangled, high-pitched whimper, your hips jerking upward in a desperate search for friction. “You wanted me to put these hands on a stranger? To make her feel like this?” He pulled his finger back out until he was barely there. He did it again. And again. A rhythmic, shallow teasing that was ten times worse than the frantic grinding in the parking lot. He was reclaiming you, inch by agonising inch.
“You like that?” he rasped, his thumb catching your clit and pinning it with a heavy, steady pressure that made your vision go white at the edges. “I bet that suit didn’t even get close enough to know how sensitive you are right here. He didn’t know that if I press just like this, you start shaking, did he?” He began to move in a slow, torturous rhythm—not fast enough to bring you to the edge, but deep enough to keep the ache in your lower belly twisting into a tight knot. Every time you tried to buck against him to speed him up, he’d still his hand, or pull back entirely until you were whimpering for him to continue.
“Please,” you sobbed into his neck, your fingers digging so hard into his shoulders you were sure you’d leave marks.
“Please what, baby? Please stop?” He nipped at the skin of your throat, his fingers stretching you open as he added a second digit, sliding it in alongside the first with a deliberate, slow friction. “Or please don’t stop because you’ve been thinking about this as much as I have? Tell me the truth. While you were dancing with him, were you wondering if he’d touch you like this? Were you wondering if he knew how to make you fall apart?” He increased the pace just a fraction, his knuckles rubbing against your inner thigh, the heavy silver of his rings a cold, hard contrast to the blistering heat of your body.
You were melting, your breath coming in shallow, frantic hitches as the pressure built, centring right where his thumb was grinding.
“You aren’t finishing in the back of a Prius. You’re going to wait until we’re home. You’re going to wait until I can hear you moaning my name,” he looked out the window as the taxi pulled up to the curb of his apartment building. He didn’t move his hand until the car came to a full stop. Then, with one final, deep thrust that drew a sob from your throat, he withdrew, the sudden loss of heat and pressure making you feel dizzy. He wiped his fingers on the seat beside him—or perhaps your dress, you couldn’t tell—payed the driver, and leaned over to open the door, his eyes burning with a promise that made the taxi ride feel like a mere appetiser.
“Out,” he ordered, his eyes dark with a promise that made your knees feel like water. “I’m done teasing.”
The lobby was a blur of marble and hushed silence, a stark contrast to the war zone in the back of the taxi. Mingi didn’t let go of your wrist, his stride long and jagged as he hauled you toward the elevators. His knuckles were still damp, the scent of you clinging to his skin, and he didn’t even try to hide the way his gaze devoured the curve of your throat.
The chime of the elevator felt like a starter pistol. The doors slid shut with a heavy, mechanical sigh, sealing the two of you into a mirrored box of brushed steel. Mingi slammed his palm against the button for the 12th floor and then immediately pivoted, his arm lashing out to pin you against the handrail. The elevator jolted upward, the sudden gravity pulling your stomach into your throat, but Mingi’s weight was the only thing keeping you upright.
“Twelve floors,” he rasped, his voice a low, vibrating growl that echoed off the metal walls. “You have exactly twelve floors before I have you behind a locked door.”
His hand slid up from your waist, his palm flat and heavy against your ribs. His fingers splayed wide as he reached the underside of your breast. He squeezed—not a gentle caress, but a firm, possessive claim that made you gasp, your head thumping back against the mirrored wall. He leaned down, his teeth nipping at the sensitive junction where your neck met your shoulder, his tongue licking the sting away a second later.
His other hand dived low, his fingers hooking into the hem of your dress and yanking it up to your hips. He didn’t care about the security camera in the corner. He shoved his knee between your thighs, forcing them apart, his hand sliding over the silk of your underwear to find the heat he’d left behind in the taxi. He began to rub, a slow, heavy friction that made your knees buckle. “Look at yourself,” he commanded, nodding toward the mirrors.
You looked and saw the wreckage of your hair, the flush climbing up your chest, and Mingi—towering over you, his blonde hair a mess, his large hand disappearing between your legs.
“Floor six,” he whispered against your ear, his breath scalding. His thumb find your nipple through the dress and pinched, a sharp bolt of pleasure-pain that made you cry out. He caught the sound in his own mouth, kissing you with a bruising, desperate hunger that tasted of beer and obsession. His hands were a frantic map, sliding from the swell of your breasts down to the soft meat of your thighs, his fingers digging into your skin.
“Floor nine,” he groaned into the hollow of your throat, his hand sliding back down to grip your thigh, hitching it up around his waist so he could grind his dressed hardness against your core. The friction was a slow-motion torture that had you sobbing his name into the quiet hum of the elevator.
The chime for the 12th floor was the loudest sound you’d ever heard. The doors slid open. Mingi didn’t let you down. He kept your leg hooked around his hip, his arm a steel band around your waist as he practically carried you down the hall, his keys already out and jingling with a frantic, metallic rhythm.
He fumbled with the keys, his breath coming in short, jagged hitches that rattled in his chest. The lock clicked and he kicked the door open, dragging you inside into the pitch-black entryway. He didn’t turn on the lights and slammed the door shut behind you, the boom echoing through the empty apartment, and in the same motion, he shoved you back against it. The wood was solid and unforgiving against your spine, a cold shock that lasted only a second before Mingi’s heat incinerated it. He dropped his weight into you, his forearms slamming against the door on either side of your head, pinning you in the narrow dark. The only light came from the city skyline bleeding through the floor-to-ceiling windows in the living room, casting his silhouette in a jagged, silver outline. He didn’t give you a chance to breathe. He reached down, his hands catching the hem of your dress and yanking it up past your hips, the fabric bunching around your waist in a frantic, messy pile. His palms were scorching, his skin a brand against your thighs as he hiked your legs up, his strong arms hooking under your knees to lift you off the floor.
You let out a broken gasp, your hands flying to his shoulders, your fingers digging into the material of his shirt for balance. You wrapped your legs around his waist, your heels locking behind his back, pulling him flush against the aching, empty core. He buried his face in the crook of your neck. He didn’t kiss you; he claimed you.
“I’ve spent three months staring at this door, remembering the way you looked when you walked through it the last time. I’m not letting you go until I’ve had every fucking inch of you.”
He shifted his grip, one hand staying under your thigh while the other moved to his jeans, the metallic rasp of his zipper sounding like a gunshot in the quiet apartment. He was shaking—you could feel the tremors in his muscles, the raw, unhinged desperation of a man who had reached his absolute limit. When he adjusted his grip on your thighs and surged forward, the air didn’t just leave your lungs—it was stolen.
His cock was massive. A blunt, heavy intrusion that felt like he was rearranging the very architecture of your body. The initial stretch was a sharp, searing sting, a fire that made your eyes snap wide and your breath hitch into a tight, jagged sob. It was too much; it was the physical manifestation of ninety days of starved silence suddenly demanding entry all at once.
“Mingi—wait,” you wheezed, your fingers digging into the fabric of his shirt, your knuckles white as you tried to find your bearings.
“No,” he growled, the word a dark, guttural vibration against the sensitive cord of your throat. He didn’t pull back. He stayed buried deep to the absolute hilt, his forehead thumping against the door next to your ear as he fought the urge to just cum right then. His muscles were coiling like overwound springs, his skin radiator-hot against yours. “Don’t you dare tell me to wait,” his teeth grazed your earlobe with a threatening pressure. “You’ve made me wait for three fucking months. So now, you’re going to take every bit of this.”
He didn’t ease you into it. He began to move—a shallow, punishing rhythm that forced your head back against the wood. Every strike was a blunt-force, pleasure and pain, the sting began to dull into a heavy, throbbing ache, a fullness that radiated from your core to your toes.
You let out a long, shaky moan, your hips tilting instinctively to take more of him. Your hands, frantic and clumsy with adrenaline, fumbled with the buttons of his shirt, your fingernails grazing the damp, hard heat of his chest. You needed him closer. You needed the barrier of the fabric gone. As the shirt fell open, you pressed your palms against his bare skin, feeling the violent gallop of his heart.
“Take it off,” you whimpered into the hollow of his neck, your teeth catching on his skin. “Min, please.”
He let out a sound that was purely animal. He didn’t take the shirt off; he simply ripped it back, the buttons popping and skittering across the hardwood floor like hail. He caught your face in his hand, his thumb digging into your cheek as he kissed you—a messy, desperate collision of tongues and teeth that tasted of salt and obsession.
He hammered into you, his thrusts deep and punishing, pinning you against the door with a force that made the hinges groan. Every impact sent a shockwave through your frame, your head knocking back against the wood in time with his movements. The pain was gone, incinerated by a white-hot friction that made your vision blur into streaks.
Mingi pulled back just an inch, his eyes raking over the silk fabric of your dress. He didn’t reach for a zipper at the side. He didn’t look for a seam. He hooked his large fingers into the delicate neckline and pulled. The sound of the silk shredding was a sharp, violent protest in the quiet hallway. He hauled the fabric down, the material bunching around your waist and then falling to the floor in a ruined, expensive heap. He didn’t stop until you were completely exposed to the cool air of the apartment, your skin pale and shivering under the harsh focus of his gaze. He grabbed your waist again, his thumbs digging into your hip bones as he slammed you back against the door. Without the silk as a barrier, the contact was electric.
“You’re so tight,” he rasped, the words broken and guttural, hissed into the sensitive shell of your ear. “Fucking killing me... how much you want this.” His hand moved to your breast, his palm heavy and possessive, thumb catching your sensitive nipple and rolling it with a bruising pressure that made you cry out. Mingi couldn’t care less about the noise. He didn’t care about the neighbours or the world outside. He was focused entirely on the way you were breaking around him, the way your legs were locked around his waist, your heels drumming against the small of his back.
His pace became frantic, a blurring, heavy friction that pushed you toward a ledge you weren’t ready for. He was growling now, his breath coming in ragged, wet hitches, his mouth against your cheek as he felt the first tremors of your climax begin to ripple through you.
“Look at me.” You opened your eyes, your vision swimming with tears and pleasure. Even in the dark, his eyes were burning, fixed on yours with a terrifying, singular focus. “Tell me,” he gasped, his pace quickening, his chest heaving against yours until you could feel the frantic gallop of his heart. “Tell me who’s inside you. Say the name.”
“Mingi,” you sobbed, the name a shattered, breathless thing as you gripped his hair, pulling his face closer. You couldn’t even think; the sheer, thick volume of him was filling every corner of your consciousness, stretching you until you felt like you might split apart from the pleasure of it. “It’s you.”
He didn’t stop. His pace was a heavy, wet rhythm that echoed through the apartment. Each thrust was a blunt-force, pinning you so hard against the door that the wood vibrated against your shoulder blades. “Say it again,” he growled, his teeth bared, sweat dripping from the tip of his nose onto your cheek. “Tell me whose you are.”
“Yours,” you moaned, your hips buckling, chasing the friction as the pressure behind your navel tightened. “Mingi, I’m yours. Please—I’m close. I’m so close.”
His breath hitched, a jagged, guttural sound as his own control finally disintegrated. He buried his face in the crook of your neck, his muscles corded like steel cables under your palms. He was trembling violently, his thrusts reaching a shallow speed that told you he was right on the precipice. “Where?” he rasped, the word barely a whisper, thick with a desperate urgency. He gripped your hips so hard his fingers left white imprints on your skin. “Where do you want it? Tell me where, baby, before I lose it.”
You wrapped your arms around his neck, pulling him in as if you could pull him into your very soul. “Inside,” you choked out, your voice dropping to a raw, pleading whimper. “Inside me, give it all to me. Fill me up.”
The permission was the final blow. Mingi let out a low, primal roar that vibrated through your entire chest cavity. He surged forward one last time, burying himself to the absolute hilt, and stalled there. His entire body locked up, his head snapping back as he came, the sheer force of it pulsing through him in heavy, rhythmic waves. You felt the blistering heat of him flooding you—a thick, relentless spill that made your own walls contract in a violent, cascading climax. You cried out, your voice dying in your throat as your vision sparked with silver, your body sagging against him as the world tilted and dissolved.
For a long minute, the only sound in the entryway was the ragged, sobbing hitch of your combined breathing. Mingi stayed buried inside you, his forehead resting against the door, his chest heaving as if he’d just survived a wreck. He didn’t move, holding you up as the mess of him began to trickle down your skin.
Slowly, he pulled his head back, his eyes searching yours in the dim silver light. He kissed you, his lips lingering as he let your legs slide down his body until your feet touched the floor.
Your legs were liquid, useless stalks of flax that buckled the moment your heels touched the hardwood. You would have crumpled right there in the entryway, amidst the ruins of your dress, his shirt and the lingering scent of sex. But Mingi didn’t let you fall. He caught you, his large hands clamping under your armpits with a strength that felt more like a crane than a caress.
He didn’t lead you. He hauled you up, his arm hooking under your knees and his other hand bracing your back. You were a dead weight against his bare, sweat-slicked chest, your head lolling against his shoulder as the hallway blurred past.
He reached the threshold of the bedroom and tossed you. You hit the mattress with a heavy whump, the air huffing out of your lungs as you bounced once, twice, before settling into the tangled, dark sheets. The bed smelled faintly of him but it was quickly being overwhelmed by the scent of the two of you, salt and sex.
Mingi didn’t join you immediately. He stood at the foot of the bed, a dark silhouette against the moonlight, his chest heaving as he stared down at you. He looked like a man who had just won a war and didn’t know what to do with the prisoner.
He kicked off his boots, the heavy thuds echoing like stones hitting a grave, and then his hands went to his jeans.
“You think that was it?” he stripped the rest of his clothes off with a violent, impatient efficiency, throwing them toward the corner without looking. “You think I’m just going to let you sleep after what you did tonight?”
He reached out, his hand wrapping around your ankle with a grip that felt like an iron shackle. He unbuckled the delicate straps of your heels and tossed them aside like they were trash. Then, he crawled onto the bed, the mattress dipping dangerously under his weight. He didn’t come at you from the side; he moved over you like a shadow, his knees pinning your thighs down, his hands catching your wrists and pinning them above your head.
He was still hard—viciously so—the evidence of his release in the hallway still glistening on his skin. He looked down at you, his blonde hair falling over his eyes, his expression stripped of every ounce of the “best friend” mask.
“I’m going to make you stay awake until you can’t even remember that prick’s name,” he hissed, his face dropping until his nose was an inch from yours. “I'm going to mark every inch of skin he even thought about looking at.”
He hooked his fingers into the waistband of your lace panties—the ones that were a soaked from your slick and his cum, a ripped mess from how he pushed them aside in the hallway with too much force. Mingi didn’t slide them down your legs. He buried his knuckles into your hip bones and ripped them. The sound of the lace tearing was a sharp, final punctuation. He shredded the fabric, pulling the scraps away and throwing them into the dark behind him.
He dived down, his mouth catching your breast with a hunger that was borderline painful, his tongue swirling around the peak while his other hand slid down, his fingers spreading your folds open with a rough focus. You were still sensitive, still pulsing, and the sudden, heavy contact made you cry out, your hips jerking upward in a frantic, uncoordinated search for release.
“Min, please—”
“I told you,” he growled, his voice vibrating against your skin. “Don’t fucking ‘Min’ me. You wanted this version of me? You wanted the guy who needs to ‘get laid’? You’ve got him. At the club you had a lot of advice for me, didn’t you? You told me I was ‘wound too tight.’ You told me exactly what I needed to fix my mood.”
He let out a low, dark chuckle that didn’t reach his eyes.
“What were the words, baby? ‘Your dick needs a good sucking’?” He threw the phrase back at you like a slur, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw before hooking into your mouth, forcing your lips open. “You were so worried about my stress levels. So eager to find me a ‘victim’ to take care of it,” he hissed. “Well, the victim’s right here, and I’m still wound pretty fucking tight. So, since you’re such an expert on what I need, why don’t you show me? No more talk. Do exactly what you said I needed.”
He didn’t wait for you to move on your own. He grabbed your waist and hauled you off the bed, his movements jerky and impatient. “On your knees, use that fucking mouth for something other than lying to me,” he commanded, “I want to hear you choke on every word you said tonight.”
Mingi didn’t sit back to enjoy the view. He stood over you, his legs braced wide. His hand didn’t just rest on your head; it clamped into your hair, his knuckles scraping against your scalp as he forced your face forward. “Do it,” he hissed, the word a serrated edge in the quiet room. “Show me exactly how you’d take care of a stranger. Show me what you were going to offer that suit.”
When you finally took his cock into your mouth, the sheer, thick volume of him was shocking. Your jaw ached instantly, the muscles straining to accommodate the heavy, pulsing heat of him. You started slow, your tongue swirling around the tip, tasting the salt and the lingering, raw scent of the night, but Mingi wasn’t interested in a slow burn. He groaned—a low, guttural vibration that you felt in your teeth—and his grip in your hair tightened until your eyes watered. You leaned in further, your nose brushing against the coarse hair at the base of him, the scent of his skin—musk, sweat, and adrenaline—filling your lungs until you were lightheaded. You were drooling, the slick moisture running down your chin and dripping, but you didn’t pull away.
“Suck it,” he commanded, his voice dropping into a dark, demeaning rasp. “Like you’ve been starving for it.”
He didn’t wait for you to find a rhythm. He began to move his hips, a slow, rhythmic surge that forced you to swallow him deeper. Every time you tried to pull back for air, his hand at the back of your head became a vice, slamming you back forward. He was fucking your throat, his thrusts reaching a shallow speed that triggered your gag reflex, making your chest heave against his thighs. You were choking, a muffled, wet sound dying in your throat, but Mingi didn’t ease up. He liked the sound. He liked the way your eyes were wide and shimmering with tears, fixed on his as he looked down at you with a cold, predatory triumph.
“That’s it,” he growled, his breath coming in ragged, animalistic hitches. “Choke on it, baby. Let me feel how much you hate that you love this. Tell me again how I’m just your ‘best friend’ while you’re down there on your knees like a fucking dog.”
He increased the pace, his hands moving from your hair to your shoulders, pinning you down so you couldn’t move an inch. He was relentless, his cock sliding past the point of comfort, hitting the back of your throat with a blunt, rhythmic force.
“You’re so pathetic,” he taunted, his thumb reaching down to rub a drop of moisture from your lip before smearing it on your cheek. “Acting all high and mighty at the bar, and now you’re desperate. You’re shaking.” He wasn’t close to being done. He was using you to vent every ounce of the ninety days of silence, every second of the jealousy that had been eating him alive. He grabbed your chin, forcing you to look up at him as he continued to drive into your mouth. “Is this ‘fun’ enough for you?” he groaned, his voice breaking with the effort of his control. “Is this what you wanted to see? The version of me that doesn’t give a fuck about your feelings?”
Mingi hauled you back up by the roots of your hair, your head snapping back as he forced you to sit on your heels. You were a wreck—makeup smudged into dark halos around your eyes, your lips swollen and slick, a string of saliva trailing down to the curve of your collarbone. You looked exactly how he’d imagined you, and the sight of it seemed to strip the last of the humanity from his expression.
Mingi’s hand was a heavy at the base of your skull, his fingers deep in your hair as he set a rhythm that was purely for his own satisfaction. Every time he drove deep, the world blurred into a haze of white noise and the suffocating scent of him, your throat working desperately around the thick, relentless intrusion of his length. You were drowning in him, your senses overloaded by the friction and the raw, guttural sounds he was making above you.
Unable to stay still, your hand drifted downward, your fingers seeking the slick, aching heat between your thighs. The moment you touched yourself, the sensation was a violent electric shock; you were so sensitive, so over-sensitised by the rough treatment and the crushing fullness in your throat, that the slightest pressure felt like an explosion. You were a drenched, pulsing mess, your fingers sliding through the excessive wetness you’d made for him as you began to work yourself in sync with his thrusts.
The sight of it—the way you were frantically helping yourself while he used your mouth—sent Mingi straight to the edge. He watched your eyes roll back, your hips twitching in a desperate, uncoordinated rhythm, and he felt the frantic, wet heat of your throat tightening around him in response.
“Fuck, you’re so close,” he choked out, his voice a fractured wreck. He could feel the pressure building behind his eyes, a searing, white-hot tension that told him he was seconds away from losing control completely. “Three months of acting like you were too good for this. Three months of playing the ‘best friend’ while you were probably dreaming about being exactly where you are right now.”
He didn’t want to finish in your mouth; he wanted to see the mess he’d made. Mingi didn’t let go of your hair as he pulled out, the sudden rush of air into your lungs making you let out a broken, wheezing sob. He watched your hand move frantically between your legs. You were too far gone to stop; the friction of his throat-fucking had left you on a razor’s edge, and the sight of him—hard, twitching, and lethal—was the final shove you needed.
“Look at me,” he commanded, his voice a jagged, guttural snap. “Don’t you dare close your eyes. Watch what you’re doing to yourself for me.”
You obeyed, your eyes wide and glazed with a terrifying level of pleasure as you worked your fingers against your swollen core. You were drenched, the sound of the wet friction loud in the quiet room. Mingi’s hand moved to his own length, his grip blunt and punishing as he matched your frantic pace. He was snarling now, his teeth bared, his eyes fixed on the way your hips were jerking, the way your inner thighs were trembling.
“That's it,” he rasped, his own rhythm turning into a blur of motion. “Come for me, you slut. Show me how much you want it.”
The world fractured. You hit your peak with a high, shattered scream that echoed off the walls, your body arching off the floor as your muscles convulsed in a violent, rhythmic release. Right as you shattered, Mingi let out a low, animalistic roar, his own body locking up as he finally let go. The first splash of his cum hit your cheek, a searing, thick contrast to the cool air of the room. You gasped, your eyes fluttering shut for a second before you forced them open, watching him as he came. It was a heavy, relentless release, painting your skin—the bridge of your nose, the corner of your mouth, your other cheek. Mingi didn’t stop until he was spent, his breath coming in sobbing, jagged bursts. You were still twitching from your own orgasm, your breath coming in sobbing hitches, when the final, hot spray landed against your forehead.
He looked down at the wreckage of your face with a mix of hunger and a terrifying, dazed possessiveness. “You’re nothing but a little cum slut, aren’t you?” He whispered, his voice a broken thread of sound. “Now you look right. Now you look like you belong to me.”
Slowly, your fingers traced the heavy, warm smear on your cheek, dragging the heat toward the corner of your mouth. When your tongue flicked out, catching the stray, salt-sharp drop from your lip, the sound that left Mingi’s throat wasn’t human. It was a low groan—a guttural vibration that started deep in his chest and broke against his teeth.
“Fuck,” he rasped, leaning closer, his shadow swallowing you as he watched you swallow him.
You tasted the raw, metallic tang of him. You didn’t just take it; you looked him dead in the eye, your tongue tracing the seam of your lips to make sure you didn’t miss a single drop. You were a mess—covered in his cum, your face flushed and ruined—and you were offering it back to him as a final, absolute surrender.
“You like it, don’t you?” his thumb slid into your mouth, dragging across your tongue. He let out another fractured, breathless groan. “You’re sitting here, looking like a fucking angel with my mess on your face, and you’re asking for more.” He grabbed your jaw, his fingers digging into your skin with a territorial, bruising intensity that made your breath hitch. He wasn’t just satisfied; he was re-ignited. The sight of your total lack of shame—the way you were devouring the evidence of his claim—was the final match in the powder keg of his restraint.
You reached up, your fingers trembling as you gripped his wrist, pulling his hand just far enough from your lips so you could speak. You were trembling, your chest heaving with a desperate, frantic need that hadn’t been satisfied yet. “Say it again,” you whimpered, the words sliding out in a high, desperate whine. “Please... Call me that again.”
Mingi froze, his muscles locking up under your touch. “Say what?”
“What you called me,” you sobbed, the desperation finally breaking through. You looked up at him, your eyes blown out and shimmering with tears, the salt of his release still stinging your cheeks. “Call me that again. Call me your slut. I want to hear it while you’re looking at me. I want to know that’s all I am to you tonight.”
A dark, visceral shudder ran through Mingi’s entire frame. He let out a sound that was half-choke, half-growl, his hand sliding to the back of your neck, his fingers tangling deep in your hair to force your head back. He leaned down until his lips were a hair’s breadth from yours, his breath searing. “You want to hear it?” he hissed, his voice dropping into that terrifying, guttural frequency that made your insides turn to liquid. “You want me to remind you how pathetic you are? How you’re sitting here on the floor, covered in my cum?”
“Yes,” you breathed, your hips reflexively hitching toward him. “Please, tell me.”
“You’re a slut,” he didn’t say it with kindness; he said it with the raw, territorial hunger of a man who had finally claimed his prize. “You’re my little slut. My lying, beautiful, desperate slut who’s finally exactly where she belongs.”
He watched the way the words made you shatter, the way your eyes rolled back and a high, broken moan tore from your throat. “You’re pathetic,” he rasped, his hand coming down to catch your jaw again. “A mess. Look at you, begging for it.”
“I am,” a small, broken sound. You leaned your face into his palm, your skin stinging where the stubble on his thumb caught. “I want... I want you to make me feel it. Slap me, Min. Do it.”
Mingi’s hand stilled against your jaw, his fingers curling into your hair as he stared at you with an expression that was both horrified and hungry. “What did you say?”
“I want... I want you to make me feel it,” you whispered, your voice a broken, jagged thread of sound. “I want you to make me understand. Slap me. Do it. Show me exactly what you think of me.”
A dark, visceral shudder ran through his frame. He didn’t hesitate. The sound of his palm connecting with your cheek was a sharp, heavy crack that echoed through the empty apartment. Your head snapped to the side, the force of it making your vision spark white for a split second. The sting was immediate—a white-hot, throbbing heat that radiated from your cheek down to your throat, making you moan.
Mingi didn’t let you pull away. He grabbed your jaw, his fingers digging into the bone to force your face back toward his. He was shaking, his chest heaving as if he’d just run a mile, his nostrils flared. “Is that what you want?” he hissed, his voice a jagged edge of pure, unadulterated menace. “You want me to treat you like a toy? You want me to leave marks so everyone knows what you’ve been doing behind closed doors?”
“Yes,” you sobbed, the word breaking against his lips. “Yes, please.”
He hit you again—shorter, sharper this time, the sound punctuated by the desperate, high-pitched whine that tore from your throat. He grabbed the back of your head, forcing you to look up at him. “You want me to treat you like you’re nothing? Like you’re just a place for me to put my dick in?”
He hadn’t even fully come down from the first two rounds before the sight of you, messy and pleading on your knees, had his dick surging back to life. “All fours. Now. I want your ass up and your head down.” His hand moved from your head to your shoulder, pulling you up only to shove you toward the mattress.
You scrambled to obey, your limbs heavy and uncoordinated, your knees dragging against the sheets. You pushed yourself up, your back arching as you lowered your chest to the pillows, leaving your hips elevated and exposed. The cool air hit your damp skin, making you shiver. Behind you, Mingi grabbed your hips, his fingers digging into the soft flesh with a bruising intensity that marked his territory. He positioned himself at your entrance.
“Don’t you dare move,” he commanded, his voice a low, vibrating threat against your spine. He surged forward, a deep, uncompromising thrust that felt like it reached all the way to your ribs. You let out a loud, echoing moan, your forehead thumping into the pillow as the sheer, thick volume of him filled you to the absolute limit, your walls contracting in a desperate welcome.He wasn’t being careful. He immediately started hammering into you, the sound of skin hitting skin a rhythmic, wet slapping that filled the room. He reached forward, his hand finding your hair again and pulling, forcing your head up so you had to see your own reflection in the mirrored closet doors across the room.
“Look at yourself,” he hissed, his breath hot and ragged against your ear. “Look at what a mess you are for me. Tell me you’re my slut. Say it while I’m fucking the life out of you.”
“I’m yours,” you sobbed, your voice breaking as he hit that one spot deep inside, over and over, with a relentless, territorial precision. “I’m your slut, Mingi... please, don’t ever stop.”
He let out a low, primal roar, his thrusts becoming shallow and frantic as he reached the precipice. Mingi’s palm slammed into the soft meat of your ass with a stinging, heavy crack that echoed louder than your own frantic breathing. The impact made your spine whip into a sharp arch, your chest pressing so hard into the pillows that the air was forced out of your lungs in a jagged, high-pitched sob.
He reached forward, his hand sliding under your jaw and clamping around your throat. He didn’t cut off your air, but the weight of his palm was a heavy, suffocating collar that forced your head back at a punishing angle.
He leaned over your back, his bare chest a wall of heat against your spine. He didn’t kiss you; he sank his teeth into the sensitive skin of your shoulder, a sharp, jagged bite that drew a muffled, pained cry from your throat. He held it there, his teeth grinding into your skin until you felt the sting turn into a white-hot, throbbing ache that radiated down to your toes.
He let go of your neck only to grab both of your wrists, pinning them into the small of your back with one massive hand while his other hand found your ass again, spanking it with a territorial, bruising intensity. “Is it too much for you? Is the ‘best friend’ being too mean? Tell me to stop, slut.”
“No,” you sobbed, the word a broken, pathetic whine that was lost to the rhythmic, wet slapping of his hips against yours. You were a mess—your skin slick with sweat and the evidence of his earlier release, your vision sparking with every deep, uncompromising strike. “Mingi... please... don’t stop. I’m yours. Only yours.”
“Good,” he growled, the vibration of the word traveling through your body. He increased the pace, his thrusts reaching brutal speed that made the bed frame rattle against the wall. He was hammering into you, his knuckles rubbing against your inner thigh, his thumb finding that one specific spot he remembered and grinding into it with a relentless, heavy pressure.
You were breaking. The walls you’d built over the last three months weren’t just crumbling; they were on fire. You were a moaning, begging, sobbing wreck under him, your hips stuttering in a frantic, uncoordinated dance as you tried to keep up with his aggression. Every time you tried to pull away from the intensity, he’d yank your hair or tighten, forcing you to take every inch of him.
“Look at yourself,” he shoved his fingers into your mouth, tasting the salt of your tears as he forced you to choke on them. “Ninety days I sat across from you and acted like I didn’t want to do exactly this. Ninety days of you pretending you didn’t need this. And now look at you. You’re pathetic. You’re shaking for me.”
He suddenly released your wrists, but before you could even bring your hands forward to brace yourself, he grabbed your waist and hauled your hips upward, his fingers hooking into the front of your hip bones and pulling you back so hard you thought you might snap. He dived deep, his cock hitting the back of you with a blunt-force that made your vision go black for a split second.
“Mine,” he roared, the word a primal, guttural sound that tore from his throat. He was close—you could feel the tremors in his muscles, the way his breath was coming in ragged, wet hitches that rattled in his chest.
“I’m coming,” he hissed, his voice a fractured thread of sound. “And I’m going to fill you so full you won’t be able to think about another man for the rest of your fucking life.”
He surged forward one last time, his entire body locking up as he came. He let out a low groan, his forehead thumping against your back as he flooded you with a thick, relentless heat.
Mingi didn’t move, he stayed buried inside you, his heavy weight pinning you into the sheets, his breath hot and ragged against your skin. The silence that followed his release was suffocating, broken only by the ragged, wet sound of Mingi’s lungs fighting for air against your spine. He was a dead weight, his chest heaving, his skin slick and sticking to yours as the heat of him pooled inside you. But for you, the world hadn’t stopped. The friction, the bites, and the deep, territorial hammering had wound you into a tight, screaming knot of nerves that was now vibrating with fire.
You tried to shift, to grind your hips back against him in a desperate search for the friction he’d just stolen away, but he was too heavy. You were pinned, your face buried in the damp pillow, the salt of your tears stinging the raw skin of your cheeks.
“Mingi,” you whimpered, the name coming out as a broken, high-pitched sob. “Mingi, please... I can’t—I need to cum.”
He let out a low, vibrating grunt against your shoulder blade, his fingers still curled loosely into the hair at the base of your skull. The lack of response made the ache in your lower belly sharpen into a physical pain. You began to thrash weakly, your knees scraping against the sheets as you tried to find the ledge he’d just pushed you off.
“Please!” you cried out, your voice cracking, raw and whiny. “It hurts, Min. I’ve been so fucking good... I did everything. I let you... I let you do everything.”
The memory of the hallway, the cold door, the floor, and the taste of him flooded back, making your pulse hammer in your throat. You were a mess—covered in him, marked by him, and utterly unraveled.
“I need it,” you sobbed into the pillow, your hips bucking in a pathetic, uncoordinated jerk. “Please, don’t leave me like this. I was so good for you. Call me whatever you want, just—please, Mingi, make me cum.”
You felt him shift then. It wasn’t a gentle movement. He let out a dark, weary chuckle that sounded more like a growl, his head lifting from your back. He didn’t pull out; instead, he gripped your waist again, his fingers sinking into the bruises he’d already made.
“You’re still talking?” he rasped, his voice a jagged, exhausted thread. He leaned down, his lips brushing the shell of your ear, his breath searing. “You’re still demanding things?”
“I have to,” you wailed, your hands clawing at the headboard, your knuckles white. “I’m going to die if you don’t... please, Min... I was your slut, wasn’t I? Take care of your slut.”
The word seemed to spark the last of the embers in him. He didn’t rise back up to his feet, but he shifted his weight, reaching one large hand down between your bodies. When he found the slick, swollen clit—drenched in the evidence of his own release—you let out a scream that was muffled by the bedding.
“You were good,” he muttered, his thumb finding that sensitive peak and pinning it with a brutal, heavy pressure. He began to move, a slow, torturous circle that made your vision go white. “So fucking good.”
He increased the pressure, his other hand coming around to catch your throat again, holding you still as you began to shatter.
The moment his thumb ground into that hyper-sensitive peak, the tension that had been coiling in your gut for didn’t just snap—it exploded. Your back arched so violently your spine felt like it might crack, a sharp, broken scream tearing from your throat as the first wave hit. It wasn’t a quiet release; it was a violent one. You felt the sudden, hot deluge as you squirted, the fluid drenching his hand and splashing against the sheets and his own thighs in a frantic, uncontrollable flood.
“Fuck!” you wailed, your head thrashing against the pillow, your vision blurring into white static.
Mingi let out a dark, guttural sound—half-laugh, half-growl—as he felt the heat of you soaking the bed beneath him. He didn’t pull back. He didn’t give you a second to breathe or let your heart rate settle. Instead, the sight of you finally breaking, drowning in your own pleasure and his mess, seemed to snap the last of his restraint.
“Look at this,” he watched the fluid soak into the dark fabric of the sheets. “Look at what a fucking mess I made of you. You’re soaking my bed, baby. You’re practically drowning in it.”
He didn’t wait for the tremors in your thighs to stop. He gripped your hips again, and surged forward. He was still semi-soft from his release, but the sheer, friction-heavy contact of your contractions squeezing him, combined with the sight of your total undoing, had him hardening inside you again with a terrifying, rapid gravity.
“We’re not done,” he hissed, his teeth grazing the back of your neck. “You wanted to be my slut? You wanted to stay on your knees? Then stay there. I’m going to make sure you’re still twitching when the sun comes up.”
He grabbed your waist, his strength uncompromising as he forced you to shift. He hauled you around until you were flat on your back, your hair fanned out against the cushions. The transition was jarring, the cool air hitting your drenched skin and making your nipples peak instantly.
Mingi loomed over you, his knees bracketing your hips, his chest heaving. From this angle, he looked even more massive, his shadow swallowing you whole. He reached down, grabbing your ankles and shoving your knees back toward your chest, pinning you wide open in a position that left absolutely nothing to the imagination.
The sight of you—flushed, trembling, and still glistening from your own climax—sent a fresh wave of heat through him. He looked down at your face, seeing the red mark on your cheek and the dazed, broken look in your eyes, and his jaw tightened.
“I want to see your face when I do this,” his hand slid down to guide his rigid, pulsing length back to your entrance. He was already heavy and leaking again. “I want to see your eyes roll back when you realise you’re never going to be empty again.”
He leaned forward, his weight crushing you into the bed, and began to sink back in. It was a slow deep stretch, his eyes locked onto yours as he watched the exact moment the air left your lungs.
He began to move again, but the rhythm was different now—slower, heavier, and even more punishing. Every thrust was a wet, sliding impact, the sound of skin hitting skin loud and rhythmic in the quiet room. Because of how wet you were, he was sliding deep, hitting your cervix with a blunt force that made you sob, your hands clutching the sheets as you tried to keep your balance.
Mingi watched your face with a predatory stillness, his eyes tracking every flicker of sensation that crossed your features. He didn’t move fast. He didn’t give you the frantic pace. Instead, he began a slow, deep grind, his hips rotating in a way that forced you to feel every single ridge, every throb of his pulse against your internal walls.
“Does that hurt?” he whispered, his voice a low, vibrating hum that seemed to resonate inside your very bones. “Or does it just ache? Tell me how it feels to have me taking up every inch of you while you’re still coming down.”
He pulled back so slowly it was a torture of its own, the slick friction of his withdrawal making your breath hitch in a series of broken, stuttering hitches. Just as you thought he was going to leave you empty, he surged back in, a heavy, deliberate thrust that bottomed out with a wet, visceral thud.
“I can’t... Min, I can’t,” the words dissolved into a series of broken moans. You were a sobbing, twitching, mess under him, your body no longer your own, entirely at his mercy.
Mingi reached down, his hand clamping around your throat—not enough to choke, but enough to hold you still, his thumb pressing firmly into the hinge of your jaw to force your mouth open.
“You’re clenching around me so tight,” he groaned, his forehead thumping against yours. “It’s like your body is trying to trap me inside. Is that what you want? To keep me here until the sun comes up?”
He moved again—a torturous, dragging slide that hit your G-spot with a precision that made your toes curl and your fingers dig into his forearms. Your hips reflexively tried to chase the rhythm he was denying you. Every time you tried to buck upward to meet him, he used his hands to pin you back further, keeping you wide, and exposed.
“Don’t rush me,” he hissed, his teeth grazing your jaw. “You’re going to feel every single second of this.”
He leaned down, his tongue catching a stray tear on your cheek before his mouth hovered over yours.
The slowness was stripping your nerves bare. Every time he dragged himself out, you felt a hollow, frantic grief, and every time he pushed back in with that heavy, unhurried deliberation, your vision swam with a desperate need. You were reaching for a peak that he was moving further away with every torturous rotation of his hips.
“Please... please,” your fingers were clawing at his biceps, trying to pull him down, trying to force a friction that would finally break you. “Not like this. Don’t... don’t be slow. I can’t take it.”
“You want me to stop being gentle?” he gripped your hair, tilting your head back until your throat was exposed and your eyes were locked on his. “You want me to treat you like the slut you are? To drive you into the bed until you can’t remember your own name?”
“Yes!” the word was a shattered, frantic plea.
“Damn right.”
He didn’t ease into it. He surged forward with a sudden, violent velocity that knocked the air out of your lungs in a sharp ungh. He began to drive into you with a rhythmic, bruising ferocity, his hips hitting yours with a sound like a physical assault. He leaned down, his chest crushing yours, his mouth on yours in a kiss that tasted of salt, desperation, and total victory. He grabbed your wrists, pinning them beside your head, his fingers interlacing with yours in a grip that felt like a permanent brand. Every thrust was deeper than the last, his hips slamming against yours with a wet, heavy sound that filled the room. He was watching you—watching the way your lips parted, the way your eyes rolled back, the way you were completely, utterly coming apart under him. He liked the mess. He liked that he was the one who had reduced you to a whimpering, begging slut.
“You’re so fucking perfect like this,” he muttered against your lips, his breathing coming in jagged, animalistic bursts. “Broken. Messy. Mine.”
He shifted his grip, one hand leaving your wrist to slide down, his thumb finding your hyper-sensitive clit again, grinding into it even as he hammered into you. The dual assault was too much. You felt the scream building in your throat, your entire body coiling into a tight wire.
“I’m—I’m going to—Fuuuck—”
“Go then,” he roared, his own pace reaching a blurring, frantic speed. “I want to feel every bit of it.”
As you shattered, your walls clamping around him in a violent rhythm, Mingi let out a low moan. He drove into you one last time, his entire body locking as he flooded you again, his forehead thumping against yours.
Mingi collapsed on top of you, his full weight crushing you into the bed, his face buried in the crook of your neck as he sobbed for air. He was shaking—truly shaking—the adrenaline finally leaving his system and leaving him hollowed out and spent.
The room fell into a heavy, ringing silence, broken only by the wet, rhythmic hitch of your combined breathing. Mingi didn’t pull away; he stayed buried deep, his forehead pressed against yours, his skin slick and fused to yours by a layer of salt and heat.
The bedroom felt different now—thicker, charged with the heaviness of the storm that had finally spent itself. The ‘best friend’ facade hadn’t just been cracked; it had been ground into the floorboards along with the buttons of his shirt.
Slowly, Mingi let out a long, shuddering breath that fanned across your neck. He pulled back just an inch, his eyes hooded and dark, searching your face in the dim silver light. He looked at the smear of himself on your face, the bruises blooming on your neck, and the way your lips were swollen and parted as you struggled for air.
He didn’t look sorry. He looked settled.
“Don’t even think about it,” he whispered, his voice still a fractured rasp. His hand moved from the pillow to your hair, his fingers gently—finally gently—tucking a damp strand behind your ear. “Don’t think about the morning. Don’t think about how you’re going to try to take this back tomorrow over coffee. It’s done.”
You let out a small, tired whimper, your fingers curling weakly into the muscles of his forearms. Your body felt like it had been hollowed out, replaced by a warm, heavy liquid. “I can’t take it back, Min. I don’t think I can even walk.”
A ghost of a smirk pulled at one corner of his mouth—the first glimpse of the Mingi you knew. “Good. You’re staying right here.”
As Mingi finally began to withdraw, the sensation was a slow, heavy drag that felt like he was peeling himself away from your very soul. The air in the room hit your raw skin, but the cold didn’t last long. Without the solid plug of him holding it back, the sheer, excessive volume of what he’d left inside you began to yield to gravity.
You felt a thick, warm rush—a heavy, creamy spill that leaked from your core and pooled in the dip of your thighs. It was a visceral, sliding heat, a pearly mess of his release mixed with your own frantic fluid, painting a stark, white map against the dark sheets.
Mingi stayed close, his knees still bracketed around you as he watched the evidence of his reclamation coat your skin. He reached down, his large hand following the path of the spill, his fingers dragging through the cream and smearing it across your hip in a slow circle. He wanted to see it; he wanted to see exactly how much of himself he had forced you to carry.
“I told you,” he rasped, his voice dropping into a dark, satisfied hum as he watched the slow drip hit the mattress. “I told you I was going to fill you up. I told you I’d make sure you felt me for the next days.” He didn’t reach for a tissue. He didn’t try to clean you. Instead, he leaned down and licked a stray drop from your inner thigh, his tongue rough and hot, before looking back up at you with a predatory glint still simmering in his eyes. “That's exactly where it belongs,” he whispered. “Right inside you. Marking you so that every time you take a step tomorrow, you feel me sliding out of you and remember exactly what happened.”
The adrenaline was finally receding, leaving behind a heavy, aching lethargy. Mingi pulled you flush against his side, his skin still damp and radiator-hot against yours.
He shifted, propping himself up on one elbow to look down at you. The harsh, territorial side of him had softened, though his eyes still held a dazed, singular focus. He reached out, his thumb tracing the swollen line of your lower lip before he leaned down for a kiss. It wasn’t like the others. There was no bruising pressure, no desperation—just a slow, deep, and devastatingly passionate press of his mouth against yours. It tasted of salt and total surrender.
When he pulled back, his forehead lingered against yours, his voice a low, gravelly vibration. “I love you,” he whispered.
The words hit you harder than any of the impacts against the door. You froze, your heart skipping a beat before hammering against your ribs. Your eyes were wide, searching the sharp, damp angles of his face for a smirk, a sneer, or the dark, demeaning glint he’d worn all night. You were looking for the punchline—the part where he told you that you were just a convenient place to dump three months of frustration. But his gaze was steady.
“What?” you breathed, your voice a fractured wreck. “What are you talking about? Min… I thought…” You swallowed hard, a sudden, stinging heat rising behind your eyes. “I thought I was just… a good fuck. I thought this was you finally getting me out of your system so you could stop hating me.”
Mingi flinched, his expression crumbling into genuine, hurt surprise. He let out a dry, huffed laugh, his hand sliding from your jaw to tangle deeply in your hair. “A good fuck?” he repeated, his voice thick with disbelief. “You think I’d turn into a fucking animal like that for just anyone? You think I’ve been sitting across from you for three months, dying a little bit, because I wanted a fuck?” He shook his head, his eyes burning with a raw honesty that made your throat tight. “I’ve loved you since we were eighteen, you idiot,” he rasped, his thumb brushing a fresh tear from your cheek. “Every thing I did, every time I stayed over to watch movies, every time I walked you home... it was because I couldn’t stand being away from you. Tonight wasn’t just about sex. It was because I was terrified I was actually losing you.”
The air left your lungs in a long, shaky sob. All the walls you’d kept up, the “friendship” you’d tried to protect while your own heart was breaking, finally shattered for good. You surged upward, wrapping your arms around his neck and burying your face in the crook of his shoulder.
“I love you too,” you choked out, your voice muffled by his skin. “I’ve loved you forever, Min. I just thought... I thought you only saw me as one of the guys. I thought tonight was just... yet another mistake you’d regret in the morning.”
Mingi let out a long, shuddering breath, his arms tightening around you until you were practically a part of him. He rolled onto his back, pulling you on top of him so your heart was beating directly against his. “Never a mistake,” he promised, his voice dipping into that protective, low hum. “And you’re never going back to being ‘just a friend.’ You’re mine now. I’m not letting you go again.”
He began to stroke your back, his large hand moving in slow, rhythmic circles that chased away the lingering tremors in your muscles. He leaned up, pressing a lingering, tender kiss to your forehead, then to the tip of your nose, before hovering over your lips. “I love you, you beautiful, stubborn girl. But don’t think for a second that means I’m going to be any less greedy with you.”
Mingi let out a long, heavy sigh—the kind that sounded like a man who had finally laid down a hundred-pound weight he’d been carrying for years. He looked around the room, his eyes landing on the wreckage of your dress near the door and the literal state of his floor, and he let out a dry, breathy chuckle.
“Well,” he rasped, his voice still a bit wrecked. “I’m definitely going to need to hire a professional cleaning crew. And you’re definitely getting a bill for my dignity.”
You let out a weak, tired laugh, burying your face back into the crook of his neck. “Your dignity? You’re the one who turned into a feral animal because I wore a dress with a slit, Song Mingi.”
“A slit that went to your armpit,” he corrected, his hand sliding down to give your hip a playful, much gentler squeeze. “And don't act like you didn’t know exactly what you were doing. You’ve been a brat for years, Y/N. I was just finally fulfilling my civic duty to shut you up.”
“My legs are actually jelly,” you whispered, resting your forehead against his. “I hope you’re prepared to carry me everywhere for the next business week.”
“A business week? Please. With the way you were begging? You’re lucky if I let you walk by next Christmas,” he teased, his eyes sparkling with that familiar, mischievous glint you’d loved since you were teenagers. “And for the record, you were always a terrible ‘just a friend.’ You’re much better as a ‘terrifyingly loud girlfriend.’”
“I wasn’t that loud,” you defended, though your face flushed a deep crimson.
“The neighbours three floors down would disagree, but sure,” he kissed your forehead with a gentleness that felt like a secret, followed by a soft, lingering kiss to your nose. “We need to shower. But if you think I’m washing your hair without making fun of your taste in men—specifically that suit-wearing prick—you’ve got another thing coming.”
You rolled your eyes, “I love you, you idiot.”
The corner of his mouth twitched into a real, soft smile—the one he only ever saved for you. “I love you too, baby. Now let’s get in the shower before I decide I’m not actually as tired as I thought I was.”
SUMMARY: They say a bound demon reflects who you truly are— your desires, your dreams, the parts of yourself you don’t always admit. Seungkwan doesn’t understand how he ended up with you. A succubus, whose very existence is inherently sexual. It’s not like he’s that desperate for sex… right? Or is there more to having a succubus as a bound demon than he’s willing to face? There’s only one way to know.
PAIRING: witch! boo seungkwan x succubus! reader
WORD COUNT FOR TEASER: 613
WORD COUNT FOR FIC: TBA
GENRE: witches and demons, smut, fantasy, soulmate au ish me trying my best at world building
TEASER WARNINGS: demons, rituals
A/N: this is my first full fic, i’m super excited to air it out. so please tell me if yall like it. ik ive been mostly posting blurbs here and there so hope you guys like the change in content. :)
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Honestly, Seungkwan has no idea what to do next. He glances down at the grimoire in his hands, at the next instruction written in unforgiving ink:
Deal and bond with the demon.
That’s it. Useless advice, honestly.
His grip tightens around the book, frustration curling beneath his ribs. He’s too awed — too unsettled — to speak. You aren’t what he expected at all, not in form, not in presence, not in the way his magic feels like it’s leaning toward you without permission.
A beautiful demon stands before him. A succubus.
Most witches never summon your kind. Succubi are whispered about, warned against. There hasn’t been a witch that summoned your kind in—
The thought cuts off abruptly, unfinished and useless. History isn’t helpful now. Tradition isn’t helpful. The grimoire certainly isn’t.
You’re standing there, solid and real, as though you’ve always belonged in this space and he’s the one intruding. The pressure in the room doesn’t disappear, but it shifts, becoming less suffocating and more… attentive. Like the air itself is waiting.
Seungkwan swallows.
Instinct tells him to bow. To lower his gaze, to show respect the way he was taught. Respect is safety. Submission is survival. But the moment his eyes dip, he feels it — a subtle resistance. Not forceful. Just present. A quiet pressure against his magic.
You want to be seen.
Slowly, hesitantly, he lifts his head again. Your gaze is already on him, unblinking, unhurried. There’s no feral hunger in your eyes, none of the cruelty he was warned about. If anything, there’s curiosity there. Amusement.
“Well,” you say, your voice smooth and warm, curling through the chamber like smoke. “You summoned me.”
It isn’t an accusation.
It’s an invitation.
His fingers curl tighter around the grimoire, knuckles whitening. His heart is pounding hard enough that he’s sure you can feel it — through the magic, through the space between you, through a bond that hasn’t even been formed yet.
“I—” His voice breaks, traitorous. He clears his throat, heat rushing to his face. “I didn’t… I wasn’t expecting—”
“A succubus?” you finish, lips curving faintly.
He nods once, unable to lie. Lying feels impossible under your gaze, like you’d see straight through it anyway.
You hum softly and begin to circle him, slow and deliberate. Not close enough to touch. Close enough that he feels you everywhere — along his spine, under his skin, tugging gently at his magic.
Seungkwan swallows hard.
There’s no point pretending otherwise. The attraction coils low in his chest, hot and undeniable. You’re powerful — overwhelmingly so — and devastatingly beautiful, a presence that makes his magic ache and reach all at once. For the first time, that old, quiet dream of greatness doesn’t feel foolish. It feels… possible.
He turns fully toward you and extends his hand.
It’s a simple gesture. Open. Honest. A sign of respect — and partnership.
For a heartbeat, you only look at it.
Then your smirk deepens, something sharp and pleased flickering in your eyes as you place your hand in his. Your fingers curl around his palm, warm and sure.
Pain flashes through both of you, searing and sudden, racing up his arm and into his chest. Seungkwan gasps — but the pain doesn’t linger the way he expects it to. Instead, it melts into something almost intoxicating, heat spreading beneath his skin, threading through his magic like it’s always belonged there.
The pentagram flares.
The air hums, alive with the echo of something ancient settling into place.
When the sensation finally eases, Seungkwan realises he’s still holding your hand. That he doesn’t want to let go.
Somewhere deep within him, something clicks into alignment.
Seungkwan has successfully bonded with a demon.
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seungcheol is the standard, textbook alpha—strong, steady, reliable. all the traits an alpha is meant to have. you’ve always known you never stood a chance with someone like him. every omega your age wants a taste of him, and you’ve never once made the cut. you gave up before you were even given the chance.
but your wolf had other ideas. every time she catches even the faintest trace of his scent, she plants your feet to the ground, refusing to move. she even forces your body to release soft, sweet pheromones, desperate to catch the alpha’s attention. at this point, you’re basically her puppet.
you and your wolf may share a body, but you definitely don’t share the same pride. you refuse to humiliate yourself trying to reach for something you can’t have. seungcheol is one of those things. you’re not the ideal, delicate omega people expect—you’re rowdy, stubborn, a little too loud. you agree with your wolf that he’s perfect in every way, but he isn’t meant for you. still, by the moon, you wish he was.
unattainable. completely out of reach. until now…
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the temperature of your room grows hotter and hotter, at least to you. you shove off the furry blankets of your bed. quickly stripping your clothes away and throwing them on the floor. all you feel is the fever. your skin grows warmer, stickier from the sweat. your wolf howls for anything that might help the relief.
it’s your heat.
your core leaks slick, covering all of your inner thighs. you feel yourself panting and heaving. your mind is too cloudy to think clearly. you grab the closest pillow, pushing it between your legs. the friction relieves the pain slightly.
oh the pain of being an omega. why couldn’t you just be a beta instead. no need to worry about being mortified by the way your body wants to be bred every fucking month.
you grind on to the pillow fast and hurried, trying to get yourself going. only a proper orgasm can help relieve the searing heat. sadly, it doesn’t work. you groan as your eyes well up with tears, the frustration is building up inside you.
you’re brain racks for any kind of thoughts that might make you horny instead of feeling pain. your wolf decided it is the best time to daydream. the image of seungcheol appears in your mind like a beautiful fantasy. big beefy arms, broad shoulders and soft juicy lips. his long locks of black hair framing his face.
and the image that sells it, is the outline of his big fat cock poking through his grey sweats. your omega whimpers and so do you.
your hips move, chasing friction. Your moans fill up the room in an instant. you bite your lip, trying to strain the noise, also hoping to save yourself from embarrassment just in case someone heard you. move your hips towards the corner of the pillow. the hard lining of the corner makes an even more pleasurable feeling on your clit.
you groan, accompanied with seungcheol’s name, escaping from your lips.
you whine when you smell it. the scent of him.
your wolf preens at this, urging you to get close to him by all means. you still haven’t come yet. you don’t know whether to reach him or just try to ride it out yourself. his scent and pheromones are driving you crazy, the closer and closer he gets to your hut. your hips don’t still, you continue grinding and pushing yourself on your pillow.
you try to silence your moans and groans, but nothing works. his presence just makes the heat ten times worse. your body yearns for him but he is barely there, just a scent on the tip of your nose. all you know is that he is somewhere close by, but you can’t see him at all.
you don’t want to beg but you do. at this point, the pain might eat you alive if you stop now. the frustration will make this week-long pain go by agonisingly slowly.
“s-seungcheol, seungcheol, pleasepleaseplease,”
you’re tumbling over your words, not even sure whether you’re whining his name or saying anything coherent at all. just trying anything.
“omega,”
his deep voice rumbles through the room. it’s his alpha voice, you recognize as your body physically shakes as he speaks the word. you whimper as he addresses you.
“let me in,”
he commands. the rumble of the room makes it clear it isn't a choice.
with your wobbly legs, you pull yourself up from the pillow. the fabric of the pillow sticking to your core slightly as you get up. you head slowly towards the door, holding your breath slightly. having his scent this close to you is dangerous for your sanity.
too much in your system, might make you black out. the thing about alphas like seungcheol, is that they’re scent is too powerful, especially for an unmated omega.
you wince when your feet hit the ground. you can smell the sudden spike of worriedness in seungcheol’s scent. your wolf swoons at the idea that he somehow cares for you. as you reach the door, you can feel his warmth and presence and most of all his scent.
the deep cherrywood scent, turning musky and sweet.
your wolf is having a field day.
your hands shake as you reach for the lock on the door. it clicks once, then twice, and a third time. the door flies of its hinges crashing down on your entrance. you could care more, but with the sight in front of you, how can you focus.
seungcheol’s eyes glow bright red, a sign that he is in rut. by the moons, he’s connected to you. his lips red with slight blood, probably from biting his lips for too long.
he’s beautiful in front of you. it’s almost like your dreaming again.
he smirks at your awed face. he scoops you up and ever so gently lays you on your bed. eyes travelling to the wet slick-filled pillow, his nose twitches. smelling your scent. his hands grab the pillow, bringing it up to his nose.
he inhales it. savoring the smell of you. his tongue even pokes out to get a taste of you. you moan at the sight. his eyes roll back into his head, tongue pressed on the top of his mouth, groaning.
your thighs shake and shiver, you might come from this sight.
mingyu doesn’t react well to people staring at what’s his. technically, he knows you’re your own person, but he can’t help feeling possessive of you. he huffs and puffs and pouts like a little boy whose toy got taken away, which is crazy to see on a grown man. he’s adorable.
“your boyfriend’s looking a little pouty, isn’t he?” seungcheol teases, nudging you toward where mingyu’s tucked in the corner of the big conference room.
it’s your annual christmas party at the company. the conference room is decorated with wreaths and ribbons, the lights turned down to create that moody atmosphere. that moody atmosphere grows darker somehow with mingyu sulking in the corner of said room.
you laugh when seungcheol points this out, swatting him lightly. seungcheol knows your boyfriend through and through, even becoming drinking buddies with him. but with you around, he knows mingyu gets grumpier. off to the side, mingyu’s mood darkens even more.
you sharing your beautiful smile and laugh with someone else? not possible.
he stomps his way over to your group, that sulky look still stuck on his face, lips jutted out. when he reaches you, his hands wrap around your neck, pulling you close. his grip almost makes you stumble, but mingyu would never let you fall; his hold tightens to steady you.
he whines softly in your ear, “don’t leave me alone.”
you only smirk. your hands slide down to his ass, giving it a squeeze.
“be good, puppy. let me have my fun,” you whisper, your voice dropping an octave.
mingyu gulps. he bites his lip to stop the whimpers threatening to escape. you did this on purpose —dragging him to a party, leaving him alone while you flirt and prance with your colleagues. all of that in a miniskirt and his favourite blouse. it’s his favourite because it pushes your tits up just right, leaving the perfect amount of cleavage for him to stare at.
and instead of him being the only one who gets to look, it’s everyone in your department, all of them getting a full view of his angel, his beauty, his girlfriend.
you feel him hover behind you, so close his chest brushes your back with every breath. mingyu’s touch isn’t subtle; he’s got both hands on your waist like he’s anchoring himself, thumbs rubbing slow circles into your hips.
it’s possessive without him saying a single word.
“good boy,” you whisper just loud enough for him to hear.
mingyu’s inhale is sharp. his fingers tighten, almost trembling.
you reach for a drink, and the bartender hands it over with a polite smile. mingyu’s grip immediately locks down, chest pressing into you as if the simple act of someone smiling at you is a threat.
“relax,” you say, amused.
“can’t,” he grumbles. “everyone keeps staring.”
you bring the glass to your lips and take a sip, intentionally slow. mingyu watches like he’s the one getting drunk off the sight.
you turn around in his hold, both his hands sliding down to the backs of your thighs automatically. he doesn’t even realise he’s doing it, he just wants you close.
you smirk, leaning in just enough that your lips ghost over his jaw. “clingy.”
“only with you,” he shoots back instantly, sounding almost defensive. “you make me like this.”
you laugh under your breath, soft but warm. mingyu’s entire face softens at the sound, like he’s been waiting all night for it.
a coworker waves at you from across the room, calling your name. you wave back casually.
mingyu immediately pulls you closer, chin dropping to your shoulder, like he’s physically shielding you from being approached.
“stop that,” you whisper.
“no,” he mutters, arms tightening around you like a cage. “stay with me.”
you slip your fingers into his hair and tug lightly—just enough to make him breathe out a shaky whine.
“i’ll stay,” you say, voice low, “but only because you look cute when you’re jealous.”
mingyu’s cheeks tint pink, and he ducks his head, hiding it in the crook of your neck like he’s embarrassed.
“don’t say stuff like that,” he mumbles, lips brushing your skin.
“why not?”
“because i’ll do anything you tell me to.”
that makes you grin. you pull back just enough to look him in the eyes, your hands sliding down his sides.
“anything, huh?”
mingyu nods, desperate and obedient. “anything.”
-
your hands grip his cock so tightly, he can only whimper. your soaked panties all crumpled, placed so perfectly in his mouth, acting as a gag. all his groans and noises all muffled.
“tsk, tsk, tsk” you taunt, “puppy, i already told you, you gotta keep quiet,”
he actually mewls the moment your hand squeezes the tip. his cock bright red, hard and huge next to your tiny hands, the visual is to die for. mingyu can only whimper, he knows if he tries to stop you, you might actually stop and leave him with the mess he made.
your movements are so slow, taunting him. the sight of him for you is equally as delicious. a huge, handsome, beautiful man that can flip this around anytime he wants but chooses to bend to your every will.
“b-baby,” he whines.
his hands gripping the sheets, gasping from the pressure of your hands. his mouth opens to release silent moans as your hands start jerking him, up and down. your grip becoming increasingly tighter. he knows he’s been a good boy, knows that you might reward him but now, he can only imagine the feeling of your tight cunt around his cock. for now, he can only enjoy your hands.
you watch as his face contorts with pleasure, his thighs shaking in your hold. you know he’s close, so you jerk him faster, harder. his cock dripping as you fist his cock. you focus your strokes onto his sensitive tip.
his groans only encourage you. and mingyu, oh your good boy, begs. knows he needs permission, knows his rules despite the torture you put him through all night.
“p-please, mommy,” his sweet whimpers, “p-please let me c-cum,”
“of course, my baby.”
his cum spurts from the slit of his cock, the liquid easily covering your hands. he’s gasping for air, hips still jerking your hands for some sort of friction. as he’s coming down from his high, you pull your hands away. he whimpers at the loss but is silenced when you scoop out his cum, licking all of it from your hands.
you look almost drunk. drunk of his cum, drunk of him. your eyes blown with lust. when your eyes look up, finally matching with his, the tip of your mouth curls into a smirk.
mingyu doesn’t react well to people staring at what’s his. technically, he knows you’re your own person, but he can’t help feeling possessive of you. he huffs and puffs and pouts like a little boy whose toy got taken away, which is crazy to see on a grown man. he’s adorable.
“your boyfriend’s looking a little pouty, isn’t he?” seungcheol teases, nudging you toward where mingyu’s tucked in the corner of the big conference room.
it’s your annual christmas party at the company. the conference room is decorated with wreaths and ribbons, the lights turned down to create that moody atmosphere. that moody atmosphere grows darker somehow with mingyu sulking in the corner of said room.
you laugh when seungcheol points this out, swatting him lightly. seungcheol knows your boyfriend through and through, even becoming drinking buddies with him. but with you around, he knows mingyu gets grumpier. off to the side, mingyu’s mood darkens even more.
you sharing your beautiful smile and laugh with someone else? not possible.
he stomps his way over to your group, that sulky look still stuck on his face, lips jutted out. when he reaches you, his hands wrap around your neck, pulling you close. his grip almost makes you stumble, but mingyu would never let you fall; his hold tightens to steady you.
he whines softly in your ear, “don’t leave me alone.”
you only smirk. your hands slide down to his ass, giving it a squeeze.
“be good, puppy. let me have my fun,” you whisper, your voice dropping an octave.
mingyu gulps. he bites his lip to stop the whimpers threatening to escape. you did this on purpose —dragging him to a party, leaving him alone while you flirt and prance with your colleagues. all of that in a miniskirt and his favourite blouse. it’s his favourite because it pushes your tits up just right, leaving the perfect amount of cleavage for him to stare at.
and instead of him being the only one who gets to look, it’s everyone in your department, all of them getting a full view of his angel, his beauty, his girlfriend.
you feel him hover behind you, so close his chest brushes your back with every breath. mingyu’s touch isn’t subtle; he’s got both hands on your waist like he’s anchoring himself, thumbs rubbing slow circles into your hips.
it’s possessive without him saying a single word.
“good boy,” you whisper just loud enough for him to hear.
mingyu’s inhale is sharp. his fingers tighten, almost trembling.
you reach for a drink, and the bartender hands it over with a polite smile. mingyu’s grip immediately locks down, chest pressing into you as if the simple act of someone smiling at you is a threat.
“relax,” you say, amused.
“can’t,” he grumbles. “everyone keeps staring.”
you bring the glass to your lips and take a sip, intentionally slow. mingyu watches like he’s the one getting drunk off the sight.
you turn around in his hold, both his hands sliding down to the backs of your thighs automatically. he doesn’t even realise he’s doing it, he just wants you close.
you smirk, leaning in just enough that your lips ghost over his jaw. “clingy.”
“only with you,” he shoots back instantly, sounding almost defensive. “you make me like this.”
you laugh under your breath, soft but warm. mingyu’s entire face softens at the sound, like he’s been waiting all night for it.
a coworker waves at you from across the room, calling your name. you wave back casually.
mingyu immediately pulls you closer, chin dropping to your shoulder, like he’s physically shielding you from being approached.
“stop that,” you whisper.
“no,” he mutters, arms tightening around you like a cage. “stay with me.”
you slip your fingers into his hair and tug lightly—just enough to make him breathe out a shaky whine.
“i’ll stay,” you say, voice low, “but only because you look cute when you’re jealous.”
mingyu’s cheeks tint pink, and he ducks his head, hiding it in the crook of your neck like he’s embarrassed.
“don’t say stuff like that,” he mumbles, lips brushing your skin.
“why not?”
“because i’ll do anything you tell me to.”
that makes you grin. you pull back just enough to look him in the eyes, your hands sliding down his sides.
“anything, huh?”
mingyu nods, desperate and obedient. “anything.”
-
your hands grip his cock so tightly, he can only whimper. your soaked panties all crumpled, placed so perfectly in his mouth, acting as a gag. all his groans and noises all muffled.
“tsk, tsk, tsk” you taunt, “puppy, i already told you, you gotta keep quiet,”
he actually mewls the moment your hand squeezes the tip. his cock bright red, hard and huge next to your tiny hands, the visual is to die for. mingyu can only whimper, he knows if he tries to stop you, you might actually stop and leave him with the mess he made.
your movements are so slow, taunting him. the sight of him for you is equally as delicious. a huge, handsome, beautiful man that can flip this around anytime he wants but chooses to bend to your every will.
“b-baby,” he whines.
his hands gripping the sheets, gasping from the pressure of your hands. his mouth opens to release silent moans as your hands start jerking him, up and down. your grip becoming increasingly tighter. he knows he’s been a good boy, knows that you might reward him but now, he can only imagine the feeling of your tight cunt around his cock. for now, he can only enjoy your hands.
you watch as his face contorts with pleasure, his thighs shaking in your hold. you know he’s close, so you jerk him faster, harder. his cock dripping as you fist his cock. you focus your strokes onto his sensitive tip.
his groans only encourage you. and mingyu, oh your good boy, begs. knows he needs permission, knows his rules despite the torture you put him through all night.
“p-please, mommy,” his sweet whimpers, “p-please let me c-cum,”
“of course, my baby.”
his cum spurts from the slit of his cock, the liquid easily covering your hands. he’s gasping for air, hips still jerking your hands for some sort of friction. as he’s coming down from his high, you pull your hands away. he whimpers at the loss but is silenced when you scoop out his cum, licking all of it from your hands.
you look almost drunk. drunk of his cum, drunk of him. your eyes blown with lust. when your eyes look up, finally matching with his, the tip of your mouth curls into a smirk.
SUMMARY: Ever since your boyfriend Jake transformed from his nerdy high-school self into the university's star football player, you've become everything you thought you’d never be. Jealous. Anxious. Clingy. But Jake really doesn't mind your newfound possessiveness. He encourages it, even. So when he defies expectations again to star in a musical with a stunning costar, you spiral. Now, the “lowkey” relationship you once insisted on gets jeopardized under the weight of your own insecurities.
PAIRING: popular!jake x reader
WORD COUNT: 26k+
GENRE: secret!relationship au, university!au, grumpy gf x sunshine bf (?), smut, angst, fluff, some toxic themes
WARNINGS: mdni, nsfw, porn with plot, ragbaiter!bf Jake, tsundere!reader, lowkey crazy!reader, whipped!Jake, switch!Jake, emotional constipation, he want that cookie bad, jealousy, avoidancy, football = soccer, unsafe/unprotected sex, cursing, sweat, dacryphilia, storage closet sex, lots of biting/marking, 69, cumplay, jewelry play, begging, failed pull-out method, creampie, squirting, lmk if i missed anything
A/N: Not to pick a favorite child but… I loved writing this fic so much.
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a year ago.
It’s the last year of high school, on a relatively normal walk back home. The same cracked sidewalks, the same autumn breeze, the same shy boy matching his steps beside you like he always did. Just like any other day.
Until he decided to ruin it.
“Do you wanna… like, date?” Jake asked suddenly, hands shoved deep into his uniform pants pockets, trying too hard to sound nonchalant. “You know… put a label on us. Or whatever.”
You remember almost running away out of pure instinct, soul escaping your body. But instead, you laughed. Because what the fuck was he on about?
You? Jake? Date?
The two of you were barely even supposed to be friends. He's a straight-A student teacher constantly compared you to, with those thick-rimmed black glasses glued to his face and unkempt bowl of hair. A striker on the football team who watched matches from the sidelines just as much as you did… and you weren't on the team.
And on the other hand, there’s you. N-so-pleasant you. Considered a troublemaker because you always showed up late to class, talked back to ill-meaning adults, and picked fights with boys who catcalled too much. A rumor spread through school that your dad was a terrifying loan shark with gang ties. He’s a banker.
Assigned classroom cleaning duties was what brought you two together in the first place. It wasn’t fate. Nothing notable. You more or less picked him up on your shoulder and claimed him as a personal assistant. Someone who would fetch you water when you’re thirsty or give you answers to math problems when you were too lazy to solve them yourself.
So why in the world did he think you two should date?
“Who put you up to this?” you wheezed between bursts of cackling. “I’m gonna beat their ass.”
Jake scratched the back of his head, clearly not amused.
“I mean… You and me?” you continue, tears of laughter blurred your vision. “We would make the worst couple ever—”
“I don’t think so.”
You froze mid-step. Jake had slowed his strides a long time ago, but now he was completely still. You turned to find him a few steps behind, face flushed and hands by his sides.
He’s holding something. A small, turquoise box. One that looked suspiciously like…
You felt like throwing up.
“I-I’ve been thinking about it for a while,” he stammered. “What it’d be like if I were your boyfriend. If we… went on dates and stuff.”
Oh, hell no.
It’s like an immediate sense of panic overcame your body. And before your brain could process a single rational thought, you broke out into a sprint. Running down the street like a maniac. In hindsight, you probably should’ve known that you couldn’t outrun an athlete. But you weren’t really thinking, period.
You feel a tug on your waist. Jake had already caught up to you. He spun you around, like the male leads do in those stupid romcoms, and pulled you into him. His face was close. Too close. His glasses slipped halfway down his nose, and a bead of sweat clung to his temple. And it wasn’t from running.
It was from you.
He looked nervous. Ridiculously nervous.
The ring box pressed into your back, and you put your palms sternly against his chest, trying to create some distance between you two. It wasn’t helping.
“Jake,” you warned. “Let go of me or I scream.”
He shook his head, his arms only wrapped tighter around you. “Only if you promise you won’t run,” he replied, a sort of desperation laced in his voice. “And that you’ll listen to what I have to say.”
You bit your bottom lip, suddenly too aware of his intense gaze and how they searched yours through those big, fat lenses. You gave a small nod, not trusting your voice to come out right. The moment his grip loosened, you broke your agreement almost immediately. Your feet moved on their own, like fight-or-flight, as you tried to rush out of his arms. But he was one step ahead of you, grabbing your wrist to bring you back right where you were.
“Really?” he asked, exhausted. “That’s not gonna work a second time.”
You glared, but your eyes betrayed you. They slid down to the turquoise ring box, still in his hand. Jake's eyes flickered in the same direction, clearing his throat awkwardly.
“I can put it away if it’s freaking you out,” he muttered, slipping it back into his pocket. You almost let out a sigh of relief, but not when his large hand was still wrapped around your wrist.
“...Thank you,” you mumbled, eyes fixed on the ground. “Now make it quick.”
‘The worst thing she could say is no!’ the internet had told him. This was a lot worse, actually!
“[Y/N],” he started sharply, and the sound of your name on his lips sent shivers down your spine. He released you, only to set both his hands on your shoulders, guiding your gaze up to meet his.
“I… I think—” He stopped, inhaling a deep breath. “No. I know. I… really… really… l-like you.”
His voice was as shaky as his hands, and for a brief second, almost every part of you wanted to knock him out with your backpack because your heart was beating too loud in your chest. It pissed you off. But you held back and just… stared.
Jake, ever the hopeless romantic, had fallen for you the moment you asked him to clean the entire classroom alone while you skipped duties to hang out with your friends. He said yes, only because he has a hard time saying no, especially to someone he found so pretty. But then you laughed and told him you were joking. Told him not to bend over backwards just to please other people. Spent time with him that day when usually, others paid him no attention.
He was enamored ever since.
But the silence between you two was suffocating. Heavy enough to stall his breathing. Jake’s palms were growing damp against the fabric of your uniform blazer, and his heart felt like it was ready to fall to the floor. Maybe this was a bad time to do it. Or maybe the ring really freaked you out. Was it too big a gesture? The WikiHow tutorial he consulted had told him to bring a gift, after all.
“Hello?” Jake’s voice cut through your thoughts. He gave your shoulders a tiny shake, trying to pull you out of your entranced state.
“Hm? Sorry… say that again? I don’t think I heard you…”
Jake’s expression fell as he dropped his hands back to his sides in defeat.
“Okay,” he muttered, voice small. It wasn’t worth it. Everything went off script anyway. “Never mind. Pretend I didn’t say anything.”
He brushed past you, shoulders hunched, hands shoved deep in his pockets again. He was fidgeting with the ring box, wishing he could throw it into the nearest bushes. God, he felt dumb.
So fucking dumb.
Of course you’d say no! He was nobody. Just Jake. Just some guy you latched onto at the start of high school so you could poke fun at him for the next few years and make him pay for your boba addiction. And you, with your cool-ass friends with eyebrow slits and really underground music tastes. You’re way out of his league—
“Jake,” you called out, surprised at how loud your voice could get if you were desperate.
He turned around immediately, wearing such a pronounced pout even from a few meters away. Somehow, seeing his face again made your throat close up. He liked you. He really liked you.
“Say it again,” you demanded, arms crossed with doubt written all over your features. “I need to hear you say it one more time.”
You walked toward him until you stood close enough to see the nervous twitch at the corner of his mouth. Was this it? Would you actually give him a chance? Jake pressed his lips together and inhaled a deep breath to calm himself.
“I like you,” he said as softly as a whisper. “Would you… Be my girlfriend?”
You looked at the ground, feigning a calmness when your mind was racing with thoughts too insane to vocalize. When you finally looked up again, your heart betrayed you. It skipped a beat at the way his gaze fell on yours, wide and hopeful. It almost hurt. He was too bright, too cute.
(Okay, so what if you liked him back. He didn’t have to know that.)
“Sure,” you said, forcing your voice to sound casual. Jake froze.
Then his entire face lit up. Suddenly, he was grinning from ear to ear, jumping in place like a dog begging for a treat. “Really? Like really? You’ll go out with me?!”
He took your hands in his, tenderly. Like he wasn't entirely sure the moment was real. You felt the dampness of his palms first, then the tug of his fingers intertwining with yours, like he had already rehearsed this part of his confession a thousand times in his head. Your cheeks warmed.
‘What a weirdo,’ you thought to yourself. It’s not like he’d just won the lottery. What was he so happy about?
“Just don’t make it weird,” you grumbled. “Keep it on the down low.”
Jake’s smile faltered, brows knitting together so tightly you were sure it’d leave a wrinkle on his cute face.
“Like… you don’t want people to know?” he asked, voice quieter now. You nodded, confused by his confusion.
“Why would anyone need to know?” you asked genuinely. He frowned, his thumb gently rubbing the back of your hand, silently asking you to reconsider.
“Not even Sunghoon or Jay?”
You scoffed. “Especially Sunghoon and Jay.”
“Why not?” he groaned. You just shrugged.
“I don’t want our dynamic to change just ‘cause we’re dating,” you reassured him, letting go of his hands to ruffle his hair. Like you always do when you tease him. Like that would make it all better. “And all that coupley PDA stuff draws too much attention anyway.”
You’d spent years cultivating your intimidating persona, and in your mind, it was simple. No one else needed to know that you were vulnerable to something as cringe-inducing as dating. The other students would only use it against you. For what? Who knows.
But you could just imagine the teasing glances and whispers in the hallways. If Jake were really serious about dating you, surely he’d be understanding of your aversion towards embarrassment. Right?
“So… what would be the difference then? Between us now and before?”
He didn't seem entirely convinced. At all. You sighed and stepped past him.
“It's what we'd do in private, you know?” you muttered over your shoulder. “Kissing and all that…”
You didn’t see it, how Jake’s ears completely reddened or how his Adam's apple bobbed as he swallowed. His fingers twitched at his side, like he was already imagining what it’d be like to hold you properly. To touch you. To kiss you. Like real couples do.
“D-do you want to see the ring I got you?” he blurted out, catching up to you. “I swear it’s lowkey. It has a ‘J’ engraved inside the band. I got a matching one with your initial, too! No one would even notice if you wore it—”
And you feel your heart thunder in your chest, scaring you into another sudden sprint. “Get the hell away from me, weirdo!”
Your joined laughter echoed down the street as he chased after you. And even though he could catch up to you, he let you have your fun, staying just a little out of his reach.
–
Jake is very good at obeying orders, always has been. Especially after the first few times you glared at him for accidentally reaching for your hand in the cafeteria. He learned fast.
He tried his best not to show affection publicly, no matter how badly he wanted to wrap his blazer around your shivering frame when you would nap during class. He forced himself not to linger near you when you were loitering with your fellow delinquents by the school staircase, laughing at a joke he didn’t quite understand. He suppressed the urge to defend you from teachers who reprimanded you out in the hallways. Tried not to look behind at you for too long during football games he never played in anyway.
Once, someone asked him about his love life, and he instantly turned into a blushing, mumbling mess. And they laughed it off. It was Jake. No one thought twice. He was always like this. Awkward. Flustered.
The parasites he calls friends, Jay and Sunghoon, would probably go into cardiac arrest if they ever found out how he doted on you in private. How soft he was. How gentle.
You pretended not to notice. But ever the observer, Jake sees how your defenses weaken, ever so slightly, each day.
You let him put his arm around you in dark movie theaters instead of yanking it away. Let him stay for dinner with your parents when he comes over to help you study (because lord knows you need it). You stopped flinching when he called you ‘babe’ in private, sometimes responding without even questioning who he was speaking to. It was baby steps, but to Jake, it was everything.
Was it awkward? Yes. The way his glasses got in the way when he finally kissed you for the first time. Your noses bumped together. Too much tongue involved. It was a mess. Still life-changing, nevertheless.
He replays the memory often. The two of you on your bed, him holding your plushie hostage, you trying to rip it out of his arms. The way you fell on top of him with your lips accidentally crashing on his. He pretended like the make-out session that occurred immediately after didn't absolutely ruin him.
Jake edged past the warmer parts of you when no one was around to bear witness. And you both were so good at keeping secrets. No one would have believed it anyway. You’d made sure of that.
–
“You two are very strange,” Jay commented, maybe a couple of months into your secret relationship. Every senior was gearing up for graduation, choosing which universities to attend or which path to take in life.
And of course, Jay and Sunghoon found out that Jake and you would both be attending the same university. Not just any school. A top one. Yonsei.
Jake had earned a full-ride scholarship after finally getting off the damn bench and scoring four goals in a single match against the best high school team in the nation. Jake could've gone abroad to an Ivy League, but he chose not to. Because at Yonsei he could visit family more often, save a lot of money, and… well, keep you close, most of all.
And by the will of a higher being (Jake’s relentless tutoring), you somehow made it in as well.
“I thought you said you wanted to go straight into the workforce,” Jay questioned you. “Now you’re telling me you somehow, in some way, got into the same school as Jake? This fucking nerd?”
Sunghoon chimed in with a smile he always wore before teasing you. “I didn’t even think you could get into college, honestly.”
You wanted to hit him so bad, but you stopped yourself. It was your resolution for the new school year to turn over a new leaf. Don’t hit annoying boys over the head with your fists. You could get arrested for that from now on. So instead, you used your words.
“You’re mad I got in, and you didn’t,” you snorted, sticking out your tongue as Jake snickered beside you. You sat close enough to feel the warmth of his shoulder, but far enough apart to keep Jay and Sunghoon from noticing.
“You guys have no faith in her,” Jake sighed earnestly. “She’s really smart when she applies herself. She just needed a push, that's all.”
You glared at him, not sure if his comment was entirely a compliment. Yes, he played a role in your achievements. No, he could not credit himself for the hard work you put in to get that high-ass score on the college entrance exam. Even your teachers apologized for doubting you.
“Should’ve put those hours of tutoring her into me instead,” Jay groaned. “Now you’re gonna be all alone with no friends.”
Jake’s brows furrowed. “What do you mean? S-she’s my friend.”
He stumbled over the words, clearly thrown off by the ominous comment. You watched him, amused. God, he was so obvious.
Sunghoon just looked between you two, doubt etched all over his face. “Barely,” he scoffed. “Trust me, bro, you are getting left behind as soon as she finds another victim willing to pay for all her food.”
You can start your resolution next week. This time, you really smacked him, sharp on his bicep. Sunghoon yelped.
“Why are you always so aggressive?” he whined, rubbing the sore spot with his arm. You raised your hand threateningly again, but you stopped yourself short.
At the corner of your eye was Jake’s soured expression, a flash of worry obviously overcoming him. But you couldn’t comfort him. Not now. You wouldn’t hear the end of it from these two.
“You never know,” Jay chirped, faking thoughtfulness with a hand on his chin. “Jake might be too cool for us once school starts.”
Jay and Sunghoon exchanged a look and then burst into laughter.
“Ain’t gonna happen!” Sunghoon cackled, putting his whole gut into it. You joined in hesitantly, though your eyes kept drifting to your sullen boyfriend. And he wasn’t amused. Not at all.
Because he never found it funny, the idea of you leaving him behind.
–
“Do you think I’m weird?” Jake asked one evening, with you curled up beside him on your bed. Your knee draped over his stomach, his glasses pushed up just enough to rest comfortably against your pillow. On his late-night visits, your parents would come in to check if you two were truly studying as you claimed. After Jake gained their trust, they learned to leave the two of you alone (when they probably shouldn’t have).
Your eyes were shut tight to prepare yourself for an oncoming nap.
“Yes,” you said quickly, not even giving him time to process the response.
“Like… bad weird?” he asked after a second. He’d been thinking lately, after the conversation with his friends, how different the two of you really were.
How easy it was for you to stand up for yourself. Go against the grain. How you don’t automatically default to nods as he does or lose your train of thought mid-conversation. How you hated being touched by most people but would smack someone’s shoulder when you genuinely found something funny.
He wanted that, wanted to see the world the way you saw it. To move around without hesitation. Even when people called you a troublemaker. Even when teachers scolded you for wearing your uniform skirt shorter than the dress code. How was confidence so natural for you?
“Bad weird,” you teased, eyes still closed. “But it’s okay. I’m used to it by now.”
A small ache tugged at his heart. “You still like me though, right?”
You laughed. Jake loved to do this sometimes. Bait for reassurance. But you’re not that kind of fish.
“Who said I ever did?”
You said it jokingly, but a silence followed. You don’t quite catch it as you drift to sleep, the way Jake’s eyes dimmed.
“Oh,” he said disappointingly, staring at the ceiling.
Sometimes, he wondered if the reason you wanted your relationship to be private in the first place was because of him. If his inability to relate to your friends with secret tattoos and chains on their jeans made you embarrassed to be his girlfriend.
Because you got along well with his friends just fine, could tease Jay and Sunghoon like you’d known them your whole life. But it was so hard for him to do the same with yours. To look natural when he joined that one karaoke hangout, where they looked at him expectantly because you had bragged that he could sing well.
You said it so proudly too, and he wanted to prove himself to them. That he was worthy to be in their presence. And then his voice had to crack.
“Should we get your friend some water?” someone joked, and the whole group laughed. With his cheeks red with embarrassment, Jake sat back down next to you, silent for the rest of the night. It was lame of him. Even he knew that.
But even as he watched you defend him with all your heart, he couldn’t find himself to cheer up. Because in your world, he had always felt out of place.
–
And so Jake did what he’s known to do best. Research. He avoided WikiHow tutorials on how to ask out a girl and headed straight into the most honest part of the internet. Reddit.
‘makeover tips for guys’
‘how to gain more confidence’
‘how to be attractive enough that your girlfriend isn’t ashamed of you (serious responses only pls)’
He frequented the self-help section of the school library, took notes on everything from fashion advice to fixing his posture. He practiced eye contact with himself through the mirror until they watered, joined Sunghoon in the gym, and copied his weirdly intense routine.
Jake kept this new routine to himself, much like your relationship. He was good at that. Keeping secrets.
He would reinvent himself for university. Become someone you’d be proud to show off because he didn’t want to feel like this anymore. Like he would fall behind. And knowing you… he wasn’t sure if you’d bother to look back and see if your loyal puppy was still there trailing behind you.
–
present.
So that’s how your relationship’s been going so far. While Jake was on this great journey to metamorphosis, there were no real complaints on your side.
So why was it like this now?
Waiting for your very late boyfriend, who was making you miss the first minutes of the university’s freshman orientation ceremony. You almost text him a paragraph about how, usually, you're the unpunctual one in the relationship, but a stranger approaches you.
“Boo!”
You almost let out a scream when you notice who it is. Or who you think it is. Is it who you think it is?
Because instead of wild, unruly hair hiding his eyebrows and big black frames resting on his nose bridge, your boyfriend looked like someone else entirely. His hair was styled in a middle part, framing his handsome features perfectly. Instead of his usual oversized hoodie with holes on the sleeves masking his athletic body, he’s wearing a varsity jacket and a simple white shirt that clung way too well to his muscular frame. You could even see the faint outline of contact lenses in the whites of his eyes.
Your eyelashes flutter in confusion. You literally just saw him yesterday. When did he find the time to get a haircut and invest in a new closet?
Jake steps forward with a small, hopeful smile and holds out a box of egg tarts. Did it add to his already late ETA? Yes, but he always thinks about you and what you'd like to eat. Could you blame him for getting you a sweet treat?
But that wasn’t the part you were really focused on.
“Who are you and what did you do to Jake?” you ask, fists raised like a boxer. He chuckles nervously, bringing the pastry box back to his side.
“Do I look weird?” he asks quietly, shifting his feet. The vulnerability in his voice made you lower your hands instantly.
“So…” you start, eyes looking him up and down. “This is on purpose? Like, Sunghoon didn’t put you up to this? Or Jay?”
He pouts. His mom practically screamed, “So handsome!” when he showed her his new look over video call. So, why was your reaction like this?
“I just thought… new school year, new me! No?” he says, puffing up with pride.
You shake your head, moving your hand on instinct to ruffle his freshly styled hair. But he catches your wrist before you can touch him. You pull away, heart squeezing a bit, knowing that he dodged one of your rare bouts of affection. Or whatever you call it.
“It took me forever to get my hair to look like this,” he mutters, looking away. “Don’t want my hard work to go to waste.”
You click your tongue, trudging past him. Since when did he care about what his hair looked like? This was the same guy who showed up to graduation with a T-shirt and sneakers and got confused when the teachers asked him to go back home and change.
“Whatever,” you sigh. “No more standing around. We have to go—”
“Still not wearing the ring?” he asks, catching up to you. He noticed it earlier when he caught your arm.
When Jake gave it to you just a year before, he set no expectation for you to wear it. He really hadn’t… But it has been a year. Wasn’t it about time? He wears his everyday…
You suck in your teeth and glare at him. “Why would I?”
He flinches. And you start to feel guilt bubbling in your chest as his steps start slowing next to you.
“It’s just…” he mumbles. “It’s not like we’re in high school anymore. No one’s even gonna notice. And no one’s gonna care if we’re dating.”
You roll your eyes. You care. You still had a reputation to uphold. Maybe not as a troublemaker anymore. But still. Something about wearing your boyfriend’s ring for everyone to see and question seemed like your own personal hell. Who would want to be the center of attention as a university freshman?
“It’s the principle,” you say, not really knowing what you mean by it either. Because you are wearing it. Just not on your finger. It hangs around your neck, hidden underneath your blouse. But Jake didn’t have to know that. You would rather die than give anyone the satisfaction of knowing you were smitten with this man. Soft, but only for him. Your biggest weakness.
“So are we always just gonna be a secret?” he sighs. You turn to face him, but you keep it pushing. It’s too much to explain right now. Or ever.
“Come on,” you insist. “We need to get to the orientation.”
–
Indeed, it wasn’t high school anymore. Because everywhere you turn, Jake’s name is being brought up.
“The hot guy on the football team—”
“He set the curve on the first exam and proved Professor Kim wrong on the board—”
“I saw him help a grandma cross the street. Soooo dreamy—”
It was enough to almost make you pull your hair out of your head. This was Jake they were talking about! The guy who was too shy to ask for no pickles in his damn burgers, who used to let Sunghoon copy off his homework and then rewrote his own just to make sure the teachers wouldn’t catch on. This was your Jake.
You take a moment to breathe.
You sound crazy. Deranged, even. It shouldn’t even matter. Jake was always good-looking! People just never noticed or took the time to appreciate him outside of his ability to decode the most difficult of physics equations.
“A couple of guys from the team think I’d look good with a sweatband,” he says, showing you a photo during a late-night walk. He’s shoving his phone screen to your face, and you pout at the sight. His hair pushed back, forehead glistening. A perfect view of his beautiful, dark eyes.
“Nah,” you say dismissively, trying to push down the fluttering in your heart. He tilts his head, staring at the photo once more.
“Really?” he mutters. “I thought it looked pretty good.”
“Do you really wanna look like Jay in junior year? He’s gonna tell you that you copied him.”
He gives a small sound of acknowledgement. You could tell he’s taking your comment seriously, like you said something truly eye-opening.
“You’re right,” he nods. “Then, how do you feel about a lip piercing?”
Your brows furrow at the thought of metal against his pouty lips. The way his teeth would tug on it. The effect he would have on all of his newfound admirers…
“Absolutely not!”
Yeah, you were losing it.
–
No, really, you might actually be going insane.
It was hard enough for you to create genuine friendships at Yonsei, full of stuck-up rich kids who only managed to get in through elite cram schools and expensive tutors. But after a few polite conversations, their masks fell to show their true intentions. You know now that you are being used as a shortcut to get on Jake’s radar.
Because why do people you’ve never met before feel comfortable enough to ask you to introduce them to him? Why do they request to follow you on Instagram only so they can find his account more easily? And what pisses you off most—the question they always ask, without fail: “Is he single?”
And you know there's a quick answer you can give. A very simple solution to your eye-twitching problem. Because every time someone high-fives him in the corridors or bats their eyelashes flirtatiously in his direction, you have the overwhelming urge to just pounce on him. To wrap your arms around his middle and never let him leave your sight.
But you can’t. Your pride is too big, your ego too fragile to admit that someone actually managed to slip past the cold exteriors of your heart. So instead, you're waiting impatiently for him to reply to your text.
He's not at practice. He's supposed to be on his way. So where the hell was he?
jake: sorry! study group went for a lil bit longer than I thought. everyone kept asking me for help haha. omw!
And then he sends a photo. It's a group selfie, with him in the middle. Three girls on his right and another two on his left, surrounding him like a piece of meat.
you: dont bother coming. im sick.
With envy, maybe. But you're perfectly healthy.
jake: im sorry babe :( you feeling okay? want me to get you anything from the store?
you: Nah.
You almost scream. There's so much you want to say and admit, but your fingers won’t type any of it. You really don't deserve him. He's so nice, and you're so… Fuck.
Why is it so hard to admit to your own boyfriend that you miss him?!
jake: ok :( I love you!
Your stomach flips.
Haha… You needed professional help. Really.
–
Jake was better at football than the bench in high school ever suggested. A starter as a freshman was practically unheard of at Yonsei. Senior hierarchy was everything in this university. How he managed to level up from being a designated benchwarmer to being on the field at all times felt like whiplash.
Did he just have this in him this whole time?
You guess he looked kind of cool out there, all sweaty and serious-looking. Shouting call-outs to his team mid-game. Your legs squirm at the sight. He really needs to put on his damn glasses. (Though knowing you, that might only make things worse.)
You sit there, wearing the university colors of white and blue, holding onto a sign that says “Go Team!”
You would have made something with his name on it, but the thought alone sends shivers down your spine. You could not bear to give the stupid boys beside you the ammo of watching you scream Jake’s name and go crazy over his goals. So instead, you silently watch and admire as he steals the ball yet again.
Jay and Sunghoon, decked out in the rival school’s red for no reason whatsoever (they don’t even attend that university either), stood on either side of you with a level of passion you’ve never seen from them before.
“GET HIS ASS!” Jay screams. “Play the mental game! When Player 15 cries, he calls his mom first—”
Player 15 would happen to be Jake.
“The guy with ‘Sim’ in the back of his jersey loves to sing Celine Dion in the shower—”
You groan as heads turn, not enjoying the various glares and snide remarks from your surrounding schoolmates. You still haven't made any substantial friends yet at university. Being associated with these bozos would only make it that much harder. This would be the last time you sneak them into the student section.
“Can you two please sit down?” you mutter. “We’re ahead by like four goals. Psychological warfare is not enough for Jake to lose.”
Sunghoon drops back into his seat with a huff, cracking his neck.
“This won’t do,” he mutters. “Jake’s gonna surpass me in Instagram followers if he wins this.”
Jay chuckles on your left side, still standing and selfishly blocking the view of everyone behind him. “If he wins, you think he’ll invite us to their celebration party after?”
Your brows furrow. “What party?”
Jay finally sits down when the opposing team calls a time-out, one eyebrow raised at your confused expression. “Isn’t that like a thing every school does? First big game of the year, there’s bound to be something.”
Sunghoon nods in agreement. “Yeah, that’s like common knowledge.”
You almost pout before catching yourself. Jake never mentioned anything about a party.
So when the game ended and, of course, Yonsei won, the two boys could not help but ask.
“So there’s a party, right?”
“And you’re taking us?”
Jake looks between the two of them, forehead glistening and hair damp with sweat.
“What party?” he asks, and you smile gingerly. That’s right! You weren’t crazy. He would’ve told you if there was—
“You have to go to the party, Jakey!” a voice chirps from behind you.
You recognize her. The team manager of the football team. Short hair and a cute button nose. Very pretty. Your eyes cut between Jake and her. Wait.
Jakey? Who the hell calls him that?
Jay and Sunghoon give each other some shifty glances and step aside, letting the girl join the conversation. You feel this weird inclination to move closer to Jake, but you suppress the urge.
“Hm?” Jake finally replies, confused more than ever. “No one told me about a party.”
The girl giggles. What even was her name?
“Oh, Jakey! Since you’re a freshman, I’ll give you the rundown.”
She scooches in between you two, pushing you slightly to the side. The boys don’t seem to notice, and you have half your sense not to shove the girl right back.
“Whenever we win,” she starts, “the whole school goes to En Bar nearby and takes it over! Free drinks and everything. You’re our star player, so you definitely can’t miss it. Your friends are invited too, of course.”
She looks between Jay and Sunghoon, not even sparing you a glance.
Jake scratches the nape of his neck. “Sorry, I’m actually feeling pretty tired—”
“We’ll be there!” Jay and Sunghoon say instantly. You raise your eyebrow at them, and the two brush it off.
“We’ll make sure he comes,” Jay laughs, slapping Jake on the shoulder. Having gotten hit by the ball in that exact spot just an hour before, he winces.
“I’m not really—”
“Great!” the girl smiles, clapping her hands together. “I’ll see you all there then?”
Of course, her back is fully turned towards you. Dumb and dumber nod in unison, and as the girl walks off, they push at each other excitedly.
“First college party,” they cry out in joy.
“Oh my god,” you mutter. “You two are pathetic.”
Jake nods slowly in agreement. “Well… you guys have fun. I think I’m just gonna head back to my dorm and shower…”
“And get ready, right?” Sunghoon says dangerously, wagging a finger at him. “Because you are coming, right?”
Jake shivers under his friends’ threatening glares. But what really scares him is when his eyes find yours. You look pissed. Fuck. What did he do this time?
“I mean… I guess I could pop in…” Jake says reluctantly. He sneaks in another glance in your direction and sees that your frown grows even deeper. Was that the wrong thing to say?
–
“Babe?” Jake calls after you as you stride across campus, shivering in your t-shirt and mini skirt. “Why are you walking so fast?”
It’s dark now, save for the dim street lamps. You stop abruptly, and he almost bumps into you. When you turn, your jaw is already clenched.
“Am I crazy, or did that girl just completely ignore me?” you ask genuinely, voice at the seams of losing composure. Because what the fuck was her problem?
Jake laughs nervously. “Choa? I thought she seemed pretty friendly?”
Your expression sours. “Yeah, maybe a little too friendly,” you say under your breath. Jake catches it.
“Wait,” he says with a shit-eating grin, leaning in. “Babe… are you jealous? Hm?”
Your cheeks heat up, arms crossing like a toddler. “Fuck off.”
He laughs now, twisting you around and guiding you forward with an arm around your shoulders. “You’ve got nothing to worry about, babeeee…”
He notices how you don’t pull away from his touch, when normally you would hiss something like, “people are watching,” or something like that. Jake bites back an even bigger smile. You just let him hold you.
The walk to his dorm was peachy for him, save for the fact that his sweaty arm stank up your shirt. You! Jealous. This has to be a dream. When you reach his room, shared with a sophomore named Heeseung who never seems to be around, you sit on Jake’s bed, still reeling from the earlier interaction.
“Am I overreacting?” you ask him, not at all bothered that he was taking his jersey off right in front of you. You’re well past the stage of pretending his bare torso flusters you. “Like… did it not seem like she wanted you?”
Jake laughs, wiping his underarms with a nearby towel. “Me? Babe, no. That’s out of the question. She's like four years older than us—”
You roll your eyes. “So where the fuck did ‘Jakey’ come from?”
He shrugs, catching his reflection in the wall mirror hanging on his door. His muscles flex in a way that makes your eyes travel down his well-toned back… You snap your gaze back to the wall. No. Focus. You’re supposed to be mad.
“New year, new nickname?” he offers, teasingly.
You throw a pillow at his head. Like the athlete he is, Jake dodges it. He turns to you, laughing, amused by how sulky and adorable you look on his bed. Brows furrowed in contemplation, tugging your legs close to your chest. Your plush thighs in your pretty little skirt that would have gotten you dress-coded back in high school with your knee-high socks and…
Fuck.
“It’s not like I care,” you mumble, unconvincingly.
Jake huffs out something that sounds like a chuckle, but his thoughts are elsewhere. His mind (and eyes) are on the edge of your skirt. He places a hand on your thigh and rubs it softly. To you, it felt like reassurance, and it was. But he was also incredibly horny.
“Babe,” his words drawl. “Look at me.”
Your eyes meet his for a split second before he plants a wet kiss on your cheek. “Hey—”
He chuckles as he plants another on your nose. Then your chin. And then your other cheek. And now you’re trying to push him away, but he holds your wrists to prevent you from stopping his incessant attacks.
“Jake—You stink—Freak!” You try to say as his lips find yours, while he’s giggling up a storm. So cute. You're so fucking cute.
His next kiss is deep, drawing out your breath sharply. Your back is on the bed now with Jake on top. His hands still wrap around your wrists.
Jake’s lips move against yours, your eyes fluttering shut at the pleasure. His tongue prods and pushes in, taste so sweet and heavy as you breathe in his weirdly intoxicating scent. Like fresh laundry doused in the salt of his sweat. You clench his biceps as he comes up from the kiss to catch some air.
He looks at you, face flushed and mouth parted.
“I’m hard,” he blurts out, and you smack him on his naked chest.
“What do you want me to do about that?” you mutter as you start to feel him press against your stomach. “Don’t you have a party to go to?”
He shakes his head, burying his face in your hair. He lets out a groan, grinding onto you just to feel any part of you against his football shorts. You let out a squeak, clenching at his toned muscles harder.
“You’re not coming with?” he asks, and you can hear the shakiness in his breath. You smirk, wrapping your legs around him and shifting up so that his tent could meet your core. Jake fit between you so snugly.
His head lifts to meet yours, pupils already so dilated.
“Why would I?” you say through hooded eyes, and you could visibly see him gulp. It almost made you laugh. But instead, you tease him, moving your hips up to graze his bulge.
“I have time,” he groans quickly. “For this. Or whatever you want to do. Like I’m really down for any—”
You roll your eyes, gripping the back of his head to smash him back down to your lips. Your movements are messy, tongues clashing at a feverish pace. He’s still sore from earlier, but like hell he would let this opportunity go. Not when you looked this fucking good. Angry too. Those things aren’t mutually exclusive.
With trembling fingers, he lifts your shirt and almost moans at the sight of your bare skin. He wants to thank you for saving him the trouble of not fiddling with a bra clasp. And you pat yourself on the back for leaving your necklace at home, knowing how frisky Jake gets after the adrenaline of a good win runs through him. You don’t think you could handle Jake seeing you so jealous AND having his ring resting on your chest? Yeah, you’d probably die right in front of him.
His hands grab your tits softly, massaging them between his fingers. Jake dips down, swallowing a nipple in his mouth as he watches you sigh out in pleasure.
He’s confident in one thing when it comes to you, and it was this right here. He could make your tough exterior melt just as long as you were under him. Or over him. He has no preference.
His tongue circles your bud, tugging with his teeth lightly.
“Jake—” When he hears you squeak, his dick twitches with anticipation. So pliant now. What happened to that dominance earlier? He’d like to see it come back…
He moves on to the other breast, licking and massaging so it doesn't feel too neglected. Jake loves your tits, could be buried between them for the rest of his life if you let him. But now wasn’t the time! He has a very mean and very jealous, but also very hot, girlfriend to please. And maybe some party to make it to, who knows.
Jake pulls his shorts down roughly, just enough so that he can take his dick out. Already so big, the bulbous tip weeps with desire for you. He’s palming himself, relishing in how your eyes shut tight, lips parted open as his wet, pink muscle traces circles over your sensitive skin.
He’s nipping the top of your breasts now, careful not to leave marks in visible areas. Jake knows how you get about that sort of thing.
His fingers drag your white, damp panties off your legs, but keeps your skirt on. And the knee-high socks for good measure. His hand meets your core, pushing down on your clit with a heavy pressure he knows you like.
You gasp, covering your eyes with your forearm. You’re so embarrassed. The noises you're making are unbecoming of you. All he does is laugh. Still so sensitive during sex after a whole year of dating. And he’s supposed to be the shy one.
His fingers drag slowly on your folds as he spreads your juices all over his digits. Jake might just cum in his pants with how soft your tits feel as he nestles his head in between them.
He pushes two fingers in right away, and you draw out a sharp breath. You almost hit him on the shoulder. He has no idea how big his hands are. How sometimes you would eye them whenever he helps you with homework. Veiny, like his cock.
He’s moving his fingers in and out of you at a steady pace, wet squelches echoing through the room.
“Ngh—Mmm—” you groan, arching your back to meet his movements. Impatient. You’re always so impatient.
“JAKE!” you cry out, when he rubs over a certain spot.
He looks up at you from his comfortable position between the valley of your chest, and with a teasing glint in his eyes, he says, “You mean Jakey?”
And it’s not an exaggeration in the least to say that you start seeing red. You grab his wrist, the pads of your fingers digging into his flesh. He stops his movements, looking at you with those puppy-dog eyes like he did something wrong. And he did. Something very. Very. Wrong.
“Sorry, I just wanted to tease—”
You pull his fingers out of you. With one swift movement, you grab him by his shoulders and push him down onto the bed. You’re hovering over him now, eyes dark. Jake swallows nervously. Why’d you have to look so hot when provoked?
“Did I ruin the vibe or…”
“Shut up,” you growl, crashing your lips onto his. He tries to hold your waist to offer support, but you hold his wrists down onto the sheets. He could probably push you off very easily. But he doesn’t. Because he loves seeing you like this. Loves the urgency in your touch.
You want him! And you’re showing it! His heart is practically doing backflips in his chest.
Your tongue explores the inside of Jake’s mouth, licking the roof of it in a way that has him seeing stars. You’re so rough. Biting his lip, sucking his tongue, moving so desperately against him.
“Babe—” he tries to say in between your assaults on his mouth. But it comes out in a breathless whisper when he feels you grinding your wet folds against him.
“I said,” you say through gritted teeth. “Shut. Up.”
He almost moans when his leaking tip hits your clit. Just the contact alone has the back of his head hitting the pillow roughly. But he forces himself to watch as you move against him as he offers no assistance. Your grip on his wrists moves to the sheets as you focus on grinding against his dick. Swiveling yourself on him back and forth. Rubbing and rubbing. But it’s not enough. He needs to be inside. Needs to feel you right now.
Your breath is on his neck now, riling yourself up at his stunt. Jakey? What grown woman calls someone that? Choa and her nice ass bob. Fuck her!
“Ngh—” he lets out as you suction an erogenous zone on his neck, sucking and biting him like a vampire. Your tongue lapping at his skin to soothe him from the brutal assaults of your teeth. You close your eyes to relish in his taste. So salty from sweat, but still so sweet. But you’re distracted now as Jake breaks free from your hold. He grips your ass with one hand, the other guiding his pulsing member to your entrance.
“Wha—”
He’s looking at you with pleading eyes. “Can I, baby?” Jake begs, cheeks tinged pink. “Please?”
You bite back a smile. What a fucking loser.
You push down on him, just slightly, just enough for his bulbous tip to slip inside. His grip on your ass is now slack. He doesn't even want to fight back, really.
“Fuck—” Jake’s mouth parts open, watching you with heavy-lidded eyes when you come back up. No longer inside you, he groans.
“Whyyy,” he whines. “I said I’m sorry—”
He inhales a sharp breath when you engulf his tip again, tightening around him just a little harder.
“Do you like being called Jakey?” you question darkly. “Like it when other girls feel up on you?”
He shakes his head desperately. “No—Only you—” he says through pained groans.
And then you lift again, laughing at his pathetic form. “I don’t believe you.”
He’s practically writhing underneath you now, his mushroom tip pulsing against your folds. Your skirt hides it all from view, and he just wishes he could rip it off you. Give you a new one, much, much shorter, so he can see everything better.
But only if you let him.
“You’re literally torturing me,” he whimpers, hips jutting up messily. He keeps missing your entrance, the one he desperately needs to be buried in. “Need to feel you right now—”
“What’s it to me?” you ask meanly, your thumb prodding at his bottom lip. His tongue comes out to lick at the pad of your thumb, sucking it ever-so-slightly. You enjoy this view. Him underneath you. Pleading. Whining. Like he's starving.
“I’ll make you feel so good, baby,” Jake offers through the haziness of his lust. Not entirely conscious of how desperate he sounds. “You can use me however you want. I’ll literally do anything. Just please—”
And then you sink, so slowly that his eyes roll to the back of his head. The devil. His girlfriend is the devil.
“Babe—” You shut him up with another open-mouthed kiss. Messy, like he likes it.
He grips his hands into yours as you suckle his tongue, intertwining your fingers together. You try not to wince as you sheath him fully, realizing now that you were overconfident in taking control before he could properly prep you.
Usually, sex was an hours-long ordeal with Jake. He likes to finger you, then eat you out, then repeat, until he can slip into your slick warmth with little issue. Sex is the only time you don’t deny him the pleasure of seeing you flustered over him. Over what he could do for you. What he could provide you if you let him tell everyone in the world that he’s yours.
Regardless, Jake will always be long and thick, and he still stretches you out so deliciously. Your mouths clash against each other, swallowing back both of your moans as saliva pools at the sides of his bruised lips.
Depraved. That’s all you could think of when Jake bottoms out inside you. He’s so sweaty now, the scent so musky that it drives you insane. Do other girls smell these pheromones when he’s around? Or is this just you and your hypersensitivity to everything that involves him?
You’re moving up and down now, with shallow thrusts that do little to satiate the flame in your stomach. You don’t do this enough—take control enough. Your knees are already weak, wobbling, as you grind down on him.
But you push through it as you continue to impale yourself on his cock, gummy walls clenching him tightly with each thrust. You want to get him off like this, even if your whole body is trembling above him.
And it’s not like Jake doesn’t notice. But like the little shit he is, he doesn’t feel like helping. Because he enjoys the feeling too much, of your breasts bouncing filthily against his chest. When you lift yourself from his lips so that you can focus on riding him, he finds it so endearing. How you put your hands on his abdomen to steady yourself, how you fuck yourself on his length. How much you struggle to take all of him in. Not sure what to do with yourself.
‘My poor baby,’ Jake thinks, chuckling at how tight your eyes shut just to feel him better.
“Need help?” he hums, his hand drawing circles on your hip. You shake your head, teeth gritted.
“N-no,” you try to muster out, but it’s unconvincing. Your movements are stuttering, moans slipping out of your mouth too easily. He smirks. His little pillow princess.
Jake, with his grip on your hips, pulls you down onto his cock. Hard. You gasp as his hips snap up with it.
“Ah—” you cry out, your nails now digging into his shoulder blades. He pounds into a spot that had you almost come undone at that very moment. How did he get so good at this?
Jake lifts you, all the way until his pink tip is the only thing in your wet pussy. Then, as harshly as he could, he pushes you down on him, his thickness grazing at your deepest parts. And he does this. Again and again. Until you collapse onto his chest from the roughness of his thrusts.
“I’m gonna—Ngh—Fuck—You—” you try to say through your moans, try to sound angry. But you love it. Love how tight he grabs your bum. Love the slight stretch of pain as he stuffs you full of him. Love that trickle of spit that falls out of his mouth as his back lifts off the bed to feel you better. Ugh, you hate him.
“JAKE—”
“Shhh,” he whispers, forcing your face into the crook of his neck. “Just take it.”
Jake plunges up into you, propelling your hips down with his harsh grip. He lifts a heavy hand, smacking your ass from behind as you try to match his timing. You scream. He does it again, massaging the tender spot. The pain mixes with the pleasure, as tears prick the corner of your eyes. You feel your climax building now as your lips find his neck again, sucking and biting. Marking him. Let everyone know that he’s yours. That you own him.
“Babe…” he whines, too lost in the suctioning of your tightness to really care. Because he’s close too. So fucking close.
Jake’s arms move up to your back, caging you into a bear-like embrace. His feet plant themselves on the bed, as his dick shoves into you with newfound energy. He’s going so fast, you could practically hear the speed. Feel it too. The wet squelches of his balls slapping against your ass. You move with him, trying to sync your rhythm to his.
“Mmm—Ahh—” your moans jumble into each other. Your legs are trembling, even more than they were before. A searing feeling within you continues to build and build. A single, full thrust from him has you biting into his neck brutally, stifling your moans as your orgasm crashes through you in waves.
“Shit—” he cries out, from both the pain of your teeth and the pleasure of the constricting grip of your wet folds. You grind down on him, whimpering into his skin, back arched to ease yourself through the sensitivity.
Jake’s dick twitches in you once, then twice. He pushes you off of him and onto the bed, harsher than he intended. But he doesn’t have a condom on, and he likes the way you look in white.
He hovers over you now, his painfully hard length in his hand. He’s stroking himself with urgency, fist wrapped around himself with a panicked grip. He’s watching you intently as you splay out underneath him. So fucking pretty. Lips parted so sensually. Legs opened with your juices glistening on the inside of your thighs. Maybe he should stuff his cock into your—
“Fuck—” he groans, mouth parting at the sight of his thick ropes of cum spurt out of him, coating your stomach and tits. He strokes slowly, pumping all that he’s worth onto your body. You welcome it, eyes drinking in his flushed demeanor.
“I love you,” Jake mutters as he comes down from his high. And you don’t say anything back, distracted as your fingers coat themselves on the sticky fluids on your skin. Such a mess, both of you.
You hear it then. Intense vibrations on his nightstand. Jake’s phone, very much neglected, is blowing up with texts and calls. Was it going off like that the whole time? Then his eyes go wide like saucers.
“Shit! The party—”
Your eyes narrow. Before he can pick it up, you grab the nape of his neck to pull him down into another sloppy kiss. Your legs wrap around Jake once more, smirking as you feel him melt into you with little resistance.
“What party?”
–
morning after.
“You’re a bitchhhh,” Sunghoon cries out, over a FaceTime call that Jake was forced to pick up at nine in the morning. You were already gone by then, running late to your morning lecture.
Heeseung, thankfully, still hadn’t returned to the dorm. Or else you wouldn’t have been able to stay over and let Jake devour you a few more times, but that’s besides the point. He starts humming happily to himself with the memories of last night still fresh in his mind.
“They wouldn’t even let me into the bar because I was wearing the wrong colors,” his friend continues to complain.
“I get it, I get it,” Jake replies, only half-listening. He’s fixing his outfit in the mirror, admiring how well a polo shirt fits him. It’s weird. He’s getting used to not looking like a dweeb all the time, just a few weeks into his big transformation, even with his glasses on right now.
“Yo, do you think these pants look better with a belt or nah?” he asks, not really sparing Sunghoon a glance. He adjusts his shirt’s collar slightly until—
“WHAT THE FUCK—”
Jake jumps, phone nearly dropping from the desk he sat it on.
“WHAT IS THAT?!”
“What? What?!” Jake snaps his head to look behind himself, like Sunghoon might have seen a ghost.
“Did you get eaten by a fucking lion?!” Sunghoon gawks. Jake’s cheeks turned a bright shade of red. Damn. He forgot.
“W-what are you talking about?” he mutters unconvincingly, slowly coming out of frame. He strips the polo off in a panic, digging through his closet until he finds a turtleneck. It’s autumn anyway. This is fine, right?
“Our friendship is done,” Sunghoon deadpans at the camera. “You got fucking laid and didn’t tell me?! I mean, I understand Jay, he’d make it weird. BUT NOT EVEN ME?!”
Jake shakes his head, tugging the turtleneck on. He tries to roll up his sleeves to look more casual, but now he looks like Steve Jobs. Shit, he should put his contacts on.
“So who is it?!” Sunghoon presses. “Who’s the unlucky girl?”
When Jake doesn’t reply, Sunghoon gasps.
“Unlucky guy?!”
“Man, shut up!” Jake cries, snatching his phone off the desk and coming back into frame. “Please don’t tell Jay.”
–
“Okay, so he told Jay,” he blurts, shielding himself with his arm like you’re about to hit him. “Please don’t get mad at me.”
You almost asked why he was wearing a turtleneck in relatively warm weather when he tugged the collar down to show his neck. Absolutely purple and bruised. A dark, suppressed part of you jumped with glee. The more rational part started cursing yourself out.
“I can’t believe you’d video call him the morning after,” you groan, massaging your temple with your fingers. “Ugh, I’m so stupid. What was I even thinking?!”
Jake gives you a sly smile. “I mean, I’m not complaining—”
You shoot him another icy stare, and he stops.
“W-well, it’s not like they know that it’s you! They probably think it’s someone else…”
You inhale a sharp breath at the thought. Was he gonna tell them the hickeys on his neck were from someone else? Who? Choa?
“Whatever,” you mutter, whipping around. Your bag smacked his bicep on purpose. You walk off, fists clenched, ignoring Jake’s calls out to you.
Fucking Choa.
–
A full week has passed since the disaster that was Sunghoon seeing Jake’s bruised neck. Your boyfriend only felt safe enough to see the two idiots once the marks faded, and even then, he was a little disappointed to wake up and see them all gone.
“So run it through with me again,” Jay requests, leaning over the boiling hot pot broth. The boys sit in a dimly lit restaurant with a stage in the back.
“Like, you were just walking back to your dorm and boom—you found a rando to hook up with out of nowhere?!” Jay questions, dropping tofu into the soup so aggressively that it splashes Jake’s wrist.
“Why are you making up fantasies in your head about my sex life?” Jake mutters, pushing his glasses up his face. He was too lazy to put his contacts on just to hang out with these two. “I plead the fifth.”
“Bro, I thought you were a virgin this whole time!” Sunghoon adds unhelpfully. “Excuse us for trying to be supportive.”
Jake rolls his eyes, struggling to grab an udon noodle with his chopsticks.
“Wait,” Jay says through the hot pot steam. “Weren’t you walking with [Y/N] that night?”
Jake gulps, throat bobbing as he fiddles with the noodle more to avoid suspicion.
“Right!” Sunghoon snaps his fingers, and for a second, Jake’s life flashes before his eyes. They know. They have to! Fuck, you’re gonna be so mad at him—
“Why don’t we just ask her who it was?”
Jake stares at them and breaks out into a nervous laugh. Never in his life was he happier to have a more idiotic set of childhood friends.
“Please do,” Jake smiles, wondering how you would weasel out of that conversation with them. “She knows her very well…”
A piercing sound of microphone feedback ricochets through the restaurant. The three cover their ears as everyone’s attention turns to the neglected stage.
“Who wants to sing?! It's open mic night!” the restaurant owner booms. When a deafening silence fills the air, Jay lifts Jake’s hand straight into the air without hesitation.
“This guy loves Celine Dion!” he cries out as Jake tries to yank his arm back down. He curses at his friend, but to no avail.
“Okay!” the owner shouts excitedly. “Come on right up, sir!”
Jay and Sunghoon practically drag Jake up the stage, laughing themselves all the way back to their seats in the far back of the restaurant. Jake stands frozen as dozens of strangers stare at him, his heartbeat thudding in his ears. He takes off his glasses, shoving them in his pocket, and brushes his hair back. He couldn't bear to look at all these blank faces staring at him. Confidence. This is all about confidence.
When ‘My Heart Will Go On' starts echoing through the restaurant walls, Jake’s face flushes all the way red. This is exposure therapy; he tries to cope with himself. If he could do this, he could probably build up the courage to ask you about going public. So that his friends stop thinking he’s a loser. Maybe for you to stop thinking it, too.
He sucks in a deep breath. What’s the difference between this and a showerhead? Nothing. Absolutely nothing!
“Every night in my dreams, I see youuuu… I feel youuu…” he starts slowly, welcomed with a soft gasp from an audience member. Jay and Sunghoon’s laughter dies as Jake sings. Shit. He was actually doing it. And he sounded good, too. Like an angel. Was Jay crying?
Jake loses himself in the slow melody of the song, singing his heart out as he does in every postgame shower. ‘This one’s for you, babe,’ he thinks. Wherever you are…
When the song ends and Jake’s eyes open, he’s met with a standing ovation. At a damn hot pot restaurant. Jay and Sunghoon are cheering the loudest, holding their hearts like their once-nerdy best friend was their child at a talent show. The owner comes up to the stage, sniffling.
“Give it up for this random kid!”
As Jake makes his way back to the table, he holds his head up high. It’s like taking off his glasses gave him super powers. He couldn’t have imagined doing this a year before, let alone ordering food at a kiosk without stuttering.
“Excuse me—” Jake turns around. A girl with long flowing hair stops him.
“Are you Jake Sim? The new guy on the football team?” she asks, eyes bright. He nods. Does he know her?
“I’m Suji from the Dance department.” She bows slightly. “Your performance was incredible, by the way!”
He nods, giving a small “thanks,” before he turns back around.
“Actually!” She calls after him. He stops again. “I just wanted to ask if you were interested in auditioning to be the male lead of our upcoming musical! It’s about a football player who finds passion in singing and dancing. I just thought it would fit you so well!”
Jake turns back to face the stranger. He ponders deeply. A musical? Him? He’d never thought about it before, but what the hell! He guesses he’s the type to try new things now. The power of a good haircut, maybe.
“I’ll think about it,” he says with a polite smile.
Suji grins back. “Auditions start tomorrow. We’d love to have you.”
By the time Jake finds his way back to his seat, his friends are already geeking.
“You pulled another?!” Jay cries in anguish, biting his fist. “I should have gone up there. That should have been me! Damn it!”
“It’s not fair,” Sunghoon wails, leaning his head dramatically against the wall. “You had no play in high school. Like absolutely zero bitches—”
Jake snorts, scrounging for his glasses once more to slip them back on. “She was just asking me to audition for some musical.”
“I’m sure she was,” Jay says with a smirk. “I’m sure she’s staring straight at your back right now because she wants you in that musical sooo bad.”
Jake shifts in his chair uncomfortably, and sure enough, Suji is watching him. She shoots up her arm to wave at him. He looks back at his friends with a confused glance.
“Maybe they’re desperate?”
Sunghoon groans. “I’m gonna call [Y/N]. Let’s get her expertise on this.”
“Don’t!” Jake lunges, trying to grab Sunghoon’s phone as he takes it out of his pocket. But then flashes from last night start playing in his head. You above him. Riding him. Gripping his shoulders. Your lips on his neck, marking him until he whined your name. All at the mere mention of Choa’s weird pet name for him. Jake clears his throat and sits back, not even trying to hide the shit-eating grin spreading across his face.
“...Yeah,” he says more casually. “Ask her.”
–
ma baby: Come over. Now.
Jake receives your text after Sunghoon’s impromptu call, bringing his hands together in a prayer position to the sky. Thank you to whatever higher being was watching over him.
When he reaches your residence hall, you’re waiting outside your door in pajamas, foot tapping impatiently against the carpet. You start glaring at his silhouette even before he comes into view.
“So,” you start slowly, “you just let anyone talk to you these days?”
Jake’s already giddy. Yes… Be angry with him… Let him in your dorm room and reprimand him, while you’re at it…
“Babeeee,” he teases, his arms already reaching for yours. You dodge him. “Are you mad at me?”
“No,” you reply flatly. “I’m just wondering when you started serenading restaurants and accepting invitations from random girls?”
“Just thought I could finally get some appreciation for my many talents,” he says teasingly, raising an eyebrow at you.
“Are you saying I don’t appreciate you?” you ask, not at all amused by his playful gaze. “I tell you all the time that you’re smart!”
He chuckles. “Everyone and your mom knows that by now, babe.”
You narrow your eyes. ‘He’s learning how to fight back,’ you think sourly.
“So you enjoyed that girl's appreciation, then?” you counter, knowing that you were riling yourself up by asking such a loaded question. Jake bites his lip to stifle a smile. There it is.
He shrugs. “I don’t know,” he says, pushing his glasses up. “I think I might actually consider auditioning!”
And this part is genuine. He’s always enjoyed singing. It could be a cool new experience, especially since he shied away from doing theater back in high school. Maybe now was his moment to shine. But when he notices how your expression darkens, he’s suddenly excited to audition for the musical for a whole different reason.
You look around the hallway, checking to see if anyone's coming by. Then you pull him by the collar and into your dorm room. The door shuts behind you two as you push him to sit on the bed. Jake looks up at you, eyes bright with pure anticipation as you climb onto his lap.
“What’s up, babe?” he asks, feigning ignorance. And you fall for it, because your cute, nerdy boyfriend couldn’t possibly have ulterior motives… Right?
“You have class tomorrow?” you ask as you adjust yourself on him, legs encasing both sides of his thighs. His hands find your hips, pulling you closer.
“It depends,” he says, knowing full well he has an 8 a.m. physics lab. “Is your roommate coming back anytime soon?”
Oh yeah. Her.
“Not tonight,” you mutter, already peppering his neck with small kisses. “She’s visiting her parents.”
Jake smirks, tilting your chin up so your eyes meet his. His thumb brushes over your bottom lip as the wheels are already turning in his head. He fakes a cough.
“You know… I think the musical is actually a romantic comedy.”
–
You’re on your knees, carpet harshly grazing your skin.
“Fuck,” Jake groans, head thrown back as his hand clutches your hair. He’s pushing you down onto his cock, relishing in the way your cheeks hollow around him. How you take his whole length into your mouth without your usual snappy commentary. Look at you. Underneath him. So eager to please, but so in need of control. He bites his bottom lip at the view. It's addictive.
“Just like that,” Jake encourages, stroking your cheek so lovingly. Your tongue licks the underside of his thickness, careful not to have your teeth graze his sensitive skin. He’s so flushed above you, a darkness blooming in your heart. The sight of his glasses pushed so low on his nose bridge. So focused, so desperate for release.
‘My Jake,’ you think to yourself. ‘All mine.’
You bob your head up and down, your mouth plunging down to the base of his member with the help of his tight grasp on your hair.
“Y-yes,” he sighs, his hips coming up to meet your lips. Jake’s gaze never leaves yours, unable to tear his eyes from the tears forming in your eyes from just how much he filled you up. You always had something to say. Always rolling your eyes at him. Now, your eyes were rolling back for a different reason. His mouth falls open.
“F-fuck—”
You smirk as his hips start to lose rhythm. You remember the first time you gave him head. Just like this, knees on the floor of his room back home, with his parents watching TV downstairs. Glasses perched and foggy. He came within seconds. You were proud, just a little, that he was able to last this long now.
“B-baby?” he tries to cry out. “I’m close—”
You pull away from him with a pop of your lips, teasing the slit of his tip with the flat of your tongue. He groans in frustration, but his hands don’t push you down to take him in again.
“Already?” you say, eyes batting up at him. “Why should I give you the satisfaction?”
He whines, his grip on your hair tightening just a little.
“Please?” he asks, not really sure what you want from him. It’s not like he asked you to just fuck him with your mouth! That was all your doing. Okay, yes, maybe he did provoke you. But did that mean he didn’t deserve to orgasm?!
You’re pumping him slowly with your right hand, gripping tightly and stroking enough so that he’s still edging close to his climax. But not close enough to actually reach it.
“I thought I was supposed to be showing you appreciation,” you say pointedly. “Take my time with you and all that.”
He shakes his head ferociously, his hips snapping up into your fist.
“Babe—Please—I’m so—” he groans when he feels you slow your pace again.
“So what?” you ask, feigning naivety. You really are the devil.
He shakes his head. He can’t speak. Can’t even think. Just frustrated with how your lips aren’t wrapped around his fucking dick anymore.
“I’m sorry,” he cries. “I’ll do anything, baby. Please—Just stop teasing—Please—”
His sobs are music to your ears. Your wrist’s pace on him quickens, as your mouth engulfs his swollen tip. Your tongue circles the head, pumping him up and down with all your strength and might. Jake’s hands are clutching the sheets, hips pistoning up into your sticky fingers. He feels his load threatening to spill over.
“Fuck—Yes, baby—There—” He pulls your head back, hand encasing yours, pumping ferociously with you. Your mouth is wide open, tongue stuck out, eyes looking directly up at his. An invitation.
Spurts of his hot, white release coat your pink tongue. He unloads everything within him all over your features. Your cheeks. Your chin. Your cute ass nose. All covered in his cum. His mouth parts at the sight.
So pretty. His girlfriend is so fucking pretty.
“I love you,” he whispers, as he wipes dribbles of his liquid off your chin with his thumb. “I love you so fucking much…”
You hum back in approval as he lifts you back up and onto his lap. Your face, still stained with his orgasm, comes up to kiss him. He grimaces slightly. You taste infinitely better than he does. He’s almost thankful you part ways with his lips so that you could pepper kisses down his neck.
And when you start sucking and nipping in the same way you did that game night, he smiles. His arms wrap around your waist as you suction his pulse point.
‘I could get used to this,’ Jake thinks.
–
The audition the next day went surprisingly easily. He truly was the only one trying out for the main role, while Suji was already pre-selected to play the female lead. Jake thinks it’s a bit unfair. What if other people wanted to audition too? But whatever. At least he got the part.
He finds you in between your lectures, holding out a boba for you in his hand. Jake’s not wearing a turtleneck this time, proudly wearing the battle scars of your teeth on his neck. No one’s brave enough to bring it up to him yet, to his dismay. Except you, who promptly smacks him in the arm for his shamelessness.
“You look like a pervert,” you grumble, still taking the drink from him.
He chuckles at your cute expression. You say that like it wasn’t your intention to have him show the bites off. To show that he is very much occupied with someone else. Not Choa. Or whoever this other girl was.
“I was wearing my jacket the whole day,” he reassures. “Just took it off when I came to see you.”
He flexes slightly. “You think I’ve bulked recently?”
You roll your eyes and ignore his obvious fish for compliments. “So how’d it go? The audition?”
He smiles. “You’re looking at the male lead of Singing Striker,” he says proudly, hand to chest. “And before you ask, the name was not my choice.”
You scoff at the cheesiness. “Congrats,” you say through small sips of your gifted drink. “Break a leg.”
“Babe… when you say it like that, I feel like you mean it the other way.”
You shake your head, speaking robotically. “So who’s the female lead? It’s a romcom, you said?”
“The girl,” he starts, snapping his fingers like he doesn’t already know who she is. “Suji. From the restaurant. The one who recruited me.”
Your eyes morph into a squint, like you’re glaring at him.
“...Interesting,” you say, willing yourself not to overreact. So Jake is hot now (always was). Girls just love to approach him with invitations to stuff. And he gets to act in a musical with someone that Jay described as “the baddest girl I’ve ever seen in my life.” Great! You love that, actually.
You bite down hard on the boba straw. “You know what… Are they casting for extras?"
–
And it's like a bad habit now. How you nip and scar his neck like you’re feeding off him every time a girl even so much looks in his direction. It’s easier than saying you’re jealous, easier than admitting that you have a sick sort of need to control who Jake interacts with.
You almost bent a metal spoon in the cafeteria when a girl asked for his number while you were sitting right in front of him. Granted, you did denounce being in a relationship with him pretty heavily the first few weeks at school. You knew she had every right to shoot her shot, but that didn't stop you from taking Jake right into a janitorial closet and making you eat him out as an apology.
“Fuck, baby,” he moans into the space between your thighs as your hands push him deeper into your wetness. “I've never even seen that girl in my life—”
You grit your teeth, angry that he even mentioned her. “Did I ask?” you growl through sharp breaths. “Just shut up.”
He smiles against your clit, sucking harshly to elicit more of your beautiful noises. He hums into you. Happy that you're mad at him. Happy that he gets to do dirty things with you without having to practically be on his knees and begging. Well, really, he already was.
His tongue laps at your folds, thrusting in and out to prolong his stay in between your thighs. Maybe he is teasing, but really, he’s just taking it all in. Your addictive noises. Your sweet taste. The feeling of his fingers digging into your ass just to hold you up. The way you clench around his tongue when he arches it into you, real deep. Yeah, he needs you bad.
Jake is lapping at you, your legs constricting around him even tighter when he finds his way back to your clit. When he tugs on it with his teeth, you jolt.
“Jake—” He does not care. He nips again, flattening his tongue to soothe the slight pinch. You arch your back into him, riding his face until you stop yourself. You look desperate. Pathetic even. But Jake groans.
“Keep going,” he huffs. “Use me, babe. Use me like I’m your fucking toy.”
You tsk, wondering where he learned to talk like that.
“Fucking pervert,” you mutter through harsh breaths. But your grip on him does tighten, and he whimpers at the feeling of you tugging on his locks.
“You like it when I'm like this, don't you?” You grit your teeth, pushing him in further. His nose is practically buried into your clit as he fucks his pink muscle into you at a merciless pace.
“Like when you get attention. Like when everyone fucking wants you.”
You're seething, practically riling yourself up. He tries to speak, but you clench around his tongue, trapping his voice. He hums into your folds instead, licking the roof of your warm hole as he finds the exact spot he's been searching for. You mewl.
“Fuck! T-there!”
You're grinding onto his face now, smothering him with your scent. Yes, he thinks to himself, please suffocate him. Tremors go through your body as you feel something intense build in the lower pit of your stomach. So close. So fucking close.
Jake’s grip on your ass loosens as he lets you do all the work. Your legs over his shoulder pump into his face. Like, Jake is just a mere vessel for your climax. And he wouldn't have it any other way. He doesn't even nurse his own hard-on, one that's painfully stretching his jeans.
You're fucking his tongue, whining with each thrust, eyes starting to roll back, fingers almost pulling Jake’s hair from his scalp. Your hips stutter and then—
“Fuuck…” Your orgasm pulses through you in ways that have you screaming silently. Your legs are trembling as his mouth vibrates with his hums against your core.
Jake’s lapping up all your juices with an urgency. Everything. He wants to taste everything. When you gently push him off from the oversensitivity, he resists at first. He holds you in place until he gets his fill, until tears are threatening to spill over. But your legs finally find the ground as he looks up at you with half-lidded eyes.
“I love you,” he whispers, out of breath.
‘Whore’ you want to say out loud, but you know that would only make him hornier. He’s weirdly into stuff like that. But you smile as you comb through his hair. He doesn’t have complaints about you messing it all up as long as you’re fucking him, huh?
Jake, still on his knees, looks up at you with a lick of his lips, savoring the remaining taste of you on it. You wish he could see how he looked. Flushed. Damp. Yours. You almost lift him up to kiss him when—Ding.
The loving gaze you two share is cut off by the sound of his phone. He finally gets up from his knees, checking the notification.
“Oh shit,” he mutters. “Suji says I missed the costume fitting. I think I need to head out soon—”
You smash your lips against his, interrupting his train of thought. You moan at the taste of yourself on his devious tongue. Jake smirks, wrapping his arms around your waist. Maybe you could add a few more hickeys to his collection for good measure.
–
jake: let’s head to jay’s together?
It’s one of your weekly hangouts, the nights you try to avoid because they always end with you ignoring the pile of assignments you’ve already been putting off.
you: sure. wya rn?
You smack your forehead the second you realize how quickly you sent that text. You swear you weren’t waiting. It wasn’t like you were staring at the last message he sent five hours ago, ruminating over whether it was appropriate to tell him how much you missed him.
jake: meet me by the bleachers :D practice is ending soon.
The speed at which you change outfits is impressive, already heading to the damn field before you realize it. He’s there, dribbling with a couple of his teammates. You sit at the top of the stands, a bit out of his sight. He catches a glimpse of you anyway, waving, and you shoot him a simple smile of acknowledgement that dampens almost immediately. Because you also see Choa, handing him a water bottle. When Jake reaches for it, trying to avoid brushing her hand, she purposefully finds his fingers anyway. It’s enough for your stomach to sink.
Even though he’s just smiling politely. Even when it looks like their conversation lasts for two seconds. It doesn’t feel any less bad. Choa notices you staring, and she scoffs.
“This is a closed practice—”
“She’s with me,” Jake corrects her immediately. “I told her to come. That’s okay, right?”
You lift an eyebrow, challenging her. Jake said it the nice way. If she had to hear you speak, you would have probably been escorted off the field by now. She coughs awkwardly and nods, instantly folding under Jake’s attention. Your boyfriend, by the way.
“O-of course,” she stammers. “Just make sure she doesn’t see the playbook.”
The guys continue playing, and you move down a few rows, keeping Choa in your line of sight. It’s like she feels the daggers you send her way because she whips around to glare at you.
“It’s kind of pathetic,” she starts. “How you cling onto him.” You squint at her, not sure if you heard her correctly. You turn around, too, to check if she really had the audacity to speak to you in that way.
“You talking to me?” you ask, pointing at yourself mockingly. She clicks her tongue.
“Who else?” she bites back. “Do you even have a name, or do you usually just go by Jake’s guard dog?”
Your cheeks burn in anger. Oh, if you were in high school… She’d have been on the ground by now, makeup stained with turf and pebbles. But unfortunately, you’re trying to stick to your resolution. A reformed delinquent girl at a prestigious university—
“You mute too?” Choa adds in for good measure. You stand, and it’s like Jake’s Spidey senses tingle because he stops to watch, monitoring if he needs to step in.
“You know,” you say, voice cool and devoid of emotion, “you’ve got a lot to say for someone who has to talk like a baby to get a man’s attention.”
She snarls. “Excuse me?”
“Jake’s not gonna let you hit,” you mock, scanning her up and down with a disgusted face. You only say the next part just to piss her off. “You’re not really his type.”
“And you are?” She steps in closer. “You’re stuck in the fucking friendzone, acting like hot shit—”
Oh, if only she knew. The truth is sitting on your tongue, burning, begging to be spoken just so you can wipe that stupid smirk off her face. But you’re not that angry yet. Not enough to expose yourself.
“You seem like such a loser,” she continues, voice laced with malice. “Everyone already thinks you look like some stray puppy following Jake everywhere he goes. Don’t you have a life of your own? Any hobbies? Isn’t it sad showing up where you’re not wanted?”
Ouch. Jake was your puppy. He follows you around everywhere.
She digs right into that ugly little fear in the back of your mind. That you look as pitiful as you feel. That you truly were just biding your time in this dumb university until Jake showers you with attention. Is this what a relationship’s supposed to feel like? Like you’re waiting for him, all the damn time.
You inhale a deep breath. You’re better than this. Better than catfights over someone that’s already yours. A man who sleeps on your chest almost every night. But you’re not above being petty.
“And did he tell you all that,” you ask with fake sweetness, “or are your delusions that Jake’s gonna fuck you starting to get to your brain?”
She opens her mouth, but you cut her off. “I’ll make sure to put in a good word for you,” you continue, sarcasm dripping in your voice. “Make sure Jakey knows exactly the kind of girl you are.”
Choa bites the inside of her cheek. “Not like I said anything wrong.”
“Oh, right.” You pitch your voice up to that grating baby tone she uses with Jake. “I’m sure he’ll appreciate you calling me a ‘fucking loser,’ since you care so much about what he thinks.”
You could laugh at her suddenly hunched shoulders. You drop back down onto your seat, fake scrolling through your phone. “Don’t you have a team to manage?”
Choa whips her bob around, stomping back toward the group and desperately hoping that no one heard. But Jake is already staring. He doesn’t look mad. Just resigned.
“Choa?” he calls out, voice low and almost inaudible.
“Yes?” she answers immediately, with that lilted tone that sounds like nails on a chalkboard. He’s not smiling like usual. You don’t hear the conversation that takes place, so curious as to why Choa’s expression suddenly drops.
“Don’t ever talk to her like that,” he says, and the entire team stiffens around them.
“And next time,” he adds, walking past her, “Just mind your fucking business.”
–
You never, in all your years of living, thought you’d be sitting in an auditorium seat watching your boyfriend act like he was in love with another girl on stage. But here you are, leg bouncing and forearms itching from the irritation bubbling in your chest.
“But don't you get it?!” Jake rehearses, script in hand. His hands flail in fake exasperation. You cover your mouth to hide the wince forming on your lips. “How can I choose between the stage and football?!”
“You don't have to choose,” Suji steps in, acting much better than Jake, at least. “You can do both.”
Jake sighs, throwing his hands up in the air. He's facing her now.
She's pretty, you think. Really pretty. Probably one of the most gorgeous girls you've ever seen in your life. And Jake is staring right into her eyes. You can’t help but wonder if he thinks the same. You grit your teeth at the thought.
“But what would people think of me?” he sighs. Suji shakes her head, moving closer. Your brows knit. That's not part of the script.
“Who cares what other people think?” she says softly, resting her hand on his chest. Your expression darkens immediately. “If it feels like you're alone… Then I can be there to support you.”
Maybe Jake's character should care what other people think, especially if he’s gonna prioritize singing on stage with some pretty girl over his football career—
You slap your own cheek lightly. Relax.
“Cut,” the musical director calls out. “Great job, you two! After this is the dance scene. We can rehearse that tomorrow. I think that's all for the day.”
When the actors and stage crew finally funnel out, you watch Jake stay behind, chatting with his costars onstage. So radiant, smiling at them with his toothy grin and cracking jokes as he says goodbye. He never used to be like that. Used to be so painfully shy that Jay had to accept his academic awards for him in high school.
And yeah, you feel like shit when he's standing there, surrounded by people who have stars in their eyes when he talks, while you're grumpily waiting in a faraway seat with no real excuse to interrupt. You're just part of the stage crew, after all. Just one of the invisible people who move props in between scenes while Jake and Suji’s characters fall deeply in love with each other. Yuck.
But you’re not gonna do the usual thing of dragging him to the nearest secluded area and fucking his brains out. No. You’re better than that. You’re not a loser! You’d let this pass.
“Bye, I’ll catch up with you guys soon! My friend’s waiting for me.”
The word ‘friend’ digs deep into your heart. But that’s your own fault.
Jake walks toward you, and the quick smile he throws your way is cut short the moment he pulls his phone out of his pocket. He stops in front of you, forehead still glistening from the stage lights, eyes glued to the screen even as he talks.
“I have practice in like thirty minutes,” he sighs, scrolling through his calendar. “And then the crew wants to have, like, a group dinner later tonight.”
He cranes his neck to release some tension, finally looking up at you. “Damn. My character is lowkey right. It really is hard balancing the two.”
You roll your eyes and stand up. “The crew? Like Jay and Sunghoon?”
He shakes his head as he walks beside you, still a bit occupied with his phone. He's sending text messages to some massive group chat, text bubble after text bubble popping up.
“The main acting crew,” he says, emphasizing the second word. “I think they wanna run the lines at En Bar and get a couple of drinks.”
You almost stop in your tracks, but you force yourself to continue walking with him, arms crossed. Good for him, you think. And you mean it. He's adjusted so well to university life, while yours feels like it revolves around him.
What's Jake up to? Is his practice done? Who's he talking to? Is it Choa? Is it Yizhuo? Is it every girl that makes eye contact with your newly socially adept boyfriend, who just so happens to have the most gorgeous face known to mankind?
You want to punch yourself real bad.
“Do you wanna come?” he asks when he notices you've fallen silent. He thinks it's cute when you're jealous. Sulking and pouty—when it’s obvious why you’re upset. Not when you're quiet. Not when you're creating distance between you two as he walks beside you.
“I can ask them if we can reserve more chairs—”
“It's fine!” you interrupt, but even you don’t convince yourself. “I have work to catch up on anyway.”
His lips part as if recalling something important, something he promised you.
“I'm so sorry, babe!” he gasps. “I totally forgot that you needed help studying for your exam tomorrow!”
You shrug your shoulders. You’re a cool girlfriend. Super chill. Not crazy at all.
“No, it's okay,” you say, chain necklace feeling heavy on your chest. “I'll just go to the tutoring center. You're busy, I get it.”
His eyes are still laced with concern. You sound so disconnected, so not yourself. Did he do something wrong?
“I can come over tomorrow?” he suggests, but it almost comes out as a plea. “We can watch the new movie you wanted—”
“My roommate’s gonna be home.”
“Okay…” he says, voice fading. “What about my dorm?”
You shake your head. “I'm not really up for a movie, I guess.”
Jake’s expression sours. It feels like you’re shoving sheets of metal down his throat. He can take you angry. Can handle you screaming, kicking, crying, and calling him names. He can’t take whatever this is.
“I can just cancel,” he says quickly. “I’ll come over tonight!”
And Choa’s voice resounds in your ear.
“You seem like a fucking loser.”
You bite your bottom lip and stare at his wavering gaze. You wonder if he pities you.
Has he noticed? How quickly you reply to his texts? How often you show up to his extracurricular activities? How you can’t seem to admit that you’re hurting, even when he’s right here in front of you? God, you hate this feeling.
“It’s okay,” you say, and it’s small like a whisper. “Need some alone time anyway.”
“Alright,” he breathes, relenting to whatever boundary you’ve set with him. He reaches out to brush a strand of hair from your face, but when you flinch, he retracts his hand instantly.
“I love you?” he tests.
You give him a small smile and nod, pushing past him. He moves like he wants to catch your hand and stop you. But as always, he lets you walk just a little too out of his reach.
Because you still don’t say it back.
–
This is what it feels like to twiddle your thumbs and try not to scream as Jake misses yet another hangout. He’s busy with his daily practices and rehearsals. You get that. But it’s still physically torturous to sit through Jay and Sunghoon stoking the fires of your insecurities.
“He’s gotta be seeing someone,” Sunghoon sighs, reclining into the beanbag in Jay’s apartment. “Dude just abandons his friends without any pussy involved? There’s no way.”
You smash a throw pillow from the couch and into his face, and Jay throws another one for good measure.
“Why do you always think with your dick?” Jay mutters. “Just let Jake be. This is his moment. Not like he had much to work with in high school.”
Sunghoon sighs. “Yeah,” he mumbles, almost apologetic. “He was pretty lame back then.”
You never thought so. Maybe you joked about it, but you never really meant it. He was kind. A little shy. So eager to please and follow you around. And now that the roles were reversed, you weren’t sure how to feel anymore. Fuck. Why couldn’t you just be happy for him?
He has this amazing life outside of you now. Cool friends (not Jay and Sunghoon). Great prospects for the future. It’s like a bird leaving the nest. Your carefully cultivated nest.
You felt like a cloud raining over his head when you’re around him now. After Choa, you started to notice the whispers around campus a little more. How people avoid him when you’re around because you can’t carry empty conversations about upcoming exam scores the same way Jake can.
It’s just different. He is. And it feels like you are too. But not a good different. It’s the kind that makes you feel like this isn’t how you should be. That you aren’t who you want to be… Maybe Choa was right.
And now a pillow is thrown in your direction. You shoot daggers at Sunghoon with your glare.
“What?!” you yell. He pounces in fear.
“I asked,” he coughs. “Is college treating you okay? You making friends?”
You roll your eyes. “Are you my dad?”
Jay sighs. “We always talk about Jake. Sue us for wanting to know how you’re doing for once.”
The words linger. What are you doing?
–
You’re stewing in it, marinating in how lonely it feels to stand in a corner with the stage crew while Jake, Suji, and the rest of the main cast laugh amongst themselves. Whatever.
“Those two are so cute,” a girl beside you says. Gaeul. So sweet, so cute. So oblivious to how tightly you clench your teeth. “They’d be like the it couple on campus, no?”
When you look between Jake and his toothy grin and Suji with her sweet laugh, you can’t help the way your heart constricts. “Yeah,” you mutter in disgruntled agreement. “I guess.”
Jake sends you sneaking glances, ones you don’t notice despite your eyes lingering on him.
You’ve not been the most responsive these days. He texts you a lot. In between practices and rehearsals. Whenever he has the chance. He asks to come over. Asks you to come over. And you’ve turned him down almost every time. You didn’t attend his last two games, you’re skipping rehearsals that you used to sit through for hours, and Jay knows where you're holed up more than he does. He’s worried about you. Worried that you’re avoiding him. Were you avoiding him?
“I heard you two are really good friends,” Gaeul asks you with sparkling eyes. “He seems like such a catch. How’d you not fall in love?”
You shrug. What answer are you supposed to give? It’s not like you were resistant to his charm either.
“He went through a transformation recently,” you admit. “We were both kind of outcasts in high school.”
“Me too!” she says excitedly. “I bleached my hair, and everything before uni started. What about you? Were you two like super shy?”
You shake your head. “Jake was. I was just a bad student. Got in trouble a lot. My parents literally laughed when I told them I wanted to go here.”
And your heart thuds in your chest from a memory. Because Jake believed in you. Sat through hours of studying, teaching you the difference between derivatives and whatever the fuck linearization was, just for the chance to attend the same university. So he could spend time with you, so he could be with you. And now you barely see him.
“Really? I’m not surprised, though. You seem like such a chill girl. Like you don’t care what other people think of you.”
“Trust me. I’m far from it.” You catch Jake’s glance again, but you turn away.
“Starting to think it was a mistake joining this thing,” you mumble, “with how often everyone forgets their lines.”
She laughs. “I like how straightforward you are,” she says with a wide smile. “Don’t really mince your words, do you?”
You smile too, in what feels like forever. It felt free to talk about something—anything—outside of him.
“Unfortunately, I don’t know how to hold back what I say.” Which is a lie. Because you hold back a lot. More than you let on.
“Alright!” the stage manager yells. “Let’s get in position for the final scene.”
The kiss scene. The one you’ve dreaded for so long. You and Gaeul move across the stage, setting up the mics and instruments in their right place. You move past Jake with your head down. He frowns. So you are avoiding him.
“Places, people!”
You watch, from the wings, as Jake pours his heart out into the lyrics. A song about breaking free from stereotypes and whatever other inspirational stuff this whole musical’s about. He’s good. Really good. He moves like a natural on stage, throwing Suji these soft, tender glances that look so painfully real. She glows under the lights, stars in her eyes. And as the song comes to an end, he picks her up to spin her.
Just like the script says. And you clutch your forearm at the sight.
“I feel like I can really be myself with you,” he says to her. “Like I don’t have to hide or pretend.”
Whatever.
“And you make me feel like the luckiest girl in the world.”
The two stare at each other. A pause. Jake leans in. And so does she. Fuck.
You can’t do this. Can’t watch. You turn and walk out the back exit. Your chest is heavy, constricted with that ugly pang of envy.
Fuck this feeling. It hurt. Why did it have to hurt? You hate the tears that well up in your eyes, hate the shivering of your shoulders as you hug yourself in the parking lot of the stupid auditorium. You need to go back in. Save face. Show how little it affected you because you’re supposed to be his friend in the eyes of everyone else. You clutch your necklace through your shirt, fingers twisting the ring.
Jake, who loves you. Who desperately wants your relationship to be public, to show you off. The same Jake on stage kissing another girl for a stupid musical you didn’t even want to be a part of.
You couldn’t do this anymore. He doesn’t deserve this. This monstrous version of you, who cares too much but gives too little. Overbearing to the point of suffocation.
So you walk back in, face steeled and tears wiped. He’s talking to the director with Suji, like nothing happened. Like all semblance of your self-esteem wasn’t just ruined a few minutes ago. But you need to stop. Because it wasn’t his fault. It wasn’t even Suji’s. It’s yours.
You hurt your own feelings.
Jake sees you and immediately lights up, calling your name as he jogs over. You don’t smile back.
“I have some time after rehearsals,” he says lovingly, his hand tugging your arm. “Wait for me?”
This would be the last time you would.
–
He tries to hold your hand on the walk back home to steady his heart rate. Opening night creeps closer and closer, and preparation alone won’t save him from the nerves. But when you pull away before his fingers can intertwine with yours, he flinches.
Maybe there are too many people around, Jake tells himself. You’re probably worried about being seen. And even though his chest feels heavy, he continues his merry yapping. He doesn’t notice the defeated glint in your eyes or the slow steps you take next to his. He’s still riding the high from rehearsal, still proud he finally made it through every line without stuttering or needing the script.
Maybe he’ll do well enough on opening night that you’ll let him kiss you afterward. Maybe you’ll walk toward him with flowers while he wraps you in his arms. He’d spin you around, brag to the whole world that you’re his girlfriend. Say it loud and proud in front of annoying ass Jay and Sunghoon, who got front row seats.
The thought pulls a grin onto Jake’s face, making him skip ahead a little. And you both keep walking toward the dorms. Just like any other day.
Until you ruin it.
“I’m dropping out of the stage crew,” you say, casually. He stops in his tracks. All semblance of a smile wipes from his face. The show is sold out. It’s too late to get you tickets.
“You won’t be able to watch,” he says, panic laced in his voice. You’re at a standstill, in the middle of campus, surrounded by trees and concrete. “You should’ve told me! I can see if I can pull some strings—”
He’s already taking his phone out to text someone. Probably the director. He doesn’t even ask why. Just goes straight to problem-solving. Your Jake. Too good. Too kind. Too forgiving.
It’s too much.
“I’m not coming to watch,” you say, harsher this time, stopping him from sending the message. Guilt washes over you instantly. Because he looks at you with his brows knit together, eyes wavering.
“I don’t understand.” You don’t want to come? You don’t want to support him?
Your mouth opens to say something. Anything. But your throat feels hoarse, shoulders too heavy. Shit. Don’t cry. You don’t cry in front of anyone.
“Jake,” you start, clenching your quivering hands open and closed. “I can’t do this anymore.”
His heart drops.
“Do what anymore?” he swallows, his mouth dry. “I’m confused—”
“I think we need to break up.”
Numb. Everything is numb.
“W-what?” Tears sting Jake’s eyes before he can blink them back. “Don’t… don’t say that.”
You shake your head. “Jake,” you whisper, careful not to get too close. Careful so you don’t make the mistake of taking back your words. “I don’t think we’re good for each other.”
He inches forward. You take a step back.
“Do you think that? That I’m not good enough—”
“No,” you interrupt. But he isn’t listening. And he doesn’t want to. Because this feels like a fucked up joke, a prank on him that’s been taken too far. Won’t you stop?
“Because if it’s something I did, I can change it,” he begs. And your heart breaks a little at how desperately he searches for a hint of emotion in your face. But you don’t relent. You can be the bad guy. You always are.
“Please. We can talk this through.”
“I’m sorry,” you say, an unusual softness in your voice. “I don’t want to change my mind—”
“Why not?!” he asks, voice louder. The quiet that falls between you two is masked by the rustle of surrounding trees, orange and red leaves falling around you two. The cool, autumn air brushes your face. His eyes sting with redness.
“Why don’t you tell me anything?” His voice cracks. The aching in your heart makes you want to give in, to take it all back. But you aren’t like Jake. You can’t adjust, can’t welcome change so openly.
So as you look at him with his slicked back hair and sharp features, so different from a year ago, it feels like you've already lost something. The version of yourself who had more to give than hollow excuses and marks left on his skin. You couldn’t admit to it even now. That you hate who you’ve become.
“I’m telling you right now,” you gulp, bracing your own words. “That I want to break up.”
And the first semblance of tears falls down Jake’s cheeks as he lets out a bitter laugh. He doesn’t believe it. Can’t accept it. He won’t let this be the end.
“If it’s because of what Choa said—”
Your brows furrow. “You heard what she said?”
His hands are in his hair, tugging at it with frustration. You seem angry, but he doesn’t know why. He never does.
“I told her to mind her business,” he explains quickly. “It doesn’t matter what she thinks. So if you’re breaking up with me just because she called you clingy or whatever…”
And he doesn’t know it, but the words trigger something in you. Something you’ve been pushing down over and over again. The feeling of seeming weak, of needing him. The need to monopolize. It sickens you.
“It matters what I think Jake!” you finally burst out. Frustration etched in your voice, shaky from the cold air and your wavering emotions. Don’t cry, don’t cry, don’t cry.
“All I ever do now is wonder who you’re with, why you’re with them, and I just… I just feel so fucking lonely.”
He reaches for you, but you push him away. Your feelings spill out of you before you can hold them back.
“I’m paranoid of anyone who talks to you. I couldn’t even fucking watch you do that stupid kiss scene,” you continue.
“We didn’t even kiss!”
“That’s not the fucking point!” you scream, before you can stop yourself. You inhale sharply when he flinches. Calm down. This is not his fault. Why are you getting angry with him?
“I’m sorry,” you mumble, taking one more step back. He holds your wrist gently to keep you in place. Jake stares at you with his lips parted, stunned.
“So why can’t we just go public?” he pleads. “You wouldn’t have to feel this way if—”
“That’s not the issue either,” you scoff, but you can’t even convince yourself. Because isn’t this how it all started? Your unwillingness to be embarrassed, to seem vulnerable in front of others. Was this not the root of it all?
“Then what is?!” he cries, his grip on your wrist tightens, not to hurt you, but so that you don’t run. Because you’re good at that. Running.
“I get insecure too,” he tries to reassure, but you look past him now. “But I tell you. I tell you when I’m hurt, I tell you when I’m down. Because I… I want you to understand me. I want to understand you too…”
He swallows hard before continuing. “So I don’t get why you would even bring up breaking up before we even try to solve the problem together—”
“Because I don’t want to solve it, Jake.”
His hold on you loosens instantly, arm dropping to his side. You feel colder as he steps back. Jake stares at you, hurt laced in his gaze. Like you stabbed him in the heart and twisted the knife in to marinate.
“You're always like this,” he mutters under his breath. “Always saying hurtful things without thinking about how they make me feel.”
He feels his throat close up as he draws in some baited breaths. The tears come in more heavily, his cheeks damp as they roll down his pained face.
“So you see what I mean?” you say, your own tears threatening to spill over without you even realizing. A part of him instinctively wants to wipe your tears away. To pull you close and make it stop. But all he feels is anger. Because you’re the one breaking up with him. You’re the one choosing to end things. What right do you have to cry? What right do you have to look shattered when he's the one in pieces?
“I’m horrible to you,” you let out with pained laughter. He shakes his head immediately.
“No, you’re not—”
“I always pick fights—”
“You don’t—”
“I act like a fucking bitch—”
“Don’t call yourself that—”
"I feel like I’m insane when I’m around you,” you let out, before you can stop yourself.
“I don’t think that at all—”
“But I do, Jake,” you cry. “I hate how jealous I get when you’re surrounded by other people. I hate feeling like I’m holding you back. I hate what I’ve become since…”
And you can’t finish because his tears have stopped. He’s looking at you with a new kind of anguish. The kind that you don’t necessarily expect. The kind that feels like disgust.
“Since you started dating me?” he says like he correctly finished your statement. But that’s not what you were going to say. Never that.
“Since you didn’t need me anymore,” you whimper. “I’m not a good girlfriend, Jake. You’d be so much happier without me. Everyone would think it if they knew.”
He stands in front of you, hollow. If they knew. He has to laugh. That’s the problem. No one does. You don’t want them to. It’s clear now.
“Fine,” he says, and the steadiness of his voice makes you shudder. Good. This is what you wanted.
He’s staring at you, jaded like he had come to terms with it. He used to love how insistent you were about your point of view on things, how firmly you stood by your opinions. Used to envy it. But now, he detests it. That stubbornness.
“Whatever you want,” he sighs, hands slipping in his pockets. “Let’s break up. Pretend we never happened.”
Your mouth parts. “Excuse me?”
Jake scoffs, hands tightening into a fist. They’re trembling, but he won’t let you see. He can do what you do. Act like he’s okay. Act like you didn’t just kill him. He’s gotten very good at that. Acting.
“I’m being honest, Jake—”
“You don’t love me,” he cuts in. And your heart sinks. “That’s all this is. You never show it. You never say it. And I’m tired of hearing you pretend like you’re doing me a favor when I’m practically begging you not to leave.”
His voice cracks, but he continues. “So fine,” he mutters. “Have it your way. You won’t ever have to admit that we dated, start a clean slate without me. Just like you want.”
He presses his lips together and gives you one last look before he takes his hands out of his pockets. He’s fiddling with the ring. His ring. The ring that matches yours.
“You know,” he starts, voice trembling and bitter, “when it was the other way around… when I felt like shit about myself…. I never once thought of leaving you.”
His gaze is on the ground. “Because I always thought I was better with you than without. Because you made me want to be better.”
His voice falters. He looks at you now, sniffling.
“I tried to be better.”
And in one swift motion, Jake takes off the ring. “...But you didn’t even respect me enough to stay.”
“Jake, no—”
But it’s too late. You see him throw it, the bushes rustling nearby. Your mouth opens, but no sound comes out. He shoves his hands back in his pockets and walks past you to the direction of the dorms.
“There,” he says quietly behind you. “Like we never happened.”
He doesn’t look back, doesn’t even spare you a glance. It’s only when he’s fully out of sight that you dig through the orange and red pile of leaves. Through dirt and branches, tears streaming down your face as you sob. Searching for it like a mad woman. Pathetic. So fucking pathetic.
But you can’t find it. And you clutch onto yours like it’s your lifeline. He threw it away. How could he throw it away? No matter how hard you try to find a silver glint in the greenery, there is nothing.
And you wonder then if you made the biggest mistake in your life.
–
You thought the pit in your stomach would fade once you ripped the bandage, but the hole in your heart opened wider. And it’s only been a week.
Jake used to dodge questions about his love life, but now he admits to anyone with ears who walks by that he’s single. You have ears. And you walk by often. You’re not sure if he’s taunting you or if you just want him to be.
When your eyes meet his at the one lecture you still share, he’s the first to turn away. Jake used to sit beside you, shoulder brushing yours, tilting his laptop so you could keep up when the professor switched the slides too quickly. When you pass the football field, you try not to wince when you see Choa latch onto his arm like she belongs there. He used to always pull away.
The worst part is that these stolen glances are all you have of him. He’s blocked you on everything, which feels weird to think about. Jake, who’s always gentle, always forgiving, always offering second chances—even to people who don’t deserve it. Maybe this time you’re one of them.
You have no right to be upset. Not anymore.
And so you wrap yourself in your studies, check out new extracurriculars, even try to make new friends on campus who know nothing about Jake. You try to rebuild, try to go back in time before that fateful day in high school when you met him. But it’s been far too long.
He was a part of you, so deeply ingrained in your daily life. How could you act like you two never happened? Like your relationship never existed? How could he do it so well?
And then, you have to remind yourself. You'd already been doing that anyway.
–
“So what did he do?” Jay questions, tuning his guitar while Sunghoon and you sit in his living room. “Did he tell you he was done paying for your stuff or…”
“Shut up,” you grumble, already agitated enough as you scroll through Suji’s Instagram. You couldn’t even muster the energy to be jealous over a photo of Jake and her holding up peace signs next to each other. You just feel empty. “Nothing happened.”
Jay rolls his eyes. “He’s usually texting one of us to get you to answer his messages by now. It’s been crickets from him for the last two weeks.”
You swallow hard. He used to do that?
Jay’s gaze flickers toward you and sighs as he fiddles with his guitar strings. “You know, I really don’t get the two of you,” he mumbles. “Like you already rejected him in high school, you’re practically just stringing him along at this point—”
You sit up. “Excuse me?”
He shakes his head, dropping the guitar onto his lap. “Jake told us,” he starts hesitantly. “That you ran away when he tried to confess last year.”
‘But that’s not the full story,’ you want to scream out loud.
“Yeah,” Sunghoon laughs as if recalling a memory. “Dude! Remember in the summer when he started going to the gym with me?”
Jay cringes. “Yeah, and he told us it was because he’d be starting this season, but we knew it was just because you said you liked macho guys.”
You shake your head, ears warming at the thought. That’s insane.
“Oh, and that stupid ass ring,” Sunghoon adds, clutching his stomach. Your hand instinctively clutches at your necklace, fingers brushing the chain. “His mom beat the shit out of him when she found out how much he spent on it.”
You twiddle with the ring through your shirt. You should've taken it off by now. He'd already thrown his away. So what use was it leaving him if all you were going to do was hold on?
“Why would he do all that for me?” you mutter, not realizing that you said your thoughts out loud.
Jay shrugs. “Love makes you do stupid things.” And then he sighs. “Go easy on him, okay? You know how he is. Jake’s a sensitive boy. Especially when it comes to you.”
You look down at the ground, shame bubbling up in your chest. Jake loved you. He really did.
–
You smile from your view of the auditorium, even from the back, feeling like a speck in the full house. A bouquet is in your hand as you nervously find your seat. You bought a ticket off a student who could no longer make it. Jake’s right. Everyone’s here to watch.
You could see Jay and Sunghoon’s tiny heads toward the front, pushing down the bitterness of not being able to sit as close as they were. They don’t even like musicals. You shake your head.
This isn’t about you. It’s Jake’s big night.
The lights dim. Your boyfriend—ex-boyfriend—steps onto the stage in a football jersey that looks almost exactly like his real-life one. The audience quiets at his entrance. As he delivers his cheesy opening monologue, you mouth the words with him. He’d practiced it so much in front of you. Pride wells up in your chest. He doesn’t stutter once.
Even when Suji joins him on stage, even as they sing together during their characters’ first meeting, you couldn’t help but smile.
The scenes blur as you lose yourself in the show. You watch the characters as they are and not as your ex and the girl you desperately wanted to hate. It was actually fun. The cheeky glances, the perfectly rehearsed dance scenes. The way the main character so seriously thought that singing was going to affect his football career. It made you laugh, made you tear up, made you suck in a deep breath when Jake leaned into her.
And because you’re still you, and because the wounds still feel fresh, you close your eyes. You don’t have to know if he really did it or not. It doesn’t matter. It’s his moment.
‘If only I felt like this the whole time,’ you thought to yourself. Then maybe you wouldn’t have to psych yourself up to find him afterward and pour your heart out to him. You shiver at the thought.
But Jay had said it: love makes you do stupid things.
And you do. Love him.
Enough to buy him flowers. Enough to admit that you’re done hiding. Enough to risk asking him to love you again—even if there’s a chance that he already moved on.
–
“Bro,” Jay started, with tear-stained cheeks. “Don’t ever do that again. I can’t be crying like that in front of everybody.”
“Quit football,” Sunghoon says, patting Jake on the back with unusually red eyes. “Just focus on this musical shit. I swear you could make it big time.”
Jake chuckles, watching as the auditorium empties of guests. “Thanks, guys. I’m glad you two liked it.”
He wishes you were here. He could imagine exactly what you’d say when you walk up to him, with a small smile you try to suppress. Saying good job while ruffling his hair. Trying to act like you didn’t cry like everyone else. Jake smiles, quietly, at his own thoughts. It’s ridiculous, coming up with hypotheticals when you’d already made it clear. You don't want to be with him anymore.
“Jake.”
His heart instinctively skips a beat.
When he turns, the air in his lungs escapes him. You’re holding a bouquet so big it hides most of your frame, looking at him expectantly as you push it towards him. His eyes widen, unable to speak or even take the flowers from you. Is he dreaming?
“You did a good job,” you say, trying to sound as genuine as possible, wanting him to feel your sincerity. “You killed it up there.”
“Thanks,” he says shortly, finally taking the flowers from your hands. He can’t help but stare.
“I—” you try to push out, but Suji rushes to the stage to tap Jake on the shoulder.
“Hey.” She smiles up at him. “We're heading out soon for the celebration. Did you still want a ride with me?”
“Damn, even musicals got afterparties?” Sunghoon mutters to Jay, who attempts to shush him.
Jake returns a smile. “Yeah, just give me a second.”
And when he turns around to look at you, to finally hear what you have to say, your eyes are glossed over. Maybe you’re too late. Maybe this is idiotic after all. It's been weeks. There's no guarantee he'll even listen.
“I just wanted to say congratulations,” you mutter, though you've changed the words you meant to say entirely. It's supposed to be: ‘I’m so proud of you. Will you take me back? I’ll stop being so mean. We can tell everyone we’re in love—yes, even Jay and Sunghoon.’
But old habits die hard. And Suji. Beautiful fucking Suji crushed every ounce of confidence you had to come up to him in the first place.
“That's all,” you say, shooting him a small grin. It doesn't quite reach your eyes. He notices. Jake always does. Just never knows the reason why.
Before you can step back, he grabs your wrist, spinning you into his arms. Like the male leads do in those stupid romcoms.
“Don't,” he whispers. “Please… don't run away this time.”
You stare up at him, searching his gaze.
“Man, what the fuck is going on…” Jay whispers behind the two of you. Sunghoon shrugs.
“You think they finally…?”
Jake turns his head to give a disgruntled look to his two idiotic friends, and they shrink, making their way down the stage to finally give the two of you more privacy. He turns his attention back to you, wrist still in his hand, and gently moves it down to take yours in both of his.
“I thought you didn't want to come,” he starts, licking his lips through the nerves. “Why are you here?”
Your cheeks heat up. Fuck. Where do you even start?
He draws circles with his thumb on the back of your hand. “Why?” he asks again, more confident this time.
It would be easy to act like your old self and push out a half-assed excuse. That you just want to be supportive, even after you’ve broken up. That you don’t miss him at all. But you're too tired to pretend like Jake's absence in your life didn’t feel worse than when you were with him.
“Because…” you start, with a shaky breath. “Because I wanted to talk to you.”
His brows furrow. “About what?”
And you feel your heart pumping in your chest, your palms slick with sweat. This is harder than you thought.
“I wanted to—” You swallow, taking in a deep breath before continuing. “I wanted to apologize. With the ring. The one you threw away.”
You see Jake's ears turn a bright shade of crimson. “Actually—”
“But I couldn’t find it,” you cut in. “No matter where I looked. I tried. I really, really…”
You start to choke up. Because fuck. He'd gotten you that ring to confess to you. Spent all his pocket money so that he could get something he knew you'd love. Had it engraved with the letter J. Your Jake. Your handsome, talented, smart, and wonderful Jake.
“...really want to get back together,” you finally let out, eyes shining underneath the stage lights as tears threaten to spill over. “I'm sorry, Jake.”
His breath hitches. “You broke up with me.”
You nod. “I-I thought I needed to. To find myself. But… you were right. I was just running away from my problems.”
You swallow hard, correcting yourself. “Our problems.”
He lets out a bitter laugh. “So is this the part where you expect me to forgive you?”
Your heart clenches. “I'm sorry,” you say again softly.
“You still haven’t even given me a reason,” he scoffs. “So tell me why.”
He squeezes your hand in his. It’s tender, despite his harshness. “Why do you want to get back together when—”
It’s like slow motion, what you do next. You take Jake’s face into your hands, crashing your lips onto his. In front of Sunghoon. In front of Jay. In front of the whole cast and crew who were packing up to leave. The same people he’s had to make excuses about why he suddenly looked so distraught these past few weeks.
“Because I love you,” you say, loud enough to elicit gasps from your watchers. You don’t even have it in you to be embarrassed anymore. Because the words fall naturally from your lips, like breathing. And it was music to his ears.
“I fucking love you,” you repeat, hands still on his cheeks. His mouth parts open, breathless. He blinks. Once. Twice. And then he smiles, tears forming in his eyes. Jake swoops in, his lips finding yours. His mouth moves against yours in tandem, slow and passionate. Your eyes flutter shut, soaking in the taste of him. You missed him so much. When he pulls away, a shit-eating grin lights up his face.
“Finally,” he whispers, cheeks flushed. “You finally said it back.”
You lightly swat his shoulder. You should've known he was trying to egg you on. Jake and all his damn questions.
“I love you too,” he mutters against your temple, squeezing you against him. “I love you so much.”
He peppers kisses all over your face, and you hear gagging on the sidelines.
“Don’t ever leave me again,” he mutters into your hair. “That shit fucking hurt.”
You smile sadly. “I promise—”
“YOU TWO WERE DATING?!” a familiar voice cries out. Of course. Nosy-ass Sunghoon. You resist the urge to drop kick him right then.
“I have a better question,” Jay pipes in. “Are we invited to this afterparty too or…”
Jake furrows his brows, turning to the idiotic duo. “What afterparty?”
–
And when Sunghoon and Jay chase after you with questions about your secret relationship and who was gonna call the taxi after Suji left them behind, the two of you run far away from the auditorium. No stupid friends to drag you anywhere. Just you two.
When you both reach his dorm, he doesn't waste one second after you close the door to lift you over his shoulder. You yelp as your feet lift off the ground, squeaking when your back hits the mattress with a soft bounce. He sets the bouquet softly on his nightstand before hovering over your frame, and his knees sink into the mattress as he traps you underneath him.
Jake strokes your cheek lovingly, his hand trailing down and down until it reaches the edge of your skirt. Still as short as ever. Thighs so pretty underneath the thin fabric.
“I missed you,” he sighs, hands trailing to the edges of your panties. He strokes your plush skin, sending shivers down your spine. You want to roll your eyes, deflect the warm stirring in your core as he scans your figure, eyes clouded with lust. But you’re supposed to be turning over a new leaf. Honesty and all that.
“Imissedyoutoo…” you mutter lowly, rushing through your words.
He moves closer, ear practically touching your lips. “Hm?”
You lose patience, baring your teeth and nipping his helix. He flinches, glaring at you with a playful scoff.
“You said you weren't gonna be mean anymore…” Jake sighs, tone dripping in mockery as he pouts. And you want to say something more, but Jake’s hands land on your ass, giving you a subtle squeeze.
You know what. You'll humor him. Just this once.
You bring your lips to the ear you just bit, kissing it lightly. Steady hands trail down the fake football jersey he adorns, and to the painful bulge of his shorts. Jake sucks in a deep breath. You chuckle, amused at how suddenly it appears. So easy to arouse.
“Sorry,” you whisper, licking his outer shell. He shudders against your touch, your breath on his neck triggering goosebumps all across his arms. You squeeze him through the fabric, his head falling to your shoulder. “I’ll stop…”
“Don’t,” he lets out through ragged breaths, as you stroke him languidly. You chuckle. He’s so cute. Cheeks tinged with pink. It makes you want to do worse things.
“Lie down,” you command him, and he gladly takes your place on the bed. Your knees encase him now, tugging his stupid jersey over his head. “Let me make it up to you…”
His muscles are so well-defined, glistening under the light of your dorm room. You trail kisses down his chest, licking down his abs. Salty. Just how you like him. Jake squirms underneath you as you tug his shorts down, his dick slapping your chin on the way up as it springs free. Jake almost cums from the sight, tip flushed red and pulsing with need. To feel you. To be so buried deep inside you that he can feel the head poking through your stomach.
When you move your head down to kiss his hardness, he digs his fingers into your shoulder. “No, baby,” he mutters. “Come up here, hm?”
You furrow your brows. Why the fuck was he trying to interrupt you during your apology?
“Wha—”
Jake cuts you short, manhandling your waist as his fingers press into your hips. He positions your knees on both sides of his head, turning you around. He pushes your mini skirt all the way up to scrunch around your midsection. Yes, you might have an amazing view of his throbbing cock, but now you can't see his beautiful fucked out face. He breathes in the scent of your panties with hooded eyes, nose grazing your clothed folds.
You pout. “I thought I was the one making it up to you—”
“You are,” he chuckles, interrupting you instantly. He pushes your ass down to his face with one hand, using the other to press your back flush against his body. Your face inches closer to his member. Oh. That's what he's doing.
“Pervert…” you mumble, coyly reaching out for him. So thick and large that you need to use both hands to engulf him, pre-cum dribbling out of him as if on command.
“I am,” he mumbles, pulling your panties low enough to give him access to your cunt, lying just below your knees. He licks a stripe up your drenched folds all the way to your puckered hole. You wither against him. “Call me whatever you want, baby. Just sit on my face when you do it.”
Your hips land down on him softly as your thumb spreads his liquid down his engorged length. This position was new to you, meaning it was also new to him. But Jake moves expertly like the quick learner he is. He plants open-mouthed kisses on your folds, pink muscle lapping at your labia like a man starved. Your tongue sticks out to offer kitten licks over his tip.
But Jake hasn’t had you in weeks. And he knows what he wants. And it’s not the weak jutting you do against his face, or the shallow sucking you offer his engorged cock. No. He wants all of you. The sick part of you that would degrade him, that would rile yourself up like all those nights before. And he doesn’t want to have to mention a stupid nickname some stupid girl said to bring it out of you. There were more healthy methods, he’s sure, to guide you right where he wants to be.
And so Jake’s hands grip your ass, pushing you down on him harder. Forcing your hips to grind back and forth against his face at the rabid pace he sets, nose sticking in between your folds slightly as his tongue laps at your clit. Like this. Dirty. Raunchy. Aggressive. He fucking loves it.
“Ngh—” you cry out, propelling him to push himself deeper in your mouth. You take a deep breath so his cock can slide through more easily, taking as much of him as you can to drown out your warbled moans. Your tongue finds the underside of his thickness, tapping him as you start to gag. And when Jake reaches the back of your throat, he gives you a second to calm yourself before he bucks his hips up into you. Your eyes roll to the back of your head, remembering to hollow your cheeks as he shoots forward. But it’s hard to stay focused when his wet, pink muscle pushes into you.
“Fuck—Taste so good, baby—” The squelching sounds that mix with Jake’s moans against your bundle of nerves are obscene, sucking and flicking his tongue with a fervor you try to match now. Your tongue curls up to meet the underside of his girth, bobbing your head up and down with ferocity. Anything to please him.
“Mmmm—” you moan around him. Your mouth feels so fucking good, but your pussy on his lips was like actual heaven. He could eat you out all day. As a reward. As a punishment. Anything.
And he breathes your scent in again, groaning once more. He pushes his nose closer to your folds, the tip of it engulfed in your wetness. You almost gag around his dick at the intrusion, saliva pooling at the base of his cock. You wrap your thighs around him tighter, bouncing on his face like he was nothing but a sex toy. Erratic. Desperate. Yes. Just like that. Fuck him like you never want him out of your sights again.
He knows you're close, knows by the way you start scratching at his thighs like an agitated kitten. But, no. Jake needs it. Needs you to cum all over his face. Make a mess on him. Of him. His tongue plunges into you now, index finger coming up to play with your clit.
His cock pops out of your mouth with little resistance as your body goes slack with pleasure. You're just licking at his dick with a loose hand, eyes rolled back from ecstasy.
You whimper against the slickness of his sloppy mouth, drool continuing to fall out of the corners of your mouth through your slurred speech.
“Ngh—No—Let me—Fuck—Jakeeee—” you try to say, but it all sounds nonsensical. Jake understands, more than you know, as his heart constricts so deliciously. His poor baby, he thinks. Just wants to make him feel good. Wants to make it up to him so bad. But you don’t know that the only thing that could make him happy right now is for you to choke him out with your sopping cunt.
“Mmm—Ngh—Ahh—” He’s too good down there. Too fucking messy. Why does he do this? Why does he love making you sound like a fucking animal? Your toes curl, the grip around his shaft tightening as your back arches even more into him.
You feel it. But it's different from usual. It feels like too much. Like an impending explosion. You claw at his thigh even more, all of a sudden panicked. “Jake—Let go—Jake—”
When he shakes his head, his tongue swipes your clit left and right. His grip on your ass pushes his nose more deeply into your soaked folds. You whimper, cheek nuzzling against his length in desperation.
“I'm serious….” you whine as you try to pull away. This is weird. You feel weird. You try to run away from it, that foreign feeling. But it's no use. Jake's too smart, too quick. He presses you down on him harder, hugging your waist, suctioning your clit, cheeks flushed from how quickly his mouth works against you.
“JAKE!” you scream as your thighs clamp around him, hips shuddering uncontrollably. Like a hose turning on for the first time, a spray of your juices lands onto Jake's chin and neck, coating him in your dampness. He welcomes it, tongue sticking out to taste as much of it as he can.
You cry above him, tears landing on his dick still rubbing against your heated face. He laps up every last remaining bit of your climax desperately, like they’d dry up too quickly if he didn’t. You whine, grinding yourself on him to steady your heart rate. When he’s fully satisfied, Jake frees you from his clutches, lying you down on the bed so your head can finally rest on a pillow.
His dick is still incredibly stiff. And you're still in tears.
“You… fucking… dick,” you say in between sniffles, not believing you could ever climax that hard in your life. “Where the fuck did you learn how to do that?”
And he knows what’s going through your head. Because old habits do, in fact, die hard. And now you probably think he was out fucking anyone and everyone during the weeks-long hell that was your breakup. Jake chuckles, pulling your skirt down. He bites his bottom lip at the sight of your folds. Glistening with his saliva and your juices. He fists his cock tightly.
“Still so jealous, baby?” He smirks. God, please just let him indulge in his pouty girlfriend at least once more.
“No, but be honest,” you mumble. “Did you—”
“Fuck other girls?” he finishes your sentence, scoffing playfully at the ridiculousness. Your eyes narrow.
“Well, did you?”
Jake spent almost every day crying, unblocking and blocking your number over and over again just to see if you noticed. But he can tell you all that later. Because right now, you're giving him a death glare that only makes his cock throb harder.
“No, babe,” he mutters, swiping his wet tip against your even more drenched folds. So puffy after all he's put it through. He peppers kisses on your shoulder. “You know I’d never.”
And you do. He’s only ever been with you. Will only ever be with you. You know that. But still. The wheels are already turning in your head. You know… you're usually the one worried about these things. He deserves a taste of his own medicine.
“Imagine if I did—”
And he slams his dick into your plushness, eliciting a scream from you. He doesn’t even let you complete your evil plan.
“FUCK—”
“Don't finish that sentence,” he glowers, brows furrowed. You lick your lips deliciously. "That's not funny."
“See how it feels?” you whimper, as he delivers another harsh thrust, your shirt riding up your stomach from the impact. You arch your back off of the bed as Jake groans into your neck, licking a stripe up your jaw.
“All this just ‘cause I made you squirt,” he mumbles angrily, wincing as you squeeze his length into a tighter grip. “So fucking immature.”
You chuckle evilly. “Immature like who? Sungho—”
His childhood friend’s name doesn't even leave your lips when Jake clamps his teeth into your neck. Hard. “OW—”
A taste of your own medicine. But his skin grazes something then—a thin chain that he's seen before but never questioned. You never wore it when you fucked. A circular hardness underneath your shirt that weirdly looks like…
He tugs on it before you can protest, and there on the chain is a ring. With J engraved on the inside. His gaze softens. And you become a blumbering mess underneath him, shy with embarrassment. “I can—Explain—Just—”
Jake pulls out enough so his tip is the only thing suctioned in your folds before pistoning into you harshly once more. You whimper.
“Shut up and let me fuck you,” he mutters into your ear, before engulfing your lips in his. With a newfound energy, Jake pounds into you with urgency, pace brutal against your already sore pussy. His hand comes up to grab your tits, spilling over your bra from the impact of his movements. So rough. So mean. Damn, you were rubbing off on him.
And you have this aching desire to flip him over and ride him back into submission, but the slapping of his hips into yours devolves your thoughts into unintelligible moans.
“Ngah—Fuck—Oh my god—”
Jake’s mouth leaves yours as his eyes travel downwards to the piece of jewelry. He likes how it looks on you. Sitting so nice between your bouncing breasts. Maybe, he’d buy you a necklace next. A pretty Tiffany necklace to go with the pretty Tiffany ring on his pretty girlfriend’s pretty finger. Fuck. You’re so fucking pretty.
He brings the ring up to his mouth, biting down on the metal, before he lowers himself onto your lips once more. With the ring in between his teeth, he grabs at your jaw to open for him. Jake transfers it over to your parted lips as you catch the ring with your tongue, coated in his saliva. He dives down into you, your tongues battling as the coolness of the metal moves between your mouths. His thrusts are slower now, but you moan just the same.
Drool drips down both of your lips, the ring getting passed between you two in the movements of your open-mouthed kisses. He lets up, the necklace falling wetly onto the pillow. He admires the red marks the chain leaves on your neck. Maybe a Tiffany choker instead?
And his thrusts deepen, until your cervix repeatedly kisses his mushroom tip. He wished you could see your expression right now. So needy. So perfect.
“Jake—Baby—” When the pet name leaves your lips, Jake lets out a deep, guttural groan. Like he'd been waiting his whole life for you to say it.
“Yes, baby?” He repeats after you, sweat beading down his forehead as he continues to split you open, pumping into your tightness with urgency. His hands are pushing your thighs open now, admiring how the ring sits sloppily on your neck as he jackhammers into you.
“I love you,” you moan out, your hands reaching for his face. “I love you so much.”
He looks at you with glassy eyes, soft and tender. He kissed you again, sweeter this time.
“I love you too.”
And he spreads you apart further, fucking you into the squeaking mattress with his pulsing dick, so big that it fills you everywhere you need him. He pushes in and out, evoking a new set of tears to stain your cheeks. “Baby,” you cry out. “I'm almost—”
“Wait for me,” he pleads, elbows falling to the sides of your head. He buries himself in the crook of your neck. “Can you, baby? Please—”
You try to nod as he's ramming into you as deep as he can go. He whispers sweet nothings into your ear, about how good you are for him, how pretty, how perfect, how he loves the marks you leave him, how he wants you to control him, how you’re the only one he’d ever be with any lifetime ever.
“Ngh—” His hips snap forward with everything he can give. He feels it now, too. That coil that threatens to spill inside you. But he can't. No condom. No birth control.
And when your hips rise, clenching around him, your orgasm hits you like a truck. You mewl out in pleasure, crying as Jake tries to pull out of you. But you suction him so well, too well, that it's a little too late. He twitches inside of you. And his mouth falls open as the first spurts of cum spill, but nothing escapes his lips.
“Fuck, baby,” he whines. He needs to pull out. But it feels so damn good inside… So warm… So wet… And so much of himself has already spilled inside you… It should be okay to push it all inside, right? But he has self-control. He swears it.
“No…” You whimper when he actually pulls away, his seed dribbling everywhere.
“...’m sorry, babe,” he groans, as his hand wraps around himself, stroking languidly. “I’m so sorry.”
Jake’s cheeks are flushed as he pumps the remainder of his climax on your drenched folds, painting your clit a milky white. He sees the first of his juices push out of you, his fluids like cream all over your puffiness.
“Fuck,” he moans, his fingers coming up to spread it all across your folds. But when you look down, all you feel is empty. All you feel is the need to push down against his fingers and take him all over again.
Jake's eyes widen as he lets out a shaky breath. You look so desperate. For what? He's not sure. But he can't deny his baby anything. He can't deny himself either. He wants to see it just once. Seems like you do too.
“Can I?” he asks in a low whisper, fingers spreading your folds apart to watch more of his load seep out of you. And you nod, shyly, relieved you didn’t have to beg for it yourself. This is already too much exposure therapy for one day.
And so Jake gathers the cum that's gushed over his digits, and with a shaky breath, he pushes them back into you. You tighten your grip on his biceps.
“Fuuuuck—” You cry out when he starts pumping it in and out, slow but still so fucking deep. His veiny fingers always know which parts to caress.
Jake’s eyes are in a daze, obsessed with how his cum goes back in so easily. Even when you’re still so tight and so sensitive. Everything feels so fucking drenched. And like this, he wants to see you come undone again.
“One more, baby…” he pleads in a low whisper, pressing butterfly kisses on your eyelids. He licks the tears that spill from your eyes. So pretty like this. “You want to make it up to me, right?”
You can only whine in response, hands shaking as they clutch onto him for dear life.
“Hm?” He asks for confirmation, curling his fingers up to the spongy spot inside you. He grinds his palm on your engorged clit. Whimpering out a pathetic ‘yes,’ you let the pleasure overtake you once again. Your body feels like it's on fire. Too hot. Too much. But still, your back arches up into him, whimpering.
“Come on,” he whispers into your ear. Low and steady. “Give it to me.”
And you can practically hear the mess that his three fingers are creating as they pump into your folds, can feel the stickiness of your mixed juices coat your inner walls. But you shut your eyes, letting the warm tingling overtake your core. Yes—Right there—Fuck—
“I'M—” you screech, but it's no use. Your head falls back against the pillow as you sob. And Jake curses underneath his breath as you spray all over him once again, massaging your clit as he pulls his fingers out to watch. Your hips rise to meet nothing, just your body spraying so beautifully against his torso that his dick could harden once more any second now. He relishes in your body, admiring his work as his cum pushes out of you again. Thick and creamy.
You look down too, seeing the fucked-out state he's put you in. Maybe you would've been right to flick his forehead and call him every insult in the book for filling you up like that. But fuck. Could you ever have him cum outside of you again if it felt that good to have his cum inside you? No, you'd definitely need to get on the pill ASAP.
Jake’s gaze falls onto your face now, at your bruised lips and your dried tears. But the ring catches his eye once more, the one he hadn’t seen in a year. And his heart flutters.
“Babe?” he starts, lying softly next to you. He wraps you in his arms, not minding the dampness of the sheets below. He’ll clean you up later.
“Mmm?” You respond, on the brink of unconsciousness. Satiated. He touches your chain, the other hand wrapped around your stomach, giving a reassuring squeeze.
“How long have you been wearing our ring like this?” Your breath catches. You'd hoped that he'd forgotten, that the conversation could wait for the morning when your heart wasn't thumping so loud. It takes you a second before you respond.
“Since you gave it to me,” you admit, slowly. Jake can feel the warmth creep up to your ears. And he wonders how he's never seen it, how you seem to hide it so well after all the times he's undressed you before.
But then again, you’ve always been good at keeping secrets. Still, he smiles. Because even after you walked away, even when you said you were done, you still kept this piece of him. Wore it so beautifully around your neck.
Fuck—he’s never letting you walk out on him like that again. If you even hint at breaking up, he might actually end up begging on his knees and—
“Not like it matters anyway,” you cut through the silence grumpily. “You threw yours away.”
He lets out a surprised laugh and pulls you closer, squeezing you tighter. You pout. What’s he so jolly for?
“What do you mean?” he asks cheekily. “That never happened.”
You turn around abruptly, facing him with furrowed brows. “I literally saw you—”
Your words are cut short when his mouth finds yours, one hand steadies your jaw as the other reaches blindly into his nightstand. A drawer opens. He pulls back just enough to show you the turquoise box, one eerily similar to the one you have in your closet, as he flips it open.
His ring. Silver and engraved with your initial. But how…?
“I guess I'm really good at pretending to throw things,” he answers before you can even ask. Thought I’d be a little dramatic that day…”
You smack his shoulder, but your hand massages the spot, swallowed by the wave of relief that crashes over you. He didn't really let go like he made it seem. He was still yours, even when you thought you lost him.
“What the hell is wrong with you?!” you grumble, pinching his cheek. All he does is chuckle.
In one smooth motion, Jake lifts your necklace and unclasps it, letting the ring unfurl out and into his palm. You don’t stop him.
He looks at you for a second, as if asking for permission. You offer Jake your hand instead of speaking. He slips the ring onto your fingers, kissing your knuckles. Then he slides his own ring back where it belongs, to where he’s always kept it. Jake smiles up at you, planting another sweet kiss on your lips.
And you know you’ll wear it proudly this time. Without him having to ask.
“I love you?” he says, gently, like he needs to hear you say it back just one more time. Just to make sure. And you kiss him again, warmth coating your features.
“I love you too.”
His heart clenches in the best way possible.
Damn, he could really get used to this.
–
epilogue
Jake runs to the benches, grabbing at his water bottle like it’s his last salvation. He gulps it all down in seconds, sweat seeping down his body. Practice was way too intense today.
“Oh my god, Jakey,” a lilting voice punctures through his ear. “You're literally dripping.”
His eye twitches as she enunciates the last word.
“Choa,” he starts, shooting daggers at her. He's too exhausted to put up with this today. Or ever. She was graduating in a few months anyway. He might as well say his piece. “First of all, my name is Jake. And second of all, it makes me really uncomfortable when you say things like that.”
Choa pouts, tugging his sleeve like a toddler. “Why?” she giggles. “Do I make you nervous?”
“No.” He pulls away, not even bothering to look at her. “I just don't appreciate how you talk to me.”
She glowers, thrown off by his disposition. He's usually so sweet, so polite. What happened?
“It's ‘cause of your friend isn't it? You know she was so fucking rude to me—”
“My girlfriend,” he corrects immediately. Choa’s hands drop down to her sides. Jake pays her no mind, packing his stuff into his duffle bag instead.
“W-what?” she stutters out. “Since when?”
He shrugs, finally slinging his bag over his shoulder. “Since forever.”
“What?!” she screeches. “How come you never told—”
“Oh Jakeyyyy,” you sing out in an octave higher than your regular speaking voice. He presses his lips together to prevent the laughter that almost seeps through his mouth.
“Yeah, babe?” He calls out, looking past Choa. You're standing with your arms crossed, eyeing down the girl from a few meters away. A bright new necklace shining above your shirt.
Your gaze flickers back to him, not bothering to waste your precious energy on the small, vicious girl. You tilt your head to the side, beckoning him over in a silent command. And he follows.
Your loyal little puppy.
Choa scowls as you both walk away, holding in your snickers. Jake takes your hands into his just to really rub salt on the wound, your matching rings clinking against each other.
“Do you remember Gaeul from the backstage crew?” you announce proudly, the bob-headed girl long-forgotten. “She wants to hang out with me tomorrow!”
Jake smiles, ruffling your hair. “That’s great!”
“She's throwing something at her apartment this weekend, too,” you slide in. “Maybe… we can go together?”
“Oh yeah, Suji told me—” And he stops himself. But it’s too late. You’re already frowning.
“Okay, so let me go ahead and take Jay instead…” And he pouts at your words.
“Not fair,” he mutters, but you see the smile he suppresses. What a freak, you think to yourself.
You click your tongue, squeezing his hand a little tighter. “...I'm biting the shit out of you later.”
tags: sfw, fluff, unrequited(?) love, brief hansol mention, hybrid! au
author’s notes: posting more blurbs cuz i have a bunch of ideas and no time.
kitty calico hybrid! boo seungkwan — soft, fluffy, and cuddly. the perfect cat. he gets a little lonely when you’re out working, but he distracts himself well. he’s not a very good cook, but he tries — he truly does. he’s burnt a few cookies here and there. he watches way too many women’s volleyball matches and somehow thinks he’s part of the team, all while indulging in his favourite k-pop songs.
he rambles on and on to hansol, your neighbour, minghao’s siamese cat hybrid, about how he thinks you shouldn’t need to work at all. why waste time at a workplace that barely cares for you. you literally have him at home, waiting to care for you. he sighs at how you always come back home tired and sleepy. still pulling yourself up, to care for him.
but his favourite pastime is dreaming about you. he spends each night staring a little too closely at your face, watching how you snore and how your lips part slightly when you’re deep asleep. he thinks of himself as a creep for staring too long, but can you blame him? you grace him with your presence for only a few hours each day, and he wants to hold on to those hours like his life depends on it.
he knows you don’t see him that way. he’s just your hybrid — a lesser person in his own eyes — but a cat can dream. calico hybrid ! boo seungkwan is not your typical cat hybrid; he loves people to his core.
sometimes, when you’re getting ready for work, he lingers by the doorway with his tail swishing slowly, pretending he’s just passing by. but really, he’s memorising the way you tie your hair, the tiny sigh you make when you realise you’re running late, the way you pat his head before you rush out. he lives for that pat. it’s barely a second long, but to him, it feels like sunlight.
when you’re gone, he curls up on your bed, burrowing into your pillow even though he knows he shouldn’t. your scent clings to the fabric and he inhales it like it’s oxygen. it keeps him grounded. it keeps him patient. he pretends the warmth he feels is you and not just the sun sneaking through your curtains.
hansol teases him all the time, telling him to just confess already, but seungkwan only flares his ears and hisses half-heartedly. how could he confess? what would he even say? “hi, i know i’m technically yours already, but i want to be yours in a completely different way”?
seungcheol is the standard, textbook alpha—strong, steady, reliable. all the traits an alpha is meant to have. you’ve always known you never stood a chance with someone like him. every omega your age wants a taste of him, and you’ve never once made the cut. you gave up before you were even given the chance.
but your wolf had other ideas. every time she catches even the faintest trace of his scent, she plants your feet to the ground, refusing to move. she even forces your body to release soft, sweet pheromones, desperate to catch the alpha’s attention. at this point, you’re basically her puppet.
you and your wolf may share a body, but you definitely don’t share the same pride. you refuse to humiliate yourself trying to reach for something you can’t have. seungcheol is one of those things. you’re not the ideal, delicate omega people expect—you’re rowdy, stubborn, a little too loud. you agree with your wolf that he’s perfect in every way, but he isn’t meant for you. still, by the moon, you wish he was.
unattainable. completely out of reach. until now…
-
the temperature of your room grows hotter and hotter, at least to you. you shove off the furry blankets of your bed. quickly stripping your clothes away and throwing them on the floor. all you feel is the fever. your skin grows warmer, stickier from the sweat. your wolf howls for anything that might help the relief.
it’s your heat.
your core leaks slick, covering all of your inner thighs. you feel yourself panting and heaving. your mind is too cloudy to think clearly. you grab the closest pillow, pushing it between your legs. the friction relieves the pain slightly.
oh the pain of being an omega. why couldn’t you just be a beta instead. no need to worry about being mortified by the way your body wants to be bred every fucking month.
you grind on to the pillow fast and hurried, trying to get yourself going. only a proper orgasm can help relieve the searing heat. sadly, it doesn’t work. you groan as your eyes well up with tears, the frustration is building up inside you.
you’re brain racks for any kind of thoughts that might make you horny instead of feeling pain. your wolf decided it is the best time to daydream. the image of seungcheol appears in your mind like a beautiful fantasy. big beefy arms, broad shoulders and soft juicy lips. his long locks of black hair framing his face.
and the image that sells it, is the outline of his big fat cock poking through his grey sweats. your omega whimpers and so do you.
your hips move, chasing friction. Your moans fill up the room in an instant. you bite your lip, trying to strain the noise, also hoping to save yourself from embarrassment just in case someone heard you. move your hips towards the corner of the pillow. the hard lining of the corner makes an even more pleasurable feeling on your clit.
you groan, accompanied with seungcheol’s name, escaping from your lips.
you whine when you smell it. the scent of him.
your wolf preens at this, urging you to get close to him by all means. you still haven’t come yet. you don’t know whether to reach him or just try to ride it out yourself. his scent and pheromones are driving you crazy, the closer and closer he gets to your hut. your hips don’t still, you continue grinding and pushing yourself on your pillow.
you try to silence your moans and groans, but nothing works. his presence just makes the heat ten times worse. your body yearns for him but he is barely there, just a scent on the tip of your nose. all you know is that he is somewhere close by, but you can’t see him at all.
you don’t want to beg but you do. at this point, the pain might eat you alive if you stop now. the frustration will make this week-long pain go by agonisingly slowly.
“s-seungcheol, seungcheol, pleasepleaseplease,”
you’re tumbling over your words, not even sure whether you’re whining his name or saying anything coherent at all. just trying anything.
“omega,”
his deep voice rumbles through the room. it’s his alpha voice, you recognize as your body physically shakes as he speaks the word. you whimper as he addresses you.
“let me in,”
he commands. the rumble of the room makes it clear it isn't a choice.
with your wobbly legs, you pull yourself up from the pillow. the fabric of the pillow sticking to your core slightly as you get up. you head slowly towards the door, holding your breath slightly. having his scent this close to you is dangerous for your sanity.
too much in your system, might make you black out. the thing about alphas like seungcheol, is that they’re scent is too powerful, especially for an unmated omega.
you wince when your feet hit the ground. you can smell the sudden spike of worriedness in seungcheol’s scent. your wolf swoons at the idea that he somehow cares for you. as you reach the door, you can feel his warmth and presence and most of all his scent.
the deep cherrywood scent, turning musky and sweet.
your wolf is having a field day.
your hands shake as you reach for the lock on the door. it clicks once, then twice, and a third time. the door flies of its hinges crashing down on your entrance. you could care more, but with the sight in front of you, how can you focus.
seungcheol’s eyes glow bright red, a sign that he is in rut. by the moons, he’s connected to you. his lips red with slight blood, probably from biting his lips for too long.
he’s beautiful in front of you. it’s almost like your dreaming again.
he smirks at your awed face. he scoops you up and ever so gently lays you on your bed. eyes travelling to the wet slick-filled pillow, his nose twitches. smelling your scent. his hands grab the pillow, bringing it up to his nose.
he inhales it. savoring the smell of you. his tongue even pokes out to get a taste of you. you moan at the sight. his eyes roll back into his head, tongue pressed on the top of his mouth, groaning.
your thighs shake and shiver, you might come from this sight.
Being caught between the two sweetest people alive feels like a dream you never want to wake from. Vernon, always attuned to your moods; and Seungkwan, who acts on them the moment they turn sour.
Like right now — Seungkwan had dragged both you and Hansol to a college party, eager to catch up with friends and have a good time. Hansol didn’t mind, and neither did you. Neither of you are the social butterflies in this relationship, but Seungkwan gets lonely sometimes.
Your guard goes up the moment a drunk girl starts swaying her hips in front of Seungkwan. At first, it’s harmless — little touches, breathy giggles at everything he says. Seungkwan’s funny, sure, but he’s not that funny. You try to focus on Hansol instead, who’s currently making a passionate case for why Shrek 2 is superior to the first movie. Still, your eyes keep drifting back to Seungkwan — and that stupid, stupid girl.
Hansol notices, of course. He always does. He catches the way you drag out your words when replying to him — your tell when you’re distracted. He follows your gaze, sees where it keeps landing. He knows you’re jealous, even if you’ll never admit it.
So, quietly, he takes your hand and starts leading you toward Seungkwan.
You’re not the confrontational type— never have been. Under pressure, you stutter, overthink, and end up stressing yourself out. So as Hansol pulls you through the crowd, your mind races. What the hell are you even going to say? To her? To him?
But Seungkwan sees you before you can spiral any further. His laughter dies mid-sentence, eyes narrowing past the drunk girl to find you. It doesn’t take long for him to understand— your expression, your body language— it’s all there. You’re uncomfortable.
He gives Hansol a small nod. A signal. And Hansol nods back, already turning toward the exit with your hand still in his. You barely register it, too lost in your thoughts to notice their silent exchange.
“W-We’re going home?” you manage.
“We’re going home,” Hansol says, calm as ever.
“Huh? But we didn’t even tell Seungkwan—”
“It’s fine,” he cuts in softly. “He knows.”
Behind you, Seungkwan mumbles a quick apology to his friends, throwing in some excuse as he shrugs off the girl’s grip on his arm. She pouts in protest, but he doesn’t spare her a glance. His focus is already on you.
Outside, Hansol leads you to the car. He climbs in first but doesn’t let go of your hand— his grip steady, grounding. He waits, thumb brushing over your knuckles, until Seungkwan joins you.
Inside the car, the air feels heavier than before— not suffocating, but thick with things unsaid. You sit between them, their warmth hemming you in from both sides.
Hansol’s thumb traces lazy circles over your hand, still steady, still grounding. The quiet hum of the engine fills the silence. You steal a glance at him, then at Seungkwan, who’s turned in his seat to face you fully.
His expression softens. “You okay?” he asks, voice low.
You nod, though your chest feels tight. “Yeah. I just… didn’t like how she was touching you.”
Seungkwan smiles faintly, almost apologetic. “I didn't like it either.” His gaze flicks to your joined hands, then to Hansol. “Thanks for getting her out.”
Hansol shrugs, meeting his eyes through the rearview mirror. “Didn’t have to say anything. You already knew.”
The drive back home was quiet and peaceful albeit a little bumpy. And most of all warm.
-
As you reach your shared apartment, Seungkwan turns to face you and immediately pulls you into a tight hug. His head nestles into the crook of your neck, his face pressing gently against your skin as he takes a deep breath. Seungkwan may claim to love parties, but they can still drain him sometimes.
And his favorite way to recharge is by spending time with his lovers. One of his hands loosens from the embrace and gestures for Vernon to join. Soon, you feel a familiar warmth as he slips into the hug, wrapping around you both. The three of you stand there in the foyer, holding each other close, soaking in the quiet comfort.
“M’sorry. I should’ve gone straight to you after that girl came over,” Seungkwan mumbles into your shoulder—barely audible, but of course, you catch it anyway.
You smile, reassured knowing he still thinks of you. Behind you, Hansol hums softly, and you feel the low vibration of it against your back. None of you move for a long moment, just breathing together—content, grounded, and whole.
Breaking the soft moment, Hansol’s hands travel slowly to your waist, pulling you closer to him. Seungkwan smiles knowingly, as he follows suit in sandwich-ing you in between the both of them. Hansol leans into the crook of your neck, pressing soft and wet kisses, slowly and intentionally.
His slow pace makes every touch from him linger onto your skin, always leaving you wanting more. Seungkwan watches how you shiver at Vernon’s actions.. He can’t help but stare at his two lovers.
He watches how you whine when Vernon bites your neck and quickly licks to soothe the pain. You try to grind yourself into Vernon while crying out his name. His hands clammy and his cock stirring in his pants, wanting to be a part of the action. Seungkwan can’t help but smash his lips into yours, hard and desperate. You feel his bulge against your stomach, moaning loud at the sensation.
“H-Hansolie,” Seungkwan whines.
Vernon stops for a moment, guiding the both of you to your shared bedroom. He quickly undresses and latches back onto you. His fingers fumbling around, trying to get your shorts off. Luckily, Seungkwan notices and helps him out. Once they’re out of the way, his warm hand cups your heat, earning a loud whine from you.
“No panties, baby?” Seungkwan smirks, “Maybe you didn’t want to go to the party after all, just wanted to spend some time with us,” He teases.
You whine, your hands reaching up, trying to cover up your face.
“Uh-uh, don’t cover your pretty face, baby,” Vernon’s deep voice echoed, “Gotta’ see your cute little expressions,"
The back and forth teasing between the two of them makes you dizzy with need. Seungkwan pulls your two hands above your head, giving you a look, ensuring you don’t move them. You feel your legs being pulled apart by none other than Hansol, his head already between your thighs.
“N-nonie-“ You try to whine, your breath already taken away by his mouth on your clit. Each swirl and lick of Vernon’s tongue makes you jolt and press more into his mouth and he gladly accepts it. Even lets you grind against his tongue, pleasuring yourself. You can feel the bed shake slightly, noticing Vernon rubbing himself against the sheets, busy getting lost in the pleasure the taste of your pussy gives him.
While Vernon’s mouth is busy giving you heaven, Seungkwan’s thumb brushes your bottom lip, dragging it down just to part your mouth. He straddles your body, his red, hard cock wet with precum sits right at your cheek.
You can’t help but drag your tongue to your cheek, trying to get a taste. Seungkwan drags it right into your mouth. You moaned loudly, quickly muffled by your very filled mouth. You lick and suck where you could, still whimpering from feeling Vernon’s tongue in your pussy. Pleasure consuming your sanity. Your eyes roll back, when you feel his tip reach the back of your throat.
Seungkwan groans, feeling the heat of your throat, the clenching. He grabs your hair out of instinct. The smell of sex in the air is suffocating but amazing. Vernon’s head lifts up to see the beautiful sight in front of him. He leans into Seungkwan’s shoulder, leaving wet kisses.
Hansol’s hands don’t stop though, he still gives you attention. His fingers push into your tight heat, coating them in your wetness. His nimble fingers pull in and out, as his thumb rubs your clit. He feels you're getting closer and closer to your climax. Your pussy clenches his fingers in.
“S-so so spoiled, baby,” Hansol notes, “You already have Seungkwan’s cock and your pussy won’t even let go of my fingers,” He teases, as he pinches your clit, earning a loud whine from you.
You can barely see his face behind Seungkwan’s shoulder, but you feel his long fingers in your aching heat. His words leave you clenching for more. Your mouth continues to suck eagerly, tongue flattening against the underside of Seungkwan’s length.
“Look at her, Vernon-ah,” Seungkwan pants, his hands gripping your hair, pulling you away from his cock. Lips red, drool dripping from both sides of your mouth and your tongue rolling out your mouth. Vernon groans when he sees the sight of you.
He adds a third finger into you, earning a loud moan from you. His fingers start shoving into your wetness, faster and faster. Your body squirms and shivers at the feeling.
“S-so worried about some girl but look at you now, baby, your body knows that you’re ours,” Vernon spits out.
Seungkwan hands busy themselves, jerking himself right in front of you. His cock red and twitching, he knows he’s close. He turns his body facing Hansol. Hansol smirks and pulls him into a wet and hot kiss. You can see Hansol’s other hand reach over to palm and jerk Seungkwan’s cock.
Seungkwan whimpers, almost losing control. Seungkwan pants into the kiss and his body squirming. His hands reach Hansol's still clothed crotch. His hands make quick work pulling it out, jerking the tip. Hansol groans, his voice low. They lose themselves in each other as much as they lose themselves in you.
Seungkwan leans into Hansol, crashing their lips together. The drool from his mouth connected to Hansol. It’s lewd and sensual. Hansol’s drawn out approach does not match with Seungkwan’s hasty nature, but they figure it out. Their lips meet in fervent kisses.
You can see their tongues meeting and lips clashing, sharing a messy messy kiss. You can’t help it, the sight is just too good for you. You back arches, grinding into Vernon’s fingers. Seungkwan sees you from the corner of his eyes. You feel that tight knot in your stomach about to burst. Your whimpers grow louder
The knot explodes, your body goes limp. Hansol groans, cumming onto Seungkwan’s hand. Seungkwan followed, cumming on his stomach. You’re still panting. Vernon reaches over to the bedside table taking the big bottle of water, drinking a little before passing around. Seungkwan, who knows you're too tired to hold anything, motions you to open your mouth.
He pours it into your mouth slowly. A bit of water is slipping from the sides of your mouth. He almost moans at your expression. They crash on the bed, pulling you into a cuddle pile.
“We should shower,” Vernon says matter-of-factly. You and Seungkwan hum in agreement, but none of you move. The warmth between the three of you lingers, quiet and comforting, keeping you pressed together longer than planned.
Vernon sighs, gives in, and pulls you both closer. “Alright… a little longer,” he says. Seungkwan nods against your shoulder, relaxed and content. For now, staying here like this feels better than anything waiting outside the moment.
author’s note: not a boo fan acc without one for boo
badminton. of all sports, seungkwan looks the best at playing badminton. those tiny little shorts that leave nothing to think about. his panting in between his slams and receives. his hand running his fingers through his hair.
while he’s busy playing on the court, you’re busy trying not to play with yourself. thighs pressing together at the thought of him bending you over and pounding you all night. it doesn't help that when he’s been spending all his time training for a friendly match, leaving to your own devices at home.
everyday wishing it was him inside of you and not just a stupid pink vibrator. seungkwan flashes you a grin in between his points, making you almost swoon. you can only give your biggest supportive smile while fighting the inner turmoil of emotion within you.
the match ends with a huge shout from seungkwan signifying his win. he takes his time wishing goodbye to the opponents, his partner and even the umpire before making his way to you.
at this point you’re kinda losing it. the obvious glow he has from his match is not doing anything for your aching pussy. you greet him with a small kiss on his cheek, hoping he doesn't know how much you want to jump his bones. but of course, he knows. the moment you leave the kiss and look back to face him, his eyes darkened giving you a knowing look.
reaching over to hold your hand and rub soft circles. his tongue dragging itself over his lips so tantalisingly slow, taunting you.
be patient, my love. you’ll get what you want.
he assures you, but it is seriously not helping. your panties are wet wet.
the ride back home was quiet. his hand on your thigh, steady and stable touch. his other hand gripping the steering wheel, knuckles turning white.
you’re too scared that if you open your mouth, a whimper might come out.
the moment you reach the apartment, his hands are on you. that same steady grip holds you before your knees buckle.
i’ve been neglecting you, right?
he taunts. the look in his eyes makes your legs tremble.
i forget that my girl is a little slut. that needs me to be here all the time to please her.
he peers down to look you and god, you might combust. he looks insane, you can’t even seem to process whatever he’s saying, you’re simply too distracted. only your man can make you feel this way, your mind hazy from just the sheer proximity.
s-seungkwannie. please, please.
you try to beg, for anything. anything at all, you really might crumble from the sheer need. your hands make grabbing motions, trying to get him closer to you. he smiles at your attempt. before you try to beg even more, he silences you. his lips full force on yours, those steady hands cradle your head, guiding you.
he kisses hard and fast, your neediness complements that, eagerness to catch up with him. he bites your lip, a reminder to who is really in control. he pushes you slowly to the bed, even carries you a little to the middle of bed. his hands move to gather your wrists and pin them right on top of you.
you’re too lost in the moment to care that you’ve lost the privilege to hold him. you trust him way too much anyway, everytime he takes away something, he makes it more enjoyable for you. everything he does is for you.
whimpers leave your mouth as his mouth travels down your neck. he easily undresses you, from pulling your shirt to unclasping your bra. he groans when you arch your back into his hands, just to feel him.
author’s note: small blurb abt jeonghan, might write more.
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jeonghan who found out about your secret kinks after finding your private browser open. jeonghan who proceeded to write down all the things you were into, the videos you liked, the stuff that you have saved. lets just say it was a surprise when a huge pink box with caution tape around it, made its way to your doorstep. he only smirked and brought it in himself.
your eyes widened.
now you're like all the girls you watch, honey. all tied up and pretty, maybe i should set a camera. you look so good, baby.
he whispered in your ear, making you squirm with need. watching as the machine did its work. him in a chair right in-front of you watching you fall apart. dragging his hands up and down his shaft following the pace of the machine.
your whimpers driving him crazy. your hands pulling at the sheets behind you, hearing the squelching sounds of your pussy. thighs squeezing together trying to stop the relentless thrusting. your lips already sore and red from biting your lip trying to have some sort of control to your whimpers and moans.
jeonghan with his lazy and cocky smirk staring right back at you, clearly enjoying the sight in front of him. as your high approaches, your whimpers get louder,
p-please p-please hannie, l-let me cum.
your hannie only smiles, amused at your desperation. his hand reaches over to get the remote, ever slowly turning the dial up. and you realised you're fucked.
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