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When everything is life and death • You may feel like there's nothing left • Instead of love and trust and laughter • What you get is happy never-after • But deep down all you want is love • The pure kind we all dream of • But we cannot escape the past • So you and I will NEVER last indie oc blog : written by egg

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a reminder that miho’s adorable

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"It's a good day to be alive, Miho! To see you again, isn't it a blessing? And for you to see me?" His accent was thick as he beamed, his twirling coming to an end as he put her down. "Are you headed somewhere? Meeting a friend? Work?" It seemed they were going in different paths, but Adrian wouldn't miss an opportunity to make some small talk with her today.

          Too sweet, too cute. Miho never knew how to receive Adrian’s surplus of compliments. “You’re too much, I’d hardly call it a blessing,” she giggled. “I’d settle at a lovely coincidence.” She of course was equally glad to see him even if she wasn’t so openly expressing it. “Nah, I was just meandering, tryna clear my mind. What about you?” If he was free she’d invite him to join him no doubt. Being in Adrian’s presence always seemed to make her problems feel non-existent. He was just too good of a person. Occasionally she worried to would end up tainting him somehow. 

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He attacks with big bear hugs and twirling Miho around as if she weighed nothing; a ragdoll for his affections.

          The actions flustered her greatly but she returned the hug, clinging onto him for dear life. Though she wasn’t sure whether to cling to him or get away from the impossibly strong hug. “Well that’s a heck of a greeting–” 

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Miho’s gone through a lot of heartbreak and been put through a lot of misery because of men which is a key reason for her preference in ladies. Somethings were minuscule but one incident in particular had a strong and lasting impact on Miho. She never talks of this incident. Regardless, the point is, Miho is terrified of long term relationships and the idea of her feelings being unreciprocated which is why she frequently has flings, ‘friends with benefits’, casual relationships, etc. It is easier for her to maintain a relationship with a woman than it is a man. 

[daddiesondash]

“Loneliness becomes an acid that eats away at you.”

— Haruki Murakami

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Adrian sees Miho? Adrian attacks.

             Miho is spooked!!

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scalxwag:

       “– wow, you’ve really hurt my feelings.” he fakes a sniffle before letting out a laugh. “Not. You know that I am worth so much more – that’s why you like me so much.”

         Gaze immediately rolled and averted, “Like you? In your dreams.” Now all she had to do was destroy an past evidence ( including people who were aware ) that said otherwise. 

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@scalxwag continued from here

          She snorted, “What merchandise? You’re worth life 5 cents, if that.” 

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xcapiisms:

Now, who was he to deny a fellow addict? Humming in amusement, he took his own cigarette out and pocketed the pack before taking his lighter out. “Here we are~”

         “Perfect,” she purred, holding the cigarette to the flame of the lighter before bringing it to her lips and taking a drag. “Thanks babe.” She probably wouldn’t let that go, she just found it all too amusing. 

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xcapiisms:

Oh. Oh. Ajax stares at the woman for a moment before clearing his throat and grinning widely, holding the pack out to her. “Need a light too?”

          She daintily took one between her index finger and thumb and pulled it from the carton. “Yes please~” Really he shouldn’t have indulged her, she wasn’t supposed to smoke. 

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“Well, slap my ass and call me baby. I found an extra carton of cigarettes in my jacket.”

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          Just as instructed she slapped his ass, “You think you could spare one, baby?” 

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angstiism:

“ Aha, yeah… most alcohol is too strong for me. ” Sniffing as he scratched his nose, keeping his eyes on her. “ Nothing really… I just said you were being so cute. You’re just always so bold and cool, which there’s nothing wrong with, but when you say and do endearing things… it really is amazing. ” He said and coughed when he felt as though he was rambling and not making much sense, so Adrian grabbed another shot and threw it down his throat. Clicking his tongue, he slapped his hand on the bar a few times to get the bartender’s attention to tell him to bring more shots. Adrian felt so embarrassing sometimes, wondering in the back of his mind if Miho found him uncool for it.

          Ears burned as he doused her with compliments. She didn’t frequently have people willingly stroking her ego for her. Cool? Her? Miho could only pray that somehow she wouldn’t destroy his perception of her. Hoping the alcohol would help her take the compliments with grace ( or at least work as an excuse for her burning cheeks ) she gulped down two more shots once the bartender brought them over, scrunching her face momentarily as they burned down her throat. 

“Nah, I think it’s more about not giving a hoot.” Along the way she discovered that not caring made life a lot easier-- or at least feigning indifference did. “I think you’re the cute one though,” she smiled, reaching over to boop him on the nose. “You’re like a friendly giant.” Or a big dog that she wanted to pet and fuss over all day. “I’m glad you think so highly of me though~” Cool, and amazing. Damn, who knew being bitter, rude and outspoken would get her such high praise. 

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@scalxwag

*whispers into the wind: come back to meeee*

ii tryryy

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I think I will try to come back on Saturday, but I’m not sure because every time I come on I just feel really insignificant?? & my anxiety starts up and feeds my depression so it’s a whole mess. Anyway I’m thinking I’m just more emotional than usual bc I’m pmsing or something. 

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angstiism

Her incitement made him laugh, unlike her, he was a lightweight. His uncles, cousins, and even co-workers could drink Adrian under the table. “ Miho, I have to be the responsible one between us. ” He said audibly enough so that she could hear, the bar they were in was kind of packed to the point where you had to raise an octave in all the sea of chatter. Despite his tolerance, Adrian wouldn’t truly deny her and if they got too wasted, they could always call a cab or someone could do it for them. Looking down at the shots presented for him, the male chuffed before quickly throwing back three and shivering afterwards. “ Ah! Bleh! I can’t stand vodka! ” Chuckling as he put his gaze back on her, blushing a tad. “ Did you really? Que bonitinho. I missed you too. ”

         “Naaaah, who needs responsibility,” she responded in a just as loud voice. The small female got drunk as all hell on her own often enough and she always ended up just fine. She giggled and clapped when he drank, glad that his actions opposed his words. “Too strong for you?” He was just too cute, such a big guy yet Miho had him beat in tolerance for strong alcohol. In fact, she loved the burn. 

His blush was infectious, her cheeks tinging a light pink in return. Oh, and he even went and pulled out the foreign language card. She didn’t know portugese but one of the words sounded similar to bonito, which she knew meant pretty in Spanish. Fiddling with a strand of her hair she smiled and her gaze shied away from his. “Still great at sweet talkin’ huh, what’d you say there?” 

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heyo I think I’m gonna take a short break, hopefully only for a week, but atm every time I come on to tumblr I feel crappy so I think it’s time to get away for a while. Plus my first guard show is sunday meaning I’m gonna be a lot more stressed until it’s all over ( which is in april. ) I’ll try to come on every now and then, but idk. It’s not really worth it when I’m not enjoying it.