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“You kissed someone, and you say you’d rather be with me?” Holden bit, his eyes narrowing as he watched her. Automatically, he crossed his arms over his chest, afraid that he’d last out, that he’d break something, the anger starting to pool in his stomach. “So you just hauled off and kissed someone, or did you sleep with them too? Because it’s sure as hell been a long time since you looked at me twice, you know?”

He worked a lot: he knew he did, but he was on the edge of a big contract, one that could push him into a millionaire status, get his name out there. Holden thought himself justified. “You know, go have a life with them, because I’m done. I can’t do this. You remember that Marissa cheated on me? Before you? And now you? No.”

           “Of course I rather be with you, Holden... It was a mistake. A mistake that’s been eating at me since the second I realized it happened.” Kelsey was genuine when she said this, she knew his past with his ex and she knew this wouldn’t be a pretty conversation, but she owed him the truth. Despite being angry that he constantly picked his job over her, he was the love of her life. Maybe he didn’t feel that same way though, and that made this whole situation first. She just made herself easily disposable. “I didn’t just haul off to kiss someone, it was never my intention okay? It just happened and, and yes, I fucked up... I'm sorry I want’ in my right mind... I wanted more than anything for it to be you...” About looking at him twice, well, she didn’t know what rock he was living under because she’s tried multiple times and he always had something important to work on, so yes she got a little lazy, but could anyone really blame her? How many “no not tonight” ’s can one take before they’re like fuck it. “I look at you twice all the time, you’re too busy working to notice. Which I get it, you’re on the edge of glory, and I'm proud of you, but fuck, Holden. I just miss you so much?” 

When he decided to break up with her, which, she felt like he was going to do anyway. She was slightly prepared for it, but the words just, her heart was shattered completely. “Well, I can assure I’m not going to go off and live with anyone...” Kel’s lower lip quivered and she wiped away the tear coming down her cheek. “Um, I'm sorry, not only for kissing someone but that you are so fed up with me and our relationship, that kissing was enough to just flat out break up with me and not talk through it and try to work things out. It’s fine.” She shook her head and shrugged her shoulders as she started putting her things together. “Not like I would’ve kissed someone intentionally or unintentionally if you would’ve paid attention to me, but go off about how I don’t look at you twice, please.” She was sad and angry, and she didn’t want them to be over, she knew she’d be miserable. She loved him so much. If only that guy didn’t kiss her, if only she didn’t take those two extra shots of tequila her friends talked her into... she would’ve at least been sober enough to tell him to fuck off. But there she was, packing her things, after confessing to one of the worst mistakes of her life. Where were her friends then? She needed better friends. She also needed to stop drinking. “You’re absolutely sure? Even if I told you I’d stop hanging out with the same people, I'd stop drinking so much, I'd be more attentive... You’re absolutely sure?” 

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Holden had been working again: he’d promised that he’d cut it out some, that he’d spend less time on his job and more time on other aspects of his life, but it hadn’t happened. Not yet. I have to finish this was always his excuse. Standing by the stove, waiting on eggs to cook, he turned his attention to her, coffee cup in his hand. It was a rare morning where they were together for breakfast, his kitchen so rarely used.

“Yeah, you go out with them most weekends,” he reminded her softly. Or so he assumed that’s what she did: quite honestly, he couldn’t remember the last time he’d gone out for a few drinks himself. Months, probably. “You were pretty out of it when I talked to you that night,” he shrugged.

         His reminder felt a little uncalled for, considering the fact that she would easily choose to be with him instead. Raising her brows, Kelsey looked off to the side and wanted to let it slide but said something instead. “I think we both know I would rather be with you,” Kels said back, her voice soft, of course, but frustrated nonetheless. This conversation wasn’t going to be pretty and she knew it. “Yeah, I was, and um...” Fuck, how did she say this? 

“I kissed someone.” Ripping off the bandaid, Kelsey felt like complete and utter shit as she made this confession. So much time spent together, building their relationship just to possibly ruin it with a drunken kiss. Yes, the relationship wasn’t perfect, and this was the first time in a bit that she had seen him, but fuck. Hold didn’t deserve this. No one did. “I’m sorry... I was drunk and frustrated and when I woke up the next day I realized it what I had done, and it’s been eating at me ever since.” 

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Kels: is this too much? I want to look good but I don’t want to be too dramatic. I paired it with black 2 strap heels. Kels: might have to carry me to the car by the end of it. 😭

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Xander: Always knew you wanted in my pants, Kels. It's okay to admit it. I'm an attractive guy, it's flattering really.

Xander: What ever would give you the idea that I was?

Xander: Jesus, Kels. It's a club, dress for the club. Just don't show up all formal and buttoned up.

Kels: rolling my eyes so hard right now. Whatever makes you feel better, babe.

Kels: just scroll up and read your own replies. Can't miss it.

Kels: Jesus, Xander. It's not that serious, I just wanted an 'as close to friendly you can get' opinion. I'll figure something out. thanks for nothinggggg :p

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Xander: A wink is suggestive? Here I thought it was just playful.

Xander: Me? Condescending? To you? Never.

Xander: Think it might loosen you up some. Oh, that so, Bruce Banner? Guess we'll just have to wait and see.

Kels: Okay, you kind of got me there, but I definitely think it means both so... I took it as flirty/suggestive. Maybe that says something about me personally, but I honestly wouldn't put it past you.

Kels: Sure you're not.

Kels: 👀 guess so. What should I wear? Dress, or cute top? You know what? I'll figure it out.

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Xander: Who said I meant it to be sexually? Very naughty, Kels. Also good to know your mind goes there with me 😉

Xander: Sure it is, babe. Sure it is. Is it heckling if it's the truth, though? That's sad, Kelsey. Truly sad.

Xander: It's a new club opening. Heard it's supposed to be amazing, and possibly on the kinky side. Still in?

Kels: I mean, you started it with that suggestive emoji but go off Xan, go off.

Kels: Lmao you're so condescending to me! It drives me crazy.😂

Kels: You want to take my lame ass to a kinky club? Fine, but don't ditch me. You won't like who I become if you ditch me.

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Xander: mmm no. how about you come over here and make me? 😉

Xander: yeah, that does not count in any way. I obviously count, I am the most fun part of your terribly stale life. But work does not count at all. This is exactly WHY you need to come out with me.

Kels: In your dreams, casanova. 😘

Kels: My life is anything but stale. Rude. I'll go out with you, but you need to stop heckling me about my "stale" life. I'm perfectly happy being your idea of boring. 💁

Kels: Where are you taking me anyway?

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Xander: Wow, so suddenly it's abuse to hang out with me is it? Hurtful, truly hurtful, Kels.

Xander: Maybe I want you to stop being such a fucking stick in the mud and get the fuck out of your apartment for once.

Kels: lmao oh shutup, Xander.

Kels: Okay but I do? I work and, andddd I hang out with you. SO yeah, I go out.

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Kelsey: Okay but why would you ask me to do that with you? I don't deserve this abuse 😂

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         Kelsey didn’t know how to tell him this. Yeah, he put his work before her constantly, but she could’ve just talked to him about it or broke things off. Kels didn’t have to go out and get drunk enough to kiss someone else. The second she woke up and knew it wasn’t Holden that she kissed, it wore at her consciousness. The brunette knew she had to tell him, and what he did with that information was up to him. However, Kelsey Grayson would be lying if she said she had a good feeling about this conversation.  Finally being face to face with her boyfriend, the journalist leaned against his counter and took a deep breath before looking at him. “So um...” The brown-eyed beauty didn’t even know how to begin, pursing her lips as she felt her stomach turn into knots; her palms getting sweaty. “You, uh, you know how I mentioned going out with my friends two nights ago?” @ouranthems

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      In the middle of studying with Tommy, Kelsey got up and turned around to face him, leaning against a chair. “I can’t concentrate right now.” She confessed, looking at him a little bit. There was so much going on inside of her, feelings that she didn’t want to feel, guilt for feeling this way while with Jared, and most of all confusion. Studying with Tommy didn’t feel the same anymore. It was no longer friendly and platonic. In fact, it felt like the exact opposite to Kels, but she was sure he probably didn’t feel that same tense feeling that she did. Grayson couldn’t stop herself from stealing glances every so often and it sucked because he probably just saw her as a friend, and well, not only was he her best friend, but he was also best friends with her boyfriend, Jared. 

     I think we should take a break from the books, the brunette thought initially, but then she had a second thought saying: And do what? Make out? Kelsey blushed at the thought and went to the house kitchen to get herself a glass of water. “Would you like anything to drink or eat?” She asked in a loud whisper, trying not to wake her roommate’s daughter Grace. It was weird living with a man she barely really talked to, with a somewhat loud but very cute baby. Charlton really outdid themselves with his project. She just wants him to be her roommate at this point. A least they’d have fun and she wouldn’t have to worry so much about a baby crying if they’re woken up. Kels prepared them both a glass of water before breaking her dark cholate in equal pieces and setting it up on a plate with a dollop of peanut butter. Making her way back to where they were studying, she placed the dark chocolate and glass of ice water before  smiling at him with a chuckle, “It’s for hydration and energy.” Kels explained as she sat down and tried to actually pay attention to her work this time. Taking little bites and sips in between, she found her eyes still finding their way to him. God this was so frustrating, Kelsey thought as she knew that she was being a bad friend and mentally cheating on her boyfriend. Naturally, the journalist suppressed her feelings on the way she felt toward Tommy, it was simply for the best. @wcfall

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Tommy wasn’t anyone’s savior, nor will he ever be. Learning this the hard way —Ella Halder’s way— left a conflict to his innate desire to fight people’s battles for them. Larsen grew up feeling like he never belonged in his own house, in his own family and that’s why his loyalty to his friends was unwavering. Even if it meant getting hurt in the process of protecting them, even if it meant being misunderstood and his intentions being mistaken for an excuse to ‘fix’ broken people, he would turn a blind eye to whatever’s right to take a friend’s side. Help them. Fight for them when they deserve it. Fight for them even when they don’t need it. Fight for them, the way he would’ve for himself.

I don’t want you fight my battles Tommy, please? reminded him he had stepped out of line again. Kelsey most definitely didn’t need saving. She’s the type that collects planners and actually uses them -that alone would’ve intimidated him had they not been friends since first year. She plans, she organizes, she manages, she handles, she writes a strong article with one hand and pulls Tommy’s ear when he’s being stubborn with the other Between the two of them, it’s Tommy who would need the saving. But here he was, fucking up his friendship with his ‘brother’ by bond and coming home to the person he did it for. Hang on.. he didn’t just do it for her.

Hearing her call him Ezra again pushed him to talk. “It wasn’t just your battle anymore, Kels.” He said calmly now, taking the hot coffee from her delicate-looking steady hands. “He thinks just because he has a sad past, it justifies his treatment to people and their feelings. I got a sad past. You don’t see me using that as a ticket to lead people on, do you? It’s okay to be scared but… but I just fucking wish he knows what he wants. He doesn’t know what he wants. I know what I want. I know where I stand. Am I right?” He turns to Kelsey for an answer. Not really waiting for a verbal one, her expression was already enough. Jared had a good reason to be scared. Hurting Kelsey before things got serious was actually the smart and kind thing to do. But one doesn’t see everything and Tommy understood very little. He and Jared just weren’t in the same page in this matter. It just so happened that it’s not something they could just push aside and go on with their lives.

     To anyone else, Tommy was a distant riot. Reckless, and at times careless with his decisions, but those who were close to Tommy, those who knew him for the tremendous heart he had couldn’t help but admire his bravery. Like Kelsey, she couldn’t for the life of her be mad at him for defending her honor because no one else would have. Because at least from Tommy it came from a place of love and respect. So when he took his drink from her hand, and began to explain himself, Kelsey nodded her head slowly and listened to him. 

     “Fair enough.” Kels said softly, taking a deep breath and bringing him in for a tight hug and taking a deep breath. She almost wanted to cry, the comfort being overwhelming. She didn’t understand why the guys she liked didn’t like her, and why the man she loved would probably never be interested in her because of their friendship status. “Thank you.” Kels said softly, but stayed in place, refusing to pul away. Ezra’s embrace being too comforting to let go of. 

    “I just worry—i’d never want you to get hurt or in trouble or lose something/one because of me.” Grayson paused and bit her lip. “I’m really not worth all the drama.” The brunette’s voice broke as she shrugged her shoulders and finally willed herself to peel her body off of his; instantly missing him once she did. Kelsey groaned internally, annoyed with herself because of how clingy, needy, and possessive she’s become of Larsen.