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“You kissed someone, and you say you’d rather be with me?” Holden bit, his eyes narrowing as he watched her. Automatically, he crossed his arms over his chest, afraid that he’d last out, that he’d break something, the anger starting to pool in his stomach. “So you just hauled off and kissed someone, or did you sleep with them too? Because it’s sure as hell been a long time since you looked at me twice, you know?”
He worked a lot: he knew he did, but he was on the edge of a big contract, one that could push him into a millionaire status, get his name out there. Holden thought himself justified. “You know, go have a life with them, because I’m done. I can’t do this. You remember that Marissa cheated on me? Before you? And now you? No.”
“Of course I rather be with you, Holden... It was a mistake. A mistake that’s been eating at me since the second I realized it happened.” Kelsey was genuine when she said this, she knew his past with his ex and she knew this wouldn’t be a pretty conversation, but she owed him the truth. Despite being angry that he constantly picked his job over her, he was the love of her life. Maybe he didn’t feel that same way though, and that made this whole situation first. She just made herself easily disposable. “I didn’t just haul off to kiss someone, it was never my intention okay? It just happened and, and yes, I fucked up... I'm sorry I want’ in my right mind... I wanted more than anything for it to be you...” About looking at him twice, well, she didn’t know what rock he was living under because she’s tried multiple times and he always had something important to work on, so yes she got a little lazy, but could anyone really blame her? How many “no not tonight” ’s can one take before they’re like fuck it. “I look at you twice all the time, you’re too busy working to notice. Which I get it, you’re on the edge of glory, and I'm proud of you, but fuck, Holden. I just miss you so much?”
When he decided to break up with her, which, she felt like he was going to do anyway. She was slightly prepared for it, but the words just, her heart was shattered completely. “Well, I can assure I’m not going to go off and live with anyone...” Kel’s lower lip quivered and she wiped away the tear coming down her cheek. “Um, I'm sorry, not only for kissing someone but that you are so fed up with me and our relationship, that kissing was enough to just flat out break up with me and not talk through it and try to work things out. It’s fine.” She shook her head and shrugged her shoulders as she started putting her things together. “Not like I would’ve kissed someone intentionally or unintentionally if you would’ve paid attention to me, but go off about how I don’t look at you twice, please.” She was sad and angry, and she didn’t want them to be over, she knew she’d be miserable. She loved him so much. If only that guy didn’t kiss her, if only she didn’t take those two extra shots of tequila her friends talked her into... she would’ve at least been sober enough to tell him to fuck off. But there she was, packing her things, after confessing to one of the worst mistakes of her life. Where were her friends then? She needed better friends. She also needed to stop drinking. “You’re absolutely sure? Even if I told you I’d stop hanging out with the same people, I'd stop drinking so much, I'd be more attentive... You’re absolutely sure?”
