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The front door slammed harder than usual.
You looked up from the couch, where youβd been curled up with a book and a cup of tea, waiting for him like you always did after patrol. Jason stood in the doorway, shoulders rigid, jaw clenched so tight you could see the muscle jumping. His Red Hood jacket was still on, helmet tucked under one arm, but the usual controlled danger in his posture had cracked into something raw and angry.
He didnβt look at you. Just kicked off his boots and headed straight for the kitchen, movements sharp and frustrated.
You set your book down slowly. βBad night?β
He yanked open the fridge, grabbing a water bottle like it had personally offended him. βDick.β
The name came out like a curse.
You stood up, padding over to him in your socks. βWhat happened?β
Jason twisted the cap off the bottle too hard, water sloshing. βThe usual. He thinks Iβm too violent. Too reckless. That Iβm βnot helping the missionβ by actually doing what needs to be done.β He took a long drink, then slammed the bottle down on the counter. βLike heβs any better. Like he didnβt spend years following Bruceβs orders like a good little soldier. Now heβs lecturing me about mercy? Fuck him.β
His voice was rising, edged with that familiar anger that always simmered just under the surface. You knew this version of Jason β the one who lashed out when the world reminded him he was the damaged one, the replaced one, the failure who came back wrong.
You stepped closer, careful not to crowd him. βHeβs worried about you. Thatβs all.β
βWorried?β Jason laughed β short, bitter. βHeβs worried Iβll go too far. Like Iβm the monster in the family. Like I didnβt die for this city. Like I didnβt crawl out of my own grave just to keep fighting when no one else would.β
He turned away from you, bracing his hands on the counter, head bowed. His shoulders were shaking slightly β not from cold, but from the effort of holding everything in.
You reached out, resting a gentle hand on his back. βJayβ¦β
He jerked away from your touch like it burned. βDonβt. Not right now. I donβt need you trying to fix me too. Iβm not some broken thing you can patch up with tea and pretty words.β
The words stung, but you didnβt flinch. You knew him. You knew this was the anger talking β the fear talking. The part of him that still believed he was too damaged to be loved.
You stepped back, giving him space, but you didnβt leave. βIβm not trying to fix you. Iβm just here. Because I love you. Even when youβre like this.β
He laughed again, hollow. βYeah? Well maybe you shouldnβt. Maybe Dickβs right. Maybe Iβm too far gone. Maybe youβd be better off with someone who doesnβt come home covered in blood and rage every night.β
Your chest tightened. You hated when he got like this - when he pushed you away because he was scared youβd finally see the worst in him and leave.
You moved closer again, slower this time. βIβm not going anywhere. I knew who you were when I fell in love with you. The anger. The violence. The parts you hate. I love all of it. Because itβs you.β
He turned then, eyes wet and furious and broken all at once. βYou shouldnβt. Iβm not good for you. Iβm not good for anyone. I snap at you. I shut you out. Iββ
You stepped into his space, wrapping your arms around his waist before he could pull away again. He tensed, every muscle rigid, like he was fighting the urge to run.
βI know,β you whispered against his chest. βAnd I still choose you. Every day. Even on the bad ones.β
Jason stood there for a long moment, breathing hard. Then, like a dam breaking, he wrapped his arms around you, holding you so tight it almost hurt. His face buried in your hair, shoulders shaking as the anger finally gave way to the exhaustion underneath.
βIβm sorry,β he choked out. βIβm so fucking sorry. I donβt know why I do this. I get so angry and I take it out on you and I hate myself for it. Youβre the only good thing I have and I keep trying to push you away because Iβm terrified youβll finally realize Iβm not worth it.β
You held him tighter, one hand stroking his back, the other cradling the back of his head. βYou are worth it. Youβre worth everything. Youβre my Jason. The one who comes home to me. The one who makes me feel safe even when the world is falling apart. The one who tries so hard even when it hurts.β
He let out a shaky breath, arms squeezing you like you might disappear. βI love you,β he whispered, voice cracking. βSo much it scares me. I donβt know how to do this right. But Iβm trying. For you. Iβm always trying for you.β
You pressed a kiss to his shoulder, then his neck, then his jaw. βI know. And I love you too. All of you. The angry parts. The scared parts. The soft parts you only show me. All of it.β
Jason pulled back just enough to look at you, eyes red-rimmed but softer now. He cupped your face with both hands, thumbs brushing away tears you hadnβt realized youβd shed.
βI donβt deserve you,β he said, voice rough.
βYou do,β you replied, leaning up to kiss him softly. βEvery day.β
He kissed you back β slow and deep, full of all the love he didnβt know how to say out loud. His hands stayed gentle on your face, holding you like you were something precious. When he pulled back, he rested his forehead against yours, breathing steadying.
βThank you,β he whispered. βFor not leaving. For seeing me. Forβ¦ everything.β
You smiled, pressing another kiss to his lips. βAlways. Now come to bed. Let me hold you for a while.β
He nodded, letting you lead him to the bedroom. He stripped down to his boxers and crawled under the covers, pulling you against his chest the second you joined him. His arms wrapped around you tightly, one hand stroking your back in slow, soothing circles, the other tangled in your hair.
βI love you,β he murmured again, voice sleepy and soft. βEven when Iβm an idiot. Especially then.β
You smiled against his skin, pressing a kiss to his collarbone. βI love you too. My grumpy, protective, secretly soft boyfriend.β
He huffed a laugh, the sound warm. βOnly for you.β
The city hummed far below. In the quiet dark of your shared apartment, Jason Todd held you like you were the only safe thing left in his world.
And you held him right back.
Because loving Jason Todd had never been easy.
But it had always been worth it.
a/n : wrote part of this while stuck under my bed btw.
-> smut/nsfw, afab! reader (has a pussy, no pronouns used), switch! reader & barry, teasing, use of a fleshlight
βSo which one feels better?β
Barry whines, pulling his cock out of your pussy despite how badly he wants to fuck you right now. βI c-canβt tell.β
You hum, adjusting your hold on the fleshlight resting on your tummy, the opening held flush with the top of your pussy. The head of Barryβs cock brushes your clit and you shiver.Β
βGuess weβll have to try again then.β
Barry sticks his tongue out in concentration, slowly pushing the head of his cock into the lubed fleshlight. He shakes, overstimulated from all the pleasure, and pulls out as slowly as youβll let him.Β
Then he dips his cock back inside you with zero warning, slipping his head into your slick easily. You gasp, eyes rolling back, and savour the feeling of him bottoming out inside of you.Β
βC-canβt I just fuck you?β
You drop a hand from the fleshlight to cup his jaw, doing your best to keep a neutral face. βItβs for science, Barr. Wouldnβt wanna f-fuck up my hypothesis, right?βΒ
He whines in defeat. βBut your pussy feels so good,β he catches your hand, interlacing his fingers through yours and pinning it to the bed. βAnd I really want to fuck you.β
You can never say no to Barry, especially not when heβs red cheeked and basically drooling for you, hard cock deep inside you.
βStupid toy isnβt as warm as you,β he snaps his hips into yours, forcing the air from your lungs, βor as tightβdamn, and it doesnβt make those cute noises of yours.βΒ
You whimper. Maybe itβs safe to say he doesnβt prefer the toy after all.
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