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Sugar free jelly my beloved 💕

I believe i have genuinely fucked up my ability to eat food properly from years of cycling through relapse and recovery.

Like, I can rarely keep down a full meal for longer than an hour at most for about the past year now. On multiple occasions now, I have thrown up fully intact (not digested) foods anywhere up to 4 hours or so after consuming it.

On one hand, i kind of see it as a good thing in a fucked up way, because even though I know you absorb 80% of the calories of food once you've eaten it, my brain automatically goes "yay, good job for expelling the fat causing sludge from your body", but also I know that if it's affecting me this way now, it's almost certainly going to continue to get worse the older I get.

Having this illness is fucked up, man.

Well well well.....guess who's back ☠️

Things have been up and down for me over the past few months, and I actually made a decent effort into recovery this time. Like, I really, truly tried.

I opened up to my therapist about what was going on for me, she helped me get in contact with a dietitian (both of whom I am currently still seeing regularly) and overall, things were looking up.

But somehow, I always end up back here.

Lots of personal shit has piled up over the past couple of months and I've fallen back on ye olde unhealthy coping mechanism, so....I guess I'm back.

Say hi if you missed me xx

I'm back from a period of "recovery".

I thought i actually was recovering. I wasn't b1nging, i was just eating like normal maintenance c@ls and not focusing on losing we1ght or anything really.

Only to jump on the scale and find out that i had gotten myself right back to the low 50s again. Immediate trigger.

My mum found out that she's pre diabetic recently, and asked me to help her lose some weight, which i agreed to. I'm giving her all the healthy tips and encouragement, whilst using it as an excuse to get my butt back into gear.

We've started going swimming 3 times a week, and I'm already starting to drop some of the extra weight xx I weighed in at 50.2kg this morning, which isn't too far from where I was when I decided to try recovery again.

Honestly, I do implore that anyone who can recover should do as soon as possible. Unfortunately, right now, it's just not for me.

Currently hyperfixated on sewing, all I want to do is sew. I sewed (by hand, caz i dont have a sewing machine) a new garment for 4 hours straight yesterday, and today I will probably do it again.

Sewing 💕✨️

Perks of being poor, I've almost run out of food and I dont get paid until Wednesday , so i am forced to stay in a decent deficit until I can get groceries lmao 😎

Omw to getting to my UGW by valentine's day ✨️

Stretching as a form of light exercise because normal exercise makes me feel like im gonna pass out, even though my physio told me that because of my hypermobility I shouldn't stretch too much 💕 sorry, cant hear you over the sound of being flexible and skinny

I love doing housework, it's one of my favourite ways to burn calories 💕💕

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i may look bad but i also feel bad

I did 12k steps yesterday :D

I hate being so short. What do you mean, im 49kg and still look like a bowling ball 😭😭

I've been being such a fatty lately, eating junk food and going over my daily cal limit 80% of the week, but I've been exercising every day???

Why is my life ⭐️ve and no exercise or over3at and work out ☠️☠️

Walked to two appointments today, then did a bit of op shopping and Google fit counted NONE of my steps im gonna fucking kms

Been having a lot of stomach issues lately, and sugar has been making my chronic illness symptoms (potentially pots or veds, im awaiting a diagnosis for both) 10x worse, so its been a lot easier to get back on track now that I've started noticing these things.

I even get anxious having grapes now xx

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