so i have been absolutely OBSESSED with helluva boss lately and i have so many thoughts but with Full Moon being so close, my brain won't stop analyzing stolitz and how bad things are about to get for them
stolas's story is tragic and sad but he's been so lost in his own fantasy that he never considers whether he and blitz are on the same page. in his mind, the deal with the grimoire is a flimsy excuse for them to be together and blitz is as satisfied with it as he is. he doesn't seem to truly grasp that this arrangement is a sword of damocles hanging over blitz's head and blitz is just waiting for it to fall
whether blitz returns his feelings or not doesn't matter at this stage; his choice here isn't "be with stolas or leave", his choice is "do what stolas wants or lose everything you've worked for"
the issue with blitz is that he DOES care about stolas but he wants their arrangement to continue. he doesn't want stolas to make him choose. he doesn't want anything to change, despite how unhappy he is. because if he has to admit he has feelings for stolas and that he wants something real, he has to face the reality of stolas not choosing him back when he doesn't live up to stolas' fantasy.
it's easier to expect his need for love and intimacy to not be met than to trust someone to meet that need and be disappointed when they discover he isn't worth the effort.
(and holy SHIT i could write a fucking novel about blitz's fear of intimacy and how he reinforces his own poor self esteem through sabotaging his own relationships)
stolas is finally making healthy decisions for himself, and he's well aware that it means possibly losing blitz. but he HAS to give blitz the crystal because he HAS to end their arrangement with the grimoire for either of them to make any progress, and blitz is gonna take it SO POORLY
it's gonna hurt SO MUCH


















