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"This is the time of year to write to the Great Pumpkin. On Halloween night, the Great Pumpkin rises out of his pumpkin patch and flies through the air with his bag of toys for all the children." - linus https://www.instagram.com/p/CHDTnc7DK7NFY9eEXvoNX6YNqD1GJYOx6z06R40/?igshid=tiyql51l5efo

11 months this past week! He can walk but mostly crawls still. He babbles and doesn't like barriers to his movements. He is getting excited about having a baby brother on the next month. #11monthsold #cutestbabyever https://www.instagram.com/p/CBoSfdDj34f09jpM3LvrkCehEqLTBFyQfsE9Ok0/?igshid=17mxjtgt62tkk

#11monthsold #cutestbabyever

A baby. A little tiny baby of our own.

#catboy #little lamb #baby #july 2019

gobackimhaunted

Taylor Album tag yourself!

#Blood orange and a little hint of princess idgaf

jse-egopocalypse

spell your username without using the letters in your name

mine is ptipi

indynerdgirl

mine is idyerdgirl

ladybugpug

ldbugpug

or if we are going full name- bugpug

archatlas

Alan Brutenic’s Prague

Travel photographer Alan Brutenic loves using his abilities as a drone pilot to explore different cities around the world. Brutenic splits his time between London and Prague, so it only made sense that he had his drone take flight in the Czech capital. His incredible aerial photos of Prague show sweeping views of the city that will make you want to pack your bags and visit immediately.

#my prague #Prague is a special place on earth with gorgeous hills and churches and beauty and history and I want to go back

indynerdgirl replied to your post “indynerdgirl replied to your post “I am feeling a lot of anxiety...”

No worries! I know several people who went there and yeah, they seem to have drunk the kool-aid that the school can do no wrong. ��

I don’t get it. Like, even if you did have a decent time there, you can still point at what is wrong with the place.

I don’t know. I can’t control how people see the school, but when I hear that someone wants to send their child there, I try not to cringe. Blind worship of a thing or person is dangerous. I have no desire to send any of my children to catholic universities or colleges. I didn’t do well, my older bother didn’t do well at C-dom, and my younger brother dealt with problems at Marian. (Could be my family is just that flawed, my parents weren’t bad parents)

It has been and probably will continue to be hard to voice why I don’t like the school to people because I am sure once I mention I failed out, they will just dismiss me as stupid and angry.

#indynerdgirl

indynerdgirl replied to your post “I am feeling a lot of anxiety tonight about things. The school I went...”

What school?

Franciscan. I attended for a year when I was 19 and my already unstable emotional life took a huge turn for bad. The mental health care in 2010-11 was pretty bad. My counselor told me to pray more and find better friends.

My spiritual health took an even worse turn. I hardly went to confession unless I was home (Fall break, Christmas, and easter) and while I went to mass every Sunday and sometimes during the week, I hardly received communion. After all, I obviously didn’t deserve it because I didn’t pray away my depression, I self-harmed, and like I said confession.

TECHNICALLY, I failed out. I failed out because I never slept, I never went to class because of sleeping/ I cried less when I spent days in my room. I would do work, I worked hard, but didn’t have a support system there, not even in the student life or my RAs to help me or help me find the help I needed.

While I am sure people have excellent experiences there and other catholic universities, I didn’t. Since I have left I have heard from mainly older catholics within homeschool circles say that FUS must be fantastic because it is a catholic school and it teaches great catholic tradition. One woman (Who has sent her own kids there) asked my mothewhy I left and in hushhush tones “Was she raped?” like that is one of the worst things that could befall someone.

When my parents came to pick me up in December they were half tempted to take me to the nearest inpatient ward, They were twice as tempted in May. My mother regrets letting me go and then letting me go back.

That one singular year had a huge impact on me and took me about 3 plus years to be okay with everything that I let happen to me. I have no close friends left from there and I am so okay with that. It is like a breath of fresh air that I don’t have to be that person any more.

but anyhow.

these are what got me all twisted up last week.

https://www.ncronline.org/news/accountability/plaques-removal-franciscan-university-exposes-abuse-former-chaplain

https://www.patheos.com/blogs/popfeminist/2018/09/an-open-letter-to-franciscan-say-youre-sorry-sam-tiesi-sexuala-abuse-franciscan-university-fus/ This line is probably what got my bawling on the couch with my head in my husband’s lap. It is about survivors of sexual assult, but it just opens up so many things in my on how people, especially 18 year old boys, saw me and how I let people see me.

“I revisited those moments at school when vulnerable women were first embraced, then people tried to rescue them, and then they were finally discarded when the job became too onerous, because you can’t rescue someone from trauma, you can only walk with them through their healing, and it gets ugly, that healing process.”

https://www.patheos.com/blogs/popfeminist/2018/11/grooming-the-congregation-an-open-letter-to-fus-pt-2/

#indynerdgirl #Sorry #you didn't ask for all that but I really needed to say it somewhere.

lestatslestits

NaNoWriMo Moodboard for @ladybugpug (who Tumblr is not letting me tag). Your novel sounds like it’s going to be so cool! I hope you enjoy your moodboard, and happy noveling!

Wrimos: Moodboard requests are open!

ladybugpug

ITS BASED OFF MY NOVEL AND I LOVE IT AND SYMBOLISM AND IT IS PERFECT.

lestatslestits

So…I’m not participating in NaNoWriMo this year for various reasons, but I would love to be involved!

I love making moodboards and aesthetic edits and I would love to make some for WriMos.

Here are some examples of Moodboards I have made:

If you want a moodboard, send me an ask or a message with information about the subject (story, character, pairing, setting, whatever). Please include things you would like to see in the moodboard (colors/themes/imagery/text/etc). It you have faceclaims for characters, feel free to send those too! Whatever you think I need to know to make your board.

If your NaNo is a fanfic, I will do my best to make a moodboard for you, but keep in mind that I may or may not be familiar with your fandom so A) provide me with any info you think I need l, and B) please be lenient if I get something wrong.

I will post the moodboards onto my blog and tag you in them unless you request otherwise, so if you don’t want your moodboard posted for any reason, please let me know upfront.

If you request a moodboard (or if you just feel like helping) please boost this post.

I will make as many moodboards as I can, but if this post blows up for some reason, I may not be able to make all of them, or they may take longer than anticipated. I work full time and stay pretty busy, and I make moodboards for fun in my spare time. Please be patient with me!

If you are not participating in NaNoWriMo, feel free to request a moodboard, but please specify that you aren’t participating. WriMos get priority for moodboard requests!

Happy November!

bnmxfld

eroscestlavie

Church basement aesthetics:

Hot cocoa in a Styrofoam cup but there’s not enough room in the cup for a full packet of hot cocoa so it’s either too strong or too weak

A piano that hasn’t been played since the 1980s

A room that’s always closed and has adults talking behind it but you’re not quite sure who they are or if they ever leave

Donuts that you’re not allowed to eat

Scented markers and multicolored craft sticks in an old basket

Veggie tales on VHS and two rolling tvs on ancient tv stands

A room behind another room that has christmas decorations in it

This table:

that one bitch who’s always always wearing tights and a dress even though the basement never gets above like 55 degrees

Dusty ass bibles and one lone dusty ass hymnal

Old programs for concerts, baptisms, events, and VBS printed with black ink on colored 8.5″x11″ paper folded in half

Little acrylic bead craft projects in the shapes of lizards or cats that some girl made at church camp and forgot to take home

Glitter but not in the joyful gay way

Moms in fleece

ebolazaire

This is fascinating to me because I never went to church, I’m not a Christian, and yet I can so clearly imagine this it’s like I was there

red-isotope-deactivated20181109

I can smell this post

#Ahhhhhh. YESSS. This was highschool for me.

I am feeling a lot of anxiety tonight about things. The school I went to when I was 19 is reeling from a sex abuse thing today and I am feeling both vindicated because “good catholic univeristy” doesn’t mean shit anymore and people are seeing that it isn’t a holy place filled with holy people but I am also sad because people suffered.

And NANOWRIMO IS ALREADY GIVING ME ANXIETY BECAUSE I AM BEHIND. ON DAY 1.

I think I am going to bed now.

#nanowrimo #I also want to talk to someone about this FUS thing.#But I don't know

buffskeleton

Star Wars Prequels Appreciation Week

Day 3 - Favourite Side Character

Bail Organa

solo-by-choice

#i will reblog bail organa every time he comes across my dash#EVERY#TIME#you understand#in revenge of the sith#he is the only one who tries to help#he is the only one who sees the temple burning and tries to help#not even padme goes#padme’s life is in such a shambles by that point that she can’t do anything but stare#but bail organa#who isn’t even as CLOSE to the jedi as padme is#who doesn’t really have a personal stake in it like padme does#he goes#the temple is burning but nobody comes for the jedi’s children#except bail organa#who has to be forced away at gunpoint from this spectacle#who sees a ten year-old jedi child gunned down on the steps of the jedi’s own home#bail organa tries#he’s the only one who tries to do anything#and that’s why i love him#star wars (via panharmonium)

This is important. Leia’s father was a good, brave man.