I'm not a machine. I will never be a machine. I have other things to be doing. I get tired. I get distracted. I do other things outside of drawing.
PLEASE stop asking over and over and over and over again about drawings. I LITERALLY said I have a disorder which makes me LESS INCLINED TO DO THINGS the more I'm asked, and I can't turn that off! It's how I'm wired! It's how I work!
I don't FUNCTION that way, the more I'm asked to do something, the LESS I'm gonna want to do it, and then eventually, I just won't.
I don't want to burn myself out, because I'm already going through that slightly with shit that's been happening in my life, shit causing so much stress I've been having physical health issues, as well as mental health issues. I don't want to add onto that because of people breathing down my neck for one drawing.
I'm not OBLIGATED to finish something. YES, I may have said "YES I'll do it", but I can always change my mind and say "No, actually, because this is ridiculous". I have stuff to do OUTSIDE of art, outside of staring blankly at a canvas trying to think of what to do while messages pop in every few minutes asking me over and over again about it.
I have a course to attend from Monday to Friday, 9 to 3.30. I don't get home until around 4.30 or 5 because of buses. And then on Wednesdays and Thursdays, I've got work experience, 11 to 2 on Wednesdays, 9.30 to 3.30 on Thursdays. I also help my dad with stuff on the weekends, whether it's shopping or other stuff, my hands are mostly full for every day of the week. I fall asleep somedays coming home from stress I'm under, I fall asleep randomly, I get distracted with talking to friends, playing games, watching videos. I also need to take time out of my day to eat, which is long because I like to talk to my dad and watch shows with him while we eat.
My life doesn't revolve around my art. There is a PERSON behind these drawings I do. Not an AI, not a robot, not something that never gets tired. A PERSON. I am a person who gets tired, who gets burned out, who gets stressed, who gets frustrated, who gets distracted.
I'm not a robot who will draw something instantly. It takes time. Lots of it. Please stop hounding me for art. I'm not "made" to draw things for you day in, day out.
