lain

tired of this body 23 vent acct tw bpd sui ed

[lainhasissues]

Currently making sure that my toxic homelife doesnt poison my decision making skills. Look to the future, dont be impatient, move through love not for love

[lainhasissues]

What if you did things for growth, knowledge, and experience instead of ego and acknowledgment?

[segamascott]

[angelnumber27]

[lainhasissues]

Very funny how my friend disengages from me when im fine. She only really cares about me when im in crisis, which is fine, but once I handle it myself she becomes completely uninterested in my life. I hate how selfish the people around me are.

[ahotknife]

megan lynne

[lainhasissues]

Very soon I will be deleting all th/n5p0 from this account. I admire without envy, yet still work to be thinner and more toned. I accept that my body can never and will never look like theirs but there is a build that I will be happy with. I know it. I hope you can reach this point too. I will continue posting workout inspo and toning inspo but th/n5p0 no longer has a place on my blog.

[balzog]

[shesrunningwild]

Morning run motivation

[lainhasissues]

Its official. Im buying a ton of camping gear, adding padding to sleep in my car, and then driving as far as I can away from my parents house. I have about 1/3 of the stuff I need. Already $400 down. I dont care. Applying for scholarships to use on the rest & take online courses. I cant stay here

Ideally I’d move out into a shitty apartment but I need 3x rent in this economy and the cheapest studio is $1000. Plus Im a student, no job. I just cant keep doing this my god I cant keep doing this.

Im also putting my hair into dreads so I dont have to worry too much about constant maintenance. I need a different propane stove tbh the one I got is way too big. I need to do a practice trip with my dog to see if I can take her with me. But this summer I wont be here thats for sure

I’ll need to buy the title of the car from my dad too so he doesnt report me as missing/the vehicle as stolen. I should definitely bother that lady about the barista job

[lainhasissues]

I wish I had parents who listened to me and knew what I liked and surprised me with things that I enjoyed to make me feel better instead of having to crawl my way out of every depressive hole Ive ever been in myself with little to no emotional support. I wish I didnt have to parent myself my whole life or depend on my older sister for nourishment and attention. Every time I see someone who has loving parents who do kind things out of the blue for them I get irritated because what did I do to deserve parents so emotionally negligent. What did I do to deserve to beg for love and never receive it while others got it without even asking. Then I would look for love and acceptance in strangers and get hurt every single time. Now I cant even fully love my partner because there is something in the back of my mind that has been there since childhood that tells me I can only rely on myself, or worse, this is going to hurt so bad it’ll be the reason your life ends. Because my parents didnt love me right as a kid. I feel pathetic for even being in this much pain over it.

[lainhasissues]

I dont need a therapist I need a life coach

[foggybruise]

I think of childhood and my chest hurts

[lainhasissues]

I suppress so much of myself when Im around my parents

[placeeee]

[ilovemebro]

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