"whatever we become, i was there before it all"

i accidentally deleted my previous blog | sid | xvii | maxence danet fauvel lovebot

[lallemxnt]

i love how eliott is getting along so well with their group. i love how everyone is so much more accepting towards him. and i love how proud lucas has become. just to think that earlier he didn't even know who he was to dancing in the open with his boyfriend in front of everyone—i stan character development. i love seeing them all happy and smiley—im honestly crying:'))))

[lallemxnt]

they're really out there doing : that

[lallemxnt]

this is the best thing ever. my new year is made y'all.

[lallemxnt]

happy new years y'all! yes, i'm back from the dead—and here's me wishing you a very happy new year to you and your family! may y'all and your families be blessed with lots of love and happiness! ❤️

[lallemxnt]

my dash is filled with one certain platinum blonde boi and *ronald mcdonald voice* i’m lovin’ it

[lallemxnt]

hey guys, a big thank you to those who took out their time to wish me a very happy birthday! i had quite a good day today, i mean the evening was amazing, really. my mother got me this cake which was really beautiful and my parents even danced with me and my cousins came over and got me some amazing ass gifts. i really had a good day, today. and the best thing is there’s going to be a party with all my friends on sunday since today my extended family came over! urgh, it’s good to be feeling this way. 

[vietnamese-iced-coffee]

@lallemxnt

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY HAPPY PILL💛💚💙❤️💜♥️

Yeah a rainbow of hearts is what you deserve baby!

Now I honestly don't know where to start from but maybe I'll start with the apology for being late because life's a bitch!

If that day you didn't hit me up at 2am demanding to know why am I still awake idk how our start would be because I was super shy to talk! Lmao!!! I won't deny the same city of our residence being an add-on point for our super quick connection – I still remember me literally jumping in my seat that day!

And then you pulled me into loving tangfei and THANKYOU for that! Seriously!!! Love them so much!!!

With everything and nothing, daylight or night my darling you're so supportive and all I'm floored every time. I mean sometimes I really can't fathom how you're so godly powered to be able to shower all that love upon me. I can never express in words how precious that is.

I love you beyoooond boundaries and am so proud of you darling.. i can't express in words. I know you're a pillar on your own and always know that the power lies within you.

Happy Birthday again Sid!!

And yes on this day.. love yourself as much as you can, that's the best gift from you to you, because you must matter most to yourself. Also don't forget to wish something for YOURSELF!

Tooooons of love and this:

[lallemxnt]

oh my god raina bby i—

this is so sweet and catch me sobbing rn jskjsksj i mean this honestly really means a lot to me. trust me, im glad that i texted you that day,,, i mean i cant even fathom the thought of life without you now—thats how very important you’ve become to me! and thank you for obsessing over tangfei over me, it makes my heart swellll<3 and i shower you with all that love because you sure as hell deserve all that love<3 i mean imagine not loving you and supporting you? sid cant relate. thank you for everything you are and everything that you do baby. i will never be able to thank you enough but thank you and i love you so very much<3 forever and always love<3 xoxo

ps; i love that moodboard so much oof! it honestly made my day ! but urgh its ‘sidran’ babyyy!!

[veron104]

Are you in love with someone?

i am indeed. i’m in love with my wifey aka the light of my life aka my entire world aka the birthday girl @lallemxnt 💜💜💜

[lallemxnt]

i love you more baby<3 💜🖤💜

[veron104]

happy birthday sid!!

happy birthday @lallemxnt , my love aka the light of my life aka my entire world aka my everything!

ok i know you don’t like to celebrate your birthday, but as your wifey imma celebrate it anyways :)

happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you! happy birthday dear siddddddd! happy birthday to you!!!!

i hope your day goes fucking amazing because if not, imma throw hands because you deserve the best day ever. i love you so fucking much bb you have no idea. and i made you a gift (it kinda reminds me of our first conversation too) that i hope you like

i love you so much sid and i hope your day goes amazing even if you don’t celebrate it that much. happy birthday💜🖤💜

[lallemxnt]

okay but i dont even—

you dont even know how much this means to me, wifey. im honestly fucking bawling my eyes out at quarter to twelve, i mean—

i’m so glad to have met you? and i’m the luckiest to have you as my wife i mean i dont even know how i got so lucky? you deserve so much better and yet you decide to stick around with my annoying ass, could i’ve asked for more?

the gears—really are the correct representation of our first conversation—i mean thank you sotus for making me meet this absolute incredible individual who has came into my life as an absolute angel and has progressed to become one of the most important persons in my life, my wife<3 

and well, baby, my mother has this whole evening planned out and one of my closest sisters is coming with a number of surprises so there’s that:)) 

thank you so much baby. thank you veronica. you really do not know how much this means to me, i mean i might not be very good with words but if you could look at me right now, you could see the tears on my cheeks, and if you looked a little deeper into my heart, you could it swelling with all the love it has for you. you are my #1 and im just happy to have to in my life. 

thank you for the painting, love. i didnt like it tho bc i loved it. i mean when we meet in real life, pls bring that painting love<3 trust me i’d hang it in on my wall and look at day and night<3 i’m so proud to have a talented artistic wifey<3

love you so much baby, forever &’ always. xoxo💜🖤💜

[lallemxnt]

it's my birthday and guess how i started it off? fucking cry, courtesy of my parents—a grade parenting right there.

[lallemxnt]

everything is just too much. when i think i’m finally getting better, and ready to get back to my old self, something happens which fucks me up completely. great. now my parents are back to making my life miserable. i swear to god, i feel like modern age rapunzel, trapped in this fucking house. the things they say to me - the way they talk to me - i just. so apparently my sister was making fun of me (read:joking around about me which is completely okay according to my father) and i just got annoyed and said something in my native language which would mean “daughter of a dog” or something along those lines and my parents were there. my dad got really angry thinking i really meant it in that way but it’s just a phrase in our native language and i never meant it. my mother literally asked me to beg on his feet for forgiveness. and i did. i apologised. my mother just came into my room now and said a dozen things. some of it being- how i would not be allowed to watch any of my favourite shows starting tomorrow, how there would be no birthday celebration for me this year (guess what dickheads? i never wanted one in the first place! you people are the ones who were forcing me to have one and when i said yes you agreed to celebrate it two days after my birthday and now almost all invites have been sent out, and now you are the ones cancelling it), how they were never really happy on my birth and that i’m a disgrace to them, how they are just tired of me and wish me almost dead, and a whole lot of other things.

guess what? i feel okay. it’s all normal. fine. nothing’s wrong. great. because i’m going to kms tonight. i cant go on with this, and i cant go through the embarrassment of cancelling the party so im making them do it and even giving them an excuse which would be like how can sid have a birthday party when she’s dead? that would be great. yes. it’s alright.  

[lallemxnt]

guess who’s back bitches?

[lallemxnt]

im going to have shit days starting from tomorrow. kms 

[lallemxnt]

so my break finally ends tomorrow and im back to school(: ik its going to be shit from tomorrow. i will get my answer scripts back and i think i’ll probably fail math just to get mentally tortured by my parents again. isnt it amazing living my life? 

[shymagnolia]

so I got into grad school today with my shitty 2.8 gpa and the moral of the story is reblog those good luck posts for the love of god

[shymagnolia]

okay so i just got my dream job??? a week after applying to it?? and now i’m thinking….maybe this is the good luck post

[she-is-tim]

DID HE REALLY JUST WENT FOR IT AND KISSED HIS WOUND??? DID HE REALLY HAD TO DO THAT??? 

TANG YI, I NEED MY HEART TO KEEP FUNCTIONING

DON’T DO THIS TO ME 

*screams*

[veron104]

He’s the king of being extra

[lallemxnt]

tang yi treats shao fei the way the boi deserves to be treated. i mean, he is so gentle with him and shit??? eye-

[lallemxnt]

funny how maxence can spell eliott right at the first try whilst axel has to try a dozen times to get it right jskjsksjs