la mer fait mal

this, the quietude of origins | words, and the endless sea

[lamerfaitmal]

I feel so sensitive tonight. Everything dwells in me.

Do you, also?

[lamerfaitmal]

I've had time to get new perspectives in things. Sometimes you have to remove everything negative in your life, and I think that means this too. I am holding on to nothing.

[sunsounds]

“And isn’t it by forgetting the first waters that you achieve immersion in your abysses—”

— Luce Irigaray, in Marine Lover of Friedrich Nietzsche (via poeticque)

[tordenvejr]

Metamorphosis happens through aching, go towards it with open arms.

[objetpetita]

When Osip Mandelstam wrote: “Yet to die. Unalone still.”

[lacan-psychoananalysisaspraxis]

What the subject desires is not the object as such (sex, money, gadgets, art, sports etc.), but the objet a, the element in the object that the subject ‘believes’ to satisfy its desire. Objet a is always more than any concrete object itself.

Thus, language brings with it the world of meaning and alienates the subject from its real being. Desire is formed in the discourse of the Other. Objet petit a, the object-cause of desire, emerges when the child is separated from the mother, and thus the objet a can be understood as a remainder of the illusion of the full jouissance. By attaching itself to objet a, the subject attaches itself to the illusion of one’s coherence. What the subject desires is not the object as such (sex, money, gadgets, art, sports etc.), but the objet a, the element in the object that the subject ‘believes’ to satisfy its desire. Objet a is always more than any concrete object itself. Desire as such has no substantial consistency. Thus, objet a links the body to the symbolic. Desire and the subject are the results of language, and if the primary split would be overcome, that would be the end of desire and the subject.

Jaana Pirskanen - The Other and the Real. How Does Judith Butler’s Theorizing of the Subject and Contingency Differ from the New Lacanian Thought?. 2008.

[hannahmillustrations]

New Painting

Magnolia Queen

[lamerfaitmal]

Last night was really nice. I got to connect with someone on a real intellectual, life understanding level. I have been so fucked up and withdrawn from the world over the last few years due to other circumstances that I had truly given up hope on, well life-so many things. I can't say I have that hope again, but its experiences like this that give me a glimmer, a small fragment of what hope could be like once again. And maybe happiness.There are people out there I can connect with. I am not alone. I just need to find them.

[jazbaaati]

Clarice Lispector, Água Viva.

[ephemeral-ghosts]

[weltenwellen]

“I have lost myself in the sea many times. Ignorant of the water I go seeking a death full of light to consume me.”

— Federico García Lorca, from “Gacela of the Flight”

[lamerfaitmal]

Tonight I'm actually okay. I got in the car with a stranger who made me feel seen.

[autumnalsonata-deactivated20190]

“Sometimes I feel the urge to cry, but the sea replaces it.”

— Jose Gorostiza, from The Collected Poems: “Sketches of a Port”

[lamerfaitmal]

my heart is full with the days we never had

[memoryslandscape-deactivated202]

“Like a river, I can live between the shiver and the skin that holds my shadow.”

— Malachi Black, from “Lucid Interval,” The American Poetry Review (vol. 47, no. 6, November/December 2018)

[theroseinthedarkness]

My goodness, did you see her hem? Six inches deep in mud. She looked positively medieval.

[lamerfaitmal]

M O O D

[lamerfaitmal]

god I just really love being gay