1st March psychotic episode
Is me or am I starting to remember things I have said and done in the psychotic episode. So I spoke to my psych doctor and he said it’s very normal to remember things like that to piece the puzzles of the jigsaw.
I keep remembering things like calling my iPhone a “frack”
Something about ethlings on something
I believed I cracked the whole breaking bad and then next minute I remember in my mind being chased by a load of people wanting my family to hurt someone and I even remembered road where it was.
I kept seeing massive explosions happening all over the hospital.
Even though they wasn’t real
Most of it came out gibberish, then I kept referring to the chokey in Matilda.
I also believed that I had hurt my dog as he got seriously a few nights before it happened
I was saying a million things all at once completely out of reality and in a completely different world.
Then I believed that I was somehow linked to my parents thoughts and that everything was being traced.
Sometimes I wonder if it’s ever going to and sometimes my mind re-lives the experience like a flashback.
Did I take anything? The answer is no
I also remember wanting to run away as far I could like Forrest Gump and just keep on running.
Was I extremely tired from having no sleep in four days, being energetic one minute to being really depressed the next?
My delusions were horrible the whole experience was horrible I never wanna experience that god awful thing again.
Now I am fighting back hard and strong
But one thing it did actually prove my parents that I don’t just sit there feel sad sorry for myself, cry and get a little upset and my mental health is real. I ain’t making this up.
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