some infinities are bigger

Hey, I'm Landon St. James. Contrary to popular belief, my family isn't all drama all the time, so I like to say I'm not that dramatic after all. I'm 20, a brother, friend, scientist, photographer, and comedian all rolled into one.  Welcome to a glimpse in...

[sophiaandersonnn]

Oh, the things dying kids say to you. 

[landon-st-james]

Something along the lines of... death is the next greatest adventure?

Dumbledore was a smart man. 

[landon-st-james]

Um, I can’t help thinking I forgot something...

I went to the doctor, I picked up my pills, I bought more diapers and coffee...But I’m almost positive I forgot something.

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

Oh, I’m jealous, but then again, that’s what I’m about to go do too, enjoy my pillow and blankets.

I’m charming, what can I say?  Plus, I had that year, Junior Year, where I was sick and pitiful so meh, it was easier for gym teachers to feel sorry for me.  Aww, talents are meant to be embraced, unless you grow out of that passion, but then there must be a new pasion around the corner then. 

[landon-st-james]

Poor dad!  I’m sure he had his scares before we kids learned semi-how to cook. 

But I am trained in the art of point - aim- and shoot.  Always a silver lining.  So how are you Mom?

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

Maybe, possibly, he definitely has two dynamic personalities of parents and family to inherit traits from.  It could be worse, he could take after Santana, then he’d be like a mini assassin at a young age. 

True, at least we have two strong family systems to allow us to have a proper date night here and there.  Oh, look at this little man!! Gassy is right, lol - hey it’s alright.  That just means you’re cooking up some surprise for us later.  I wonder which one of us will be blessed with that...

And thanks babe, I am feeling better already.

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

On one hand, it’s a handful of responsibility, on the other, it’s such rewarding company.  I’m happy, no regrets whatsoever.

Your secret, well our secret, is safe.  Worry not.  So, you want to come over, or shall I come to you?  I could always leave a note and text so she doesn’t worry. 

[landon-st-james]

The first time out in a long time...

[landon-st-james]

Landon nodded and then tilted his head to the side when he noticed a slight emotional hint to his mom’s demeanor.  He reached across and then squeezed her hand with a reassuring smile.  “I know it’s been a crazy year.  But what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger.  So now... I should probably be as strong as Iron Man.  But hey, baby steps.  Besides, there’s the two little guys.  By the way, if you and dad get entirely bored, Mia and I have two minions that could use supervision from time-to-time”. 

He did like to hear about the family.  He flashed a soft smile.  “I need to see Brooke, and visit the little guy.  I mean, she hasn’t even met Harper.  I need to get Noland and Harper there so both can meet their cousins.”  When he heard the news about his dad and grandparents, he raised his eyebrow.  “I - um need to reach out to dad too.  I mean, you know I’m not the biggest fan of Granddad, but - I know that Dad is going through a lot.  Let me know, I could maybe make a trip with him up there if he needs the moral support.”  He reached for more food.  “And um - you how have you been?” 

[landon-st-james]

@landon-st-james But the childhood memories are nothing without running to the kitchen to use the fire extinguisher. 

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

Sleeping all weekend?  Wow, that sounds awesome.  A good pillow, good blankets, nice!

I remember baseball.  I think the gym coach offered me the A to run laps or look like I was doing something athletic that didn’t involve me swinging a wooden bat that easily slipped out of my clumsy hands.  I felt bad for the poor kid I hit too.  Clearly you’ve got a talent there. 

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

No, it’s not convenient.  But if I let myself dwell on the down side, well, I personally think I’d be one shitty husband and dad.  Uplifting thoughts today means there’s more plans for tomorrow. 

Just because I’m unnaturally happy doesn’t mean the rest of the world must be.  I mean it should, but ... As optimistic as I am, I’m also pretty damn realistic.  Anything I can do?  Offer an ear to talk to, shoulder to lean on?  Share in the wonders of alternative medicinal herbal nirvana that your sister introduced me to?  It comes in edible, tea, and smoked form. 

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

Aww, he’s a poor, gassy little guy, maybe?  Or your boob juice is just so good that he’s overeating.  Hm, well if you want, I’ll hang on to him for a bit.  Maybe if I keep busy and don’t lay around to lament, my body will decide to stop revolting. 

Hm, give me a couple hours to get my body to behave.  But question, we have condoms, right?  My mom literally threatened to castrate me if I knock you up again within the next ohhh 5 years or so?

Ginger ale works great. 

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

Great minds think alike!  Then again, I’m stubborn.  I think I rather ram a thumbtack under my nail than hurl. 

Other than take that bra off slowly, because damn, Harper’s hogging up all the good stuff?  Just kidding.  Um, just grab me any cold fizzy drink in the fridge?  If I give it a few, maybe my stomach will agree with my brain and give it up already. 

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

Today, a bit, yeah.  But it could be a lot worse. 

How about you?  A better day, I trust?

[landon-st-james]

Forecast for today...

[landon-st-james]

Yeah, it is.  Though thankfully I’m strong-willed, and realized if I hold my head really still, the world doesn’t spin so much.  The down side is this horrible crick in my neck.

How about you?  I imagine a much better day on your end?

[landon-st-james]

Homebound boredom

[landon-st-james]

Life is short, so I just pack adventures into a short span of time.  You know, take your time.  If you ever want to talk, well, you know, I’m home most of the time these days.  I’ve missed you, baby bro!

[landon-st-james]

@landon-st-james: what can I say?  Your therapy is retail, and mine is food.

[landon-st-james]

The first time out in a long time...

[landon-st-james]

Landon sighed.  “But then again, I was so good before um, everything that happened.”  It was crazy putting it in words.  One year in and out of the hospital, two failed rounds of chemo and radiation, three surgeries, two near-death experiences, one stroke.  To think, half of Tiny Tim remained in there, as his body hadn’t been strong enough to withstand another surgery to that degree.  Just now, in a matter of weeks, he’d start the chemo and radiation all over again. Maybe, if he were lucky, Tiny Tim might shrink down to the point that the surgery would be a minor blip.  That was the goal.  What more, in that crazy year, Landon had gotten married and become a father two times over. 

But then again, this was the present, and there was a bright future ahead.  Landon grinned.  “I feel great, a little stronger every day. I mean, I feel like I could maybe do the go-ahead with starting that deferred acceptance at Colombia Med in the fall.  But... I want to make sure things are peaceful and calm with Mia and the boys.”  He winced as his egg roll was a bit hot and took to the knife and fork to slice it in half to let out steam before he looked up.  “Um, how are you?  Dad?  Everyone else?  Have you seen Brooke since the new baby?  I feel so out of the loop.”