Dragons? Dragons.

Lapidarist #152873

[lapidarist-fr]

been gone for a few months, please fill me in on any drama i missed

[lapidarist-fr]

anyone else get pinged by the person who doesn’t want to spend money on familiars but didn’t actually offer anything else for them?

[berryxez]

I did, and I was really confused by the whole “I’ll give you stuff, but not tell you what stuff that is” aspect of it. I felt maybe about it depending on what stuff they did end up offering, but the longer I sit with it, I think I’m going to say no.

[lapidarist-fr]

Yeah, I mean, if they had a list of stuff to pick from it might have been better? IDK like I’m not mad but I’m also way too lazy for that, which is why it’s on the AH in the first place. It was just kinda confusing

[lapidarist-fr]

anyone else get pinged by the person who doesn’t want to spend money on familiars but didn’t actually offer anything else for them?

[prairieblooms-deactivated201804]

this is lazlo, he’s got the snuffles and is really mad that nobody is patting him. he meowed his lil voice hoarse.

[trashcanaurin-deactivated201506]

Oh my god that meow

[unclefather]

he needs attention now

[dewgongo]

why does this cat sound like donald duck

[lapidarist-fr]

oh i always hate when kitties in the shelter get URIs cause they get so sad without pats

[lapidarist-fr]

I’m pretty sure I just got my first professional library job so as celebration I did a little something for myself.

….I have 50t now. Worth it.

[flightlessfalling]

YAAAAAAAS congrats!!!

[clanwillowbrook-fr]

Wooo wooooo congrazzles!

[lapidarist-fr]

Ahhh! Thank you, I’m v excited

[lapidarist-fr]

I’m pretty sure I just got my first professional library job so as celebration I did a little something for myself.

….I have 50t now. Worth it.

[flightlessfalling]

YAAAAAAAS congrats!!!

[sarenarteriusfr]

Congratulations!

[lapidarist-fr]

Thank you!!!!

[lapidarist-fr]

I’m pretty sure I just got my first professional library job so as celebration I did a little something for myself.

....I have 50t now. Worth it.

[thatadhdfeel]

“WOW IM SO GLAD MY DOCTOR TOLD ME ABOUT THIS” SAID NONE OF US EVER

[adhd-is]

I’d never heard of this but this is like my entire life.

Because it’s not just fear of rejection or feeling inadequate or disappointed in yourself.

It is an intense, rushing panic, or a fast downward spiral of depression, where I can go from “Today is great, I’m doing a great job!” to “I’m stupid, she hates me, why did I say that, I’m going to just kill myself” in literally seconds. Especially important is that it does not need to even be real rejection–perceived rejection (and related cognitive distortions) feel exactly the same.

This here? Is why I will cry my eyes out when some random person I’m talking to online doesn’t message me for a day, because I feel rejected. Why being told I didn’t clean something right at work makes me go home feeling like I’m going to be fired the next day. Why I procrastinate on projects or confrontation, because the very idea of possibly being rejected is terrifying, because I unconsciously associate it with a feeling comparable to flying off a roller-coaster.

[aprillikesthings]

What’s really weird about this for me, is trying to separate it from two very distinct realities, namely:

1. I was frequently ostracized and teased through childhood and into my high school years (kids are mean and my social skills were abysmal)

2. My dad had anger problems and was emotionally and physically abusive, which has left me with a fear of confrontation and provoking any kind of anger, in part because my reaction to people (especially men) being angry at me is often freezing up/mild disassociation. 

I had a relatively minor thing happen recently and it’s put me in a several-day funk of feeling worthless and awful, with intrusive thoughts and the whole shebang, and I know I’m reacting all out of proportion, but I genuinely cannot tell if it’s RSD or because of shit I grew up with. 

[clove-pinks]

Professionally diagnosed with ADHD in 2004. I have never heard of RSD but it is mind blowing to me. This is major; this is huge. This explains so, so much.

[lapidarist-fr]

once during shadow dom I got a PM from one of the raffle runners or something like that but the title of the PM was just GGGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

and then there was an immediate one after that explaining that it just autofilled by mistake and that’s still the best thing that’s ever happened to me on this shitty dragon site

[diveremblem-deactivated20191105]

Daryl Hannah whistling Twisted Nerve is so sinister

I’m gay for that entire scene

[lapidarist-fr]

why are gems so expensive right now ugh

[lapidarist-fr]

did there ever emerge a new drama blog winner?

[lapidarist-fr]

darkenedtones replied to your post “I’m so into my dragons RN”

I'm loving the two pieces of apparel too

Oh my gosh, I didn’t even play with those until just a second ago and AHHHH

Best april fools

[lapidarist-fr]

I’m so into my dragons RN

[lapidarist-fr]

I’ll pay you to come up with characters for my dragons and draw them. 

[lapidarist-fr]

This is a real call for art also

[lapidarist-fr]

I’ll pay you to come up with characters for my dragons and draw them. 

[lapidarist-fr]

I HAVE GOTTEN THREE DEEPREALM HUNTERS AND ZERO SPINEY WHALES WTF FR