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soggy levail summer
(quick links)
notes on levail
notes on myself
levail's stat page
thread with levail!
anniversary prompts! in my mouth! now!
here are a few that levail would like!
+sword: yeah, levail was that kid who always wanted to play knights... of course, he was also kind of the hall-monitor kid who got really serious about making sure the other kids were only pretending to hit each other with their sticks. give this man a break. let him return to his eight-year-old persona. let him frolic--even if it's a little embarrassing at first (and might dredge up some tough emotions in the end).
+flying: in his adult life, levail's entire job description could be summed up by 'stick 'em with the pointy end.' but now, with this sudden surplus of pigeon chicks... levail is being called upon to care for something. probably the most profound experience he's ever had while being shit on by a bird. join him in this.
+lance: canoe jousting is against the monastery's rules and levail will not be taking part.
...unless.
convince this, as i say, hall monitor, to let loose, have a little fun, and kick absolute ass at this very stupid pursuit. he's jousted before and he's awesome at it. let him show off.
the only tiny little issue is he's never once been in a boat.
hell is empty and all the horses are here
pegapony nightmare with fiora!!
Green though she’d seen him to be, he, too, is eager — perhaps over so, because he doesn’t wait for instruction, simply dives into the fray, perhaps shaky and unsure, but bold enough to buckle and scramble beneath the pegasus. She watches from her spot before Miriam, interested to see how far he gets on his own, and how long it is before he’s realized the bit of woolen stitch left unattended in a heap on the ground. She has to stop herself from laughing again when he does notice.
“Indeed...”
She decides she’ll help him — she unbuckles Miriam herself, hauls the saddle off the sweet, still creature. “Sir Levail... do you tend to do things the hard way? I said I’d instruct you, did I not? You could have waited for me to do so... but you dove right in.”
She holds the saddle on one shoulder, years of muscle easily balancing the thing there atop her armor, smile soft even with her words.
“I have to say that I’m impressed, though... especially from someone who hasn’t worked with pegasi or horses before.” It’s a guess, but — it’s a very good one, based on his... everything.
She is impressed! It buoys him, a moment--but impressed with what? All he has shown her is mindless bravado, a willingness to finish the task before him without really considering it.
That's... what got him into this fine mess. Isn't it?
Isn't that Levail's whole life?
"Doing things the hard way?" he says, voice aflutter with anxious laughter. "Perhaps."
His trembling hand darts for the saddle-blanket; he smooths it over Miriam's concave sway-back. Experimentally, and with quite some trepidation, he pats her gently on the withers.
A second passes. The dread beast whuffs, and shifts her weight, and does not kill him. Progress?
"I did not want to impose," says Levail, apologetic. "Perhaps I've become more of a pain in the process."
A smile, steeped in self-deprecation. "Your forbearance is admirable, Dame Fiora."
Levail reaches for the saddle. "Let me take that; it must be quite heavy."
of silver and safety
⤷ anamorphosis: team scepter first interlude ( the decision )
Leonie fights with the indignation that his shock had yet to allow him, beating him to the punch. It doesn't surprise him, for she has been spirited in the brief time he has worked alongside her. It's a relief in some ways, to at last hear someone grow upset, but at the same time, despite his shock, a part of Leif knows that if what Azama is saying is true, there's little they can do about it.
For all one may be in horror, blindsided so early, could they really afford to not accept the bitterness and move on with that information turning them more cautious? Could Leif afford to shackle himself with shock and upset?
(He knows that answer already, bitter as it may be.)
“ I only just met with some people before we all came here, but I was told I've been working for this side for a long while. I'm established, but I don't know how... ” Leif musters the will to speak up again at last to Nel's question. “ But those without connections in this world can be useful too. They'd better be able to ask questions without looking odd for it, wouldn't they? ”
It's a boon Leonie has that he lacks. It's what he's thought ever since running into the person who scaled the sky like it was nothing.
“ I don't think we should be getting too deep into this conflict, but I think it's worth it to try having some of us on both sides. Our target could be on either side. We need to be prepared to reach anywhere we can. ”
Our allegiance should be to those that we came in with. An easy thing to forget in this strangeness, this severity.
Levail casts a guilty glance toward Sonya. This fractured conversation has hobbled on elsewhere; there is little opportunity to say...
But still. He must make this right, if such a thing is still possible.
Steeling himself, Levail speaks. "I have no information to offer," he confesses. "But I am in agreement that we are our only allies here."
He meets Sonya's eye, unwavering. "And to that end, I must offer an apology. I sought only to rescue Alice, and had I any knowledge that my--my supposed ally was going to cause such a catastrophe I would not have stood for it."
He sighs. Even like this, wholeheartedly given, the apology feels thin.
"As things stand, I parted company with him soon after. I'll not take up arms for a cause I know nothing of, particularly not if these are their methods."
"I think it right only to protect my compatriots. I have failed in that, Sonya, and I beg your forgiveness."
To ensure the safety of the Monastery's people. To protect the little child. That's all.
There's nothing else for which he'd raise his arms. Not anymore.
"As for the matter of our target... I will not stand to execute a prisoner without knowledge of their crime. Can we truly discuss the pursuit of our target before we have this information?"
reflected captive, refracted captor
anamorphosis 2025 - team specter week 1
Drat. And here Sonya was prepared to deal with the self-guilt of leaving behind someone who looked to be on her side. A lack of self-guilt, mind you. Everything gets more complicated when an innocent child's emotions get thrown into the mix.
"...You do realize she sees you as nothing more than prisoner. Remember?" the mage starts to retort, but is unable to fully down Alice's arguments.
These noble girls, with heart of gold. They really are all cut from the same cloth, aren't they?
This kid is fortunate she was left with a chaperone used to these stubborn acts.
"Keeping the peace, aren't you?" Sonya repeats the gaudy painting's logo. "Fine. Maybe if you beg enough, they can tug at your chains or whatever."
With a small pout on her face, the lady gives a small twirl, her cape hovering through the dirty air, until facing back from whence they were about to escape from. The exaggerated pout soon leaves her face upon recogizing multiple figures in the distance.
Instinctively, she readjusts her hand to interlock with Alice's.
Sonya keeps hold of Alice, backing away with intent to escape.
Alice follows along with Sonya.
"alice!!" the orange-haired man calls again, seeing sonya hitting hard reverse. stopping for a fraction of a second to take aim, a massive blast resounds from the weapon in his hands — like levail had experienced earlier, loud enough to make nearby foundations vibrate. a chain reaction happens: a stack of large metal drums some couple-dozen meters beyond sonya and alice explodes violently, bursting into flame as they topple loudly into the street: clanging rolling, barrels of fire and spilling some kind of liquid across their path. a noxious, nauseating stench fills the air. "we have to stop them—" he chokes out to levail between coughs. Wynn screams loudly again, gasping and coughing, but doesn't stop running after sonya and alice. her pitch grows more panicked, even desperate. "wait! wait for me! guys—!!"
Levail lowers his weapon. A knight is not a hunter; he shan't attack a retreating enemy. He spares one last stunned glance to his strange ally, gasps one last lungful of turbid, smoky air. "Alice!" he roars, voice hoarse and searching--and then lunges, reaching wildly for the hostage.
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scepter more like the spectre
Anamorphosis Scepter - Week 1, Sephiran + Levail
Again- that mysterious wrongdoing of his. Mysterious, ironically, in that he knows not if the mirror knows his past, or simply that it knew, no matter the place, he would have committed some sin. The thought is not comforting.
Is he guilty, if he doesn’t know what he is being accused of? Sephiran supposes so, though his expression remains unreadable. The memory of the unknown woman’s blood feels sticky upon his hands, a reminder of what he was unable to do. "... I will help you get Alice back. I cannot promise much more."
"..." it almost looks like he's waiting for something. when it doesn't come, his posture relaxes a degree, though his tone still doesn't fully sound trusting. "okay. that better be true." he bends down to the deceased woman again and hurriedly unbelts the metal pack holstered around her leg; it takes just a few seconds for him to reattach it to his own, alongside another one he also has.
My word only has so much weight, Sephiran thinks.
"we don't have the luxury of worrying about that right now," the voice from earlier says to all of them again as the young man does all this, seemingly in response to his suspicions. "the people with alice are on the move. i don't think they're far from you."
Levail nods, setting off- Sephiran wonders if the man knows who this Alice is, or if he were simply comfortable following orders. And- here he tilts his head, spending a moment to study the orange haired man again, before turning to follow Levail.
the trio continue deeper into the city. as they go, their surroundings look worse and worse. ahead, the window-front of a building has been blown out, glass littering the entire street. smoke is pouring out from the interior. past that, a tall, wide building that goes up for many stories, set back from the street a little ways. the young man they're with would continue past all of these without pause. sephiran feels an inexplicable pull toward the second building.
The distrust is mutual- Sephiran hadn’t forgotten the fact that he was here to kill a prisoner, no matter who that prisoner may be. Though perhaps his instincts were not always correct- he follows the pull; wandering off towards the second building, silently.
here, he steps past what seems like some sort of property gate left swinging open. beyond it are the grounds of some nicely-kept area. at least, it would be nice if it wasn't littered with debris here and there. dust and shallow rubble, potted trees overturned. there's a small black structure that houses a few... odd contraptions, like a tangle of slender metal pipes with wheels, beneath it. but there's a good amount of greenery here, and overall the place doesn't seem to have seen too much direct impact from whatever had befallen this city yet. the large building looms ahead; a walkway forward past everything else leads straight to its entrance.
"Argent guys just ahead," The voice with no source speaks again. Sephiran pauses, listening for more, but nothing else comes. With a sigh, he continues down the large walkway alone.
levail sees the young man pull out one of the two metal things strapped to him as he keeps moving; it's large, requiring both hands on it, one gripping onto a handle and the other supporting its body. "we're punching through."
Levail fumbles for his own great metal thing. He hefts it up, holds it like the stranger does.
He is unsure of its purpose, but there is a comfort in its weight--heavy enough for a cudgel.
Punching through. Right--it is a strategy that he can get behind. Danger is nothing, to a knight under orders. He steels himself, and presses onward.
in another half-block, the "guys just ahead" mentioned by the voice come into view, two of them standing beside a large, dark metal contraption. when they hear levail and the young man approaching at a run, they both start shouting and turning to face them.
Levail stutters to a stop, brandishing his weapon as though he knows well how to use it. His wrist only shakes a little.
In his periphery, he sees the vague shape of his ally. He thinks of Alice, and of the woman who died.
"Halt!" he cries, and lets the sound ricochet from the walls of broken buildings. "Identify yourselves!"
as soon as levail thinks actively about using the weapon in his hand, he finds that, inexplicably, like one knows how to breathe or blink, he does. he must aim and shoot by pulling the trigger. he's been doing this for many, many years. unlike levail, the young man doesn't stop, instead charging forward to barrel through. "what are you doing? just go!" pivoting on his heel halfway in the thick of them both who haven't had a chance to react yet, he aims the huge thing in his hands at the nearest of them, still signaling levail. "go! go!" a massive blast makes the entire surrounding shudder, street and buildings and the metal contraption they're next to. it's hard to see anything in the enormous cloud of dust that envelops the three, though levail can can hear two loud bangs and hears someone grunt amidst the shouting. several more bangs ring off in the next two seconds, some much heavier than others, making everything around levail tremor again and again. everything happens quickly. someone is bent over, staggering. two others closer by are standing. it's hard to make out who is who.
Like the greenest of squire-boys, Levail recoils at the sound. It is harsh and hot and horrible, a thousand times worse than the roaring of magic.
But he has been that squire-boy, before, and he's learned well not to quail.
Levail howls, rushing forward into the breach. His eyes scan the battlefield wildly, searching for his comrade.
The weapon is still clutched tight in his two hands, but he must not--he will not fire until he's certain who he's aiming for.
the dust and debris is dense, but there— peach-orange hair above a strong-looking outline! which means the other two must be...!
Levail fires on the other silhouette still standing.
levail's shot seems to go wide, and in return he's struck by some unseen force that pushes him back off balance a bit, compressing lungs and bone jarringly. 1.5 damage
"damn it, go!" levail feels himself grabbed roughly and shoved forward to the other side and the young man moves to follow after after him, still turned to body-block him from the others, weapon trained behind. "zacc said she's close, remember?" more ear-ringing blasts, exchanging fire.
Mind stuttering, body still grasping at breath, Levail staggers sidewise. He marshals himself. "I'll not leave you," he barks. Turns, then, and levels his weapon at the still-standing figure. With a snarl, he fires.
levail's shot pierces something and he sees the body jerk through the dust before he feels that painful compression again, starting to weaken the strength in his arms. (1.5 damage) then, something aiming at him through the fog, but levail's jostled out of the way as it fires. another massive boom, then he's pushed again firmly. "go. we're done. go." he breaks into a jog too, heading out the other side of the dust cloud, casting glances over his shoulder.
Levail recoils at the blast, but bolts forward after the orange-haired man.
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Anamorphosis Scepter - Week 1, Sephiran + Levail
Their companion looks at Levail, his expression some mixture of surprise and bewilderment, which fades into something almost akin to gratitude. It doesn’t last long, however, when a yell shatters the moment, causing the man to run ahead. “Shit.”
the three don't have to go far. a block ahead, in a gap sitting between two small buildings: odor strikes them first, the sharp, rotting smell of refuse. a large, covered metal crate, overturned, its stinking contents spilling into the street. next to it, a big, white metal contraption, next to which a woman is slumped face-down on the ground. beneath the light of something that looks like a lantern post but giving off light without a lantern, sparking intermittently in a shower of embers, they can see a pool of ruddy silverish-red beneath her and growing.
It’s not a pleasant sight, but nothing he hasn’t seen before. Where once Sephiran had hesitated, gaining perspective on his surroundings, he doesn't now, moving quickly to the side of the fallen woman in a kneel. The worst had not yet come to pass- her back is barely rising and falling; still alive, but barely. Laying like this, her injuries remain hidden, but the growing pool of strange blood tells him what he needs about her state.
"Hey. Hey." The stranger crouches down beside him, gingerly taking the woman by the shoulders, trying to roll her over. He doesn't get more than budging her slightly before she groans, raspy, the awful sound of someone in excruciating pain, which causes him to still and tighten. "... Shit. Can you hear me?"
She’s wearing the same uniform as we are, Sephiran notes, but it feels out of place. At the moment, she is simply someone injured. Pursing his lips- a reaction to the sound, but more so the delay, "You still need to flip her over if we want to stop the bleeding."
A white fabric passes before his eyes- Levail had taken off his coat. "F-for the bleeding."
"Yeah. sorry 'bout this." At the same time, the stranger flips over the woman in one motion.
aside from another, weaker, rattling groan, she doesn't make much protest. now on her back, the view is more gruesome. the silvery blood flows from a number of holes across her torso and trickles from her mouth, and a part of her waist is oddly bent. one of her arms slumps also in a gelatinous way, suggesting breakage. her eyes are fogged over and unfocused, but she still manages to look up at them. "... ... a... ahea... there... watch ou..."
A clear warning, but with her state, Sephiran chooses not to respond, instead taking the coat with a nod, his expression grim. With the number of her wounds, and the blood that she had already lost- even with proper supplies, he could not guarantee her life, much less with only a coat. Still, he attempts to use the white fabric in an approximation of a bandage, attempting to staunch the flow of blood.
Levail cringes impotently at the sight.
the blood quickly soaks into levail's coat, staining into the fine, sleek fabric. sephiran's best efforts manages to stem some of the bleeding, but there's too many places it's coming from for two hands to stop all of it. the color's already mostly drained from her face as is. there's probably only a few seconds left before she fades.
"I'm sorry," says Sephiran. It's more of a whisper, not truly directed at her, though he continues trying to staunch the blood.
Levail collapses to his knees, clutching wildly at the dying woman's hand. Nobody should die without a hand to hold. "I'm with you," he says. Firmly. With care.
the young man just looks grim, an expression of painful anger on his face as he stares at the woman. as levail grabs her hand, the woman's eyes drag uncertainly over to him. there seems to be a flicker of recognition, and her broken chest heaves as she gasps violently, hand forcibly tightening in his — the beginning of death throes, both of them know it. "you... c... n help her... gen... ge... ne... v...." a last rattle, a last trickle of blood from the corner of her mouth, and her eyes lose their light.
Levail holds her tightly until her pulse has gone. He lays her hand gently on the hard, bloodstained earth. He wishes he could pray. He wishes he could close her eyes, and carry her to.... Where? Safety? Yes, he tells himself, resolved. She still needs it. He sets his jaw, and rises. Lays one hand on the strange man's shoulder--and then lets it fall away. Levail cannot know what this woman meant to him. He only knows that he is under orders, that a brave cause lies before him. "We will return," he swears. But now, there is Alice. There is, perhaps, Genevieve.
The moment her chest stops moving, Sephiran takes his hands off the coat, standing without fanfare; turning away from her corpse before it grows cold. Absentmindedly, he wipes his hands on the edge of his own attire. "She said that there is something up ahead- we'd best not rush." Or else we'll end up like her, goes unsaid.
Callous, Levail thinks--and then chastens himself. In memory of Zelgius; his highest love and loyalty. Surely, Sephiran is possessed of virtue that he knows nothing of. "Dulce et decorum est," he murmurs, though to himself, or to Sephiran, or to the woman, he does not know.
he gets to his feet with a similar lack of fanfare as sephiran, but turns to look at levail with an unreadable expression. "..." for a second, it looks like he's going to say something, then shakes his head as if to himself and sighs, looking further ahead. "the people who left her like this, probably." without warning, he turns to look at sephiran and takes a strong step closer — not threatening, but firm. "i need to know, sephiran. are you really with us today, or not."
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Anamorphosis Scepter - Week 1, Sephiran + Levail
Stepping forward into the mirror is a mocking reminder of the last time he had agreed to aid the monastery in such a large capacity, down to the sounds of war that grace his surroundings. Dressed differently- and alone with only one member of his original party, Levail, his mind supplies, Sephiran supposes the only blessing is that they have started a distance from the chaos.
There isn’t much time to gather his surroundings, however, a young man unlike any he remembered from those sent from the monastery speaking to them with a confidence that Sephiran could only assume was due to some false recognition, just as last time.
“Let’s hurry up and get in there,” He jerks his head towards the south, where the smoke rises in the distance. “Top priority: get Alice back no matter what. Then if we're still standing, we kick down the door of Argent's base. They're getting way too cocky.”
Unfortunately, the recognition isn’t mutual.
"Wait," Sephiran calls- there is a role he has to play here, he knows, but this is far too little information for him to work with. Taking a few steps forward, to delay, and to come up with what to say next, "Do you even know where she is?"
The bright-haired man pivots, giving him an impatient, irritated look. Briefly, Sephiran notes that he wears the same strange attire that he now found himself in, "If Zacc hasn't given us an eta yet, then no. She's just in there somewhere."
In response, a voice finds itself in his ear- if Sephiran jumps slightly, it is neither here nor there. It sounds laidback- almost bored. "Eta stands for 'estimated time of arrival’, you brickhead."
Then the first continues, uninterrupted. "Actually, if anyone here besides Zacc could find out, wouldn't it be you? Unless you lost that too."
Goddess… another assumption. Though… Fodlan’s spells were marked by a distinct lack of tomes, and this mirror was likely of Fodlan make. Magic was intuitive to him, in a manner of speaking, or at least the ancient magic that he could call upon normally. This power isn’t entirely his- or rather, it is not the same power he had entered with, greater, in a way that frightens him, though he doesn’t allow it to show. And similarly- there was something missing.
It’s a familiar feeling, even if it weren’t entirely true.
"... I have." Disguising his thoughts by only allowing a small frown to show, he schools his expression before briskly walking forward. "Let's go, then."
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Get Alice back. No matter what. The order slips like quicksilver into the recesses of Levail's mind; he will not question it. The rescue of a woman in peril is invariably noble. Whoever she is, on his honor, he will see her safe return. Whover Argent is, and whatever cocksure sin they have committed... this, Levail must question. It prickles at his hindbrain, twists in the depth of his belly. But if Alice is in danger, it can wait. Sephiran's words are measured. Levail has never heard them any other way. He thought, once, that this was a virtue. Here, the careful choice of words just slows them down. Levail jitters, digging his nails into the meat of his palm. Sephiran and the stranger start walking. Levail goes alongside them, and then ahead: long, certain strides. "We haven't time to waste!" he calls--and then looks over his shoulder to the stranger. "Do you know what danger she might face?"
"Yeah." He's quick to pick up the pace alongside Levail, jogging into the city. For a moment, his tone dips into bitter. "Not a one of us don't, I imagine."
Sephiran flinches but remains silent.
Levail's jaw goes vise-tight. His eyes narrow; he trains his focus on the battered path ahead. He understands: or at the very least, he knows the unknown. There is something he's meant to remember. Some journey he's meant to have been on, some life he's meant to have led. All of it culminates here. He spares a glance toward the stranger's harrowed face. "We will make this right," he says, like every sacred vow he's ever sworn. He hopes he can uphold it.
Shut up and dance
“One more? If you insist~” Over the drunken cries for an encore, the bard starts another upbeat song on his lute, and Laylea begins her performance.
It’s a good life, here in the town of Garreg Mach. Dancing at the local tavern on the weekends isn’t the best paying gig in the world, but it’s enough to get by - especially if the barkeep’s willing to give her any meals that were ‘messed up and had to be redone’. How did the place survive if the chef made so many mistakes?
She blows a kiss to the audience, before starting the flips section. It’s a demanding piece, she’ll need a slower dance after this, before taking a break. Once the song ends, she signals the plan to the bard.
“I’ll need a partner for this next one, any volunteers?” She scans the audience as she detaches the ribbons from her wrists. Someone that doesn’t look like they’d fall over, please.
Ah, that one will do. “How about you?” She asks, approaching the man. It’s more of a statement than a question, as she’s already grabbed him by the hand and is dragging him to the performance area before he can speak. “What’s your name, then? Don’t think I’ve seen you around here before.”
@last-true-knight
Levail had really, really only come for soup. Only soup, because he'd heard that this place serves it hot and cheap and--probably full of strange meat, but he's not in a position to ask questions at the moment.
Not about the soup--which was hot, and tasted surprisingly wholesome--and not about the entertainment.
He'd always felt guilty, looking at the girls who danced in Lekain's manor. Gilded wretches, they were, and the dancer here hasn't even got the cloth-of-gold.
Levail isn't certain whether that makes it better or worse. The dancer is skillful, at any rate, and doesn't look so miserably oppressed.
Uncertain, yes--but there is no time to suss it out because the dancer...!
She's abducted him, and dragged him out onto her stage like a princess being served before a dragon.
And all the audience--such a great number of people, looking so expectantly up at Levail, it reminds him of nothing but his worst days as a general.
He splutters. She's asked him his name.
"I am Levail," he mutters, half-dazed. "General--uh."
He colors, face and neck gone the shade of half-rotten strawberries.
"... Just Levail."
A tight smile. "I. I fear I would not make for the ideal dance partner."
this curse my whole life; won't let me shake the shadow
Under Zelkov's gaze, Levail crumples. There's something spell-bound about Levail's expression in the moment prior, as though he's wrapped by whatever force had just occupied Zelkov's time so capably just beforehand. Then, he cracks, and lets loose a sob, and apologizes.
For what? For ‘this’ being ‘new’.
Zelkov doesn't understand that. He barely understands the depths of emotion that had pulled Levail's inexperienced hand to the page. He is not a practiced poet, but he is passionate, and Zelkov's heart aches with all the lingering emotions that Levail had both written down, and those that he experiences now.
“Please, forgive me if I have trespassed,” Zelkov murmurs, as though his mere voice is now a weapon he wields. Were that he half as skilled. "I understand how in many cases… bearing one's art to the public is the same as bearing one's heart openly. I, too, know how difficult such an act can be.
“Do not misunderstand. I am greatly appreciative that you bore your heart to me. For the time I was reading, I inhabited a world of such strong and pure love as magical as any fantasy novel. For that, I thank you.”
In truth, Zelkov feels a toothless envy. He wishes his rotten, hollowed-out heart were capable of such emotive fervor. For a moment though, he felt it as though it were his own.
“You have nothing to apologize for, Levail,” he continues, trying on a softer smile. “I am the one who is invading your home and feelings so intimately.”
Pure.
It's a simple, solitary word. A small and fragile thing, to be cradled like eggshell in the palm of the hand.
Ceaselessly, since the dawn of his own memory, Levail has always chased it. Clawed and fought for it. Marched for it. Killed for it, committed cardinal sins to be pure.
He has never quite achieved it.
But here he is, now, with hot tears gleaming on his cheeks; here is Levail, and he's pure. Someone believes this.
And it is for--for what? For being only the thing that he is, for being Levail, for the little guiding light he never could stamp out.
And for loving. For loving Zelgius, his general, his last true knight. His albatross.
Zelkov soothes him with his voice, his tender smile. Levail can scarcely parse the words.
He breathes in, heaves a lungful of this brave new world. He does not wipe the tears from his eyes.
"No," sighs Levail--heavily, through wracking sobs. "Thank you. You've--you must know that this means everything to me."
hell is empty and all the horses are here
pegapony nightmare with fiora!!
The man, woven of shivering thread taut with anxiety, does as he’s told well, regardless of any greenness or unsureness. He offers the treat, bows to her as though she is his liege lady, and introduces himself silkily. She finds herself impressed.
... Even as sweet Miriam decides to teeth his hair.
She finds herself laughing, lightly — a soft noise behind fingerless gloves, eyes shut momentarily. She should really teach him how to redirect a pegasi’s teething, but the best way to teach is by showing, isn’t it? So she crosses the hay-laden stable and “ah-ah!”s at Miriam, pressing a hand against her face and clicking at her until she gets the idea and releases his hair. “Really, Miriam,” she says, much more conversationally, but still a few notches into the loving lilt, “he has enough to worry about already without you taking his head off.”
Huxley sighs from the hallway, very pointedly. Fiora glances over and can see his neck craning away, deliberate, as though pretending he’s not watching Fiora pay attention to another pegasus.
“It seems everyone’s in a contentious mood this morning,” she tells Levail, lightly, a little conspiratorially. The two humans, speaking among a barn full of pegasi. “It’s a pleasure to meet you, as well. I am Fiora, a pegasus knight from Ilia. I work with the Knights of Seiros, now.” She folds her right hand over her armor and gives him a small bow.
Soft sun rays from the open stable window frame her aquamarine hair, hung about her shoulders freely. A bird cries its morning song. “What do you think, Levail? Are we feeling brave enough to start attempting the tack together? I’ll keep Miriam steady and direct you on how to place it.”
Dame Fiora crosses the stable--straight-backed, like she might cross a battle line. Ably, she fends away the dread, marauding beast.
Levail returns her deft little bow. A dignified motion, somewhat dampened by the piteous flopping of Levail's wet hair.
He breathes tightly through the acerbic sting of his anxiety. Look at her, a vision of a knight-sister's grace... and look at Levail, sweating so thickly from the palms that the saddle nigh-slips in his hand.
"Y-yes," he says, because he must. Because knights do not back down, and because he has disgraced himself enough. He will get the saddle on this hell-born nag, and that will be that.
(He refuses to think about the riding part. He'll burn that bridge when he gets to it.)
"I'm ready," he tells her, quite breathless. He hefts the saddle in his hands, and hoists it over Miriam's drooping back. These slots are obviously for the wings, so they must...
Right. It makes a certain amount of sense, once he's forced himself to do it. All that's left now is to--to get the strap across the belly without getting kicked in the vitals.
He spares a glance for Dame Fiora, who is looking perfectly serene. Perfectly decorous and knightly.
Levail cannot foul this up again.
Bravely, he dives for the saddle-strap, shifting it under Miriam's belly as quick as the thrust of the spear. And then--buckles--and then--!
"There we have it," he says, strident.
It's only as he's reaching for the pommel that he sees it--blazes.
His face falls at terminal velocity, like a rider shaken from a skyborne pegasus.
His brazen soldier's voice goes weak.
"I've forgotten the saddle pad, haven't I?"
this curse my whole life; won't let me shake the shadow
How many times has Zelkov been in a place like this? The floor creaks underfoot, and he can hear a door slam from far away. This is a place where the working live; where characters thrive, where kindness clings not by choice but necessity. Zelkov knows these sorts of homes well, but it feels as though he's been in nothing but opulent wealth and faith that it feels familiar in a deeply nostalgic way.
If he digs any deeper, though, he'll just be reminded of the rotting core at the heart of those pleasant memories, so he tries to ignore it. After all, in mere moments he'll have one of the best distractions he could hope for.
Still, his normal stoic face returns as he follows Levail's lead.
He hesitates a moment before taking the seat obviously meant for him and graciously accepts Levail's offered folder before carefully opening it.
“I understand. My recent interest has been carving sculptures of those I meet, and before that it was reliefs of fish flying in clouds, and so on.”
He doesn't have the chance to read until he's finished speaking, and when he does he focuses fully on the page - giving himself over to the world written within the words.
The raven haired man makes an appearance, as promised. The yearning, the tragedy. There is only variety in the focus, he finds. One speaks of physique, another loyalty, and another still paints that loyalty in a more heartbreaking, vengeful light.
Zelkov loses himself in verse until he's read through the very last page, and then it's as though the world rushes to meet him - he slams into reality as though falling from a great height, and the romantic world of knights swaying knights crumbles away from his periphery.
“Marvelous,” he breathes. His eyes, shimmering still with the beautiful distraction, dance across Levail's face.
“Excuse me, I am searching for the right words.” There is usually this small transition period between focus and realism. They don't always feel so satisfying. “You are clearly deeply passionate. The love weeps off the page with each word.”
Levail clings to every word of Zelkov's musings--fish flying in clouds? he'd have never thought of it--and then, to every second of his silence. Levail knits and tangles his fingers, taut with anxiety, watching every flicker on Zelkov's face.
With every spilled drop of emotion, with every gentle shuffling of the pages, Levail wracks. He is carved open, his hopeless, wicked heart put on display.
(But it can't be wicked, can it? To love?)
(Not everything Levail's been taught is true.)
He reminds himself to breathe. He waits, worrying the odd-mended hem of his shirt, and is almost patient.
(Almost. That's what he's always been. Never quite enough.)
Marvelous, sighs Zelkov.
Again, Levail reminds himself to breathe. But this time, he can't do it. He simply cannot wrest a breath--Zelkov's praise, Zelkov's inimitable focus...
For the first time in his life, Levail is known.
His next breath, when he finds it, is a ragged sob. It bleeds and twists into the setting of his jaw, the clearing of his throat. He mustn't weep.
"I am sorry," he mumbles. "I..."
I love him.
I loved him.
This is the thing that I am.
"This is new to me."
this curse my whole life; won't let me shake the shadow
Through the duration of this conversation, Zelkov's gaze stares unintentional daggers at the poet before him. He is fascinated, and doubly so as the man trips over his words and hesitates. Zelkov read no such trepidation in the poem, aside from the inciting event leading to that tragic end, but the relationship between artist and art has always been an interesting affair to him.
He yearns for some one to scrutinize his own passions such as this, but as he does not deserve as much, he can simply enjoy the act of scrutinizing some one else.
How interesting. His yearning connected with the poem - this is an oft spoken of aspect to art that Zelkov seldom experiences. He is excited, too.
“Your invitation is most kind,” he replies. “I wholeheartedly accept.”
Zelkov's eyes flicker down to the burden in the other's arms. He's built like a knight, stands like a foot soldier, and has no problem with the weight of his groceries. Isn't it still polite to offer aid? Zelkov isn't sure. He determines it best to refrain, lest he be accused of hollow praise and thieving plans.
“My name is Zelkov. I am currently a professor at the Officer's Academy, though I teach combat, not art. It is a pleasure to meet you. Would you allow me to get the door for you?”
It is a cheap cliche to liken this encounter to a dream. An aged turn of phrase, the like of which mars Levail's poetry.
But in all honesty... it really does beggar belief. That such a person--a gem of a man--might exist, and that he might have happened on Levail's most intimate writings...
That he might like them, and wish to hear more; and that Levail might be leading him across the road to the boarding-house, where he will tell him of a love that's never dared to speak its name.
In Begnion, they'd have court-martialed him for less.
He cringes with the thought, and then again with the realization that he's meant to have been speaking.
"Z-Zelkov," he murmurs, tongue tracing the unfamiliar contours of the name. "A pleasure to meet you. I am Levail, and I'm... getting by."
He indicates, with his taut shoulder, the door of the boarding-house, and passes through with Zelkov's aid. Then down a hallway, to the left, and...
It is embarrassing, isn't it; the squalor Levail inhabits, that he overpays for. The dim and damp, and the wretched symphony of floorboards.
(But oughtn't he have pride? He has made his own way here.)
Levail smiles tightly. With a shuffle of groceries, he frees one hand and opens the shrieking door. At the very least, he can preserve this scrap of decorum.
"Welcome to my home," he says, "hah, such as it is."
There is only one chair, so Levail seats himself on the edge of the bed. Reaches underneath his pillow, produces a small folio.
"T-these are the rest," he mumbles, and tentatively offers them up. "Although I don't think you'll... find much variety in the subject matter."
Indeed, every last one treats of Zelgius: darling, dearest, dead.
this curse my whole life; won't let me shake the shadow
“Please, forgive me then,” Zelkov responds amiably. His mouth still holds no smile, but the fondness is still there. “I did not mean to intrude on anything personal, but the words caught my eye and I could not stop reading until I had finished.”
With the way the man clutches tight to his bread and cheese, it seems as though he’s already seen the sort of man Zelkov is. Hopefully the gesture of his poem extended, meant to be retrieved, is enough to allieviate any suspicions of thievery.
“I did enjoy it,” he confirms, “Though I would not consider myself well versed in poetry.”
The corner of his mouth pulls to one side, curious as to how his pun might be recieved, if it’s even percieved at all.
“No matter my thoughts on its structure or word choice, one thing is very clear. You certainly have a passion for the art, whether or not that was your intention. I could read your emotion clear on the page, and the sorrow the point of view character felt towards their spurned star-crossed love was palpable. It was nothing short of incredible!
“If you would allow me… I would be greatly interested in reading more.”
The stranger--eep!--has thoughts on Levail's word choice. As is his right, as would anybody half-literate, and still, still it puts a jack-knife twist in Levail's gut.
The black-velvet purr of the stranger's voice isn't helping matters, either. Levail once read a tale of a knot so intricate that it could never be unfurled. He thinks he's got one of those, just now, right below his ribcage.
And still, the stranger has offered him a smile--a little joke, even! Levail laughs, rather belatedly, when he finally parses the pun.
It tapers off into the unbecoming clicking of his throat, the maladroit absence of words, because this is not all that the stranger has offered.
Because--because this man has chanced upon the aperture of Levail's soul. He's seen the strange shape of it, and has sounded the depth of Levail's deepest misbegotten love.
And he said it was nothing short of incredible.
It is a thing beyond Levail's poetic imagination--that his love might be worthy of praise.
And even beyond this, by invoking the point-of-view character, the stranger has given Levail an out. Plausible deniability. No, this poem is not about me. Yes, I've made it all up--how clever am I?
But Levail--standing here, knock-kneed at the margin of the marketplace--Levail feels made new.
If there is an out, he will not take it.
"You... are too kind," he murmurs, absolutely breathless. "But if you--if you truly desire to read more of my work... I..."
He screws shut his eyes, and is brave for just one second.
"Certainly!"
His lopsided heart beats fast.
"Will you... come break bread with me?" He gestures, with his chin, to the groceries in his arms. "There's much more I could show you. If you really want."
hell is empty and all the horses are here
pegapony nightmare with fiora!!
Never in her life has Fiora flown beside a man atop a pegasus. She recalls, briefly, Tibarn’s chastising words to a young boy, aspiring to become a pegasus rider himself, and thus, knows there are things that are possible here that would be impossible — or, at least, frowned deeply upon — in Ilia.
But the anger that she feels blossoming in her chest has very little to do with him being a man.
“Do you mean to say this is your first time working with a pegasus, and this is how they sent you in here?”
The barely restrained fury is cold, the tumbling tundra of her homeland, frozen and smarting as it hits the air. Though the teeth of winter are primed to sink into something, she releases a breath instead, seeks for a warmth within her. He does not deserve her ire. It is not his fault, so far as she knows, that he is in this circumstance.
She wraps the strap of Huxley’s lead around a hook, though she needn’t, really, and unlatches the stable door to let herself in with the shivering stranger.
“Settle down, Miriam, sweetheart. He’s not here to hurt you, is he?” Her voice is now warm, honey-sweet, silk and gentle and pretty. It changes completely when she addresses the man again. One of her hands slips to her small pack, behind her, searching through the contents. “Put down the tack. Bow your head. There’s no need to be afraid of her. She is very sweet. Here.” A small bag of sugar cubes is deposited into his hand. “Put one on your hand and flatten out your palm. Fingers straight and together. Offer it out to her. Talk to her in the same sort of tone I was using. Introduce yourself to her.”
The lady--the lady knight; Levail sees now her shining cuirass, her intrepid bearing--sallies forth. Her voice is cold and firm, her fury cloaked in consummate righteousness.
Her admonition pierces Levail like an arrow. He cannot recall the last time someone was moved to anger on his behalf.
No, he cannot say, I've never worked with pegasi before. I don't even know how the saddle goes on, and I'm not much better with your ordinary horse.
A thousand times, thank you.
But shame is twisting his throat shut, and the lady knight is on crusade, and it would be a sin to interrupt her.
She strides into the box, gentles the great dire beast with a handful of sweet words. Her hand dives into her pack--a deft, practiced motion--and Miriam whuffs solicitously.
Of course. Sugar cubes, and--and how to use them without having your fingers chewed off.
Levail takes up the little bribe, offers it to Miriam with his hand held out just so.
She takes it with bright-eyed avarice, and the velvet feeling of her mouth on Levail's palm... is really not so terrible.
He bows down to the creature, deeply. "I am Levail," he says, tremulously sweet. It has been strange, introducing himself without his former rank. I am Levail, General Gaddos. The name all by itself feels naked.
Which is ridiculous, because Levail is talking to a horse.
"P-pleased to make your acquaintance, Miss Miriam."
He rises, then--or tries to, but Miriam is chewing on his hair--!
His eyes turn helplessly to the lady knight. Trepidation wells in them--but now, it is just slightly tempered with humor, with the sheer absurdity of this.
His breath curls into anxious laughter. "I am also... pleased to have met you, my lady. You saved me--can you save me from this, as well?"
this curse my whole life; won't let me shake the shadow
Zelkov has many habits remaining from his former profession. Some are more preferable than others - a sharp eye and sensitivity to movement in its periphery is more of a boon than most little habits. He appreciates it, mostly, in moments like this. A man, stranger to him, begins his exit from the market, and Zelkov catches something falling from his bag, or pocket.
It's a sheet of paper, and Zelkov is quick to pick it up to prevent it from being trampled on. He opens his mouth to call to the curly-haired stranger, but stops himself when he sees what's written on the page.
It's a poem. Zelkov can't help himself. He's reading it before he thinks to preserve the poor man's privacy, and quickly finds himself focused on every word.
Simply put, it is amateurish. But the word amateur originates in a word for love, and that love is plain to see on the page. The author paints a metaphor describing a hero, and his fall. There is tragedy, here, in the fall, and in how the point of view still yearns for that hero's touch, or even a simple glance. Regardless of the errors or learning curve the poet has obviously yet to climb, Zelkov can see the emotion clearly.
He can see the passion.
No matter how much he may want to keep this piece of art for himself, he must return it now, and he would love to see the poet's other work - to chat with him of passion and art - it makes his heart beat just a little faster. It pulls the corner of his mouth into a small smile.
He taps into another habit here. Tracking the man he'd seen earlier is no issue for him, but it feels exhilarating to put such a shadowy skill to use in such a mundane way.
“Excuse me,” Zelkov calls when he draws near. “You dropped this earlier. I could not help but read it. I greatly enjoyed it.”
@last-true-knight
Levail trudges toward the boarding-house, half-dazed with the amount that he just spent on bread and cheese. He carries his spoils close to his chest, and vows, with chivalric resolve, to learn well the martial art of haggling.
Just then--born from some unguarded blind spot, a stranger. Faultlessly polite, friendship in his feline eyes, and still, Levail jumps half out of his boots.
He marshals himself. He does not yelp. He keeps hold of his bread and cheese.
He smiles. The stranger--he is... comely, and he speaks with some strange captivating zeal, and...
Levail's dropped something? Drat. A handkerchief? A coin? Levail tears his gaze from the stranger's, spares a glance at his extended hand ohdamn.
Ohdamnandblastandhellfire.
There, suspended guiltily between the stranger's adroit fingers, is a tear-stained scrap of parchment.
There, by some diabolic twist of fate, is Levail's poem.
And it's... it's not like other poems. Other poems have rhythm, and--and word choice, and rhymes that do not cause vague nausea.
Most damning, other poems have knights-and-princesses.
Levail's poem only has knights.
An inhuman sound issues from Levail's open throat, like grinding glass.
A stranger--this comely, comely stranger--has read Levail's poem.
What's worse, he says he liked it.
For a moment, Levail hangs. He could catch flies in his slack mouth.
He marshals himself.
"Y-you did?" he squeaks. His free hand flutters upward, shielding the nape of his neck.
"I... thank you. I've--haha--never shown my poetry to anyone."
His heart shudders. His voice goes low, conspiratorial, and very, very small. "You really liked it?"