Finally feeling like myself, again. Losing my Mom and becoming an orphan has been the single most difficult, terrifying, and depressing thing I've ever experienced. (She was my rock, my mirror, and my biggest fan. She gave the best hugs and was the only person to ever make me laugh til I peed.) Caring for her full time and, ultimately, the process of her death and losing her led me to a place where I wasn't a priority in my life. Hell, I worked full-time, went to school full-time, and took care of her round the clock. As a huge proponent for self-care, a trait my Mom admired in me, I had given that up. It just.... didn't really matter anymore. Flashforwaed to the end of my engagement this last holiday season, I really felt like I'd lost myself along the way.... my Mom would be sad if she realized how unimportant I had begun to feel. To conquer this, I had my cousin cut my hair for me. I literally cried! It felt so good to let go of what was, I felt a sense of freedom and joy I hadn't been experiencing within my grief. I finally back to feel like myself. No one can stop me.
