Laura's verse

Harmless psychedelic poetry

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Deaf

(30 August 2020)

Fly away with wings of steel 

Leave behind my tears to kneel 

For the breeze you leave behind

Save the healing for my mind 

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Dance with clouds and untamed stars 

I will paint around my scars 

While you keep your rhythm steady 

I’ll make sure my chest is ready 

/

When reality will call your name 

Return to me with little shame 

My love is sealed inside my bones 

Our crowns await on our thrones 

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My eyes to you may look the same

But to me they speak in vain 

I now gaze from the inside 

Without fear, without pride

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Take my hand and ask your heart 

Who’s the creator, who’s the art?

Your words bleed colours over me 

But I’m as blank as I can be 

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Begin

(7 August 2020)

I look behind me and I see 

A silent, never ending fight

Chasing me to pick a side 

Never leaving from my sight

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On my left, Heaven resides 

Waiting for me to just dwell

And choose the side I always have 

My curse and my best friend, Hell

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But before me I see you 

A tiny speck upon our land,

A glowing shadow in my heart

A blinding light among the damned

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Suddenly, it’s quiet now

And all I hear is your stare

The end you put to my before 

Is far away from being fair 

/

I look behind me once again 

Saint Peter has forfeited the war

And to my right, a silent nod

Cerberus shall bark no more 

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I move to reach you but I feel 

Another heartbeat in my chest 

Which doesn’t have a border now 

The sight of you is put to rest 

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Panic and despair ensues 

Has the angel left me now? 

But I am flying through the clouds...

My sanity forbid its vow 

/

I was tied to common ground 

Between the stories of the men

You left me without any bound 

I can never be again 

/

You redefined reality 

In the dreams our hearts have told

Time can flow in any way 

I’ll be your new, I’ll be your old

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Surrender?

(20 Iulie 2020)

I was birthed just like you 

On a bed, under the moon 

As the spring’s winds gently blew 

To my crying’s muffled tune 

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But my soul was not yet there 

He was waiting for the call 

For the pain’s uneven stare 

For me to build up my first wall

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And pain was waiting for my fall 

For the second I’ll lay down 

For when I’ll begin to crawl 

And give pain its lovely crown

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I surrendered all I had 

For my soul to come to me 

Never expecting the dread 

That my soul will make me see 

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In a world of rainbow skies 

I could see only the truth 

All the sharp and boiling lies 

Poisoned me through all my youth

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As a slave to carry on 

The burden of what is around 

I did my duty dusk till’ dawn

And I did it with no sound 

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I strayed away from my dark path 

For a moment, to feel love 

And I felt all of the wrath 

By the masters from above

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Banished in the deepest hole 

Hope was nothing but a dream 

I had my dream, I had my soul 

And for the first time I could scream

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Once I blinked, the light was back 

I was free to move again 

My consciousness ready to attack 

My former master, my friend, Pain

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I am the guardian of time 

The wielder of all that is true

Control has become nothing but mine 

From the shackles of the pain

I was born a God anew

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Over

(7 Iulie 2020)

I mean to bleed only the truth 

When I’m blinded by your eyes 

But my veins have been dried out 

By the sky’s venomous lies

So when the sun glows through your gaze 

And I’m ready to shine words 

I create a silky veil 

Peppered with the darkest swords

If your touch is to be safe 

Talk to me during the night 

Lie just with your fingertips 

Turn the world to black and white 

When the morning will strike back 

And slash away all our desires 

Remember that we’re bound by time 

And everything you say expires 

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Moon’s Tides

(3 Iunie 2020)

The shores I tread are without bound

Struck by ever changing tides

Yet my fears make no sound 

Through the sand that it divides 

Drowning felt like paradise 

Under never ending waves 

But that feeling has a price 

That my madness always craves 

Peaceful oceans hold no thrill 

In my world of stormy seas 

Why should I ever hold still 

Or caress the silky breeze?

Water listens to the skies

And I am but a mortal soul 

I walk with no truth and no lies 

Barely keeping my heart whole 

So how could I disturb my fate 

And avoid impending doom 

Maybe it isn’t too late 

To finally call to the moon

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War is silent

(29 Aprilie 2020)

I approach this eerie void 

Blinded by my broken chest 

Ready to erase the world 

That my heartbeat could have blessed

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With hatred in my righteous hand 

And anger where there’s no light left 

I look the voices in their eyes 

And confront them for their theft

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“How dare you steal my very core?

How dare you stop the rhapsodies 

That peacefully flow in my veins 

And sing duets with galaxies ?”

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My voice echoes in the realm 

As light years pass within 

All the stars I used to hide 

In the scars under my skin

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“You’re a fool to ask for war 

Your accusations have no ground 

We were made by your own soul 

To your universe we’re bound

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As long as rage exists in you, 

You know you can’t let it escape 

To hurt the people you so crave 

And erase essence from shape”

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Drops of blood fall from my eyes 

A truce with pain is what skies want 

But the storms won’t bring relief 

And thunder strikes are just a taunt

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Heaven has spoken too much 

It’s time for hell to be more wary

In times of the silent mischief 

Peace is only temporary 

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Nostalgia

(25 Aprilie 2020)

The present is a world so dark 

That our hearts will try to spark 

The past that’s traced with blurry lines 

And fill it with colorful lies 

Extract every drop of love 

Every string of life above 

Any hate this second sings 

To stop you from spreading your wings 

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Weight

(17 Aprilie 2020)

The twinkle in your honest smile 

And silence of your silky skin 

Will never show the world the truth 

About the weight you have within

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Scars that beam from all the wars 

That made your present piercing gaze 

Were sealed by tears of mistrust 

Rooted with the darkest rays

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You grow faster than the pain 

That seems to slow down all the blaze

Fire lives while you still breathe 

You play with it in many ways

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The future of your now tamed flame 

Shines brighter than its painful birth 

And by the time the sun will rise 

You shall see how much you’re worth 

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Far away

(7 Aprilie 2020)

The world around me turned to dreams 

When you shot your words through me

My chest no longer had a seal 

My heart abandoned me at sea 

It swam further than my reach 

Right back to where it belonged 

To sink into your ocean eyes 

Forgetting all that we have wronged 

I didn’t care about our war

The clock is ticking forward now 

Our hearts will beat without our past 

They don’t have to see our vow

The high died down eventually 

With my chest empty but tame 

A happy tear sang to me 

That I will never love the same 

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Fear God

(4 Aprilie 2020)

I am one with sparkling wine 

Poured upon my dying shrine 

As the silence prays to my 

Shouting through the pitch black sky 

The monastery of the living 

Is the void that keeps forgiving 

How drunk I was with my eyes wide 

And my words drowning in pride

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I am one with silence now 

Left it without any vow 

No deity for wailing crows 

No substance to absorb the blows 

Sober in the quiet prayer 

Far away from guilt’s shy stare 

Blind to every broken light 

And my lips ready to fight 

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Confliction

(1 Aprilie 2020)

If I fell down in the past 

Does it mean the grief will last?

It seems as though it stayed the same 

Through the eyes in my domain 

But inside it came and went...

There is not a single scent 

Of weakness that will blaze again 

And explode in flames of pain 

So how come you all come to me 

To bring you love, support and glee 

But at the same time act as though 

I am due for one more blow 

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Prison

(31 Martie 2020)

The world around me turns to light 

When I set my eyes on you 

The sparks dance in my head so fast 

That I can only see what’s true 

No matter what your lips vibrate 

My soul stands straight to your demise 

I can only hear your touch 

And listen to your hurting eyes 

Any road that you will take 

I walked it many miles before 

If you stray away from paths 

I’ll wait for you right at the door 

You can’t escape my endless reign 

So accept this lonely chance 

Let control fly away free 

And just let me lead this dance 

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Hide

(26 Martie 2020)

Did you think you’ll walk away

From the feelings that will stay

Beneath the walls that you will raise 

To protect you from their gaze?

I saw you running wild and free 

To that lonely, barren tree 

That we lived under one night 

Long before we lost the fight

Its shadow will never return 

And the sun will let you burn 

Flames will freeze my heart while yours 

Will be a golden knot of thorns  

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Mirror

(3 Martie 2020)

There’s smoke coming out of all your desires 

Blaze fuming through your gentle pace 

Only a path from the deepest of oceans

Could suit your never ending grace

The wind dances through your thoughts 

With rhythm seen only by skies

Truth be told you’re easy to miss 

For the eyes drowning with lies 

But you’re candid with each of your blinks 

And hidden in your invisible breaths

You live through seconds of light years away 

Reborn from millions of nightly deaths 

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Matter of perspective

(12 Februarie 2020)

I peel away my love for you 

I want you to know it isn’t true 

How your eyes deceive every inch that I have 

How you trim my soul to just a thin thread 

Of what was thunder all through your veins 

Of how we fell under heavy chains 

I’m more than grey skies in the stories you save 

For the times when memories will make you cave 

I’m not the drugs that you left behind 

Not the darkness that kept your eyes blind

Let me be a landscape again 

Green, alive and with heavy rain 

Watering what spring will bring back 

From the winters that made my skin crack 

And flood away with all of my fears 

Waste away all of these years 

Cemented roots of terrors I had 

Are now just stumps buried and dead 

Feeding a power of lightnings beyond 

The mighty ocean in the eyes...of a pond…

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Empire

(5 Februarie 2020)

I live in a world of love and of grief 

Where seconds just pass in years of sin 

Where decades are sworn to be sharp and brief

And reflections are just the shadows you’ve been

A world of light from innocent grins 

Of laughter from night skies hurt by relief 

Winds that flow through all of my skins 

And lies born from the depths of belief

But where there’s an end to all of those shows

And the tremor’s again only a saint 

Know that I rule the end of the rainbows 

As the rest of the world is nothing but paint 

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Departure

(1 Februarie 2020)

I hear the crickets of your mind 

When mine are roaring symphonies 

Nature’s just one of a kind 

In the eyes of wrong epiphanies

I’ll give your tears a safe place 

To drown the sorrows of tonight 

Carving wisdom on your face 

Vibrating through black and white

You’d think my silence is a spear 

Made to kill what’s left of you 

But it’s just a freezing fear 

Of what burning love can do

Protecting spring from all disasters 

Means building a few sturdy dams 

Taking power from the masters 

And giving it to all the lambs